Why Did God Save Me, Just To Crush Me Again?

[@oninotsume]

My son is significantly physically disabled with cerebal palsy, sharp as a tack and a computer coder, but completely dependent on others for all his needs. He laughs about your special forces commando pack anaology which he chose in the supermarket of life, but has since forgot doing so😄. Everyday is an incredible physical battle that I reckon I could put up with for about 10 seconds, ...he's now 27rs old. Thanks Yash we both love you💙

[@spiritualrenaissance]

Yes he knows! 💙

[@tubbyrainbow111]

"Usually when the mind doesn't understand something, by default, it misunderstands" damn.....I like that one man

[@mattfrancis9215]

May our suffering be our gift . May our gift be our contribution. May our contribution be our fulfillment.🙏

[@rawshi7931]

Love this 💜

[@dondada2078]

Its because the creator is a all time comedian😂life is full of inside jokes

[@wtrpddles]

see the thing is… u are the creator. as am i.

[@zephyrr108]

Seems exactly it

[@jonmustang]

Agreed. I’ve had to learn to laugh, mostly at my mind thinking it knows the plan and then NOPE, change comes - God keeps us on our toes.

[@FreedomForAlliw8for]

Ignorance is bliss.God has nothing to do with this world of bodies and illusions but yea humanity slowly awakening to the truth

[@wonderzm2340]

You get your rewards later, have faith…….and patience

[@neelprakash5393]

Hey Yash!! Appreciate you and everyone else who heard my share and provided suggestions during the Satsang today!!! 🙏

[@ourloveourjourney215]

🫶😌

[@wildflowertribe5472]

I thought he wasn't doing Satsangs at the moment?

[@neelprakash5393]

@@wildflowertribe5472 This was an advanced satsang

[@Unconsciousarchive]

Acceptance and surrender while trying your best is a huge lesson I keep trying to live by. Every time I see im suffering its usually because I think im in control of this funny game and I get all worked up about it. Then for whatever reason im able to surrender and its like I am given the controller back to me only because I know how to play the game in alignment with how the game wants to be played. Not sure if that makes sense but great video as always

[@itsgoodforthesoul]

"Spiritual Initiation" I Love That!!

[@bradhernandez2699]

im 21 turning 22 god willing in a month, and im currently going through the exact contemplations you mentioned from your life as well. this current world we're born into is so damn materialistic and reliant on science and reason and has swung far towards that side of the cosmic pendulum, and these factors definitely play into my own contemplations even though i've had my own personal experiences of grace and synchronicity etc. life is very personal, and all of us are coming into our own profound realizations, and this plays out in the larger world, which can make things very confusing if we're not open to how diverse the universe really is and ego gets in the way with our attachments. but regardless im grateful for what ive gone through as i know many people have it much worse, and im grateful for being able to relate to someone like you whose words describe sometimes exactly what i may be feeling or thinking. all i know is we're all stereotypes playing out our roles, but id like to think that every life ever lived is a life well lived. appreciate it yash as always

[@ikn02]

Also 21 turning 22 next month, damn

[@bradhernandez2699]

@@ikn02 aye happy early birthday to you then brother! wishing you well

[@ikn02]

Happy 22nd to you too brother 🙏🏽

[@GloriousVibe]

It's fascinating that people don't see the seamless universal truth that is mirrored in both science AND spirituality. They're both pointing and describing the same truth. Everything is energy. Everything is connected as a larger whole. All phenomena are a part of a great phenomenon.

[@1990muthafukin1]

You're a smart mother fucker for your age. Most of us Zoomers are stupid af. Keep a good head on your shoulders bud. You're gonna go far

[@Bodysense369]

Be okay with not knowing✨❤️🥰

[@jjrecon3024]

Class is always in session, ensure you're learning your lessons, then rize Up. Overcome and adapt any circumstance, building resilience with a high capacity to change thy mind ~ Anyone sincere about changing their situation will also be eager and willing to change their mind.

