WAS IT WORTH IT ALL?? | EVERYTHING I WANTED | BILLIE EILISH

[@esperanzafarfan5341]

She struggled a lot with depression at a very young age and at award shows, winning Grammys, Oscar’s , Britts ect she always thanks her brother not only for her Success but for keeping her Alive !!!

[@SettonSlaxk]

I actually didn’t know the full story, I knew she struggled but not to this extent. The world needs more Finneases

[@makokuma7881]

+ 1 for the word Finneases 🤪

[@edgarestigarribia]

@@SettonSlaxkactually Billie said that every lyrics she writes or sings is 100% how she feels

[@y2kkql]

​@@SettonSlaxk + She tried committing suicide but her mother stopped her

[@YenellyT]

@@SettonSlaxk Listen to "When we all fall asleep where do we go" album, you can understand how she was mentally growing up, asahe has come so far

[@cagautgacogacoor914]

“They called me weak, like I’m not just somebody’s daughter” wrecks me every time.

[@ashleymaya7967]

That line makes my eyes water every time

[@queenofdragons_1244]

Could someone explain this line? I feel silly asking this but I’m having a hard time getting it. My bad if this is simple. 🫠

[@junipperr2]

@@queenofdragons_1244 Well I mean it is pretty self explanatory but it basically means that people constantly expect something out of someone and when you don't live up to those expectations then you're called, "weak" even though you're human too. (hence the line, "like I'm not just somebody's daughter)

[@silvsevie]

@@queenofdragons_1244 I think it's a I'm just human and also a reminder that she was just 17 year old kid and many loved her but there were also so so many grown ass adults calling her demonic or making fun of her for being an "edgy teen" that makes "cringy edgy teen music" when she just wanted to express herself through her music.

[@lifewithlynn8137]

Billie has dealt with depression and mental illness since she was a young teen, after a bad injury that ended her dancing career she genuinely thought her life was over. Then Finneas asked her to sing Ocean Eyes for him because he felt like his voice didn’t fit it well, and that tossed her into stardom almost overnight. She has spoken about trying to kill herself whilst on tour, one of the few times her and her brother weren’t sharing a hotel room. She has Tourettes which also adds to her troubles because she tries to keep it hidden while on stage, she isn’t physically strong due to her dance injury so she’s prone to breaking her ankles and pulling tendons in her calves. She’s had so many issues and Finneas has always been there, he is her favourite person. He once said at an award ceremony that people often say that he’s ’more than Billie Eilish’s brother’ but he wanted to set the record straight that all he ever wanted to be was Billie Eilish’s brother. Also I think you’d like the song and music video ‘Xanny’.

[@mackenziepattison1464]

This makes me so emotional! She is incredible, and so is he!

[@sweet_tea77]

The “so I stepped off the golden” is referring to her jumping off of thr Golden Gate Bridge in a dream. Don’t know if you guys picked up on that but something deep to note

[@Ghxstyii]

and the idea "everything i wanted" was her death i think

[@AllTheArtsy]

@@Ghxstyii yes, since she's suicidal, getting everything she wants is for her to succeed in killing herself. which is why she says "not what you'd think" because people might think she's talking about fame or success or something like that (eta: yup the guy in the right thought exactly that lol)

[@AJeyTrunec]

this!

[@trinityphar7382]

@@Ghxstyii i hate how i only just figured that out, it makes the song that much more powerful

[@Ghxstyii]

@@trinityphar7382 right?? because the way she said “but when i wake up i see, you with me.” originally, she wanted to make this song like listen before i go, but finneas wanted to add those parts where he spoke to her. (i think). so it makes it more 🙁

[@MsAmberAnne]

I’m not sure that you fully get the story. She dreamed that she killed herself (jumped off the Golden Gate Bridge) and no one screamed, they didn’t even notice, and they didn’t even care. They simply called her weak. But, when she woke from the dream, her brother was there and he told her as long as he was there, no one would hurt her. He wished he could change the way that she saw herself, and tells her that they don’t deserve her.

[@carcrazynik]

Fun fact, that's Billie's car in the video. She was obsessed with dodge challengers so once she got some money, she got one.

