XANA - 15 (Official Lyric Video)

[@itsmylesfr]

"Still smiled at my mother. What she dont know won't hurt her." hit very close to home.. and im sorry to anyone else who relates.

[@brew29]

"I can think of 15 reasons why he would wanna get to know me but daddy said there's only one," cut so, so deeply.

[@aureousCopycat]

I'm so fucking sorry. Thank you for letting it all out. For sharing it with us. Heal, one day at a time.

[@justinedeligny6265]

Me too

[@janedoedodo]

none of us will live like this forever, i promise

[@bugzey1]

I believe you. It was not your fault. It will be ok. Sending you healing hugs xxxx I cried throughout this song. Be kind to you xxxxx

[@Common_Houseplant]

This song is beautiful and devastating and I really hope that someday you'll find the healing and support you deserve.

[@Riverwytche]

I was 16. This hits where I live. Painful beauty

[@christine-ac]

the emotion and vulnerability in this song ;-; sending so much love

[@alinabauschus2365]

I cried during the entire song ❤

[@ashsummer]

This is such a powerful work of art. I experienced a similar situation last year. I cannot fathom the strength it took to make this song. You expressed things that I still cannot. Thank you so much. My heart is with you. ❤

[@lovepearllynn]

i can't wait to scream sing this at summerfest and heal a part of me that doesn't talk about it.

[@anthonyridenour8851]

Scream shout you don’t have to live like this alone ❤❤

[@poloure]

I think this is the only song to ever make me cry.

[@ruhtmeier2563]

This song coming out only shortly after Zolita released Grown Up is pure emotional devastation

[@janedoedodo]

i thought the same thing... 🤍

[@BelleFlower15]

This song came up while I was at work and sent me into a different stratosphere. Full body chills.

[@tabithabasye2440]

Oh Love, I hear you. 💜

[@anhedonicauthor]

Listened to this for the second time the other day, and I think I remembered why I'd only listened to once before. It's horrible when someone you loved you hurts you so badly, doesn't take no for an answer. They want it so badly, but you're not ready, but they're everything to you. You want to make them happy, and you struggle so much to put yourself first. You're too young and inexperienced, too blinded by how much you love them to know that you should have run long so. They keep pushing, and pushing, and pushing, until you break. It's so much easier when you were so brittle because of bad people already in your life. You try to talk to them about it afterwards, and they throw it in your face, they tell you that you said "Yes", but they conveniently forget the hundred no's that came before. You gaslight yourself into thinking that what happened was okay, that you did want it, you said "Yes" after all, but you never stopped regretting it ever since. That it happened, that you let it happen, that you thought you wanted it to happen, that you didn't run sooner. Eventually you realise that you're a victim, but it's not liberating to know that it wasn't your fault, it's violating. You can't stop thinking of every red flag, every time you could have, should have run, but you didn't, and now you have to carry the guilt of knowing that you could have saved yourself, but you didn't. Sometimes it's hard to talk about, because you know they'll never understand what they did wrong, you know from trying to talk to them about it, and you're afraid it'll get back to them, even though you haven't spoken in years. You don't want that shitstorm on your plate, but it's not fair that you have to live with what they did, while they probably don't ever think about you. 8 years on I'm still not over what she did to me, what she put me through. 8 years on and I'm finally able to accept that I have trauma because of her. You might have been the worst I ever had, but I bet I was the best you ever did.

[@thomaskoopman3776]

this cuts deep

[@thefrogroyal7518]

This songs is therapeutic to just listen to or scream at the top of your lungs. This and lavender daughter has heal me in ways I didn't know needed healing

[@AudreyYun]

this literally made me cry......... ugh

[@BelleFlower15]

You shouldn't have had to know better. He should've done better.

[@imannavieira]

I'm sorry you went through that

[@LyletCook]

Another deep song that brings me to tears. Thank you.

[@shesFibi]

This song hit me like a truck.

[@saraschiffke9812]

I feel this so deeply. Wow.

[@1_L0v3_Mus1c_]

I’m sorry you went through that 😕

[@Chronicallyrin]

I had no idea so many girls had gone through this, the assault outside out a house after going out with a guy you thought you could trust, especially an older guy, smiling and hiding so your mom won’t see the bruises, it’s all so familiar

[@leavemealone547]

it's so sad that so many girls can relate to this.... my stepdad used to abuse me(actually all three of them😅) when my mother wasn't home they made me take out my clothes and do things for them....i was just four years old.... it's always gonna hurt.... we just have to understand it's not our fault and we have the right to say no I'm so sorry for anyone who relates to this... sending you my love❤❤

[@brooklynguy6896]

Holy cow😢

[@skylapoulsen57]

I just told my mom about a similar situation that happened im starting therapy tomorrow and I’m obsessed with this song

[@allyviahowell1124]

I only hate this song cuz I can relate to it. You're voice is so amazing tho

[@giantanteaterninja]

Thank you and I believe you. I am so sorry.

[@Bellafromtwilight]

the part about the mom hit home for me because i was 9 and didnt say anything until i was 12

[@TerifiedTeddyBear]

Is this song about sa by a boyfriend or a man older than her she liked and he took advantage of her .

[@hibiscustea9274]

The father