When It Hurts Too Much to Live

[@outofthebox183]

Only time I am at peace or not thinking about it is when I am sleeping. It feels better to sleep then to be awake.

[@DouglasBloch]

That’s how I felt when I was deeply depressed. Are you reaching out for any kind of treatment?

[@hannahmitchell87]

Same here. I call it escleeping 😐 I hope you can find a way out of the dark

[@outofthebox183]

@@DouglasBloch I am on medication 100mg of Pristiq and 4mg of Abilify.

[@babbaruff1045]

I really feel for you pal, I too have been there. Prayer/meditation, being sober and running to songs i love help me massively. I really hope you feel bettor soon ✊

[@sierra734]

Exactly how I feel !

[@EndPoliceBrutailty]

It's always the kindest and best people who suffer the most

[@kkgreen7946]

Devil tries to break us and if we dont break We break in other ways 😭

[@seanrochon9240]

You a man god right takeing pain is what we do too

[@iNoScopedJFKmmm]

And the most gentle and pure that get bullied

[@blacjackdaniels200]

You just don’t want to use the real adjective..WEAK. You can be kind without being weak. But that takes more strength, which you don’t have. Just be honest with yourself. I have been. Once you are honest about it, and you start to think about that reality, that sad reality, that you are weak and pathetic it will cause an emotional fire pit within you, and it will really start to burn and you will start to think of how other people must see you and it disgusts You to your core. You have to bring yourself all the way to the bottom until there’s absolutely positively nothing left of you and then you will either come charging back up or you will stay down there. But most of us want to come back up. If we didn’t, none of this would upset us.

[@PhillDrakeEntertainment]

@@kkgreen7946 So what rest of our lives we should suffer?

[@elrisitas1927]

God have mercy on my soul , and every suffering soul 🤲

[@lloydwaycott8178]

A living hell - having to continue in mental agony because your relief from agony would cause others pain.

[@DouglasBloch]

There is the other possibility that you might get better.

[@kkgreen7946]

The only reason i havent done it!

[@lloydwaycott8178]

@@DouglasBloch Ha, I don't know why I've only just seen your reply ten months after you posted it, but it did make me smile. I realise you mean well, so thank you.

[@johnnylego807]

This is exactly where I’m at.

[@lloydwaycott8178]

@@johnnylego807 Perhaps some of us are the few that can take it Johnny. We'll absorb the pain to prevent others from having to. Head down, plough on. Good luck chap.

[@Summer_Gold]

" Temporary - This too shall pass. " Ya but is it worth it ? ... Even at its best hypothetical scenario, the pain greatly outweighs the little joys in life. I feel so overwhelmed, I wish everything would stop so I could at least take a break and have time to do nothing but hibernate without consequences.

[@scarlet0stars]

It temporarily passes, then comes back harder every time as you realise you have less fight in you to come back from it. 😞

[@johnCjr4671]

$ puts time pressure into everyone’s lives in modern society ! We all deserve breaks from the madness .

[@weirdchamp4601]

I agree with this too

[@KD-cg9iq]

I hate being alive since the age of six, right now I'm 53. This temporary thing is taking for ever....

[@debbiereynolds2873]

Your video has literally helped me get through the last 48 hours. People don't realise how much of a success it is when you have fought to just get through the last 24 hours

[@DouglasBloch]

I'm in bad depression right now so I understand

[@okeynonso5535]

@@DouglasBloch You are back in depression? So sorry..

[@tommyhallock2341]

It really does hurt to much to be awake. How much can one person endure. It's been almost a year , and it's still as raw as the first day. I've tried my best to push threw and move forward, I just don't know what to do anymore.

[@Lee-e8u1h]

I’m fighting thru everyday too I endure the day

[@skeleton599]

i’m drunk right now but it doesn’t seem to be helping with the thoughts, more like worsening it, there’s no distraction from it or escape, i don’t wish to keep living this way anymore, every day just constant emotional pain and aching.

[@landonsherer]

How are you dojng

[@deanbrandt2748]

To much is to much. I really can’t wait until God calls me home. I am tired and just want to go home.

[@nensi1972]

...when to much, is really to much... ?? :-( :-( :-(

[@DouglasBloch]

Have you reached out to a mental health professional

[@deanbrandt2748]

Ha! Story of my life. Not working. Tried seeking help since I was 12. I am 41 now and shouldn’t even be alive anymore after what I put my body and mind through. Do me a favour / you are a kind man...a good man, make longer videos next time when you go live / was a bit short. Glad you got your life back together. You are doing well. 👍🏻

[@nensi1972]

@@deanbrandt2748 ... Douglas has his own way scheme for short videos, and covering many different topics , about depression, his life story, parts from his books, testimonials from other depression survivors, etc,... check out for them, there are beautiful two new videos from his book "words that heal"....

[@nensi1972]

...God bless you sir...🌹❤️

[@mohammadshalash1271]

I don’t know how the heck I ended up here. I never thought I would contemplate ending my life, and it’s not about ending it; it’s about whether the way I live is really worth it.”