[@AwakenedEmptiness]

Dude the pressure lately has been so intense it feels like the coal is being continually crushed and the diamond shines through little by little. I honestly felt overwhelmed today but this video helped to ground me in reality. Thanks Yash 🙏❤️

[@kaygee21]

Its a frequency, its all about calming the mind by stop thinking and trusting your intuition, you feel present and aware. The moment you start worrying again about life problems you will loose awareness and the frequency. Having faith or believing in god helps

[@anotheryoutubeaccount8122]

9:48 “i create the light and the darkness, i create good and evil, I, the Lord, do all these things”

[@John-zv1hy]

"You can rest when you're dead" This is why I have never understood the concept of retirement. I understand retiring from something that becomes too physically demanding for your age, but to completely stop doing and creating things before your time is done seems self defeating. edit - I somehow knew this comment would go over like a lead balloon.😅

[@duh_incredible_dolt]

I think retirement is meant to describe the idea of being free of obligated duties. Most retired folks begin a new life full of hobbies and interests...if we're lucky.

[@Seraphim6083]

It may be more helpful to see retirement as a change of focus. You’re retiring from something in favor of moving toward something else. And this “something else” will naturally be much different than whatever you’ve focused on during the first half of life. Its arena will rarely be the external world. Yet creation keeps on going. There’s a reason why the old man is often equated with the child, spiritually and mythologically. The playfulness and creativity of the child is most fertile at the sunset of life.

[@williamherke7307]

You can actually create more in retirement and go deep diving within.

[@anoshya]

I used to see guys like this in the late 60s at party’s. they often went off to Peru and were never seen again

[@tcopeland6006]

We can learn to ebb and flow, far right to far left, right in the middle, too fast or too slow, it's up to each individual to earn their burn and grow, now Knowing better > One is enabled to do their best with any surprise test without needing to rest, One is stable.

[@freeman37]

Man, such wisdom pearls!

[@Jason.L.M.]

Very deep and honest. We know what we know and don't know what we don't know. God is working it all out. Things don't become truth or real the moment we realize them. It's all Grace and all Good now tomorrow and forever. Love you Yash! Blessings 💚

[@DT-je3wh]

I love your messages Thank you

[@justmadeit2]

I’m suffering from extreme depression. It’s very scary

[@Veliccia]

Thank you so much. I have had a rough week. Your words are always comforting.💜

[@AwakenedEmptiness]

I normally wouldn't comment about trivial things. But you look just like this girl Jade I used to date.😅

[@Veliccia]

@@AwakenedEmptiness Jade is a rad name, hopefully it was a good experience.

[@subsanityy]

The wise one speaks! Trust in the supreme divine and it’ll all work out!

[@williamherke7307]

I remember doing the 26 mile walk in order to graduate from basic training so I can relate. Thanks for these interesting videos!

[@spiritualrenaissance]

👍

[@fear_less7652]

Hope your good luv ya brother youe smile just your face is enough lol your voice I want to hear on helium 😂

[@slifer19964444]

Exactly how I feel like. Feels like this life is pushing me to realization on the fast lane.. Intervalls get shorter and shorter until I basically dont have a choice but to be enlightened or well.. die.

[@xELDANTOx]

It helps to know that no matter what happens, in a general picture it's getting better, and we are part of it, and rembering that 10 thousand years ago we were dying against a buffalo xd

[@JS-ld7pv]

Everyone is lost, no one understands

[@spiritualrenaissance]

🙂

[@BlacktopAngel66]

Most people forget about Abba when things are great. They tend to remember Him, when things go sideways. I feel that when things are going sideways, you have to ask yourself why is this happening. As Abba is a good and He will give you a challenge to get you back on track. And our own sufferings are nothing like what Christ went through.

[@ouch000u]

What is Abba?

[@madameunique1982]

Love dat MinD!*

[@user-ip8zo7wn6d]

You're lucky no vessels burst like a bungee jump all that pressure focused on poor little elastics vessels be kind to our vessels they need a break to you possess the highest quality of reassurance we expect that from you and you make it amusing which is the next best quality we'll be around, Peace

[@oldchannel2015]

💔❤️‍🩹❣️ hurting too much. I'm embarrassed for being so weak and emotional... I appreciate your voice. thank you xo

[@mariohermosillabienvenido]

Man, last time i was in the cloud, now i have fall, and still, this is so funny, you say all i needed to hear man

[@danielgripton473]

much appreciated

[@MATRICULAT3D]

Spiritual Journey

[@Newfoundmike]

Laugh at your personal Story!

