Whatever You Do Don't Stand Out: Mars Retrograde Squares Neptune

[@delanagosa]

Adam you've just about brought me to tears. I have Mars conjunct Neptune. Everything you have stated from growing up with a Christian background, what it really taught vs its intent. Growing up being bullied, taken against your will, being told to sit down and be quiet, not allowed to be an individual which was the tear jerker for me. As I listened in not knowing what you were going to speak about I quickly realized God was helping me understand more of myself. Why I did certain things and showed me the polarity and growth within myself. Gratitude brother... I love that I AM both teacher and student. Blessings!!!!!

[@Here_Today_]

I’m Curious where your Chiron sits

[@delanagosa]

@@Here_Today_ Aries 3rd house

[@AmiyaD1611]

Adam please never stop sharing your and other peoples stories/experiences. Many of us are drawn exactly for this reason to you and your channel. Ironically it is that in itself what makes you ‚stand apart‘ from other astrologers haha (in a good way!) edit: also realized I typed just a tiny bit too soon as you share a bit about this in the last 5 minutes hahah. As a native mars/venus/neptune in capricorn I can relate to so much of your talk from today (and honestly I never looked at this in my chart in that way)

[@monique6451]

Totally agree! I love that you share with us. It’s funny though because I was just thinking recently about how I have never really thought about my Neptune placement much. Literally like yesterday haha and it’s actually squaring a stellium in my 3rd house. I found this episode to be extra enlightening and I can definitely relate to so much of this. Thanks Adam, you’re doing great work!🕊️

[@Brendagail8739]

One of my most favorite parts of your channel is how you integrate your personal stories to show how the planets play out in our lives!

[@Heron_luminary]

I love that you weave your stories into astrology. Stories are medicine . Thank you so much!

[@ashleyfoster859]

Thank you for sharing such profound reflections and your personal stories Adam ❤️ I have a natal Mars/Neptune conjunction within 3 degrees in Capricorn. I’ve experienced various themes of this conjunction throughout my life. Growing up, I was regularly picked on by an older sibling. After prolonged criticism and button-pushing, I started exploding with intense rage. It took me a long time to become consciously aware of what was happening. Suppressed anger can do a lot of damage in a lot of different areas if it is chronically withheld. I’m still often seized with an impotent anger I don’t fully understand. And solace usually comes from acts of courage and compassion.

[@Cali-at-the-beach]

These past few months It's been so wonderful hearing you laugh at life, yourself and just everything. I really missed the lightheartedness and goofy you that I got to know on KZbin years ago. So fun to have that back. Thank you.

[@mermiriam]

Oh Adam, I love your stories, and I hope you keep telling them. That's how I learn, anyway. I wish you and your family beautiful blessings. I'm so glad you have this channel.

[@honeybadger8250]

I don't understand why someone wouldn't want you to talk about yourself. I think you are at your best when you are sharing your personal stories. Haters gonna hate. Lovers gonna love.

[@Wrennexton9593]

You just described me! Don’t know where Neptune is in my chart but I feel that over the last few days I’ve come to realise my voice is relevant and also not for everyone! Great to see because I’ve always felt I needed to hold back my wilful child inside of myself. I totally resonate with using stories of my life to weave a message through to be understood. Wow! I feel lighter and more relevant in who I am. I hope this feeling doesn’t dissipate. It’s taken 60 years to open my voice and message, something big is stirring inside.

[@UranusAscending]

Please don’t stop sharing your (and others’) personal stories. They’re so helpful in understanding archetypes and aspects for those of us who are interested in learning astrology, as opposed to those who simply want a forecast report.

[@vincelfk]

You talking about your own individual stories is exactly what makes your teachings soulful. We've been told that existence is lifeless dead matter.. & thus we tend to approach knowledge & teaching in a very objective non personalized stoic way, not confessing to any pain or the passion & commitment that a painful journey can bestow upon the teacher. How could you separate the things you've learn from your experience when the definition of wisdom itself is experienced knowledge, & truly wise teachers do not center their own experiences to the point of becoming cultist.

