what happened in my lesson??

This was really hard and made me very emotional when making this video.
I do end up crying, so I needed to take a few seconds to breathe.
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[@SteinErikHalfdansen]

Oh I just want to hug you❤ I can hear your pain in your vocie😭 I hope the next lessen will be better❤️‍🩹 ( sorry if I Said anything wrong)

[@EnllisCountryTalesAndTails]

You poor thing ❤ your mum really needs to try to understand and have a word with your trainer 😢 I understand that it’s hard but maybe next time you could push yourself just a little more and tell your trainer that you can’t do it and you just want a proper lesson where you can practise and learn to jump before jumping right into a course ❤ I really want to hug you rn 😓🥰

[@Lovely_horsey]

She keeps on telling me that I need to do things. She doesn't ride and hasn't done what I have been doing. Yes, I love the fact that she is trying to help me, but comparing me to other riders makes me feel bad and doubt myself. Next time I see my trainer, I will try and talk to her about it. 🫂❤❤❤

[@marynoonan1089]

Poor you I feel really bad for you I hope your next lesson is better❤

[@Lovely_horsey]

I hope it is better next lesson ❤❤❤

[@jadejones6398]

To be honest, you did absolutely amazing and that situation and doing your best as well that you need to do. You don’t need to listen to all of this negative energy around you because it will only make things worse. I’m a rider myself and if you need to talk, I’m always here to be honest. If I was in that situation I would’ve honestly yelled at the instructor and probably my mum because I’m the type of person that will always stand up for what’s right even if I stand alone and I would honestly, tell them that I’m doing my best and if they don’t like that well then that’s their problem because I’m gonna be trying my best every single day if they have a problem, then they should leave the barn although that was a bit traumatising for you you did absolutely amazing the situation. I understand you didn’t stick up for yourself because you would’ve been in a bit of shock but you did absolutely amazing and if you need to talk I’m always here.❤️

[@Lovely_horsey]

Thank you ❤ I struggle sticking up to my mum because she gets really angry and I hate seeing her mad..

[@jadejones6398]

When she gets mad and she saying hurtful things just count to 3 in your head, done as soon as it hits number three just stick up for yourself. Say stuff like.” mum some of the stuff that you’re saying is honestly you’re not okay. Could you imagine what this could do to my mental health?” or I can just keep on agreeing with her and then once she’s done just say I’m not sure what you’re expecting to me. I’ve been silent and agreeing with you this whole time and then it will puzzle her.

[@jadejones6398]

Next time your mum start saying horrible things. Just count to 3 and then as soon as you hit number three, just say whatever you need to say. or you could just not say single thing and then once she’s done ask her why she was still going on if you were just sitting there being quiet the whole time and then it will puzzle her. I hope this helps.❤

[@Mytwohorses]

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[@Mytwohorses]

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[@Lovely_horsey]

Sometimes it's really hard for me to focus on things. The fact that my trainer made me to a full course when I haven't properly jumped as really stressful. I think that's were I got really emotional and nervous.. Thank you ❤❤