[@louisekibirige1167]

I relate to this so so much. I’m tired of not being ok and trying to live with it. It’s so draining and exhausting. I don’t have a partner or kids and I’m turning 38 next year. I don’t want to carry on living with this sadness and experiencing rejection and disappointment

[@Hotishh99]

The thing is I don’t even care to try to think better. I don’t want to fight anymore

[@Nightlingg]

I don't either. But don't think about fighting. When you get that thought that says, "keep fighting" acknowledge it was there and then just close your eyes and breathe. No meditation or gimmick. No inspirational speech. Because I'm going through this too. I don't have the energy to do anything but breathe and hardly that. And I don't know how to stop it. Breathing will happen no matter what because my body just does it on its own, even if I don't think about it. I don't have to fight to breathe. So I am breathing. Not thinking about much of anything. Not thinking about how unbearable it is to go on, but not thinking of solutions either. Just telling myself in my head "breathe in. Breathe out." That's what I'm doing. That's what I do when I don't have the energy to fight.or even the energy to imagine a better future. My lungs are expanding and contracting. I'm not trying to figure out why that is or what I wish would happen, good or bad or anything. I'm breathing. That's it. If I end up feeling better, great. If I don't, I keep breathing through whatever I'm doing because that's all I can do. I don't know what else to say. There's nothing that I can say that will magically fix it for either one of us. Just keep breathing.

[@PhillDrakeEntertainment]

Yeah better to accept the fact how the things are. We can't escape from our spirit and the body.

[@lilblizzy]

I hate to wake up every day. Out of all of my suicide atty, this last one will be planned. I refuse to keep putting up with this life that I do not want and has always been a burden to me.

[@kkgreen7946]

I feel the exact same way……the only thing that stops me ars my boys and knowing curses are real. I really HOPE and pray u don’t allow this life to break u and the devil to win. Look at md believing more in your life than mine. Just 1 more day. Then 1 more…..and 1 more❤

[@misslc7864]

I can relate. Hopefully I will be gone soon and my pain will be over.

[@johnnylego807]

@@kkgreen7946u aren’t alone. I’m in this situation. Don’t want too hurt those around me. I’m at the end of my rope.

[@p5aul789]

I cant cope with life anymore. This depression has finally destroyed me. I don't want to die but I'm not keen on living either. I don't like people and yet I'm a group animal.

[@DouglasBloch]

I feel for your suffering. What kind of treatments have you tried besides medication? There is TMS, ketamine therapy, and even ECT which I used and found successful. You could talk with your psychiatrist these and about other options. I'm glad that you are a group animal and don't want to die. Keep persevering. The depression will not be permanent

[@weirdchamp4601]

The fact that we are so bound and destroyed by our biology makes me believe god isn’t real. There’s no way some all knowing master could have expected us to believe in a state like this. I cannot believe I was made like this

[@heladds]

I don't know what to do.... alone no family scared

[@klanderkal]

Dam ...!!!! Same here. 😢 lost my family, so many deaths.. I lost my sanity, I lost my career job,... I have severe depression anxiety, insomnia... I just suffer. All that meant to me is gone forever... 😢 I'm so scared too... hope we can survive, by finding some kind of hope. I don't have that either 😩

[@williamsilbernagel1586]

I feel like I’m not smart enough to achieve my dreams and I’m destined to be a loser for the rest of my life. It hurts feeling like the dumb one all the time. I’m going to keep fighting regardless, but it hurts.

[@pazuzu126]

Many of us feel that way. I have struggled with those feelings my whole life. But as you said, keep fighting even though it hurts. It's worth it.

[@DouglasBloch]

There a way that you can challenge that negative belief about being a loser. You don’t have to hold onto it forever. A good counselor or therapist could help you to let it go

[@tjsmooth95]

I'm going through the same thing bro and it sucks because you feel like you're losing yourself and that it's not worth living like that but don't give in, it will get better.

[@briancoyne6700]

It's much better to be the "dumb one" in the room than the guy trying to be the smartest. Be you and own it. Hang in there.

[@life5161]

Sounds like me. 😏 Man what a life. 😒

[@RobStevenson-b7v]

I'm sorry it's not temporary not even close. Mine has lasted 53 years and nothing helps.

[@eli92]

I’ve always said “dying is easy living is hard”. There are so many things that can cause depression. We have frequencies all around us that destabilize us and we don’t even realize it. My problem is that I can’t achieve the things I want to do. It is so frustrating that I just give up…….then what? Back to the drawing board. Rinse and repeat. There’s gotta be more to life than this!

[@nmash6835]

I feel restless and sometimes I can't think clearly I feel broken I have kids but I feel like im not supposed to be their mom ..I can't even plan or solve normal problems it's hard

[@DouglasBloch]

It sounds like you might be suffering from clinical depression. I suggest you reach out to Mental health, professional, and get a diagnosis. Depression is a true Deluxe Edition so you will get better

[@afifkhaja]

I really needed this. I am going through a very tough time with my mental health. Everything is fine on the outside but my brain is torturing me endlessly. I am just taking it one day at a time and hope to get better soon

[@DouglasBloch]

I’m sorry for your suffering Have you received A mental health diagnosis? If you are suffering from depression, there are many good treatments that could help you to reduce your symptoms.

[@afifkhaja]

@@DouglasBloch Yeah, I apparently have bipolar 1 but the depression is the worst. I am getting therapy and medication. Thanks

[@neasahayes6044]

The only part of life I look forward to is going to sleep so it makes sense that falling asleep forever is preferable to continuing with a pointless existence.

[@klanderkal]

I can relate to your comment. It sucks, when you've lost everything. Just suffer with guilt, regret and apathy. I have severe depression. I don't like living at all anymore. If I'm lucky to sleep... is my only escape.