[@moxieamber]

One the things I love the most about you as a human and astrologer, is your ability to translate the nature & energy of the transit / human condition through your storytelling. You’re exceptionally good at it. And the lightheartedness, playfulness, gentleness but also deep strength, and sometimes tearful sadness that you show us is so impactful & insightful. Your open hearted sharing is such a gift. I admire and aspire to share as you do, so naturally. I was born into a high control religious cult, with Christian undertones. Twisted fuckery & mind control. Taught to mask all of who I truly was. That I, as my authentic self with passions & desires was not acceptable. It’s taken a long time to unravel and allow myself to be human. To even get to know who I am. You help me greatly to be more comfortable sharing from my heart and learning to accept and show all parts of me. Now I assist others through hypnosis to see behind their masks. Which is so deeply rewarding. Funny that I’m still somewhat behind the mask of that. The woman behind the veil. Ha! I truly believe that when we share our authentic nature in alignment with our soul passions, we light up the world with our gifts. Never stop. ❤

[@LuminosityYoga]

I have been under unexpected emotional-physical challenges for the past week and was looking for some insights on your channel this morning, Nov 19, and came across this video. I find your examples, stories, quotes extremely helpful. Having Mars in Gemini conjunct Saturn opposed Neptune in Sag natally and can definitely relate to so much of what you’re saying, seeing these themes having played out in my interaction with others as well as with myself for some time, which leaves me with a mixture of astonishment and excitement- Thanks for shedding a light on this! I always enjoy when you and others share personal stories, very valuable and insightful, and I do often chuckle as you read them out (not in a spiteful manner but more cause it’s all so human). Love from Berlin, Anja

[@reykkid]

I can’t express enough how much I enjoy your story telling, personal or otherwise

[@chrysalis-sanctuary]

Thank you for being so open about your feeling and experiences. Please don’t allow anyone to still your voice or make you feel that you must stop sharing yourself. The very fact that you are so honest and share your personal experiences so openly with us is the reason you are my favorite teacher. I can get dry facts from anyone or from any book, but from you I get so much more! You are a great example to me today as I have personally shut down because of the comments and reactions of a few unkind people who know nothing about me. How many people now aren’t getting the real me? You’ve made me think about my own reactions to criticism and how to discern what’s constructive and what comes from other people’s unresolved pain. My most favorite thing is when you get to laughing about the absurdities of your life. Please, don’t ever stop sharing!! 💚

[@marisajesus43]

I love it when you share your personal stories. It gives astrology a body and a human experience. It's actually the parts I love the most, cause sometimes it is so difficult to integrate everything you know about astrology in real life. Thanks Adam.

[@melss94ish]

I have Mars in my 3rd house at 29° Cancer (conjunct my IC) opposite Neptune in my 9th house at 20° Capricorn. It's a pretty wide orb but I can definitely attest to feeling like I'm always searching for that group or that feeling of belonging where the ones I am around share my same views/willingness to expand in spirituality and life itself. I love following astrologers who create that sense of community through raw and vulnerable openness, as you do. My Scorpio stellium also needs to feel the depth and hear stories for me to feel like I'm gaining value. So glad to recently have discovered you and be here now.

[@irshadazeez4764]

31:18 😆 38:00 Your personal stories help elucidate what your interpretation of the planets is.

[@lorella1904]

Wow! As a Mars square Rx Neptune native, this explained the patter of my life so accurately; it’s incredible! Thank you so much!

[@autumnrosenberg5192]

I love your stories and the stories you share from other people. Please continue it does really help create a visual for the astrology. You can’t please everyone all the time. Thank you Adam I really appreciate your videos.

[@alealani]

This is one of the best astrological reports I’ve listened to in a while. Thank you! I have been feeling a lot of tension around my own desires and free will and the community I am a part of. I have been criticized a lot in the past week for taking a stand for what I want rather than being someone for others. I am learning to trust my own instincts even if they aren’t in agreement with the collective. I have been feeling alone, which I rarely ever have a problem with, and yet choosing to stand strong for what I want even if it means that I don’t agree with others around me, especially with those that tend to be affiliated with the church or a spiritual group or a group of people who has been a part of my life in a collective way. I also grew up with other kids whose parents & my mom were in a spiritual group and we were all vegetarian due to this. I felt a strong feeling that staying vegetarian was a moral decision that I had to make in order to receive the support of that group. I have learned to find balance with this and have healed a lot of orthorexic behaviors that had me very sick from not questioning these beliefs and if they were authentic to my own truth. I have been and continue to question these beliefs and others which I have been conditioned into. I have chosen to individuate in ways that sometimes make me feel separate, and ultimately closer to life because of the authenticity of my own experience, rather than looking outside myself for that direction and approval. I love that you come from the personal stories, they are much more impactful for me and show your connection to the energy you speak of. Thank you for being different, standing out, and sharing your stories. It makes a difference & helps me to not feel so alone in my own ways of being. No Mars Neptune square, unless you count a 20 degree orb, in my chart, but a libra sun opposite my ascendant in Aries seems to speak to the individuation aspect in many ways and is highlighted greatly in my life at this point in time with the current mars neptune transit. #grabbed

[@ExpressThisMess]

Aries Sun opposite my Asc in Libra. Have had similar experience. Recently I have really felt the desire to speak out and to be very straightforward in my communication. Neptune is also squaring my natal Mars in Gemini in the last weeks. I am literary in awe of the current energies.