[@INOBOEDENTIA]

Wasn't it her 18th birthday gift ? 🤔

[@assasina6034]

Fun fact, thats the same model, but not exactly her car

[@Jsv_1021O4]

​@@assasina6034exactly, I think she has one that is an SRT hellcat now But I remember when she got that first calendar I'm pretty sure it was like a RT but it was still pretty sick😂

[@ixbella_]

she got it for her 17th birthday gift!

[@miaskys1410]

in the first verse she says “i got everything i wanted, not what you think” because the dream was her stepping off the golden gate bridge, hence what she wants is death. very sad idk if you guys caught it! this song is one of my faves by her but i also love male fantasy & tv!! and more fun songs therefore i am & lost cause! :)

[@gnat1731]

billie said that she is a huge tøp fan and they’re a huge inspiration for her so i think that’s awesome

[@tarshnottrash1483]

There’s footage of her at a top concert somewhere

[@K1NGD0M]

Therefore I Am or No Time To Die next, loving this journey!

[@Kiertiana]

Commenting to agree with your suggestions! I think they definitely should listen to those two as well!

[@_rxqueen_]

Yesss, definitely no time to die

[@cagautgacogacoor914]

No time to die live from the Brit’s!

[@Anxious_introvert90]

I was in tears the first time I heard this. It’s been a while since I’ve heard it again but me eyes are filling with tears again.

[@Billie_irishEdits]

I listen to this nearly everyday ( and all of her songs) and I still have the same feeling

[@carafreeman2790]

What I love about this song is it’s her talking about how she’s really struggling but Finneas is always there for her and during the chorus that’s basically his words that he’s saying to her and you can actually hear him on the backing vocals in the background.

[@irrbis3243]

what's amazing about this video is that everything in the background is synced with the music. like the reflection of the lights on the windshield 1:55, or literally trees in the background that pop up to the beat

[@kiwiparfaits]

yes! its such a well thought out and executed video

[@DjinnRummy]

She also blinks on beat

[@rytova_ar]

Finneas has an amazing song "I Lost a Friend"

[@Kiertiana]

Yes!! I love that song! I second that suggestion!!

[@hannahukki]

omg yes and "Break My Heart Again"

[@rytova_ar]

@@hannahukki yes!!!

[@whitenailsnguitars]

Aint that effect on her voice for "but my head was underwater" cool? Thanks for another Billie upload. Love to you both

[@robertrushing9990]

When she says " jump off the Golden". The Golden Gate Bridge is in the background! Notice how the trees teliphone poles and street lights are all passing the car in time with the music!! Her attention to detail is incredible. Another reason she directs her own videos!

[@theadhdstitcher]

“And it feels like yesterday was a year ago” That’s the line where I felt fully seen in my depression for the first time. I was in a really dark place when I first heard this song and it helped me better explain how I was feeling to my husband. I bawled the first time I saw this video. ❤

[@jorraw]

Keep reacting to Billie. "Listen before i go" is a very emotional song. Recommend you to react to that one too.

[@janavolk5834]

Her doing this one live at Steve Jobs theatre is unreal and raw emotionally.

[@BunnySuitSmp]

Her voice in this song is amazing!!

[@thisis.diegoramirez]

my favorite song of hers

[@Emily-Oz389]

Tv and the 30th please! Such amazingly written and emotional songs. Love this journey! Amazing reacts

[@lunagudat5797]

She always directs her own mv btw and love that youre still reacting

[@NoneeStarseed]

Having a brother 10 years older than me is the most beautiful thing. He loves me just because I exist no matter how old we are - we both wenth through abuse but our bond is unbreakable. I feel this song in my heart and bones.

[@shhaniia]

Billie's voice is just beyond amazing, anytime I hear it, it makes me tear up but IN A GOOD WAY. Can't wait to see you both react to more of her and Melanie!!

[@tykroner1133]

WOO! Been asking for this song since the first Billie song - love your reactions 🤙🤙

[@brezengirl]

Please more of that fantastic singer? I love her soft voice and the feelings she puts into every Song. This one makes me cry, so sad and beautiful.

