MAH MAH.. I walk into the tent in the training Ground.. all the Men are inside the Tents.. and I would lay down.. before I would close my eyes to sleep.. I have a recent Picture of YOU.. a friend of Mine has gave me the Art Sketch paper.. and some one drew this Picture and the friend of Mine who kept it and gave it to Me.. it was before I came into the Training Camp with the Official Seal Paper.. the Letter which the Older man.. the Teacher gave to Me so that I can pass it to YOU.. MAH MAH.. and I am looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. and I would say again.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. do YOU know that I been looking at this Picture.. this Art sketch Paper that some one drew of YOU.. I remember when the Friend of Mine came to me.. knowing that I been Loving YOU for a Long Time.. He saw me with the Art Sketch paper.. it was when YOU were much Younger.. the Boy who went over to draw picture of YOU and who was caught after giving it to Me.. MAH MAH.. the One that I gave to YOU.. because I told you that I did not need it any More.. because I was next to YOU now.. and when YOU took it.. I saw you holding.. I asked you to Burn it.. but I see that YOU would Not.. and to be honest with YOU MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I had a recent One.. the Art Sketch paper which some one drew of YOU.. I know that YOU have ways to capture the Hearts of Many Men.. it does Not matter who Loves YOU but I know for sure that I can Love you More.. that is why I am telling YOU even though YOU may Not hear me on this very Night.. as I am holding this Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. I just saw you before I went into the Tent.. but I feel like I still has to keep On seeing YOU.. I don't know what it is about YOU.. maybe because YOU are the Crown Princess of the Nation to be the Next Ruler for this Country.. for this Nation.. because YOU are the greatest.. the Biggest.. the best.. a true Ruler and that is why knowing this Truth.. the Strength and the Power and the control.. the Dominance you have in YOU.. the More I look at YOU.. the More my Heart be moving.. and I just can't let YOU Go MAH MAH.. WHY can't I let you go MAH MAH.. Please tell me WHY.. and I am laying down.. as I would LOOK at the Art Sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU and I would fold into Half and lay it behind Me.. just thinking about YOU.. thinking about the People.. but when I saw YOU holding the Sword.. pointing to the direction which I did Not want to see.. I would be begging YOU.. to Stay with the People.. with the Little Children.. when I saw HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. pulling out the Sword.. the King's Sword towards the Other side where the Enemies are going to Come.. I just could Not help it to drop on both Knees.. because I did Not want to see you fight.. I don't want to see you going into the Battle field.. but I know how YOU are MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. once you put your Mind on something that YOU be aiming for.. I know you will go for It.. in One way this is the reason WHY I felt in Love with YOU.. YOU are so Bold.. and so Fierce when it comes to protection and fighting for something.. when it comes for the Nation of your People YOU love.. that YOU will do anything to Protect this Country.. this Nation because of the People.. when I saw YOU on that Horse.. in the Garden bringing the People from the Royal Palace.. to rebuild the Garden.. My Heart.. I just knew it from the start that you were.. Crown Princess be different.. when I saw you doing something.. when MAH MAH cared for the Unimportant.. the Little People.. a person like myself.. I knew that YOU are going to do something very Big.. because even the Poor and the Little People are also your People too.. the most smallest of all.. I came from that Garden.. I am the Most lowest person in that Garden and I saw you in that Garden.. all of the Knees went down when the People saw YOU in that Garden.. tears would roll from the eyes.. just could not believe.. the Crown Princess.. MAH MAH.. it was the HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. from all of the People out there in the royal family.. it was the CROWN PRINCESS who came with the Horse.. who has this Big Heart of even rebuilding what was under Looked.. NO ONE cares about the Poor people.. NO ONE loves the Ones who are hungry and dying in such poverty.. growing UP in the Garden.. there was NO Homes.. when it rained.. I would sit in a Hay House.. but I be wet from the rain.. I would look across at the neighbor Hay Home.. just like my home.. we are staring at each other watching the rain fall from the sky and both of us are getting wet.. it is very hard when it becomes Cold in the Winter.. many of the Children living in the Low poverty will die because it is just too cold for any one to survive in that condition.. many times and Many nights.. many winter nights.. I do wonder How did I even manage to come this very far.. I saw many families in the Hay Homes.. the Parents of the children are in their arms and left to die as they are crying for help.. my Heart breaks each time I think of being so Low.. being so Poor and having not much.. but How is it that I manage to get Out of that Garden.. and I saw many Mothers burying their Sons and daughters in the Garden.. Hay Homes would fall and crumble as strong winds comes to blow hard.. I would watch strong rains breaking the roof tops of the Hays down and it falls down on people.. I would watch Many People living without homes.. begging for Food and crying in the Night asking for Help.. rescue Me is what I would hear.. and WHO ever thought it be YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. out of the Blue you came along on that Horse.. what really got to My Heart is that Hays and straws were no longer use.. when YOU Came MAH MAH.. it became bricks and How you rebuild giving it a NAME and it became a Town.. now I hear that it has changed to a City like.. market place where people are Now Living.. and watching many People who came from the Garden.. to pay respect for YOU.. many children grew UP well after YOU came to rebuild that Garden into a Town to City.. a market Place where More People are going there to Work.. MAH MAH.. if YOU did Not show UP.. I am Not sure if I would of made it here today and that is why I wanted to tell YOU that I am so thankful that I get to Love YOU now.. and every day I can Love you more because YOU have given me a Place.. where I can be so close to YOU.. just wanted to say to WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. thank YOU for rebuilding that Garden.. Now that Place is flourishing and more people are going to come here after they make it Out of that Garden.. as I would close Both eyes and I am dreaming.. I am Not sure but I look at the door in front of Me.. behind me is the Seven Friends of Mine.. as the DOOR opens.. I walk in with the Seven Friends.. the MAIN HALL ROOM.. and it is the Meeting Board.. on the Right side.. the Six Princes are standing from the First to Sixth SON and the Prime Minister with the 12 Council of Noble Men.. on the Left side is the Older MAN.. the teacher.. the TOP COMMANDER.. the Commanders.. to Chief Generals.. to TOP General.. 2nd Rank General to 3rd rank General and to the generals.. as I walk and I stop.. a stairs above me.. and the King's Chair.. the Messenger calls Out to YOU.. and I would stop.. it just can't be.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and the Scroll rolls Down.. and I see YOU walking UP the stairs.. and I see you turn around.. MAH MAH.. the Messenger walks UP to YOU.. the Crowns are changing.. I am wondering what does this Mean.. and the Messenger reads the scroll pronouncing that YOU be the QUEEN.. My Heart.. are you trying to KILL my Heart.. I know that It is going to Happen.. but is it going to happen NOW.. are you the True QUEEN.. to be pronounce.. and the Messenger walks UP.. holding the KING's Crown and Puts on TOP over your Head.. HAIL to the QUEEN of NATION.. and I fall on two knees.. and I am crying.. I know it suppose to be the Best day to celebrate.. but How about Me.. I am now suppose to call you HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. that is the QUEEN.. and I hear the Voices in the MAIN HALL room.. in the Board of Meeting calling Out.. HAIL to the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and voices grows louder and louder as they Shout to YOU.. knees all hits to two.. and shouts Louder HAIL to the QUEEN.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HAIL to the QUEEN.. and I am crying louder and Louder.. How can I love the QUEEN.. Please help me.. How can I love you when YOU are seated as the QUEEN of the Nation.. as HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I am looking at the ground.. I see you sitting on the King's chair and YOU stand UP.. pulling Out the king's sword.. hands all lifted UP.. and voices raises UP higher and people are all crying.. HAIL to the QUEEN.. HAIL to the QUEEN.. HAIL to the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH MANSAE.. MANSAE to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would open two eyes from the sleep.. I know that this means some thing very big is going to happen.. it must be a sign that YOU are going to rule for this Nation.. and I would stand UP and get Out of the tent.. and I am standing alone still dark.. with my hand is the sword and I pull it Out.. LOOKING at the Blade.. the War is coming.. first we needs to win and beat in this WAR but I know and I would JUMP UP in the air left right left right swing the Sword.. I know Not much time but for the CROWN PRINCESS.. for WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I must fight to Protect so that YOU can sit on that THRONE. the King's Chair to become my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH. as I would LOOK UP at the MOON.. my both feet lands on

MAH MAH.. People are going to choose YOU to take your Father's Place.. who will be the One to rule and direct for this NATION.. but if I can't love you any more.. I know that I must Go and YOU can select the MEN.. I will let them stay with YOU and I will go alone.. it is just too hard for me because I have been loving YOU since when I was a young Boy.. ever since I saw YOU for the first Time.. my Heart would beat more than it skipped the Beat.. but I know.. the people also who came from the Garden.. they are seeking for YOU to rule over them too.. that is why they are going to fight and unite so that they want to PLACE YOU over them.. if I can't love YOU any more.. there is NO reason longer for me to stay any more.. I can't live without loving YOU more.. that is the Part where it hurts me the Most.. I just can't keep it to myself and be silent.. if the council of Noble men sees me keep on doing this.. they are going to find ways to put my chains and will try to persecute ME.. they are going to try to kill me for this.. that is why I know that I must go after the War.. will you let me Leave Your sight after the War.. either way I am a dead Man now.. the Prime Ministry with the 12 council of Noble men tried to find ways to execute me because I am hearing words.. so Please.. if I can't love YOU any more.. please let me GO and I can go as far.. I am thinking about returning back to the Garden where I came from.. and I would see you pointing the sword and YOU remove the sword away from me.. picking UP the arrow.. putting on the end of the Strings of the Bow.. pulling it back YOU would aim and release.. the ARROW hits right in the Middle of the target.. I am thinking.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH is so good even at Night.. YOU just never miss the shot hitting this target.. in this dark Night.. it is so hard for me to see the target.. and I am hearing the Soldier by the target.. the flag is moving around.. But.. YOU know that I still Love YOU.. I will always love you no matter where I go.. it is just that It is getting so much harder for me Now to Love the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. it is because I really Love YOU.. even from the Far.. when I was in a long distance I loved you then when I did Not see YOU.. Now I see you close that I love you more.. either way far or Near.. my Heart will never change of loving YOU more.. because I really Love YOU NO matter where YOU are CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH..I am watching the Little Children.. boys are walking into the training Ground.. I just can't believe that they are from the Garden.. the Parents of these children.. some of them are my friends growing Up and I am watching YOU standing by the Fence.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I never thought you be having this Big Heart.. Now look at the Hopes and Dreams YOU are planting.. the Parents who came with their Children.. thinking about their future.. and I am on the Two Knees.. tears just fills UP.. and I can feel my tears streaming down.. and One of the guy who came with his Son stops and Looks at me.. and He smiles.. and Just cannot believe that I am the trainer for the new Recruits.. and He cries Looking at me because.. I know that His SON can also dream for this Nation.. the Crown Princess.. who loves the People.. who are the One with the Big Heart for the People.. who is the One who helped the Poor People in that Garden.. Now.. the People has come because this Nation is growing stronger and stronger because of YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. it is because YOU are here that all these things can happen.. I do remember.. the First time My Heart felt something.. I was in this Position.. I saw a friend laying on the ground.. He was very Poor and Lowly servant just like Me.. we had NO Place to Go.. No place to sleep.. hungry without Homes and just picking food from the Floors.. it was at the Garden.. He got sick eating watching Him hit the floor.. I was crying for that Friend.. he would throw UP in blood and he looks at me.. telling me that Being so poor.. it is NO JOKE.. and he tells me.. I am dying.. I was crying and crying as He lay on the Floor.. My Heart broke into pieces.. and He looks at me and says.. when He dies to plant him by my Mother's grave.. and my Mother was like an Auntie to him.. as I saw him laying sick.. I heard a Loud Voice.. and I turn to look.. the day YOU came to the Garden.. I turn too look.. I fell on my face looking at the ground.. I saw YOU sitting on the Horse.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. and I would cry Out Loud More.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please hear my voice.. and I saw YOU.. the YOUNG Girl you were.. YOU had a Sword.. small sword and Pointed to my direction to Speak.. and I would be crying.. could Not talk much but it was about my dying friend.. He was laying down.. and throw UP blood in front of me.. and asking me to bury him when he died.. But Help me MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU are the Only ONE with the Power to save the Life of a BOY who has NO ONE else to turn TOO.. PLEASE.. MAH MAH.. HELP US and I would be crying Loud.. he is my best friend.. My father raised him like a SON to Me like a Brother.. SAVE HIM MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH... Please help my Dying friend.. and tears would be falling down.. and I can see.. Maybe I needs to die with him too.. if YOU can't help him.. I would lift UP my Head looking UP at you.. with tears in my eyes.. my Friend needs YOUR HELP.. the Crown Princess.. which is YOU raise UP your Little Sword and YOU would call for the Royal Physicians who came.. I was very shocked that they came here to the Garden.. I never thought YOU would do this for the Little People.. the Poor People.. for the Lowly lives who NO ONE cares about.. NO ONE cares for the Broken.. the Little People who has NO NAMES.. How do people know my Name.. they just don't and I was touched.. But YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS cared.. my best friend was dying before my eyes.. and I cannot do anything to help.. I am watching him throw UP blood and He is asking me to bury HIM next to my Mother who is already GONE.. and I would close both eyes crying Loud.. my Heart hurts because He is telling me that HE is dying.. this pain.. and I would watch the Royal Physicians walking into the Garden.. and two of them goes over to my Best Friend.. I watch HIM being carried by the two doctors.. and I would walk the wood cutters and stone builders and they have come with Nurses and even the Maids and kitchen Ladies all comes to this Garden.. feeding the Poor.. feeding the Lost.. feeding thousands of children with no homes and I would watch the remodel of the Garden as the Homes are being placed in the Garden.. and as I come to my senses.. and I am both on the Knees Looking at the ground.. the man who knows Me brings His Son.. he was the Best Friend who was on the Floor.. on the ground talking about if He dies to bury HIM close to my Mother.. Now I am seeing his SON and I look at the SON.. and I lift UP my Head and I see you standing by the Fence and I would say.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. can YOU please give me your ears and I see YOU standing with the White Dress and the Big Crown on the top of your Head.. and YOU would point the Sword direct at me.. and I would watch YOU walk closer to ME and stops next to me.. I would lift UP my Head looking at YOU.. DO you remember the Garden.. DO you remember this Man.. and I see you turn your Head looking at him.. and it seems like YOU don't know who he is and I would say.. he is the One who I was talking about.. the Day YOU came to the garden.. and I was crying.. I was asking YOU to save a Life of a Boy.. and YOU were sitting on the Horse and I was begging for Your Help.. pleading for a cause.. to help a dying Boy.. and It was when YOU brought the Royal Physicians.. two of them went over and picked HIM up.. do you remember that Day.. and I see you turn your Head looking at HIM and I see that YOU DO remember.. you would smile LOOKING at him.. Yes.. if the Royal Physicians did NOT show UP that Day.. I know that He would Not been alive this very day.. HE has remembered YOU ever since and TOLD ME.. One day HE is going to come to join the Nation where YOU stand.. NOW he is here with his SON.. and NOW we are reunited because of what YOU have done that day.. I was pleading.. begging and asking you to help me.. to Help Him and Now.. LOOK what has happened because of WHAT YOU have done that Day.. as I would hold his son around my Arms.. I want to teach this YOUNG boy how to fight for this Nation.. to raise UP the next YOUNG generations of these Boys to HELP forth.. to Push this Nation which YOU will rule.. for you to conqueror so that this NATION Of people would be so Strong for YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. it is because of Your Big Heart for the people you love.. the People are the reason to help this Nation to become stronger so that YOU can RULE as the True CONQUEROR.. and I would see YOU pointing your Sword at me and telling me to get UP.. so I would listen and I would get UP on two feet.. as I get UP.. I am hearing sounds of foot steps.. and I turn towards the Fence.. and a Messenger comes on the Horse.. and He has a scroll in his hand and He gets Out of the Horse and Runs towards YOU.. stops.. two knees on the floor.. head looks down arm forward with the Scroll in the Hand.. I see YOU turn looking at the Messenger.. and YOU take the Scroll.. and YOU would unfold and YOU would read the Scroll.. and I see something is wrong.. what is Wrong HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WHAT IS wrong and I see you hand me the Scroll and I

MAH MAH.. YOU KNOW how much I love YOU.. and it was YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. who opened the Fences for the Children.. these little children has come Long ways from the Garden and they have come under your Care.. and Only YOU can protect these children because they have all come to YOU.. for the War.. I know that we have mighty Men and soldiers.. the warriors who will go Out there to fight for this Nation.. to protect and to defend because this is the reason WHY I was born to do this.. to Protect YOU.. to serve and to defend YOU.. for the Nation.. I am asking YOU to be there for the Children who has come a long ways.. they have come to YOU.. they have thought about you when they came here and they just arrived.. and I would Be holding unto your Wrist.. so Please only for this time.. can YOU please listen to my Plea.. to my Heart because I just can't fight out there when YOU are fighting with me.. I just can't focus.. and knowing How strong and fierce YOU are.. I see you turn your Head and looking down at me.. but I can tell that YOU will not listen.. and I would say.. CROWN PRINCESS.. leave the Battle for Us.. for the Men that YOU have raised UP.. YOU have plenty of men who can fight.. How about Me.. How about my Heart.. I just can't see you out there.. I have tried when YOU were out there last time.. but I just could Not.. I wanted the sword to drive Into my Heart when I saw YOU.. I wanted YOUR SWORD to pierce into my Heart when I saw the enemies getting just too close to YOU.. I wanted.. rather I die.. rather come after Me and Kill me instead because I rather Die instead of YOU enter that Battle Ground of war.. I can't take it any more.. so Please.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. just this Once.. and how about these children.. they too needs your hands and Your care.. they wanted to meet YOU.. they want to be close to YOU.. look at the Children and I would watch you turn your Head looking at these Little boys and girls.. more than hundred children came with their parents.. and I would watch the New Recruits raising UP their wooden Sticks wanting to join in the Fight.. and I am Looking UP at YOU.. and I would watch YOU turn your Head looking at the Little children.. and LOOKING at the new recruits and YOU turn to LOOK down at Me.. CROWN PRINCESS.. Please say something.. Please answer me for Once.. even those families with the little children all needs YOU by your side.. they need Your hands to rest.. and I see YOU looking at them.. and I would turn to LOOK over.. I am hearing More foot steps.. and I see Six Horses.. and they are the Royal Princes.. the six Older Brothers has come.. on the Horses and I would see behind the seventh.. and ALL seven men would get out of the Horses.. and as I would watch the six Princes.. they would fall on two knees.. and they have brought their swords and I just can't believe.. the seventh person is the Older man.. the Teacher.. the master who taught me with his armor who came to serve in the military Arts.. I just can't believe.. and More Military Generals are behind the Horses of the Princes.. and ALL on the two knees Heads looking down.. arms out forward saluting to Your Authority as the One true Ruler.. and I am holding Your Wrist.. this is why I am asking YOU to please stay Behind.. YOU have men.. powerful strong Men who is going to Fight for this Nation.. the Little Children needs YOU too with their families.. because of what YOU have done in the past at the Garden.. YOU are able to see them grow UP becoming parents NOW and with children.. they have all come to support this Nation.. so Please help for the Next UP coming.. we.. CROWN PRINCESS needs you to be here with the families and the Little Children.. YOU are the Only ONE that needs to stay to preserve the next and to RULE for them too.. and I would watch ALL the voices shouting Out.. CROWN PRINCESS.. Please stay and protect the Families and the Little Children and I would watch YOU.. your sword is pointing to the War Ground and I just can't believe it that YOU want to fight in the war.. WHY HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. WHY.. and my Heart breaks because YOU would not listen to the voices of Your Men.. YOUR PEOPLE.. we shout Out loud More.. Please stay with children.. I would watch One boy picking UP a stick and he shouts Fight.. I am thinking of You.. as I am holding the stick in my hand.. I would say.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. My One wish.. I just want to Love YOU but also with this Sword.. I want to protect YOU and I would swing the Stick.. and My friend who is also holding the stick blocks with the stick I swing at him.. and He would look at me and swing the Stick in his hand and It hits me on the Arm.. I would swing the stick I am holding with my hand and it hits his head and my friend falls on the Ground.. and He looks UP on the ground.. I stood there.. just thinking of YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. my hand grabs his hand and I pull HIM up on his two legs.. as the Moon is High Above.. the Six Friends are making a circle on two of us.. and they are all holding the Sticks.. and as I am thinking of YOU.. I would look at the Seven Friends.. I have to go back to the Palace.. I have to go see the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and as I am on the two Knees.. My Head looking on the Ground.. the Seven Friends are Behind Me.. both on the Knees.. Looking on the Ground.. arms UP saluting to YOU as the Crown Princess.. as I hear more foot steps walking.. I see you with the Big Crown on top of Your Head.. I see you turn around looking back.. there are seven Chief Generals.. with their Foot soldiers all walking to YOU.. and Five Commanders behind with the Foot Soldiers.. they all stop.. both on knees.. Heads all looks on the ground.. arms UP and I see YOU.. a great large of army military men has gathered around you.. As I am holding the sword.. I would Lift up my Arm up with my hand holding the Sword.. and I would shout Out.. MANSAE TO CROWN PRINCESS.. the Seven Men.. my friends all would pull out the swords.. hands holding the swords.. arms lifted UP and they shout out with a Loud Voice.. MANSAE to Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would shout Out louder More.. MANSAE TO WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. to Crown Princess.. and I would hear.. the Chief Generals and the Commanders.. they pull out their swords holding in their hands.. arms lifted UP high.. MANSAE TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Seven Friends with the Foot SOLDIERS all lifted UP their Swords holding their hands.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to Crown Princess.. and I would raise UP my Voice Louder and Cried OUT.. MANSAE to WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. to Crown Princess.. and I hear all of the Voices.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I see you stand in the Middle.. our heads looking at the ground.. and I would say.. YOU are so Great.. Look at you because the men has gathered.. I know there is something that is about to happen.. but my Heart.. to Protect YOU.. and Too keep on protecting you to the end.. and I see YOU looking down.. as I would lift UP my Head looking into your eyes.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I hear something behind.. a Messenger riding on the Horse.. and He has a scroll in his hand.. and the Heads would all turn to look.. the Horse stops.. the Messenger gets out of the Horse.. two on knees.. arm UP and Head looks down.. hand holding the Scroll.. and I am wondering.. what does this Mean.. a Private Messenger only for the Crown Princess.. and I see you raise YOUR HAND.. and the Messenger gets UP.. and He would unroll the scroll.. and starts to share.. a War is going to break Out.. and the enemies are coming to the Fortress.. and they are bringing many foot soldiers.. horse riders.. and the Six Princes are in the Eldest house and they are drinking having the Party.. and the Messenger goes down both knees.. Head goes down and arm up.. and I am wondering.. a War.. and I turn to LOOK at YOU.. and YOU look at me.. there has been a talk about a war for a Long time.. and it is happening.. I look at YOU.. Why did YOU not tell me about this war.. then I would of been preparing for a battle.. but why did YOU not tell Me.. and I looked at YOU.. it does Not matter Now.. because it is going to happen anyways.. and I Just can't believe you have kept this from me.. I told YOU that I wanted to protect YOU.. and that is what I have said.. I have promised YOU that the reason why I am here.. it is to Protect YOU and Your nation.. if YOU told me about this War.. then I could of found More men.. gathered more Men.. and I would look behind YOU.. which there was more than thousand Men.. they are ready.. has been prepared for this War.. and of course.. I knew that you had the men power.. but I also wanted to bring more so that we can win this War.. and I get UP.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I told you.. ever since I saw you from the Garden.. that I was going to come to YOU.. I have made the Promise in the garden.. when I was only looking at the garden of flowers.. even though I am a lowly servant son.. that One day I am going to see you and meet you at the Palace.. I told you that I will make this promise that I will become a Swordsmanship so that I can guard and protect.. Because this is all I can give and this is all I can do for YOU.. I may be very small.. and not be much to YOU.. but I know that I will never give UP on you.. I will keep on fighting for YOU as long as YOU give me a chance to stay.. and Now.. here I am.. I have kept my words.. I have kept my promises to YOU.. it took me long long long time to get and come this far.. but I am here right Now beside YOU.. I told you when I was young