[@rawshi7931]

I love how this video, filmed before yesterday’s Satsang, aligns with some of the topics discussed 💫 Yash, after yesterday’s Satsang, I’ve had a profound realisation that’s helping me find inner peace and improve my presence: 👉🏾 I feel like I've mastered chasing things in the material world, but now I'm chasing higher consciousness. 👉🏾 Higher consciousness is wonderful, but do I really want to rush to ‘enlightenment’ if it means the end of the soul's journey, no more incarnations, and no more experiencing the beautiful life in the physical realm? I know that, either way, I have no control; these transitions are guided by grace 😭 Yesterday, I said, "Can’t God give me a break?" forgetting that all my health sufferings are part of the script for this incarnation. This is the karma and lessons my soul needs to go through to grow and purify itself. Thank you for reaffirming this. It's a new week, and I’m going to strive to do less searching for answers and focus more on being 🧘🏽‍♀️ P.S. I love the video length-11:11 ✨😍✨

[@spiritualrenaissance]

💙

[@Julie_G]

When I started saying “it is what it is” in the face of serious sh.t happening, a sense of peace came over me that made me invincible. We are stronger than we know and sometimes the hard lessons are here to show us that without a shadow of a doubt so we never question who we are and what we are capable of again. ✌🏽🫶🏽✨🤍

[@Joestar66]

My chef in the restaurant is pushing me to work more that i thought that i am able to work. I am impressed by how strong i am to be honest.

[@user-lk7nb9fi3x]

Reality is beautiful.

[@SpiritualVin]

Being an initiate is tearing me into pieces. The thought of waking on a higher plane and knowing its done does give me hope and helps a lot.... peace Yash ❤

[@tapedpopsicle]

Good video, very insightful my friend.

[@MIRACWORLD]

11 : 11 ❤

[@JB123-BOOMBOOM]

Did you plan making it 11:11 minits long?🎉

[@neelprakash5393]

It shows 11:10 for me lol

[@JB123-BOOMBOOM]

@@neelprakash5393 interesting, it's that when seeing thumbnail to click on, but hey 1110 still good numbers! I see that constantly before 11:11. My kids bought me a mug with "11:11, look it up bitches!" on it cause I tell people that all the time just to be annoying.

[@RobBillyBob]

Because he wants you to be like water, with trust in him.

[@ChildofGod98765]

Lord Jesus hear my prayers. I’m still struggling to take care of my children. Both of my sons are special needs and require so much from me. Lord Jesus I’m overwhelmed as a single mother. Please hear my prayers. I’m constantly struggling to buy groceries and constantly struggling to pay rent. Lord give me strength I can’t do it without you.💕❤️

[@duh_incredible_dolt]

Thoughts and prayers go out to you ✌️❤️

[@BABACHRISTOS]

INCORRECT MY LOVE, YESHI (YESHUA TO YOU) CAME TO TEACH THOU THE OPPOSITE AND STEP INTO THOUS SOVEREIGNITY, ....NOT TO BE WEAK AND WAIT FOR ANOTHER!.....AWAKEN NOW FOR THOUS FAMILY MY LOVE .......🕊️🤍 BARBELO CHRIST 🤍🕊️

[@Timbzz-dq8vn]

PRAISE YESHUA on the th HIGHEST mountain top!

[@BABACHRISTOS]

@@Timbzz-dq8vn AWAKEN NOW TIM....... YESHI ('YESHUA TO YOU ) DID NOT COMETH TO ENSLAVE WORSHIPPERS, OPPOSITE TO FREE THEM INTO THEIR SOVEREIGNTY....🕊️🤍 BARBELO CHRIST 🤍🕊️

[@williamherke7307]

Your prayers have been heard and are being answered ❤️

[@Ceecrystalclear]

Thank you I needed that message today ❤

[@cleener]

God only saves when people are putting one foot in front of the other, if you choose the lazy way, you are no longer working with your twin and can be taken out immediately if your life is in danger, if your twin sees that there is only hope now for karmic debt, then you have to be taken out. Surprise everyone, take this knowledge and charge at life, try to learn all you can, then practice, when you practice you will bring back that information every time you come. The lazy way is thinking Jesus will save you without going through Moses's tests, basic instructions before leaving earth, YOU CANNOT SKIP TO THE END.