[@jenbodhi1133]

This one is intense, I’m feeling it, I have mars sextile Neptune, Scorpio rising so this transit is hitting my 5 th and 8 th house. I’m definitely battling issues of hidden rage and alcoholism. I’ve been working through it though, I’ve been painting, enrolled in university and have been staying away from the wine bottle- in an inner war with myself and my past. I’m working on ways to express myself and escape through art and education instead of alcohol and other things This was extremely helpful thank you

[@suesjoy]

Have you tried AA? It was the only way I could remove my obsession with alcohol. Weed…well…different story!😅

[@jenbodhi1133]

@@suesjoy I did try AA, I’m just really anti social in general, Scorpio moon, Scorpio rising, Capricorn sun lol I am not shy, I just genuinely don’t like being in groups or around people in general. I found staying away from men and dating entirely, and cutting back on workaholism seems to be helping a lot, If I go home and just paint, cook, listen to music and study I’m ace, no desire to drink. I think men, boredom and overworking to exhaustion are my main triggers. But I do have the AA book and I read it, every once in a while I’ll stop by a meeting if I’m about to go off the deep end again 🥴 I’m glad you got free!

[@Khizzle007]

I admire the path you are on, many people hold onto their pain because they fear to face it. Don't be afraid to sit with what makes you hurt. Just because you are fighting against those feelings doesn't mean they don't come from somewhere valid. It is only through resting with and attending to our pain with compassion that we can be free. Good luck in good faith.

[@jenbodhi1133]

@@Khizzle007 aw thank you so much! Yes, I’ve been learning to sit and accept the pain and let it flow, I’ve spent my entire life suppressing- which I think has created the alcohol problem in the first place, and using relationships and overworking to distract myself from it, then when it becomes overwhelming, to start drinking. I’m getting there slowly. Thanks so much for support!

[@RayThaFox]

Mars opposition Neptune here! I loved this episode so much. I really enjoyed the passage and you personal stories, I connected with them deeply and I always appreciate when people openly share about their journey with sexual abuse, I think it’s important to be open about those things and not keep them trapped inside or feel ashamed about those experiences.🖤

[@gme5400]

Liz Greene nailed it! I love your stories Adam. Never stop. 🙏🏽

[@TulipIris7244]

Adam, I have been listening to your videos and stories for over five years. I love your stories and how you bring in your personal experiences to explain the transits. So many astrologers just go into great detail about all the planetary transits happening - Mars retrograde is squaring Neptune and Venus is whatever watch out! - with little to no translation of what that means. They’re so into astrology that they have forgotten how to communicate what is going on to those of us who are learning or too involved with other things to do a deep dive into it. Then others give such vague interpretations that they’re not helpful. Your stories are on point, charming, and instructive about the often nuanced expressions of these transits in daily life. Please keep being you. ❤

[@shekwaga]

To each his own but I love personal storytelling because, amongst other reasons) you see the theorized application to real life.

[@animir7631]

Decent indeed! I started to imagine an endless ocean of angry Poseidon, while Ares’ flame is held, gently protected by a lotus flower floating on the surface…subjected to the will of waves, moving with the tides without being squelched. 🌊 🔥 🪷 ❤

[@kelliem2506]

I love your stories Adam and am grateful for your willingness to openly share them 🙏🏻 I have natal Mars conjunct Neptune in Scorpio . It’s funny that when I became interested in astrology, I also wanted to know what was up with Mars in my chart lol. Intuitively making a connection to being bullied in elementary through middle school.. I remember boys kicking me when waiting for the bus at school, girls threatening me and even women co-workers up to my mid-thirties. Why I could never stand up for myself but wouldn’t hesitate for others.. in my 20’s I became the “Defender of the Defenseless”, as a pretty fierce animal rights activist. A cause, almost a religion, much bigger than myself. I’m also grateful to have completed your 2nd year course this year! I was lost before I found astrology. Pisces Moon and rising, Neptune is conjunct my natal Moon, opposite Mercury 🤪, a nice little T-square while squaring Mars and I’m pissed off a lot of the time, a sign based trine to natal Mars/Neptune, will cross my ascendant when it goes direct. 2 marriages with abusive/narcissistic men, sexually pressured. I’ve been single since 2014 but 2 months ago started dating a guy, found out he likes to drink and soon found myself liking it too because I was lonely, stressed out and wanted an escape. When I finally asked if I could bring his chart up, I find he is 29 degrees Gemini rising with Mars at 26 degrees! War-mongering fixed star Betelgeuse is at 28-29! My growing suspicion of narcissism confirmed 🤦🏻‍♀️ 😂 That’s over and no longer going out for drinks. With Mars Rx transit in my 4th house of Gemini, I’ve been working like crazy on finishing repairs to sell my house (though likely too late), I sliced my finger open with a blade working on my house last week! You cannot make this stuff up.. but at least I’m laughing right now 😅 There is so much more and without astrology, I would likely be in the looney bin. It not only gives me some understanding into life’s mysteries, but lights my soul up every single day. Thank you Adam! 🙏🏻✨🙏🏻✨🙏🏻 #grabbed

