WE NEED TO TALK ABOUT BODY IMAGE & DIETING...

One of the hardest videos I've ever made - but hopefully this maybe helps some of you out there who have struggled with the same issues.
Thank you for listening and allowing me to speak honestly.
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[@shellyweber3387]

As a therapist who has worked years with people struggling with disordered eating, please know that you have taken a brave and courageous step in making this video. You are enough!

[@jenluv]

I'm so so sorry that you've been going through this. Thank you for being so brave to share your story. You are an incredible person and I'm so glad you are on that journey to fully loving your beautiful self!

[@michellek6311]

Jen, you are one of the most positive KZbinrs out there and really try to lift other people up and never have a bad thing to say. Thank you for being such a positive role model. We need more women like you helping other women thru hard times!

[@nikkiajoy]

Thank you so much Jen🙏🏼🥺this means so much to me. We are all so lucky to have you here on KZbin and I hope one day that we get to spend some time together in person❤️❤️❤️

[@naturalPaths]

I just can’t say it better than Jen. What Jen said. You are brave and beautiful. And please, be gentle with yourself. ❤️

[@MultiScrappydo]

I have to ditto what Jen said too, another woman who is as real as they come. I too am so glad you are here!❤😍💖

[@WalkingCanvasofRose]

I feel like you were talking straight to me when I watched this video. I have struggled with my weight for a long time...and I have yoyo dieted pretty much since I was 15. I am now 41 and still don't know how to eat. Thank you for this...thank you for being genuine...You are an incredible person.

[@beatrixsalim4697]

who’s in quarantine and having thoughts like “wow i’m so fat/bloated” “my cheeks are so chubby” basically all my insecurities and body images that definitely aren’t good for my mental and physical health ☹️😪

[@haleyboston]

Denise Vasquez Lemrick cool. It's good that you're confident.

[@StephAnie-yv9gt]

Beatrix Salim Right there with ya,Gurl! Don't even get me started! 🌼

[@opaldawn]

Me 😥

[@dianadodd1985]

Yep, That's me too. Hating everything about myself.

[@preciousdado5113]

Dont worry Beatrix, at this time of pandemic we just have to focus on surviving, we dont need to achieve anything at this point! I am with you I gotten so much lbs for sure. Things will get better! Its ok to do whatever u like at this time.

[@amedinarodriguez]

I always thought you were one of the most beautiful women I had ever seen, with your gorgeous blue eyes, long dark hair, and statuesque figure. I was very impressed that in addition to being a talented artist, you worked in the health field, helping others. I always come back to watch your videos because despite being so beautiful you were very humble and relatable and you talked about the texture and oily skin type that is do similar to mine. I've learned so many tricks that I still use to this day. I have truly been shocked to learn about your struggle with this disorder and that once again you show us your human and vulnerable side. I am so proud of you because today you have positively impacted so many people who are going through a similar situation, including me. It is great to know that your inner beauty matches your fsical one. I think this journey will be much more bearable because now you have all of us supporting you as we have you 💝. Thanks for sharing your story, thanks for being who you are, simply awesome¡ I send you a big hug from Puerto Rico 🌴, here you will have a friend and follower for life. xoxo

[@sanoakley]

Very nicely written, thank you

[@janelle009]

Well put. I agree 💜💜

[@Kree.B.]

I hate that you've felt that way. I hate that I know what that feels like. I hate that anyone has felt this way. Thank you for having the courage to be so open & speak up on this. It's so important to hear. Especially to hear it from someone who is beautiful, smart, kind & has influence. Bless you & your journey.

[@Patti-1962]

Nikkia, there are so many of us that are or have been in your situation. The "Hollywood" view of what a "beautiful" woman's body should be is NOT attainable for the majority of women. I'm under five feet tall and have always struggled with my weight. I now have an autoimmune disease where I must take steroids daily to literally keep myself alive. My body has transformed before my eyes into someone I hardly recognize. The only thing that has helped me is getting older and becoming a grandmother. Demi Levato is a perfect example of someone who has starved herself for years, finally trying to accept her the way her body shape was supposed to be. Just know how gorgeous you are, Nikkia, inside and out. You are NOT a number on a scale or a tape measure. You are a bright light on KZbin and your videos always brighten my days. Mad love to you and sending you hope for a a future of self love.❤❤❤❤

[@nikkiajoy]

Thank you so much for sharing your story Patti! I am so happy to hear that becoming a grandmother has helped you heal. It's a long journey and I am glad to be making the right steps to being healthy again. Sending you so much love!!! xxx

[@Patti-1962]

@@nikkiajoy Expecting grandbaby #5!😱

[@CowGirlKat8691]

I am with you on this! I was rearended standing still by a woman driving 55 MPH & before that day was a step aerobics instructor. It completely trashed that career & that body I had worked so hard to create. I was able to start walking but I have a permanent limp in my right leg. Then, I had to have an emergency hysterectomy in 2007 & I went into menopause INSTANTLY! I gained weight like crazy, & I also have an auto immune too. My eyelashes & eyebrows fell OUT! My skin went nuts, not with acne [I've never had any] but with splotchy-ness & started to look like 10 miles of bad road. This texture came out of NO WHERE! I am still trying to figure my foundation & such. It's not been fun but people like Nikkia make it livable as I can watch them put on their makeup & pretend that I have flawless skin & $100's of dollars of makeup like they do. [I can afford drugstore & MAYBE a good sell once in a while] I have $25 a month to spend I try to do it wisely. I know that I'm not as you said, a number on a scale or a pant size, but I am loved & that's good enough for me.

[@Patti-1962]

@@CowGirlKat8691 Oh I am just so sorry to hear about your accident. Just remember that the people who truly love you don't care about how you look. RawBeautyKristi did a video about how she believes people are so much more interested in who you are as a person. Her mother died when she was younger, and she talks about how much people mention how wonderful and special she was.... but NEVER what she looked like. This is such a difficult time to be a woman because of the unrealistic expectations we think people have (because of the "celebrity" women who are having so many procedures done to have the "perfect" body. I'm sending you encouraging thoughts and I truly hope you don't have chronic pain.❤

[@ironrose01]

Oh my god. I am in tears. I want to hug you so much. The older I get the more I understand the body image and confidence doesn't come in a mirror, or a size and certainly not a scale. My mom was on those pills back in the 70s when they were legal in the states. They're so awful and yet I totally understand still wanting them. My heart hurts for you sweetheart. You are brave for opening up and I hope this gives you healing to talk about it. And never forget, we all do things we know are bad for us even when we know the right thing to do. It's illogical but it's human. -hugs- You're not alone hon.