MAH MAH.. They have more experience then me at the art of swordsmanship.. but having more Men it be better for this war.. and My Heart.. I just can't believe I have to hear it like this.. at the last minute when I did Not know anything.. and I just can't see YOU go out on the Battle.. I know that YOU would and you will.. I can't see you at the battle field.. I saw you training with your teacher who is the Chief general.. when I saw YOU with the stick.. I knew something was going to happen.. YOU know that I can't lose YOU.. YOU know How much I love YOU.. and it be better if I die rather than YOU.. and I hear the Horn.. and someone is blowing the Horn from the far.. and I know now.. so I would get UP.. both feet.. and I turn around.. and I look at the seven Men.. the friends.. I am going alone first.. and I am looking at the Horse.. and I get on its Back.. holding the sword with my hand.. and I see your hand telling me to wait.. but.. I know that it is time.. I needs to GO and handle some business here.. I look at the closest friend and I tell HIM.. to Protect the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. be with you.. and.. I see the Other Six Men.. they all get on the back of the Horses and holding the swords in their hands.. I am looking toward the Fortress and my Heart.. it is Hurting me More.. when I am thinking about this More and More.. my Heart keeps on hurting.. why didn't WANGSEJABI MAH MAH did Not tell me anything about this situation.. I know I may not be much.. but I know that I will fight for YOU.. I will do anything for YOU.. even I know that I can die for YOU.. I am sure I can bring some enemies die with this Sword.. but why is My Heart keeps on hurting me.. this is NO JOKE because this is a War.. and I would turn to look back.. and I am looking at YOU.. the Crown Princess.. DO you not know how much I love YOU.. and I am grabbing the strings of the Horse.. and I swing it and the Horse takes Off.. the Six Friends behind Me.. they too grabs the strings of the Horses and swings it.. and follows behind Me.. as the Horse keeps on running fast.. I turn on the Side.. putting the Sword into the sheath and I pull the Bow on the side.. and behind is the arrows.. and the Horse keeps on running.. leaving the Palace.. and it is going to the Fortress.. and the Horse stops.. and my hand hits my Chest.. How long was this been going On.. How long was it for this talking of the war.. I wonder how the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH felt.. knowing there is going to come this war.. and have to keep it inside for a long time.. and I grab the Two Arrows.. putting on the Strings of the Bow.. PULLS the strings Back and I would release the strings.. the arrows shoots far off.. and I would sit on the Horse.. and I would think about when I was a young Boy.. watching YOU from the far.. when YOU were young.. I was sitting on the Horse.. the Commanders behind YOU.. the Chief General next to the Target Practice.. with the Flag.. my eyes full of tears.. YOU were holding the Bow pulling back the strings with the Arrow.. and release the strings and the arrow shoots and hits the red dot of the target.. and hearing the cheering and hands clapping.. flag swings around.. BULLS EYE.. and as I am sitting on the horse.. being still.. what bothers me the most.. I was by the Ocean water.. thinking about YOU coming to the Ocean waters.. but YOU just stood.. YOU just sat on the Horse.. watching me from the distance as I am looking at the waters.. but did Not tell me anything about it there.. it bothers me when I saw YOU looking at me.. sending four new friends to me.. and I saw You turning the Horse away and in silent you left the site.. but the Heart.. was it heavy leaving without mentioning about what was to come.. why did YOU not say anything then.. why did YOU not tell me that something was about to happen.. why just leave in silent.. YOU know.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. if YOU told me.. I would left everything behind and just went with YOU that night.. I would of not think about anything but to Just to protect YOU and to Protect Your Nation.. I would of done anything.. If YOU just said something.. I would come with YOU much sooner.. I feel like a foolish person now.. because I would told YOU that I was Not coming.. I do remember you be asking me to come with YOU.. but I told YOU that I needed some time away.. that I wanted to stay by the Ocean water.. but if YOU just told me then.. what was happening.. YOU know that I would leave it behind and came with YOU without making you feel frustrated.. because I know that I can be some kind of Help of your Need.. why do YOU think I wanted to be a Swordsmanship.. WHY would I learn this skills and this Art of holding the sword.. I have promised you.. I remember when I was YOUNG.. I made a Promise to YOU.. even at the Garden when I knew Nothing about the Sword.. I told YOU that One day.. I am going to master the Art so that I can be useful and to be a part.. to Love YOU and to protect YOU forever.. and YOU have seen me through it ALL.. YOU have seen me when I had no skills at the sword.. when I was working in the garden as a flower Boy.. just as gardener.. Now here I am with the Sword.. at least you could of told me then.. I would not feel so bad right Now.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU know that I would drop everything just for YOU and to Protect YOU because YOU know How much I love YOU.. I am looking towards and I am watching the Arrows flying and many arrows flying over the Wall of the Tower.. I turn to look at the Left.. ten men sitting on their Horses.. bows in the hands.. Looking UP.. and Arrows shoot Fire and I am truly Touched.. these are the Men that belongs to YOU.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I see the Chief General standing on the Tower.. and He arm raises holding the Sword UP.. and ALL the Men up on the Tower of the walls.. They are too holding the Bows.. and arrows are shooting out.. I grab the Bow.. and I turn back.. grabbing two Arrows.. I remember when YOU.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. when YOU were a girl.. I saw YOU on the Practice training ground.. I was sitting on the Horse and My Father next to Me.. I have never see a Princess.. Now a Crown Princess.. grabbing the two Arrows.. and the TOP GENERALS.. the CHIEF GENERALS who were standing behind YOU.. and they kneel.. two knees.. heads looking Down.. asking Only to shoot One Arrow.. and I would watch YOU.. the two ends of the arrows.. pulling back the strings of the Bow.. and pulling aiming and off you release.. the two arrows flies fast and Hits the Target on the red BULLS EYES.. the Chief General.. the teacher holds the flag and swings.. BULLS EYES.. and the five TOP generals.. three are Chief Generals.. they raise their heads too look.. hands would all clap.. and I would sit on the Horse.. my hands start to clap.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. MANSAE WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. my hands would clap.. as I am holding the Bow.. two arrows in my hand.. DO you know How much I love YOU.. I was touched in my Heart.. I was truly touched in my soul.. I was truly inspired when I saw what YOU did when YOU were young.. I even started to practice.. when My Father was with me.. I would ask HIM that I wanted to protect YOU.. How do I protect the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Please help me to be the Protector.. and I remember my Father looks at me.. and lowers.. Do what the Crown Princess has done.. I started to practice Shooting arrows.. as I am looking at the wall.. I look UP sitting on this Horse.. I raise up the Bow.. putting the two ends of the Arrows and I pull back the strings.. and I aim looking towards.. I release the string and the two arrows flies Off.. over the Wall and I would keep on looking back.. two arrows.. pulling back the strings and release.. the two arrows would keep on flying over the walls.. I hear the foot steps.. I hear the Horses coming.. and I see the seven friends and they all stop behind Me.. and pulling their Bows.. grabbing the arrows with me.. and aiming looking over the wall.. More arrows are shot fired out and the Eight of us kept on pulling Out the Arrows.. shooting over the wall.. and Chief General turns who is standing at the tower of the Wall and shouts.. they are retreating.. and He raises the Sword UP and Shouts in loud cry.. and I raise UP the Sword.. the Seven men behind Me.. they raise up their swords.. and the ten Men on the left side.. all shouts.. MANSAE to the Crown Princess.. MANSAE TO WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE TO CROWN PRINCESS.. MANSAE TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I can feel the tears flowing down my Eyes.. CROWN PRINCESS.. the enemies are going to come back.. But right Now they have retreated.. SO we have WON this Battle.. and I turn around.. Protect the Crown Princess.. Protect HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and as I turn to look back.. I just can't believe it.. and the seven men also turns to look back with Me.. I see YOU.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. and YOU are riding on the Horse.. even few Chief Generals and the Commanders are on the Horses and YOU are leading.. I see the Bow in your Hand and also the Sword on the Side.. and I just can't believe it.. YOU must not GO.. the Battle is going to be fierce.. we won but the More are coming this Way.. and I get Off the horse.. and I would walk fast and I kneel before YOU.. two knees.. Head looking down.. my arm up.. and I see you stop the Horse.. Now the seven friends of Mine also gets off the Horses.. and they are behind me.. kneeling.. two knees and heads looking down. arms are Up.. and I see you raise Up the Sword.. and I lift up my Head to look at YOU.. I just don't want YOU to go out

MAH MAH.. You grabbing the two Arrows.. grabbing the Bow.. and putting the two ends of the arrows on the strings of the Bow.. and aiming the arrows.. and your hand releases the string of the Bow.. the two arrows goes straight and Hit the Red Dot.. the flag was raised UP and the Chief General swings the Flag.. I was sitting on the Horse.. my hands would clap with the Chief generals and the commanders.. and they would shout.. MANSAE to Crown Princess.. MANSAE.. HOORAY and I was truly touched.. I asked my Father that very Night.. when I was at Home.. I wanted to Protect the Crown Princess.. How can I protect the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please Father tell me.. Please.. and He tells me.. DO what the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH has did and what I saw that morning.. every Night.. I looked at the Target that my Father made.. with the RED DOT Circle around it.. I started with One Arrow.. my hands would hurt.. my arms would ache.. and I knew YOU were so strong.. because pulling the strings of the arrow.. my Father would tell me to keep on pulling it over and over.. for months I had to do the basic training.. just to pull.. then He gave me the arrow to shoot.. It would not shoot at all.. as Months.. more months went by.. I started to shoot the arrows.. hitting on left far to the right far.. But I was thinking about YOU.. I was thinking about that if I don't this.. I can't protect the Crown Princess.. but I have made UP my Mind and made a Promise that I will protect YOU and always will love YOU.. from Months goes to years as I would start picking UP two Arrows.. starting to shoot over and over until It would Hit the Red circle big Dot.. every Night.. I would look UP to see the Moon.. into the woods.. and the Target stuck on a tree.. I would aim.. two arrows I would shoot from the distance to Hit the BULLS EYES.. I been waiting for this very Day CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I don't want to see YOU Hurt before My eyes.. I don't think anyone here wants to see YOU out on that Battle field.. WHO wants when YOU are the Next Ruler.. YOU are going to be the QUEEN for this Nation.. How can any of Us want to see you out there.. I don't want YOU to go.. that Is why I am taking the steps.. I know YOU are a very strong woman.. and also the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. but I don't want to see you Out there.. I even asked my Father.. How can I be a Protector.. How can I protect YOU.. and he told me the way.. and I did it.. practiced and trained for multi of years so that YOU don't have to go to that Battle Field.. if someone is to Die.. let me be the One to die for YOU.. at least I can say I have tried Hard.. and I did it for YOU.. just to protect YOU and coming this far to SHOW YOU that I can and that I love YOU.. Please don't refuse my request.. Please think about it before.. because I can't see YOU out there.. my Heart would not let me.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please consider this request.. and I hear the seven friends.. Please reconsider the Request.. and I see you looking down sitting on the Horse.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. there are plenty of Men here who are ready to go and fight for YOU and for this Nation.. I want YOU to be kept safe.. and I see you looking at me.. and I see you putting down the sword.. the Men raises up the Voice.. MANSAE to Crown Princess.. MANSAE to WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE TO Crown Princess.. MANSAE TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I see you giving me your Sword.. and I just can't believe it.. it is the King's Sword.. from PEH HA!.. How is it that YOU give me this Sword.. It is from the KING'S hand to YOU.. and I am looking at the Blade.. and I see the teacher.. the Chief General who is with YOU.. and he is the One to help you to get back to the Palace.. and I am so amazed.. so inspired by this Sword.. this is which the King has won many battles with.. who fought in many wars and in the battle fields.. as I keep on looking at YOU.. I can't take this Sword.. because it belongs to YOU CROWN PRINCESS.. I have a sword with me.. which My Grand father gave to my father to give it to Me.. I want you to take the Sword which belongs to Your Father the King.. Please.. and I would lay the King's sword on the Ground because I know I can't.. and my Head looks on the ground.. arm raises.. I see you walking.. and I see your hand grabs the King's sword.. are you considering to stay in the Palace.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I just can't see you on that Battle field.. Please consider.. Please be safe.. and I see YOU on the Horse and YOU hit the Horse on the side and It goes Off.. I just can't believe it.. WHY.. Crown Princess.. WHY are you breaking my Heart.. I asked you to Please Consider and I see you raising up the King's Sword.. and the Men.. the soldiers.. Commanders and the Generals.. Chief Generals.. they are all preparing to go Out to the field.. ready to fight Out.. as I turn to LOOK at YOU.. I hear other voices.. Please Consider.. Please stay in the palace.. Crown Princess.. I Look up at the sky.. Please help me Father.. help me because the Crown Princess does not hear my Voice.. the Battle is going to get fierce.. my eyes can't see the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH out fighting.. Do you want to see a bloody Heart.. How about a bloody Tears.. YOU are suppose to be the One to rule Next.. and I would stand UP.. Crown Princess.. Please Consider.. Please hear my words.. Hear my Heart.. Please reconsider my request.. and I hear the seven friends also asking the Crown Princess.. Not to go.. Not to go Out to fight.. we have plenty of men who will fight for YOU and will die for this Nation.. I came here so that I can Protect YOU.. I came and became the Swordsmanship for YOU.. so that I can protect YOU.. because when YOU love.. YOU just don't want to see hurt and I would start to show you my tears.. Crown Princess.. Please Consider.. Please reconsider my request.. the Chief General UP on the Tower.. he raises the Sword and the Horn Blows.. saying the Enemies are coming again.. the Horn Blows.. Get ready for Battle.. I am looking back.. thinking about the Time.. both eyes would close.. I am standing by the Horse.. and in my both hands.. I am holding the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. I just wants to be with YOU.. Missing YOU.. I just wants to go back.. looking at the Picture of YOU.. the art sketch paper.. and my Father walks and stops next to me.. and He has the Bow in his hand.. and Pulling the strings of the Bow back.. my father looks at me.. and I turn to LOOK up at him.. what if I never see YOU again.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I know that I am so Little.. I am so weak right Now.. there is Nothing that I can give YOU.. what am I suppose to do because I know that I am powerless and useless right Now.. all I can do is just pull out this Art Sketch Paper.. my eyes would look at this Picture of YOU.. but there is NOTHING THAT I can do.. that is Hurts my Heart so bad.. but Just loving YOU.. can it really work.. can anything truly work Out like this.. Look at me.. I am so Poor.. I am uneducated.. I am so weak and so Little.. have NO power or NO strength.. what can I do.. and I be looking.. tears would fill my eyes and it starts to roll down my two cheeks.. what do I do.. I just can't give UP right Now.. do I suppose to give UP now.. and my Father looks at Me.. He grabs an Arrow.. put the end of the Arrow.. pulling the back of the string of the Bow.. and He aims.. the target in center of the Tree.. and He lets go of the string and the Arrow Flies and It hits the Middle.. BULLS eye of the target.. I am wondering.. what do I do Now.. I can't think of anything else.. the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH has become so Big.. become so Great.. My Father.. which he takes out another arrow and Put the end of the arrow of the Strings of the Bow.. and He pulls back and aims.. and I lift UP to look.. He releases and the Arrow flies and Hits the Middle of the Target again.. I am looking UP at my Father.. He smiles.. and I am wondering.. when can I ever be good like my Father.. I want to learn to shoot the arrow Like this.. I see my Father turns away and He walks Off.. I am holding the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I know that my Father wants to show me and teach me something.. and I look at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU again.. I really want to protect YOU.. I really want to be there for YOU.. I wish that It is ME who can truly Love YOU and that YOUR HEART can open UP to accept.. but I know that even though I want to give YOU all my Heart.. all my Love to YOU.. I look at myself.. I am a Low Born.. I know that I can't afford to be with YOU.. WHO am I to Love YOU.. I have Nothing.. what can I give or bring which YOU have already just too Much and plentiful.. My Father stands behind.. and I would turn to LOOK back.. I see his Figure but could Not see HIM.. but I hear his voice.. telling me.. If I love YOU.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I am not afraid to Die for Love.. It should NOT matter at ALL because Love comes from the Heart.. if I truly Love YOU.. I will do anything to be close to YOU.. if I truly choose Love and Death.. and if it does not scare me.. I can just truly Love YOU forever.. does Not matter about what will happen to me.. if I can only Protect YOU.. and that is the Mighty Weapon I carry just to be with YOU.. Just to be close with YOU.. Just to get to know YOU little.. that is all it matters.. because Love is the greatest gift that A HEART can give to a person you truly Love.. and I hear my Father.. telling me that the secret Weapon is the Bow and the Arrow.. and to DIE for YOU means to protect not just YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. but also Your Nation

