You kind of look like sofía vergara

This is really interesting. Our stories align a lot. I also started puberty around 11, and despised my changing body and I gained weight during that time. I would do the summer thing where I would think "this summer I'm gonna eat so healthy and exercise and lose weight" and of course, never did. I wanted to act, but the same thoughts of "I'm too ugly to ever be hired" stopped me from truly pursuing. I also danced and had acne on my back and wearing leotards was so shameful for me because of that and my perceived "fatness". The difference is, while I deal with a major anxiety disorder and still deal with low self-esteem and body image issues, I never did develop anorexia, nor body dysmorphia. It's interesting how two similar journeys lead to different outcomes. Thank you for opening up and being vulnerable. I think you'll help a lot of people

your hair is more beautiful than my life and you say your hair is messy? you are pulling my leg

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These poems are so impressive!! Waiting for you to publish a poetry collection👀 And yay I’m so happy you used my prompt :)

thank you! I really enjoyed watching this video. It inspired me to write three poems as well and was a really nice reminder to just get started without caring too much about the outcome. “Writing for the sake of writing” just as you said :) 🫶

Always yess to more poetry🤍✨

Very beautiful, loved to see the video and enjoy your poetry :)

I’m itching to write something now that the video is over, and it’s all thanks to your pretty poems. Thank you lovely Victoria 💌

I also had to eat some bread with apricot jam now!! 🥹🥹

Unrelated but you’re embracing your natural skin!! I love you xxxx

the one thing that kept me calm & self-assured about not having university friends is that the options available (aka most of my classmates) were not the kind of people I want to hang out with. Our interests & beliefs & hobbies weren't aligned. So, even though I saw them having fun which made me a little sad, I knew that if I joined them I would not be enjoying myself the same way as they are, because I wouldn't truly be myself then. In that scenario, being by myself was better (I had my trusty books to keep me company! a book is a girl's best friend in those times).

Wie sweet ist deine mum denn 🍓

Ahhh hab solange darauf gewartet ❤

this is the first time i see a "my eating disorder story" video by someone with atypical anorexia and i feel seen. i also always felt like i was "failing" at having an eating disorder and actually hearing someone else say that makes me feel a lot less alone. i hope you are in a better place mentally by now

beautiful music!!

wow wow wow, what an incredible video. you are so strong! i relate so much to your story and i feel so seen, thank you so much. i started ballet at 4 years old and lost touch with it at 15 and had to quit for the same reason. i never explained it to my instructor, whom i greatly liked and had the entire time i danced. she pushed me to be the best i could and gave me fun roles and i did jazz and hip hop and contemporary, but then i quit and it was all gone. i held onto all the good memories and spoke about them, but never answered why i quit when ppl would ask. before i quit i started going less and showed less enthusiasm and was losing my strength. i wish i told my instructor why i left and how amazing she was for all those years. it is very difficult to experience this but you are such an inspiration just by telling your story. i know this came out two years ago, but i personally found it at the right time. thank you for making this, i never comment on youtube videos but this deserves a big thank you.

I hope you heal!! sending all good energy and praying tonight <3

You are so lovely ✨♥️

Aprikosen Marmelade > Erdbeer Marmelade, fight me🤌🏻

I love these kind of videos and I'd love to see more of them :)

Ich kann das so gut nachvollziehen mit der Einsamkeit in der Uni. Meine Freunde hab ich zum studieren auch sehr weit hinter mich gelassen und nur meinen Partner dabei. Ich studiere Medizin, was von den Strukturen sehr der Schule ähnelt. Unsere Seminare finden alle mit der selben Kleingruppe statt, sodass sich Cliquen gebildet haben. Als älteste (25) war es schwer Anschluss zu finden (mit ADHS und Depressionen/Angststörungen fällt mit in einer Gruppe Medizinstudenten schon auf) und da wird einem die Einsamkeit jeden Tag aufs Neue bewusst, weil man andauernd damit konfrontiert wird. Meine Leistungen waren auch dadurch eingeschränkt und schlechter, weil ich keine Lernpartner finden konnte. (..)

So good to see you again! As an American I was surprised by the toilet paper thing! Is that normal in Germany? Here we always share items like that!