[@andreasavar4472]

Your personal stories and how they connect to the transits are one of the things I find most profound and helpful in understanding the astrological transits and archetypes. ANYONE can read off a bland list of what is happening in the stars but you give it life and help those of us who are learning see how these aspects are truly lived by generously weaving the examples with your own experiences. I am deeply grateful.

[@reyihangulialimujiang6402]

Your stories make the astrology part much more real and concrete. I somehow feel seen while listening to your stories because they elicit genuine understanding in me. Please keep sharing the way as you see fit!

[@sybersandy]

Thank you Adam, sometimes, when I do adopt one particular aspect forming, I do come over to see what you think about that.Your choice of text for this aspect hit the jackpot, just what I needed to hear to complete a personal puzzle. Last night I dreamt of huge, Mammut-size, healthy, imponent, muscular and somehow aggressive and wild horses( Mars, passion, drive) , one black and 2 white ones, travelling on a river in boats( Neptune- water).The image was horses floating along the river( mars- moving towards a destination). I was standing next to the river, where a gate opened to release these horses, making them way to embark on the boats.Storming out one of the white horses stopped in front of me, made a warning few deciseve steps towards me , forcefully turning his head to give me a respect inducing look like Asif it wanted to say" get out of my way, I can trash you easily, you have not even a small chance to holding me back. Yes, I can run over you but I will not massacre you just because I can". So respecting the Mars in ourselves, our passions, will, goals and personal path, will eventually make the other parts of ourselves, maybe the reasonable parts, and also other people respect our personal journey. Personally I do have Mars Chiron inconjunct Neptune. For me it also checks the box of an episode of sexual abuse in childhood, Liz Greene talks about. Mars being in the 9th- my goals, believes, the believe in myself have unfortunately always been crippled and undermined by my parents.Thanks God I also have an Uranus aspect that let me rebel against that and doing what I wanted anyway. I think it is also a good time to see into one's own buried and unexpressed anger and resentment. Greetings to whom might happen to read that.

[@liangnina322]

Please keep sharing your personal stories because I enjoyed them so much and I can feel more connected to your channel. Also, I learned so much when you combine your story and insights with the transit. So just ignore those critical voices since there always will be people who has different preferences. You are doing an amazing job!!!

[@brianesmond6563]

One of the reasons I enjoy your podcast so much is because you do talk about yourself. Don't stop. It's worth noting that my previous astrology teacher who wrote extensively about synastry went through a divorce and as far as I know never mentioned a word which could of been a teachable moment.

[@patwest1925]

What recently helped me solve the paradox of individual versus immersion in larger community was the image of nested dolls. Perfect and complete within myself, yet a fractal of the whole, mirrored on increasingly larger scales of magnitude.

[@teresa3070]

I love stories. Brings it all home.

[@DariaOrionova]

People who "can't stand that you're sharing personal stories" might be the ones who never found in themselves to open up to such an extent. It's raw and it' might not be everyone's cup of tea. It's also really courageous. So keep it up. I love that you're sharing personal stories, and really appreciate your thoughts on them and lessons learned. 🙏

[@renapoole7742]

And u did a fantastic job with everything you did in this content. And I absolutely love your stories,reading and talking about your own personal experiences is great to me and I thank you again for helping up us sharing your knowledge in astrology. Thank you Adam thank you!!!!❤

[@DawnFischer25]

Never feel bad about sharing! Sharing is healing for us external processors. Do your work. And be seen and let them work on their healing as they need.

[@pmzerbe]

I now understand myself. Thank you so much Adam......

[@proudjewsara]

Neptune's been squaring my natal Mars pretty much all year - it's exhausting!

[@elizabethbryan7601]

Mars in Taurus 12th house. Also in 12th is Venus & Uranus in Gemini. You have described my 77 years! Thank you. Your words are very enlightening to me.🙏❤️

[@MariaHernandez-ot2nc]

I am so grateful that you share your personal stories, it makes your channel so personel and special, I also adore your reflexions on differents astrological events or about the signs. I never learn so much as when I listening to you! Hope I can join your teachings groups next time, cause I think you are a great teacher!

