What is Suicidal Ideation?

[@brandon8190]

Everyone knows how we feel, yet nobody actually cares.

[@jazmineferguson7711]

That's not true. A lot of people care!!!!!

[@fw-zakko]

@@jazmineferguson7711 bullshit

[@ajortiz9980]

mfs dont even understand how exhausting these thoughts can be

[@DatAnimalBlundetto]

at all and it fucking hurts

[@aimee4892]

What are they supposed to do

[@oniichxnn]

it starts out as “i don’t wanna die, but i don’t wanna feel this pain anymore.” but it gets scary when it turns into “i want to die and i can’t deal with this pain anymore.” you start to sit there and think, huh, the one thing that i’d never do, is now my only option.

[@FunnyMonkeyReallyFunny]

I feel you man, I’ve been thinking about getting a gun and shooting myself tbh and it’s getting harder and harder. Please don’t give up man, reply to me so I can know if you’re okay. Yes you haven’t met me, or know me but I do care about someone’s life. Not hear to blow smoke up your ass and tell you to get help because some people can’t afford help (like me). Hopefully you’re okay man.

[@oniichxnn]

@@FunnyMonkeyReallyFunny hey sorry for the late ass reply, i’ve been pulling through, but if anything i wanna know if you’re okay.

[@FunnyMonkeyReallyFunny]

@@oniichxnn I’ve been doing alright man, thank you for replying back!

[@FunnyMonkeyReallyFunny]

@@oniichxnn how are you doing btw?

[@oniichxnn]

@@FunnyMonkeyReallyFunny hey that’s good to hear, glad you’re doing alright. i’ve been doing pretty good myself, taking slow steps, but hey glad to know that you’ve been doing well

[@micheas_westward]

Who else wants to fly away from this pathetic world, like a bird

[@adonai7187]

Me here,sadly. 😞

[@patmoyo7875]

ME

[@patmoyo7875]

Me

[@runthatback323]

Maybe we can in the future without any plane , so i guess we should stay and live , we dont know what we could get later , hardship will come and go , literally it will past , why bother kill ourselves , nobody being miserable all the time just like nobody being happy all the time , LIVE this shit guys ! dont be stupid

[@RabbitanRibbit]

me!

[@martinfinch5011]

"I just want to sleep and never wake up" exactly how I feel sometimes

[@PsychHub]

We appreciate you taking the first step of expressing your pain. If you or another individual is in immediate danger, please seek medical attention immediately by calling 911 or visiting the nearest emergency room. For 24/7 support, contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline by calling 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or contact the Crisis Text Line by texting TALK to 741741. If you are located outside the United States, check out our description box for links to find support in your area.

[@krooscontrol9019]

Martin stay strong bro

[@SomethingSomethingg]

You ever heard of Sunny von Bülow? In my opinion, she had the perfect life. Half of her life was spent in pure luxury without a care in the world and the other half of her life was spent unconscious and in a permanent vegetative state for 30 some odd years.

[@LisaColer-ee3ez]

Mine is the guilt trip i have to listen to. No one is here for me, but I'd be selfish and hurt everyone. Where is this everyone. ?

[@BEACHDUDE71]

Yup

[@mahika6200]

DEPRESSION: Let's end this pain. ANXIETY: Mom will cry.

[@lazybean4365]

Same bro

[@SatyaPrakash-dj8ix]

let her cry because she was never with me when I was crying.

[@Lilithissweet]

@@SatyaPrakash-dj8ix yes 😪

[@pantalone7307]

Exactly

[@newflesh666]

this is super relatable

[@darkreaper9205]

Depression is like you're drowning with sadness & feelings of hopelessness. While everyone Is living their perfect lives.

[@PsychHub]

Thank you for taking the first step and expressing your struggle. We want you to know you are not alone in how you feel. We hope you will check out the links to the resources in the description box for where to learn more and where to get treatment and support.

[@bwater9160]

I explained it as the feeling when you are just about to cry, but all the time.

[@juanmorales-gs8ek]

😭💔 10 years deep feeling like this

[@yaboyreege7158]

@@bwater9160 that’s such a perfect explanation. I know I’m severely depressed when I wake up in the morning. I can feel that feeling in my chest and it continues throughout the day, sometimes for several days. It is always there but sometimes it’s intense and sometimes it’s barely noticeable

[@indridcold8433]

The last thing we need is to speak to others about depression and suicidal thoughts. That just makes things way worse.

[@CamoTothor]

This might sound odd, but one thought that helps me sometimes when I'm feeling suicidal is the fact that one day I will die, no matter what - I won't live forever. It can be somewhat comforting and makes me think I might as well try and have a decent life in between now and then.

[@jamesweldon9353]

Same

[@beendidthat4348]

And throughout your life sometimes good might happen

[@tinastcyr8671]

Yeah that’s what I do, I’m gonna die anyways so let’s just test it out ya know?😗

[@GhostMonkey772]

I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real it’s impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! kzbin.info/www/bejne/e4m0eId_o7WjkLc

[@muntaha5980]

Thank you

[@JoelDeRouffignac]

Have wanted to go to sleep and not ever wake up for years. Having Mental health is so tough. One good thing about this video is that the comments section is very moving and comforting to know we are all not the only ones x

[@sarahusrey5909]

Jesus loves you!!!!!💚🤎🧡💕💓💜❣💝💖✌💛💔💟💗🥰😇💙💌💘🖤🤍💋💞❤🤩😍😘

[@cringecommenterlol]

do you mean mental health in general or bad mental health?

[@cringecommenterlol]

@@sarahusrey5909 not very helpful since not everyone really believes in god or jesus

[@AlwaysEquals50]

Sometimes I just cant deal with everything so I just go to bed to stop these thoughts. I cant stand these thoughts

[@spencerferdula2123]

Hey how u doin

[@seemasone7061]

Not scared of death or suicide but scared of how our loves one gonna react

[@ArcherQueen13]

Exactly

[@seemasone7061]

@@ArcherQueen13 I hope your doing well

[@utterly977]

Yep 😅

[@kendollasign666]

They said we go to hell G if we off ourself but that’s the only thing that hold me back. If we went to heaven I would of be been blew my brains out .I really wish I could go to sleep and stay sleep

[@kendollasign666]

@Jaxk Pazzi keeping score with this life shit is exaugjsting trying to distinguish people who may Like you and who doesn’t or if she’s good for me or not. It’s all draining why not just have to do it no more

[@uhoh8439]

I dont wanna do it but i just think of it

[@xoel.3333]

Please dont do it, you are in this world for a reason ypu have to be strong and all will become better, also try to get helped

[@xoel.3333]

@Joshua Livingston why do you feel like a waste of space!

[@AmnesiaForever]

xoel. i don't want to live anymore. i want to leave this world. i dont feel happy anymore. for 5 years my world has been entirely gray and i cant find solace in anything. im hopeless

[@xoel.3333]

@@AmnesiaForever have you got help from any profesional?

[@AmnesiaForever]

xoel. No. I'm 15 and no one around me really knows how I feel.

[@eggcollection]

I don’t want to die. I just don’t see another way. I just want happiness. I know it’s cliche like duh but it’s true.

[@VEXF0R]

Try adderall it made me happy

[@lial4962]

@Pixelhack normany Jesus Christ with every comment I read I just feel bad for you

[@abelq8008]

I just want to have never existed. I'd take a do over of course, but just to have every trace of me disappear would be fine.

[@Jesussaves.TrustHim.]

You can find real joy and peace in Jesus Christ!!! When you cry out to Him, He will not let you down!!! ✝️❤🫂

[@AwesomeRace7]

@@Jesussaves.TrustHim. shut up

[@Skerriie]

I feel weird, it’s like a sight of relief knowing you’re not alone. There’s so many people out there who feel the way I do, it’s surreal. I’ve always felt alone, left out and misunderstood my whole life, but knowing I’m not the only one gives me comfort. It’s gives me hope, maybe one day we’ll all get better.

[@sarahusrey5909]

Jesus loves you🍃🍂🍁🍀☘🌱🪴🌲🌳🌴🌵🌾🌿⚘🌷🌼🌻🌺🥀🦚

[@Tony-mc7ye]

I definitely relate to that feeling

[@happyeverafter0511]

depression says i have to end this. anxiety says what if i failed? i don't want to be bed ridden😣

[@beendidthat4348]

Why would you want to do that to yourself with the felling of not accomplishing your goals

[@GhostMonkey772]

I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real it’s impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! kzbin.info/www/bejne/e4m0eId_o7WjkLc

[@maripaura4945]

Y E S But deep down I kinda think I don't really wanna do it, it just crosses my mind very often... I simply want to numb the pain. Also, the thought of possibly causing pain to ppl I love is agonising, so in a way I wish I had never existed just so I wouldn't need to think it through.

[@B2727]

That's hits home 🙁

[@rain4423]

Lol at the Jesus people. So you acknowledge that without God there'd be no reason to live?

