you’re writing love letters in an ancient library during autumn [ dark academia playlist ]

[@helderboutens]

Just made a Discord server for the channel! Feel free to join here: discord.gg/JgwuB25sUE

[@moneyonmymind4617]

Born to write love letters for a lover, but forced to write essays instead.

[@helderboutens]

Real

[@ziomaraR.]

same . . . working on it as we speak :')

[@SteelJustAri]

i was born to write love letters.... I'm still struggling with the lover part

[@weriDUH14]

@@SteelJustAri ouch that hurt.. ( same)

[@cloud8715]

agreed😭

[@melsvant]

this playlist makes me question my back 18 yrs especially last 2 year... as like F. Dostoyevky said; “I swear to you that to think too much is a disease, a real, actual disease.”

[@lunyxappocalypse7071]

If one does not have a goal or goals in life, or is mentally predisposed to neurotism, that can well be the case.

[@yugenalgiz]

Gather 'round, here come the timestamps: 00:00 Camille's Waltz - Helder Boutens 02:56 Valse de l'Adieu - Eric Christian 05:51 Watching You in the Morning - Waltzin 07:55 Twilight - Holly Jones 09:49 The Scent of Petrichor - Franz Gordon 12:22 Sous l'Ombre du Chêne - Tom Merrall & Antonin Fourrier 15:32 Sonder - Niall Byrne 17:49 Dreamland - Robert Gromotka 20:00 Clair de Lune - Claude Debussy (interpreted here by Ave Maria) 25:26 Stories of the Street - Adam Specter 27:50 Reflection - Jonas Hain 29:58 Rainy Day (solo piano) - Emiliano Branda (only Spotify seems to have this one, and even then it looks like the whole album is not available?) 34:00 Love Poem - Imaginary Poet 36:30 Lei Sogna di Noi - Zeppi 38:30 La Vérité - Mano Vecina 40:58 Golden Moment - De Maynes 43:43 Delusions: III. Délicat avec Passion - Eric Christian 46:31 Breakfast with Chopin - Louis Mercier 48:37 Between my Lines - Brackwhit 50:47 A Letter from Her Majesty - Ophelia Wilde 52:58 Saman - Olin Wils (or Ólafur Arnalds? Are they one and the same? Who knows.) I reckon these should be correct, however do let me know if not! Also taking this opportunity to tell you to be kind to yourself and to treasure the little things 🌼

[@Tanjiros_right_toe]

tysm!!!!! ^^

[@shivangigautam1112]

Thankyou dear ! ❤❤

[@yugenalgiz]

@@shivangigautam1112 Happy to help! 💛

[@yugenalgiz]

@@Tanjiros_right_toe You're welcome 🐣

[@0.0-y8n]

Thank you, I was looking for this :D 💛

[@CalebSiegling]

She used to write long letters to me enclosed in old envelopes from advertisements. Those letters and envelopes are some of the things that I hold most dear to me.

[@adititripathi9865]

aww, hope yall happy

[@Abhi_say000]

where's she now...!?

[@CalebSiegling]

@@Abhi_say000 We went our separate ways this last summer because she went to a college in a different state than me. We used to call and text a lot but I think time and distance separated us permanently. I think the whole story in a brief summary can be summed up as love at the wrong time. All I want to say is if you realize someone you love is in love with you, do anything to make it work, and don't mess it up. By love, I don't mean mere attraction, I mean the feeling you have when you never want to leave that person. Please, don't make the same mistakes I did.

[@violetavicente7597]

@@CalebSiegling I was using this playlist to write about a failed love that I had. And somehow, reading both of your comments gave me hope and made me feel better. I'll take your advise if I ever find love again, and I wish you the best luck in that quest too. Thank you for your words.

[@senialweife]

@@CalebSiegling I'm sorry it didn't work the way you want. I'm sure you'll get over this, it will take time, but that time will definitely come and you finally accept that you can't do anything about it anymore

[@TheFashioonqueen]

I hope dearly and wholeheartedly that everyone of us finds the kind of love which allows you to say "this is it"

[@meriemcullen8510]

damn girl ....i wish so,for you as well💌

[@M1KAM11]

Found but could not attain 🫠

[@hexen259]

i'm so happy i got the maturity to understand how beautiful classical music is.

[@ut_fan8787]

classical music gang

[@Laura-ht7ri]

​@@ut_fan8787 where can I join? 😂

[@ut_fan8787]

@@Laura-ht7ri lol right here i guess

[@lunyxappocalypse7071]

It has been barricaded behind the elite for the longest time. KZbin and the internet has allowed it to be shared as it was in eras past.

[@VentiYOLO]

@@ut_fan8787 I'll join too

[@tikanaraa34]

When i was 6 i had this guy friend who was my friends cousin. We'd hang around the whole summer together, play together, bicker together, laugh together. 10 summers went like that in a split second. I was 16 he was 18 we were still as close and as goofy as ever, but i had noticed that my feelings for him were growing and when i finally had the guts to confess he told me that he liked our mutual friend. I remember going back home crying so much to a point where i couldn't get out of bed for days. After that we had spoken a few times but drifted away due to my circumstances. I was heavily sick for a few months while he was preparing to go to a different country for college. I had heard from mutual friends that he wanted to meet up for the last time but i couldn't really make it. I still think about him and what he has been up to. So many questions to ask yet no one to answer. I never understood when people would say right person wrong time, because for me i always thought if you really loved that person you would've done anything to make it happen. But now id say it was love that was never meant to be. The type of love where admiring that person from a far is enough for you to be happy. I always thought that he'd be my life long mission to pursue not a lesson to be learned, but life has its own turns and twists. The matter of untangling is ours to decide. To whoever reading this i'd like to say do what is true to you, life is too short for regrets. Say that you love him/her or them, express yourself freely. To live without regrets is a life well lived. Hope my little story would push you to be a little courageous than yesterday.

[@mohansahareti4678]

❤ I’m glad I read this. This has happened to me and being the most vulnerable with someone is the most hurtful things you can do. But also the most important things you can do for yourself.

