My Life with an Eating Disorder & Body Dysmorphia * how it ruined my favourite thing in the world*

Hey guys!
Today’s video is very difficult for me to share and I’ve thought about uploading it for a very long time.
I’m sharing part of my story with my eating disorder & body dysmorphia and not realising that I was dealing with a mental illness framed by my story with ballet which was my hobby for many years.
This video is very long and it’s still not the entire story. I just have to keep some things private.
I’m sharing this for awareness. I don’t want to cause any harm, so please check the trigger warnings in the beginning of the video.
Thank you for watching this and accepting me and my story. ❤️
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Mental health note:
If you are struggling: please talk to someone! a friend; a family member or a professional.
Mental health is so important and we sometimes underestimate its effect on us.
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It’s been a sad couple of months. The current events in Europe are heartbreaking.
I hope that my content can be of comfort for you guys and you might be able to distract yourself for at least a couple of minutes.
Talking, sharing and educating and donating are the most important things we can do right now, so I’m going to leave some links down below.
I am sending lots of love to all the people affected by this terrible war.
Make sure to take care of yourself and your loved ones and share the message of peace.
Lots of love to everybody in this difficult time 🕊
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Mental health is so important and we sometimes underestimate its effect on us.
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Some information about me 💛
Name: Victoria
Birthday: 21.02.2002
Age: 20 🕰
What I am studying: Teaching (subjects: English & History) at the LMU 📚
Where I live: Germany, Bavarian Countryside (moved in 2020 from North Rhine-Westfalia) 🌿
What I am passionate about: books,art, acting, music, theatre, poetry, animals, nature, literature,english etc. 🎨
Other stuff: been vegan for over 5 years, I am a feminist, I have 5 dogs ... 🌱

[@nicole7425]

Your 13-year-old you was sooo pretty, really (all of your child pics). I just want you to know that you're a real role model for how to deal with it for everyone who will see this video. I know you don't need and want compassion, but I love how straight-forward you are and I feel soo sorry (like it really hurts my soul to see) that you kind of missed how beautiful you were/are just because of some stupid disorder. I hope you'll go trough this as soon as possible and as stronger as ever xx

[@majdglory7153]

Felt it so deeply, thanks for sharing your story

[@Lisa-zh5zd]

You're soo brave for sharing your story and you really can be proud of yourself

[@victoriabernadette]

Thank you so so much

[@glael38]

Just halfway through: that teacher.... even IF he thought you are bragging too much... would it have hurt him to just ignore it or to kindly tell you directly, that you could change your attitude? I mean... getting someone "off" their high horse is sometimes needed (if and only IF that person is really damn arrogant)... but it's not needed to crush those people down. Especially not teenagers as they still develope... I have met so so many people in my life and almost every single one of them got bullied at least once from one of their teachers. Happened to me as well... it really causes damage well until adulthood... thank you for sharing your story

[@paulinafunk9473]

Danke, dass du deine Geschichte mit uns teilst

[@victoriabernadette]

Danke dir für deinen lieben Kommentar und fürs gucken. Bedeutet mir sehr sehr viel

[@jenniferbueller6761]

you have so much insight and our extremely self reflective! I have no doubt that as you become older, you’ll be able to handle whatever life throws at you. I thought I was strong but in my early 40s, I developed anorexia nervosa for the first time in my life. It took all those years of pretending I could cope.

[@maresa1550]

Thank you for sharing! Sending love to you

[@blane1814]

Won me as a subscriber. I think it’s very brave of you to pour out your heart the way you did on this video 🌸🌸🌸

[@darkopalasoski]

Seeing this makes me so sad and I'm so angry to myself that I didn't realise what was going on. I should have noticed.. I am very proud of for sharing this and I'm sure you will find your happy place again I love you❤ D

[@usenki]

That's exactly the video I needed to watch. It will change my life. Thank you so much, Tulia ❤️ take care

[@victoriabernadette]

That makes me so happy to hear❤️ I wish you all the strength in the world ❤️

[@lisa4624]

wow, I am so incredibly proud of you for sharing this. You are so brave and strong and one of the most amazing people I ever got to meet. Lots of love !!!

[@lillymarie3880]

So strong, thank you for sharing

[@Lie-cd4du]

Very strong to share the whole story!!

[@zedkenton9668]

You're so strong!! Thank you for sharing your story, you are beautiful inside and out ❤

[@victoriabernadette]

Thank u so much ❤️

[@elisabigdon9041]

Im so proud of you 🥺Thank you for sharing and good luck for your journey from now on :)

[@paula3229]

12 is not early for a period

[@juliaburkhardt3672]

Warum sprichst du englisch ohne Akzent???

[@jenniferbueller6761]

She does have an accent, it’s in certain word pronunciations.