[@jimijamsandwhich1965]

​@klanderkal how you doing bud?

[@klanderkal]

@@jimijamsandwhich1965 same.. it's a situation that I hate being in...

[@indieree7987]

I’m so stuck in life And I’ve been stuck many times But this is different I’ve been trapped for a long time I feel nothing I write or say or do even matters. Nothings moving or changing. I keep thinking if there’s something wrong with me. If I somehow find the answer I want to be here to revisit this video To send a message to my past self, that I found a way out of this loop and is living more than well than in a circle

[@michaelschindele5484]

Next time you catch yourself feeling a little down Douglas , remember that you have helped all of us so much and we all love you . You have helped me who has lived with dysthymia for years and I simply refuse to live the life of a depressed person . I just can`t live that life . You helped me . Thank you .

[@DouglasBloch]

Thank you Michael.

[@oaklandsoldier8520]

I relate to the title of this video.

[@RealCujo]

I have Primary Multiple Sclerosis. There is no cure. The treatments are debilitating with side effects. I pray for strength daily but honestly I just want to go home. I’m disgusted with the world and my disability. My only hope is when God sees fit to end my torment that I go with some honor

[@DouglasBloch]

I'm sorry to hear about your suffering. Have you talked with a therapist or a counselor about having compassion for yourself

[@mikailstar4270]

If the world is dark or lacks light, be sure that you create your own light and live in its shadow, do not try to search for a part that you lost in the darkness of the world, because that will only increase you pain

[@deanbrandt2748]

♥️🙏

[@teresas8173]

I am so sorry, my heart breaks for you 😔. Know that you are loved by family and friends. I extend my friendship to you if you need it.

[@nensi1972]

...please, check out the healing works, videos, and sessions, of Rob Wergin...i have discovered his works, and heard for him few months ago, ...there are also testimonials of many patients with various phisical issues, who was miraculously cured, or started to feel better...God bless you man...

[@chrismcmurry8508]

I have severe chronic pain. This is the question that arises. Once you get far beyond your ability to cope, how do you continue to live? You either expand your ability to tolerate the pain, or you find a way to mitigate it. And that can be mind-bendingly difficult. Where you wonder how you could ever get through another day.

[@MelModica]

I had a painful foot injury and also suffered through Lyme disease, eating healthy, drinking water, taking vitamins, getting sunlight and epsom salt baths helped immensely. I know it’s easier said than done but also mental distraction is important. Creative hobbies and reading and writing helped me cope too.

[@chrismcmurry8508]

@@MelModica I couldn't agree more! My primary method of pain control is distraction. I'm glad you have been able to find approaches that work for you. I am currently doing a brain retraining program called DNRS. It has been known to help people with Lyme disease issues. I don't have Lyme disease but I have other chronic issues that are amenable to brain retraining. If you've never looked into it you might check it out. Thanks for the comment.

[@mrjjthor]

I went through two severe depression during my lifetime. Each time was caused by a different reason but nonetheless I felt it was better that I just didn't want to hurt anymore. Fortunately I was able to overcome it after some time. But most suicidal people are going through pain that their mind cannot seem to cope with. Most don't want to hurt anyone, including themselves, but the only way to not hurt anymore is to never wake up. But if it's one thing I learned is that if you make it past those dark times you can emerge on the other side stronger than before having learned from the experience. Now you will view and see things a bit more differently than before but in a positive way.

[@DouglasBloch]

Very well put. This has been my experience.

[@petevonstettina8627]

Thank you Doug. I'm in a terribly dark place right now.......every little bit helps.

[@Medistive]

When you're going through hell - keep walking and don't look back/around. Just keep up momentum and look ahead into heavens gates, because eventually you will reach it. This is powerful advice.

[@Rikachen-zd7jp]

It doesn't work.When there is no hope,depressive man can't overcome the pain and keep going.The illusional fake hope isn't enough to inspire the energy.

[@MelModica]

I’m struggling with grief from the loss of my 22 year old nephew in 2022 on top of other stress. I try to keep busy a distracted but some days are almost unbearable.

[@Jdbattisto63]

Trauma after trauma since I was a child, which, I learned well how to repeat. 20 years of worthless therapy missed diagnosis, missed the correct treatment, I feel like I’ve missed out on my life and now I am 64. My husbands ex takes 3/4 of our money. I’m older now, I’m living in a one bedroom with 4 cats and my husband. We’re broke, scary broke while the ex sits on a million and a half dollar property. I flunked out of AA. I moved so much I’ve got no friends here. I try to be grateful for at least HAVING a home and food. But I’m dying. Inside I am so depressed I go for days without a shower now what?

[@klanderkal]

I feel for your situation. Thank you for sharing. It's like us that suffer with depression.. really have our reasons why. I too lost... to me, everything that I loved and cared about. The trauma after trauma,.. we're TOO MUCH for me.. meaning my system, my brain. I have horrible anxiety, insomnia and severe depression too. I can't barely move, and have No desire to .. I too don't shower, brush my teeth. It's like I've turned completely OFF. I just wanted to say , I feel the same... im 62.

[@Jdbattisto63]

We cannot give up. As long as I draw breath I will tie a knot and hang on to the end of my rope because I know there must be something out there that will inspire me again. Thank you for your comment and your courage to tell your truth. You helped me a lot. The truth of the matter is that I know what my flaw’s are. If you want to learn where you need work on yourself, just get into a relationship with a malignant narcissist. It is very diagnostic. Do you think there is time left?