[@ivyfresquez6706]

i just want to feel at peace. i wish my family didnt need me. i wish i could take back everything i put out in the world good and bad. i wish i could have made my mother more proud. i wish i never gave him a chance because i wont even give myself one. i wish i could just be at peace 1 year update: I wrote this at a very low time in my life. I was struggling with sobriety, pandemic hit, lost my job, my family isn’t the kindest (i’d rather not outright spread hate on them when i know the situation is a lot more complex), i have some ptsd, I may not ever make my mom proud because I wasn’t really what she wanted. But that’s okay, her problem not mine. I’m doing a lot better, I got my job back. I have a wonderful boyfriend and I am on anti-depressants now. I still have a lot of ups and downs, low self esteem. I’m a little more at peace and no longer feeling suicidal for long periods of time :) glad to hear i wasnt alone and some of you understood what i felt. i wish everyone the best

[@ahmedemadlotfymohamed7833]

Belive me you can just try We all behind you u can do it 👏❤

[@GhostMonkey772]

I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. He's waiting. kzbin.info/www/bejne/e4m0eId_o7WjkLc

[@whatareyoudoingdownthere5128]

this

[@Rolfhn]

@Pixelhack normany that's even More depressive, but true, you keep living for your kids but that makes life even more stressful and your own well being pointless, I wish I could just turn off my concience and let my body do the work to provide my family, that would be like dyng

[@maxmorris4562]

kzbin.info/www/bejne/gaDUmYGwbNx3aas

[@rolandkatsuragi]

I know what I want to achieve in life, but sometimes it doesn't seem worth the suffering.

[@keyree2406]

I want to be a vet and be successful but It don’t seem worth it anymore

[@Matchcosplays]

Isn’t it ironic that I want to be a therapist and yet I’m contemplating my own life right now?

[@scottmeager5919]

@@Matchcosplays Not ironic at all, in fact it makes total sense, usually the people that feel broken are the ones that understand other broken people at the deepest levels. I know because i'm becoming a therapist myself and I want to end my life almost everyday mate.

[@scottmeager5919]

@@keyree2406 Hey mate, how are you feeling since you wrote this? quite often the dreams we have don't feel it's worth the effort of the struggles, but once we start making a difference and helping others, including animals our perspectives can really shift, and we can see it can be worth it. And that takes time, we move into that phase when we are ready.

[@runthatback323]

Suffering will come despite being a loser or winner , we definitely know what we should choose , the fact that you dont know how worth it is will be , it means you should try , hardship will come and go , dont bother it bro

[@SuitGuy6579]

The worst feeling is reaching out and no one helps

[@Qwertyuiiop123]

@@SuitGuy6579 Don't do it. Everyone's life is difficult. There are always difficult moments. It's best to talk to someone. If you talk it out, you'll be better. Get yourself an animal, for example. It will also help. And don't listen to others, because they only want you to feel worse. And remember, I still remember you and I believe in you every day. Remember, you have someone to live for!! Call the number on the Internet. You can then talk to someone. Don't hurt yourself. Don't make a quick decision. Please. You have someone to live for!

[@A-KAY-6]

How are you doing?

[@Qwertyuiiop123]

@@SuitGuy6579 Sometimes this happens. Sometimes life is incredibly pathetic. It may seem that nothing makes sense, that nothing is working out for you, that there is no way out. Get through it. Hold on a little longer. Live this one more day. Repeat this to yourself every day. and finally that wonderful time will come and life will finally become Normal. Do it for yourself. What's going on? Maybe I can help you somehow, give you some advice if you say so. Really don't hurt yourself. I believe in you. Don't give up. Take care. What's going on? :( Maybe you will start therapy? Talk to a psychologist? He will definitely help you. Even though you don't know it now and you don't believe it, it will definitely be good and better, it will definitely improve. You just have to be persistent, you can't give up. You always have a chance! Even when you think you don't, just tell me what's going on. How are you? What exactly is happening? Maybe I could help? If you don't give up, things will definitely get better. Even though it's been going on for a long time, you can't give up. Why don't you try yoga? It allows you to calm down and calm your thoughts. Maybe other videos will help? Maybe it's worth trying a hobby? Sports, swimming, yoga? All this helps to calm down tormenting thoughts. Maybe you'll start reading a book? It also helps you calm down. Maybe other videos and websites will be helpful? How are you? Please answer. Maybe pet? Take care! How are you? Try the book "The Power of Now". Eckahrt Tolle. I know many people whom she helped. Try it. How are you???💪💖I'm sending you the love you're missing💪💖

[@Qwertyuiiop123]

@@SuitGuy6579 Sometimes this happens. Sometimes life is incredibly pathetic. It may seem that nothing makes sense, that nothing is working out for you, that there is no way out. Get through it. Hold on a little longer. Live this one more day. Repeat this to yourself every day. and finally that wonderful time will come and life will finally become Normal. Do it for yourself. What's going on? Maybe I can help you somehow, give you some advice if you say so. Really don't hurt yourself. I believe in you. Don't give up. Take care. What's going on? :( Maybe you will start therapy? Talk to a psychologist? He will definitely help you. Even though you don't know it now and you don't believe it, it will definitely be good and better, it will definitely improve. You just have to be persistent, you can't give up. You always have a chance! Even when you think you don't, just tell me what's going on. How are you? What exactly is happening? Maybe I could help? If you don't give up, things will definitely get better. Even though it's been going on for a long time, you can't give up. Why don't you try yoga? It allows you to calm down and calm your thoughts. Maybe other videos will help? Maybe it's worth trying a hobby? Sports, swimming, yoga? All this helps to calm down tormenting thoughts. Maybe you'll start reading a book? It also helps you calm down. Maybe other videos and websites will be helpful? How are you? Please answer. Maybe pet? Take care! How are you? Try the book "The Power of Now". Eckahrt Tolle. I know many people whom she helped. Try it. How are you???💪💖I'm sending you the love you're missing💪💖

[@Qwertyuiiop123]

@@SuitGuy6579 Sometimes this happens. Sometimes life is incredibly pathetic. It may seem that nothing makes sense, that nothing is working out for you, that there is no way out. Get through it. Hold on a little longer. Live this one more day. Repeat this to yourself every day. and finally that wonderful time will come and life will finally become Normal. Do it for yourself. What's going on? Maybe I can help you somehow, give you some advice if you say so. Really don't hurt yourself. I believe in you. Don't give up. Take care. What's going on? :( Maybe you will start therapy? Talk to a psychologist? He will definitely help you. Even though you don't know it now and you don't believe it, it will definitely be good and better, it will definitely improve. You just have to be persistent, you can't give up. You always have a chance! Even when you think you don't, just tell me what's going on. How are you? What exactly is happening? Maybe I could help? If you don't give up, things will definitely get better. Even though it's been going on for a long time, you can't give up. Why don't you try yoga? It allows you to calm down and calm your thoughts. Maybe other videos will help? Maybe it's worth trying a hobby? Sports, swimming, yoga? All this helps to calm down tormenting thoughts. Maybe you'll start reading a book? It also helps you calm down. Maybe other videos and websites will be helpful? How are you? Please answer. Maybe pet? Take care! How are you? Try the book "The Power of Now". Eckahrt Tolle. I know many people whom she helped. Try it. How are you???💪💖I'm sending you the love you're missing💪💖

[@southaussielad2496]

Its not always the feeling of wanting to die, more just not wanting to be here any more. So no one will need to worry any more and can get on with their own lives

[@GhostMonkey772]

I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” kzbin.info/www/bejne/e4m0eId_o7WjkLc Youre here for a reason.

[@LisaColer-ee3ez]

Its like wasting time for no reason. If someone more deserving wants my life to live to be happy, i would trade them in a second.

[@AmosTheTalented]

@@GhostMonkey772Odin is superior to Jesus.

[@GhostMonkey772]

@@AmosTheTalented If that were true everyone would worship odin instead of the living God.

[@AmosTheTalented]

@@GhostMonkey772 Odin saved my life, not Jesus.

[@kizisttv]

I honestly think of doing it a lot, it hurts soo much. I’m really thinking of writing letters to my family and friends. I’ll miss them but it just hurts. The pain is just festering.

[@GhostMonkey772]

I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. kzbin.info/www/bejne/e4m0eId_o7WjkLc

[@mandlenkosindiweni3076]

Try praying

[@VaasMontennegro]

Are you here are you okay?

[@kizisttv]

@@VaasMontennegro im here vigil, recently got the help I needed. Got back into R6 with my friends and it’s been good lately.

[@VaasMontennegro]

@@kizisttv Excellent, play Vigil and spawn kill with BOSG, your opponents will find this video sooner or later after the match.

[@sempermike8644]

I am even scared to get help..

[@stormyd7574]

Try it my love, nothing is more important than helping yourself. Im with you. You are not alone. I know it hurts like hell and you feel you cant take it anymore... Ive learned that not all life grows in the light, somethings grow in darkness. Your life has meaning you are important to this earth. Sending love your way. Keep fighting you can beat depression.

[@negligentdata8307]

Don't be, it will be fine, give it a chance

[@jm4236]

It's a fuckin joke

[@sneakerhead6625]

same

[@thehitman6963]

@@skye-annecollwell-smith9358 Please live for your kids. You won’t regret this decision

[@Kjmystic21]

I don't feel unwanted or unloved, I just wake up in pain everyday and want it to stop and the thought of not waking up seems lovely because I know there will be no more pain felt.

[@PsychHub]

Thank you for your comment. We want you to know that you’re not alone in how you feel. If you or another individual is in immediate danger, please seek medical attention immediately by calling 911 or visiting the nearest emergency room. For 24/7 support, contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline by calling 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or contact the Crisis Text Line by texting TALK to 741741. If you are located outside the United States, check out our description box for links to find support in your area. Please reach out for support, there is help out there and people who care about you!