Heart that I love YOU.. and I really mean it Now.. that I truly understand.. that I do really Love YOU.. Now.. I want to say it and tell YOU.. I need your Heart.. I want Your Heart because I want to be heard when I call your Name and YOU know who is the MAN calling your name because it is I who loves YOU and has been loving YOU till this day.. so Please.. when I call your name.. Please answer so that I can have YOUR HEART.. I need Your Heart.. why.. I want Your Heart so that I can Love you More and More.. I grow More as time goes by because it is the Only thing that is the Best I can do.. to tell YOU that I love YOU..I been looking at this Door.. I tried to knock on this Door.. I would even stand by this door.. from the Sun Set to Sun Rise.. I even saw the Stars and the Moon appears in the dark Sky.. I would look at the door.. I been asking for Your Heart.. I wanted to show you this Art Sketch Paper.. I drew a Heart on the Piece of paper.. wanting to show YOU.. wanted your Approval if does this Drawing of the Heart looks like Yours.. and I wanted the answers from your Words.. But No matter How many times I would knock on this Door.. I would hear YOUR voice inside this House.. but The door never opened for Me.. It broke My Heart.. ALL I ever wanted was YOUR answers that Does this Heart LOOKS like YOURS.. if YOU only told me that It is the drawing of Your Heart.. I was going to ask YOU a Question but that Question comes with asking a Favor from YOU.. and I wanted to ask.. If this Heart of drawing which I drew in my room thinking of YOU resembles Your Heart.. can YOU Please write YOUR NAME on this Piece of paper.. in the center of this Heart saying this is YOUR HEART.. and If you would of told me yes and Writes YOUR NAME.. I would ask you a Favor.. is it okay I can call Out your Name looking at this Piece of Paper.. the Art Sketch Paper of Picture of Your Heart.. I want to call Out your Name and tell your Heart YOUR NAME and tell you that I love Your Name.. I will start with just loving Your Name and thinking of Your Name.. I would say.. can I love this Heart.. with Your Name in the center.. I can call out your Name.. every Night.. I would walk Out side.. I would turn and LOOK UP to the sky.. LOOKING at the MOON and I will show the MOON the Piece of paper.. LOOK at this Heart.. Please say the Name of this Heart.. and I would open my mouth and say YOUR NAME before the MOON up there and say.. I love this Name.. and I love this Heart means I really Love YOU.. But.. I am looking at this Door.. the same Door.. and many months has passed by.. of course for a while I begin to think.. Maybe YOU are Not going to open this Door.. maybe it is My voice.. is it just too rusty for YOU to hear.. is it because I am knocking on this door so Much YOU just grew tired of this same person.. I would see the Figure in the Window and I know that YOU are inside this House.. I saw the figure of YOU.. and Yes.. I heard your voice too saying something.. I kept on knocking and knocking.. but YOU never answered.. YOU never opened the Door.. and YOU are wondering.. why did I come back.. why did I return back to the same DOOR which it never opened for Me.. I don't know.. and If you want an answer.. I just don't know why I keep on coming back to YOU.. even though the Door never opens for Me.. YOU are asking.. DO I ever give UP.. and I will tell YOU NO.. I never will give UP on Love.. especially when It comes on Loving YOU.. How can I give UP ON YOU.. I just will Not stop trying until YOU OPEN this door for me.. I would unfold the Piece of paper.. and I am looking at the Drawing of the Heart.. It has been a while since I looked at it but I do remember.. I would sit by the Door.. and turning away from the Door.. I would sit and cry.. I only wanted YOU to answer Me.. I only wanted to see if this Looks Like Your Heart.. why don't you answer.. I wanted to know does this LOOKS like your Heart.. so that at least I can tell this Piece of paper.. the Drawing of Your Heart.. that I love YOU.. that I want YOUR HEART.. and for ever can I just stand by this door and tell it by the door and YOU can hear me from the Inside when I am standing Out side.. How much I want to be with YOU.. but I need your Heart.. Please give me YOUR Heart and tell me that It looks like your Heart.. so that I know that I can start saying and telling YOU.. telling your Heart that I really Love YOU.. but why don't you answer the Door.. why don't you open the Door.. why don't you tell me that It does looks Like or resemble YOUR Heart.. Please tell me the truth.. give an answer to My Ear so I can hear you say something about this Piece of Paper.. that It is a Drawing of Your Heart.. I want to start loving YOU.. BUT I just can't love you until YOU tell me the answer.. I want to tell YOU and Love you so Bad.. why don't you answer.. why don't you tell me something.. or just anything.. and I would be sitting.. Looking at the Piece of Paper.. the Drawing of the Heart.. which I only drew of thinking of YOU.. all I want is YOU to say.. I needs to hear you tell me.. give me the approval that I needs to know that It looks Like your Heart.. as I am standing by the Door.. I am just thinking about the last time I came to this Door.. I was crying.. and It started to shower down the rain.. I do remember I would stand UP from sitting on the ground.. and I started to walk straight.. and I would walk and stop.. turning too look at the window.. I stood there.. hands holding the Piece of paper.. the Drawing of the Heart.. and I am getting Hit by the rain and I am looking at the paper.. as I see it getting wet by the rain and It would tear slowly and into halves It became.. and I would open my mouth wide crying in the rain.. ALL I wanted to know is does this Drawing looks Like your Heart.. why is it so Upsetting to me watching this Piece of paper tearing apart in front of the eyes.. and I started to feel getting more wetter as the rain would fall down on Me.. and I would be crying and crying.. looking at the window.. LOOK at this.. LOOK at the Art Sketch Paper.. I came all the way down here to show YOU but to ask YOU for one thing.. It is all about YOUR HEART.. why can't you answer Me.. why can't you tell me what is in your Heart.. all you do is open that door and ALL I wanted to hear yes or No.. but why did YOU Not answer the door.. and as I am getting more wet by the rain.. I hear the Thunder and flashes of lightening making sounds.. and ALL I wanted is a simple Yes or No.. but I wanted to hear the answer YES more than No.. I came here to ask just this One question and also had a Favor in Mind.. as I would wait for YOU to appear in the window.. I don't see you there.. and I would turn around and started to walk slowly.. My head looks down and My Heart.. it feels so Hurt.. it feels so Broken inside.. I can't even hear my Heart or feel my Heart any more.. I just can't feel it no more.. as I am standing here.. why do I feel so Sad all of a sudden.. was it because of last time painful experience I had going away.. walking away.. if It hurts this bad.. why did I come here again.. and I stood by the door.. I know that I won't hear YOU.. I know that YOU are Not going to open this Door.. even though I already Know.. WHY did I come.. and my two hands holding the sides of this Piece of paper.. and I am looking at the Drawing of a Heart and I would smile.. YOU are thinking I should of been frowning HUH.. NOPE.. because I am thinking of another way.. different method appear to me in my Heart and IN my Mind and I came with a new Plan and I know that It does NOT Matter if YOU don't open the Door.. Just don't open it for Me.. Please keep it locked and DO NOT even come out to see this Heart.. WHY.. I am going to tell YOU what I think of Your Heart.. I know that If YOU are standing on the Other Side.. YOU can hear Me.. that is a GOOD thing because as Long as YOU can hear My voice.. and Hear my words and Knows my Heart.. I know once it gets to YOU ON the Other side.. ONE day Your Heart can Open.. I believe that YOUR HEART may Not accept me Now.. But YOUR Heart can Hear and can understand when IT comes from MY Heart of How much I LOVE YOU.. I know you know what Love really Is.. If YOU are truly LOOKING and thinking of Love.. SO AM I.. I been trying to tell YOU many times what it means to Love YOU.. as Long as YOU can Hear ME from Where you are.. YOU can be standing or can be sitting.. if YOU can Hear me.. I know that is a GOOD thing.. it is when YOU tell me to Leave YOU alone and Get Lost.. that is when I have NO Chance to Love YOU.. but able to come here.. even the DOOR is still locked and YOU are not opening the Door.. I know who I love.. and I want to boldly claim my rights to Love YOU.. and I know you can hear me on the Other side.. behind this Locked DOOR.. I know you are inside.. I saw the figure on the window when I was coming back to this Door.. and I waved at YOU.. what got to my Heart.. YOU waved back.. that is when I knew.. DOOR can be locked all YOU want.. BUT it is Not going to stop me to tell YOU a story of what it means to really Love YOU.. as long as YOU can hear me and listen to the Stories I love sharing and telling YOU.. I know I will love YOU still and I would walk UP to the Door and I would stand by the Door.. and My Hand Hits the Door.. DOK DOK DOK DOK DOK.. and Hand Hits the Door again.. and I hear.. DOK DOK DOK DOK DOK.. I was about to hit the Door but why did YOU hit it back.. I see.. I know YOU hear me.. behind this Door.. I see that YOU are there.. and also I am here just to say.. I missed YOU and I love you too.. and I can finally cry Out Loud knowing we are looking at the SAME MOON.. that YOU can hear me speak.. YOU can hear me talk and share.. that I know YOU are listening to My Heart.. that I can

I love YOU.. I asked you to love me.. I even told YOU that I love YOU.. you told me that you loved Me.. then why are you not getting this Picture.. YOU told me how much YOU loved the Moon.. Here is the Moon that YOU love.. I just want to give it back to YOU because YOU can hate me.. but I will always love YOU.. I will still love YOU until you know that I love YOU and that YOU know in your Heart that YOU love me too. I am looking at the Moon.. I am waiting for YOU.. just thinking about YOU.. Looking at the Moon.. I feel like I am starting to Miss YOU.. when can I see YOU.. can I hear Your Heart.. Can I see your Heart.. Please let me touch Your Heart.. because I need YOU.. I truly need YOU to love me Back.. only wish.. Only hope.. only dreaming if YOU can show me your Heart.. as I am looking UP toward the Moon.. I can picture in that Moon.. the Shape of Your Heart.. I want to see Your Heart.. My arm stretches Out.. my hand opens Wide.. my Other arm reaches.. stretches Out.. My Other Hand opens Wide.. if YOU can hear Me.. If YOU are able to hear.. Please listen with Your Ears.. Hear my words because I am talking to that MOON.. can YOU Hear through that Moon.. I want to know.. If YOU are Unable to hear my words.. If YOU are Unable to Hear my Voice.. On the Other side.. Is it Night.. because at this Point.. the Sun has went down and Now.. it is the Moon's Turn to get UP.. and I am looking at this Moon.. Hoping that It is Night on that Other side.. if it is.. Can YOU please come Out.. If YOU are able to see that MOON.. Please come Out from the Place YOU are.. I want to tell YOU something.. I want to speak and tell YOU something.. my hands are both open wide.. asking.. Can YOU Please give me Your Heart.. I will be standing still.. Until you give me Your Heart.. I been asking YOU for a long time.. Did you not forget.. ever since I first laid my eyes On you.. all I ever wanted is Your Heart.. All I ever talked about and asking YOU is for that Heart.. Please give me Your Heart.. Please Open your Heart.. I do not want anything else but Just for YOU to show me Your Heart and Please.. let me have Your Heart.. My Heart has been breaking.. It has been shattered into Pieces.. I am trying to put the Pieces of my Heart together.. without YOU.. I know that the Pieces of my Heart cannot come together.. that is why I am asking for Your Heart.. Only if YOU can show Me.. so that I can see the Shape of Your Heart.. and I can open my chest.. and Put your Heart inside the Chamber.. which been waiting for your Heart.. I need Your Heart.. I want to have YOUR HEART and Put close to my chest.. to see How can I live without YOU.. I know that I can't unless I have Your Heart.. I told YOU already.. How is my Heart be broken and How was it torn into Pieces and Cannot put it back together.. I broke my Own Heart.. So that I can put Your Heart instead of Mine.. that is How close I want to feel Your Heart.. to Feel the Beating of Your Heart.. to hear the Beating.. to hear the sound of Your Heart.. I want YOU very close.. SO close that I can hear Your Heart inside of Me.. so that I can see YOU close.. I am truly missing YOU.. I don't know why.. because it is so Hard to explain at this Point.. if YOU are asking me.. WHY do I miss YOU so Much.. I just saw your Picture.. which I would have it close to Me.. I would take a Look at your Picture.. and only Wish.. Only Hope when can I see YOU close.. will you ever come close to Me.. because the More away YOU are.. the More I want to see YOU close.. the More I miss YOU.. the More My Heart breaks.. breaking and hearing the sound of my Heart.. just breaking into pieces.. and I want to know.. Does Love hurts.. does it hurt you.. because for Me.. it hurts to Love YOU.. it hurts me so much that I can feel the breaking of my Heart.. I want to cry.. I want to cry a lot because it Hurts me more when I don't see YOU.. when I miss YOU.. when I step out side.. and I stand still in silent.. and I look UP.. toward the Moon.. I want to shout at the Moon and Cry when looking at the Moon.. I would say.. Can YOU please come Out tonight.. I wonder if it is Day.. Or is it Night.. If I am able to see the Moon tonight.. can YOU Please step Out side.. On the Other side.. do YOU see the Moon appear before Your eyes.. Look UP at the dark skies.. do you see the stars.. do you see the Moon.. if YOU can see the Moon appear before YOU.. Can YOU Hear me.. Can YOU Hear my voice.. Listen to my words because there is something very Important that I would like to say.. to tell YOU.. and I know for sure you know this and maybe heard it more than thousand times by Now.. But I never get tired of telling you this.. I just hope that YOU never get tired too.. If you do please tell Me so that I can stop.. if YOU hear me.. Please LOOK at the Moon.. can YOU see that MOON.. the same Moon that we can see together.. as I am standing still alone.. I am here by myself.. Looking at that Moon.. I been coming here.. from time to time.. when I think of YOU a lot and my Mind.. it gets very busy because I am thinking of YOU.. before I came Out side.. I saw Your Picture.. I saw the Picture of YOU smiling.. when I saw Your Picture.. My Heart was touched.. I put my hand on the Chest.. and I can feel the Beating of My Heart.. and I would tell Your Picture looking at YOU.. I love YOU.. YOU do not know How much I love YOU.. I am still here.. I am still able to tell YOU.. I am able to write to YOU still.. that shows that I have never lost the touch.. that I think of YOU always.. when I saw Your Picture.. it felt Like I got drunk.. I wanted to fall.. and sit on the floor.. I felt dizzy and my knees got weak when I saw YOUR picture.. I told myself.. I should Not keep on looking at your Picture.. because once I start to look.. I would miss YOU.. Missing YOU leads me to walk Out side.. Missing YOU leads me to Look at the Moon.. and my eyes would wander looking UP at the sky.. Looking for the stars.. and Looking for the Moon.. I would close my eyes.. Both eyes shut closed as I would put YOU in my Head.. a Picture pops in my Mind as I would think of YOU.. and envision YOU.. wanting to see YOU.. I would open my eyes.. as I am staring at the Moon.. I would look at the Moon.. and I would open my mouth and say.. Do you know why I am here tonight.. Do you know why I am lead here.. I saw YOUR Picture.. I saw your Beautiful Picture.. saw Your Beautiful Face.. Now Look what YOU have made me do.. I am asking YOU if YOU can hear me.. Please say something back.. Please tell me something because My Heart is listening.. say something because My Heart is opened to listen.. Say something because my ears wants to hear Your Voice and Your Words.. Please say something because tonight is the Night I really want to hear YOU.. that this very Night.. for some reason I am missing YOU much more.. even though every night I miss YOU.. and I want to see YOU every day.. But on this very Night.. I really really want to hear from YOU.. I want you to Know that I love YOU.. I really really Love YOU.. Why can't I hear from YOU on the Other side.. is it because YOU can't hear me at all.. YOU know that every time I come Out.. every time I look UP at the sky and Look towards the Moon.. I am always expecting to hear from YOU.. but every night.. I would be the One who is speaking.. saying something as I am looking toward the Moon.. after I am done speaking as I am looking UP at the Moon.. I would be so sad.. My Heart be broken.. My Heart be breaking.. My Heart be crying as I would go inside back to the House.. because I would come Out side on this Night just to hear something.. Your Words and Your Voice but I don't hear anything from YOU.. I would be Looking UP towards the Moon.. asking YOU.. if You can Hear me.. if YOU want to hear my Voice.. to hear my words.. I am here this very Night.. I am standing here All alone.. Just waiting for YOU to show Up on the Other side.. if YOU can see the Moon.. If you can hear Me Out.. Please say something so that I know I am speaking to YOU as I am here On the Other side.. I want My words to be Heard.. I want my Voice to be Heard.. if I say the Word I miss YOU.. I am telling YOU from My Heart.. that Means I really Miss YOU.. if I say the Word I love YOU.. it comes from the Deep within expressing my Heart felt to tell YOU that it is what it is.. that I am telling YOU this because I do.. But I am not sure if My Words are being heard.. if My Voice is being heard on the Other side.. What If YOU are Not there.. What if It is Night there.. and yes.. the Moon has come UP.. but YOU are Not standing Out side where YOU can see that Moon.. I want my Voice to be heard for YOU.. I want my Words to be Heard to YOU.. because None of it is empty words.. it is Words that comes from My Heart and My Mind.. from Inside of Me.. that is why I been asking for YOUR HEART.. If I can have your Heart just for One Night.. if I am able to put Your Heart inside the Chamber in my Chest.. and I close the Chamber of the gates of my Chest.. I know that if YOUR Heart is inside of Me.. I can walk out alone.. stand by myself in the Night.. Looking UP at the MOON.. so that My Words can be Heard.. so that My Voice may be heard.. and if YOUR HEART is inside my Chest in the chamber.. I would look UP at the Moon.. and YOU are able to hear all of My words.. my Voice.. and even what comes within Me to tell YOU.. YOUR Heart being so Close to Me.. I know that My Words would not go empty.. and I can just express and tell YOU.. and YOU can Hear me.. that YOU can hear me finally and that I know that YOUR HEART is able to hear my words and My Mind.. and to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I would know for sure.. I can come Out side every night.. without questions rather YOU are listening or Not.. But I know for sure YOU can Hear Me

Waiting for me.. I would ask this Angel.. How can I be an Angel.. because I just want to be close to YOU.. even though I do not ask for your Love.. I am not asking YOU.. can YOU love me.. it is what is in my Heart.. who is the One loving YOU.. I am truly feeling like I am filled and Full just by loving YOU.. and the Angel would look at me.. if I become the An angel.. I can't ever be with YOU.. but can be Near YOU.. be close to YOU and Just love YOU from the Far.. from the distance just to be there and just to love YOU and Only thing I can do is miss YOU.. and I would ask the Angel.. am I able to share.. tell and write letters to YOU.. the Angel tells me.. I still can.. I can always love YOU.. and able to tell you.. express the Joy of loving YOU.. I do remember begging this Angel.. that I needed to borrow the two wings.. or if I can be an Angel instead.. as long as I can love YOU.. as long as I can write you Letters to tell YOU how much I love YOU.. so I made the Deal with Angel.. he is going to bring me two wings and gives to me as a Gift and I will become Your Angel.. the One who loves YOU from a far and from distance.. I do remember sitting by the desk.. pulling Out the White Sheet of Clean Paper.. grabbing a Pen and started to write YOU a Letter.. to tell YOU this.. I would say.. I am Your Angel.. Please do not be afraid of Me.. but to know how much I love YOU.. when I get close to the window and the Sun goes down and the Moon with the Stars comes UP the sky.. I would open the Window and stare into the Night.. just thinking of YOU.. just missing YOU always.. I do not want to miss you any more.. there is this Ache in my Heart.. there is this Pain in my soul.. looking into the Night.. Looking at the Moon.. I am watching the Moon looking at me.. and when I look at the Moon.. I think of YOU.. YOU keep on crossing my Mind.. I can feel this pain.. a sharp Pain because I want to be close to YOU.. When can I see YOU.. When can I come close to YOU and reveal to YOU that It is Me who be loving you the Most.. would you please let me come close.. so that I don't have to keep on missing YOU.. I feel like I needs to make this Move first.. that I needs to get close.. even though I may not be able to be with YOU.. I know that if I am your Angel.. at least I get to see YOU.. see you closer and able to love you More because I don't miss YOU.. this wall.. this distance that is not able to let me get to YOU.. I know that I must break down the wall.. break down the distance.. this missing YOU.. so that I can be at least to tell YOU that I love YOU.. it is driving me Insane.. it is driving me crazy Now because I know my Heart.. I know what is IN my Heart and WHO I be loving for such a Long time.. that is why Now.. I just want to be close.. would you please accept these Letters that I write.. I just want to tell you what crosses my Mind.. and that without YOU.. I know that I can't Live.. without YOU I can't breathe so Please Help me to Love YOU more.. as I am writing on the Clean Sheet of Paper.. and I hear the Knock on the window.. and I turn to Look.. it is the Angel who has brought me the gift.. the two Wings.. NO more asking to borrow but Now I have two wings.. Once I put the two Wings on the Back.. I will become Your Angel.. who can be near YOU.. Not missing YOU no More.. I see the Angel leaves the two Wings by the Window and He leaves.. I am looking at your Picture.. I am so sorry that I have to be an Angel.. only thing I can do is to be Close.. just to be there and just loving you from the Distance.. But I do get to tell you how much I love YOU.. at least I have the Voice to share from these letters.. to tell you I love YOU.. for so long.. I have never stopped loving YOU.. will you please let me Love YOU still.. as I open the Window and grabbing the two wings.. I am looking at them.. both hands holding the two wings.. I am looking at your Picture sitting on the top of the desk.. I can't breathe.. because it is so Hard for me to breathe right Now.. I want to go.. I want to be with YOU Now.. if I can't do this.. I know I be going crazy.. so please understand why I am doing this for YOU.. I put the two Wings on my Back.. and I fall on the Floor.. and crying.. as I am holding your Picture.. IN my hand is your Picture.. I want to be with YOU.. I want to be with YOU forever.. If I stay here.. I know that I will miss you more.. and Missing YOU drives me Crazy and in such great pain.. I feel aches all over my body.. I am wiping my tears as I am looking at your Picture.. why do I have to be so far from YOU.. why do YOU have to live so far that I must do this.. WHY.. as I feel this Change.. I become Your Angel.. but as long as I can still love YOU and tell YOU How much I love YOU.. I don't care what happens to Me.. as long as YOU know.. YOU know that My Love for you is surreal.. that I love you for real.. and as long as YOU get this Message.. I am looking at the Bottle.. I been taking few shots.. before I would write you a Letter.. I would have the shot Glass.. and with the Bottle of Rice Wine.. I would pour on the Shot Glass.. My Heart could not take this Pain.. this Ache.. so I started to drink.. so that I don't feel this Pain in my Heart.. help Me to love YOU.. Help me by accepting the Letters so that I know that I have a chance to Love YOU... as I would stand UP.. on two feet.. I would roll the Paper and I would grab the Empty Bottle of the rice wine.. put the Rolled paper into the Bottle.. and I am standing.. walking to the window.. and I am looking at the Moon.. I would walk away from the room and go out side.. as I am standing outside.. One hand holding your Picture.. Looking at your Picture.. and On the Other hand I holding the Letter inside the Bottle.. I know that I must get to YOU.. I must fly over the Moon and go where YOU at.. Please be where I met YOU.. Please know that I am coming and I am going to YOU.. I have just written a Letter.. I have told YOU in the letter.. I have asked the Angel.. if I can be Your Angel.. so that I can be near YOU and love you from the distance.. if I stay here.. How can I show YOU that I love YOU.. How can I tell YOU that I love YOU.. so Now.. just standing here.. going out side and just looking at the Moon is Not going to do anything for Me.. I hope that when YOU receive the Message.. the Letter inside this Bottle.. will you open the Letter.. will you please accept and read it.. because I put so much time and thoughts.. my Heart into each Letter.. letting YOU know How much I miss YOU.. I miss you that It drives me Insane.. I miss you that it drives me crazy.. if YOU can't come to me.. then I will go to YOU.. but Now as your Angel.. please accept my Heart.. Please accept the Letters I give YOU.. and I am looking UP the MOON as I am speaking from My Heart.. I am looking UP at the Moon and telling these Words to the Moon.. I know that YOU can't hear me.. because of the distance.. for being so far away.. but I will let you know soon as I fly over the Moon to the Place you are.. Please Open YOUR Heart.. Please let me In.. Open your Heart for Me.. and please don't reject how much I love YOU.. how much I miss YOU.. Please open your Heart and receive and accept.. I am crying Out as I am saying these things.. LOOKING UP at the Moon.. Looking at your Picture.. Holding hard on the Bottle.. I want to give.. I want to give as much as I can.. I want to give YOU how much I love YOU.. I just want to give you my ALL.. my everything to YOU.. and the two wings starts to flap.. as I feel myself being lifted from the Ground.. WHY must I change to Love YOU.. why can't I love you for Me.. WHY do I must have two wings.. why have to be an angel to Love YOU.. I just want to love YOU.. but standing here.. I know I can't get to YOU.. I know that just standing here and standing still.. Nothing will be done.. so Please forgive me for changing into I am waiting for the Moon to appear.. in my hands is a Letter I have written for YOU.. but I am waiting for an Angel.. Do you know that I believe in Angels and I would ask if the Angels could Come as I am asking for One to appear before my Eyes.. as I was sitting by the desk.. and I would write.. pulling the Piece of paper before me.. I would be looking at your Picture.. Only if YOU know my Heart.. trying to let YOU know How much I love YOU.. I been practicing writing on this Pieces of Papers.. I would even grab One Piece of paper.. walking to the Mirror in the rest Room.. I am Not a Person who can speak well in speech.. I may not be able to speak right with the Words when it comes face to face.. But I know that I needs to practice my Speech telling YOU and Letting YOU know How much I love YOU.. as I am in the rest Room.. I am Looking at myself the Mirror is in front of me.. I know that I can let YOU see the Letter.. but.. I am alone in this House.. so I would show UP.. looking at myself and trying to Picture YOU standing on the other side.. will I have the Boldness.. WILL I have the courage to Tell YOU what My Heart feels.. WILL you let me speak to YOU about How much I love YOU.. as I am looking at myself.. Looking at the Mirror.. Holding the Piece of paper.. and I would try to talk.. try to speak.. but my Words would Not come Out because I am Looking at Me instead.. but I know that I needs to practice.. practice more to speak to YOU.. to tell YOU.. to have the Guts and Courage.. but I am wondering will YOU even give me Your Ears to listen.. will YOU give me the attention that I need from YOU so that I am able to talk to YOU.. to get something Off my Chest.. letting YOU know what I am thinking.. to Let YOU know that I love YOU.. I would open my Mouth.. and I would start to read from the Letter.. and I would say to YOU.. even though YOU are not here.. But I am envisioning that YOU are here and able to listen to the Words I am telling YOU.. speaking to YOU.. I would say.. I can't get my Mind Off of YOU