[@ouch000u]

*3:59** Holy Qur'an* إِنَّ مَثَلَ عِيسَىٰ عِندَ ٱللَّهِ كَمَثَلِ ءَادَمَ ۖ خَلَقَهُۥ مِن تُرَابٍۢ ثُمَّ قَالَ لَهُۥ كُن فَيَكُونُ ٥٩ Indeed, the example of Jesus to *Allāh* is like that of Adam. He created him from dust; then He said to him, "Be," and he was.

[@Swatisingh_1112]

Good health is a blessing❤

[@GlennLammens]

the Aghora path....sitting at the left hand of god.....i know this so well..

[@spiritualrenaissance]

...:)

[@quietone826]

good talk 🙏🏽

[@philphilphil]

A walk like that heals everything ;-)

[@nobodyreally]

One might try replacing the word “God” with Truth/Reality. ie. Why did the Truth crush “me”?

[@duh_incredible_dolt]

They're meant to be interchangeable. He's touched on that concept in earlier videos.

[@rawshi7931]

Who is the ‘truth’ and who is ‘me’. When you figure that out, you’ll realise there is no “I” or “Me”. It’s not personal it’s just soul evolution so that spirit can return home ✨

[@zoicaras2992]

this couldn't have come at a better time

[@robinlynn6940]

I like listening to you on your KZbin channel. Thank you.

[@Onedayordayone777]

Thank you for your speech

[@YasasJaya9]

Thank you!

[@enough1494]

🙏11:11

[@Joestar66]

God is hiding itself from itself.

[@mildredmelan]

37,000 I hope we don’t lose you to the unicorn people

[@rawshi7931]

😂😂😂

[@spiritualrenaissance]

Lol

[@taylorpankhurst7391]

Thank you so much

[@jannie6359]

Wow, its a hard boot camp. I agree. When i wake up in the morning i know i will have to try for the day. It rarely, if ever, is easy. Just sayin'.

[@jannie6359]

Are we in hell?

[@SpiritualVin]

I needed this video today. v good stuff yash

[@JustasStrong74]

😊true words man.thank you😊

[@AnaAlmeida001]

Thank you 🙏🏻

[@anthonyalves5131]

I always get blown away that every time i give up on everything , diet ,practice and just "trying" a space opens up and a shift happens, gets me every time 😂

[@spiritualrenaissance]

I talk about that exactly in the last chapter of my upcoming book 👍

[@anthonyalves5131]

@@spiritualrenaissance cool , looking forward to learn more about this.

[@caseypainter1690]

Or was the plant medicine teaching him a lesson?

[@robertaharvey2027]

Yeah, like he didn't need it.... ❤

[@subsanityy]

👀

[@DermotHynes]

Thank you Godbless

[@Dante_Alligheri]

Thank you Yash

[@knowledge_harvester]

Why would I have a debt? why can't I just be born and live life the way it is, why everything "bad" that happens to us is related to karma debt?

[@EJN-44-47]

I think of my own version of money/debt as being a form of energy that’s at play. I have taken my parents downloads of habits/patterns as my own… I’m not saying I’m right, this is just a way I’m attempting to be self aware of these habits/addictions/patterns. It’s on me, but there’s a foundation of outdated coping mechanisms at play within this experience of life.