[@Ton_Of_Hustle]

Imagine living a hundred years depressed & suicidal

[@abelq8008]

That's kind of metal. Like basically living with a roommate that never stops wanting you dead for your whole life.

[@princef632]

Hell

[@scottmeager5919]

@@abelq8008 And being able to say "not today" every day. haha.

[@caseyfalconer7347]

I’m struggling with feeling that way for only 5

[@天天-l9q]

I’ve read a book that a man who live eternally suffer from depression for 3000 years😂

[@remy6978]

My fiancé tried to kill herself last night, i cant sleep. the one time i ignored the signs and this happened. its my fault because if i had only thought, she seems okay why would she change? i gave her space thinking thats what she wanted then she attempted. i lost someone to suicide already and i am so scared. i cry all night, and i am learning as much as i can. I am so scared to lose her i love her with everything in me

[@kaolid]

Get help. I hope all goes well for you brother.

[@sameckman3110]

Remy I am so sorry that this is happening.

[@sameckman3110]

Remy I am also sorry that you lost someone to suicide already. Please know that it is not your fault. It is NOT your fault! She has a lot of pain happening right now, that does not mean it is your fault.

[@sameckman3110]

Remy If you would like to talk/insta DM me if that’ll help please let me know!

[@thagodwecreate5179]

@@kaolid there is no help. Only pain and suffering. Death is the only cure. I live it everyday....trust me...there is no help

[@brent8169]

This video isn’t abt helping the person. It’s just abt keeping them alive, same thing with the hotline. No one wants to help, they just want a better stat board

[@Sarah-bu4pp]

Lkkkkkkkkl. N

[@lusciouslocks8790]

From my position of absolutely zero expertise I would say you’re half right. Whether they want to help or not, they can’t help you if you’re already dead. At the same time though, it is literally their job to keep you alive so…

[@bishal1125]

Yea fuck the statistics of suicide rates. Improving the statistics doesn't help the troubled mind

[@scottmeager5919]

People do want to help. Stopping a single suicide attempt can change the outcome of their life, whether it be another day before they try again, another 30 years or maybe never even trying again. No one can help if that attempt is successful. Every person is different, a person can only be helped if, even just a small part of them, want that help. And it's very hard to help someone that is committed to dying. What works for one person may not work for another. People do care, I care. I care because I want to end my life almost every day, I look forward to dying. I don't want to hurt those that care about me, sometimes the only thing that has stopped me is my dog. And other times, what stops me is talking to others that feel the same way and trying to help them. I have responded to many comments tonight, and i've been in tears reading and responding to almost all of the people you can see, just through their words are lost in pain, because I don't know how to help them, while relating to all of them, while their stories are unique and different, the pain behind them is all relatable. And i totally understand why many don't believe that no one cares, ESPECIALLY a stranger over the internet they've never met! And regardless of how much effort i'm doing my best to put in, I DO understand why they believe no one cares, and the most painful part to me, is even if they do believe either myself, or other people, actually do care, I worry that is just not enough to help them. I am in tears right now typing this. I almost wrote my suicide note tonight, and instead i came here. Because caring about others helps me stop myself from doing something really stupid that will forever damage the lives of those that deeply care about me. And i really hope that either myself or anyone in these comments can add just that little bit to stopping someone out there from doing the same thing i am worried i keep coming close to doing myself.

[@jenniferg.9017]

I just want to say, I get fully why that you fee that way. But I promise you, as someone who volunteers for hotline, I care very very deeply. As someone who has been there, who sometimes goes there time to time, I get the fight, the pain, the intense loneliness. So please know, that when you’re on the hotline, there are people who deeply care. I do.

[@GeographyV]

I sometimes wish no-one knew me, not in a bad way but if I were to end my life no-one would be so mentally hurt and devastated. I'm not sure how much longer I have left.

[@PsychHub]

Thank you for taking the first step and expressing your struggle. We want you to know you are not alone in how you feel. If you or another individual is in immediate danger, please seek medical attention immediately by calling 911 or visiting the nearest emergency room. For 24/7 support, contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline by calling 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or contact the Crisis Text Line by texting TALK to 741741. If you are located outside the United States, check out our description box for links to find support in your area.

[@noahmendoza5200]

Facts

[@sarahusrey5909]

Jesus loves you🐕🦮🐈‍⬛🐈🦓🦌🐄🐪🐐🐑🐆🐅🐒🦍🐩🦙🐖🐇🐿🦫🦔🦘🦨🦦🐓🐤🐧🦩🐢🦜🦚🦃

[@Dean4511]

Hope you're still with us, friend. You may want to try antidepressants from your doctor. I did, and although they didn't make me deliriously happy or anything, they helped a great deal with the anxiety and panic attacks and I've been able to cope with things on a more even keel. Enough to make me rethink my desire to end it all, anyway. Try it, what have you got to lose at this point.

[@BrainrotEntertainment]

@@Dean4511I’d rather blow my brains out before getting addicted to modern medications, you have been brainwashed.

[@darnunt]

We don't actually want to die, we just want the pain to go away and sometimes we believe death is the only way to make that happen. I still struggle with suicidal thoughts from time to time and it took me some time to realize this. I love being alive and doing the things I like but some heartbreaks and problems are so hard to get over.

[@PsychHub]

Thank you for taking the first step and expressing your struggle. We want you to know you are not alone in how you feel. If you or another individual is in immediate danger, please seek medical attention immediately by calling 911 or visiting the nearest emergency room. For 24/7 support, contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline by calling 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or contact the Crisis Text Line by texting TALK to 741741. If you are located outside the United States, check out our description box for links to find support in your area.

[@ayuanabradford3206]

Same..You’re not alone as my suicidal thoughts got worst. People will say to me. “People will care when you are gone as there must be someone.” Here why i think not.. I feel alone..Dad is dead(he was depressed himself after he lost his mom and his second wife disappeared(she didn’t care about none of us,as she made it clearly so his coping skills was drinking). Mom don’t care about my feelings, as it all about her. Siblings are distance and only come to me for family emergency or money. The only guy i though cared about me and was falling in love showed me signs that i felt rejected by him which broke my heart and made me go into self harm. Job is the only thing keeping me on survival and even then. I don’t feel job security.

[@musictheatersix244]

I’m here for my dog. My therapist told me to hold on to that if it keeps me on earth. I could never leave my dog alone.

[@aestheticg0]

Neither can i my dog is like my little brother to me my other half of me

[@Bluurayy]

For me it’s my cat

[@mikewizoski7593]

I try hurting myself after my dog died I miss her, everyone tells me if I take my life I’ll never see her again

[@kaylahbkitty9691]

@@Bluurayy my cat keeps me here people say if I go through with it no one will care for him.

[@sarahusrey5909]

Jesus loves you🐅🐆🐩🐒🦍🦧🐕🐈🐈‍⬛🦓🦌🐖🐫🐑🐏🦨🦘🦡🕊🦅🦆🦢🦉🦜🦚🦤🐊🐡🐠🦕🦈🦖🐳🐋🐬🦋🦭🐟

[@yanico0obadger677]

This video doesn’t help when you consider the fact it’s guiding people to be aware and notice suicidal thoughts from friends and family. But not every who is struggling with suicidal thoughts have the privilege of having friends and family who care about them.

[@Aubrianna-lj7mh]

That is so true.

[@CallMeSife]

i dont wanna die, but i dont want to exist.

[@Kacper-z8z]

how are you?

[@Kacper-z8z]

please dont hurt youreslf

[@fatty1040]

I've been having these thoughts since i was 10. Im 21 now and i realize its never going to go away. I've been in and out of "Mental Rehabs" some were helpful and some were insufferable. Been on medication been off medication. I've called the suicide hotline multiple times even when they hung up on me. Throughout all this i realized that nobody can understand this pain as much as you feel it. We all like to *say* we can but that is just hope, a wish, a chance. The only things thay have ever dulled the burden of this knowledge are 3 objective facts. 1. Yesterday, today, and tomorrow will never be the same despite how you say it is. 2. The Universe is a strange place where the strangest thing ever in its history would be that nothing strange has happened. 3. Random includes you. Although objective is great one thing in my *opinion* that pushed me through everything was my VERY VERY VERY Malleable sense of humor. Learn to laugh, Why you laugh, and understand that laughter does *NOT* need to be moralized. Anything is funny if you try. Learning the fact that satire =/= real life is by far the most useful trait for surviving this. Other people will say feelings matter and somethings shouldn't be joked about. They are *half* right. It shouldn't be joked about publicly but if you are alone or a friend who is as understanding then Humor is something you should NEVER feel guilty about.

[@tatyanaz5622]

kzbin.info/www/bejne/j3usf2uYn7Sfp5I

[@sarahusrey5909]

Jesus loves you!!!!🐅🐆🐩🦊🦄🦙🦬🦝🐐🐆🐈‍⬛🦁🐪🐯🦍🐕‍🦺🦝🐒🐆🐪🦬🐈🐮🐅

[@dopesiiick]

I keep holding off one day at a time but I feel like it’s still gonna end up happening sooner or later

[@rhyswilson9640]

Nothing worse than the limbo of not wanting to carry in but not being able to go through with it because of how others will feel when you leave them behind. So you end up stuck in this perpetual sadness that never goes away one way or another

[@PsychHub]

We appreciate you taking the first step of expressing your pain. If you or someone you know are in crisis, call 911 for medical emergencies or 988 for immediate danger due to mental health symptoms such as suicidal urges or go to the nearest emergency room. For 24/7 support, contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline by calling 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or contact the Crisis Text Line by texting TALK to 741741. If you are located outside the United States, check out our description box for links to find support in your area.