I want to be well prepared.. I want to be ready to Tell YOU that I have a Love story that Only YOU can hear.. that I can share to YOU.. would you give me Your Time and energy.. your attention is all I am asking for.. all I need so that I can tell YOU.. I been looking.. trying to speak.. because I am not well in speech.. but I do know how to write Many Letters now.. and the Best way.. fastest way for me to reach YOU is by giving YOU this Letter.. I can look at myself and holding UP the Piece of Paper in my hands.. and reading the Letters.. How long can I be doing this.. and I would ask.. How far can it go if only thing I do is read the Letters looking at myself at the Mirror in front of Me.. I would keep on trying.. after sitting down by the desk.. I would pull up the chair.. with the Pencil and write YOU a Letter.. letting YOU know there is so much going On my Mind.. burning inside of My Heart.. that I still Love YOU.. I would pick up the Picture.. taking a Look at YOU.. and always.. it brings me great Love and Joy and Inspires me to write and to tell YOU a Story that I love YOU.. the Only thing that I can do.. the Only thing I can bring out from My Heart.. and I go to face the Mirror.. and I look at myself.. I wish that It be YOU on the other side.. I want to tell YOU.. I want to read the Letter to YOU.. but I am only looking at myself and it breaks my Heart that I am only reading to myself.. But I want this Letter to reach YOU.. so that YOU know my Heart.. my longing has been growing.. missing YOU brings Hate in my Heart cause of the pain that comes with it.. I wish that YOU know that Loving YOU sometimes Hurts me the Most because I miss YOU.. I can't stop thinking of YOU.. going back and forth.. to Sitting by the desk.. writing a Letter.. getting UP from and walking to the rest room.. Holding UP the Letter.. looking at myself looking at the Mirror and reading the Letter Out Loud.. I would look at my self.. and it hurts Me because I miss YOU.. I been missing YOU for such a Long time.. going back to sit.. Looking at your Picture.. my Heart starts to burn inside.. I want this Burn to come across Your Heart.. I wish that YOU can deal with the same Burning and this Pain that is aching inside my Soul.. I feel like it is NO fair sometimes because.. WHY is it that I am the One who has to deal with this Pain of ache.. this Pain of missing YOU and It feels Like YOU do not feel anything on the Other side.. do YOU know that I am waiting for YOU still.. that I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I don't want to spend the time looking at the Mirror and Looking at myself and just reading the letters.. it is NOT for me but for YOU.. so I have decided to change a New Way.. I would wait.. waiting until the SUN goes Down and asking for the MOON to come UP.. I would walk Out side.. and stand alone as I see the Night has approached.. I am holding the Letter In front of Me.. and I have heard that there are Angels WHO is able to listen to an OUT CRY of the Heart when YOU LOVE.. I would stand.. Open the Piece of Paper.. the Letter is in front of Me.. and I started to LOOK UP at the Moon.. but I am Not asking the MOON anything.. but an Angel.. if the Angel can hear me on this very night.. can the Angel be the One to do me a Favor.. I have One wish.. and It is very simple Wish.. to Hear the Heart of Mine crying for YOU.. I know if the Angel can hear the sobbing of my Heart.. my Tears of pains that comes from inside.. if the Angel can hear me and can feel sorry for Me because I am asking for the Angel to Give this Letter to YOU.. I can sit on the ground and weep.. sob in tears for many hours if I have too.. but if an Angel.. who is passing by through My direction and catches me in tears.. I know that the Angel can stop and Looks DOWN from the Sky wondering what is wrong with me.. and I can say to that Angel.. I am man who loves to write Love Story.. but it is a story of YOU.. story of how much I love YOU.. and that I am asking that Angel.. if He can do me a favor.. to give this Letter I have written to YOU.. to send the Message that I been here.. all along waiting for YOU.. if the angel asks.. I would tell that Angel.. I have even tried.. I even went to the rest room.. after I sat on the chair by the desk.. and I would show the angel the Picture of YOU.. and tell the Angel.. who YOU are and I would say to that Angel.. I would write with the pencil on the Piece of paper.. and I would get UP and go to the rest room.. and I would stand looking at the Mirror of myself and I would read the letter that I wrote to YOU.. I been doing that for a while.. but It seems like it has no Hope.. because I am only reading it to myself.. I want YOU to hear me.. hear my voice.. hear my words that I do speak.. I do talk and say.. share what is in my Heart.. but what good is ALL that when YOU can't even hear me.. if YOU just don't know or understand.. and I started to LOOK at myself on that Mirror.. in Pain.. what good is it if I am the Only One who knows it for myself.. so I have decided to walk Out.. and WHEN I saw the Moon.. if I love to stare at the MOON in the Night.. I am sure an Angel can also Love the Moon just like Me and can spend the Night looking at the MOON.. if I can be loud and Clear and if the Angel who is staring at the same MOON I am.. I know for sure.. the Angel can hear me Out.. hear my misery of NOT able to get the Letters to YOU.. Hear this Heart of Mine crying in the Night as I am staring at the MOON.. if the Angel sees Me.. with a Broken Heart and the Longing.. waiting for YOU.. waiting for your answer.. I am sure the Angel can look.. as I would walk Out side.. Not just Once.. but each Night.. two days.. four days.. ten days I am out.. holding the Letter.. and I am looking UP at the MOON.. open my mouth so that YOU can hear me Out Loud.. I am sure after many times of walking with the Letters.. the Angel can see that I am very serious.. I am Not asking Much but it is so simple.. to let YOU know my Heart.. to Let YOU know that I love YOU.. to Let YOU see the Heart of Mine.. that I am falling for YOU.. I need YOU and I need you to know that I love YOU.. that I be missing YOU.. DO you even know that.. can YOU SEE that.. and I know that One night.. with your Picture in my Hand.. and I be looking.. on the Other Hand is the Letter.. after I look at you through the Picture.. My Heart breaks into tears.. and I am missing YOU.. I will say why do I keep on missing YOU.. why must you be so far that it is so Hard for me to reach YOU.. why leave me like this stranded.. why let me die here just to Love YOU.. why do I must crumble and be hurt.. why be so miserable but at the same TIME the Joy to Love.. with this ache that leaves me this Pain.. it Hurts a lot sometimes because YOU are so Far away.. but I want YOU so Near.. so Close that my arms can wrap around YOU.. and to let YOU see the letters.. here is One that I written for YOU.. I know that I may not be good with speaking.. talking with good speech.. but I know that I can memorize the Letters that I have written for YOU.. to tell YOU a Story.. My Love story of How much I love YOU.. so that YOU can know forever that I love YOU.. as I am Looking UP.. Looking at the MOON.. I am holding the Letter.. and I open my Mouth and I read the Letter Loud.. I would say Out Loud.. do YOU hear Me.. can YOU Please hear me.. will YOU please listen to what I needs to say.. to tell YOU something that Keeps on coming from My Heart.. that I been coming Out here.. LOOKING at the Night.. I see the stars.. I see the Clouds and I see the Moon above me.. and I am waiting for an Angel.. I do truly believe that an Angel can hear me right Now.. and if an Angel who is passing by decides to stop and to listen.. I am sure that the Angel can come to my aide to Help me with this Letter.. so that this Letter can go to the right person which is YOU.. I want to say.. I been loving YOU.. I keep on telling YOU how much I love YOU.. but do you really believe in this Word that I am telling YOU.. I know that My Heart is Not mistaken.. but it is real because the Only thing I can do is tell YOU that I love YOU.. there is Nothing More I can say.. there is Nothing but the three Letter words I can tell YOU.. which is I LOVE YOU and I want YOU to know.. I want you to know this truth before I go.. because I know that One day SOON.. YOU will know for sure the truth.. that I do really Love YOU and meant it with my Words.. I been waiting for the Angel.. so that if the Angel appears before My eyes.. I can tell that Angel.. and show the Picture of YOU.. and the Angel is going to get it.. will understand it.. the problem is this.. what if this Angel comes and sees YOUR picture and also that Angel falls in love with YOU.. even with the distance and miles away.. I love YOU.. even with not spending time.. and knowing YOU in face to face.. I just love YOU as your are.. I don't need to be in your Presence or be with YOU as in face to face in person to Love YOU.. even with this Miles separated between US.. I just Love YOU just the way YOU are.. if YOU don't believe me.. I know that when the Angel shows UP with my Letters In the hands and gives to YOU.. and when the Angel holds the Picture of YOU and shows YOU.. I believe by that time YOU will know that I love YOU.. I don't needs to be there to Love YOU.. because it is all about Just Loving you First.. when I love YOU.. YOU will know what a Love means in a time when I can't love YOU anymore.. I am Not sure How long I will live.. but as long as I am alive.. I know that I still can love you.. breathing.. I know I can say to YOU that I really Love YOU..I am looking at the window.. as I am in the room.. I just keep on thinking of YOU.. I know that I am missing YOU.. will I ever see YOU.. and I would walk closer to the window.. and I would kneel and looking Out the window.. I am wondering.. do you think as much as I am thinking of YOU.. I can see that the Moon is come Up

Looking for an Angel.. WILL the Angel hear me this very night.. can the Angel hear my voice.. or the Angel is Not there.. and I am looking UP.. looking around.. I can't see the Angel.. I don't see any Angel over here.. But I wish that the Angel can hear me.. I wanted to ask.. can I borrow two Wings.. can I have two wings.. I know that staying here in my room.. looking through the window.. and just looking UP to the Moon.. this distance is not going to take me any where.. I be missing YOU.. I want to tell YOU something.. I need to say something.. Let my words say something.. kneeling here and just looking UP at the Moon.. it is going to take me No where.. I want to be with YOU.. I want to Hold YOU.. if it is cold there.. If it is snowing.. or raining.. I want to Hold YOU.. let my hands touch your hands.. let me pull you closer.. so that I can hear your Heart Beating against Mine.. will you let me stay by your side please.. I am looking for the Angel.. I been praying and wishing for an Angel.. I would enter the room.. and I would look at the window.. and I would walk closer to the window in the room and kneel.. looking through the window.. asking.. Are you there.. I am speaking to the Angel.. I know that YOU can hear Me.. because every Night.. I come to the same spot.. asking for the Angel.. I know that YOU be tired of hearing me asking for the same thing.. so why Not just show UP and tell me that YOU are there.. can I have your two wings.. I need two wings.. If you can't give me two wings.. at least let me borrow two wings from YOU.. can YOU Please say something.. I need two wings.. and if the angel would finally show UP and tell me.. I am going to look UP.. Angel.. I want to have your two wings.. and can I borrow it just for one Night.. I want to spend my time Just being by YOUR side.. if the Angel Allows me to borrow two Wings.. I would place the wings on the right and left of the shoulder blade.. and I know that just for that One Night.. I want to be Your Angel.. and I be asking You.. can I fly over the Moon.. and if YOU believe in an Angel.. at least YOU know that I love YOU.. this Angel will Not let YOU GO.. this Angel will stay by your side.. just to tell YOU that I love YOU.. YOU know how much I missed YOU.. How much I been loving YOU and still been loving YOU.. I want be sitting on the top of the tree branch.. just watching you from the distance.. and having YOUR picture in my Hand.. to show YOU NOT to be afraid of me.. Look.. I will tell you.. LOOK at the Picture.. I am not a stranger.. and I would be with a Letter.. LOOK.. I am the One who has been typing YOU.. sharing to YOU how much I love YOU.. so that YOU would not step back or scream.. the Prove that On the Other side.. for a Long Long time.. I been asking for Your Heart.. for YOU TO Love me too.. even though I am not asking you right Now.. but I am asking you.. will you please love me some day.. I do not know How long it is going to take but until YOU can tell me that YOU love me.. but I would show UP as your angel.. and I would flap the two wings and I would lower to look at YOU.. and I would say.. I did not come here to hurt YOU.. I did not come here to scare you either.. I came here to say.. I have been missing YOU for such a Long time.. I had to ask.. I had to beg.. I had to pray.. I had to wish.. and Many Many Many Nights.. I would enter the room.. and go to the window in the room.. and kneel.. I would LOOK UP to see the Moon.. and I open the window and I would be asking for an Angel.. if the Angel is real or true.. and I would be asking for the Angel to answer me.. I would keep on going to the same spot.. until One night the Angel came down to the Window I was kneeling.. I just could not believe my eyes.. I started to cry when I saw the Angel and the Angel asked me why I kept on calling for Him and I asked the Angel.. two wings to Borrow.. just for one Night.. and I would show the Angel the Picture of YOU.. and I been telling the angel My Heart.. How much I been missing YOU.. How many nights I had to come out.. asking for you.. I would start just standing Out side by the House.. and Looking at the Moon.. I would pour out my Heart to the Moon about YOU.. and I knew that NO matter How much I would tell that Moon.. the Moon is Not going to tell me any thing.. it hurts because I wanted YOU to know.. so I went to the room and I believed in the Angel.. Maybe the Angel can Help me instead.. so that is when I started to call for the Angel.. which the angel came.. I asked to borrow the two wings.. which the Angel gave to me for just one Night.. I showed the angel the Letter I been writing to YOU and also the Picture of YOU and I had to be the one to go to see YOU.. I been missing YOU so much lately.. I just had to come.. Now.. I been sitting on the tree branch.. I saw YOU in a distance in a shop.. so I waited.. Of course I did not mean to scare YOU.. but the Angel gave me the permission to be an Angel for this one Night.. Now I am looking at YOU.. I don't want to leave.. I want to stay by your side.. and be there with YOU.. I want tell you how much I love YOU and if I do go.. I know that I am going to be missing YOU.. I hate missing YOU when I love YOU.. why can't YOU come with Me.. or why can't I stay with you.. I brought the Letter to show YOU.. it is Me who been telling YOU and sharing you my Heart.. so that YOU would not think I am crazy.. Do you see this letter.. Do you see the Picture.. it is YOU.. I been having this picture for a Long time.. and Only this Picture.. when I feel down.. I would take a LOOK at your picture.. I can't stop crying.. Because YOU Look so much prettier.. Because YOU look so much Beautiful.. Why do you have to be this Pretty.. WHY do you have to be this Beautiful.. When YOU Love some one.. YOU look much more Beautiful in my eyes then ever.. I don't know what it is.. maybe it is because My Heart sees so much More.. I see Love that Only I can bring and tell and give to YOU.. I just want to hold YOU.. to tell YOU that I have never stopped loving YOU.. I came all down way.. flying over the Moon.. Just to see YOU for this One Night.. Now.. I don't want to leave.. I can't go because I know that I be missing YOU again.. I want to see YOU again.. I want to tell YOU how beautiful YOU are.. How much I want to be with YOU.. that when YOU leave.. when I go.. I know that I am going to ask the Angel again for the two wings.. if I can have the two wings so that I can every Night.. flying over the Moon.. waiting for YOU.. sitting on that Same Tree on that branch.. Just to tell YOU how much I miss YOU and how much I love YOU.. but Now.. since I saw YOU.. and I gave you the letter.. I know that I have to go.. YOU are the Only One who I love.. that is why I just can't go.. I just wanted to say.. I been on the Other side.. just waiting for YOU.. I even stoop by the House.. when the Moon came UP at Night.. I would stare at the MOON as it stare at me.. and I would hold Your Picture.. asking if the Moon can speak.. I first tried by asking the MOON to be the Voice I really needed to tell the One.. I been showing the Picture.. to that MOON.. to take a closer LOOK.. and LOOK at the Picture.. to Please Come Closer.. if the MOON has an ear.. can the MOON hear my words.. I first came for few months.. I stood in the same spot out side of the House.. with your Picture.. but I just grew tired because the MOON never seems to care.. did not come closer.. did Not speak.. it just stood there staring at Me.. so I had to try another way.. Now.. Look at these two wings.. I do thank the Angel who responded to my request because Now I get to see YOU.. I get to give you this Letter.. when YOU took this Letter.. My Heart stopped.. and I felt the beating of my Heart goes faster because YOU are the Only One who I love.. My Heart keeps on beating faster as I am looking at YOU.. But.. I just don't want to leave.. WHY do I have to leave YOU.. I just can't leave.. But I know that I must because I made the Promise to return.. to give back the two wings that I borrowed.. But I came here to see YOU.. I kept on missing YOU.. just looking at your Picture was not Enough.. just telling YOU through writings was Not enough for Me.. I started More.. I started to feel in my Heart I want More of YOU.. I want Your Love.. I want to see YOU.. your Presence.. your Smile.. Your Beautiful.. Your Scent.. I wanted More because My Heart started to Love YOU more.. I want More of YOU because I love you a lot More now.. why can't I be with YOU.. WHY can't I hold YOU.. my arms is killing me because it is YOU I want to hold so tight.. I want to hold you close to tell YOU.. why can't YOUR Heart be opened to me.. please tell your Heart to be open to me so that YOU will know who is the ONE been loving YOU.. It is Me who loves YOU.. I don't think there is Another WHO can Love you More and More as I can because I am able to tell YOU Heart to Heart.. if a Person is like a wall.. what good is that Person.. do NOT tell you how Much but YOU know that I can tell YOU.. PULL you into my arms.. and LOOK at your ear and I will speak.. telling YOU.. I am the One who Loves YOU.. Open your Heart.. Please.. Tell your Heart to Open to me so I can tell you more and more.. I love YOU.. as I am holding Your hand.. My hand just can't let Go.. and It is killing me because I know that it is time for me to go.. I am looking at the paper.. the drawing of a Heart.. and I am standing by this Tall tree.. is this the Right Tree.. can YOU please tell me if I am standing at the right Place.. I see about twelve more Trees behind and All around this Park.. WHY are you telling me to come to this Park without telling me Which Tree to go too.. Is it because I have delayed my Coming.. DO I needs to tell YOU that I am so Sorry.. I am so sorry for Not coming to the appointed Time.. I did Not expect the changing of the weather.. Of course