[@Psevdonim499]

вау, эта история, такая грустная, но почему-то так благородно разрывающая сердце... просто нет слов... 😭💔

[@harami44-n5k]

Watch the anime Your lie in April, it has same type of story as yours.

[@MariaMaria-sp2yx]

@@harami44-n5k god bless you, i was looking for something to watch with this exact same vibe!

[@MariaMaria-sp2yx]

thanks for sharing this!

[@bixbi_mi937]

I have never in my life lifted a pen to write a poem, or never have I felt the urge to move to a rhythm never have I had the thought nor the talent to not a golden sunset, not a blue sky not even my lover, whom I love so dearly made me want to write a few pretty words and make it rhyme not the best singers nor the smoothest symphonies made me want to twirl around in a white gown until today, I heard you play this beautiful melody and I realized I too am a poet and I too can dance only nothing ever made me want to until you.

[@blakeunlimited9978]

this is si perfect

[@allelss-oh8sj]

Amazing

[@selinaraabe1910]

It's wonderful~

[@unfriendlyblackhottiemwah]

Absolutely magnificent! 🤍

[@derekgo611]

like this poem

[@Gym_DylanH]

11 years since we broke up, I saw her with her child .. we just smiled and kept walking.

[@ngockhanh4689]

your comment just so wholesome. I love it.

[@weaversong7021]

i'm sorry. the past is a beautiful and painful thing, but not nearly as much as what comes after it. wish you both the best

[@lyricsmano2863]

Past is always such a beautiful dream hiding the scars in ourselves

[@riccardocecco]

That's the reason why I always read KZbin comments. It's incredible how people can share so many feelings with just a couple of words. That's kind of poetry. I could write an entire story about the imagination that this comment generated in my mind.

[@AndrewAtSolar]

I fear this everyday. She still means so much to me. almost a year later, we havent talked since. I have only a few distinct fading memories that keep me warm through the silence. Her singing in the car, the way she told stories about her day, and the sound of her voice when I would playfully annoy her for attention. I know she has or will move on. who wouldn't want her? It will be my burden to cope with seeing someone else in my place beside her.

[@vendi_woo_]

Not me listening to this playlist while studying while everyone else writing a loved one😅

[@helderboutens]

Good luck with your studies!

[@vendi_woo_]

@@helderboutens thank you so much^^

[@karadanvers5219]

Studying is a love language too you know :) Im studying with you, no worries

[@vendi_woo_]

@@karadanvers5219 aww nice thx!!😇

[@BasDin]

Same her

[@yvetteflowers111]

the girl who wrote to her crush you are a massive inspiration & no doubt you have beautiful feelings for this world. Wish you the best. I hope we can all one day find the courage to make things happen like she did. ❤

[@CaroLynn-o2f]

Stoppp you’re too kind 😢💞 Thank you for those beautiful words 💖 Wishing everyone the best ❤️

[@alexandragracetan]

I can't believe i focused for 50 minutes on MATH listening to this, thank you Helder !

[@helderboutens]

Glad you be of help! Thanks for the kind words!! :)

[@jeon_bana7722]

بالرغم انني، طالبة عربية واشك بانك ستفهمين ما أقول لكنني كسولة كثيرا لترجمه هذا للغة الأنجليزي، ولكن بحق لقد اعجبت بهده القائمة وكنت ادرس رياضيات أيضاً يالها من صدفة رائعة وجميلة

[@lunyxappocalypse7071]

​@@jeon_bana7722 Unfortuantely, I haven't found one for changing writting directions. But luckily I know HTML fairly well.

[@hannahyeanna]

100 reasons to stay alive: spreading a message :D 1. to make your parents proud 2. to conquer your fears 3. to see your family again 4. to see your favourite artist live 5. to listen to music again 6. to experience a new culture 7. to make new friends 8. to inspire 9. to have your own children 10. to adopt your own pet 11. to make yourself proud 12. to meet your idols 13. to laugh until you cry 14. to feel tears of happiness 15. to eat your favourite food 16. to see your siblings grow 17. to pass school 18. to get tattoo 19. to smile until your cheeks hurt 20. to meet your internet friends 21. to find someone who loves you like you deserve 22. to eat ice cream on a hot day 23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day 24. to see untouched snow in the morning 25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire 26. to see stars light up the sky 27. to read a book that changes your life 28. to see the flowers in the spring 29. to see the leaves change from green to brown 30. to travel abroad 31. to learn a new language 32. to learn to draw 33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them 34. Puppy kisses. 35. Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek). 36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them. 37. Trampolines. 38. Ice cream. 39. Stargazing. 40. Cloud watching. 41. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets. 42. Receiving thoughtful gifts. 43. “I saw this and thought of you." 44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you." 45. The relief you feel after crying. 46. Sunshine. 47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention. 48. Your future wedding. 49. Your favorite candy bar. 50. New clothes. 51. Witty puns. 52. Really good bread. 53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time. 54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.) 55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling. 56. The smell before and after it rains 57. The sound of rain against a rooftop. 58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing. 59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them. 60. Trying out new recipes. 61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio. 62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage. 63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable. 64.Breakfast in bed. 65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theater. 66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning). 67. Pray (if you are religious) 68. Forgiveness. 69. Water balloon fights. 70. New books by your favorite authors. 71. Fireflies. 72. Birthdays. 73. Realizing that someone loves you. 74. Spending the day with someone you 85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed. 86. Someone’s skin against yours. 87. Holding hands. 88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world. 89. Singing off key with your best friends. 90. Road trips. 91. Spontaneous adventures. 92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes. 93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees. 94. Thunderstorms. 95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland. 96. The taste of your favorite food. 97. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning. 98. The day when everything finally goes your way. 99. Compliments and praise. 100. to look on this moment in 10 years time and realise you did it.