[@yaboyreege7158]

I used to care how others would feel and i still do about some, but for the most part, no one was ever here for me to begin with. Why should I care about them now?

[@highdrangea790]

I've gotten past the "everyone would be better without me" phase and now I'm just completely dead inside and numb to everything. Can't wait for the end

[@PsychHub]

We appreciate you taking the first step of expressing your pain. If you or someone you know are in crisis, call 911 for medical emergencies or 988 for immediate danger due to mental health symptoms such as suicidal urges or go to the nearest emergency room. For 24/7 support, contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline by calling 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or contact the Crisis Text Line by texting TALK to 741741. If you are located outside the United States, check out our description box for links to find support in your area.

[@hectorleon465]

My reasons for thinking thoughts like this is because, I'm 29 and have no friends... I feel like no one is listening to me or no one ever listens to me. I always feel like a vessel to people, I get used, no one ever sees any value in me. I'm unable to drive cause of my health temporarily. I feel like a burden to my family when I need a ride somewhere... either they forget or just don't have time. I needed a voice. Some company no one was or is ever available to see me. I even offered to compensate their gas for driving out to see me. But no not even that convinces them... all I do is work and sleep and repeat... I don't know who to turn to.

[@gagansomal5998]

Do not worry, i know its easy to say but we all are in similar stage that is why we are here. Forget world , find ur own happiness. You are not the only one in ths situation. There are so many people like ourselves who are done but donot give up. Fight with everything for your existence and be a winner. Donot lose battle to depression. Find your happiness by yourself becoz u r the author of your story. Fight ... there must be something reserved for u in ths world.. tc nd dont lose hope

[@heraathenarosales1753]

I feel you. I want this to end.

[@aestheticg0]

yo, i’ll be your friend :)

[@AdiJr-ki9fo]

I’ll be your friend. I understand your situation.

[@Ajeebogh]

Listen. I’ll be ur friend. I don’t have friends either and I have driving health issues as well. I feel like a burden on everyone. I can’t even study because of my eyes. I don’t know how I’m even living through this

[@SatyaPrakash-dj8ix]

I love Suicidal thoughts because they give me relief more than happiness.

[@iluvsubliminals]

Me too

[@SmailINFP-pq5iq]

Yes

[@staytyuned9746]

I'm so sorry for not making my parents proud, for not living upto other's expectations

[@bige4040]

It’s so hard because I am miserable and feel so empty, but I have two children that I feel obligated to be here for. It’s heart wrenching.

[@PsychHub]

Thank you for your comment. We want you to know that you’re not alone in how you feel. If you or another individual is in immediate danger, please seek medical attention immediately by calling 911 or visiting the nearest emergency room. For 24/7 support, contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline by calling 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or contact the Crisis Text Line by texting TALK to 741741. If you are located outside the United States, check out our description box for links to find support in your area. Please reach out for support, there is help out there and people who care about you!

[@TheFracturedfuture]

That's why you shouldn't have children.

[@duw4tn416]

suffer through while u can cuz that just gets cured overtime

[@armykayla9971]

It’s really hard to share these thoughts because of the shame that comes along with them. The shame of not being happy you’re alive and live a decent life. The shame of not being happy for having the basic necessities like food, shelter, water, etc. that others don’t. It makes me feel like a bad person when so many others have it worse than I do. It makes me just want to force myself to change without even acknowledging the issue which really makes no sense.

[@sarahusrey5909]

Jesus loves you🐅🐆🐩🐒🦍🦧🐕🐈🐈‍⬛🦓🦌🐖🦙🐫🐑🐏🦥🦦🐇🐿🦫🦇🦇🦡🐦🦚🦜🐊🦢🦆🦅🕊🦃🐔🐓

[@isolatedanonymous1979]

I feel this so much. I feel like I’m ungrateful. My mom sacrifice so much of her life to make a life for my siblings and I and here I am being suicidal. I have a roof over my head with basic necessities too. I’m also still 19 living with her too so there’s that aswell. I just feel worthless, I have no passion no motivation whatsoever just a receding hairline and hope. My life feel as though as it’s on repeat I wake up go to work, come back home, shower then sleep and repeat the process all over again. I’ve opted against suicide cuz of the shame I’d bring on my mom if I’d ever did it. It’s also feel like it would be embarrassing for her too.

[@armykayla9971]

@@isolatedanonymous1979 I know this may sound cringey, but I want you to know that you’re not alone in how you feel. I’m older than you, and I live at home as well. I know how that can make someone feel. It’s hard seeing peers take strides towards their goals and be super ambitious when I’m still trying to figure out what I even want or who I want to become. I understand feeling hopeless about that or being stuck in an endless cycle. I wish I could help more, but I’m still trying to figure it out as well. I’ve started setting small goals for myself, so I can feel more accomplished each day. Journaling has also helped me release my negative thoughts more. Maybe something like that could also help you. You’re doing the best you can in this moment, and I’m proud of you for still being here. You deserve to find happiness.💚

[@n.s.0222]

Same

[@Punisher1830]

I kinda feel similiar, with all the verbal abuse I get from people, atleast if I wasnt existing anymore there wouldnt be any "complaining".

[@ProjectCreativityGuy96]

I think to myself when standing on the edge of a height/cliff... _It'll be over in a couple of seconds, JUST DO IT!!!! GO!!!!_ But then, i always have the fear of dying a slow painful excruciating death!!!!!!! 3'( I just want everyone to be absolutely pain free, i swear!!!!

[@gabrieljr3089]

Bro just do it on very high building head first you’ll die . Only 1 percent out of 100 survive a jump. If u scared drink a bunch of alcohol you won’t realize what’s happening

[@leopluerodong4244]

What do you do when you don't have anyone and completely isolated? I've lost everything and everyone. All I have left is my mom. And I'm 30. At this point, it's not so much I want to die, as I feel it's my fate and I can't escape it anymore.

[@rogerj2]

Same

[@ingrid12344]

Feeling lonely just feels so bad, I know, because I live it. But one thing that keeps me here is the hope that one day I won't be alone anymore, and I'll be so happy that I'll look back, and all that loneliness, it'll just be a memory of the past. Try to think that way too, hope helps you survive each day.

[@jenab3560]

We can build new connections. We have so much love to receive and give. Dont give up brother.

[@everythingislifetv666]

Girlfriends

[@applememesboom5057]

BELIEVE IN THE NAME OF JESUS AND BE READY FOR THE RAPTURE DO NOT LOVE THE WORLD NOR THE THINGS OF THE WORLD PRAY,READ BIBLE HAVE RELATIONSHIP WITH FATHER!

[@NoFleepash]

I've been battling this ideation for years. It's really tiring when it presents itself.

[@runthatback323]

For what ? Hardship will come and go despite being loser or winner , being poor or rich , we know what we should choose , why bother kill yourself when you know hardship will past , you have desire why not try to get it , achieve it hardship will come anyway , at least be the winner , at least get what you want , you might become someone that really useful for us humanity , stay man ! wtf is wrong with you

[@sarahusrey5909]

Jesus loves you!!!!!!🌴🌿🦝🌱🦁🐻🐵🌼🌺🐮🐺🌷🐯🕷🐭🐹🌸🏵🐝🐛🐼💐🐠🥀🌹⚘🪴💮🐶🐗🦏🐱🐞

[@marcellinoludwig9234]

I'm really done with all the problems I have in my life, if only I can actually put myself to do it.. quickly and painlessly, I'd be glad

[@GhostMonkey772]

I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” kzbin.info/www/bejne/e4m0eId_o7WjkLc

[@SuperVladdrakula]

@@GhostMonkey772 Stop it.

[@GhostMonkey772]

@@SuperVladdrakula Nope.

[@SuperVladdrakula]

@@GhostMonkey772 Sure, you're just a prick, who likes to cause trouble.

[@GhostMonkey772]

@@SuperVladdrakula Nice accusation but its not true. I share the good news of what Jesus Christ has done in my life in the chance that it could help someone from where they are because I understand it myself. Id say about 95% of what I hear from others is positive. Some have even said its saved them. So I don't think I'm going to stop I think you should.

[@curlykidkay]

I thought i wouldn’t live to graduate high school. i attempted senior year. im still alive today and im 20, in college, and things are still hard as hell. the thoughts don’t go away when you get really down. but just remember. you kept going back then, you didn’t know why, but you did. you can do that again. find your reason.

[@santosgarcia3936]

I agree. There are reasons to find to live on, for me it is seeing all the people around me to succeed. However, I feel like some of us get to this point because we're tired of feeling hurt, let down, or miserable so we look for ways out. Quarantine definitely doesnt help with this because of the increased isolation it brought upon most of us, including mine. But there's always something you've yet to experience. So might as well live and see what you might come across

[@crisclay2678]

Hey . I love you . Thanks

[@negligentdata8307]

Good for you, we love you

[@paytonthornberry1382]

The fact you're in college says a lot about you though. I haven't even made it that far.

