Wish - sign crushes motorist (1 hour version)

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6 ай бұрын

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@MattMotivation705 5 ай бұрын

Things might not be okay now but they will be. It might not be today, tomorrow, next month, or next year, but if you stay positive you’ll be just fine. I’m proud of you.

@IAmTheJellyBeanRock 21 күн бұрын

It’s been six, seven, shit almost ten years and everything’s been getting worse as every day passes. Before it was just the little things. The world wasn’t as colorful, I figured that not everything was happy. Then those little things became realizations. I’ve been able to get comfortable and love people but even then they leave or something goes wrong with another person. I don’t have a lot of people I trust or care about like that and I’m afraid things can’t help anymore. My family is a lot to me and I’ve come to someone else with problems I have with them and the best advice I can get is “I don’t know” or “don’t think about them” but all I can think about right now is my deteriorating mental state, someone I love that’s leaving, or THEM. The only choice i have to be “happy” or basically just get away from everything is to move and god knows it’s gonna be a bit before I can. I am FUCKED. Now that schools out I have NOTHING to look forward to. The best part of my day was riding home and just that liminal state between the stress and misery of school and the stress and misery of being at home. I hate the place I live at. It’s not a home to me. I had one then we moved, but whatever. That’s not the point. I have nobody else. I’ve tried to make relationships romantically and I’m not ready for it now and before not being ready it was OK. I had somebody but everything’s been thrown at us to keep us apart and by now it’s inevitable and before that relationship it was just toxic bullshit so I don’t know. I can’t do anything. I’m just a waste now, and I’ve felt like this for a while and now I really FUCKING AM because my stupid arm is broken. I can’t say that through since it was my fault. I just. I can’t keep doing this. It’s been 6 years. 6 years ago is when my life took a slide for the worst. My family just lost something. Everything landslides and nothing lasts forever so be careful and enjoy what you have in the moment. Don’t think about death, the bad things (unless they could be a consequence to what you or someone else is doing.) and just.. fuckin.. I don’t know. I can’t be positive. I’ve sometimes thought I want to go back to 2023 and I realize now how fucked shit was back then. There has been no time in my life I was truly happy except for 2014. The fact that it’s only getting worse isn’t encouraging and terrible thoughts continue to cloud my mind. They’re not as bad as they’ve been a few months ago but with me falling back and thinking about old times tonight I think they might. Especially since well I probably can’t say online but I’ll be restrained im trying to leave out as many details in case anyone I know find this or some weirdo sees it. Fuck dude this comment should have ended so long ago. anyways uh im not gonna be happy. I don’t think I ever truly will be. I was happy with that person and now I can’t be. I fucking CANT. BE. At this point I’m wondering if there’s a point. If I’m old and in a hospital bed, or dying in a nursing home what will I think? Will I regret a lot? Will I say “I should’ve done more.”? I keep thinking about death, and it’s like, intoxicating like a really bad trip to just go into those thoughts. I guess that’s a shit description but think of it like a panic attack. It’s fucked. I’ve been thinking about that a lot lately, where do we go- like scientifically if we die? I believe in reality and an afterlife and you can’t know what’s outside of reality, or if there even is anything. Nobody knows anything about our universe, our reality and it freaks me out. I guess I’m asking if I’ll be at peace when I die. I don’t want to just.. forget and I even came up with a fake little fuckin reality where like at some point realistically you become soil or ‘human’ again since you know our corpses turn into plants, we eat the plants and our nutrients- you get the idea, it’s a cycle. Basically I kept theorizing like, what if we had some memories of past lives and then I thought that other people would’ve had them too. And what if we just become like, plants? Plants are pretty mistreated depending on the kind. We should treat our nature better. I’ve been thinking about like what if we come up with a “De-aging” thing or a “fountain of youth” and I don’t think that would be safe. There are a lot of bad people in the world. I was like ‘hey what if we got rid of all the bad people to deal with bad population density” and once you get into the specifics, you can’t have anything good without the bad or bad without good in some cases. What I’m saying is, is that no matter what there’s gonna be something bad. It’s just if you’re fucked, or not fucked. There are a lot of people out there worse off than me, and a -lot- few of like famous people have had bad starts and just got lucky. Imagine how many people there are that are just dying. No magic money man or lottery win is going to come their way. Talented, good people that are fucked. I guess you can’t have the good without bad. And like I said before there’s a lot more bad in the world- every day there’s more bad. Every day things get worse. Not just for me, for everyone. For the rich assholes making our world terrible, for you, for me, to the poor to the old to everyone. I’ve been wasting time this past few weeks and yeah it’s mainly because I can’t do anything with this hand but once I’m actually free to do whatever I won’t have enough freedom to not go insane. Not enough break from everything. I need to spend more time with my grandparents. More time with my friends. More with my family, no matter how judgemental no matter how much my parents make me wanna rip my hair out. I love them. I love everyone. I don’t hate anyone and really I physically can’t. If everything terrible that’s happened to me was a person I’d try to help them. If they caused it I just.. there was this person that caused another person I care about a lot of misery which both reflected on me which brought down my health and mental health a lot. (This was during a time I started completely losing my appetite.) and uhh, recently I can’t hate her or him. I forgave the person I cared about s lot quicker because obviously I care about them a lot and not someone I wanted to lose. The other person though i said I’d hoped died. I’m not one to wish death upon someone, I see it as wrong. -Again- since 2021 though I’ve twisted a lot of my morals. Anyways I’ve still tried to HELP the both of them, even if I couldn’t bring myself to talk to them at first. It’s 1:03 and I started writing this at like 12:30 so I’m gonna go to bed. I need to sleep. That was a lie I don’t care about my sleep schedule. I don’t care about myself, but I have somewhere to be in the morning so I need to wake up early. Good night.

@kmrndoesmemess 11 күн бұрын

@@IAmTheJellyBeanRock you are so brave for all of this and still keeping up. im proud of you and i love you. keep it up and please dont give up because you still have a lot to live for.

@IAmTheJellyBeanRock 11 күн бұрын

@@kmrndoesmemess thanks a lot man it helps