[@theatlantianauthor7051]

I just wanted you to know that this is very inspiring, and it warmed my heart 🖤

[@archonofthesoap]

wow u must rlly like life....:(

[@shawnmendrek3544]

yea

[@eleonorelochet3158]

life sometimes has strange, unexpected, ways of letting you meet someone. So random that it feels like the universe is very much testing you. Amongst them all, the one I despise the most is Right People Wrong Timing. There's nothing you can do except imagine how things would have gone if it weren't now, not now when there isn't room for them to let themselves in. It's truly hard to keep a nice of memory of these kind of encounters as your heart aches of something that never happened, solely because of timing.

[@m.k.9465]

Just a few months ago I decided to write a “confession” letter to my crush, but never directly say that “I like you” in the letter. I originally thought the letter would send a message of encouragement and admiration, but in the end I realized my feelings still slipped through. Some might say I was a fool, others might celebrate me as a warrior. A part of me regrets deeply of what I decided to do (as it wasn’t wise because I was not ready for a relationship) but another part of me perhaps selfishly congratulates myself because of the attention I’ve gain from him. I feel horrible for the second part… Oh, the foolish things feelings cause us to do. “I just want to be loved.” “That’s not the same thing as loving.” -Little Women After the confession letter, every time I glance toward his way, his eyes seemed already ready to meet mine. Every eye contact felt more intimate than any hand holdings. Something about his eyes… the depth of them… the way they changed-turned soft and almost vulnerable for me. Of course, this could all be my imaginations, but I could have sworn, there was something special about our eye contact compared to our usual social ones. This might sound terribly strange, but I never spoke more than two words to him because of our language barrier, but somehow I already fell in love with who he is… I pray that it’s not just a version that I’ve created in my mind. But some days I felt the boldness to just say-I loved him. Maybe not with the best love that I should have (the selfless kind), but I adored him for who he is. If any of you actually took the time to read a piece of my heart here, I thank you and ask that you treat it kindly please. ❤ we all have this corner of our heart that seemed so intimate and yet beautiful at the same time.

[@PaxLikesFoxes]

i always write at least one letter or a poem to the boys i've had crushes on, only one of them really truly loved it. i wrote him a few more, crushing on him for eight months, but he didn't want me in his life like i wanted him. my crush for this boy has ended as an old crush has sparked again on a boy i liked freshman year. now i'm writing him a letter in my finest handwriting, debating on whether or not i should give it to him...

[@Siddhi-oc2ym]

@@PaxLikesFoxes did you give it? because you should. better to deal with it than live in regrets and hopes and what-ifs.

[@Siddhi-oc2ym]

This is beautiful. I relate too much and there's something ethereal about how i see myself in your experiences..

[@PaxLikesFoxes]

@@Siddhi-oc2ym Not yet! But I definitely will the next time I see him

[@MfDoom-bc1ld]

just that others couldn't feel your words

[@1ce8earr]

To everyone who's studying with this music: Checklist: • A bottle of water, at least 1liter. Your brain works better if it has enough water and drinking helps you to concentrate • Your charger. You sometimes don't even notice that your device's battery is going down, so better have it plugged in all the time • Your headphones. You will be able to focus more with headphones, because it blocks background noises. Also, if it's a late night study session, you won't wake up anyone • a tea or coffee. Coffee keeps you awake, green or black tea can make you feel more awake as well. • Your study/work stuff: your laptop/tablet/phone , a few pens, paper or whatever you need. •Anything else you could need, what about a heat pad, a blanket, a good lamp, your pet so you have a study buddy Reminder: After an hour, you should stand up and walk a bit around. Better stop the music or put on different music for the break. Open your window, even if it's cold outside. Fresh air will make it better, trust me. You could also lay your head down on your desk for ten minutes and listen to a podcast. Or, if you have to read a book, listen to the audiobook of it. You can also listen to the audiobook while doing another thing, that's even better than listening to music while reading the book. I hope y'all had a good day, if not, that's okay too. Remember to take care of yourself and try to get some sleep tonight DISCLAMER: I did not create this, I found it on other playlists. I still wanna help people out and get them through any stress (:

[@meriemcullen8510]

oh that's very kind of you , best regards ,gentle soul ^^

[@juliagimenestabarim1334]

true

[@silvia_jeonga]

because even though i’ve been born in autumn my soul rests finally in its belonging winter because even though i revived today my mind flies endlessly in its hopeful future of tomorrow some time from now i might remorse or regret or remember today but it is not until that day arrives that i stop performing onstage the agonies of the present i am a withering passionfruit, the rain that sets near the horizon but never drowns the sun the morning mist that enters dawnbreak like a portal to the forest where miracles are met with tales from the simmering darkness of the night in which we cannot blink.

[@nuriway9181]

I honestly think people who create playlists like these are artists in their own world making u experience something magnificent. Loved the playlist!!!❤

[@helderboutens]

Thank you so much! I actually also composed some of the pieces I put in my playlists as well! :)

[@MrApalomo]

Anyone that can reach into oneself and extract something they feel in their soul, and to offer it for others to experience, is an artist. This person had a feeling in them, and thought that a set of songs would materialize it; this person successfully did what makes an artist be.

[@zarchsount]

@@helderboutens No way!!! Thats acc so cool

[@samj5398]

No but fr. It's like a soundtrack

[@jaketutu]

My partner and I are studying to this, I wanted to leave a comment sharing my appreciation of this selection. we are enchanted. thank you.

[@helderboutens]

Thank you so much!!!

[@gbrll_333]

when is it gonna be my turn? when will someone buy me flowers? when will someone take my hand and lead me to dance in the rain? when will someone smile when I'm laughing just because they like the sound of it? when will someone write a poem about me? when will someo love me? like truly love me

[@brigihorvat7369]

When you will do all those things for yourself first❤ we all have to

[@catedoge3206]

Hopefully soon my fren

[@Your_dads_account]

when u stop looking for it

[@jenarabastos4249]

Meybe some day. To me.. It's option, i don't need This kind of love, i don't want share in This way my life. I'll be alright by miself, the people in the city i live on aren't much kind yk?