[@curlykidkay]

22 now, still struggling. just found my comment again lol. im still going y’all.

[@charlesclanor3026]

Some times I wish that I could have a new family

[@x1stxrs]

Same..

[@-mushroom7757]

You can choose family, they won’t be biological sure but you can build one with your friends.

[@roaches7963]

Same

[@V_For_Vigilante]

I wish I could get a second chance in life

[@edhammertime]

I went from 16.5 stone, relatively fit and healthy person, down to 8 stone in weight. Several suicide attempts and eventually OD'd from prescription painkillers, was found and taken to a hospital where I was saved. Prior to that my family watched as I lost all that weight, refused to help and even talk to me. Had to learn the hard way, that literally nobody REALLY cares, family, friends etc, none of them will come to your help. Took almost 10 years of painful lessons and self care to get my life back. But I'll never forget being left for dead

[@PsychHub]

Thank you for taking the first step and expressing your struggle. We want you to know you are not alone in how you feel. We hope you will check out the links to the resources in the description box for where to learn more and where to get treatment and support.

[@yaboyreege7158]

Glad you made it out. I’ve experienced the same thing with opiates. You’re right that no one is really there for you and no one cares. I have had the exact same issue throughout my addiction. I have managed to stay clean but never recovered from the depression and overall trauma that it does to your brain. I still feel like garbage every single day and it’s been 5 years clean now. No family no friends no support system of any kind

[@restrelax6282]

I want to do it and think abt it everyday but can’t bring myself to relinquish my responsibilities. It’s an awful spot to be in

[@victorlima570]

I’m in the same boat. I have suicidal ideations, images of myself doing the act in my mind almost everyday. I had undiagnosed Asperger’s Syndrome for most of my life, and it has negatively affected my life so much that it is easy for me to fall into despair. Something that helps me is the act of practicing gratefulness in some way. I will list on paper or just in my thoughts things I am grateful for, and it tends to raise my mood. Humor is also a good tool to fight these thoughts. I have the entire Book of Mormon musical in my phone, and sometimes they will randomly play and make me smile at the absurdity. This is my emergency humor video: m.facebook.com/SmoshGames/videos/1424713194363479/

[@kumnc4518]

I have been suffering from anxiety and depression for more than 5 years.. sick of my life. I wish I can give it to some who really need

[@Jade-ow6zo]

In school,they sometimes teach you about this stuff,but you never think its gonna happen to you,well atleast thats what i thought.My dad saw my uncle the day he hung himself,and you can see my dads hurt when he talks about it.All i thought was that i wouldn't want to hurt him like that.I've thought about it alot.Everything just keeps getting worse and worse,until one day it will stop for good.Ive tried to act fine and like im ok,but sometimes i just feel like crying and punching a wall so fricking hard,idk it may sound stupid.Sometimes i wonder what it would be like to have never been born.So many arguments and problems would never have occured.Ive done some stupid stuff,and you dont forget things like that.Ive always been afraid to act on the thoughts,because i fear of dying,and hurting others in the process,ik ironic right?Its just a matter of time i guess.Live life to the fullest,and stay safe people.

[@katsuka7355]

I'm sorry you have to go trough that, you can talk to me and i will try to help and make you happy. Please always remember that, what you are today will never be forever. Your depression today, might dissapear at any time. Your suicidal thoughts may also dissapear at anytimes. You said you've done something stupid and it's unforgetable, but think about the good thing you have done. Have you ever make someone laugh? Think about it again and search for the true answer, i know you've made someone happy. Have you ever felt happiness? I hope so yes, and it will happen again. Maybe not now, but maybe tomorrow. It can happen at random times. Have you ever pet an animal? Have you ever feed an animal? Have you ever greet someone? These are the good thing people have done. When someone greets me, it makes me very happy. So i will greet you a good "Hello", i hope that can make you happy too! I wish you all the best and goodlucks. What you are today is not what you'll be in the future. Your life can change at anytime. Sad to happy, angry to calm, uncomfortable to comfortable. And it will repeat. But never forgets the about good moments.

[@wissalibnoutalib2793]

This made me cry, finally someone somehow understands how i feel

[@НеизвестнаяЛичность-ш9р]

I'm with you dude,I understand you.

[@AddaMeirelles]

I need help.

[@mymelody6986]

Adda Meirelles talk to me tell me your Instagram I also need someone to talk to

[@livrennie1551]

@@AddaMeirelles i dont have instagram but if you want to talk on snapchat just reply to this and ill give u my sc x

[@B888-h2o]

Me too, I feel so trapped. Don’t know how to get out of this

[@megha7565]

@@B888-h2o don't worry. It'll get better. I promise. Just keep going; just try. You'll get through it friend, remember even when you feel you're alone, your not. Just Try. I promise there is light at the end of the tunnel. Promise. I'll pray for you. God bless, remember Jesus loves you sooo much,more than you'll ever know and He made you for a purpose. Yes you. He looked down at the Earth and thought there needed to be one of you. Don't worry. Just try friend;just try. THERE IS HOPE :) This applies to everyone :)

[@E.A-x2j]

@@megha7565 well... Ur a good person

[@danica1495]

i would’ve went bye bye long ago if my mom never told me “oh youll go to hell if you kill yourself” but i don’t even know if it’s real

[@Braicuh]

Not worth taking the chance. Live life to the fullest and don't let some little voice telling you to end your life take that away from you

[@oooceanman]

@@Braicuh the funniest thing is.. you can't help a person contemplating suicide.

[@oooceanman]

@James Henry Smith racist how?

[@billytheripper4]

Think she meant purgatory bruh

[@MoonlightSonata88]

Thats why im still here. Im terrified of hell but i dont want to be here or anywhere

[@J-0K-ER]

I have more depressed days then I do happy days and I'm so tired of it

[@gregjohnson203]

My parents cursed me when I was brought into this world. I cannot exit, my consciousness does not agree.

[@cararose51]

I'm struggling with this at the momment, listening to this made me cry 😢. It's so hard to ask for help...

[@jinjinders]

I feel you sister girl. nobody else understands

[@aestheticg0]

Nobody understands but online people.

[@runthatback323]

despite being loser or winner , being rich or poor , hardship will come and go , why bother to kill ourselves when we know its gonna past , nobody being miserable all the time just like nobody being happy all the time , LIVE this shit guys

[@runthatback323]

@Daniel Trushov perhaps you still can do that to someone that you can really trust , or just be a stranger and put some comment , we can access everything these days pretty much really easy

[@galacticlavalamp6338]

I’m not equipped to handle the things in my life. I’m too weak to get strong enough to do those things. So I’m just miserable and everything is piling up and getting overwhelming. That’s when I start thinking about suicide and dying. I don’t know what else I can do

[@GhostMonkey772]

I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” He makes a way where there is no way. kzbin.info/www/bejne/e4m0eId_o7WjkLc

[@TheAtommag]

Many things can change, it can be uncertain how and when, but many things could be better. There are supportive people who would be glad to help. There are different options to feel less pain and feel better. It can take time while experiencing ups and downs, feelings can change and there is chance that situations will be better for You. You could call: (USA) hot line 1-800-273-8255 (you can for emotional support too, or when some thought seems overwhelming, or feeling in danger) Or text (USA) 741741 if you send in sms HOME , a supportive person will contact you. UK: text 85258 , Ireland: text 50808 For numbers of other countries, you could search up the numbers by internet.

[@sajal1951]

This kind of thought comes to my mind frequently. But I know that I'm not too weak to resist it.

[@Sekkaaii]

Last year on December, specifically my birthday. I attempted to take my own life. When I almost did it I thought of my mom. My family and friends, last week I tried the same. A person found me and takes me to the hospital.

[@thatcrazybitttcchhx9631]

It’s just my last thoughts night and when I wake up in the morning. I’m so tired I just think I might do it

[@chillycheesefries6482]

Hey dude I get that you’re feeling like that but you know if you do it, you will never get to experience true happiness and I think that’s a reason you should live. So pls don’t do it

[@GhostMonkey772]

I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” kzbin.info/www/bejne/e4m0eId_o7WjkLc

[@jaydoon4054]

It’s hard. I’m really young and I have suicidal thoughts. And no one listens to me, they just say it’s sadness. Maybe it is, but, the pain is continuously coming back. I am going to talk to my mother about it tomorrow. Or calling the suicide prevention hotline. I can’t talk this anymore, I want to fix me. I don’t want to die, but then I do. What is wrong with me.

[@GhostMonkey772]

I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” God sees and knows. kzbin.info/www/bejne/e4m0eId_o7WjkLc

[@christopher31ck]

I hope you are doing better ! There is a purpose for your life ! There is hope ...

[@mal3541]

Hey I’m here for you, ok? ❤️

[@soniczforever5470]

Got them at 36 😔

[@aarongillett3079]

keep looking for someone who will listen and can help. I know it's not just sadness, but taking your life won't improve things for yourself or anyone. You are a valueable human being. Your Father in Heaven loves you so very much. People around you love you more than you think.

[@nisa-zb8hq]

i just need someone to loved me

[@tajaunellison10r57]

Lol

[@TheDancingMudkip]

Same

[@eljota1633]

May Allah bless you sis you will be ok InshaAllah

[@krystalcarnes2046]

I love you

[@SuperVladdrakula]

Everyone needs it.