[@rawshi7931]

I think this is what happens…. Grace wants to test its infinite potential and experiences through 8 billion unique scenarios via a souls journey. The soul enters the material world as pure, but as soon as it enters, it changes and impurities happen through the ego (desires, attachments, negative thoughts etc.). Through each incarnation the soul purifies it self - it has to burn karma and learn lessons that resulted from those previous incarnations. It’s all for your souls highest good…it’s all too free the soul from incarnations and merge spirit back with Grace. As Yash often says, ‘it’s cleaning the ink bottle until the water is clean’. It’s all Grace doing this to Grace 😅

[@Anvita444]

i feel like i'm waiting or being prepared for something.....what, I have no idea. I usually just end up convincing myself that I'm mental. No clue how to proceed

[@jasonlockhart5633]

Innerstand thankyou 😊

[@gianpaulgraziosi6171]

Brought.

[@scottwyckoff5483]

Yes he did

[@widipermono854]

🙏🙏🙏

[@PLLskipOnPURPLE]

I’m honestly just crossing my fingers that after this life I have the option to not reincarnate anymore hahaha I literally am done with spiritual growth it’s like “kinda worth it but not really” lol I’m so good gonna just chill on the astral plane forever not go back into anymore of these things

[@Mind2Mason]

Thank you. 🫡

[@anthonyg7181]

💯

[@Newfoundmike]

People think they need an enemy ( such as the Proverbial Devil)

[@Nick_las_seafarer]

Enemy=inner me

[@VictorVectorMusic]

God doesnt 'set' any one up, its called free will. Blaming God for your mistakes is ignorant and foolish.

[@spiritualrenaissance]

youre taking things too literal

[@rmcfete]

Because you didn’t learn your karma given lesson yet OR he wants to use you for a greater purpose. I hope it’s the latter.

[@Brutuscomedy]

Speaking of "shift," I just finished a book titled _The Shift_ (by Colby Martin) the other day. 🙃😆

[@OmSoHamShantiShantiShanti]

Bro spot on ... But at some point, during the journey, we will realize with real eyes that they have to walk the path, alone... Its a inside job ... and we can't go inside of them and help them along their path only they can... People will use and use and use the GIVER because he or she GIVES and keeps GIVING, which is enables the TAKERS to keep on TAKING and avoid looking within themselves, depending only on themselves... We are not here to fight the evil end of the spectrum or become the holy end of the spectrum down here... Just accept what is for what it is because it is a continuous simulation for the soul to evolve for itself and self alone. Alchemy is key to everything. And when one realizes this they will be given a choice, either to stay and become a bodhisattva or go home which is to wake up out of the dream....

[@jeffhucle6436]

I dig your vids. Watch them all the time but our consciousness whether singular or collective is one of two things. It is either an alien construct or a construct created by humans from the future. This is not base reality. Which actually gives all that you say more validity. People romanticize their thoughts and processes being their own constructs and to some degree they are but my belief is mostly they are not.

[@duh_incredible_dolt]

What about life from the past? Why do people tend to think the future is where intelligence comes from?

[@headbandassasin]

Archaix?

[@kyrS8]

11:11😊

[@ju.555]

hey yash i haven’t smoked in a year but its gods time to want me to pick it up again to experience it, what was your tobacco recommendation again? i know you mentioned a website that sells organic tobacco… im thinking of making teas out of tobacco and weed… instead of smoking. Thanks 🙏

[@Lissa11638]

Yash....If you want moksha, discover Akram Vignan spiritual science!!! Jai Sat Chit Anand🙏🏼🙇🏻‍♀️💖

[@user-cw7mz5we2m]

What about our ancestors our family siblings parents?

[@hrothdaomio5272]

UIT GREOWS OH GOD

[@KopAk-j5j]

Hi! An injury can be a karmic backlash, or it happen randomly?

[@zephyrr108]

What tradition are you from? Hinduism? Sadhu🙏

[@spiritualrenaissance]

i appreciate the true essence of all religions.

[@adiiyer1300]

Thanks for the video Yash. Thoughts on using cbd oil to assist with chronic feelings of anxiety?