[@klanderkal]

@richardbortnick3181 Thank you for replying and caring. I'm glad you still have alitte hope... of inspiration down the line. You do have hope I can tell. You won't give up. You're a strong person. Loosing my career job has destroyed me. And knowing it was my foolish mistakes, and miss information, and miss understanding... I lost my job. It has destroyed my mental health. Stressed 24/7. Panic attacks,.. lowest mood, .... I had a mental breakdown. I suffer from severe depression. It's negative ruminating quicksand. I don't take care of myself, I can't sleep, don't excersize, eat only junk. I don't leave the apt. I totally lost interest in life. Depression is horrible, it's killing me! .. and im helpless, hopeless, and afraid..... my health is failing and my eyesight has failed me. 😞

[@tmc14121]

douglas i cant wait till you hit 100k subs. very underrated channel indeed. Helped out so many suffering individuals!

[@DouglasBloch]

Always nice to hear from you. At this rate I should hit 100,000 subscribers in 2023. Would love to see you on the live chat one day

[@benitomussolini6293]

I don’t know how to continue living when everyone I care about ends up lying to me and betraying me

[@deanbrandt2748]

♥️🙏

[@DouglasBloch]

Perhaps you could talk to a counselor and see how you might cope with it

[@benitomussolini6293]

@@DouglasBloch I’m embarrassed to see a therapist

[@nensi1972]

@@benitomussolini6293 ...there is no point to think that way ...then nobody would go to therapist...

[@benitomussolini6293]

@Pedro Roberts i have a dog, he helps me a lot, unfortunately I study in a foreign country so I don’t see him while I’m there. I’m an athlete, got plenty of hobbies and interests, but I experienced a lot of betrayal and I just can’t seem to get better no matter what I do. I started drinking heavily and smoking weed recently, which is something I have to stop. I know it’s not healthy but in a weird way it does help. I might see a therapist

[@Veronica-zn3rh]

BLess your heart, i do not have depression but have a friend who is hurting, i appreciate your encouragement to keep going and teachings on the subject. sending love and light.

[@viiyaxyz]

I am in pain.. I was already struggling so much mentally but for some reason my physical health is also not helping me out here. I seem to have an eye infection and something else which is making it hard for me to walk and i need to go to the doctor. I dont have any of my family with me, nor friends. im all alone in a new country and i miss my mom my siblings my cat. ive been doing my best barely holding my mental health together but the universe decided to give my body physical problems as well. just a few days before i need to show up to my new university. everythings going wrong. im ranting here bec i thouht things would finally Finally go right but they just keep getting worse. idk what to do anymore i feel like ending everything cause i just cant anymore

[@joannenascimento9213]

I no longer have my social support system.

[@YoganKitty]

I'm sorry to hear, i hope you're doing okay. i had to completely rebuild my social circle, i know what losing that feels like

[@Tom_Emody]

Are you ok ? …..Tom

[@Tom_Emody]

I don’t have any social support…I don’t know what will happen to me. … Please tell me if you are still here among the living? Maybe we can figure it out together.

[@hrushiljuvekarE]

It hurts too much to live 😢😢

[@klanderkal]

I hear you.! I feel the same way. Constant suffering.. with no way out, no cure, no hope, ..... I have severe depression now,.. making my current horrible situation 100x worse.. It does hurt to much to live 😢

[@PhillDrakeEntertainment]

@@klanderkal I feel you man I'm dealing with depression and social anxiety it cost me my job, friends, so many opportunities. Life is not fair.

[@klanderkal]

@PhillDrakeEntertainment You too..? I have the exact same thing. :( The depression and social anxiety has destroyed the gift if living, and is now torment. I lost my career job I loved of 20yrs.!! All my friends are there... and my confidence in living has left me. I awake in Panic,.. knowing the day will be empty,.. unable to do anything, or go anywhere. My life I had us gone. I have so much guilt and regret. ... it's really not fair , this all shouldn't have happened. I was so happy before.... now I'm isolated and afraid.

[@nimrahh8836]

I was severe ocd. After s understand whole process and learn how to ocd mind work and why is it sending creepy thoughts again and again. I started to work on them. I pushed myself everyday forward no matter how bad situation. Now I can say I get my life back from ocd. I can enjoy my life as I want. I can enjoy very small happiness. So push yourself forward every day give yourself time it takes time to heal. But you can do it ❣️

[@liesbethgoedbloed4625]

For almost sixteen years I was in too much pain to live (from my 16 to 32). I had all kinds of therapy but nothing was emersive enough to really help. Ten years ago I had a very intensive form of group therapy. It gave me the power to say no to a lot of things that were not healthy for me. The last ten years were not easy but I held on and step by step things changed. Since last year the depression has disappeared completely and even better: I feel happy. And loved (something I never felt). And connected. I sometimes still cannot believe that this ordeal is really over. My life is not simple. I am a single mom of two teenagers living from a very small income. But I am what I never was. Happy. I never would have believed that that was possible if anyone would have told me! I hope for every one here that things will really change for the better! I dance a lot (biodanza): that is one of the things that is really helping me. It even brought me a lust for life! I hope my story can bring some light on a dark day for everyone who is reading this! Love to you all!