[@shesadiamond5167]

24, only been in one relationship my whole life, guys usually don't approach me much, no friends, no social life,i am always an outcast or ignored because of my social anxiety. I don't feel like I belong, or have a place in this world, i am super depressed. Atleast if i were dead, it would end the misery that i feel waking up everyday, the pain, and the hate i feel towards myself... i would be at peace finally. Mental health is no joke.

[@maythazinmyint8703]

I just feel nothing except never ending feeling of pain inside.I don't know what to do.

[@stitch2769]

I don't think I'll live past 16.

[@kris6785]

you can talk to me, i also need help. what is your ig or snap?

[@YoungKeezyLSEU]

Man I think couple months and I’m done also😞

[@kris6785]

JstarJames trust me, ik it might not seem like it and that you are alone, but ik that your family and friends would be so sad and would miss you. there is so much to live for! did you go to all concerts of your favorite artists? did you get to find the love of your life? did you achieve your dreams? pls dont give up, everyone would miss you so much

[@YoungKeezyLSEU]

@@kris6785 I wont find those things you listed anyway but thanks for the words but im not a robot like everyone else and always knew i didnt belong here my birth is an error

[@samfe1ipe]

@@YoungKeezyLSEU why do you say that or feel that way? You don't have to respond I only ask because I'm 21 and feel this way too

[@gurnoorgaming8170]

I can’t take it anymore

[@GhostMonkey772]

I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real it’s impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! kzbin.info/www/bejne/e4m0eId_o7WjkLc "Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest"

[@majeedmuhammadtanveer5835]

Hey, if you wanna talk, you can text me, just tell me what ur ig is or so. I hope everything turns fine soon for you. Don't mind to seek for professional help.

[@5starrdoji]

same

[@moonie2770]

Same

[@NikiWonoto26]

same

[@stephaniesmith760]

I am 18 and depressed… I have no friends and all I do is sleep . Sometimes I ask not to wake up because the pain the and the way my heart aches is unbearable. I call out for help and people might say I want attention but I need help … I went to therapy and on medication but why isn’t it working? Ppl don’t care about what I am sad about , nobody actually listens.

[@BoricuaNyc]

🙏❤️✌️

[@santiagoaray4101]

I don’t think that I’m capable of k*lling myself, but I just don’t care about anything, I just want that one day I go to sleep and never wake up again, and I don’t anyone to talk about it, I don’t get along very well with my parents and and don’t have any close friend, I don’t think anyone would care, maybe for 2 days or 3, but then just normal, I have been trying to avoid these ideas but every day they are getting stronger and coming more frequently:(

[@GhostMonkey772]

I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real it’s impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! kzbin.info/www/bejne/e4m0eId_o7WjkLc There is someone who cares. He makes all things new again. He is always here. "Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest"

[@caramelcrisis912]

do you want to talk?

[@GhostMonkey772]

I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. kzbin.info/www/bejne/e4m0eId_o7WjkLc

[@deefman123]

Im 34 and since i was 8 i have had suicidal ideation with only one or two years of respite from this. i really struggle with this. i just go from one attempt at "starting again" to another. my life is a mess and i just dont like myself at all. i keep making stupid decisions and now im going to lose my job that iwas being supported by during covid, i just wish id caught it now. i gave up smoking in a house full of stoners and every day i have my old addiction pass under my nose. i dont have any savings and i cant afford to just move. most of the people i used to call my freinds dont even recogniser me. i despise everything at the moment. i just want the world and everything in it to fuck off. i have not really lived a happy life. not many people get to.

[@SonjaBlade608]

I'm 38, & have gone through a similar situation. I'm comforted to know I'm not alone. Please keep trying to live Matt!

[@GhostMonkey772]

I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real it’s impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! "“Truly, truly, I tell you, no one can see the kingdom of God unless he is born again.” "Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest" kzbin.info/www/bejne/e4m0eId_o7WjkLc

[@thagodwecreate5179]

Life sucks that's why I get high...it's tha only time I feel ok

[@AlwaysEquals50]

My situation is similar, I hate who I am. I get these thoughts multiple times a day everyday. I'm alone, I had friends. But as soon as I started to smoke weed, they left me, then I started drinking. I am in a job I hate, but because of my living situation, I can't just get another one. Because I live in a small town, I have alot of people limiting my own options as well. Corruption, harassment, loneliness, addiction. It's getting too much. I can't even handle being in a conversation like a normal person because of my anxiety.

[@GhostMonkey772]

@@AlwaysEquals50 I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real it’s impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! "“Truly, truly, I tell you, no one can see the kingdom of God unless he is born again.” "Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest" kzbin.info/www/bejne/e4m0eId_o7WjkLc

[@goofysgone2146]

I’d love to do it, I’m trying to work up the courage to but, I’m afraid of the after effects. I don’t wanna go to hell because of it

[@GhostMonkey772]

I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. kzbin.info/www/bejne/e4m0eId_o7WjkLc

[@GhostMonkey772]

@@Nouvuz I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. kzbin.info/www/bejne/e4m0eId_o7WjkLc

[@TheAtommag]

Many things can change, it can be uncertain how and when, but many things could be better. There are supportive people who would be glad to help. There are different options to feel less pain and feel better. It can take time while experiencing ups and downs, feelings can change and there is chance that situations will be better for You. You could call: (USA) hot line 1-800-273-8255 (you can for emotional support too, or when some thought seems overwhelming, or feeling in danger) Or text (USA) 741741 if you send in sms HOME , a supportive person will contact you. UK: text 85258 , Ireland: text 50808 For numbers of other countries, you could search up the numbers by internet.

[@phoenixrises1311]

Don't worry your going to hell anyway.

[@ihategoogle6066]

@@phoenixrises1311 This world is hell

[@deetothebodyyy9693]

They always think you’re just talking and you’re just sad but it’s wayyy deeper than that, we’re really one step away from death & nobody gets it . 😢

[@bluestang9530]

I don’t want help or sympathy. I honestly don’t even want to die. I just don’t want the life I have and I don’t know how to change things or if I even can. I feel like my “friends” aren’t actually my friends and they just pity me and talk about me behind my back. I feel like a burden on my family. I don’t have any motivation or ambition. Everything seems too hard. My anxiety cripples me to the point of not even being able to go get a haircut. I indulge on my hobbies because it makes me happy but it also wastes the money I don’t make and the time I don’t have. My job is a deadend that feels plainer and plainer everyday. Asking for help is literally the last thing I would ever do. People treat you like youre fragile after that. I went to work with cut wrists and everyone all the sudden felt like they needed to talk to me. Like any of them actually care. I just want to be alone. If I could just leave everyone and everything behind and go live my life somewhere by myself I think I’d be happy.

[@saraali1328]

i feel u so much except i don’t even wanna live somewhere else, alone. i just don’t want to exist anymore

[@bluestang9530]

@@saraali1328 I feel you on that too. I feel like life is precious because I don’t believe in an afterlife, so part of me doesn’t want to waste it. But part of me is so unhappy and dissatisfied with the life I have that I’d rather die and get it over with. There are moments of everyday where I do feel happy, when I get to be home and spend time with my animals or something. But being out in public or at work can be torture some days. Seeing people happy and me just being alone and comparing myself. Anyway I hope things get better for the both of us.

[@saraali1328]

@@bluestang9530 i relate with all of that so much, i don’t believe in an afterlife either. I’m not religious or spiritual. And while i do enjoy some moments of life, I can’t imagine the future. It looks every bleak and i can’t even see myself in the next 5 years. Same, I really hope things do get better for the both of us. Hang in there

[@gyrozeppeli3591]

You girl or boy?

[@aarongillett3079]

I can relate. Keep searching for answers

[@nightsky8012]

I think of suicide... Yes, I don't want to end my life. I just dont want to feel the pain everyday...

[@beendidthat4348]

Why do you hate your life for

[@GhostMonkey772]

I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real it’s impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! kzbin.info/www/bejne/e4m0eId_o7WjkLc "Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest"

[@user-uf7ve4sr4r]

same

[@GhostMonkey772]

I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” kzbin.info/www/bejne/e4m0eId_o7WjkLc

[@nightsky8012]

@@GhostMonkey772 What a nice sharing. Your journey to God inspires me. Thanks for sharing!

[@4Frmcfofficial]

I have these thoughts everyday

[@dakotagower86]

I am so glad that younger me didn’t take my life away from me. He had no clue the commitment he would have been making, and how much better things could be.

[@Qwertyuiiop123]

❤

[@firefaze2285]

I don't wanna kill myself. I just want die in my sleep

[@christiangasior4244]

I’m 37 and I’ve been feeling this way since I was 17. Pretty much daily. I have made attempts and I’ve even been dead from intentional drug overdoses. About a month ago I took fentanyl and drove and ended up flipping my car and now my leg is messed up more and I can’t drive. They had to remove me by cutting the top off with the jaws of life. But yeah I have used drugs to escape although I’m on methadone maintenance now, and the only reason I’m not dead really is that it would devastate my mom. I have literally no life. I tried for 18 years working and then I broke down and now I’m on ssi. I haven’t lived yet and I’m getting old. I’m so sick of hearing myself whine and people literally don’t wanna hear about your pain so I don’t tell people anymore but yeah. I def struggle with this.

[@christiangasior4244]

Also I’m on meds that just make me not like instakill myself. I can’t go off them because that pain will have me dead in no time and I’m very erratic, but yeah I’m just dead inside.