[@nikkiajoy]

I feel your hugs. I really do🥺Thank you so much for this comment, it helps so much xxx

[@ironrose01]

@@nikkiajoy Of course. It is so hard to do what you're doing when you feel alone and I want you to know you are not alone. You are brave to talk so candidly about something so personal. I am so proud of you for taking this first step and am routing for you all the way!

[@himynameis3102]

“You don’t need to be skinny to be happy” SAY IT LOUDER FOR THE PEOPLE IN THE BACK! 🙌🏼 Edit: Thank you so much for sharing your story Nikkia

[@sunnynova6]

also you dont need to be fat to be happy

[@ryanmae808]

I think every woman has struggled with this at some point in their lives; I commend you for sharing. Omg Nikkia! Every time I watch your videos I think how gorgeous this Aussie goddess is, I swear 🤚🏽 as we all grow older the way you look... it just becomes less and less important. It’s about the content of your character, your heart ♥️ exercising kindness, connecting with people and treating each day as a new opportunity to be all these things. And I see YOU and you are all these things and so lovely and positive.

[@parmis1595]

I'm 20 and have been struggling with body image since I was 11 and this video made me so emotional. I just deleted my ig the other day because of the terrible impact it had on me mentally. Thank you so much for sharing Nikkia 🥺❤️ stay strong and blessed 🙏🏻

[@amydearing9866]

Over the past year, I've been trying to practice Body Neutrality. Where in you don't let your weight, size, diet, or body shape control your self-confidence, self-esteem or happiness. You live your life without your weight being a factor for who you are.

[@marnilane6124]

Amy Dearing , where can I find out more about this? I’d love to learn more about this.

[@nikkiajoy]

I would so love to be where you are Amy! And I’m so proud of you for doing this. Sending all my love❤️❤️❤️

[@cathyb214]

👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 Weight has no moral value! We are taught that it does because our self-hatred makes money for other people. It’s not about going from hating our bodies to loving them - it’s about recognizing that our bodies have value because they are part of who we are. One thing that has helped me is feeling grateful for what my body does for me. I have flabby arms, but these arms give the best hugs to the people I love. I’ve got a big bum but it keeps me comfortable while I’m sitting all day at work. I certainly have never had a thigh gap, but my legs have carried me across the country and across graduation stages and around the park to walk my dog. I have lines around my eyes but these lines can communicate joy. My body tells my story; that’s what makes it so beautiful.

[@amydearing9866]

Marni Lane jameela jamil has a movement called “I weigh” and has a podcast by same name that is all about Body Neutrality. It was her Twitter account that really got the ball rolling for me.

[@marnilane6124]

Amy Dearing , thank you so much

[@natashaquarisa8779]

In over 10 years of watching KZbin, I’ve never commented on any videos. However, after watching this I couldn’t stop myself. You are so brave and courageous for sharing this. Thank you for your vulnerability. Its never easy to share and open up, especially on a platform like this. But, you have done it so eloquently. I wish you all the best on your journey to loving yourself. You deserve it and more.

[@joannewang86]

It broke my heart when you said, "I'm a medical professional, I should know better." No, don't forget that eating disorders are psychological/anxiety disorders first and foremost, though triggered by and leaving physical consequences. Sadly, even though not everyone reaches the clinical level (diagnosable eating disorder), it is so common due to societal pressure for the average person to engage in disordered eating habits. Plus no matter how much you know, it's really difficult to combat how you feel and how you perceive yourself, not to mention the pressures you have felt since you were young and you've been doing it for so long.

[@trsf_]

what kind of medical professional is she? is she a doctor?

[@MindyBeee]

@@trsf_ Nurse I think

[@emmaleechase613]

Healthcare staff with issues are stigmatized by their peers. The struggle is real.

[@prachi6802]

Therefore ppl should not think of lossing weight for looks. The first reason for any weight loss and weight gain should always be for improvement of health. Only then will ppl not get pressured and gain or loose weight for their own benefit

[@sarika444]

Paramedic Nurse

[@jbuggy67]

As a pharmacy technician here in the States, it saddens me to see how much phentermine we dispense because doctors so readily prescribe it. I have patients who have been on it for years and I see no difference in their weight. I have to admit that I have had several times that I have been tempted to ask for a prescription for it and then I have to remind myself that the effects wear off over time and that it comes down to nutrition and exercise. I still weigh more than I would like and my body is telling me about it, but I know what I need to do. My issue is finding the motivation. Love to you, Sweetie. You are around the same age as my oldest daughter and it hurts to see you hurting so much. Listen to Brandon. He sounds like a good man. Know that your peeps have got your back and love you!

[@beautybyralu]

Such a beautiful comment 💕

[@kristinaprystay3574]

Seeing you cry ruined me 😭 you're the most gorgeous woman I've ever seen and I admire you so so much. Thank you for being vulnerable 💜 I luuv youuu

[@sweetiepeachphotography5834]

"You is kind, you is smart, you is important" and i'll add,.... " You is beautiful, you is loved, you is strong, you is funny, and... you is BRAVE! I love you Nikkia. I look forward to your videos every week, because you bring such light into my day. Even this video brought light into my life. You have a gift my dear, of spreading sunshine even when you are crying and sad. Hang in there. You are loved way more than you realize, and you CAN do hard things. *Kisses and hugs*

[@martieo]

How utterly beautiful

[@user-pc5zy2ig8z]

😭💗

[@nathaliejiron4609]

Such a freaking sweet and awesome comment! This comment should have a million likes! 😊... and I totally agree with you.

[@gurple9319]

The help!!😊😍

[@whitneyhuskins3677]

I love that book (and movie) and such a sweet comment. ❤❤❤❤

[@whoathatsanicememe3093]

I learned a lesson a few years ago when I had a "perfect" friend who was beautiful and thin and just seemed to have it all... Of course she didn't and she in fact later told me she was insanely jealous of how easy I was on myself.. When I told her I felt the same way about her we just laughed and cried and I found out that day that holding yourself up to anyone else doesn't work.. Thanks for sharing your story. You are amazing and perfect just the way you are.

[@hearthomemade]

Of all the KZbin videos I’ve ever watched, this is the most useful and certainly the most life-changing. Thank you for choosing to be raw and taking the risk of honesty to change things for the rest of us. I, and I’m sure many others, will be praying for your journey and the journey of all of those who are touched by your message. ❤️❤️

[@susankatz5725]

Omg. You are so beautiful and so brave! It took so much courage to share your journey. You are amazing!!!

