what I ate on holiday | all-in recovery | coping with comparison | discharged from hospital

[@kstadlerova]

watching this while eating snack - something i haven´t done in such a long time. i am not hugry, the opposite and this feel so so wrong. i´m alone in my room, online school and close to a panic attack. seeing you eat is an encouragement and your uplifting attitude here is what keeps me going. thank you.

[@woof4631]

The one dislike is from Anorexia. Frick that beach Btw, I’m not one to curse so I replaced the bad words with friendlier words. I think whoever readers this has a good day. Remember, a number doesn’t define your worth. You are so much more than a number. I don’t mean just weight but also calorie or GPA or grades. You are unique, you are special, you are beautiful.

[@__therealrapunzel]

thankyou so so much for this comment, this will help so many people. sending you so much love xxxxxx

[@woof4631]

@@__therealrapunzel OMG THANK YOU SOOOOOO MUCH FOR REPLYING!!! YOU JUST MADE MY DAY!!!

[@adrriii_]

Hi Millie!!! My name is Adri, I'm 13 and I'm currently recovering also from anorexia. I'm still not weight restored but I fin myself more and more happy everyday and your videos also really really make me feel motivated and with the feeling that I can go thru this so thank you so much🤍 You are gorgeous between 💛

[@__therealrapunzel]

hi! im so proud of you, dont stop fighting

[@Selina-mj9ts]

The fact that I knew y’all were dancing to rasputin on just dance shows how often my family and I play just dance 😂

[@heathermahoney8910]

Ahh gotta love that 😂

[@__therealrapunzel]

YESSS I was waiting for someone to realise... stupid copyright meant I couldnt leave the sound

[@leilameier1335]

You inspired me to choose Life and it's the best decision I've ever made!! Thank u so much xxx

[@__therealrapunzel]

omg im so proud of you!!xxxxx

[@samb.4798]

People like you help me remember why to choose recovery, goodluck in your process! U got this :)

[@__therealrapunzel]

thankyou! and im so glad, keep fighting! xxx

[@samb.4798]

@@__therealrapunzel today marks the start of my recovery! I'm done with constantly delaying it because I'm not "sick enough". Thank you so much 🤗

[@harmonyhope1709]

I'm so sorry to hear you have been back in hospital but glad that you got the chance to get away on holiday to such a beautiful place..... To get away from all the stresses and strains. The beach is always such a calming place for me too. Definitely my happy place!! Your vlogs are always so realistic but also very calming and reassuring..... I think it is great how you can reflect on the bad aspects of your Ed and can see where you want to be in the future...... Well done for not allowing fear of comparison to creep in, this can be so difficult but you're on your own path and have your own needs. Always stay true to yourself and you'll be OK. Loved that you were able to partake in your dad's birthday properly, having cake and having the energy to dance and have fun ❤️ Take care sweetie and stay strong 💪❤️

[@__therealrapunzel]

aww thankyou so so much for this lovely comment, it means the world xxx

[@harmonyhope1709]

@@__therealrapunzel ❤️❤️❤️

[@klaersklaers]

Hey Millie,🌞 just wanted to let you know how openminded and well spoken you seem to be. I love the way you express yourself, and how you truly put your heart into your words. I think you have a really calming energy (might seem contradicting since you are so full of life, but I mean it) and an open, loving spirit.🌜 By the way, your videos are so good you already went international, I'm watching from Germany. (So don't mind my weird way of writing :) ) 🌈 🌻I hope your recovery won't be too bumpy. And If it is, rewatch your videos, you're already helping so many other people through rough patches, might as well help yourself :)❤️

[@sammyjane3671]

You look so happy on this holiday and im so so glad you have a place that can bring you that much joy that's so valuable and nice to watch!! 😍

[@__therealrapunzel]

thankyou so much :)xxx

[@gigiaguilera1721]

your videos are so inspiring, i feel so much better after watching them. i feel less alone idk

[@__therealrapunzel]

awww thankyou so much, im so glad! xxx

[@mariazapatka9854]

seeing that u posted again made me so happy!! ur videos truly are the reason why i started recovery. I am so thankful to have found ur channel pls keep going what u do is so amazing and inspiring!💗 I love uuu!