[@albertodeulofeu5277]

It seems to me that life is about coping with how much it sucks. I don’t see the point

[@chingling8177]

yeah I'm over it

[@brendabuchanan1405]

When MS and depression rule your life this too shall pass never passes for me living hurts and sleeping is only time I get peace

[@DouglasBloch]

I can partially relate as I have chronic pain from arthritis. Perhaps you join a support group with other people who have MS. I have a friend who has MS, and she uses some of the tools we talk about on this channel to cope.

[@christusjahnel3693]

Thanks for this video Doug! Unfortunately I struggle with depression as well. In the last months I have become really suicidal again and I am just tired of it, I tried so many therapists, clinics, medications etc. and I feel like giving up everyday. Your videos have helped me a lot to cope with this constant terror in my head :)

[@DouglasBloch]

I’m sorry for the hell you were going through. Have you seen my memoir of going through hell and coming out the other side. I have published it for free on this channel. It’s called we’re going to hell don’t stop. I also have a special website for people who are dealing with suicidal pain. It is www.overcomingsuicidalpain.com

[@PeggyStewart-rv5ff]

​@@DouglasBloch😢

[@sabrinaboussouf7093]

What an incredible video for someone going through hell right now. Thank you

[@klanderkal]

Same here.... i don't feel any better. Just alitte comfort?.. knowing others suffer, like being stuck in hell. Ihurt so badly, I cannot express with words. The Trauma was so bad... I lost my career job, the Anxiety, stress, insomnia was next level. My brain just fried. I now suffer from Anxiety, insomnia and severe depression. I can't even move. No interests in life. Just torture. But, I am agree with your comment.

[@scarlet0stars]

It's all very well talking about social supports, but what if they're not available to you? What if you ARE alone...?

[@Papa-Anvil]

I’m 59 and have been battling depression and anxiety my entire life. Most of my issues cannot be resolved so I don’t see a path for happiness. I’m just so very tired. I have my first serious mental health appointment next week. I hope and pray that something will change. I cannot and will not harm myself but I just feel like I’m running out of steam.

[@DouglasBloch]

I hope your appointment goes well

[@cobruh836]

after almost 20 years of depression i actually know for a fact that there is no end to my suffering. in fact the longer i go the more piles up. living from day to day doesnt help long term since youll never be able to work on your life effectively and then you look back and see all the things youve missed out on or couldnt do and then that also adds ontop of your existing depression as some kind of side depression - a depression wingman. i dont even see the point in curing my depression anymore, since it kept me in an impotent state for so long. i already lost too much, its impossible to catch up. its a neverending wheel of pain, a meatgrinder handcrafted for your soul to suffer forever. i just hope my soul will never be reborn so it can unexist in peace after all of this absolute garbage is finally over...

[@Torontogonetosdon]

Did you get over your depression?

[@cobruh836]

no@@Torontogonetosdon

[@cieloazzurro-ke1nj]

How are you doing now?

[@cobruh836]

im alive, make of that what you want.went to my doc to get mental treatment and he said i might be forced to be treated stationary... i was like: ok so now you want to tell me you will help my by locking me in, so that i lose my job and my apartment when i get out? so how will that help me? yeah no@@cieloazzurro-ke1nj

[@Rikachen-zd7jp]

totally the same.

[@KINT21]

I’ve struggled with depression for 4 years now. I had major depression for 1 year in 2020 and 4 episodes ever since than all lasted up to a month max. Now I’m having an incredibly hard identity crisis and I’ve tried so many things to cope. Starving, smoking, selfharm, talking, therapy of course, medication and so on but this video just now gave me a sense of comfort. I want to do it one day at a time even if the pain is unbearable

[@doingme8384]

I have suffered with a opiate addiction for the last 13 years of my life. I have a family to live for and I can not give up. But some days, I truly do not know how to hang on. This time I have dug my hole maybe just too deep this time. I am taking it one day at a time. I am not going to give up. I will die trying to get through this addiction. Stay strong everyone. We are all suffering in our own ways.

[@costaquanta5936]

Try Gaba for addiction it helped me

[@doingme8384]

@@costaquanta5936 is that a vitamin at the nutrition store??

[@costaquanta5936]

@@doingme8384 its a natural amino acid within the body. For more infos on the connection between GABA and addiction you should do google research.

[@doingme8384]

@@costaquanta5936 ok I will research and I will order this gaba as well.

[@costaquanta5936]

@@doingme8384 you should contact mensah medical for help with substance abuse.

[@emannasser688]

I'm still alive because i don't want to hurt the people around me, when i reach to the point where i don't care anymore about anything, i think it will be the end..

[@amyalfieri1587]

I feel you. If I had no kids or no mother or sisters ,it would be a no brained. But we have to deal with guilt also. No way out

[@emannasser688]

@@amyalfieri1587 yeah the guilt it self is a killing, it's like we don't have a choice not in living nor in dying..

[@doingme8384]

Same situation with me. I love my husband and daughter beyond life and I could never do that to them. So I just suffer and suffer with my addiction issues.

[@emannasser688]

@@doingme8384 i wish for u to survive and be stronger to keep living

[@doingme8384]

@@emannasser688 I feel the same for you. One day at a time is all we have to keep living.

[@erynneh7055]

I have already written my letters to my families and everything. I’m now working myself into how to do it!! I have been in nothing but physical pain and emotional pain and I can’t take it any longer.