[@smokintunes5782]

@@brigihorvat7369 bro wth why would you take your own hand and dance in the rain

[@QueenBee-hr3cq]

To myself, Falling in love with you was hard, a journey, an adventure, a good time. I was hopeless, knowing loving anyone is hard.. until i found you. You were always there, but i didn't care enough to look for you. When i noticed that you started to fade away, i looked at you for the first time, with a sense of great regret. Everyone can leave me except you. You are my muse, my strengh, the greatest beauty on earth...in my eyes. ...

[@istigma3706]

this is beautiful

[@QueenBee-hr3cq]

@istigma3706 That's really nice of you thank you a lot. I appreciate it ♡

[@istigma3706]

@@QueenBee-hr3cq your welcome

[@archidearest]

this made me shed a tear. as someone that has a very conflicting relationship with my body and mind, this made me hopeful - for the first time in a long time.

[@QueenBee-hr3cq]

@@archidearest I understand how you feel. Yk when you start searching for yourself you will feel like there is a black spot in your heart, you don't know what the cause of this is. Its a long and hard Journal but in the end the hole in your heart will be filled with flowers. You just have to believe that you are still there and no one can steal that away from you. It all starts with a small glance, one little Step into understand You not the "You" that People see and want you to be.

[@CaroLynn-o2f]

Perfect for writing my confession letter to a guy I’ve known for 5 years ❤️💌 thank you for this splendid playlist 👌💕 (EDIT: update on how it went with the guy!! Check the comments 🌙🩵)

[@helderboutens]

Thank you so much for supporting the playlist! Feel free to let me know how it ended up going, I wish you all the best!!

[@gudetamababygirl]

HOW DID IT GOOOO?

[@swaninluv]

I wanna know what happened too \^^/

[@Sakashixx]

Update?

[@C4T_L0V3R1]

Updatteeee?❤😊

[@Laura-ur123]

It feels like I’ve cut someone off so now I’m realising they never deserved me in the first place and that there’s so much more in life then them

[@Hoso-h2i]

*Dark academia tracks possess a certain timeless elegance, transporting listeners to a world where every chord tells a story of love, loss, and the pursuit of knowledge*

[@autumnriver-jq5cd]

I LOVE Medival stuff and this helps me write songs, poems, stories, or just thinking about it

[@theebalosshinimoe2237]

In the realm where hearts entwine but fate forbids, A love unspoken, where longing resides. Whispers of affection lost in the night's embrace, Yearning for a touch, a glimpse, a trace. In the tapestry of dreams, a love untold, A silent symphony, a story unfold. Yet distance lingers, a cruel divide, A love unattainable, where hearts hide. In the garden of forbidden blooms, A love unfurled in silent rooms. Cherish the moments, let them linger, A love unspoken, a gentle singer.

[@THEFRESH-PRINCESS]

This is beautiful.

[@ikramgrellane108]

Beautiful ❤

[@kat8791-l2s]

simply amazing..wow

[@I.EnlightenCosplay]

For me, it takes months for me to make up the courage so admit I love someone, but somehow in mere weeks this girl has captured my heart. I love her. I just hope she loves me back.

[@Wholeness9]

Just tell her,the written word is a miracle

[@INFP-chan]

This makes me like I'm going through a city and through lives. Like watching the life of someone as they fall in love.

[@i6am-pink6not-punk]

"My dear diary, the day finally became warmer but dirtier because spring is in the air. I planned all my day and was ready to do what i will have to do. From early morning to darker night. If we could imagine that my day is full of entire darkness then the playlist of impressive classic music that i heared today from this channel youtube would be the a blinding ray of sunshine into the cave of everyday life" This playlist made very great.

[@herink4331]

I find myself more in these playlists than ever with people or places. Thank you, Helder.

[@helderboutens]

Thank you for the kind words!!

[@Mary_Bub1a]

I am doing it in fact. Writing to him, and planning on giving him the letter when we meet. I love him

[@lilylily-y7y]

update please

[@user-xz7pq7ef1f]

me too

[@jamien.5528]

yes, update us!!

[@P_woj]

To the lover I have yet to meet, Will We ever experience the type of love that will make music sound like magic and rain feel like home? Where us slow dancing isn’t only a figment of my imagination ? Can we be the couple thats in their 80s having people look at us saying ” I want what they have” ?

[@sammira6341]

this is beautiful

[@CUTE-ve1ix]

I cry thinking about that one person i havent even met. Where are u come to me already

[@abhimanueasokan5789]

Maybe one day I can put my thoughts into beautiful words

[@onyx_mango]

maybe you already are doing so

[@Wholeness9]

You just did

[@timeisallitis]

These playlist makes me feel that Life can be pretty good while struggling to do modern physics questions as well

[@helderboutens]

Thank you so much, I wish you all the luck in the world with your future studies!

[@MonimYyuib]

Lorel is true... jinglebells!😢🎉❤😅🎉😂😢😅😢😂

[@bluesedix3563]

lmao is everyone solving physics questions here including me?

[@ragnar5630]

writing lab reports

[@kailoshkalimuthu]

and here i am trying to do one last revision before my JEE attempt, though ive known this since the start i chose to acknowledge now that this is not what i want .

[@Junebug-jm2cf]

The moment I first laid eyes on him, it was as if love had enveloped me in its warm embrace. Words can scarcely capture the intensity of that feeling; it's something you'll only understand once you've experienced it yourself. But for me, it was an instant knowing. It's in the way he laughs, so effortlessly contagious, filling the air with joy. His smile is a radiant beacon that illuminates even the darkest corners of my heart. And when he speaks, every word dances with a melody that resonates deeply within me. Every aspect of him, every nuance, feels divinely crafted. I adore the way his big, voluminous curls cascade around his face, framing his stunning eyes. Those eyes, captivating and full of depth, draw me in like a moth to a flame. And when he smiles, revealing those adorable braces, it's as if the whole world lights up with him. In his presence, time seems to stand still, and every moment is painted with love colors. He is my muse, my inspiration, my everything. And with each passing day, my love for him grows stronger, deeper, and more profound.