[@camcat26]

"I should be smarter than this." That phrase was something that made it even harder to tell someone that I was struggling with my weight and body image in college. I'll tell my story when I'm ready. Thank you for sharing your struggles. Someone else feels less alone because your story is out there. Please, please, see a registered dietician (or whatever the Australian equivalent is) and a licensed therapist. I see you and support your recovery efforts

[@sorpy6972]

Don’t be ASHAMED love ❤️... I haven’t said this but as a nurse I lost my license due to abusing opioids 😔 and diverting. I’m an Addict 😢... sending many prayers

[@nikkiajoy]

Thank you so much for being honest and opening up🙏🏼😢sending you all my love and support xxx

[@amandawright9790]

Opioids is so easy to get addicted to I been down that road its def a struggle everyday sending good vibes your way

[@sorpy6972]

Nikkia Joy I began balling 😭 whe.n You said why I HATE myself so much. Ya why I hurt so much to have become an addict 😔 oh GOD help me !!

[@sorpy6972]

Amanda Wright sending much love 💕

[@michellevickers551]

Sorpy 69, my thoughts and prayers are with u!! Never give up, never surrender!!

[@daniellecox6534]

It’s crazy how you’re telling me “you don’t need to look like a VS model.” And my brain immediately said, “well you might not need to, but I do.” I need to burn this into my brain, Thank you for making this video ❤️

[@busisiweblessedcele5634]

You are Gold Nikkia. You'll be alright. I am a size 14 pretty and confident

[@vennixvercia398]

my heart hurts seeing you cry. you’re the most beautiful person ever. and i’ll be praying for you and supporting you from far away even though you don’t know me. you’re strong and i believe in you ❤️

[@dianeayres5761]

I’ve had eating disorders from starving to over eating since my teens as well, to the point I almost killed myself by not taking important meds that I needed because I gained so much weight that i hated myself. I’m in the medical field as well but even though I knew the ramifications I did it anyway because of the depression that ate at me daily. I hear you lady. I hope that you can take comfort in all of us who support you and send our love and prayers for your recovery. My recovery is slow going but. Starting because I wound up in the hospital from March 9-21 of this year and being out of work now for almost two months. And am only now have the stamina to try to go back. You are not alone. Sending lots of love and good vibe across the world to you.

[@njnoise920]

Using a beauty sponge to dab at tears is such a mood for me right now😷😭

[@misssmisssymaria]

Ninfa Neuser A true queen. 👑

[@ashleyruiz718]

When you said your size pants/top, girl. You are built like me. I can relate to body issues. I used to be bulimic and only stopped because I read your stomach acid could rot away your teeth over time. I couldn't do it anymore. I cried hearing your story, my heart goes out to you in your recovery. Breaking those thought patterns are hard. Good luck!!

[@nikkiajoy]

Thanks so much Ashley. I am sorry to hear that you struggled with Bulimia but also so happy to hear that you have beaten it. Wishing you all the luck too - I think if more people talk about this and it's not treated like a dirty little secret anymore then hopefully we will all heal together xxx

[@ashleyruiz718]

@@nikkiajoy I agree!

[@monie28]

What were her sizes? I missed that part

[@ashleyruiz718]

@@monie28 she said like a 10/12 pant and 8 shirt

[@chinkle4u]

You have always been one of my favorites on KZbin. You talked about having oily skin, enlarged pores, hooded eyes and all these other things that I dealt with myself. When I watched your videos, I thought okay...she’s my kind of gal, as beautiful as you are if you can deal with these issues that someone like me does, maybe I’m not so different from everyone else. I’m so incredibly honored that you shared this vulnerable side of yourself, the courage that took blows my mind. I’m a 42 year old with a 15 year old daughter and I made sure that she watched it because she also needs to know that it’s okay that she feels different and has internal struggles. Thank you, thank you from the bottom of my heart and my daughters for opening up....you will forever be in our hearts. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL, YOU ARE ENOUGH, YOU are absolutely perfect just the way you are. ❤️

[@karenfowler1121]

I really appreciate you being real. My journey with my weight started in my preteen years. Every diet known to man, shots, pills...the list goes on and on. Having 3 kids in 4 years by age 21 didn't help matters. At my largest I was about 325 and a size 24/26. It has taken me about 15 years to get to a size 16. I'm not sure of my weight because I tend to sabotage myself. I am learning how to eat better. I still struggle with exercise. I constantly battle myself with the voices in my head. My wife fell in love with me at a size 22. I am still very self conscious of all the loose skin from losing so much weight. But I can look in the mirror now and feel pretty most days. Working towards seeing the 'beautiful' woman that my wife sees. Reach out to us anytime. We are here for you. In our thoughts and prayers. Love you!!

[@TheMakeupChair]

Thank you for sharing your story Nikkia, You are beautiful inside and out, you are talented, well spoken, creative and kind. You didn't need to do this video but you did this to help others. What an amazing human! 💕💕

[@Meea94]

This made me cry so much. I’ve felt this exact way for sooo long, telling myself that I’m fat, etc, looking at my arms and thinking that they are HUGE. Thank you for talking about this, it made me feel a little bit less lonely. You are amazing.

[@Rachael813]

One of the biggest hindrances in my ED recovery was my scale. Have Brandon hide yours. We know what food our body needs. That scale just taunts us as we heal. Love you so so much. Very proud of you for sharing this. P.s. I was 5 when I first decided to check the sugar content in my food. I totally get how this can be a lifelong battle.

[@jennajune2101]

Very great advice. I haven’t allowed a scale in my home for over a decade. It has helped a lot.

[@MinkPink11]

I’ve learnt so much from this video! I have a 10 year old daughter and I would hate to influence her with my fad diets I unintentionally do because of my stupid 5 kilos as well. I needed a wake up call and this was it! You are so beautiful inside and out! Thank you! I’m sure u have helped so many with this video! You’re on the right track! You’ve got this! And great idea with wiping tears with the beauty blender! Genius!! xx

[@tammyiswicked]

Lilaaa My mother has been on a diet an restricted calories for her whole life. She has two sets of scales because she gets different readings. My sister and I have struggled with our weight our whole lives and have been heavily influenced by her body issues. I’m glad you’ve had this realisation.