MAH MAH.. I am watching the Little Children.. boys are walking into the training Ground.. I just can't believe that they are from the Garden.. the Parents of these children.. some of them are my friends growing Up and I am watching YOU standing by the Fence.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I never thought you be having this Big Heart.. Now look at the Hopes and Dreams YOU are planting.. the Parents who came with their Children.. thinking about their future.. and I am on the Two Knees.. tears just fills UP.. and I can feel my tears streaming down.. and One of the guy who came with his Son stops and Looks at me.. and He smiles.. and Just cannot believe that I am the trainer for the new Recruits.. and He cries Looking at me because.. I know that His SON can also dream for this Nation.. the Crown Princess.. who loves the People.. who are the One with the Big Heart for the People.. who is the One who helped the Poor People in that Garden.. Now.. the People has come because this Nation is growing stronger and stronger because of YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. it is because YOU are here that all these things can happen.. I do remember.. the First time My Heart felt something.. I was in this Position.. I saw a friend laying on the ground.. He was very Poor and Lowly servant just like Me.. we had NO Place to Go.. No place to sleep.. hungry without Homes and just picking food from the Floors.. it was at the Garden.. He got sick eating watching Him hit the floor.. I was crying for that Friend.. he would throw UP in blood and he looks at me.. telling me that Being so poor.. it is NO JOKE.. and he tells me.. I am dying.. I was crying and crying as He lay on the Floor.. My Heart broke into pieces.. and He looks at me and says.. when He dies to plant him by my Mother's grave.. and my Mother was like an Auntie to him.. as I saw him laying sick.. I heard a Loud Voice.. and I turn to look.. the day YOU came to the Garden.. I turn too look.. I fell on my face looking at the ground.. I saw YOU sitting on the Horse.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. and I would cry Out Loud More.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please hear my voice.. and I saw YOU.. the YOUNG Girl you were.. YOU had a Sword.. small sword and Pointed to my direction to Speak.. and I would be crying.. could Not talk much but it was about my dying friend.. He was laying down.. and throw UP blood in front of me.. and asking me to bury him when he died.. But Help me MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU are the Only ONE with the Power to save the Life of a BOY who has NO ONE else to turn TOO.. PLEASE.. MAH MAH.. HELP US and I would be crying Loud.. he is my best friend.. My father raised him like a SON to Me like a Brother.. SAVE HIM MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH... Please help my Dying friend.. and tears would be falling down.. and I can see.. Maybe I needs to die with him too.. if YOU can't help him.. I would lift UP my Head looking UP at you.. with tears in my eyes.. my Friend needs YOUR HELP.. the Crown Princess.. which is YOU raise UP your Little Sword and YOU would call for the Royal Physicians who came.. I was very shocked that they came here to the Garden.. I never thought YOU would do this for the Little People.. the Poor People.. for the Lowly lives who NO ONE cares about.. NO ONE cares for the Broken.. the Little People who has NO NAMES.. How do people know my Name.. they just don't and I was touched.. But YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS cared.. my best friend was dying before my eyes.. and I cannot do anything to help.. I am watching him throw UP blood and He is asking me to bury HIM next to my Mother who is already GONE.. and I would close both eyes crying Loud.. my Heart hurts because He is telling me that HE is dying.. this pain.. and I would watch the Royal Physicians walking into the Garden.. and two of them goes over to my Best Friend.. I watch HIM being carried by the two doctors.. and I would walk the wood cutters and stone builders and they have come with Nurses and even the Maids and kitchen Ladies all comes to this Garden.. feeding the Poor.. feeding the Lost.. feeding thousands of children with no homes and I would watch the remodel of the Garden as the Homes are being placed in the Garden.. and as I come to my senses.. and I am both on the Knees Looking at the ground.. the man who knows Me brings His Son.. he was the Best Friend who was on the Floor.. on the ground talking about if He dies to bury HIM close to my Mother.. Now I am seeing his SON and I look at the SON.. and I lift UP my Head and I see you standing by the Fence and I would say.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. can YOU please give me your ears and I see YOU standing with the White Dress and the Big Crown on the top of your Head.. and YOU would point the Sword direct at me.. and I would watch YOU walk closer to ME and stops next to me.. I would lift UP my Head looking at YOU.. DO you remember the Garden.. DO you remember this Man.. and I see you turn your Head looking at him.. and it seems like YOU don't know who he is and I would say.. he is the One who I was talking about.. the Day YOU came to the garden.. and I was crying.. I was asking YOU to save a Life of a Boy.. and YOU were sitting on the Horse and I was begging for Your Help.. pleading for a cause.. to help a dying Boy.. and It was when YOU brought the Royal Physicians.. two of them went over and picked HIM up.. do you remember that Day.. and I see you turn your Head looking at HIM and I see that YOU DO remember.. you would smile LOOKING at him.. Yes.. if the Royal Physicians did NOT show UP that Day.. I know that He would Not been alive this very day.. HE has remembered YOU ever since and TOLD ME.. One day HE is going to come to join the Nation where YOU stand.. NOW he is here with his SON.. and NOW we are reunited because of what YOU have done that day.. I was pleading.. begging and asking you to help me.. to Help Him and Now.. LOOK what has happened because of WHAT YOU have done that Day.. as I would hold his son around my Arms.. I want to teach this YOUNG boy how to fight for this Nation.. to raise UP the next YOUNG generations of these Boys to HELP forth.. to Push this Nation which YOU will rule.. for you to conqueror so that this NATION Of people would be so Strong for YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. it is because of Your Big Heart for the people you love.. the People are the reason to help this Nation to become stronger so that YOU can RULE as the True CONQUEROR.. and I would see YOU pointing your Sword at me and telling me to get UP.. so I would listen and I would get UP on two feet.. as I get UP.. I am hearing sounds of foot steps.. and I turn towards the Fence.. and a Messenger comes on the Horse.. and He has a scroll in his hand and He gets Out of the Horse and Runs towards YOU.. stops.. two knees on the floor.. head looks down arm forward with the Scroll in the Hand.. I see YOU turn looking at the Messenger.. and YOU take the Scroll.. and YOU would unfold and YOU would read the Scroll.. and I see something is wrong.. what is Wrong HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WHAT IS wrong and I see you hand me the Scroll and I would take a LOOK at the Scroll and I would read it.. The ENEMIES are COMING.. and Another War wants to break its way.. and I am looking at YOU.. and I would fall on two Knees.. and My Head looks down.. arm goes forward and I know that YOU want to do something and My hand grabs your Wrist.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I see you holding the King's Sword in your hand.. but I would pull on the Other Wrist.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. it is going to be more fierce then last TIME and NO.. I wish that YOU can hear the Heart of Mine.. I know that YOU are truly a fierce warrior and Would do anything to Fight and to protect for this Nation.. but YOU have to remember that this Time.. the Children has come into the training camp.. into the training Ground.. I just can't see YOU go out there.. last time My Heart wanted to fall down.. I saw YOU on the Horse and the enemies just got too Close to YOU.. I can't see something like this ever happening because YOU KNOW how much I love YOU.. and it was YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. who opened the Fences for the Children.. these little children has come Long ways from the Garden and they have come under your Care.. and Only YOU can protect these children because they have all come to YOU.. for the War.. I know that we have mighty Men and soldiers.. the warriors who will go Out there to fight for this Nation.. to protect and to defend because this is the reason WHY I was born to do this.. to Protect YOU.. to serve and to defend YOU.. for the Nation.. I am asking YOU to be there for the Children who has come a long ways.. they have come to YOU.. they have thought about you when they came here and they just arrived.. and I would Be holding unto your Wrist.. so Please only for this time.. can YOU please listen to my Plea.. to my Heart because I just can't fight out there when YOU are fighting with me.. I just can't focus.. and knowing How strong and fierce YOU are.. I see you turn your Head and looking down at me.. but I can tell that YOU will not listen.. and I would say.. CROWN PRINCESS.. leave the Battle for Us.. for the Men that YOU have raised UP.. YOU have plenty of men who can fight.. How about Me.. How about my Heart.. I just can't see you out there.. I have tried when YOU were out there last time.. but I just could Not.. I wanted the sword to drive Into my Heart when I saw YOU.. I wanted YOUR SWORD to pierce into

MAH MAH.. side.. they need Your hands to rest.. and I see YOU looking at them.. and I would turn to LOOK over.. I am hearing More foot steps.. and I see Six Horses.. and they are the Royal Princes.. the six Older Brothers has come.. on the Horses and I would see behind the seventh.. and ALL seven men would get out of the Horses.. and as I would watch the six Princes.. they would fall on two knees.. and they have brought their swords and I just can't believe.. the seventh person is the Older man.. the Teacher.. the master who taught me with his armor who came to serve in the military Arts.. I just can't believe.. and More Military Generals are behind the Horses of the Princes.. and ALL on the two knees Heads looking down.. arms out forward saluting to Your Authority as the One true Ruler.. and I am holding Your Wrist.. this is why I am asking YOU to please stay Behind.. YOU have men.. powerful strong Men who is going to Fight for this Nation.. the Little Children needs YOU too with their families.. because of what YOU have done in the past at the Garden.. YOU are able to see them grow UP becoming parents NOW and with children.. they have all come to support this Nation.. so Please help for the Next UP coming.. we.. CROWN PRINCESS needs you to be here with the families and the Little Children.. YOU are the Only ONE that needs to stay to preserve the next and to RULE for them too.. and I would watch ALL the voices shouting Out.. CROWN PRINCESS.. Please stay and protect the Families and the Little Children and I would watch YOU.. your sword is pointing to the War Ground and I just can't believe it that YOU want to fight in the war.. WHY HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. WHY.. and my Heart breaks because YOU would not listen to the voices of Your Men.. YOUR PEOPLE.. we shout Out loud More.. Please stay with children.. I would watch One boy picking UP a stick and he shouts Fight.. I am looking Across.. Standing by the Gates.. with the three Friends.. as the Back of the Palace Guards.. I am looking at YOU.. and so many people has gathered.. ALL of the TOP Generals.. the Commanders.. the Head servant.. maids.. even the Highest Kitchen Lady.. and ALL of the Special Body Guards.. the servants and I can hear a Great Celebration.. on the Outer Court.. I am watching YOU.. looking through the gate Bars.. I am wondering.. what is going to Happen after this.. WILL I able to still love YOU.. Look at the place I am standing.. and my three friends who are standing next to me sees Me.. I am sad.. My Heart is broken because NOW.. it is so Hard to Love YOU.. of Course I should be the One who should be the Most happiest to support YOU.. I know that it was ME who told YOU to leave.. to GO.. to go back to the Palace because It is the King.. PEH HA is calling.. He wanted to show YOU and give YOU something.. I was so Happy to hear this News.. that something Great was going to Happen.. and I am now Sad.. NOT sad in a Bad way.. I am just so sad because of this Distance.. I want to come Close.. I want to be near YOU.. able to hold Your Hands.. able to be close and to tell YOU at least I miss YOU.. or say I love YOU.. YOU don't have to accept the Words but.. If I were able to get closer to YOU.. at least YOU are able to feel the energy.. able to see me Smile.. but.. NOW.. I feel like only looking at the MOON can be more closer than for me to LOOK at YOU.. I am looking through the Bar Gate.. as I am watching the People.. the Most important People.. even the Prime Minister has come.. also the Queen.. the People all lowers and falls to the Floor.. QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. people all shouts on the floor.. lowering as she walks.. YOUR Mother has come and Me with the three friends all hit the Floor.. even though she can't see us.. knowing that the QUEEN has COME.. there is a Throne Seat.. in the Middle.. but a stage which YOU are on.. and Now the Messenger Shouts Out.. PEH HA!! the King is Coming.. the KING has come.. PEH HA! and all the people shouts Loud.. PEH HA! and me with the three friends shouts together PEH HA! and the King says for the attendants.. all rise UP and every one stands UP on the two feet.. so me and the three Friends all get UP.. the King is on the Outer Court.. and there is stairs.. He looks at YOU.. HE is with tears in his Eyes looking at YOU.. and there is a Big Crown.. and as the King steps UP He tells YOU to sit on the Throne.. and I look.. It can't be.. and He places a Crown ON the TOP of Your Head.. and He looks at YOU.. kisses Your Hand and says.. Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. SOON to Lead.. SOON to take over the Place.. and everyone Falls ON to the Floor.. lowers all.. and Says CROWN PRINCESS.. I am On the Floor.. with the three Friends.. HWANGTAEJABI.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. and every one shouts.. YOU sit there very shock.. but We all knew that IN time YOU will become the TOP RULER for the Nation.. People cheers and shouts Out.. WANGSEJABI.. CROWN PRINCESS.. we honor YOU.. the Commanders comes and they take a Bow to YOU.. kneeling and lower the Heads.. to the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Crown Princess.. and Each Man comes to kiss your hand.. few Commanders.. the TOP 1st Chief Generals line UP.. to the 2nd In command of Chief Generals.. to the 3rd in command of Chief Generals.. and the Lower top generals and I am watching.. this is the Most biggest celebration.. very close of becoming the Ruler.. and I am falling looking on the floor.. What am I suppose to DO.. One side of my Heart.. I am truly joyful.. and I am so Happy for YOU.. I knew in time YOU would become the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I would feel so happy that Now you are going to be taking over.. even though there is NO crown Prince.. but YOUR FATHER.. PEH HA made that calling.. Knowing that YOU are ready.. I am looking at the King and the Queen.. both lower themselves before YOU.. I am in shock.. It is PEH HA and HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and they made this Happen.. Now.. On the Other side.. I am watching all of these Most important people who works for the King.. they are all going over kissing Your hand.. I see a long Line and I would be on this Position till the Sun Goes Down.. and I see YOU still sitting on that Throne with the Crown TOP of your Head.. as I am hearing foot steps.. and it stops by the gate door bar.. I know someone is coming.. Is it my turn to kiss Your Hand.. If I kiss your hand.. I know that I can't love YOU any more.. what about me.. What about my Heart.. WILL you still let me Love YOU even after I kiss YOUR HAND.. I want to know.. will you let me still come close.. because I told YOU that I did not want to Come.. I knew that THIS would happen.. I told you before.. when We were back at the garden.. up on the Hill side by the tree.. I told YOU to let me stay Alone.. that I did Not want to go with YOU.. that I told my friends to take YOU instead.. because I knew that this is going to happen to Me.. WHY are you making my Heart to Bleed.. WHY don't you just give me a sharp blade knife and cut UP my stomach instead.. it be better if I just die like this.. I told YOU that YOU SHOULD go alone.. and I know that YOU wanted me to see YOU and to join in the celebration.. Yes.. it is the Best day I see.. it is the greatest day I am feeling at One side.. that Now.. YOU are the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH.. but the next thing I want to know.. what am I suppose to do with my Heart.. I have been loving you for so Long.. I mean it has been such a very long time.. and I began to think.. if it is all about MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI.. the Crown Princess.. YOU becoming the Next Ruler.. I told you that I did not want to come because the Distance is going to push me far away from YOU.. that is why leaving me behind would been a great idea because my eyes seeing YOU Close is good but bad when I can't ever come close to YOU.. DO YOU KNOW how much I love YOU.. DO you know that I love you so much that I did decide to join.. decided to see this Celebration.. NOW My heart is breaking inside because I know there will be Distance between US.. but able to see YOU close.. but loving YOU far hurts me far more than FOR me being at the Garden.. on the TOP of the HILL side by the tree been better because at least I don't have to see YOU.. it is the same feeling because of the distance.. it kills me more that I can't love YOU.. it kills me even more that I want to love YOU.. but How.. HOW can I love YOU when YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. Please tell me How.. I hear the Bar Gates Opening.. and the Messenger is standing there.. telling me to get UP.. and the four of Us all get up.. the Crown Princess is calling is what the Messenger is telling.. the three of the friends started to walk forward.. But I stop.. I am not going to walk over.. I can't kiss YOUR HAND if I can't love YOU.. I rather NOT go and just turn the Other way.. the Messenger stops and turns to look at me.. the Crown Princess is waiting.. HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH is waiting for YOU.. but I would not make any move.. I can't go.. I don't want to walk over and kiss Your hand.. and If my Heart cannot love you any more.. Just please END my life here.. I rather DIE.. and the Special Body Guards walks over.. One pulls out the Sword to my Neck.. and He wants to strike me on the Neck with the Blade of the sword.. and I hear the voice.. the sword be place down.. I turn to look over.. as I look over.. the Important people all lowers and goes to the Floor as YOU stand UP from the Throne and YOU are looking at me.. I see the Big Crown placed.. and I am waiting for YOU to End my Life.. I know that I can't kiss Your Hand

