I can not type with Japanese characters with this phone. I am Japanese but have been living overseas about 30 years. The city I live in has lots and lots of migrants of different background. There are lots of Asian people here. I had lots of bad and good experiences while I am overseas and when I talk with other migrants I sometimes find out they have similar bad experiences like me. What you are going through is what other migrants go through as well even though it may be not exactly the same experiences . All migrants go through similar bad experiences because we are not born here. I really hope you feel better soon . Thank you for sharing your story . I have too many things to do at the moment so I can not write long message. I will write again.