[@lexi_nator]

A week from today is the opening night of my performance as the lead, Maria, in The Sound of Music. This is my first lead, so of course I'm buzzing with excitement and nerves, but I've also been battling the realization that the show will be over soon. I'm writing a personal letter to every single person in my cast and on the production team to show my gratitude. These past few months of working with them have felt like a dream. We are such a close-knit community and I'm going to miss them all dearly. This playlist provides the perfect atmosphere to do my writing and reminisce. :) Thank you.

[@jenniexstarr]

"Dark and quiet music has the power to touch the depths of our souls, like a gentle whisper in a silent night." - Unknown

[@samj5398]

I wrote this just now while listening to this playlist. I havent shared much of my writings for the past year because im compiling it into a book. But i wanted to share with everyone 🫶🏻 The ends will always be loose. Even if i tried to tie it up with the tightest of sailors knots, or wrap it in the nicest wrapping paper and bows. It will always come undone. And so long as it comes undone So long as my heart cries for you there will always be more poems Like the flowers budding in the dawn of spring. everywhere I turn, you will continue to be one of my muses. The inspiration will always flow with the beat of my heart. But for now, this is where this book will end. Just know my dear, not a day goes by that I don't cry. And I don't care if that's not what you would have wanted. It's ok that I miss you Your jokes Your empathy Your hugs Your love. I'll stop missing you when I see you again, some sunny day.

[@helderboutens]

Beautifully written, thanks for sharing!!

[@Lord_HawHaw]

The Love I had for you led me to do things I never imagined possible- and it is felt still, my Eternal Beloved.

[@Cas_quette]

I remember this day. It was so beautiful, i thought we've creat love, with just a kiss and a smile. Yeah, you just write with your eyes, a poem.

[@Erekana]

I listened to this playlist and I can't believe I finished writing an entire story in 2 hours! Thank you so much for ❤

[@helderboutens]

Thank you so much for the kind words!!

[@dannavargas]

A perfect playlist for writing the letter where I confess my feelings to the guy I've been in love with for years, but I know it won't happen between us, and it's time to let him go. So, this letter contains my final words, and he will only be a memory of an unrequited love 💔

[@helderboutens]

Thanks for the kind words!

[@Avatheastonishing]

this is my absolute favorite one of these videos! I love the music and the overall aesthetic of it. I don't know how many times I've come back and re-listened to this, but, I thank you deeply.

[@helderboutens]

Wow, thank you so much!!

[@johannesweiss4691]

Born to write love letters, forced to love letters written on a screen

[@anareh]

So, There is this guy whom i have known for almost 3 years now , he is an army brat and i feel like he hates me because we practically had an argument in the first week of our session we were in grade 9th back then and he didn't have any friends back then , and now he thinks that i hate him to but ohh I wish someone could tell him how I feel when he looks at me even for a second, it feels oddly weird something which i have never felt , i don't know why but whenever i look at him and find him laughing at what his friend said or playing basketball ( which he is really good it) this song summertime sadness i feel like it starts playing , knowing the fact that i will be leaving soon and then he will just be in my memories, i soo wish i could tell him how he much he means and how he is always there in every poem i write , i might deny the fact that my poems aren't towards anyone but i know deep down how well i describe him in my poems and quotes . This thing shocks me quite a bit that we have been classmates for 3 years and yet we never even shared a word with eachother even when the teacher once assigned us a task together we both did it and cordinate without even sharing a word with each other (me because i was too shy to do so and him , well i dont know..) , i sometimes soo wish i could tell him that all those paintings were about him , but i guess i can never because i messed up in the very beginning even befor we could become friends, i soo wish that i could know what he thinks about me I SWEAR ONE-SIDED LOVE IS THE MOST PAINFUL

[@basilbaby7678]

Most of our relationships throughout life, will be ephemeral acquaintances, and that’s totally normal.

[@Lover_Therian974]

Currently planning on writing a old-timey book with one of my friends about a false villian and false hero and two lovers struggling although their move of side-characters! Here's some of the quotes I plan to put in it.. "There's millions of different versions of myself in people's eyes.. Not just one me can exist, I'll never be seen as good" - Villain. "I can't do it, I'm failing everyone, I just can't- I can't protect you guys.. All I did was make it worse." - Hero. "I wish I didn't love you.. I wish I was in a different universe where I hated you, then it wouldn't hurt it would feel.. Good, maybe.." - Antagonist (lover). "I hate where I am right now, but I love being with you.. Please stay with me, I really do need you." - Antagonist (lover).

[@mi_kou]

i come back to this sometimes not that i'm studying i just feel comforted over the fact that i've been friendzoned for almost all my crushes i'm not someone to like anyone often, i'm greyromantic for gods sake but it just kinda sucks when i finally like someone but they only see me as a friend so i just cope with this specific playlist to write about my own feelings it helps a lot. thanks for making this playlist

[@cerineche7269]

Listening to this while reading "tout le bleu du ciel" 🤧🥺💘j it's so soothing,i love it

[@veralovespasta2532]

god i never finished that book...

[@seagaulle]

I've had crushes in the past, but if anything they had caused me more pain and regret than love. I felt weak for letting myself be so vulnerable and being controlled by someone I barely knew who ended up not giving a shit about me. I found my first relationship two years ago - in autumn funny enough - but he would barely talk to me and make an effort to visit, and after a year I left. While it was a relationship, I realized he saw me more as an obligation rather than a partner, so he'd only talk to me a few times a week in order to keep me interested, rather than talking more often because he was genuinely interested. After we broke up I began to think that nobody would ever feel these deep emotions towards me or want to spend time with me, and I would never find real love. However, that was two years ago... and autumn is a season that I get a new crush apparently. This time I met someone and we have been talking everyday, I feel more open with him and his behavior is completely different than my last one so I have good feelings about this. He may live in another country, but he always talks about how he's saving up money so we can travel and meet, and is very engaged in our conversations. It's too early to say if I love him but I am optimistic about this. I feel like things are finally looking up for me and to all the people who think it won't happen because they're too old or it never has, just keep looking and work to be the best person you can be.