[@FWQ-14]

The value of such richness and complexity that abounds from your shares, integrating more humanity towards our crazy crazy human facets. That’s where I realise humanity and human stand as such paradoxes

[@michelledraper4891]

Keep telling your stories. I love them. They are so informative. I learn from real life examples. This is why I have followed you for years and why I decided to become a student of yours. Best

[@adebowaleadesuyi1347]

Your stories are you strength and that is what makes you unique in your council and teaching.

[@hollycourtney221]

Being a early degree Libra Ascendant, at times I get (and feel personally) a lot of backlash because I naturally find myself being that “cliche” Libra person, always relating to others. And it’s not because I want to talk only about my experiences but because I can honestly relate and understand or sympathize and if I can help others in anyway with things that helped me in similar situations, that’s my main goal. While listening to this discussion today when you mentioned storytelling on your channel between yourself and viewers, I kept thinking to myself that this is one of the major reasons (Astrology education aside) that I love your work and your channel. The storytelling resonates a lot and it’s extremely nice and healing to know that we as humans are so similar and do go through similar experiences. I always feel understood and accepted here. Thank you!

[@twofishbluefish]

As a mars conjunct neptune native, this was much appreciated. The together / apart resonates so so much, as did many other themes for me. Thanks Adam!

[@debpalm8667]

The most valuable asset of your content is making it relatable. If you stop then you will be another one of the many. Please don't stop telling your stories and asking for ours.

[@thrinedemol]

I LOVE your personnal stories. They are why your astrology channel is singular and interesting and fun, and why I keep coming watching your videos ❤

[@crystallinecrow3365]

For what it's worth, Adam... I've always LOVED your personal stories.

[@brightwithspirit]

Your personal stories ADD to the enjoyment and understanding of the lessons! Especially for people new to learning, it sure helps to have examples and who doesn't want to know about their teachers!. Xo

[@renapoole7742]

I needed this . Thank you!!!!

[@Rosa2O6]

Adam, we love your personal stories. Personally (😌) it’s how I learn best. So, thank you!!

[@MollyBeaneFromMollyWithLove]

I’m a Mars opposite Neptune person and I resonate with a lot of the personal experiences you mentioned. Keep sharing yourself!

[@lunablu8278]

I totally feel that dynamic tension. Thank you for bringing awareness and acceptance to this

[@kcowgirl7840]

Grabbed: I have Uranus 23 Gem conjunct Venus 26 Gem and Desc 27 Gem. The transiting Mars/Neptune square showed up when my first husband died last week. Our marriage and divorce occurred about 50 years ago, but we reconnected as the good friends we always were and fellow disciples of a great Master about three years ago.

[@CanadaDhryyy]

Thank you so much for this! This really spoke to me. I was also in the church as a worship leader and what you said ring so deep in my heart! It’s been 4 years since i left. I like it that way. Thank you for your stories. That whole stand out but not too much was the theme for me in those years

[@Jen-dp9yd]

Hey Adam, just wanted to say thank you for all your amazing work, you are so calming and comforting to listen to, and I personally absolutely love hearing your personal stories! I hate when people don't share anything, as a scorpio rising with sun and Mercury in my 8th house, deep personal real stories are the most riveting! So please never stop sharing and standing out! Much love 😇💖

[@MiauxCatterie]

only selfish people don't care about your stories. I love them. I'm here for your version of astrology breakdowns for a reason.

[@NumilyMiu]

This talk was super powerful for me and touched me to the core. I listened to it after I had a really strange and chaotic gemini-neptunian type of experience during the day. I came to the wrong building to visit a doctor, then got to the right place, but the doctor couldn't see me because I was late, I lost my medical insurance card there and then had to get back to the initial place to make a new appointment. I have scorpio ascendant and cancer mars conjunct gemini mercury and NN in the 8th house opposite Neptune in the last degrees of Sag. Sometimes I just get lost in time and space, become disconnected from my gut and will and quite easily suggestible by others, and realize it only later. My first profession was dancing, I practiced kundalini yoga for many years, I need much body work and busy schedule to stay connected and alive (I have also Saturn/pluto sextile to my Mars), it seems that I was born with much baggage that I release during my life. It's been not easy to assert myself, my parents were quite narcissistic people, not taking into account my will and wishes. In my 30s I started feeling like I'm traumatised, but I don't know when and how it happened. This Gemini mars really makes me reflect about these patterns. Listening to this talk made my cry.

[@montedolce]

The episodes where you bring in your own stories and chart are the very best, I'm always fully captivated.