[@__therealrapunzel]

ahhh thankyou so much, you got this! I love you too xxx

[@deyanira008]

Omg!!! Millie, I know I can say so much but this was just sooo inspiring and lovely to watch. I loved your kind powerful words. I'm sooo very proud of all your continuous accomplishments. You are thriving in life more now. You are living in the moment more now. You smile, you laugh, you cry, you feel all the feels lol. I admire you. It helps me to know that the other side of real life(not entrenched in the ED) is actually amazing. It makes me feel so much hopeful especially for you. I know you were in the hospital then but I know that you are strong and have been through sooo much and you can get through anything. Yes, length of having an ED or type does not matter it's still valid. I was sooo happy to also see that you were able to attend as well to the trip, this Must have helpful tremendously which your mental struggles more recently. It could have been awful but you seriously made the most of it. Challenge yourself with scary thicker no calorie labeled recovery at the time bread, you ate several snacks, you were in the moment not just filmed every single morsal of the food, you tried hard not to compare yourself from others like how much they ate or what they ate or even the relative that struggled with an Ed too, you also talked about what was going on in your head like the birthday experiences (two of them, which is freaking awesome...both parents lol), and struggles with decision making, and yea all the stuff. I'm sooo proud too that you made it through alright, you are so mature for your age, you say Incredible things(intelligent). Oh I love seeing Frankie too, sooo precious, he is one of those loving things in this world that makes you sooo grateful to be here, I noticed not just human beings. Lol I'm the same. I have a cat named Salem. Well, I know this post was a week old already but things seem to be turning up for you but I know it's not all sunshine and rainbows all the time...I definitely understand that. Thank you for being you, for being so honest, so lovely, soooo flipping inspiring and Incredibly funny. Your amazing. Here for you, always. Even on Instagram lol. I honestly wish I can meet you in person. I'm really shy/introvert but you seem soo nice and really welcoming to talk to. Love you loads Millie. Oooh, I loved the part where you said you prioritized taking your onsey over your towel to take a shower...lol cool. You did just darn right wore it to the beach too...heck yaaas. That's so bad ass.🥊🖤🌄🕊️🥰🤗🤸👏🍞🥣🥯🍌🥜🥪🍰🎂🍪🍫🚙🏖️👙🐾

[@lucyhesford4238]

your voice overs are my fave thing

[@__therealrapunzel]

ah thankyou, im so glad!xxx

[@vibeswithhelena5759]

millie!! you are an absolute inspiration i love ur videos and they always keep my motivated to continue trying :P

[@__therealrapunzel]

awww thankyou so so much, you can do it!xxx

[@arirose7980]

‘it’s called being vegan’ ‘no it’s called being mentally ill’ 😭 i actually love you and your family you all seem so sweet and funny

[@veryberrypai6583]

youre such an inspiration 🤍🤍

[@__therealrapunzel]

thankyou so much!xxx

[@alebasigo]

yayy! omg I'm so glad I've found your channel 💗💗

[@__therealrapunzel]

ahh thankyou!xxx

[@picklerick6239]

just watched ur vid eating a fear food!! and it felt super great bc ur voice cover kept motivating me!!

[@__therealrapunzel]

ahh so proud of you!!!xxx

[@a.harrington8826]

I loved you dancing Rasputin! We would do Just Dance in res when it was too cold for a walk and that was one of my mileu's favorite songs! I can't believe you tried the end! We always tapped out by then... Love your videos! You're so motivational and inspiring!

[@Elise-lx2mm]

You are so inspirational❤️ Currently on my way to recovery, not all in, but on a meal plan given by BUP(norwegian cahms). Its hard but I really want to go all in. You are my main inspiration to go all in,❤️

[@ليان-ق1ش]

you can do this 💖💖

[@heathermahoney8910]

Me too, keep going its all for the best no matter how hard it feels 💓

[@__therealrapunzel]

im so proud of you... you can do this!xxx

[@Elise-lx2mm]

@Mina Yakhdani masse lykke til, heier på deg❤️

[@Elise-lx2mm]

@@__therealrapunzel thank u so much❤️

[@sarlotakuklis7983]

you are so amazing I love this energyyyyy

[@__therealrapunzel]

ahhh thankyou so much!!xxx

[@Reree-gz5bg]

I appreciate you addressing the veganism/vegetarian. because I realise if the ED used that as a restrictive means, then not being vegan/veggie would be best for their recovery journey. However, from being a flexible pescatarian, I do know that veganism isn't about restricting (this is ED), but it's about protecting the animals and the planet.