[@nikkiajoy]

I am so glad that it has helped teach you something😭It is truly astounding what we do to ourselves to lose a small amount of weight - that we don't even need to lose! Sending you so much love! xxx

[@prachi6802]

Ya forget about fad diets. The priority should always be your health. Its imp to eat good healthy fud and exercise not to look good but to be healthy and strong. So i hpe u teach your kid the importance of good food and not just look gud from outsde

[@marimar1744]

Oh sweet Nikkia..... I'm so proud of you for admitting this to us. I can't imagine how hard this was for you. You are in my prayers ❤

[@nikkiajoy]

Thank you Mari🙏🏼❤️

[@marimar1744]

@@nikkiajoy I am in tears over your bravery! I love and respect you oh so much!❤ you are beautiful ❤❤

[@tellittomyfryingpan]

Prayers and love for you, sweet girl. I'm about 13 years into my recovery journey, and it gets easier, but it's never easy. The dysmorphia alone is still my biggest struggle, but I have found being open and honest with myself has helped the most. You've got this. 💕

[@danielleconway7995]

I am so sorry that you’ve had to suffer with this your whole life. I am going to pray for you... Dear Lord, please take away Nikkia’s anxiety and body dysmorphia. Please show her self love and show her how much you love her and let her feel that same love for herself. Lord, please give Nikkia peace and confidence. Please take away her shame and let her forgive herself. Lord I ask these things in your precious name. Amen. - I absolutely adore you and I’m so, so proud of you!!! For what it’s worth, I’ve been watching you for several years and I think you’re absolutely beautiful!! Inside and out!! I will continue to keep you in my prayers. I love you!! 😘❤️

[@louhelen31]

This was such a brave thing to talk about Nikkia, I have struggled for years with self confidence and it’s hard. I have been trying to be more self confident but it’s a hard battle to take on. I love your videos, I think your one of the realist youtubers out there xxx

[@nikkiajoy]

Thank you so much for your comment - and for your support!! It really means so much. It has been so hard opening up but I hope that I hope that it helps others who need to hear it. I would do anything I could to prevent anyone else going through this pain xxx

[@louhelen31]

It takes time to build yourself back up especially with what society these days, you are one of my favourite youtubers. Thank you so much for sharing this with us, you have shown that not everyone you see on KZbin is perfect and we all have our own demons that we are fighting. Xxx

[@katiebugs123321]

I've suffered with all of the same issues for as long as I can remember. I'm also a registered nurse but it doesn't even matter. You just want to be perfect. You want to be worthy. No one ever listened to me when I talked about this because I was never stick thin but it's all about the mindset. It drives you crazy. Just so you know, I've looked at you many times and thought I wish I could look as perfect as you do. We never see ourselves for what we actually are. You are so much more beautiful than you realize. Don't be ashamed of yourself, it will only make it worse. Thank you for sharing. We love you ♥️

[@ritzyblas5729]

I HOPE YOU KNOW HOW BRAVE YOU ARE FOR BEING GENUINELY HONEST WITH YOURSELF AND YOUR FANS...EVERYTHING ELSE WILL FALL IN PLACE LITTLE BY LITTLE...DAY BY DAY...YOU AND ALL THE PEOPLE GOING THROUGH SOMETHING LIKE THIS: YOU ARE AWESOME YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗

[@jet2506]

At 16, I was told that I was fat when my BMI was 19. I was obsessed with counting calories, exercising until my BMI was 16. I lost my periods, my hair was falling and I was cold all the time. I was taking those pills on and off for 4 years. Nobody understood why I did this to myself, except that voice in my head kept telling stop eating. Now I'm 32, healthy. I stopt restricting food. I enjoy cooking, baking. I love you so much Nikkia, you can beat this ❤❤❤

[@backstage6681]

That took guts ! Good for you coming forward to help those challenged by the same things. Tour are a beauty and I wish you success in your struggles.

[@gigiof10]

I’m praying for you, my dear. I pray that you will see yourself as we see you. Now that you know, you can take better care of yourself so that when you’re ready to start your family, your body will be ready! You have all of my support and love and prayers!

[@laurenm4901]

I know every single woman suffers from body image issues. And those people who say those mean things on the internet really just feel bad about themselves and they try to make others feel worse.

[@nikkiajoy]

It's sad that it's so common. We only get one life! And yet we spend so much energy and waste so much time worrying about how we look!! I hope this video helps others heal xxx

[@janelane80]

I was just talking to a friend about this. People use “fat” as an insult when is just a description of body features like tall or short. Someone could up to me and say, “you’re fat” and it will be just as true as saying “you’re short” or “you’re a brunette.” But “fat” is socially the same as “ugly” or “lazy”- it’s a judgement of attractiveness and your worth as a person. It’s bizarre to have an objective fact also be an insult due to social stigma.

[@marinawakefield9103]

So true!

[@michellemuntau]

Yes!

[@danasisso4374]

I feel like this is basically every girl’s life experience.... which is insane

[@miscellaneouscell]

This is why I started to make my own clothes. I'm short and clothes don't fit me right. I've always felt like you too when shopping for clothes and i would beat myself up. Enough is enough. I make my clothes my way and look good.

[@somemoreplease]

This is indeed a trigger topic for me, as I have suffered with eating disorder for multiple years, therefore I will not be watching further. Regardless, I want to thank you for being open about the issue, as this is an extremely important topic to talk about; and you, as an influencer, can definitely make a positive impact. I also want to let you know that you’re not alone, and nobody’s opinion should ever affect your self worth or confidence ❤️

[@nikkiajoy]

Thank you for this. I hope that it helps someone else. It's truly an awful thing to go through. Sending you so much love❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@bellateresa2710]

If u can’t watch a video u need to get urself some serious help not need to @ me my comments are off and restricted so I won’t see it but get help

[@bellateresa2710]

Get off the Internet sis

[@jenniferstepps]

Gina, why bring negativity to this lady who shared her vulnerability. The fact you turn your comments off makes me wonder if commenting negativity is a pattern for you! Be supportive please.

[@jenniferstepps]

Yulia Toropova You aren’t alone either ❤️ Hugs to you dear

[@shireenkuarsing350]

My heart goes out to you. Take it easy girl. God bless you

[@nikkiajoy]

Thank you so much. This means alot🙏🏼❤️❤️

[@iuliam1321]

It’s like you are telling my story! My whole life ! It’s just the same! But the person telling me the most I am fat is my mom. And I wasn’t even that fat... maybe one or two kg. Now I have 10 kg more than I used to ( 2 years after my baby) and no diet works anymore and I just try to accept the fact that I have to love myself the way I am now. But you are absolutely lovely, beautiful and I cannot see you skinny because you would not be as real and such a good role model! Your style is amazing and it’s perfect and please don’t change!