[@jewelz4217]

This song hits me differently than any of her other music. My best friend has saved me so many times and grounded me when i went throught a lot of suicidal tendencies.. he saved me over and over. "But when i wake up i see you with me. And you say as long as im here no one can hurt you. Dont have to lie here but you can learn to. If i could change the way that you see yourself. You wouldnt wonder why you hear they dont deserve you."

[@meghangerhart643]

I’m glad you’re still here and that you have someone to help you in those darkest of times. ❤

[@jewelz4217]

@@meghangerhart643 thank you 🫶🏻

[@hannahukki]

i think you guys should definitely listen to, Everybody Dies, Your Power, xanny, The 30th, TV, i love you, and No Time To Die. I know i listed a lot but those are all amazing songs with amazing lyrics.

[@vp4744]

That's her dream car, and this track went on to win the record of the year Grammy. The siblings were in an interview arguing who among them is a better driver? I said Finneas because the last time I saw Billie drive, she drove straight into the Pacific Ocean.

[@horrorqueen-ze9tm]

More Billie please!! "Your power" is amazing

[@gilapotter8853]

thank you guys! I want all the billie songs, past ones and the future ones :)

[@adrianquinteros9923]

Great lyrics, great vocals, an amazing tune… she’s kinda of genius

[@julialeslie692]

Ngl, "And it feels like yesterday was a year ago, but I don't wanna let anybody know. Cause everybody wants something from me now, and I don't wanna let 'em down" absolutely DESTROYED me in grad school. It resonated and hurt so much...such a great line

[@hittnau5]

I love watching your journey ❤ this song is absolutely devastating but when I was at her show and she sang this it was such a beautiful collective moment. She dedicated this song to Finneas and when the chorus came up on the screens they put live footage from the fans. It was kind of healing everyone together, I get chocked up just thinking about it.

[@Randvii17]

this is my fav Billie song that I dont ever really listen to bc I cry everytime 😭😭🖤

[@Spunky62]

She is SOOO talented! 🤗✌️🫶🫂

[@phoebesz]

General gist of the song: She wrote it for Finneas. It’s all about how with her depression and everything he’s always been there to talk her down and be her rock. The first line about stepping off the golden relates to jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge. Billie deals with sleep paralysis, she actually had an episode where she jumped off the bridge

[@JoRiceRenegade4Eva]

So happy to see you react to this one, thank you to who requested. This one is in my top 5 from Billie, brilliant production & video.

[@HalfShelli]

You might like "NDA", which she considers her darkest song. Also, once again, the video has practical effects that will give you an aneurysm!

[@AmberNicole1121]

She honestly struggled with depression, cutting herself, thoughts of suicide, all kinds of things in the beginning of her Fame and that is actually what this song is about. Music brought her out of that and despite what people say about her, she continues to remain herself and be herself and her brother is there for her all the time. But yeah she did struggle with self-harm. She has body dysmorphia and a lot of other things that she very rarely talks about, including she had a p*** addiction. But anyway, great take on the video. Love it! Can't wait to see more. Billie Eilish is one of those artists that never lets you down no matter what song you listen to, you can relate to it in some way and apply it to your own life in some way and that is why her music touches so many people by the way, her new album drops on May 17th. Check out the song lunch It is definitely Billie at her core She even said in an apple music interview this would be the album that people would tell you to write but never release and that's what she did and now she's releasing it despite what people may think

[@gigatoob]

My favorite song of theirs. another Grammy winning one-off song not on an album release just as 'No Time To Die' and 'What Was I made For' were. I like how the video is synched to the beginning beat. I have an entire playlist of fan remixes of the song, many are excellent. Challenger was her dream car but I read she has an electric Porsche now. Go Billie! be safe. Thanks again guys, great job!!

[@Kelly30stm]

I've been waiting for this one. This is my favorite by her. The song and the video are so powerful.

[@horsehollerer]

Loving your Billie journey, thanks! I'd recommend "Xanny" and "Hostage" music vids, but also you gotta see her stripped down live vocals some time. I recommend their acoustic cover of Michael Jackson's "Bad" for Like a Version, or "The End of The World" for BBC Piano Sessions. Also, her live performance of Peggy Lee's "Fever" with the Count Basie Orchestra is something else. Cheers!