[@OrlaRodgers]

Your videos feel like a big hug

[@__therealrapunzel]

aww im so so glad xxx

[@may26930]

Love ur videos so much!! Thank u for posting them they honestly really help me💓

[@__therealrapunzel]

awww thankyou so much, im so glad :)

[@maeve8668]

ahaha my family always leaves for trips two hours late too :)

[@__therealrapunzel]

ahahah

[@evieee1140]

so proud of you :))

[@__therealrapunzel]

awww thankyou so much xxx

[@katie1546]

beautiful girlie💕💕

[@__therealrapunzel]

thankyou so much xxx

[@zoelidbury9315]

Your freckles are so gorgeous!! xx

[@__therealrapunzel]

ahh thankyou so much xxx

[@RosiePosie99sr]

April 14th is my mums bday too! Happy birthday belated bday to your mum! 🥰

[@isadoraadlersidi9052]

I miss your vídeos ❤ i am binging all them again

[@sumaiyah4292]

You are so amazing so proud of you 💖

[@__therealrapunzel]

thankyou so much!xxx

[@leandra6125]

i really really really love the way you do your hair and make up!

[@ليان-ق1ش]

YYayayy my fav youtuber

[@__therealrapunzel]

aww thankyou so much!!xxx

[@harmonyhope1709]

Your freckles are sooo cute by the way xxxx

[@__therealrapunzel]

awww thankyou so much xxx

[@Ellenahoffner]

Such an inspiration!!!🤩

[@__therealrapunzel]

thankyou so much xxx

[@evathekid7369]

Those videos are so inspiring thanks

[@__therealrapunzel]

awww thankyou so much xxx

[@alexaelizabeth7393]

how do you know when you are at a healthy weight? I am really struggling to know where I am supposed to be ❤️😢

[@__therealrapunzel]

I would say when you have a period and you can eat intuitively xxx

[@roo_2002]

so proud of you!!!

[@__therealrapunzel]

thankyou so much xxx

[@anaarh4390]

i understand your position about vegan food although I am one cuz it saved me from my binges (and other ed)! love your videos***

[@emiliabugueiromeyer8166]

Thanks for everything you dooo, love ya

[@linareithofer8776]

i absolutely LOVE your videos

[@Valentina-bw2kf]

I'm hyped!!

[@__therealrapunzel]

hehe yay!!

[@lorienrhiannonmorganpaulson]

Such a beautiful, inspiring video! Thank you!

[@katie1546]

will you be doing a vid on your hospital stay? xx

[@__therealrapunzel]

yes! it'll be my next one hopefully xxx

[@ahaha173]

cool! your moms birthday is on april 14th and your dad’s is on the 16th. mine is on the 15th!

[@pinjakai]

thank you for making these videos

[@avrilcabral7112]

you are amazing ❤️

[@__therealrapunzel]

awww thankyou xxx

[@amymorgan865]

i love your vids theyve helpes me so much

[@EmmaRose-de7hc]

I reaaally love ur videos :)) they make me want to recover so bad, but I just can’t seem to find the right time to ask and tell my mum all of that... do u have any tips how I could tell my parents? I’ve been overthinking this for sooo long my anxiety is going crazyy (I also don’t rlly know if I NEED a therapist, sometimes I do think I need one, sometimes I don’t :/)

[@zhuzha6853]

Am I the only one who thinks Millie looks like Billie Eilish? So beautiful🥺

[@__therealrapunzel]

ahh thats the biggest compliment thankyou so much

[@ahanabagga3886]

You're doing amazing girl!! Also what apps do do use to edit??

[@emilylindley767]

omg i have the same bday as your mum!

[@emilylindley767]

omg and my mums was the week before and i made her the exact same cake

[@__therealrapunzel]

ahhh happy belated birthday!xxx

[@leodedda1834]

Any advice?

[@toril7318]

I love your hair it’s long and pretty blonde 😄

[@__therealrapunzel]

aww thankyou so much!xxx

[@sarahlovesdonuts9601]

Absolutely lovely. 🌸💗🌸🌺🌸💗🌺🌸💗🌺

[@sophisticatedpanda4464]

Why are you ban on tiktok??!?

[@charlottesutton3880]

Luv u

[@__therealrapunzel]

I love you too!!

[@nikolett6981]

does she look like 14 yo Billie Eilish or am I the only one who sees it?

[@__therealrapunzel]

ahhh thats the biggest compliment thankyou!!

[@jeanneglachant3475]

Are u crazyyyy 😮😮😮you have to bite in a pain au chocolat not peel it Love from France 😂💛

[@__therealrapunzel]

ahahah im so sorry

[@minalovis]

@@__therealrapunzel i'm all in for the peeling technique. it's so much more...fun? i don't know but it brings it all to a whole new level hahaha

[@giuliabraschi6460]

you remind me of anne of green gables

[@HillTopHungBuck7]

Sighh Girl This Is Ur Best Video! U & Ro = 🍫 :)

[@aliceinrecovery]

you’ve inspired me to create a youtube channel!

[@genius2655]

Ra-ra-rasputin

[@__therealrapunzel]

YESSSSS

[@thedoglover5628]

Any advice?