[@Wholeness9]

We ARE ALL weak,vulnerable and afraid. And we ARE ALL limitless,confident and strong…deserving first of our own Love, and then the love of that special someone…NEVER STOP LOVING

[@latteandart]

my closest friend, i've known her for 13 years at this point, since we were 3. she's 10 days older to me. we've stayed in touch, on and off. she lives in a different city now. she doesn't have her own phone, so we would email every once in while. a few months ago, she suggested we write letters instead. i'm writing my first letter to her now. i have a feeling she'd like this playlist, too.

[@ExtraordinaryFate]

This is so much better than I expected it to be. I don't have any fancy stories about how I met my partner, and I never wrote a love letter either, but I love the feel of this. Well done.

[@Tofudatofu]

Although I don’t have anything to write about my crush, this playlist is and will always be the one I choose as a revising playlist. Thank you for the amazing playlist and keep it up! ❤ It’s really helping me through the upcoming exams 🥹

[@ileanamurillo8902]

this has been go to playlist for the past 2 weeks

[@helderboutens]

Thank you so much!!

[@IndigoFudge]

Unrelated to the title - I was searching for instrumental playlists to play while doing my homework. I enjoy them because they make me feel like Featherstonhaugh from Maurice (1987). Lo and behold, that is the EXACT scene and character you chose for the thumbnail!! It’s a sign. Lol.

[@helderboutens]

I suppose it must've been a sign indeed!

[@Sunflower_that_loves_you]

I am writing my first and last love letter to him. Heartbreaking, that I realized I love him so much only after knowing that I am going to lose him. I have lost him. He will be married to someone else. What do I do with this love..... I have lost you already, A. It's 1:30 in the morning, 8th May 2024. My heart is in peices all again, but you have helped me before and have taught me how to gather my own pieces when you first found out me, met me. But, this time I will be alone. You won't be here with me, encouraging and cheering me all along. I love you,I love you, I love you.

[@ReignFrostedHeavens]

It's been awhile since I had a good cry. Thank you for your music to soothe the soul. ❤

[@marthaz5785]

This playlist gives me chills and I love it. It is like main dark character energy

[@katharina_klotz]

Somehow the first to comment, but I just cant help myself: thank you for all these beautiful playlists, each one fits the theme perfectly and helps me with studying as well as easing my stress at least for some time. Thank you for creating a safe place for those who need rest, feel lost or need time to sort reflect upon themselves, you have enriched and brightened the life of countless, without even being aware of the influence and place you hold in their lives- and ultimately their heart. Thank you for your immeasurable kindness An unknown subscriber

[@helderboutens]

Thank you so much for your kind words! I strive to keep this channel a safe place for everyone to rest and perhaps even share their emotions and thoughts. The first music piece in this video is actually a piece I composed myself by the way :)

[@kazumiishen]

​@@helderboutensdid you really make this up yourself?? You are very talented!!｡⁠:ﾟ⁠(⁠;⁠´⁠∩⁠`⁠;⁠)ﾟ⁠:⁠｡

[@РенеЖирар-ъ9ж]

​@@helderboutens Would you please send me the sheets of this masterpiece?..

[@helderboutens]

@@РенеЖирар-ъ9ж of course! May I have your email address?

[@РенеЖирар-ъ9ж]

​@@helderboutenssorry, did you receive my e-mail or youtube just deleted it?

[@KritiShankhdharVIII-B]

hey, please keep making playlists like these, im really grateful i found them at just the right time of the year, when my exams are around the corner. ill make sure to update on my results which will come out around the last week of september, i suppose. best of luck to everyone!

[@helderboutens]

Good luck with your exams!! Thank you so much for the kind words 🤍

[@Wholeness9]

We’ve known each other for some 20 months,have become dear friends,shared laughs and past traumatic experiences seldom shared with others, deep topics, nudging our way together through art classes,seeing each other twice sometimes more each week,created small gifts for one another, confessed faults and fears, while inspiring each other to close those chapters hindering our liberation in order to open new ones revealing our limitless growth-to great relief followed by wonderful opportunities. She has paused to look into my eyes before,albeit briefly, and then…one night while saying goodbye it happened, she stopped everything in reality and put her attention straight through to my essence,deep, way in there-And although caught off guard and surprised there I was looking far into these soft,curious fascinating eyes locked in a gaze and so completely connected that in a fraction of a heartbeat doubts , hesitation , insecurity -all leapt out and away from me and in flushed a feeling so incredibly soothing and joyful I’m unable to stop feeling wonderful…she then left the country to visit her sister for the Christmas holiday,will return around new years and no one but you and my golden retrievers know how I feel-dammed it feels incredible to share it with someone-this playlist caused it to spill out,so don’t blame me -MERRY CHRISTMAS Y’ALL 2024

[@harrys_lostunicorn229]

Perfect for starting my essay 17 hours before class

[@asukachan8098]

Listening this while it's raining outside add something more poetic and romantic.

[@valiullah]

two drops of water fell from the sky on an electric wire sparking my eye reciting Ghalib’s ghazals each couplet a sigh they chased one another i don’t know why dripping wire to wire each leap a silent cry until they fell to the earth and grew into a single butterfly . . somewhere else it rained as two drops of water fell from one I

[@weaversong7021]

this is so beautiful

[@valiullah]

@@weaversong7021 thank you!

[@DikshaSingh-mnb67]

Tomorrow is my history exam...this playlist is perfect for preparing

[@helderboutens]

I wish you lots of luck with your exam tomorrow, thank you for listening! ❤️

[@JelloTwins]

pov you are me after going through a first breakup with a fiance and instead of writing love letters to a person you are writing letters to everything in existence and ponderings that will never be sent to him and poems to yourself and musings about how much you appreciate still being alive to experience the world

[@rahafluay8336]

I had concentration problems till I found this playlist... then it vanished!! Thank you so much ♡

[@helderboutens]

Thank you so much!! I’m happy you enjoyed listening ❤️

[@toobaartist9362]

I slept and in 00:57 I open my eyes . Wow how it full of emotion .