[@nathanielguttenberg8152]

Thank you Douglas. You add a lot of value to the world :)

[@DouglasBloch]

You’re welcome.

[@sunflowerzelda45]

Lyme disease gave me all-over body pain years of it. doctors can't help. I took the antibiotics and repeat more antibiotics when months are getting harder. I take tramadol the largest dose and am still in pain. The doctor thinks my depression causes pain. Yes, but I know what came first body pain then a depressed state. I have been living one day at a time for years due to never knowing how I will feel. I can't plan anything. Once in a while, I do have a good day. tho they seem to be getting fewer and longer apart.

[@beline-rp7he]

I am in alot of pain even I can't get sleep I became afraid to go to sleep because of nightmare and being awake is also pain what should I do I am living in side hell

[@suryaananda108]

I’ve been suicidal many times before. But contentiously the past month or so. It’s horrible. Nothing helps; I’m waiting on a appointment, but that’s next Friday. I’m barely hanging on & can’t even function.

[@adylaar6708]

*hugs ❤

[@DouglasBloch]

I’m sorry to hear about the suffering. I have gone through many suicidal episodes. I understand the predicament. Keep holding on. You can get through this. Here is the website I created to help people who are struggling with suicidal pain. www.overcomingsuicidalpain.com

[@johnnyboy2411]

Power through it! If you do this, I promise you things will get better!

[@klanderkal]

With u brother!! Let's hang in there... wish this torment would end immediately!! 🙏

[@monodishi9259]

It's nice listening to someone that understands, thank you very much

[@DouglasBloch]

You're welcome.

[@haogu2621]

Thank you Douglas! Whenever I need some motivation to continue with my journey in the hell I turn towards your video! I feel grateful for knowing you are around!

[@DouglasBloch]

You're more than welcome

[@dazzax3370]

I never thought about suicide before but last few years almost every day I have this thought to end it I used to be scared but now I feel relieved and reconciled with the idea.

[@DouglasBloch]

I know what suicidal pain is like video. I have a website called overcoming suicidal pain.org. You might want to take a look at it. Also, I highly suggest working with a mental health professional who can help you treat the depression behind the suicidal thoughts

[@roselee6263]

My little girl got me through a lot hard times I lived for her now my little girl is not Here anymore I want to be with her it hurts too much to breathe every day I love my baby so much why did my baby have to die and I am still here

[@dogsareprecious4842]

Your videos are helping me a lot....Thank you! And (( hugs )) to everyone who is suffering!

[@DouglasBloch]

You're welcome.

[@sanjaychoudhary8849]

I am crying while watching your video . Had depressive episode but now having anxiety issues. Psychedelics have helped me I am almost normal now but still have some anxiety issue. Thanks for your video

[@DouglasBloch]

You are welcome.

[@BrendaObilor]

At the moment I’m struggling so much

[@klanderkal]

Same here my friend.... I don't see any hope or a way to accept all this... depression is so unbearable.

[@williamramos3350]

The worst thing about depression in my personal life is knowing that you will never feel the happiness you once had. That's why I can understand why some just end it all together.

[@Lee-e8u1h]

I completely relate. Deeply depressed and sleep is my only solace. Living is too hard

[@soldierofjesuschrist6015]

Everyone in pain or hurting or feeling like your worthless or alone I want you to know God loves you And he will forever he will be your friend forever even if you can’t see him if you pray to him you will feel him just pray to him to save you 🙏🏼

[@johnnyboy2411]

I agree with this comment 100% he's the one who has given me the strength to cope with my depression.

[@DouglasBloch]

Thank you. I'm glad I was a able to help.

[@brianw.5230]

Amen brother

[@josephbenuzzi159]

What good does reducing the pain if I"m still gonna lose the fuckin house and then I'm FUCKED

[@MissysDomain]

I relate so much to what you've said.

[@klanderkal]

I hear you..!! I lost my wife, and my house,.. then after decades of a great enjoyable job,... I lost it too. When everything that means SO much to you are gone,... the Stress, anxiety, insomnia, ... and dam depression,...... are extremely unbearable 💔,.. im not well., im in a very dark place... Self loafing ads to the hurt.... hang in there, hope things work out for you. 🙏

[@iNoScopedJFKmmm]

You know when im happy? For about five seconds in the morning when i first wake up. Before I remember who I am and what my life is all about. Pain, suffering, diarrhea more often than not. I dont know if theres an afterlife, but who cares. No hell could be worse than this meaningless march through my empty days. When will the fantasy end, when will the real life begin?

[@nunzziahormovas2999]

Hello Douglas, you need to know that you’ve made this world a better place to be by sharing all your life experiences with depression. From the bottom of my heart i thank you 🙏🏻.

[@DouglasBloch]

You are more than welcome.

[@boundariessetinstone5893]

I just lost my mom and step dad to a tragedy the pain is too much. 💔😢🙏🏼

[@DouglasBloch]

I am very sorry to hear this. Have you reached out to a counselor or a grief group or a friend to help you deal with the pain. We can get through loss with the support of other people.

[@rajindarsingh1417]

I know those who have been through it believe that it’s possible. I’m in the state of constantly failing daily despite doing all . Medications- ✅ Psychologist-✅ Prayers- ✅ Working 14 hours a day- ✅ Off days. I walk ✅ Friends & family have lost steam too ✅ I’m really at my lowest & dying would be a release. ✅ Supplements- ✅

[@YOU-niter]

@@DouglasBloch What if no one is there for you?