[@wearelegion1163]

Iulia M My mom was the worst, too. Growing up, my parents called me “garbage pit” whenever I ate. When I came back from school after being away for 9 weeks, 1st thing my mom said was “you’ve gotten fat.” My last bf told me he’d leave me if I “got fat.” I’m now almost 63 and finally comfortable & not stressed over my weight. I’m not fat (5’4” 140 lbs), but my mother can’t seem to help herself.

[@littlepeanut5897]

Thank u so much for your honesty! A few years ago I went to a therapist and also got the diagnosis body dysmorphia. I can totally feel you and can totally understand how misable this illness makes you feel! Nothing apart from my appearance mattered in my head, and the thought of being skinny was by my side every minute of the day. I was also focused on having perfect and flawless skin, which I didn't have back then, and I totally hated myself for it. I couldn't even open the door to accept a package without applying a heavy amount of make up. At some point I wasn't even leaving the house just because my skin was looking bad ( and it was only looking so bad in my opinion, my family and friends never thought I was looking like a disaster.) This illness makes you do and think so many irrational and unhealthy things like you mentioned in this video. I created a picture of myself in my mind that was absolutely wrong and far away from reality. Many years had gone by until my family pushed me to go to a therapist. Starting a cognitive behavioral therapy was the best decision for me. I've learned that I need to put myself in all of these situations that I always avoided (like going in front of the house without wearing make up) to recognize that it doesn't matter how my skin is looking, that nothing bad happens to me even if there is a pimple on my cheek. That I don't need to look like anybody else but me. One trick my therapist told me and that helped me a lot was to see "the voice in my head" as a storyteller. My head is telling me a story about myself. About being fat and being an disgusting acne face. My head is very creative and it is ok that he is telling these stories. I accept that he wants to tell me these stories. BUT: They are only stories. I can hear them but I don't need to believe them. They are just stories and not true. This simple trick just changed a lot for me. Yes I can hear these thoughts but I can decide by myself if I want to believe them or not. My head is just a storyteller. Maybe this trick is also helpful for you! I'm really happy to hear that you are on a good way now and that you're feeling better now. It's not easy to overcome BDD and a part of it will always stay. But I'm sure you will make it and will see and accept yourself as the beautiful woman you truly are inside and outside! I'm sending you a big hug, best wishes and a huge thank you for being so honest and open about this topic. You really touched my soul!

[@poetickayoss]

Oh Nikkia, you break my heart. It makes me sad that you went through this. Your beautiful. Always have been. Thank you for sharing. I'm praying for you.

[@ashleyab89]

You’re incredibly strong for having the courage to come forward with all of this and trying to stop anyone else from going down the same path. Bless your beautiful heart! I’m proud of you! Xoxoxo lots of love and prayers to you ♥️

[@seashell831]

This breaks my heart Nikkia! Just shows that nobody knows the private struggle that someone is going thro. I have a 3 year old child & still have a mummy tummy & my arse has got bigger and it would be a dream come true to look like u. You are truly a beauty inside & out and i hope u know that 😊 Props for sharing, this is a huge step & so nice that u trust us with your truth. So much love to you sweet lady 😍 xxx

[@charlenecolon91]

I wish everyone stop following all this people with the “perfect” body and with all my heart I wish it became a trend to love you the way your are and to love your body no matter what. To be healthy and not to be skinny. Skinny is not equal to happy. I feel that I love you and respect you more now Nikkia! You are awesome and beautiful, you are enough! Don’t forget about that💕💕 Blessings your way!!

[@johannak1983]

That's true body positivity. Love your body and try to keep it healthy. Body types should not be a "trend".

[@charlenecolon91]

Yes!! Everyone is different we should embrace that🥰

[@misterkowalski]

Hey girl! Thank you for sharing ♥️ It has been a terrible journey, but the most important fact is that you are not alone with this! Not only you have thousands of good souls out there in the world, but most important you have Brandon - the one and only person who's love is all you need in the world. Sometimes it is so hard to see past your own fixation, but girlllll it is so worth it! Do it for you and your beloved one, and belive him when he's saying that you are perfect just the way you are 🥰 I also have my obsessions, but my husband has been my salvation. I stopped beating myself up because it was killing him bit by bit. Take care of yourself for you and for him! ♥️

[@erikaarredondo6234]

You are so strong and brave to make this video. I hate that you, and so many others have struggled with this for so long. Wishing you happiness and health for always. 💕

[@johnstevenson4611]

Thank you for sharing!! More people need to talk about this. There is such a culture of exercise addiction and restriction to try to look like an ideal for both women AND men.

[@richie6377]

John Stevenson facts!!!!!

[@jaycalderon2725]

I remember the 1st time I saw you and thought “Jesus! What a gorgeous woman! Her eyes! She’s so beautiful... I wish I look like her” (in a good way) I saw this with tears in my eyes, why!? Because I know the feeling of feeling “fat” or ugly if you don’t “fit” in certain standards. I struggle a lil in my 20’s (I’m 37 now) because I wanted to look like the model stereotype. You are so brave! I know you might have thought a lot to do this video because basically this is a beauty channel, “how to look beautiful” tips and tricks, products that you promote etc... just doing this make love you more and more! Thank you for putting this message out there... Nikkia you are beautiful, you are not fat, you are just perfect the way you are! Xoxoxox hope you can surpass this and fully recover from this. I recommend you to get some help to deal with the subconscious mind because there’s the problem and the “rules” that are basically ruling you decisions now. Lots of love! Stay safe!

[@putzaroonieputz6898]

I’ve been watching you for several years. There were times when I’ve thought you were exceptionally thin, like “wow, she’s really skinny”. Meanwhile not knowing the horror you were living through with body dismorphia. I’m thankful that you are wanting to make a healthy change for yourself. Stay healthy for you, love you and thank you for sharing.

[@mslusifer]

We are all in this together, ❤️ lets start telling each other ”you look so good” , ”I love your hair” , just kind words! I remember this unknown woman grabbing my arm just to say ”you look so cute” i meen....🤯🤩 I never get compliments! I was so happy and lived on that strangers kind words for weeks 🙌🏼😄 Lets spreed the love between us woman😄❤️

[@jessielou910]

I agree with this so much! ❤️

[@DanielleNicoleMakeup]

Us women need to support each other and realize what is realistic and what is barbie doll fake. And most partners love our bodies for what they are. Glad you shared your story.