[@Angad-qb1ds]

was 14 when i met her in a new place in a new city we had to move to because of my father's job transfer. I liked her as a person when we first shared words overtime i developed feelings for her and finally told her after about an year of meeting her, i had decided that either she or nobody. she said she did not feel the same way. but i was not ready to lose hope i didnt push but kept seeking the right moment that something would magically happen but it didnt. fast forward to 16 i told her again. she rejected again this time i was kind of expecting it to happen i told her on the last day of junior high exams after that we would never meet and i had already moved to a new city, had came back just because i was admissioned there and had to give exam to get promoted to next grade, i wrote this poem to her when i was in the train on my way to the new place i moved to "Safar me Mila ya Safar tu hi Jaise Yah bhram ki prem se hai tu vaanchhit Ya teri vaanchhitta karad hai prem Tere naam karu anantkal Mai Nitya Karu tera intezar Jaise karu mrityu ka meri Ya samajh lu tujhe Nadi ka paani Jise na baandh saku Mai jaise nishchitta mrityu ki meri" its in hindi but it can be explained as me questioning her wether she was my life or just a person i met, wether i should hold her or let her go, do i love her because she is so desirable or she seems desirable because of my love for her. i saw her for the last time after the exam hall having icecream it was a red popsickle, it was right after the day she said no for the second time, she passed as smile at me as if she felt sorry and amused for the situation at the same time. i thought she was going to be my life but life had different plans for me, so i just admire her from a 1000km away. any ways i am 17 now as i am writing this and yeah life is pretty good there are a lot of things i wanted to add but itll never be enough so yeah good luck with whatever you are doing

[@ciclohex9145]

this letter insn´t for anyone else but ourselves whitin inside you is a star longing for where it was born in a space so dense and vast of energy sometimes i think that energy is love compannion, strength, where everything is so together that is seen as one energy one massive energy that work in an harmony of chaos so when we feel disconected from ourselves or others is just the space between the spaces that needs to be filled with your (own) kind of energy

[@Kiki-kikiriki]

i'm listening to this while actually writing a love letter, beautiful playlist

[@alisha890]

he was one of my best friends and part of me selfishly hates him for having feelings for me, feelings I felt but never reciprocated. he knew we couldn't be bc of our religious barriers, he knew this and we both knew what we felt. it was minor things anybody could overlook, we could both pretend to be clueless and still feel some satisfaction deep down, simple stuff like texting and compliments. but he couldn't do it, idk if I loved him, but I shared a good portion of my life feeling something. he bought me necklaces and flowers, never a confession, but enough to a point we couldn't be clueless and stupid about it. it was enough that I had to acknowledge it and the people around me did too, and I had to shut us off. religion will always be first for me, but I still selfishly wish he hadn't gotten brave, I wish we both could've been quiet, exchanging feelings in the most insignificant ways which became so significant to us. I miss him loads, but I think he's moved on after I distanced myself. he never needed to ask, because only us two knew why and what we shared.

[@nadaz018]

Listening while reading “ Believe me “ , I loved ✨

[@sabaddie]

OMG SHATTER ME IS THE BEST BOOK SERIES IVE EVER READ 😢😢😢

[@sabaddie]

OMG SHATTER ME IS THE BEST BOOK SERIES IVE EVER READ 😢😢😢

[@shravanvishwakarma9665]

This music is perfect i can go on with my reading forever with it

[@TeSZa945]

I wish I could write just as masterful as the symphonies of the music

[@JinjiASMR]

Born to be in a fantasy world, forced to work 9-5 and be surrounded with unromantic unkind people

[@Sunny-san.]

A broken heart man. "My dear Elizabeth, i told i love you right? I wanted to you be mine forever, but you aren't along with me anymore, oh my dear... I loved you so! Why did you did that with me?! This make me go into peaces, just littles and broken peaces, you must lived... You must be alive. But now you're dead, and is all your fault... Or mine. From your love; Derick J."

[@Viemxl]

I can listen to this for a long time without getting bored :')

[@helderboutens]

Thank you so much!

[@WrendyEdwarde]

HOLY HELL!! Thank you so much! This playlist is the only one I've found that truly helps me stay calm and focus on my college work with no distractions

[@helderboutens]

Thank you!!

[@sharanyagarwal]

just so clever that they named this season as fall, but if it had to be a person you'd be the best autumn of all.

[@charlottechang]

This is wonderful! Really helped transport me to another world away from the stress of reality

[@WitchyMusictoStudy]

Who wants study or relax listening to witchy music, I invite to join my channell

[@tommorrow4556]

we were nine years old ... I turned ... she smiled at me .... timeless sweetest ever wonder and bliss ... ... she stopped wanting to play with me ... sixty years pass ... I am one moment away

[@luecyavilab.9096]

best classical music channel 💖🌸 I loved it, I'll listen to it every day

[@helderboutens]

Thank you so much for listening! Currently working on a new list to hopefully upload soon! ❤️

[@fael7794]

Crumbs. The crumbs in my bed, Poking and proding at my skin despite brushing them away. I know what must be done, Simple in solution but i cant. I'll miss them. The meal they came from, The comfort of when i ate it, The ignorance of eating sloppily allowing them to join me in bed. They scratch and pinch my skin no matter how my body moves to avoid them. I crush them smaller and smaller till they coat my sheets, Enough. In raged ripping blankets and pillows from the bed. I grip the sheet tight, pull it from the mattress and allow for the crumbs to fall to the floor. Remake the bed, there are no more crumbs. I can sleep peacefully without poking proding scratching and pinching. Yet when i leave my bed they stick to the soles of my feet keeping me company.

[@A_i_l_a_r]

thank the songs make me feel better for life

[@mirabelmadrigal6130]

ive been longing to find the name of the song at 36:51 because it has inspired me so much and let my inner creativity flow, and nostalgia coming back to me even if i before thought those memories were pain and were only there to leave me scarred, but as i grew up, i realized the past is a mixture of your bad and good times of life, creating memories just for you to look back at how your life has been when the times are finally gone..

[@yugenalgiz]

Hi! It's called lei sogna di noi, by Zeppi.

[@mirabelmadrigal6130]

@@yugenalgiz Thank you soo much!!!!