[@spiritualrenaissance]

try it. for me CBD actually creates anxiety

[@ourloveourjourney215]

Yash! Hey man, question for you which may be needing to get in the weeds to answer, but let’s try. Is it a trap (from the mind) to try to reconnect back to a specific glimpse we had of our true nature (such as a seeing of something like noticing this is just a dream, and fighting to remember that), or is the mind fighting remembering that glimpse so we don’t reconnect back to it. In other words if you feel more distant from an insight over time into awareness (which is typical of course ime), do you find it’s best to leave it and wait for another glimpse, or try to reconnect back to it via trying to figure out what beliefs may be blocking it etc? Sometimes it’s exhausting to try to reconnect to the glimpse, but after enough time I usually get back to it, just not sure if the exhaustion is a sign of going the wrong way and trying to use “will power/ego” to do it, or a sign of the ego fighting to try to stop me from reconnecting if that makes sense! This is what I have always done, but now looking to see if it’s been more ego obsessing and lack of trusting it will show clearly without my efforts again and more etc., or the opposite. When the power/energy of the glimpse starts to fade, do we fight to reconnect to it, or let it go? I just hate going back into the dream too deep in comparison to the clarity I know I have experienced if that makes sense. Thanks sm buddy! 🫶🫶💪

[@spiritualrenaissance]

Honestly you have to experiment and see which decision the life force supports . You will feel it.

[@ourloveourjourney215]

@@spiritualrenaissance my man! Thanks man, that’s exactly what I needed to hear rn. Thanks 🙏

[@paullemiremusic3101]

Hi Yash, thank you as always for these videos. I watch every one. I do have a question that comes up once in awhile. When you discuss leaving this body when we die it is almost as if you speak in absolutes. But isn’t this a sort of trap. An example would be when you say “when you leave this body you’ll find out very clearly xyz” … Wondered if you can speak on that at some point

[@spiritualrenaissance]

yes, i have to generalize when i talk because i cant go over all the exceptions (theres so many). But of course we have to have. a certain level of sensitivity and already present awareness to see things more clearly after the body dies.

[@paullemiremusic3101]

Thanks Yash

[@KhamzatChimaev312]

God can give you more than you can handle. Explain people taking their own lifes. Can you explain that brother?

[@spiritualrenaissance]

1 tiny lifetime is nothing when you consider our eternal lifespan. Suicide is a lesson that we learn from like any other lesson when seen from. a broader point of view.

[@ArtaoistDiogenesisCosmoses]

Why does it seem like God wants me to use me to be an agent of chaos evil and destruction? It's like no matter much effort I put into being a good person, there's always so much resistance, and then when I let it all go and give into my dark side, all things flow and feel "right". Am I evil? Am I what's wrong with the world? Am I the bad guy everyone is trying to defeat? Should I just unalive/rescind into the Mountains and leave everyone alone? I'm always gatekept from doing the right thing and harming others is just so natural and intuitive to me. I must be the one worst of the worst people alive or I have no comprehension of what life is all about and I'm entirely confused/uneducated.

[@Tia.K.C]

Your “evil” perception is just that. The more you dislike yourself, the more you will feel compelled to enact that reality. I used to hate myself and boy did I make a great villain in my story. It’s just a story in your head. You think “evil” thoughts, my guess is you learned how to do it from your upbringing. This pattern can be unlearned and a new pattern can replace it. We all have a shadow side, when we integrate it, we can learn how to alchemize that darkness into light.

[@ArtaoistDiogenesisCosmoses]

@@Tia.K.C So who do I talk to in order to stop thinking about rape, homicide, and suicide all day long, without being forced to take meds and locked in a psyche ward or arrested? Seems like this world likes to bully people that want help

[@ArtaoistDiogenesisCosmoses]

@@Tia.K.C Is it a story? Are you sure you're not projecting? I am filled the regret of having done horrendous things, maybe due to conditioning, maybe a genetic inheritance, maybe I'm just scum, who knows? I just want to off myself before I hurt someone again. I have held this impulse inside me for decades, the seal is breaking, it's only a matter of time.