[@user-pc5zy2ig8z]

I feel this on every level 🥺💗 we’ll get through this and come out stronger and better human beings to ourselves! Thank you for allowing me to confront myself with this issue for the very first time. I paused this video and made something good to eat. It ends now, let’s be nicer to ourselves. 💗💗💗

[@avafloss7755]

Love you Nikkia....stay strong and be positive. It was so hard looking at you crying. Don't stress out about those negative people. You are beautiful ❤❤

[@nikkiajoy]

Thank you so much Ava this means a lot🙏🏼❤️

[@jessicahannah475]

We all love you. I've been thru somethings that I've done to my self. That I'm not proud of. But im working on it everyday. I've made it 3 years so far. We can do anything we put our heart and minds too. Sending you hugs.

[@RobynAuditoreNicol]

These yoyo diets are so dangerous, I've never met anyone who's been on one and has been happy and healthy, it just drives a dangerous cycle of dramatic loss & gain. This video was so powerful girl, I'm so sorry you're going through this - you're such a genuine, lovely, intelligent woman! You've got this❤ x

[@debrachen529]

Omg, Your story is so heartfelt. I've been a long time watcher and I feel like we are close friends over the years. I can't help myself to cry when I see you cry. I can feel the pain and anxiety you must have struggled. Yet, I can't be more proud for you when you said that you are on the road to recovery. I'm sending you virtual hugs and good wishes. You go girl! 👏👍

[@barbarajacobs1197]

Ms Nikkia, I'm a Drug addict with 10+ yrs sober , we are humans we all become addicted to something , me drugs ,you losing weight, even when I knew I could kill my self ,I could lose my family ECT. It didn't matter , are brains are our worst enemy, it will make us do whatever it wants , even thought we are smarter then these addiction sometime we hurts us the most cuz we think we are so smart and can control everything. With that's said these nothing wrong with you, you stand up and telling your story to thousand is so brave and hoping to help some else is amazing , I've watched you for years and you are freak so beautiful and even more amazing then I thought before , I hope we can help you with support as you have helped all of us with are makeup . Addictions aren't choosy and anyone can become addicted but not everyone can recover and ask for help , you can be good to yourself and we are hear for you . Please doing whatever you need , evening if that means we see you less on YT . You have a huge support and we are cheering for you , also most don't do it perfect you will screw up but that does NoT mean you failed , it just means you get up and keep going . Love you 😘❤️❤️

[@Ruddsta93]

Most things you said, I've tried or thought of trying, and definitely cried with you. 😪 The way you explained everything in this video, I've understood and believed more than anything I've ever come across about diets. Thank you so much, and you are absolutely beautiful by the way. Have always thought so, and your personality matches. 🥰 So sad to see you so upset. Be happy gorgeous girl. You are on the way to what you deserve. 💕💕💕

[@richie6377]

Thank you for using your platform for this. As someone who is life long “plus size”, fat shamed by the world since very very young and worse yet- by family, no model of maternal self esteem, being naturally fat (US Size 16) I sometimes feel I exist for the world who is constantly WAITING for me to lose weight. Especially where I work in the beauty industry and happen to be somewhat attractive, people can’t seem to believe I eat well or exercise or that I can actually be pretty and be fat at the same time. I know this from things that are often said to me in a backhanded way. The world is so screwed up and so very toxic and we all deserve to not drive ourselves crazy. I struggle every day. ❤️

[@vulpeadejad7523]

You're not fat . You're how I like to say : fluffy. Fluffy and sweet. Sorry you had to deal with idiots all your life and even sorry that your fam did not show you support. Sending you a huge hug. And you are not alone.

[@andreashelton]

All that matters is what's inside

[@richie6377]

vulpea dejad thank you so much 🤗

[@richie6377]

with Andrea ❤️

[@pallasscarnecchia3262]

This was very brave - I’m so sorry you are going through this - you are so beautiful - I hope your journey brings you better health and peace

[@jackiegosselaar7461]

This was like watching my life story. I'm so proud of you for your bravery. I've quit phentermine but still yo-yo diet and I'm ready to get off the train and just have a healthy relationship with food. Thank you for sharing your story and your heart with us. Praying for you girl. You are beautiful!

[@0rangepalmtree]

THIS IS ME! Minus the pills. I've been watching you for a long time. There's something so scary about listening to someone you've grown to like and trust in one sphere tell a dark story you identify with so intricately. You can filter so much and find videos and articles that tell you exactly what you're looking to hear. You are SO BRAVE and I guarantee you are helping so many people by sharing this to people who trust you like me. I always look at photos of me and wish I could be that thin again, always forgetting how ill I was at that weight and knowing I cannot physically ever get there again. Thank you for this.

[@heidi4552]

You are absolutely stunning both inside and out, I wish you could see yourself how we see you 😍 thankyou for speaking about this, you are a brave, inspiring & beautiful person. Please know you are not alone in this and we are here to support you ❤️❤️

[@ApBarr345]

When you feel low, go back and watch the later part of this video. It is so inspiring. So sorry you have gone through this Please take care and don't be so hard on yourself.

[@demimullen8362]

Thank you for being so authentic and sharing your story. I really respect and appreciate it. It's ironic because I would watch your videos and think gosh she's so pretty, I wish I looked like her. Look at her confidence, I wish I had that. We all have our own insecurities and thank you for sharing yours with us. It's good to know we all have our own struggles and are all human.

[@nikkiajoy]

Thank you so much for your beautiful comment Demi it really means a lot🙏🏼this here is part of the problem isn’t it. Wishing we looked like someone else. I can 100% guarantee that you’re beautiful just the way you are. You don’t need to look like me😢sending you so much love❤️❤️❤️

[@orphamorales1013]

Thank you for sharing. I’m an “older” woman and first of all, I love watching your channel!...and the truth is even as an older woman I have struggled with exactly the same issues...even to this day! I’ve learned to love myself just the way I am and I am so glad that you, too, are on your way to accepting and loving yourself just the way you are...perfectly imperfect! We all are beautiful in our own unique way. In the end it’s all about enjoying each day to the fullest because life is too short to be worrying about the small stuff. Nikkia, you are a beautiful and talented young lady! Use your platform to leave a legacy and thank you, again, for sharing...❤️

[@deborahstevens2028]