[@moon.chaser]

I knew this would become my favorite billie song just for hearing the first few seconds for the first time

[@innerscapearts]

This song is impossibly beautiful. My favorite Billie song by a mile. The muffled kick drum is so compelling and her voice is just mesmerizing of course. The lyricism and melodic choices...just everything.

[@sherryfrench9003]

Been loving the Journey. Hostage is one of my favs and would love to see a reaction. I think it's one of her most underrated songs.

[@lindseyanne316]

I am so glad you guys are going through this journey! I, like Eric, did not pay much attention to her and regret that I haven’t! Love this! Great reaction guys!

[@lillihartman9802]

The " so I stepped off the golden" lyric is referring to a dream she had where she jumped off the golden gate Bridge she struggled a lot with depression and self harm etc at a young age

[@gizellefuentes1195]

Loving this Billie Elish journey! So glad you guys are enjoying it ❤

[@kyliemason2726]

I am a HUGE fan of Billie Eilish and I love watching people react to her. Found you guys, binge watched every single Billie reaction so far and subscribed. I love your take on her artistry. You should check out some of her early live performances, copy cat acoustic, her cover of Bad - Michael Jackson, there are just so many amazing videos out there of her, behind the scenes, videos of her just being her and her documentary, I never get tired of watching anything Billie Eilish, a true artist in every sence of the word. I'm loving going on this Billie journey with you guys ❤

[@pennyinaz]

Another example of the way that Billie and Finneas are old souls who have the ability to write so brilliantly that their work is relatable to a sixteen year old and a fifty seven year old. I love this family so much.💞

[@jeremydobbs6882]

My reaction yet. There is something beautiful about seeing two brothers experience this song together

[@indulgence42]

Has to be one of my favorite song of hers.

[@kristywalker169]

This song makes me cry every single time I hear it

[@Pilutta100]

Loved this reaction. I love this song, and the video. Some reactions to this are very strange, like multiple ppl don't understand what she's singing. As per usual hugs from 🇸🇪

[@graciellarowlison6667]

We sung this in choir my junior year of high school for suicide prevention month when we finished the song we all got off the bleachers and hugged each other Billie connects us in ways we will never know

[@timothydeneen5389]

I love Billie!!!! I’ve also struggled with mental health for a long time and her music helps even though it’s depressing because it helps me know that I’m not alone. Though some of her music is “depressing” it’s still so meaningful and helpful. She’s helped me through I lot and I love her

[@Quinntel1028]

You should totally listen to party favor next! It’s one of my favorites, it’s really deep and the lyrics get me

[@chellosinspired08]

Listen before I go is a need to listen to ur will wreck your day

[@actuaIIystfu]

The song is based on a dream she had about jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge and nobody cared and so Finneas and Billie wrote this song about their relationship it makes me cry every time 😭

[@Alis_Who]

Artists I think you’d enjoy! KARD (coed Kpop group) -Dumb Litty -Red Moon -Gunshot Fouzia (Moroccan-Canadian artist) -Fur Elise (live performance) -Bad Dreams (stripped) -Desert Rose (live performance) -Tears of Gold (stripped)

[@franciscacuevas6010]

one of my favs songs of her

[@Compliantbark34]

A group called Convictions covered this song and it’s far and away my favorite version of it

[@WonderfulPistachioz]

I'm glad you mentioned this. I agree completely!

[@KittyYashiros]

PLEASEE REACT TO “Listen before I go” By Billie. It’s very deep and it can help you understand more.

[@andreamasias28]

I love you has so much emotion you can feel it

[@jacks_valdes]

this song, to this day, still makes me cry

[@kellyg5313]

Thank you for reacting to her old music. It is so great reliving these feelings with new fans ❤❤

[@rlhubert]

I love to hear both of your perspectives and interpretations of Billie’s music❤

[@fullmetalheichou4336]

Happy you finally reacted tot his and that you liked ot so much, it is one of my all time favorites by her.

[@jessielaura8367]

this song is perfect, my favorite song of hers forever

[@staceysmith4868]

You two always give us such intelligent and articulate reactions, and that you love Billie and Phineas as much as we do makes everything even more intense. Thank you!!!

[@Indigo_Garner23]

Wish you were gay is another really good song of hers. It's dynamic because it changes but stays the same throughout the words change but meaning behind it stays the same. It's also my fav song of her when we all Fall asleep where do we go, album.