MAH MAH.. But IF it ends this Way.. and YOU are forcing me to Kiss Your Hand so that I can't love you any more.. I am telling YOU now I will not.. I will Not kiss YOUR HAND.. so Please.. Let me GO back to the place where I belong.. Maybe I don't belong here any more because NOW.. I have reached a Point.. I can die.. If I can't love YOU.. Please let me go to see my Family.. I can meet them on the Other side.. since I know now I can't love YOU.. and My tears begins to roll down.. YOU know that I am badly hurt right Now.. YOU know that It hurts if I can't love YOU.. it hurts even missing YOU but to stand here for the rest of My life.. just to look at YOU but can't never love YOU.. I can't.. WHY did you even bring me to this Place if YOU knew it was going to end UP like this.. If you would of told me if YOU Knew this was to happen.. I would of chosen to Be at the Garden.. be close to the Buried family members.. I am not trying to start anything.. Not a war.. Not trying to bring any kind of Trouble.. but just telling YOU.. letting YOU know that I should of never come.. YES.. I do love that YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. I am truly happy for YOU.. that YOU are going to be ruling soon.. I already told YOU it was going to happen., of course never thought this SOON though.. BUT it has happened.. If I walk over.. and YOU give me YOUR HAND.. and I kiss that Hand.. that means I can't ever love YOU.. I will not kiss YOUR hand if I just can't.. I rather turn My Head and look up to the Sky and LOOK at the MOON and just talk to that Moon thinking about YOU.. I have been asking the MOON like he be a friend and sharing.. How much I love YOU and how much I been praying to meet YOU and always wishing that I can meet YOU SOON.. that part it has come true.. but I started to fall for YOU.. maybe because It Hurts so Much I started to love YOU.. maybe it was because missing YOU TOO MUCH I started to Love YOU.. but just thinking about YOU.. it made My Heart to Fall in Love with YOU.. because YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. knowing that this was going to happen.. because of THIS.. because YOU are HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH.. knowing YOU are the Best.. the greatest is why I loved YOU.. ever since I was a young Boy.. I knew that YOU were going to be someone very special.. and NOW I see.. my eyes are seeing.. that because YOU are.. that is why I rather just love YOU and Not kiss YOUR HAND..I am looking at the 2nd Line Top General.. and I am holding the sword.. and I would run and I jump into the Air with the Sword in my hand and swing Forward.. the Blades hit each other.. as he would swing the Sword back at me.. I land on the ground.. and I turn to Look back.. and I would jump back Kick and I would swing the Sword in my hand.. the Blades Hit each Other.. he does a front Kick and Hits my chest.. and I fall on the ground.. as I see my Sword next to me.. the Seven Friends of mine are in the back.. they would all Pull out the swords to Fight.. but I would grab the sword and raising UP the right Arm.. the swords goes back into the sheath and as I turn to LOOK at YOU behind.. YOU.. the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. who are standing along side with the Seven friends of Mine.. I get UP slowly.. and the 2nd top Line general is standing with his Men.. the Generals and they are all smiling as I get UP slowly.. I have Lost before to this Man.. this Time.. I just can't Lose this Battle.. and I would grab the Sword.. and I would run UP and the 2nd rank General grabs his Sword and WE swing the Swords at each other.. Blades Hit and Hit.. I can hear the sound of the CLANG of the blade of the swords Hitting.. and I would go back as the 2nd rank General moves forward swinging the sword at me.. I would Counter block as the Blades Hit and I would duck and sweep the Leg and he falls to the ground.. the Seven Friends of Mine raises UP the Swords shouting.. and I jump into the Air with the Sword.. ready to Stab but I stop.. we are in the same Team.. How can we fight against each other.. the Seven Generals would all pull out their swords and they circle AROUND ME.. I see YOU walking forward.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. YOU pull out the Sword and YOU Point.. the Generals all put their Swords Down.. and I would Put the sword Down as well.. the 2nd Top rank General gets UP on the Floor.. and Puts the sword Down.. and He kneels.. and two Knees goes.. and I just can't believe this.. In front of the CROWN PRINCESS.. In front of the HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. we are fighting for Nothing.. for What and I would kneel.. two knees on the floor.. head looks down.. arm raise up forward.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. and I see you stop.. with the Big Crown on top of the Head.. wearing the white Dress and YOU would look at the 2nd Top rank General.. and His head Looks on the ground.. with the Seven Generals.. they all fall down before YOU.. two knees and raises UP the voices.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. We are so Sorry for this.. and the Seven friends of Mine.. they all fall before YOU.. two knees.. Heads all look on the ground.. arms raises UP forward.. saluting as the TOP Commander.. and I see you Pointing the sword at me.. and I would say.. We have a History.. of having a Bad Blood against.. I remember when I first came to the training Camp.. and the Guard would say to HIM when He was just a general.. that I learned from the Old Man.. the master.. which NO ONE believed Me.. of course NO ONE will believe me.. and HE wanted me to prove that I was really His student learning from a teacher.. so.. I do remember we fought on the training Ground.. I lost using the wooden stick sword.. and he was very good.. and when I was struck Down by the WOOD STICK.. HE saw me on the ground and I couldn't get back UP.. started to Laugh at me and spit at me.. telling me that I am a Liar.. I been holding this grudge for a Long time.. that I know that One day we will meet and today is the day.. of course I never thought I would put him to the floor.. but I knew.. if I can't Now.. I will never if I let him go.. but.. I saw Your Face.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I saw YOU standing by and In my Heart.. we are under the same Nation.. YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. and He is also a part of Your Solider.. How can I fight someone who is with YOU.. that is when I saw YOU.. I saw the Big Crown on the top of your Head and started to think.. these are YOUR MEN.. they all belong to YOU.. as the ruler for this Nation.. for this Country.. How can I dare to put a sword to HIS FACE when HE is also a HIGH ranking Officer.. and I realize How fool I have become because I know myself.. HOW Little I am and How Little I must Be.. because I am very small.. that is the Only way I got here today because I started so Small.. WHO am I.. and what am I doing.. and I see YOU looking at me.. I see you putting down the sword.. and I have tears in my eyes.. I do not want to hurt any one.. but if there is a war who is against YOU CROWN PRINCESS.. even though I want Peace and Harmony and Unity and Joy with LOVE.. if someone wants to mess with YOU and YOUR NATION.. your people.. I will fight if I have too.. I will never back DOWN on a fight when it comes to YOU WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. and your hands touch my hands.. and I just can't believe it.. YOU are the Crown Princess.. WHY would you hold my hands.. why would you touch my hands for.. and I am looking towards the Fence.. I just can't believe my eyes.. and I am looking at children.. Little Boys are walking.. holding hands with their Mothers and Fathers and they stop by the Fences.. and More People are coming as they are stopping by the Fences.. and I am looking.. and I recognize one of them.. there is a man.. and he is around my age.. and I do remember he was a friend growing UP in the garden.. are those people common people from the Garden.. and the Sons.. the Boys are holding little Sticks in their Hands and I see YOU.. the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. as YOU turn around to LOOK back at the Fences.. and people.. thousands of People who lived in the Garden comes and they all Lower.. face to the ground and they shout.. Please teach Our Sons to fight.. Please teach our daughters to COOK for the Palace.. and my Heart.. I would start to cry more and More.. tears are shedding down hard.. the Night YOU came.. you gave the People their freedom.. many people who were dirt poor had NO HOMES.. medical treatments.. and HOW you called the people from the ROYAL PALACE to go to the Garden.. and How you made the Place a New.. I believe some of the People thought about YOU MAH MAH.. and Now.. LOOK.. look at these People with children.. and Now.. they want to join and repay the debt they had because of you Crown Princess.. the Heart to Love even the MOST UNLOVED people in this world.. THEY just want to pay it back.. Just Like Me.. DO you see My Heart Now.. CROWN PRINCESS.. can you see the Heart that I have for this Nation.. for YOU and Your People.. and the Little Boys are raising UP the Sticks in the air wanting to be a part of the large gathering to Fight for the Nation.. the LITTLE BOYS can grow UP with a Future that Only YOU can give.. because NOW they have come.. LOOK at all those little Children.. they are standing by the Fences.. wanting to JOIN in the Military arts.. as YOU would turn to LOOK at them.. I would say.. this is why I started to Love YOU.. it was the Day when YOU came to the Garden.. People in the Garden had NO HOPES and NO DREAMS.. just POOR.. NO future.. where can the Most Lowest People go.. they do NOWHERE.. I do remember the Day

MAH MAH.. Nothing to Lose.. I have Nothing.. BUT YOU gave me a chance.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. it was just that ONE chance I truly needed from YOU.. I think back at the Garden.. walking Out of the gates.. I see you ON the Horse.. sitting on the Horse.. and these ROYAL People comes to the Garden.. many sick and dying.. people were so hungry and had nothing to Eat.. no Homes to live.. but YOU came.. rebuilding that Garden and giving People to dream.. I remember after I saw YOU.. and I was touched.. I wanted to give YOU the Flower.. in my hand was One flower that I had.. there was Nothing that I could of give YOU but just that One.. what can a Poor Boy living as homeless can give.. from my Mother's grave.. a Bed of Flower.. a SUN FLOWER was blooming.. I grabbed that and I wanted to say.. YOU are like this FLOWER to me.. as Bright as the SUN.. when you think of a FLOWER.. it just melts YOUR HEART.. it makes you smile as IT melts as you keep on looking at it.. as I saw that Flower.. I remember I ran.. and I saw YOU on the Horse.. and I gave it to YOU.. I did Not think that the CROWN PRINCESS would take a Flower from Me.. but I watched.. many people who were hungry and dying.. the sick.. and homeless people.. the Crown PRINCESS has the BIGGEST Heart.. YOU may not know it then but NOW.. LOOK at the Fences.. the People who came from the Garden are here and they want to JOIN with YOU.. LOOK WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS LOOK at those people by the Fences.. they just want to be a part of this Growing Nation of Yours to HELP YOU to fulfill your Dreams as the RULER for the Next.. the day I saw YOU On the Horse.. and YOU brought the Royal people from the palace to help the Poor people in the Garden.. and I gave YOU that SUN FLOWER was the day when I said to My Heart to YOU.. I love YOU.. that is when I made UP my Mind that I am going to go to that palace to be close to YOU.. to Love YOU from afar when YOU don't see it.. the Day when I saw YOU take the SUN FLOWER from my Hands.. I would unfold the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. I would tell the Drawing picture of YOU that I love YOU.. you may Not know How much I love YOU but I wanted to show YOU how much.. I think YOU will know this by Now because.. even the People from the Garden has come long ways just to tell YOU.. they have children to give to YOU.. to raise UP the Next Generations of for the Palace.. for the future generations to help you to Conqueror this Nation.. as I am watching YOU.. I see YOU looking at the people by the Fence.. I would raise UP the Sword.. and I would shout Out.. MANSAE!! to Crown Princess.. HOORAY TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Seven Friends of Mine picks up their Swords and raise it UP HIGH and Shouts Out.. MANSAE to CROWN PRINCESS.. now the 2nd top rank General Raises UP his Sword and shouts.. MANSAE to HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and the 7 generals raises UP their swords in the air and says.. HOORAY TO CROWN PRINCESS.. and I see you.. the Crown Princess turning to Look at the military soldiers.. and I would raise UP the Sword in my hand.. tears are just streaming down my face.. MANSAE to Crown PRINCESS.. and everyone.. even the People who came from the Garden all raises UP theirs arms crying in tears says.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to Crown Princess.. TO WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. and I see you holding UP the Sword in the Air.. and Everyone shouts Out Loud.. MANSAE to Crown Princess.. HOORAY to HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and My Heart.. It just can't stop beating.. it keeps on beating and beating as I would be Looking at YOU.. as YOU are standing by the Fences.. hands are touching YOU on the sides.. I see you Open the Fences.. and the people from the Garden.. they start to walk in.. Little Children.. boys and girls want to join in to be with YOU as their Crown Princess.. I am looking at YOU.. as YOU are coming closer.. I see you walking and YOU stop.. as I tell YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. Please do not come closer to Me.. I don't want to kiss YOUR hand.. I just can't.. because YOU know my Heart.. Please.. tell me rather to Leave the Palace.. stripe away my title.. and My Position.. I rather Live as a Slave Instead.. I don't deserve to Kiss Your Hand because I know My Heart.. I know How much I love YOU.. that is why I won't.. Please stop there and DO not come closer.. I rather walk away from the Outer Court.. and I would Hear.. the Queen is coming.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I see you turn the Other way.. the Queen in tears.. coming to Kiss Your Hand.. and I see her lips kiss.. putting YOU in charge of everything.. I would walk the ten Council of Noble Men walking and they all stop behind the Prime Minister of the Nation.. and I see the King.. who is on the Floor.. He is crying.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS of this Nation.. HWANG WOO.. QUEEN.. come to me.. and I see the Queen turn around and she walks to her Husband as She also falls on the Floor.. with tears.. and I am standing there.. each Council of Noble MAN.. walking forward.. each Man comes to Kiss Your Hand.. and I am standing there.. My Heart is truly Touched.. truly Moved.. and I am standing thinking.. WHY can't I kiss Your Hand.. is it because it is My Pride.. WHO am I to tell YOU this.. WHO am I as the Lowly servant.. I am only the Palace Guard.. How can I reject Your Hand.. but It is because I love YOU.. I know that I must kiss but I know if I do.. I become Your Subject.. as I would watch each person kissing Your Hand and they Bow and lower to the Knees.. and LOOKING at the Big Crown on top of Your Head.. now the three of my friends goes over.. and Each of them decides to Kiss Your hand.. I am now standing alone.. if I don't kiss YOUR hand.. I know that I must leave this Palace.. this Outer Courts.. so I would turn to face the Gates.. I know that I must leave.. I just can't stand here any longer.. I just can't kiss Your hand and just become NO ONE to YOU.. and as I behind to walk down by myself.. the Special Body Guard runs.. and He stops me.. putting the Sword in front.. and I turn around and I still see YOU.. YOU just standing there.. with the White Dress.. SO beautiful.. WHY are you stopping Me.. I told you already that YOU are going to be a Great Ruler for the Nation.. Everyone gets on their Knees before YOU.. the Prime Minister.. the Commanders.. Chief Generals.. Generals.. the foot soldiers.. the Ten Council of Noble men.. all the Maid and servant.. EUNCH.. the Highest Kitchen Lady.. the Doctors of the Palace.. all falls before YOU.. shouting Out.. Crown Princess.. MANSAE.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY and Tears are all falling.. saying the Next RULER coming UP and I would look at YOU.. my tears are flowing DOWN.. I am so Sad because HOW can I love YOU now.. LOOK at me.. I can't even do anything.. How can I love YOU now.. YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the CROWN PRINCESS of this Nation.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would fall on both knees and start too weep in Pain.. I am aching because LOOK at me.. WHO AM I to love a CROWN PRINCESS like YOU.. and I am looking at the Ground.. wailing and Weeping loud.. I know that I am wrong.. I know that I should of never started but NOW to turn back.. it is just too late to turn.. I have come long ways of loving YOU.. and I am looking UP at the MOON.. WHY.. WHY did I even come.. if I could of stayed behind.. then It would not hurt me this Much because the Loving YOU always hurt but Now.. it hurts more.. I don't want to lose YOU.. because I know that I love YOU.. as I am would stand UP.. and I look toward the Gate.. and I started to walk.. passing the Gates.. I know that I can't come back.. I will remain as a Slave.. and I started to walk.. but.. this Special Body Guard keeps on following Me.. and Puts his sword to STOP me to go.. and I would turn.. I see YOU walking.. and coming closer as I am stopped by the Gates.. I am wondering.. YOU have everything here.. WHY are you doing this to me.. the more you do this.. the More I will be hurting in inside.. YOU know that I am little.. with such no Power.. I have no strength but YOU have all the strong People around YOU.. who also decided to choose YOU to be the CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU have all the troops.. even the people all.. I would see the People.. common people.. they all fallen on the Floor.. and People.. the common people.. when they see YOU.. they would shout OUT with the loud VOICE.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and People are on the Floor.. on the knees looking at the ground.. and I am standing here.. SO touched.. winning the Hearts of many people.. in the Palace and Out with the Common people.. YOU have won as the Next and I know that YOU WILL DO great.. that is why Now.. YOU have no need for me to be here.. because YOU have taken the seat to RULE.. and I told YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I will not kiss Your hand.. if YOU are asking me to come.. and be your subject.. and wants me to kiss YOUR HAND.. that is why I rather leave.. I would live in the deep of the forest and into the mountains.. I will not be known to YOU anymore.. and I see YOU coming very closer.. and your hand touch my shoulder Blade.. and I hear the word Stay.. and I turn around to face YOU.. HOW can I stay with YOU

MAH MAH.. Have my own Voice.. my own words to say it and tell it.. as Long as I can love YOU far.. it be hard because I be missing YOU from far.. but at least I can let my Voice be heard to that MOON.. so that It knows my Heart how much I love YOU.. I don't want to be standing here.. very near to YOU unable to speak about or to express.. I just can't live like this.. that is why I rather choose Far.. away and to Say it then.. that is why I am making the decision right Now.. to walk away for love.. I rather be far and to say.. to express it and even it means to speak to that MOON.. I am going to let my VOICE be heard by something or someone.. if it is Not YOU.. I would hear YOU and YOU saying something to Stay.. and the Special Body Guard tells me.. it means I don't have to Kiss Your hand.. and I am shocked.. How can I stay if I don't kiss Your hand.. everyone else has kissed your hand.. But why would you not let Me because I know there are so many eyes looking at Me.. they are going to go against Me if I don't kiss Your hand.. but YOU are telling me to stay and Not to kiss that Hand.. even the King.. PEH HA.. also the Prime Minister.. TAE SA JAH.. and the Queen.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I just saw with my eyes.. they came to give you that respect and Honor to rule.. and has shown me by kissing YOUR HAND.. even the Biggest people.. the Most important People has chosen to Kiss and has become your Subjects.. So I would fall on both knees before YOU and My Head looks on the floor.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I can't go inside because I am breaking the rules of this tradition.. How can YOU tell me to go and the rule is that only by kissing your Hand.. I am admitting it with highly regard and with honor and respect that YOU can rule over Me as Your Subject.. and ALL of the powerful people in that house.. they have come to YOU for you to RULE over them.. but YOU are letting me to slide.. I can't just slide.. I needs to be punish by the Law and needs to be punished severely.. I can't go inside if I do not take this Part of and I see the Three of my Friends coming and they have stopped behind YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the King.. PEH HA.. the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. they are asking for YOU.. a Banquet is going to be thrown inside.. they have send us to ask for YOU to come.. and I am Looking on the ground.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Please go inside.. Your Parents are waiting for YOU and asking for Your presence.. I know that I cannot go inside like this.. and I see YOU.. your hand touches.. telling me to stay.. But.. I know that I must go.. and I would see you turn Your Head.. looking at my three friends and telling them to Go with me.. and I hear YOU say.. come back after.. it is a command YOU gave me.. and I am touched.. WHY would you do this.. WHY do you keep on doing this to Me.. I know that I don't deserve to be treated like THIS.. Punish me severely.. for Making YOU feel because I know that I don't deserve You.. YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I am as low as a servant.. How can YOU treat me if I am from the Most lowest Clan.. the Lowest of all.. I am a son of a servant.. I am still a servant even though I am now a palace Guard.. still at the lowest.. I just can't believe it.. either I should be banned or exile.. I should of been striped and placed in prison.. But WHY are you being so Kind to Me.. WHY are you so Kind when I should be demoted and also lived in the Mountains.. in the caves as servant.. and I see YOU walking and I only see your White Dress as YOU are going inside.. celebrating and having a big feast of Banquet.. I am still on the Floor.. How is it possible for me to still be breathing.. and I would hear the three friends.. and They would help me to get UP on the floor.. and I know that I can go alone.. I want my friends to stay and I will go alone.. never to come back.. but.. they would keep on walking with me.. and together we keep on walking.. I am standing in the training camp.. and I see you coming over from the Fence.. the Big Crown on the Top of your Head.. and the White Dress.. as I see you walk alone.. YOU take my breathe away.. and I can feel my Heart beating so fast.. and as YOU come to meet me in the Center of the training camp.. the New Recruits.. over 200 men are standing by.. as YOU stop.. in my hands is the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. and I am standing looking at YOU as I am looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. I do not need this any more.. but Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU have to always remember that when you were Never around.. this was the Only THING that Held my Heart because whenever I missed YOU.. this was the Only thing that helped me through the way.. When I was left alone for a Long time.. this was the Only thing.. it may Not be anything special to YOU.. It may not be any of the importance to YOU.. YOU may just look at it as a paper.. that someone drew long ago.. and it may only seems like the past piece of Art.. but to Me.. it has many memories of loving YOU.. many Memories of Looking UP at the Moon.. standing Alone in the Nights.. there was SUN.. but also there was the MOON.. there was a time when Winter came by and it be very cold outside.. when times I saw the falling of the rain.. when I lost my Father.. and I felt my Heart broke all the way.. when I could Not see YOU and even the BOY who drew this Picture.. How he had to sneak into the Palace gates and How from the Far he drew YOU.. who got caught and arrested.. He was beaten and Put to death.. telling me that this is for me and knowing that HE wishes that My Dreams came true and that ALL this did Not mean Nothing to Me as he died by the Sword.. Even the Older MAN.. who was the teacher in my Life saw this Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU who knew WHO you are.. but told me to GO.. and to Protect YOU and to defend the Nation which it belongs to YOU and this Art Sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU was the main reason WHY I could go On.. when I was at the Garden.. and I saw YOU there for the first TIME.. I wanted that Boy to draw.. of course I knew it be just too late to call HIM.. when I saw YOU by the gates of the Garden and I walked Out and saw YOU.. I wanted to ask YOU.. Can you Please draw another or Give me another Picture from the Art Sketch.. but.. when YOU left.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. the Day you left the Garden is when I knew the Only thing I had was this.. and my arms would lift as my hands are Holding the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. it was only this I had because I knew.. I was Not sure if I could ever see YOU again.. when I would see YOU again was my thoughts.. going UP the Hill and standing by the tree below was the Garden and Across I would see the palace.. and Knowing that is the Place where YOU at.. I wanted to Go.. I wanted to be close to YOU.. but what if I am NOT ALLOWED to get in and be put into the Prison instead.. But.. I made UP my mind.. I can die tomorrow and I will say I love YOU.. I can die the few days Later.. as Long there is still a Breathe IN me.. I know I can still Believe in Loving YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. and I do remember leaving the Garden after I made UP my Mind.. in the Snow walking and knowing How cold it was.. and knowing I could die A lot sooner.. I felt the Last Push of my body as I kept on walking through the SNOW.. I was thinking of YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I am not sure How much More I have in Me.. But I will still try to go to YOU and I kept on walking in the Snow and I felt my body.. it could NOT go no more and I fell down in the Snow.. I kept on thinking of YOU until the last breathe saying I am so sorry I might Not make It.. As I was on the Guard.. watching the Post at Night.. and How I became the Palace guard guarding the back gates.. I do remember pulling the Art sketch paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. and LOOKING.. I been needing to LOOK.. thinking of YOU.. saying to this Art sketch paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. YOU may not hear my voice be telling YOU but I say it as I look at YOU.. that I love YOU.. do you know How much I love YOU and I would hold the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture close to my Heart.. to my Chest.. I wish that I be holding YOU instead but.. it be this paper instead.. someone telling me that Behind me is the Chamber of Your ROOM.. and I remember I turn back to LOOK.. I saw YOU.. looking Out from the patio of the Chamber of Your ROOM.. the MOON was Out.. I would LOOK UP at.. I would say MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. can YOU see me.. I am here and it has been such a Long time coming.. and Now.. I know that I do Not need this Piece of Paper.. the Art Sketch paper any more.. I want to see YOU take this from Me.. Now I am here close to YOU.. I told the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. Once I meet YOU.. I can Now send it away and give it to YOU because it belongs to YOU.. it has come to the right Person WHO I love the Most.. so Please take this from Me because I am giving YOU my Heart.. My Heart is in it because it is YOU who I never forgotten.. and I see YOU LOOKING at me.. as I am on two Knees.. My Head is Looking on the floor.. my arms raise with the Paper.. the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. Please take this From me because I don't need it any more.. why do I need it when I see YOU here.. there is NO POINT for me to have because it is YOU.. I see your hands take the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. and my tears.. it starts to flow Out of both eyes of me