[@gospelflavor4217]

I don't know if you believe in any God but Jesus Christ sees your struggles. Jesus is able to give you wholeness of life that you had before 17. If you can, ask Him silently in prayer and He will help you. Ephesians 3 vs 20.

[@christiangasior4244]

@@gospelflavor4217 Thank you. I definitely am trying to get close to God.

[@sarahusrey5909]

Jesus loves you🌴🐻‍❄️🐡🐷🦊🐨🐴🌿🦝🌱🦁🐻🐵🐵🌺🌸🐹🐭🐠🥀🌹🐞🐱🦏⚘🪴💮🐛🐝

[@ivanberdichevsky5679]

I feel your pain. I also want out of this world as soon as possible. And I have a wife and a daughter.

[@jayeti_1736]

i don’t think it, i feel it and the feeling never leaves, i have nothing to be sad for, i have loads of things that make me happy that are going on in my life but like- i still feel like it

[@J_Baxter]

Sometimes there are no other options. I don't have a family, I have no friends, I lost everything. I was diagnosed with diabetes a few months ago, lost my home, now I'm homeless, can't store my insulin, so Im already dead.

[@ironknightgaming5706]

Dang. Do you still have a job? Get a gym membership and take showers there. Live in a crappy car if you have to or a van. Get a motel if it gets too ruff out there. The hardest part is the loneliness. Try to make small talk with people. Don't go into the details of your life but enough so that you get some human interaction.

[@anniegetchergun]

Two suicides have touched my life in the last year. It leaves such devastation for those left behind. If you can just get through this bad day, who knows what better things can come tomorrow. Just reach out for a hand to hold because there is always a hand to reach out to.

[@SuperVladdrakula]

"who knows what better things can come tomorrow. Just reach out for a hand to hold because there is always a hand to reach out to." That's, like, a universal ultimate deceit and excuse to keep someone suffering. Yeah, who knows what "better things can come tomorrow" when every single day in your existence brings nothing, bot worse things, and there's no such thing as "better". You can suffer like a moron and total loser your whole "life" like that, waiting for some mythical "better things" tomorrow that never comes. And you know why? You know what's the best thing about tomorrow and why it's such a great excuse to dupe someone into fake motivations? Tomorrow is always tomorrow, meaning, not now. And no matter how long you wait and torture yourself to death, it'll always still be tomorrow. Tomorrow's always tomorrow, it never comes and you can never catch up to it. When tomorrow comes, it becomes today, but all "better" things still always remain tomorrow and not _today._

[@anniegetchergun]

@@SuperVladdrakula I've read some of your other comments and I think you're either very unwell, very sad or very angry. Your comments don't help anyone looking for comfort- they just make things worse. So please, either get some help or keep your comments to yourself.

[@SuperVladdrakula]

@@anniegetchergun "and I think you're either very unwell, very sad or very angry." Oh, you _think?_ Indeed, it's a real wonder, why would anyone? "they just make things worse." Then it would be nothing new. "either get some help" _Seriously?_ Don't you have anything "better" to say? Something even more mental and outlandish? It's not like psychopaths like you, with your worthless trash-talk, do _anything_ to help _anything._ "Get some help"? I wonder what else that could mean here...

[@anniegetchergun]

@@SuperVladdrakula Reported for your vile hate speech and harassment. Now do one.

[@SuperVladdrakula]

@@anniegetchergun "Reported for your vile hate speech and harassment." Oh, _that's_ the kind of "help" you're talking. I see. And here I wondered. It's funny when you notice and recognise "harassment" *only* when it's directed at you, but, apparently, it's "okay" when it comes *from* you. It's perfectly fine when *you* kill someone, yet, you get all "bitchy" when someone as much as tells you off. _Very_ telling. Trust me, no one expects anything different from you. No one expected that you would _actually_ "help" things. If someone actually turns to you for "help", out of sheer desperation and having nowhere else to turn, they can only expect you to finish them off. You've only proven it yet again.

[@bowl3rjr.485]

Honestly if things go wrong in my life, at least I know I have a backup plan to end everything. 🙂

[@DesignzRUs1]

I just wanna go peacefully in my sleep.

[@bishal1125]

Share pls what good plan you have? Maybe I can use it too

[@gabrieljr3089]

@@bishal1125 it’s simple and common sense . Buy a rope tie it somewhere high then boom. If you not scared of heights find a building close you’re eyes and boom . If u have a gun easy . If you prescription drugs like fentanyl easy take a bunch with alcohol . Or if you have a car with a bad exhaust system go into a garage close everything let the car run while you inside it wait for about an hour or so then boom u dead

[@gabrieljr3089]

@@bishal1125 I’m using the hanging when I’m ready

[@beatdowngamerfan700]

PLEASE SHARE YOUR SUICIDE PLAN I NEED IT

[@h0llyw00dhoward7]

I wish I never had kids with the woman that decieved me for 7 years who accused me of cheating and come to find out she was cheating and her family condones it. I feel sorry for my children everyday they are with her.

[@JonnyBoi12]

I’m not made for this world. I can’t hold a job down. I don’t feel normal anymore. I’m 27 and a loser. I want the pain to stop. Nobody will miss me except maybe 1 or 2 people. I can’t do this anymore

[@PsychHub]

Please reach out for support, there is help out there and people who care about you!

[@gusposey8218]

One day I'll wake up with the balls to pull the big switch but man, it's not easy.

[@jaylenlenear7850]

I wish I knew what to say but I don't I just know I really dont want you to do it

[@jaylenlenear7850]

Your showing more balls being here man

[@SuperVladdrakula]

@@jaylenlenear7850 Maybe, but also more stupidity.

[@SuperVladdrakula]

I wish you could find peace. Whatever that means.

[@fighterck6241]

I've already given up on my family. Thats the first step. How they'll feel no longer bothers me. It's only the marginal inkling of an idea that things might possibly get better that keeps me here. When that's gone, so will I. No half measures. I'm not going to beg for sympathy. I don't think it would matter to me anyway. Nothing feels real anymore. It just feels like a game that I'm tired of playing. Everything seems so stupid now. It feels good to get this off my chest since I can at least be open about my thought process here. Hopefully I find my path back to meaning but I'm quickly seeing that there are no guaranteed happy endings. I've spent my life shaving off aspirations and hopes to the bare minimum. I'm holding onto my last one or two. I don't really want help. Help to do what? Continue failing to find happiness? Settle for misery? I won't do that. I won't see 70 year old me waiting out my last years with nothing but bitterness, regret and misery behind me. I've seen what people like that look like. I won't be one of them. Death ia better. But I'm not there yet. I'm not asking for help. I can't even find a shrink who gets me or one I feel I can trust. I've seen a few. Not sure if it could help me anyways. You can only polish a turd for so long. Anyways...wish me luck. Maybe I'll find my way. You won't know me but just expressing this makes me feel better.

[@PsychHub]

Please reach out for support, there is help out there and people who care about you! If you or another individual is in immediate danger, please seek medical attention immediately by calling 911 or visiting the nearest emergency room. For 24/7 support, contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline by calling 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or contact the Crisis Text Line by texting TALK to 741741. If you are located outside the United States, check out our description box for links to find support in your area.

[@bajina]

ive been having a lot of thoughts lately. i need help.

[@randomdude245]

i can help you

[@akkum1322]

I need help too. But, we can get through this together.

[@GhostMonkey772]

I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. kzbin.info/www/bejne/e4m0eId_o7WjkLc

[@akrhogaming3315]

Hey. You still alive?

[@Jkan-mx2sr]

I deal with suicide ideation and guilt everyday and only thing that holds me back is my anxiety and fear of death the only fortunate thing that keeps me sane is there are millions of us and I am not the only one who is not okay.

[@PsychHub]

Thank you for taking the first step and expressing your struggle. We want you to know you are not alone in how you feel. We hope you will check out the links to the resources in the description box for where to learn more and where to get treatment and support.

[@Jkan-mx2sr]

@@PsychHub will do thanks

[@gregmacfd3]

Hey you yes you , person I may never meet I just want you to know that your life does matter and you are valued , even though it may not seem like it life can and will get better , you are loved, we need to be kind to each other in such uncertain times , I truely hope you can find happiness ❤️❤️❤️

[@lunarash5755]

Thank you so much

[@Jaidyn333]

Some days are better than others. But it always comes back. I always end up feeling this way again. Everything just feels out of my control and no matter what life I imagine myself living, it seems like nothing can make me happy.

[@PsychHub]

We appreciate you taking the first step of expressing your pain. If you or another individual is in immediate danger, please seek medical attention immediately by calling 911 or visiting the nearest emergency room. For 24/7 support, contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline by calling 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or contact the Crisis Text Line by texting TALK to 741741. If you are located outside the United States, check out our description box for links to find support in your area.

[@tradebankniftywithnoha]

No one can help stress is killing me.