[@andreamasias28]

No time to die will give you chills every time

[@nessa09960]

the guy that’s with her in the car is her brother Finneas.

[@Vessellove77]

My number one Billie song hands down

[@tamironga]

Yeas please more Billie!!! No time to die next please❤❤

[@PersephoneCulbreth]

Billie deserves the world, but the world doesn’t deserve her.

[@katiegerman524]

I love this song so much! You guys should definitely do No Time to Die

[@estefanniarias5608]

U should listen "Listen before i go", its sooo good and heartbreaking

[@SM-fz3et]

So glad you made it to this one!!

[@ezzie-w8o]

I love your reactions! Specially the Billie Eilish and Melanie Martínez Ones. I hope y’all continue reacting to these!

[@destiny8794]

I love you all reacting to her,

[@dash_inthedark6110]

By the way her new Album is coming out may 17th. Hope you two react. There's no singles she is releasing it all at once (probably will get mv after ofc, she has recorded some). Also her tour is for sale now. idk if you like live shows but I highly recommend her live she is an incredible live performer and she will sing some of this hits you already heard along side the new album

[@dreamcatcherr27]

this song in my heart

[@CharbelNasrallah15]

Thank you for that! I would really like you to check "Your power"

[@SnoopySteve]

There is no one like Billie and Finneas. I look forward to you guys doing her videos more than any others you do. I love the channel guys. Keep it up.

[@ll123-b1h]

Thanks for doing more Billie 😍😍😍 makes my day!!

[@makviktory4141]

I wept the 1st time I watched this. So good.

[@kotn3l]

I vote TV and The 30th next! Please do them together as they were released as an EP, and they're both very sad songs.

[@suuperlonely]

Thanks for the reaction guys! You should react to "idontwannabeyouanymore" "no time to die" and "xanny" are one of my favorites from Billie and I think you're really going to like them♥️

[@King-Of-The-Demons]

The song is actually about her struggles with mental health and su!c!de and how her brother helped her get through that. For more Billie songs I recommend My Future, The 30th, idontwannabeyouanymore, My Strange Addiction, Xanny and Wish You Were Gay.

[@KrazyRys]

My husband's favorite is Oxytocin. It's definitely a club hit but lyrically delicious as well.

[@James1120]

Her vocal control is insane.

[@ryishighh]

praying this gets 1k likes im always waiting for you guys to post billie reactions.

[@whitenailsnguitars]

If you're a big fan of this one, check out her singing it live. She changes how she sings some parts and it's enchanting haha

[@MrsApplegateart]

I am on the similar journey …. Just started listening to her myself. She’s amazing. I knew her on the periphery, but I had no idea that she was everything that awards and the accolades said she was. I’m excited for her new album, which is being released on 5/17. I know she’s going to be exploring her growth as an artist and a person, realizing & recognizing/acknowledging her (bi)-sexuality with the track called Lunch & she just directed her video for it. She directs all her videos, now, I think. My hope is that the album is seen for more than a coming out …. I hope her work continues to display growth and artistry and she continues to create amazing projects. Lunch already has a video done…. And she directs her own videos so this should be interesting. but more towards growth as a person and an artist and discovering themselves as a young person. She only 22.

[@BurntBurrito111]

The tiny desk version is amazing

[@petraihnatova5209]

You should totally do “No Time to Die” next. I think you’ll really enjoy that one 🎉

[@shadowlodie3971]

Really my favorite song... f*ing sad, but amazing. Recommend TV as well and would love, if you could watch Finneas stuff like Break my heart again or Lost a friend 😊

[@KaySP06]

I think you guys should look a little bit into the back story of this song (and what "I got everything I wanted" really means), and then go back and listen (on your own or on the channel) to Listen Before I Go. It's an older song and hearing both of them gives a picture of her depression over time. I'm a lot older than Billie is, and hearing an artist as young as she is actually write about these topics, knowing her fans her age are also struggling with similar issues, is incredible. I wish there was more of that when I was her age.

[@Barnaacle]

defiantly check out finneas he's got some amazing songs like broke my heart twice and only a lifetime