I was so invested in this whole story, I cried along with you. I relate to this on such a deep level. Losing so much of my life because of a fucking eating disorder. Grieving what I couldn't have and coming to terms with it. I am 23 right now and sometimes it helps me to know that the life I still have ahead of me is so much more than my darkest years. Someday they will belong to a far past that I might barely even remember. We can always start again, re-invent our lives and embrace every part of it even if we come from a very dark place. I think going through such mental health issues have enabled me to emphasize and connect with others on levels I could not before. You lose a lot, but through all the misery, you also become a person with a much richer understanding of the world, someone who knows what it means to hold boundaries now. Maybe in the end we are more free than the ones who have no idea what it's all like ❤

The algorithm showed me your spooky poetry video , I’m so glad it did. Happy to be finding more up to date poetry content here on yt!🤍

I just love how much passion you put while reading and analysing this book. so fascinating. greets from italy 💗🇮🇹

Lovely and informative . You gave me a lot to think about. I'd like to recommend the poetry of Sandra Cisneros. I am currently reading her collection "woman without shame" and loving it.

I loved this analysis; may I suggest analyzing Warsan Shire's work? I've seen comments that make her kind of controversial (some poetry purists do not really appreciate her words), but I think she's such an interesting character with a complex background (pretty much like Vuong's) and there are some of her poems that are just so mesmerizing to me. Thank you for this channel, such an incredible find!

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I really liked the video :) For the next episode I would like to see you analysing Shakespeare or some famous German poet like Goethe, Schiller, Brecht or so! Also an episode about forgotten female poets would be awesome:))

well well that is a concise and thorough analysis indeed, hmm just a suggestion perhaps for episode 2 is Emily Dickinson? or some obscure poet so we can get to know him , her or they? anyhow, take your time though but definitely can’t wait for episode 2!

this was wonderful

very calm n peaceful to watch!

Immaculate vibes 🤌🏻💐

love this video! this was perfect to watch after a stressful schoolday

You were my "KZbin-while-I-eat-Video"😂😍

Haven't watched yet, but the thumbnail is already so beautiful 🥰🌊🚣‍♀🌴🌴

Sooooo schön❤️

Felt it so deeply, thanks for sharing your story

I LOVE your passion and enthusiasm for literature its so infectious and charming

you look beautiful❤ amazing video, I love the tips xx

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First, you always look like a goddess in your poetry related videos. Second, I've been waiting for this video. Thanks for putting it together. I am hit or miss with poetry. I don't really want to analyze it when I read it, I just want to enjoy it. I think what you said that you don't really need to understand it all makes sense. Sometimes I can get into it and sometimes I can't - it's a mood thing for me. I tend to lean toward dark and depressing poems because for some reason, when I'm in a blue mood is when I tend to read more poetry, but I do also enjoy nature poetry. I have a shelf on my bookcase of poetry - Poe, Plath, Mary Oliver, Dickinson, then also about 10 modern /insta-poets because there is a place for those also for me. I really like Dakota Warren's collection. (that is how I found your channel) I would like to expand the types of poetry I read this year. I do have a daily poem book on my nightstand, and I read that every night - Nature poem for every night of the year As for your song tip- I do that with Hozier lyrics - His lyrics are poetry for me

Really loved the video, I’m now so inspired to read poetry even though I’ve never done it just for fun :))) And a little off-topic but you looked really beautiful, I love your vibe :)

my absolute favourite read of 2023 was Blutbuch by Kim the l'horizon, i can't stop talking and thinking about it :) You should definitely read it, Kim is also the first non-binary author to win the german Buchpreis

you have so much insight and our extremely self reflective! I have no doubt that as you become older, you’ll be able to handle whatever life throws at you. I thought I was strong but in my early 40s, I developed anorexia nervosa for the first time in my life. It took all those years of pretending I could cope.

That's exactly the video I needed to watch. It will change my life. Thank you so much, Tulia ❤️ take care

Beautifully edited!! I loved the little flowers 💓🥰 blossoming everywhere ... ✨JuSt LiKe YoU 2✨

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The whole outfit, makeup, jewellery combo is sooo pretty, you’re glooowing