[@Shine_the_Light]

I enjoy how you, by sharing your personal stories, make me laugh, make me cry, and help me learn deeper aspects of astrology. Much love ❤️!

[@brydenvargas9863]

I love when you share yours or other's stories, especially when their experiences differ from my own, part of the reason why I love following artists whose work looks very different from my own art. The idea of someone being offended by a person sharing their own story is just hard for me to wrap my mind around. I noticed people who criticize things like this tend to have a hard time telling the difference between self love and narcissism and often times conflate the two.

[@marygeorgiewska6738]

What is the orbit of the square of Mars and Neptune?

[@newjupiter862]

Thank you so much Adam. This is a really big help to understanding some of the volatility that’s been showing up in various ways in my life and to understand the connection of mars Neptune in my own chart, hopefully others as well. That reading was 👌

[@LunaticAstrology]

Born with a waning Mars in Pisces trine Neptune in Scorpio and this has looked like mystical and transcendent experiences without religion -- shamanic trance journeys, ecstatic dance, spontaneous awakenings. This on-going Mars Gemini (5th house of romance for me) square Neptune in my 2nd, showed up as Oct part one -- seeing through -- in a rude awakening -- my fantasy of a new romance with a man who was love bombing me,. To me, its Mars cutting through the neptunian foggy illusion that had me spell bound beginning in JULY, that this was a viable love story. This weeks retrograde pass looks a lot like a deepening into my own understanding of how I was complicit in this unreal fantasy love story, and seeing patterns life long where I delude myself when it comes to romance. Will be interesting to see how next march last square plays out. PS: love your story telling Adam, that is what brings astrology to life. PPS: when transiting Neptune crossed over my natal mars in 2019 activating my natal Mars - Neptune trine, I channelled two books, The Coming Age of Miracles, and the Way of Miracles. #grabbed

[@PhilosophiCat]

For the record, I love your stories 🙂

[@severinenocturne9830]

I feel as though I personally struggle a lot with sharing my experiences in a way to relate to someone and some people take it as me making a conversation about me. Not everyone gets it but a lot of my close friends do and we appreciate sharing with one another

[@Heather_J]

Lol your life cracks me up!!! I’m in your Nighlife 24 class, but I am 46 as of this weekend 🎉 I also love stories ❤ I have so many of the same types of stories as you. I love that you can laugh at the sometimes ridiculous parts of our lives as I do…don’t stop telling stories!

[@leneonlights]

27:30 Adam, thank you for sharing this story. Internally I have been thinking the same thing over and over again. I was baptized a catholic in the Philippines as a baby, went to a private school for a short time, and learnt so much about the catholic/Christian belief. My father is a devout born-again Christian, my mom is catholic. Seeing how they always have fights and arguments growing up in my teens about which religion is best or which is worse. I grew a lot of fear and started questioning my own beliefs once I left home at 17. My father still thinks I’m going to a Christian university…I have not told him or anyone in my family about this change I’m experiencing. Transiting Neptune has been squaring my Natal Venus in Gemini. Maybe it’s a part of it, maybe it isn’t. I’m still at this stage where I cant openly explain that My beliefs are making a whole 180 degree change. I am a part of the nightlight astrology course that started 11/12 and ever since then I feel that my soul is happy that I’m finally taking that step to learning ancient astrology and dive deeper into my passion for it after years of hiding. And a quick edit cs I had to check my chart again 😅 I’ve got mars in Aries square Neptune in Capricorn 😂

[@blesseddanzy8552]

You will love his courses!

[@leneonlights]

Yes ! 😭 I feel that this whole year in the first course will be an eye-opening extravagant,knowledgeable, and spiritual experience already. Adam and the whole nightlight astrology crew have been amazing and have a welcoming presence. Even my classmates are a beautiful group of people 🥹❤️

[@KatVader99]

Brilliant….thank you 🙏

[@mysticmountaintemple]

I always learn best through the value (and wisdom) of personal experiences that have been "yoked" into pearls to be shared with others. Thank-you for your great work Adam. I enjoy your channel very much.

[@jenbodhi1133]

I love that you tell your stories, it’s one of my favourite parts of your channel

[@vcooper56]

My battle cry lately has been, "I'm here for the individual, not the collective." I already feel tapped into the collective through my online activities and meditation practices and that I am simply a translating channel for the individual who wants to hear what I have to say. I find myself needing a lot of time alone and more rest.

[@jessicasantiago6262]

Your stories are really the cherry on top of your talks, they really ground this cosmic energy and have helped me understand how these planets can express themselves in our lives. Don't let those criticisms hurt you, you just gotta keep being yourself and expressing that. We won't be everyone's cup of tea and that's ok, they can move on. Thank you for the depth and dimension you bring to this field, I look forward to your videos everyday. Peace be with you brother.