[@ArtaoistDiogenesisCosmoses]

@@Tia.K.C Why did God make me into a monster? Why did God give me so many desires that society abhors? Why am I fueled with ambition to kill and maim and torture? Why do I have to change? Should I just do what my heart is calling me to do and just accept that I'll eventually get caught and spend the rest of my days in prison, or will live as a rogue, or will compile guilt leading to my eventual suicide? I haven't even done anything incriminating yet, though the pressure to do it builds every day. No matter how much I learn about my past, no matter how much I focus on the present, no matter how much I focus on the future, no matter how many affirmations I do or my attempts to overwrite these feelings I am overcome with the intense urge to destroy and harm humans. Specific humans. With precision and intent. I think I may be a serial killer in the making. Why do I get so many dark sexual fantasies? Why is my mind lagged with visions of abhorrence and lustful indulgence? No one taught me what this means or what to do with this energy or what these visions mean, I was raised by pedophile sex trafficking illuminati and I'm forever damned to be like them or so it seems. Will I ever want to live? Will I ever have any semblance of self care? It seems bitching and doing nothing is all I'm capable of. I'm sick of splitting open my heart only to be trampled and trodden. Why do I assault my loved ones? Why do I punch my dad in the face while he verbally assaulted me? Why couldn't i just walk away? I faced incarceration in his place. I gave in to the demon. It took over my body. I traded grace for violence and now I'm a monster. The wound bleeds on anyone that gets close to me. I lost my lover because of this beast of darkness that only seems to want to harm, which is cursed to dwell inside me. Someone please help me or kill me because I can't help myself on my own and I don't have the balls to kill myself only talk about it and hope death comes softly and gently.

[@ArtaoistDiogenesisCosmoses]

@@Tia.K.C I'm tired of being alone and I know this savage wolf inside me only ever scares people away. I worry for anyone close to me and I push everyone away especially women and children.

[@AttilaSzabo1982]

[@SpiritualVin]

Yash, being that us on the path can be crushed a lot, people can react to our light and be assholes, we can get horrible mind attacks, do you think theres a spiritual benefit to not taking life so seriously? Like i mean still be good, be nice, but not take it so serious knowing what we know and that were not the body etc. Like does that help? Were going to wake on a high plane one day, we have gnosis, should we take life a lot less serious and try to be lighter to minimize our suffering around all the sleepers?

[@jonmustang]

Dunno about Yash, but I think so. It sounds like what you’re describing could be similar to true surrender. We let God run the show and just focus focus on staying present and letting the presence work through us without attachment.

[@SpiritualVin]

@@jonmustang yeah makes sense. Im surrendered here alright, but i think i really need to let go further and stop taking life seriously at times. Be lighter and what comes, comes...

[@owenbray3889]

yash, my mind is very active especially and usually when i’m falling asleep and sometimes during the day. my mind will use my imagination to act out these horrible torturous scenes in my mind such as my body being crushed or being stabbed or any other horrible situation my mind can think about. i started semen retention and have been doing it for about 2 weeks and eating clean. what can i do about my mind? these scenes that my mind is acting out using my imagination are often very realistic and vivid to the point where it makes me physically cringe to think about the amount of pain i would be experiencing if i was actually experiencing what i was imagining in my mind.

[@spiritualrenaissance]

this will pass. we have to be crazy for awhile.

[@owenbray3889]

@@spiritualrenaissance thank you, i hope it does

[@miklostamas4457]

Honestly, why? So, you are on point, everything is going well, and then the little devil sneaks in: "You should go do some plant medicine. You're fine, you can take the risk." Take the risk to get some psychosis? What if you are doing well? Instead of focusing on your selfish desires ("I want to find my answers"), just do something for your fellow people for free. Help others, fill their cup if your cup is already full. I am 100% sure everyone can gain more spirituality from this activity than from the plant medicine Russian roulette. Maybe I am wrong; this is just another perspective-mine, nothing less, nothing more. Just wanted to share my thoughts about it.

[@spiritualrenaissance]

yes, it depends on the motives of the individual. “God” OR “devil” could be the one motivating someone to do plant medicine. But God is playing the devil also. He’s running this whole show and alchemizes everything (good and bad) into the highest good in the endless end. Its difficult to talk about..

[@miklostamas4457]

​@@spiritualrenaissance True. If you have to do it, you are gonna do it. Nobody can help it. If you don't do it because you use your willpower you are gonna do it anyway sooner or later.