I am looking at this Book.. and I would close the Book.. looking at your Picture.. It has been so hard finishing the Pages of this Big Book but.. I just wanted to let you know.. I wanted it to be done because we made a Promise.. the promise which I must keep on my part.. when I try to do something and if it is going to be something that I know in my Heart I just can't keep.. I will not do it at all because I don't want YOU to see me as a failure.. some one who cannot finish or cannot keep the Word.. that is why it is something that has to be Special.. it must be an Unique experience because I believe it is so Hard to keep a Word or to Keep a Promise.. it has gotten harder over the Years but when I think of YOU.. I know that IN MY Heart.. I must have YOU.. I must win your Heart and make you Mine forever.. to say to YOU.. to tell YOU to come closer and I would ask for Your Ear.. can you please lend me your Time and Lend me your Ear.. I must say few words so that YOU can hear my Heart.. and I will say to YOU when I see you Close.. when I see your ear approach me.. I will say.. My Heart is crying.. Not just crying but heart is dying for Your love.. dying just to say I love YOU.. and I been looking at your Picture.. sitting by the desk.. LOOKING at the Pages of this Big Book.. I would be thinking.. should I not read at ALL.. but when I think of the first time I saw YOU.. and just to get closer.. I must do my Part and that is to read.. as I would Pull the Note Book before me.. reading part.. flipping through many pages.. and trying to sit and focus.. concentrate on the Words on the Pages of telling Me.. but next is the Picture of YOU.. and I would stop.. thinking the Focus is gone.. can't concentrate when I be looking at the Picture of YOU.. because YOU are so beautiful to Me.. I would flip back few pages to re read.. and yes.. the Time flies very fast when YOU start to day dream.. holding your Hand.. and Pulling you close in my arms and LOOKING at YOU.. looking at your ear.. if I can speak.. if I am able to tell YOU the way my Heart feels about YOU.. I would say.. Please.. let me explain this Heart of Mine.. Please let me speak so that I can tell YOU.. and I would say.. ALL day.. when I did Not see YOU.. I started to miss YOU.. wondering when I can come close to YOU.. will you let me come close.. Please let me by your side.. because I need to be with YOU.. why.. because I miss YOU and I love YOU.. and I would look down.. looking at the Pages.. trying to write the summary of this BOOK.. trying to write more than a sentence.. the More I try to read this Big Book.. the More I want to see Your Picture.. but.. it took me back and forth of fighting myself that I would say.. I have made a promise to YOU.. and that is the End of the Line.. I told YOU and yes.. we made the agreement that If I finish this BIG BOOK and write the summary on the paper for this BOOK.. you will let me in the BOOK CLUB.. it was yesterday.. when I went to the Library to see YOU.. and I would be waiting in a Long Line.. feels like YOU are a famous Arthur.. because I have never seen so many People waiting in the Line.. and with a BOOK in one hand and the Paper on the Other hand waiting to be the Next.. to Join the Book Club.. I was excited when I saw People sitting down and there were many Cuts in between.. feels like an Audition to make a Movie.. and YOU are like the director who be looking for Actors and Actresses.. but I knew that I spend Many Hours.. re reading this Book.. going back and Forth.. writing on the Pieces of papers.. scribble this and Scribble that.. papers be rolled and thrown into the trash Can because I just could not Write well.. but as I let go of your Picture for few Hours.. opened the drawer and Put your Picture into it and closed the Door.. felt like an addiction.. wanted to open that drawer.. struggling to LOOK at your Picture but I told YOU.. I must finish this BIG BOOK first and then I can look at your Picture as Much time as I want.. so I had to focus and started to write the summary.. it felt so GOOD to finish Both the reading of the BIG BOOK and also the writing on the Note Book summary of the Book and taking it to YOU.. I would smile.. when the BIG BOOK hit the Final Page and I would close the BIG BOOK.. I smiled and said.. It is DONE.. I have kept my Word to YOU.. I have kept my promise to YOU and after writing on the Pages of the Note BOOK about the story what It means to me.. I just had to share what is real from my Heart.. not to act like I know but just be real with myself to YOU.. telling YOU my Thoughts about the story on this BIG BOOK.. as I would enter the Library.. and I am watching the Lines of People going down.. and I would see many people would fail trying.. I saw many stormed Off the Library and angry is what I saw in most people's faces.. as I would get closer and closer to the table and I would see YOU there sitting with Your Friend.. there were more guys in the Line than ladies so I guess the Intentions or the Motives must be Like Mine.. who wants to be Just Close to YOU.. as I would be the Next in the line.. and I would sit on the chair of the table.. and I look at YOU.. who is sitting across from me.. and YOU are looking at me.. probably thinking that I am just like All of these Other guys who came for the wrong reasons.. and who did Not keep his Word or His Part of the Deal means the Promise.. but.. It was such a great struggle on my part.. when I saw YOUR Picture inside the Big BOOK.. it was distracting me A lot because of Your Beauty.. How can someone who is so Beautiful Like YOU loves to be in a BOOK CLUB.. I am Not say all the Beautiful ladies are the same.. but it seems like YOU are so Different because YOU are so Beautiful.. I remember when I first Walked into the Library.. and I saw YOU walking.. holding BOOKS in your Arms and I just had to get Close to YOU.. I slip and tripped and it got to YOU.. the BOOKS fell on the Floor and I fell alone with YOU inside this Library.. I know that I just can't tell YOU any words Yet because YOU are not going to Like me at first.. and that is why when I heard of YOU telling me about this BOOK CLUB.. I must join into this Club to be part and that is the Only way to get close to YOU.. I would push the BIG BOOK towards your direction and told YOU.. I have read the Whole Book.. the pages are so long.. but I still had to do what I told I was going to do.. that is to keep my Word.. to Keep my promises I made to YOU.. and Do you remember that I called you on the Phone and You Picked UP.. I had to delay because I knew that the time line for me was just too short to finish in on time.. and YOU also told me.. that YOU wanted me to write YOU a Summary on the Pieces of papers of this Story that I read in this BIG BOOK.. and I would put few papers down and I would Push with my hand towards YOU.. and YOU looked at me.. and I guess you thought that I was not that serious type.. I am very serious when it is very Important for me to do.. when I want to so something and made the choice and made the decision to do something.. I will do it no matter of the Cost.. How hard or difficult it is to finish.. I just don't try but I go all in if it is YOU.. if you are very Important in my Life.. I can also make the changes for YOU TO know my Heart.. I see you grabbing the pieces of papers.. and YOU would start to read what I wrote on the Pieces of papers.. and YOU would pass the Pieces of papers to your Friend who is sitting next to YOU.. and I would take the Picture of YOU and Place it on the TOP of the table.. and I would say.. I would look at this Picture.. your Smile.. and How beautiful YOU truly are really amazes Me.. I had to struggle looking at your Picture.. if felt Like I was getting More drunk the More I saw your Picture.. I even opened the Drawer and placed YOUR picture inside in and closed for few Hours.. I was shaking in my hands.. wanting to Open the drawer and to take your Picture Out of the drawer and to have a Peek.. the truth is that More I see your Picture.. the More I would forget the story I was reading in the Pages of the BOOK.. I would grab the Drawer and I would try to pull the Open so that I can look at your Picture.. but I knew that there was something far more Important for me to do at that point and it was to keep my Promises I made to YOU so I would start to look at the Pages of the BOOK and kept on reading.. reading more and More reading as the pages would be read and I would flip the page to the Next.. I would be thinking about YOU.. thinking about the Meeting and How this is Much more Important to me than just LOOKING at the Picture of YOU.. and I would see you turn YOUR Head looking at your Friend.. and I see her smile.. and YOU turn to LOOK at me.. I see your hand out.. telling me that I can join in the Book Club.. and I thought this was a Joke.. I never been in any Kind of Club before.. but when YOU gave me YOUR hand Out.. I knew that this mean it is true.. I put my hand out to shake YOUR HAND.. and I could not believe It.. I get to be close to you.. it does Not matter what YOU think of me at first because I believe it starts with the first small step.. I stood in the Line.. and I saw many men sitting on this Chair and they were rejected.. and I saw men getting UP with such anger and they just walked Out.. and could NOT join in this Club.. as I am in the ROOM thinking about what happened yesterday.. because YOU gave me another BOOK.. but this BOOK is Not that Big.. and How you told me that YOU really enjoyed and Loved reading this Book because of the Story. as I am looking at your Picture.. I am missing YOU now.. I am missing you so bad right Now.. because Yesterday.. I never felt so happy in my Life.. when I saw YOU looking at me.. to able to show YOU something but to see you giving me a Smile.. Just that One glimpse of Smile is all I needed

Of your most favorite BOOKS.. that YOU read many times.. and over and over you would keep on reading It.. what happens when I start to love this BOOK you Love.. will you let me keep this BOOK.. If I can connect to Your Soul and to connect what it means to relate as a reader just Like YOU.. I wonder will a day will come when YOU can really Love me too.. that I am waiting for that Day where YOU can say to Me.. that YOU Love me.. as much as I love YOU.. you also can say to me that YOU love Me.. I am waiting for that Day.. that One day.. the Some day that can come soon.. as I am putting the new BOOK on the TOP of the desk.. I would open the cover of the BOOK.. I see another Picture.. a new Picture of YOU.. I am wondering what does all this means.. so that I can Miss YOU and that I can love you.. if I do.. is it right for me to tell YOU that I miss YOU and that I really really love YOU.. Please.. tell your heart to be open for Me so that I am able to tell you all these things to YOU.. I been reading few of the Pages the Book you gave Me.. Pulling out the Piece of Paper.. I am trying to write the Summary of what the Book is telling me.. of course if YOU are asking me do I enjoy reading this BOOK.. I would tell YOU.. the BOOK has just too many pages to read.. and I would flip through the pages because some of the things that is Telling me is truly boring to read.. it is Like.. why do I needs to know about this Information.. this Historical portion and I would be scratching my Head.. wants to yank my hairs Out because I would Yawn and tries to GO back to the Pages.. If I don't understand It.. I would re read it over and over so that I can tell YOU what I think of this Book.. when I take a Pause.. it is YOUR picture.. I would put your Picture next to the Book and I would take a LOOK at YOU.. I would smile and ask.. why is My Heart be burning.. It keeps ON burning whenever I look at YOU.. I feel like this Burning deep inside seems like it never stops ON ME.. DO you think that this is what I call Love.. what do you think about this Heart of Mine when It keeps On burning inside of me.. it is when My eyes takes off the Pages of this BIG BOOK and I turn to LOOK at your Picture.. I rather LOOK at this Picture for Hours and even with the Hours goes By.. I don't think I would ever get tired of LOOKING at YOU just like when I write to YOU.. I never get tired of telling YOU.. Letting YOU know How much I still Love YOU.. I can tell YOU millions of times and I would say.. Let me see your ears please.. can I step a little closer to YOU.. if My Voice can be Loud.. I can lower my voice and even whisper.. Just to tell YOU.. that I miss YOU.. Have been missing YOU for a Long time.. but.. Just wanted to tell YOU.. I love YOU.. I can stand Out.. go Out side and even Yell looking at the MOON who is looking.. showing the Face.. My Face and turn to the MOON.. with YOUR NAME.. I can say it Out loud.. I love YOU.. I don't want the MOON think that I am telling It.. that is WHY.. or Not the angels be confused or the neighbors around.. But with YOUR NAME say it and say to YOU I LOVE YOU.. but WOULD you let me be Close.. would you let me come closer to YOU.. would YOU open your Heart and Open your ears to listen.. would you receive the Words I want to tell YOU.. can I tell it to YOUR HEART that I love YOU.. as I am sitting on the chair by the desk.. with the BIG BOOK in front of me.. the BOOK is opened Now with the pages on right and left.. with Letters written as I would try to read the page.. going from chapter to the Next.. looking at the Numbers as I am flipping through the pages of this BOOK.. I would read and Pause.. my eyes would turn to LOOK next to this BOOK is your Picture.. I can't hide your Picture away.. I need your Picture with Me so that It reminds me who I love.. that I be loving YOU for reals.. can I take a Look at your Picture Please.. and it is YOU who left this One picture inside.. I remember before I started to read the Pages of this BOOK.. I called your Number.. and I even told YOU that I have found a Picture of YOU.. of course I would hear a Long Pause on the other side before you would say something about It.. I know that YOU did Not put the Picture here for me.. but when I saw the Picture.. It just helps me with the Pains I am suffering right Now.. I know that We are suppose to meet about a Week for Now.. but It seems like it is taking for ever.. time is ticking so Slow even though I am so Busy trying to Finish this Whole book.. and NO.. I am Not a good reader either.. that is why I had to ask for a delay for two weeks.. as I would try to go back to the Pages.. to read the pages.. it is not that easy for me.. too many difficult words would come around.. I have to pull out the dictionary to find and to understand the meaning of this Word.. and trying to read the sentence to go back to understand what it is telling Me.. I been going through Hardship of looking at the second Book.. which is the dictionary.. I remember you told me.. after I am finished reading the Whole book.. YOU be asking me to write to YOU a Summary of the book.. I have been sitting here.. with this One Piece of Paper in front.. trying to write something.. I am tempted to write about something else instead.. I am trying to think about this Story of this BOOK.. but My mind.. my eyes would LOOK at the Picture instead.. I would look on the ground.. there are few papers that has been rolled into balls.. because I started to write to YOU a Letter from my Heart.. and instead of trying to share about this BOOK.. My Mind and Heart takes me somewhere what My Heart wants to tell YOU.. if you are asking me.. what did I write that I had to roll into balls instead.. Maybe I should write TWO instead.. One that is from me to YOU and the other from the story of this BOOK.. the Summary you wanted to see.. when I would look at the Balls rolled UP from the Pieces of paper.. I would write.. I been missing YOU.. I wish that I can go to the Library.. if I go to that Library.. will I see you there.. would you be at the table the last time I saw YOU at.. but I don't want to show UP like I am spying on YOU because I am Not.. I am showing UP because My Heart misses YOU and I want to see YOU more.. of course.. I decided Not to GO.. but Last Night.. I do remember.. My Heart.. I started to miss YOU.. looking at your Picture.. It would stop me from reading more Pages of this BOOK.. I had to put the BOOK down because I would be missing YOU.. and I was struggling.. and I knew last night.. that was the day I saw you like two weeks Back.. and I would grab the keys.. and I knew.. should I go to the Library.. I know that If I do go.. maybe there is a better chance I will see YOU there.. so I took the keys.. and I went into the car.. and I started the Car to drive But.. I knew.. I should Not.. I am going to be making the mistake of showing UP just too early.. I don't even have the paper of the summary for this BOOK and NO.. I did Not finish the BOOK yet.. so I had to pause and think before.. so I did Not drive the Car.. I came Out of the car and stood Out side.. and I would LOOK UP at the sky.. LOOKING Above me is the MOON.. as I am looking at the MOON.. I would Open my Heart and Open my Mouth LOOKING at the Moon.. I would say.. what am I doing.. I know that I made a Promise to YOU.. and YOU gave me two weeks.. even though YOU wanted to Meet sooner.. I know that if I showed UP.. and I am Not ready to show you the presentation.. and If you were to ask me about the BOOK.. and If you say.. did I finish the BOOK.. and I am sure you would say.. why ask for two weeks if I am able to share Now and makes me a Liar.. I don't want YOU to see me as that Kind of a Person when ALL I wanted to say is that I missed YOU.. I been missing YOU for a while Now.. and why can't I just show UP just to tell YOU that I miss YOU.. but.. would Your Heart be opened to receive.. will your Ears be opened to hear the Words I need to say.. But I know that My Heart truly needs to tell YOU.. that I really Love YOU.. YOU may Not believe me.. or the Words Yet.. YOU may think that I am Not being serious about the situation or about My Heart to YOU.. but.. YOU do not have to believe anything Yet.. because I know that In time everything can change that.. there will be a TIME when YOU WILL Finally understand and able to receive when the TIME is right.. that is why I am Not asking it for today.. I am Not asking it for Now.. but I believe.. there will be a TIME you will know the truth.. that the TRUTH will do Its work and will set it Free.. Set me free because I am Not lying.. just sharing just the way it is and has been in my Heart.. that I love YOU.. what More words can I say to YOU that I been loving YOU.. and I would Be looking UP at the MOON.. just pouring from My Heart and speaking.. of course YOU are Not there to listen is the Problem.. that YOU are not there to hear these words of Mine.. that YOU just don't know yet how much I love YOU.. and as I would be sitting on this Chair by the desk in my room.. I am just looking back.. thinking back of what has taken its place.. and I am looking at the Picture.. Your Picture that is Next to this Big Book.. I wish that YOU could see me like this.. only if YOU are able to see me Now.. how can I get YOU to know that I been thinking of YOU.. that I am doing my Part.. that I am reading through these pages.. which It was not my choice.. if I go back where I saw YOU at the Library.. I would of chosen a Different Book.. and something much more Smaller with Pages.. and I would show YOU.. can I read this One instead.. and I can write YOU the Summary on piece of paper and tell you about the story I read of this book.. but.. it was Out of Nowhere.. sitting on the table.. across from YOU.. with a Smile.. YOU would push this BIG BOOK.. I wanted to be your Friend.. a reading club.. and it took me by a

LOOKING on the side.. next and wants to skip looking at the pages instead.. I enjoy and Love looking at your Picture.. I feel bubbly inside and sometimes my eyes wants to cry looking at YOU.. I would say.. I be seeing you soon.. Next week.. and to see YOU SMILE will be the greatest moment for me to look at YOU.. when I see YOU.. I come into the Library.. with the Piece of paper written with the Summary.. holding the Big BOOK to tell YOU I have read it all.. Now here is the piece of paper.. sharing my summary about this BOOK.. and I would tell YOU.. I have written YOU another Paper.. but it has nothing to do with the BOOK but it comes from My Heart.. can I please read the Letter to YOU instead.. Please Open your ears to listen.. and Open your Heart to receive the Words.. then I will give you the Paper.. the Letter that is written from Me.. and when YOU Miss me.. YOU can read it over.. re read it if YOU have too.. but read it when YOU miss Me.. that is HOW you know that I love YOU.. I just wanted to say that I love YOU.. and If you are asking me what DO I love you the Most.. that I see that YOU love Books.. Just as much as I am starting to enjoy and Love reading BOOKS.. so that I can kiss your Forehead.. your Intelligent is what I am kissing.. the Smart that is Inside your Brains because I am going to be very smart for YOU.. as I would turn to look at the Pages of the Book.. I would look at the letters and I would start to read once again.. just thinking about YOU.. thinking of the story about this Book but More for YOU.. so that I can tell YOU and share with YOU.. so you will know that some day.. it is because I love YOU.. that One day SOON.. your Heart will know I love YOU.. and I just want to draw closer to YOU and tell you from My Heart.. How much I really Love YOU and that I have never stopped but always loved YOU STILL.. The Word I love you is the Only word that Comes to my Mind.. comes from my Heart.. only the words I can say when I see YOU.. when can I see you again.. Please tell me that it be soon.. I am looking at the book.. the Pages are just to big.. over 800 pages to read.. but I know that I must read it to keep the friendship going.. what if I want more than your Friendship.. because I felt something More than just friends.. if you call me a Friend.. I think that I must reject It.. I must be Honest and truthful to YOU.. that I want More than just your friendship.. I want your Heart.. I want to be Your Lover.. can I be the One who can say and tell YOU that I love YOU.. as I would look at the book.. My Mind would go back.. my mind would think back to the Library.. the Place where I first saw YOU.. the Place where I bumped into YOU.. even though my Mind is going back to the Library.. I know that I needs to start reading this Book.. I know that we made a deal.. YOU told me that I needs to share after I read this Book.. but do you Not see the pages.. LOOK at the size of this Book.. did I even tell YOU that I am Not a book worm.. I don't even like to read much of the Books.. and if you were to ask me how many Books I read in the Past.. I think the Numbers would be so much less and YOU be so shocked of the truth.. I am Not of a reader but just a beginner to read a Book.. I meet YOU and I ran into YOU.. and YOU dropped many books.. I could see that YOU love to read a lot of Books.. but.. I did Not tell you the truth because I did Not want to lose Your touch.. I did Not want to see you pushing me away just because I don't read.. But Now.. since I am a part of the Book club.. what if I can't read all of these more than 800 pages of this Big Book.. as I start to flip from One page to the next page.. I am wondering do they have any pictures where I can look.. maybe I can start by looking.. and as I start to flip few pages down this Big book.. I stop on a page.. there is a Picture.. One Picture and as I grab to take the Look of the Picture.. I flip to take a Look.. it is the Photo Picture of YOU.. I am wondering.. is it YOU who has place this Photo picture in here.. I don't remember me asking for Your Picture.. did I ask for the Picture and YOU gave it to Me.. and was it I who put the Picture in between these two pages.. I am sitting on this Chair.. in my Room.. trying to think about if it was Me.. I am Not sure.. because now I feel so confused.. what if it was I who placed it here.. what if It was not me but was it YOU then.. did YOU know that I was going to be taking this Book Home.. I never asked for Your Picture.. and as I turn to LOOK back of the Photo Picture.. there is a Number written on it.. whose Number is this.. Is this Your Number.. was this all planned ahead of time knowing that I was going to take this Book home or just out of Nowhere.. I am wondering.. of course I do Love this Photo Picture.. from time to time.. after reading this Big Book and I get tired.. I can turn to LOOK at your Photo Picture and to relax my mind.. and to Love YOU.. maybe this is the main reason why I had to lie to YOU.. could not tell you the truth.. could Not be honest with YOU because.. it was My Heart.. it was YOU.. the first glance.. when I turned to LOOK at YOU.. and yes.. it was me who ran into YOU knowing YOU were heading my direction.. I had to get Your Attention because I wanted to get to YOU.. there was something about YOU that my eyes just can't stop looking.. there was something about the Time.. the Place where you put it the Most.. I saw you from the distance walking with your friend.. I looked around and I wanted to start reading Books.. I saw in your arms.. YOU were holding many books.. something about that Time.. where you put your focus the Most.. and where you put your eyes and Your Heart into.. I looked over knowing that YOU are going to be some one very special.. some one very Hard to find.. that is different from myself but.. at the same time.. I can learn to change and adapt to situation.. any circumstances because I am not afraid to try some thing New.. that is when I told myself.. I needs to get to YOU.. before some one else will come and Love YOU.. I know that there are so many Young men in this world.. who would Loves to be in my shoes.. who would try to get to YOUR Heart.. so that is when I told my self.. go to your direction and run.. bump into YOU.. but Not hurt you.. just enough where you can feel something to get to YOUR HEART.. I just wanted to say I am sorry if I got to YOU in a wrong way because that was Not my intention.. I just wanted to be a part and to be close to YOU.. Not to hurt YOU or scare YOU.. because I am Not a creep.. I am Not a weirdo either.. just a Man who wants to tell YOU that I love YOU.. making this Kind of Move.. and also.. knowing my own weakness of Not to Love to read Books is at my fault but.. I told YOU.. if I love you.. I know that I can change.. I know that I can even adapt to this change.. Not to impress YOU but just to be close.. just to let YOU know that I love YOU.. but.. I know that I was Not right with YOU.. as I am sitting down on this chair.. in the Room close to my desk.. I have this Picture.. the Photo Picture.. I am wondering.. what if I did Not say Yes.. I am wondering.. what would happen to this Photo Picture.. if some one else came and sat on my place.. because I don't remember I be asking YOU.. or was it I who asked you that I needed your Picture.. as I am trying to read these pages.. I was flipping through the pages trying to look for some Historical Pictures.. some comes in the Black and White Photo Pictures.. but for some reason.. as I was flipping through the pages of this BIG BOOK of 800 pages.. I found this Photo Picture.. It is Your Picture because the One who is in the Photo Picture is YOU smiling with a Flower in your hand.. the Flower looks so lovely and yes.. YOU are so Beautiful.. I can stay here.. I can sit here and just look at your Photo Picture all day Long and Never get tired of it.. and I am just trying to figure Out.. was it YOU put it here.. and if it was YOU.. can I call this Number.. is this Number Your Phone Number.. and I know that it is pretty late.. so that I am not going to call YOU or disturb YOU late into the Night.. as I am looking at your Photo Picture.. I would put it on the Top of the desk.. and I would flip the pages back to the first Chapter.. and I would start to read from the Chapter 1.. and I would look through the first line sentence.. and as I would look across and going down.. it is written small but so much to read even the first Page of this first chapter.. and I am just trying to figure Out.. did YOU even finished this Whole 800 pages of the Book.. this Big Book.. I wanted to ask.. I wanted to know so that we can be on the right pages on the same book.. I grabbed the Phone.. it is late but Not too late to sleep late.. so as I look at the back of the Photo Picture.. I would dial the number which is written in the back.. and as I would wait.. I do hear the ringing on the Other side.. and I would wait and wait.. I do hear on the other side.. I hear your voice.. and I tell YOU.. Do you remember me?? of course YOU don't know my number.. so I would say.. It is the Guy YOU met at the Library.. the One you gave the Big Book.. with the 800 pages and the Historical figure story.. and Of course you remember.. and I would say.. as I was looking through the Pages.. I wanted to know if it had the Black and white Photo pictures and started to flip through many pages.. and I stopped at One where I found your Photo Picture.. and when I grabbed to take a LOOK at it.. it was YOU smiling with a Flower in your hand.. I have never seen such a beautiful Flower.. and YOU are even more Beautiful than the Flower you were holding.. and I was Not sure if making this Call be right or wrong.. but I just wanted to check something.. and I hear you say something.. of course.. I am so sorry for calling you this late but I have a One Question.. I wanted to check to see and ask YOU