[@pangia8]

I really enjoy the tangle of personal story with current theme of the planets Being an indivual who is very sensitive to someone just mentally and verbally masturbating about themselves, under the guise of imparting knowledge about any subject especially Astrology I think your blending really helps with the understanding be more than just concept

[@ginni6286]

Ok i love that you talk about yourself and share your stories. Always insightful, and learning through your experiences and examples. Never mind the naysayers Thank you for your work. Have a great week

[@laurelscotson9071]

I Love you Sharing your Stories!!!

[@catceedee]

heartachingly relevant, thank you for not dimming your light and for sharing your human.

[@jewelair123]

Wow I really relate to this. I grew up in a Pentecostal church, preacher’s daughter, and we also sang “I’m in the Lord’s Army.” I didn’t know if I had a Mars Neptune connection but I do have So Node in Aries 4th and Neptune in Sagittarius 12th and the Aries squares my Mars in Cancer. I remember how often I felt that conflict in church and other places, being very emotional and feeling like my will wasn’t important in the group and trying to just be a team player when so much didn’t feel right to me. Currently Neptune is opposing my sun and Mars is squaring it. The stories really help!!! ❤

[@carlyhardy3428]

Was the son of a preacher man!! 🎵😂 apologies couldn't resist.. I personally love the story telling element to your channel Adam. Personalising the transits helps me a lot when interpreting my own chart as well as the collective, I find it inspiring. This is the main reason I chose your program to study helenistic astrology with! I appreciate the Neptunian vibe of painting us a picture using your own true life stories, to then interpret the transits for ourselves. This is the kind of Astrologer I will be for sure 😁✌️I have Neptune opposition to my cancer Asc!

[@alchemist8064]

I have neptune in Sagittarius in my 1st house in an opposition within 2° of my mars in the 7th in Gemini. I was also sexually abused at 4-5 years old. When I had finally gained the courage to tell my mother about what had been happening to me I received no support or comfort from her. I was Ultimately left to deal with those very heavy emotions and the psychological damage caused from the abuse and also the with holding of support from my mother alone as a 5 year old child. This traumatic event was internalized. Looking back over my life I can see how this effected me. I have struggled with ego assertion for my entire life. It not only feels wrong to do so but because I also received a very strong message as a child that I would be rejected, unheard and unseen if I did. At the same time I am blessed with the capacity to love almost transcendentally. My pursuits of seeking a deeper relationship with tge divine have changed my perception about love....to transcend the ego to the point that I now see sex as unnecessary and primarily a very ego driven act. I am looking for a deeper expression of the sexual act and something that transcends the ego part of it. Certainly this exists? Lol. I have done an enormous amount of internal work to heal and bring to light the shadows of my childhood trauma. I've only discovered within myself a vast and beautifu endlessl ocean of love. It is almost bittersweet because it cannot be contained and so i continue to seek endlessly.

[@tehjabberwocky]

Neptune has been squaring my natal Venus all year basically. I have experienced that romantic relationships based solely on lust completely fall apart under this transit. Mars turned direct exactly opposite my natal Venus and I have completely lost interest in relationships based on this extreme lust. Even as mars entered Gemini late this summer I had some huge realizations about how I use my leaky sexual energy and then play the victim that needs to be done right by the perpetrator and I completely stopped dating in the way I was approaching it, which was essentially just to have really great sex (mars in Capricorn native! Lol) I have mars and Neptune copresent nataly and have struggled with addiction since I was a young teen, especially around my 4th house profection year where I have a Capricorn stellium where Neptune and Mars reside (Uranus, Mercury, NN, IC as well). For the last 5 weeks I have been sober from weed and alcohol and sex, a big step for me. This sobriety happened to prepare my first peyote ceremonies and I'm not sure I can ever return to how I was living before. I have been a literal hermit since and it feels right and natural right now because Ive been working on some personal projects that take a lot of thought, research, and skillful execution. Mars is currently transiting my 9th house.

[@ginahaber3224]

All of it, yes! Not quite a conjunction but co-present, just separated by south node. So I’ve had the addictions, the dark sex - on both sides of the power dynamic, the reclusive separations and strong pulls to join and belong. I’ve got strong creative and terpsichorean gifts, and also a rebellion against work - which plays havoc with my Capricorn sun guilt. You and Liz nailed it! And you are a master of stories, don’t quit!