[@stefaniemore3203]

Thank you, so much, for your videos. Your words of wisdom and encouragement are like rays of sunshine.

[@ChristinaS-fs5gu]

How do I know that any of these comments are real? I am still so alone in real life. Any comfort that I've gotten is from people online. Now, even that doesn't help. I've gained so much weight even though I eat healthier and eat less than I ever have. I'm 32. I'm too tired to exercise though. I take small naps during the day on some days. At night I can only get 30min to an hour of sleep. This been going on for almost a year. Brain always foggy now. Don't speak to people because I either stutter or slur in my speech. I think it might be depression. I see the reaction people give to others that ask for help so there is no point in talking about problems or asking for help. It's always being "lazy" or "weak". Now that I doubled in size I can see me only getting "being lazy" comments. And if so many people feel the same way as me then why haven't I met them?Where are they?

[@jackmemphis7775]

Iam right here

[@klanderkal]

Insomnia is horrible,... im with you. Hope we can get the normal sleep we need,.. 🙏

[@EmilyRose1]

I am in so much pain from betrayal, I don’t think I’ll get past this it hurts way too much

[@DouglasBloch]

I am very sorry that happened to you. I was betrayed by my first wife, but over time I started to heal. Have you thought of working with a counselor or therapist or attending a grief group

[@sandraluder3004]

I hear you my Dear, I wish I could hug you and confort you... even if you and I cant believe it now, we will survive this and some day it wont hurt anymore.

[@J_Allen3556]

I've kept going for the last 15 years. When is it going to get better? It looks to me like it's not so I'm just hanging on for other people so they don't experience the pain of me leaving abruptly. I want out so bad.

[@celenafenner8237]

You know you had mentioned that one of Miss MacMillan's subscribers said she was full of light and not that I say there's a correlation but I have heard that statement my entire life that I just have this light about me that I'm full of light and I suffer from horrible depression! What's awful is that I love life, I love people, I love love, yet for some reason I am sad more often than I am happy. I wish I could have spoke to Ms McMahon before she took her own life sometimes we just need someone who understands or someone to help us. When we can't seek and find someone to help us or talk to that will understand and help we become in this vortex of feeling utterly alone that's when the bad thoughts come! You mentioned that she had made a video of her depression, I truly makes me wonder if no one helped her if everyone just assumed oh she's okay she's got a great life. Anyhow thank you for your channel and thank you for all you do!

[@DouglasBloch]

Thank you for your compassion. You sound like a sensitive individual. As you said, the key is reaching out and asking for help. Every single suicidal person I have known who truly wanted to get better and reached out for help and kept persevering eventually came out of it. But that hard work-the hardest work I’ve ever done.

[@celenafenner8237]

@@DouglasBloch I truly appreciate you! The world needs Moe people like you!

[@DouglasBloch]

You’re welcome Celena

[@codygray9280]

I've been taking long cold showers and the wim hoff method and I've had great results with my depression

[@DouglasBloch]

Yes, cold air can help with both depression and anxiety

[@marcellacutsforth3712]

I'm going thru this right now. It's really bad. I cry when I wake up cause I didn't die in my sleep.

[@DouglasBloch]

I hope you can reduce your suffering

[@kennymac8949]

I spend my waking hours thinking, worrying,avoiding situations of interaction of any kind. Or just “acting” when I’m forced to participate in life, even with strangers, new aquintiances or family for that matter.No one could be comfortable being awake and walking around by themself or with other people.Take a “ normal” person inject that feeling I have had since I could talk 57 years ago(I’m 62 now). Feel like a freak with no point in being here…The only reasons I got anywhere was by “acting”

[@DouglasBloch]

I’m sorry that you were struggling. Have you sought out psychotherapy? Or even medication. Mental health disorders can be treated.

[@EML-cv2zr]

I really can’t any more 😔

[@klanderkal]

I really can't also. I just suffer all day and night. Existing with Severe anxiety, chronic insomnia .. and debilitating depression... I just can't and don't want to continue. Are you on this kind of situation?...😢

[@Linda.F]

I am.. right now all i can do is pray... just please Jesus help. Because He knows how much we can bare.. He has saved my life many times in the past, so He is my only hope. 🙏🏼ing for you ❤

[@YOU-niter]

It hurts too MUCH to live.. yes

[@kateroth7154]

I really appreciate this video. It helped me. Thank you.

[@DouglasBloch]

You are welcome

[@Astro_TF2]

What if I told you it could be painful awake and asleep, depression during the day, nightmares at night. It hurts.

[@klanderkal]

I BELIEVE YOU.. I have horrible anxiety, insomnia and severe depression.. The trauma of the horrible losses, and the complete devastation of my life. Each moment of all day and night is a nightmare. If I fall asleep, I wake in Panic and fear. The reality of how shattered my life is... and there is no getting back what I had,... and the guilt, regret I have. I feel for you., because I'm hating this too... 😢

[@anatman6304]

This doesn't work if you have treatment-resistant depression which I've suffered from for 40 years. For some of us, it just does not get better.