Oh Nikkia, please tell yourself that you are loved & admired by so many people. I know it is hard, but I'm 66 and have always felt that I was the odd one out, because I have an hourglass figure but I also have freckles, strawberry blonde and pale skin, so when I was younger everyone had straight blonde/brown hair and a tan so I could not even go to the beach without burning so I never went. BUT!! As you get older you do feel comfortable in yourself and I feel that I have other qualities that I am proud of, and bullying is something I won't tolerate and if I hear anyone doing that I step in. I have one son and twin daughters and another daughter, and they have told me that they are so glad that I instilled values other than body image e.g. put yourself first, be independent, and have a good work and life ethic. By the way they all are beautiful in my eyes (they are!!) Look after yourself and prove to yourself that you are a beautiful example to young ladies out there who follow you, and older women who view your channel who think you are a beautiful, intelligent and funny babe. Love to you 😘😘 XXX Deborah from OZ

[@lisacraig4795]

Oh Nikkia I can't tell you how much I respect you! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU ‼️♥️ for speaking up and educating us. This community NEEDS this! Love Lisa from Boston

[@marisaleise8571]

Nikkia, I want to reach through the screen and give you a giant hug! You got through high school and college while dealing with all of this because you ARE strong... so much stronger than you know. You are beautiful inside and out. 🥰🥰

[@laurenm4901]

I hope you’re getting therapy girl. I know going to a medical doctor is important but processing all those toxic feelings about yourself is so important.

[@nikkiajoy]

I am starting to look into therapy options. I have been in denial for so long with this problem and I'm finally ready to face it and deal with it🙏🏼

[@bellateresa2710]

I don’t think it’s ur place to say that and no need to comment back to me my comments are restricted there blocked because that’s how I want it so don’t bother replying I won’t get it but I think u should worry about ur own life not everyone needs therapy for issues if therapy was the answer everyone would be fine and it’s not ur place to tell her that’s what she needs and she responded to u but that’s not what she wants to do I know her personally .

[@ivylonnen4]

Therapy has been key for me to come to a place of peace with my body and processing my eating disorder. Very proud of you for looking into that for yourself Nikkia.

[@VeganEmerald]

I’m so glad you’re looking into therapy! I’m a training mental health professional and when I dealt with eating disorder problems I had literally a whole team of professionals including multiple therapists! I hear the shame cycle in your voice and dealing with the shame is a huge huge huge part of ED recovery! The self blame, the perfectionism, the internalized fat phobia etc etc it’s impossible to undo all those tangles on your own 💚 I can say that I used to look at my size 8 body and think I was too fat and was terrified of fat. Now I’m literally like 230 pounds and a size 20 and I’m actually the happiest and healthiest I’ve ever been! As a fat person!!! My cholesterol is awesome, my blood pressure is great, I’m perfectly healthy and I never imagined that I could be both healthy and fat wow what a revelation! Facing that fear is the greatest thing that ever happened to me and if I ever happen to lose weight again I don’t care anymore. I love myself here and I would love myself at 400 pounds or 120 pounds. The greatest feeling in my recovery is losing the upper numerical value on my self worth. It’s a practice more than a destination but the progress is real and recovery is possible. Thank you for being so brave to share this moment with us 💚

[@ericakauffman5786]

@@nikkiajoy It is time. 💖

[@erickamcc1701]

I just watched your last video earlier today. A few observations. . 1.) Thank you for your vulnerability in talking about your struggles with food. Eating disorder awareness is so much better today than it was when I first developed one (over 2 decades ago), but it’s still important for people to share their story, so thank you! . 2.) I felt sad every time you said that as a medical professional, you should’ve known better and should’ve done better. If eating disorders were a disorder of intelligence or will power, you would’ve changed your behaviour a long time ago. The people I’ve met over my long journey of recovery have been some of the kindest, intelligent, empathic people I’ve known, and yet, they and I still developed eating disorders. The fact is, eating disorders (along with addictions such as substance use and other process addictions like shopping and gambling) are maladaptive coping mechanism. They come about because whatever stress is going on at the time is greater than someone’s coping ability. It’s difficult, maybe even impossible, to have lasting change in the ED behaviours without first learning other coping mechanisms and having a lot of practice in using them instead of the eating disorder to cope with anxiety, stress, depression, trauma, or other underlying conditions. My hope is that you find a way to show yourself some compassion for developing one, and maybe even gratitude for yourself for finding a way, albeit a harmful way, to cope. Beating yourself up for struggling with ED behaviours is not going to help your recovery journey. You cannot bully yourself into self-love and self-acceptance. . 3.) Speaking of recovery journey, don’t be disappointed or discouraged if you struggle with behaviours in the future. I hope your trajectory is smooth and constantly going forward, but it’s also not uncommon to struggle, get help, things get better, new stressor happens, struggle again. That’s been my experience, at least. It doesn’t mean you’re stupid, or bad, or incapable of recovery. It simply means you are human and it’s OK to struggle again. Fall 7 times, get up 8, you know? . Again, I am so grateful for your vulnerability and authenticity. It might not feel like strength, but it takes a lot of courage and strength to first admit you have a problem and to try to do things differently. It also takes a lot of strength and courage to use your platform to try to help other people, too, so thank you, again!!! Sending good vibes and prayers your way!

[@85cassie]

Thank you for sharing your story. Unfortunately as women we have been conditioned & are conditioned daily to believe that we need to be thin to be accepted and worthy and it is utter bullshit. Diets do not work, the diet industry relies on this and it is why it is a multi-billion dollar industry. Bodies come in many different shapes & sizes & visibility & acceptance of this is crucial. Eating disorders of course are a different category and require treatment but accepting that perfection is simply not possible is one of the biggest lessons of all regardless of whether you are fat or thin. The BMI is outdated and has been proven to be inaccurate. I think a big part of it all is being suppotive of the women around you rather than judgemental. We need to support one another & uplift one another. Focusing on weight & appearance distracts women from enjoying their lives & pursuing what is important to them both in their careers & goals. For those who enjoy reading check out 'The Beauty Myth' by Naomi Wolf. There is a reason we have been conditioned this way. How can you move towards your dreams & goals when you are completely preoccupied with what is on the end of your fork? It is not easy to move away from this conditioning because it is constantly surrounding us but consider this; instead of wasting money on another fad diet or appetite supressant why not use that money to do something positive for yourself? Book yourself in for a massage, take a weekend getaway. Refuse to contribute to an industry that is preventing you from simply living your life. Don't wait to lose weight to do the things you enjoy. Get out & do them anyway!

[@kimberlyann6576]

I love this video. I'm a Dietitian, and my whole family swears by the Duncan diet...they are yoyoing in weight constantly. And no matter what I say, if it helps them lose weight, they keep going back to it. Keep your head up girl, you're beautiful inside and out

[@majeenp4673]

As Sierra Boggess would say “You are enough. You are so enough. It's unbelievable how enough you are”.