[@JackiefindsJesus]

Love the stories ❤

[@amylynne1817]

Found this very interesting as a native 4 degree mars-Neptune conjunction in Capricorn. I work in adolescent mental health and addictions

[@healingwisdomarts]

#grab : my natal Mars & Neptune are 29 degrees in Libra ,,thank you for this Vid Nightlight ! I thought I had learned helplessness from my mom , but this makes much more sense and now I know what it is im working with ,,, much needed & very helpful ! All the things you spoke about I have been thru and then I started having panic attacks , my dr said they were from " REPRESSED RAGE " . Astrology is truly our blueprint into the Soul & our compass in a dark sky . Blessings ! 🙏 NIGHTLIGHT ~`~

[@vcooper56]

I am so amazed to find you and that you are reading from Liz Greene, who my mentor Betty Lundsted published here in the states under the Weiser imprint. It's like she is visiting with me when you do this. She instructed me to watch what Mars is doing because it rules my chart.

[@stephanie11011]

im a sagittarius rising south node in picses 19degress in 4th house descendant at 23degrees in gemini sun in virgo 22degrees in the 10th & mars in scorpio 20degrees in the 12th if i did not have astrology as a tool to understand the workings/experiences in my life im convinced that i would be insane ! thank you for your frequent uploads and explanations it helps out so very much

[@nikangel5362]

#grabbed P.s. I'm so so very sorry that happened to you! 🙏😔💔 I was raped at age 16, was a virgin as well, it was taken from me. It really messed with my whole life and the choices and men I choose. Cause I've had to learn the hard way. 43 yrs old now, it's all process, & brought me closer to the Lord. 🙏

[@deed3211]

Thank you so much for sharing your journey. You shed light up on my own challenges. You compliment the friction. Thank you for being you. Blessings. BE WELL.

[@Animamundi139]

Adam - THANK YOU. Sharing your personal and other peoples stories has proven vital to understanding and learning to apply the cosmic shifts in energy. I love your work and the messages you share with us . Also … I just found your page about 3 months ago and with every single episode I think you can’t possibly get any deeper then I play the next one and the the next … and just hear you continuously excavating into deep deep consciousness. Again, thank you .

[@mariecrowe8843]

❤ wow what a sharing. You are part of something, this astrology guidance. Yet you stand apart as an individual. It is your channel. I am very grateful for it, your knowledge and help.

[@ciganilla]

My Sun is at 22 Gemini and I'm sooooo tired of the square to Neptune. Now Mars is joining in *sigh*

[@sybersandy]

I am with you, mercury a Aka my ac ruler there. I am starting to suspect having add o ADHD. :)

[@sararichardson737]

Mars 22 Gemini 8th house Venus 21 Gemini 8th house

[@kayleighberkana]

Ah, yes... that sounds annoying. My Venus is 25 Gemini. Fun! X.x

[@kayodudu5190]

My sun moon Venus and MC are all in Gemini, I totally understand how you feel.

[@farahjarjour5698]

I have Mars and Neptune on the 8th and 2nd axis, Mars in Gemini and Neptune in Sagg… what you’re talking about is the story of my life (I am a late Scorpio rising) I feel that I am not untitled to anything, nothing is mine, I can’t see my self value and what I reflect and it is very hard for me to stop smoking … my Sun is in Gemini too … thank you for sharing your story, know I know that I can get out of it!

[@fayfresh]

Mars in Gemini, 7th house, natally squares my Pisces Sun and Pluto in Virgo... I too over the years have inner conflicts about spiritual groups vs individual identity. And I was bullied as a kid artist, too.

[@KDdevidasi]

Thank you for sharing so much of your personal experience and wisdom!

[@curranelizabeth28]

Thank you for sharing your stories, Adam! This channel has been such a blessing in my life the past few years, and I appreciate all the heart, soul, & hard work that goes into it. Great talk, as always! As someone with Uranus-Neptune on the ASC, I noticed some similarities, as Uranus also celebrates individuality (albeit not entirely for its own sake… I feel like it’s individuality has a stranger, more shocking, rebellious flavor to it). Either way, the tension between identifying as an individual versus blending into the collective resonated, as did hesitancy to assert the will and issues with substances/addiction.

[@jennawolfer4148]

I appreciate you sharing your personal experience and stories with these transits. It gives so much more depth and meaning that makes it easily translatable to others

[@rhaineyrwc1974]

I have natal Mars Square Neptune Could relate to everything you said and gained insight from this. Also The personal stories are an essential element to the package you put together and present in your wonderful videos. Thank you

[@fredericalouceiro1116]

Thank you..i think you have managed to BE " your individuality" within a unique community of astrology. So you are apart within❤️. I have Mars neptune exact conjuntion in Scorpio. You are amazing..thank you once again