[@yugenalgiz]

@@mirabelmadrigal6130 Happy to help 💛

[@nasban9241]

you are a genius whoever made this playlist

[@helderboutens]

Thank you so much for the kind words!!

[@ziomaraR.]

here studying . . . wishing i had someone to write love letter to :')

[@smokintunes5782]

Love is perhaps the most weird emotion of them all. It makes us happy and sad too. Happy when spending time with loved ones. Sad when those very loved ones pass on/away. It is a very difficult emotion to express but is the easiest to be found. Makes people do the impossible but also breaks the ones made to do the impossible. Simple enough to give but the hardest to receive. I like to share this quote wherever i go so don't mind guys.

[@Siddhi-oc2ym]

love grips me in its chokehold and twists talons in my heart. love is in my midnight dreams and in the ice that splashes them away from sleep. love is the bonfire but i am freezing, and shivering, and love is the flame in which i burn myself to death. i am starved for love. i am a parched man dying of thirst and love is the dewdrops on the rose i gorge myself on what i get and what i get are ruins i gorge myself on grains of sand with an appetite for dunes.

[@ginamarie5676]

I miss you in the same way the sun and moon miss each other but never fully in the presence of one another I yearn for your eyes, those eyes, damn those eyes Your touch, soft skin, please just allow me to wrap myself up within every inch of your body, your soul Like the sun I burn for you And just like moon I am magnetized by your existence I see you in my future, as I look in your eyes I see us In this moment I need you always, just stay close Please I won’t ever forget what we have shared, one of kind You and me Tu y yo Always and forever Siempre y para siempre -to my baba. I love you so much and you cross my mind every moment of the day, you have my heart in yours even from a distance I know we are tethered in unexplainable ways

[@aravindsairam3204]

In this entire vastness of the universe, yes, your existence matters. So chin up soldier.

[@catedoge3206]

I had a friend. She shared some darkness about her life, I was in awe of how much she has endured and is enduring so I would try my best to cheer her up. One day, she asked me if I had some movies (U Torrent days. USB flashdrive) Anyway, I had lots of movies and shows on my PC, put em in a thumbdrive and lent it to her. Couple days later she told me via facebook that she lost that thumbdrive. In return, she's draw me something of my wish. I picked anime. She drew chibi characters of shows I like. Amost a decade has passed, I still have that drawing tucked in my Harry Potter: Prisoner of Azkaban page 394 (ode to Alan / Snape for "Always") Moved to the US in 2016. Haven't gone home since. We havent spoken in a while. Last I heard, she went to university for art. She'd graduated by now. Anyway, the luck of the draw, I am now in a bad spot and everything she told me and felt is how I am feeling now but I have nobody. Every now and then I open the book, pull out the drawing and look at it. The cute anime chibi and her apology, handwritten in cursive. To this day, I still write in cursive. So many comments have shared a part of themselves so I figured I would too. I will be fine. I just wanna get this out of my chest. Thank you for reading. 😢

[@iiheart-anastasiaa]

I love that you're still interacting with the comments 9 months later

[@helderboutens]

Of course!! I really love reading the comments so thank you for the kind words!

[@eternalmusic_1]

I just want to sit in the library and write a letter to my lover which i dont have right now or love someone from a far as i think that's the most pure and sacred form of loving oh to become a writer and immerse in another world is what I like to tell people what i want without being seen and to convey my feeling in words that they wont forget ever ~ an extrovert

[@MeFmovie]

Love this! Thank you :)

[@ForTheLoveOfTheGods]

I've been with her for over 6 months. She has been with me a supported me through thick and thin. I love her so much I might as well just pass away💜

[@prachikaale]

tysm for this, i was so into studying that i didnt even realise that it got finished.

[@helderboutens]

Thank you for listening!!

[@Niflheimelf]

The tree shed it's another leaf as a peaceful wind pass by. Autumn show us the beauty of letting go. Choosing a spot in the library where no one often visits, you used to sat beside a window and love writing the love letters to yourself because of being introvert, you don't have anyone to write a letter to, you chose to admire yourself with the words you wanted to listen from someone else, you like being alone but never know why there was a hidden longing for something. Being transferred to a new boarding school and getting along with new teachers was kind of tough but the most scary thing happened to you was creepy voices, sometines in your dormitory, you can heard the laughing sound of a child. Sometimes at evening, you can heard a piano which surprisingly no one in the hostel plays. Sometimes you heard the crying voices of a child. It was all strange, it's like only you can heard it. To deal with the matter you started to find a book in the library which may have answer of your question. You had a professor who teaches about physcic things and astral world. Once he mentioned the name of a book which he himself wrote, no one actually pay much attention to his class because they think it's most about thesis and thesis only. You were finding that book standing on an old chair, going through the name of every book. "Urban legends, urban legends, urban legends" you were continuesly murmuring. Suddenly the chair lost the balanced and you fall down but suddenly your eyes came across a green leather book, urban legend it reads. you fastly leafed through the pages to find a topic in which the cause of listening strange voices were discussed. When you finally found the page, you got shiver down to your spine. It was saying that, the voices you listen may be of someone you know but is no more in the world or it could be because you unconsciously connect yourself to astral energies. You breath out a deep sigh. Don't know what to do and think. You were thinking about this so much that even your dream was very magical and mysteryful. Possibly all the real voices you heard , your mind incorporated them in your dream. Next day When you was combing your hair, some muffling voices were coming from your wardrobe, instantly you turn around and walked towards it. You can't believe, there is a........ (I wrote what came to my mind when I listened this ✨ Edit: i came again, now solving some physics questions, this playlist is providing me such a relief, i was not feeling alright but this tunes had put my mind at ease. Thank you very much Regards.💜)

[@bluesedix3563]

This was intriguing

[@jokesterr119]

Jeez way the end on a cliff hanger lol. Phenomenal writing tho!

[@helderboutens]

Thank you for such a lovely comment and for the support on the playlist! ❤

[@alexandriasyi0]

Loved this 🫶🏾

[@officialericnam]

really soothing, thank you

[@helderboutens]

Glad you enjoyed it!