[@FlagraNightwalker]

I’ve been suicidal for the longest time. It scared me how much this video is how I think. I have Aspergers. I struggle to fit in or even have a social life. At work when rush hour hits, I get so overwhelmed I shut down against my will. While everyone says it’s ok, I can hear them talking in the back of the restaurant how I’m “annoyingly slow”. The other places I got fired were the same way. They said everything was fine, but it wasn’t. One way or another they “let me go”. They always find someone who can work faster and understand social cues I miss without hesitation. When I told them I have Aspergers, they talked to me condescendingly. I am an adult. When I try to just be part of the group they disappear. I’m just lonely but they think I’m nosy. I try not to say much because normally talking makes it worse to socialize because I word things wrong. Other times they “ping pong” me. A manager will put me with someone to work with, but that person doesn’t want to deal with me because I make mistakes. So they give me to another person. The worst part is I’m trying my best to function even though it’s hard. I took medication but I still felt horrible. In school I got bullied for being a “good kid” because I don’t like hurting other people and would stand up for the kids who got bullied. I had jelly beans, gum, star bursts, pop tarts, even slime put in my hair. My hair is curly and frizzy and I hated it because I became a easy target. I didn’t have friends growing up and always talked too much because I was desperate to socialize. As an adult twice I got used by two people who I thought were my friends. They constantly made fun of me for being “too white” and told me that’s why I have no other friends, but they were the only ones I could trust. I was so desperate to keep these “friends” I gave them my money, my food, everything I had. Then when I had nothing left, they trashed my home, stole some stuff, and blocked me. Then I met someone who was an Aspie like me. My family knew I had autism but didn’t talk much to me unless they were helping me, but I felt alone because they wouldn’t spend time with me. But this boy was so kind to me and at first didn’t seem I interested in sexual stuff but truly loved me. Because of my religion my parents made me marry him to move in with him. And then I found out he was cheating on me and lying to me. But my mom was so desperate to keep me in the same home as him she tried to make me work it out. Then when I confronted him, he hid all the evidence and for a year, I thought things were getting better. But one day he slipped up and I found out he’s still cheating on me. But I don’t have the energy to fight anymore. I just accept it. I’ve tried to kill myself 6 times. Each time I got too scared or failed. I kept trying to hope and find a reason to live that didn’t end up with me living for myself alone. Each time I tried to make sure it was such as way my body wouldn’t be found, I don’t want my family to see it. They would be sad but I’ve already seen that they aren’t that connected to me. I texted them every day to check on them when I first moved out in 2019. After about two months I stopped to see if they would noticed. It wasn’t until next year, 7 months later on my bday they texted only to see how I was doing. I told them I was ok. They said good and didn’t talk again for another 5 months. I feel alone. I never want to wake up. Every time I do it’s just another nightmare that never ends. I mess up and fail so much. I hate myself so much. I quit going to therapy because as much as it felt good to vent about everything, all I got was more medication and given false hope of “everything will get better just wait”. It’s not 2022. Nothing has gotten better. I just have to accept my life is shit because I’m too scared to kill myself. I’m alone in this unforgiving world. I know I’m not the only one who is in a situation like this. Normally if someone wants to die it’s for a reason. Especially when this is what their life will be for the rest of their lives.

[@PsychHub]

Please reach out for support, there is help out there and people who care about you! If you or another individual is in immediate danger, please seek medical attention immediately by calling 911 or visiting the nearest emergency room. For 24/7 support, contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline by calling 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or contact the Crisis Text Line by texting TALK to 741741. If you are located outside the United States, check out our description box for links to find support in your area.

[@goddessangelique]

I'm feeling really hopeless, worthless, and like a burden on others. I can't find the motivation to be happy, go on social media and chat with others, find a hobby, or live anymore since I don't have much of a future here... :(((

[@PHEROMONE-wz9bz]

Hey buddy u can have me anytime:) Sharing reduces pain.

[@elliottmontelongo3501]

I’m tired of fighting already I don’t want to feel anymore

[@PsychHub]

We appreciate you taking the first step of expressing your pain. If you or someone you know are in crisis, call 911 for medical emergencies or 988 for immediate danger due to mental health symptoms such as suicidal urges or go to the nearest emergency room. For 24/7 support, contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline by calling 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or contact the Crisis Text Line by texting TALK to 741741. If you are located outside the United States, check out our description box for links to find support in your area.

[@sarahbrown402]

I never understood suicidal why people do it, or what they meant that they wanted to live but don’t at the same time but now I do and it’s killing me. I want to tell my big sister but I don’t know who she has got her own family now

[@rici05]

Please talk to her. She will try to help you as good as she can! Maybe she can help you with everything, it‘s worth a try ❤️

[@mismal7008]

This comment section helped me more than the video

[@gregorioeduardo]

If there was a painless way, then I would do it. Eventually I'll figure out that obstacle.

[@PsychHub]

Thank you for taking the first step and expressing your struggle. We want you to know you are not alone in how you feel. If you or another individual is in immediate danger, please seek medical attention immediately by calling 911 or visiting the nearest emergency room. For 24/7 support, contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline by calling 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or contact the Crisis Text Line by texting TALK to 741741. If you are located outside the United States, check out our description box for links to find support in your area. Please reach out for support, there is help out there and people who care about you!

[@cherrycola542]

I've actually had family members say that they wouldn't care if I offed myself, and that they would have no sympathy and not even shed a tear. Even my own mother has said so. The only reason I'm still here is because my dog needs me, I'm the only one who pays lots of attention to her. I've said this a lot of times before, that my dog is the one that saved my life other than fiction obsessions

[@PsychHub]

We appreciate you taking the first step of expressing your pain. If you or another individual is in immediate danger, please seek medical attention immediately by calling 911 or visiting the nearest emergency room. For 24/7 support, contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline by calling or texting 988. If you are located outside the United States, check out our description box for links to find support in your area. You are not alone.

[@phuqaeART]

I've been feeling this way for months and my family won't let me talk and ignore my cries for help. I'm too scared to talk to my friends about it and talking to strangers just makes me more upset. Knowing that it is a simple thing that anyone can do but the ones closest to you just won't do it.. Hurts a lot. Every day this week I have planned and wanted to go away and that feeling is only getting stronger. I feel too much and I don't want to feel anymore. Haven't had a real place to call home in 10 years, I just can't cope anymore. I don't know what I hope for most.. Help or death

[@EllieGrant1]

I understand. It’s so tiring to keep trying to live every day with the urge to let go as strong as it is for you now. Search for Nora Cooper- I won’t write your obituary on KZbin. It might help you reach out to one of your friends because it is likely they would feel that way themselves if you didn’t spend to them. People care about you 💗

[@RealMexFoodShouldntGiveUDrrhea]

I’ve had suicidal thoughts for about 20 years now but more seriously in the last 8-9 years. I just want to disappear and stop existing. I wish I’d never existed. I don’t find joy in things anymore. My family seems like strangers. Things don’t really matter to me or make sense. My life doesn’t have a purpose. Some days the urge us was stronger to just go through with it but sometimes I think, “it’ll get better.” Except I’ve been thinking this for years now. At first it was all the bullying in school and seeing my parents fight and take it out on us. I wanted the pain to go away. And now it’s just nothing. I just don’t want to be.

[@PsychHub]

We appreciate you taking the first step of expressing your pain. If you or another individual is in immediate danger, please seek medical attention immediately by calling 911 or visiting the nearest emergency room. For 24/7 support, contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline by calling or texting 988. If you are located outside the United States, check out our description box for links to find support in your area.

[@LoneCarrot]

I started crying midway through the video and it keeps flowing.

[@GhostMonkey772]

I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” kzbin.info/www/bejne/e4m0eId_o7WjkLc

[@luvrkayz]

2020 has been a bad year for me.....I’m literally trying to hold my tears back while typing this...it’s the same thing every day...the quarantines...the global pandemic....i know that we have all been going through this..and it’s worldwide...but in my eyes it’s just everyday is like a vhs tape, you watch the whole thing and rewind it all the way back to end and do it again...My birthday is coming up next Saturday, and I don’t wanna be here for it...everyone is asking me what do you want to do for it, I just try not to cry...it’s so nerve racking that I’m hesitating between life and death....I can’t find a way to initiate the fact that I do want to be here and live out the rest of the year .. I’m just tired of this life ....I don’t get how everyone have their own custom joy when it comes to this quarantine .....it’s both stress and pain between if I should live or not? I’m not asking for help..I just shared my side of my story...I’ll figure out what to do whenever I make my choice..

[@shwingler8871]

Kayz ツ my birthday is in two weeks, how old will you be? I’m thinking of ending it before my birthday. I don’t know if I will make it to my 15th birthday. I hate to put that on my family but every second is torture recently and I have been feeling insecure lately. I feel bad for my dogs too (if I go through with it). I might not but idk.

[@luvrkayz]

Shwingler I would be 15 and my birthday is this Saturday

[@shwingler8871]

Kayz ツ wow we are were born 4 days apart

[@GhostMonkey772]

I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” Kay if you speak in faith without doubt he will listen. Don't ever give up. kzbin.info/www/bejne/e4m0eId_o7WjkLc

[@goodlife4279]

I dont wanna die... i just want all of this to stop😥... sometimes i ask my self, whyi am here in this world,all this pain, i just want it to stop..

[@sallyjones2501]

I have children but have always struggled with ideation. Have had 2 attempts in adolescence. I love my children so much, I’m getting help now.

[@PsychHub]

Thank you for sharing your lived experience. Asking for help is a vital step. If you are in need of additional support, you can contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 24/7 by calling 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or contact the Crisis Text Line by texting TALK to 741741. If you are located outside the United States, check out our description box for links to find support in your area.