[@louisekibirige1167]

I’m depressed, taking medication and the medication makes me physically weak which is what my depression does. I’m still sad and so tired of trying to get through the days. I have absolutely no reason to be here because I don’t have kids or a partner to do life with. I’m just living to work and pay bills and spend most of my time on my own. It’s a horrible way to live

[@HughJ876]

I like eating to make the pain less painful but I need to go on a diet so I can get in shape I don't know what to do to stop my appetite I'm always hungry

[@DouglasBloch]

So am I

[@wordscaninspire114]

Absolutely excellently worded and expressed Douglas 💛 you sum it up perfectly.

[@DouglasBloch]

Always great to hear from you

[@Krista-rt9ww]

Exactly how I feel.

[@josejimenaz]

I'm happy for your success of making these videos

[@p5aul789]

A Smile on the outside, but inside hurting like hell. Poor girl. I hope I never become that desperate.

[@Vidplex-hu4tc]

My doctor lied about my diagnosis to save me from taking my own life

[@robertiannucci1667]

Hi Douglas I have been doing fine , But today I was feeling like this and I really needed this video, Thank You

[@DouglasBloch]

You're very welcome

[@melvayaredaguilar]

my pain is like the upmost excruciating body pain

[@EdonaComadahoutie]

I feel depresson and anxiety to much happened in my life so much ppl turned out to be haters and they left me it hurts alot

[@klanderkal]

Same here as well. Too much trauma, tragedy, and unbearable losses... has completely shut me down. I just suffer alone., unable to move. The anxiety and depression are so indescribable. It's constant torture for me...

[@selmo6376]

One thing that can give me an absurd and imediate relieve to anguish and depression is cryinh but as much as I try Im unable to cry , I just can't cry and that's terrible. This is a consequence of our machist education. And that's why I envy só much women....and Im not being ironic here but deeply sincere. Not being able to cry increases depression...

[@DouglasBloch]

It is true that men have difficult the crying including myself. If you have a counselor per haps you can work on ways to do this.

[@robynconway1286]

Thankyou for your expertise and kindness.

[@theeurio]

I don't have depression but sometimes I do feel like I can't do it anymore. I was diagnosed with PTSD four years ago. It's not easy because it's like I'm in an endless loop.

[@sharonadair6417]

thats how I feel, it hurts too much to live. BUT I have no suicidal ideation most of the time.

[@sharonadair6417]

but, when you are depressed the LAST thing you want to do is reach out for support. when it feels like you have concrete blocks on your feet you don't feel you can drag yourself to exercise. When the concrete blocks disappeared I have still been very depressed. I work out at the gym now and occasionally it has some.Ive tried soo many medications. most had bad side effects. I am on 2 antidepressants and one mood stabilizer. I'm still depressed.Not crying all the time but ready to. I have an amazing loving husband of 39 years. He tries really hard to help me. I want to be better for sure and never deal with this hell again!! I have been trained in CBT. It does help a little but not a lot. I hate the weight gain and no libido due to the drugs.I just want to disappear cuz it would be easier for everyone. I wish I was at the place you are. Wake up joyful and happy

[@valroniclehre193]

That gentle reassuring tone, and the somber hopeful, yet matter of fact delivery. Its one of the better book pitches I have seen. I'm suicidal with hatred and disgust. When I see people like you seeking to exploit the vulnerable over and over and over it makes me see red. Every virtue I was ever taught was a lie. Every hero a villain. Every single human, to the last beating heart is vile. I hate every second of this unfair existence and that of my fellow man as well. They have only enough moral understanding to be held accountable.

[@DouglasBloch]

I am sorry you are pain. Have you tried talking to a counselor about it?

[@valroniclehre193]

@@DouglasBloch No. The state of mental healthcare doesn't inspire confidence, and beyond that, its very difficult for a laymen to spot scammers / incompetence.

[@whynot5846]

I have killed my emotions because it hurts to much for to long 34 years to much. Im 57. Now i feel like an empty shell. Alone and dead inside. What's the point of life now.

[@Lookingforamiracle]

Hi, don’t give up please. I suffer from the same thing, and what i do is find things that make me happy like cycling in nature to forget about all the pain. I don’t know you but I am sure you can do it. We can do it!

[@Jake51500]

I live in a wonderful life ... beautiful partner, loving family, 2 sweet pooches, great job, nice home, nice car, doin ok financially...but here I am ... gripped in anxiety & melancholy...and wondering what's it all about...why am I like this...does it even matter whether I existed or not....and guilt....for even feeling this way for no reason....and frustration...that I am wasting it all away....

[@aisforapple2494]

It does hurt too much to live! I despise every time I wake up because I'm still in this meanigless, purposeless, and agonizing world! "This to shall pass"??!! Get outta here with that psychobabble I've heard for the last 30 years and it gets worse every goddamn day! You've been no help at all!

[@klanderkal]

I read your comment I actually felt and feel the same way. I have it all. Trauma, Anxiety, Stress, insomnia and severe depression. I have so much anger towards myself, I sabotaged my life too many times, and suffer consequences from my foolish decisions. When I read your message, I felt exactly the same!! I just want Help!.. but, I can't ever find it,.. and these videos makes it worse, they don't seem to understand how bad I'm suffering .! I can't do anything, or go anywhere. It's like I'm mentally paralyzed. Existing is just so unbearable for me. Do you understand? , how I feel 😢

[@damianlopez7630]

Hi Douglas Bloch. Thank You.

[@DouglasBloch]

You’re welcome Damian

[@damianlopez7630]

May She Rest In Good GOD'S Presence.