[@kathleencaroline8032]

You are amazing for saying this. I’m in my 40’s and it really helped me.

[@sylviaoesterwinter8858]

Oh sweetie!!! I went through this from15 until my early thirties. This was in the 80s and 90s and there was not decent help available. BUT I did break away from it finally thank God and you can too. The industry you are in is brutal so we need to figure out how you can rise above this -which you've already done with this video. What if you continued to be open about this while continuing your amazing success.? I don't mean every day. That's too triggering. But young women like my 19 yo daughter with all the same issues could learn so much from you. Most importantly, feel less alone. I am an old lady who loves your channel and just started loving it even more. You are amazing!!! Thank you for your beautiful honesty.

[@nelnason]

Thank you for making this video and for your vulnerability. I have been going through the same thing for my entire life, except I am overweight. As the gyms start to re-open, I think I would have went back into this cycle had I not seen this video. Thank you for this message. I knew there was a reason I have always looked up to you. You are beautiful, we love you!

[@JenGerard]

I love you ❤️ Thank you for talking about this . You and Brandon are family to me and I just want to say YOU ARE PERFECT EXACTLY THE WAY YOU ARE . You are an amazing woman

[@erinlizzie09]

When I was seventeen, I watched an episode of Oprah and she was doing an exclusive story on a facility where people with eating disorders could get help. They showed a girl who was 52 pounds and the facility was her last resort for life. I looked at her and thought she looked beautiful. I have always been on the pudgeier side so that made me want to look like that. Thankfully my mom found out and helped me to understand how bad that thinking is. Thank you for being so brave. As someone who needs to loose the weight on a practical level I needed this. 🙏🏻

[@robinholbrook6576]

Erin Schultz THANK GOD for your MOM! ❤️

[@michellegruba9208]

You’re an amazing person, this was so touching because I know how hard it was for you to film and share with us. It broke my heart to see you cry because you are one of the most beautiful woman. You are perfect, don’t forget that. Stay strong love, we are all here for you xoxo ❤️❤️❤️😘

[@DanielleSwain]

I have been dealing with this all my life and I’m going to be 32 in June. I appreciate you for posting this. To see I’m not the only person who thinks and has felt this way makes me feel less alone. My body dismorphia started in Grade 7. My dr at the time even prescribed me diet pills and I would switch between that and laxatives. I would even pee blood and still would justify the pills. Thank god the pills I was prescribed no longer were available. Rock bottom for me was when I was diagnosed two years ago with a colon disorder from all of this crap and stomach issues. It’s crazy how that was the push I needed to start researching and researching nutrition even met with a nutritionist and now have the knowledge of what and how I should do to care for myself but its always been a slippery slope of falling back into this binge/ starvation/ crash diet mentality. Its such a hard cycle to break. I found Whitney Simmons on KZbin among a few others and now on a slow recovery however the damages I’ve caused are permanent. Know that your not alone Nikkia! I can relate so much to everything you talked about. I have been a follower for years and don’t comment nearly enough but know I am a huge supporter and love ya to pieces! ❤️❤️❤️

[@Heather-qh1gr]

This could have been me talking. I’m 40 and still struggle. Sending you all the love for being so brave and please don’t be ashamed. You are far from alone and I just want to give you huge hugs❤️❤️❤️

[@darlosmurf]

I look at you and you are perfect. Beautiful inside and out. I've always thought you look gorgeous. You just never know what secret struggles people have. That's why i think it's so important to always be kind. I wish you all the best for your recovery xx

[@CeilB717]

Yes, this. Always be kind. You never know what secret struggles people have. Thank you for putting it in words.

[@jenstevenson8025]

Oh darling- it’s your personality, humour and honesty that your subscribers love. Those beautiful blue eyes are the window to your soul. Big hugs to you 💕

[@beautifulme261]

Sending hugs and love to you❤️ I was fired from a modeling job for being “too fat” I did weight watchers etc. no they don’t work. I was always trying something. I finally found my natural weight window. I stay there. You are a beautiful person inside and out. It’s hard to heal our past hurts, not feeling good enough or thin enough but nothing could be further from the truth! Love support and hugs. Thank you for sharing, you are a roll model to many, you can be their voice. ❤️❤️❤️

[@virginiamagnolia]

So sorry that you’ve had to go through this. Major props for speaking out for others who are also suffering. I have no doubt that you’ve helped somebody

[@suzette6667]

Thank you so much for trusting us with a very personal part of your life! That took so much courage but such a great video to make for the countless numbers of people who suffer with this daily just like you and I. It’s exhausting! This will help many to learn they are not alone. Once again thank you❤️

[@belindamedina4613]

Omg Nikkia your so beautiful I would have never imagine the battles your going through mentally and physically.... you are so brave for sharing your experience thank you for sharing this I can relate to some level and I pray that the battles in your mind are over soon 🙏💗

[@jlkitz1775]

Peace in mind, body & spirit to you ALL. Let's love ourselves for who WE are. Don't compare yourself to others. Most of what's projected isn't real... Screw societal expectations. Get professional help & get to the root cause...We are beautiful in our imperfections ✌🏾♥️

[@chab1rd155]

Amen!!!

[@nikkiajoy]

I love this! Thank you so much for sharing this message!! SCREW SOCIETAL EXPECTATIONS!!!!❤️

[@RoseannaSassoSchottenfeld]

Yes, there’s always a root to everything we go through. And until we get to the root of WHY your thoughts think the way they do...it will continue. PLEASE find a good therapist that fits your needs. You keep looking for someone that will help exactly what you’re going through. ❤️🙏🏻

[@daniellemaynard4793]

So very hard for me to see you cry. I'm glad you talked about it, though. Love you, Nikkia!!

[@marilynalvarez9951]

Nikkia.....thank you so much for this video, please know that so many of us have body issues and you're not alone, I'm very happy to hear you have had an epiphany of what real life is all about, get your health back and enjoy your life with your loved ones.

[@whitandwhimsy7531]

I am so proud of you for sharing your truth. I have gone through the same struggle, and as someone who was slightly overweight as a child, I got put on every diet and diet pill known to man trying to “fix my problem”. I grew up thinking my body was a problem, and I punished it as such. I now have to try and undo years of damage and malnutrition, and it isn’t easy. But I love you for being brave enough to realize you’re worth protecting, and for sharing your story to try and prevent other people from going through the same struggle.