Thinking about YOU.. so if I am suppose to meet YOU in three weeks later.. for three weeks.. to me it feels like a Long time to see YOU.. what if I start to miss YOU.. and I know that I needs to see YOU.. DO I call your Number just to hear your Voice.. but I know that I can't just do that.. so as I would take the Big BOOK in my hands.. and I flipped.. I am truly touched.. My Heart just melted as I am looking at the first page.. I asked YOU if YOU finished reading this.. and YOU told me that YOU did.. and YOU have read this Whole BOOK.. I am truly touched and truly Impressed by.. because right Now.. I am trying to read the first line sentence and I would start to yawn.. but I know that I have a deadline and I have promised you and YOU told me that I must and meet you on that day.. so I would start to focus.. as I would start to read the first page of this chapter.. as I would read he first page and I would flip the page to the next.. Just looking at the size and the thickness.. it is a lot of pages.. which I have never read this much of pages in my life.. But.. I know that I love YOU.. I must finish reading.. but my eyes would wander off.. as I am looking at the next page.. my eyes seems more interested of looking at Your Photo Picture.. my hand grabs to take a Look.. and I want to see YOU again.. I want to see you soon.. but three weeks later seems like it is just too long for me.. I should of said how about two weeks.. maybe two weeks could of been a better choice.. so that I don't miss YOU.. so that I can look at you closer and be as near as possible to YOU.. How can I get close.. but in order for me to get close to YOU and to love you close.. I must do my part to show YOU.. I am a man who keeps my Word.. when I make a Promise to YOU.. I try to keep that promises and m word when I tell YOU I will do something on your belong.. to keep YOU closer to My Heart.. but My eyes.. keeps on wandering off.. it does Not like to LOOK at the Page of this Book.. but rather focus and concentrate on YOU.. your Photo Picture.. please tell me why is this happening to Me.. why does Love must be this Hard sometimes.. some times It feels so impossible to reach.. but.. LOOKING at How much time YOU put into.. and How you had to read this Whole Book.. this 800 pages of it.. it brings me to shame on me if I can't finish it.. as I would turn to look at this Page.. I would be reading from the top of the sentences and my eyes goes across and to the next line.. and to the next line until it goes down to the end of the page.. I would turn to look at another page.. If I love YOU.. and it has taken you a long time to read and to finish.. I would try to read again.. but my Mind.. my eyes keeps on looking.. why can't you see what I am going through.. even though I wants to concentrate on what Must I needs to do.. I keep on reaching.. I keep on looking for Your Photo Picture.. my hand just cannot keep away from YOU.. my hand touch and grabs Your Photo Picture.. I know that I should stop.. and try to put Your Picture Away.. or stick it on the pages of this Big book but I know that when it comes to Loving YOU.. I just can't.. I just won't because My Heart keeps on searching to LOOK at YOU.. I feel like YOU are the Only One who can make me smile.. Over and Over.. I find the true Joy when It comes looking at YOU and just telling myself.. my Heart that I love YOU.. that I just can't Let YOU go.. my Heart just can't Let YOU go.. that when I try to put it away.. I start to miss YOU.. and missing YOU brings more pain then ever.. so I have to Put your Photo Picture near me.. just knowing that YOU are close when YOU are so Far away.. as I would Look at the clock.. Looking at the Time.. I can see that Now it has become late into the Night.. where I needs to close this Big BOOK and needs to sleep.. so I would shut the Big Book in front of me.. and Putting on top of the Desk.. my Hand cannot let go of Your Photo Picture.. I know I needs to see YOU.. the More I see you in this Photo Picture.. it is so much harder for me to let it Go.. My Heart be missing you.. my eyes be missing YOU.. and I just miss everything about YOU.. as I look at your Photo Picture.. I will say to Your Picture.. I love YOU.. I know that YOU may Not able to hear it right Now.. but I wanted to say.. to tell YOU that I love YOU.. for the first time.. I am able to tell YOU.. I know that you cannot hear me.. that is why I say it.. I tell YOU.. that I love YOU.. I am sitting by the desk.. Looking at the Book.. I opened the Book.. trying to focus to read this Page.. for some reason.. YOU keep on showing UP in my Mind.. I can feel My Heart Beating faster when I think of YOU.. trying to tell My Heart to stop beating so Fast.. I needs to erase YOU off my Mind.. I have your Picture laying on the TOP of this desk.. I know that I should put it away.. because I know that when I turn my Head and I look towards your Picture.. I know that I would think of YOU first.. but I have this ONE BOOK.. and I went to the Library to borrow it.. I am still stuck with the first Page.. the first chapter and whenever My eyes tries to read the first line sentence of this first page.. I would turn my Head towards your Picture and I get stuck right there looking at YOU.. I can feel my Heart beating fast from the Inside.. and My hand.. into the fist wants to Beat down on the chest.. so that I can stop hearing.. or feeling the Beating so Fast of this Heart.. I would turn to look at your Picture and tries to put the face Down.. turning the Picture over so that I don't look at your Beautiful face of this Picture.. my hand just can't.. I am shivering and shaking.. my hand whenever I touch the picture.. My Heart wants to cry every time I turn the Picture over so that I don't look at YOU.. why am I so addicted to YOU.. it is like a Cup of Coffee.. I just can't stop.. I tell myself I needs to stop because but I just don't.. Please tell me How to stop.. because My Heart keeps on beating so Fast.. when My Head turns to look at YOUR picture.. my eyes looks at YOU.. I can feel my Heart.. the beating grows faster and Louder I hear My Heart keep on crying and calling Out Your Name.. I am spinning around and around because It feels so crazy all of the sudden Attack that has been happening to me recently.. but I have borrowed this One Book.. and I do remember YOU are telling me that YOU loved this Book.. and Have read many times.. and the Next time we meet at the Library.. YOU are asking me if I can share and tell you the story about what I felt about this Book that came from YOU.. so I am trying Hard at this Point.. to get it right.. to go on this Pace.. I saw YOU smiling and YOU asked me.. can we be Library Partners.. and I am thinking what is that.. I do remember asking YOU.. what is the meaning of being the Library Partners.. YOU smile so Big and told me that we can share the Books we read together.. I can share my Heart and my thoughts to YOU about the BOOK and that YOU also able to give your Point of view.. I remember our hands touched and we shake our hands being the Library Friends.. of course that is How I left the Library.. but for some reason.. I asked you another before I left the Library.. I asked.. can I have your Picture.. and I am speaking to my own Head.. why would I ask you this if we are Just Friends.. YOU SMILED and gladly given me a Picture of YOU.. I was shocked that YOU did because I wanted to see if YOU would really give me Your Picture.. of course at the Library.. YOU were holding a Book and told me.. YOU have just finished reading this One BOOK that was in your hands.. and it can be a start and gave me the Book.. of course I would look at the title and I would look at the Cover of this Book.. it seems so Boring.. it is a History BOOK.. I did so horrible when I have taken the History class because It was so Boring and it felt Like I was going back to school.. I guess.. of course YOU are so Beautiful.. I did not decline it because I wanted to show YOU that I can be Your Library Partner.. my Heart came alive after we shaken our hands.. it was my first day going to the Library and Never expected to Meet YOU.. SO Beautiful.. I felt something in my Heart.. I do not know what it was but I felt My Heart.. it Bumped into something.. LIKE the Beating was very fast I felt.. I am trying to read this History Book.. about someone's Life.. I do not like the Cover of this Book.. it seems so Boring to Me but I know that I Must.. I would read the Back.. it seems interesting but.. at the same time It seems like a BORING story to Me.. I am trying to read the first line of the sentence.. I am yawning Out loud.. My Head turns too keep on looking at your picture.. YOUR Picture is more exciting to Me.. because I just can't pass the first Line of the sentence of this BOOK.. What have YOU done to Me.. I am also asking myself a question.. am I making the right decision.. Usually when I make a decision.. I try to keep it all the way.. but this.. It be hard.. I am flipping through the pages.. and It also got pictures.. black and white pictures of the Old Times.. and I know.. it is Not going to be easy for me to finish this Book.. but.. I have made a promise to YOU.. that we are going to be meeting next week.. the same Hour at the Same Library and I needs to be ready to share what I think about this Book.. to continue this Partnership.. I must be ready to share it to YOU.. I am trying to drink cold glass Ice water.. my eyes are being Heavy.. I want to sleep instead.. My Head turns to LOOK at your Picture.. my hand touches the Picture.. holds the Picture and I would look at Your Closer from this Picture YOU gave me.. I would be thinking of YOU.. that I am so excited to see YOU again.. and I would turn too look at the page of this Book.. I would flip it back to the first Chapter one.. and I am asking YOU.. Looking at your Picture

Impression.. even though I have Nothing to prove myself to YOU.. but.. I do want to keep my Promise to YOU.. I have already decided to read this BOOK.. as I would sit.. LOOKING at Your Picture.. I would close the Book.. and I would think about the experience of meeting YOU.. holding Your Picture in my Hand.. I do remember I be walking into the Library.. did Not expect much to happen that day but just to borrow a Book.. as I would walk and I see YOU.. why did I stop.. there is a lot of People in the Library.. but I saw YOU walking.. with a Friend YOU were talking.. and I wanted to get Your Attention but.. HOW.. as YOU and Your Friend passes me by.. I would act like I did Not see YOU and I bumped into YOU.. as the Books You were holding in your hands falls to the Floor.. I would help you by picking UP the Books that is laying on the ground.. as YOU stood UP with your Friend.. I grabbed the last Book.. and I would rise UP and I give it into your hands.. Your Friend had many books in her hands holding the BOOKS you were carrying.. I looked at YOU.. and I said sorrow.. as I watch YOU pass me By with your Friend.. at a table YOU sat with her.. I knew this is the Only Chance.. I may Never see YOU again.. who knows when YOU will come to this Library.. and as I walked UP to the table.. of course.. I saw YOU Looking UP with your Friend.. and the two of YOU were sharing.. I asked if I can join this table.. and Just wanted to ask you One question.. How to join this Group.. and your friend looks at Me and she smiles and YOU look at me with a Big Smile.. YOU be telling me that to join this club.. a BOOK CLUB.. I needed to read the books YOU and your friend was reading and to part take.. to share.. as I pulled the chair Over and I sat across YOU.. and I would ask YOU.. share what.. and I see YOU laying the BIG BOOKS on the top of the table.. It is so much to read.. a lot of pages to read I am thinking.. and every Week.. YOU and your Friend would meet at this table and would share.. and I am thinking.. YOU are so Beautiful.. Not just beautiful but also so Smart.. if YOU are reading all of these Books.. there is so much YOU can share with Others I believe and the Friend looks at me.. and she smiles.. as I look down.. there is a Line of People.. and they are standing behind YOU.. where is all of these People coming from.. and I see YOU turn to LOOK back.. they are Your Partners.. I am thinking.. there is a lot of People who wants to be Your Friend and be Your Partner.. it is because YOU are so Smart.. Not just beautiful.. But so Smart too.. as I am thinking about the day.. I know that I wanted to see YOU.. and I want to tell YOU what My Heart feels.. I want to tell YOU what my Heart Thinks and what it feels right Now.. can I share with YOU what I think when I look at your Picture.. when I see YOU again.. can I tell YOU my story of HOW MUCH I love YOU.. I can tell YOU a lot.. share you a lot More when I look at YOU.. when I look at you in the Picture.. I want to close the BOOK.. and open my Heart to YOU.. my Heart can be a Book.. has pages of letters to tell YOU that I LOVE YOU.. will you let me share my Heart to YOU.. Please tell me that I am able to open my Heart.. that YOU will have ears to Listen so that I can tell YOU.. I love YOU.. and for the whole week.. I been missing YOU.. it drives me crazy when I miss YOU.. when I look at your Picture.. and I think of YOU.. My Heart wants to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I love you and want you so Bad.. I love you and need you so Bad.. I love you and I miss YOU over and over again because when it comes to YOU.. when it is all about YOU.. I can open my Heart with letters and the pages of the letters can say that I love YOU.. I feel it in my heart and in my soul that I can't never stop but keep on loving YOU over and over again.. will you please let me Open my Heart to YOU.. My Heart is dying.. I am dying.. without YOU I know that I am dying and that is why I needs to say it.. I needs to tell YOU something.. that has been written in my Heart all about YOU that Only YOU can erase the pages of Letters that is written in my Heart just for YOU.. why can't YOU open YOUR Heart to accept it.. I am Not asking YOU much.. but it is this Simple.. to Open Your Heart for me.. to Let me In.. Please let me In and Let me write in your Heart and tell Your Heart that I love YOU.. as I am sitting by the desk.. LOOKING at the BOOK.. I been flipping through the pages and I can feel my Heart be burning from the Inside.. I know like this BOOK.. like the pages that makes it into this BOOK.. the written words on the Pages like Letters.. when It is ALL about YOU.. when it is for YOU.. when My Heart and My Mind thinks of YOU.. I can tell YOU how much I love YOU.. I can tell you more than these pages of the 800 pages of this Book.. as long as it is YOU.. I know that I can share and write and tell YOU more.. because it comes from my Heart which I wanted to say even till Now.. I love YOU.. you do not know how much I love YOU but even till this Day.. YOU Know my Heart.. ever since the first day till Now.. I been loving YOU and still I love YOU.. You told me to come and wait for you.. I wanted to know the answers why YOU wanted to break UP with me.. last night.. I just could not sleep at all.. I wanted answers.. and I wanted to know if it was me.. is it because I wasn't the One.. is it because YOU have met someone new.. before I can close and shut.. I had to know why you wanted to leave me.. so I remember messaging YOU back.. asking YOU to meet me at the spot.. the same table.. at the Library.. I even told YOU that I am going to write YOU a Letter.. a Letter that I haven't written in a long time.. I do remember when I first met YOU.. and we started to date each Other.. My Heart.. I just don't know what it was about YOU.. but My Heart.. I would be going into the House.. with a Smile that I just could Not.. looking in the Mirror.. going into the rest room.. and turning on the lights.. I would look at myself in the mirror.. wondering what is matter with my Heart.. that I just could Not stop smiling after seeing YOU.. after meeting YOU.. after leaving.. just being close to YOU.. My Heart just could not take it that I had to leave YOU.. I am sitting on the table.. with the Book you gave me.. I am sitting by the table where we met for the first time.. as I open the front cover of the Book.. there is Your Picture.. and behind the Picture is the Letter I have written for YOU.. I am looking at the Picture.. thinking about going to the fair park.. YOU wanted me to get YOU a Big Bear.. a Brown Big Bear and I do remember winning the contest and able to get this Big Brown Bear.. I am looking at the Picture.. YOU were smiling and holding on the side of this Big brown Bear.. I just could not help it.. but tears.. why do you want to end this relationship.. why is it so Hard to let YOU go when we been through so much together.. I am sitting here quietly waiting for YOU.. I wanted to see YOU and meet eyes to eyes.. I want to hear from your voice.. I wanted the answers of why can't I be loving YOU any more.. why did you tell me that YOU wanted to break UP with me.. do you not know that it is Me who is hurting the most.. I am still wondering.. what have I done to deserve this Kind of pains in my Heart.. please tell me what have I done so that I know that if it is right.. I can truly walk away and Not to bother YOU.. Not to love you anymore.. I have written YOU a Letter.. if YOU open the folded Letter which is in Half.. I wrote last Night.. I was looking at Your Picture.. the One you would tell me.. after I took this picture of YOU holding the side of this Big Brown Bear.. YOU told me with a Big Smile.. that YOU loved me.. I just could Not believe the Words I heard.. from your own lips.. from your Own words YOU have expressed and confessed the Love.. I did not hear it before.. it would be me who be telling YOU.. many times I would send.. write letters to tell YOU.. that I love YOU.. that I miss YOU.. that I wanted to be with YOU for the rest of my life.. that can it be YOU.. can it be Me who can love you forever and tell YOU that I do love YOU.. and to confess and express.. being thankful for the chance that I get to say and to share that I love YOU.. but Now.. YOU are telling me that YOU wanted to leave.. to break UP this relationship.. I am still waiting.. sitting by the table.. and I asked you if we can meet.. I been waiting for more than two hours Now.. and still I don't see you.. as I am looking at the people.. they are walking into the Library.. some holding books.. while others are going into other tables.. I see some people sitting on chairs by the tables.. some by the computers.. I am waiting for YOU.. and I am wondering.. should I call YOU.. am I suppose to call you and ask YOU when will you come.. are you even coming at all.. and I look down.. looking at the Book.. Looking at the Picture of YOU.. and when I lift UP my head to look.. I see you have finally come.. but who is that.. as I see you holding hands with another Man.. and YOU are smiling.. WHY are you going to do this to Me.. why are you bringing another Man into the picture.. and I see you stop by the table.. and I stand UP.. I see you pull the chair and YOU sit.. the Man next to YOU.. He smiles and pulls the chair and He sits next to you.. I am wondering.. DO I needs to hear this because Now I know.. I get the picture.. I know your answers now.. It is because of Someone else.. do YOU even love Him.. if YOU love him.. then why are you hurting Me.. did YOU ever loved Me.. why did YOU show up like this.. is it because YOU wanted to hurt Me.. to destroy my Heart.. YOU know that I also have a Heart.. and I learned how to love YOU with my Heart.. it took me a long time to learn but Now I know that I love YOU.. but what YOU are doing is so wrong.. because I did not want to come here if YOU came to show me what It means to