김남주와 권은비의 도쿄 디즈니랜드 vlog

안녕하세요 남주세끼입니다!
드디어 제가 돌아왔습니다.
우하하하하 너무 오랜만이죠??
기다려 주셔서 감사드립니다 ㅎㅎ
이제 당분간 날짜 지정 없이 업로드를 해보려고 하는데요!!
오늘 영상은 권은비와 함께 한 도쿄 디즈니랜드 브이로그입니다!
앞으로 가끔씩 올려 보도록 할게요 ㅎㅎ 감사합니다!!
#남주세끼 #권은비 #김남주

[@간계밥-b8b]

남주은비영원하길.........🥰💕

[@위즈원여우]

남주 진짜 음식 이쁘고 맛있게 잘먹는당~은비랑 우정도 홧팅 💖👍

[@정meong]

세끼 웰컴 백🎉95즈 영원하자❤❤

[@saineiss14]

은비님과 브이로그 최고에요♥♥♥

[@난나옹이다옹-y8z]

남주세끼 특유의 헐렁한 느낌의 편집 너무 좋아요😊 편안~~~

[@Yeonjinii]

돌아왔드아..!

[@강지민-f5v]

남주야 예뻐요😍

[@kimloveagain.]

투샷 넘좋아 서로 친하다니 의외넹ㅎㅎ 언젠가 둘이 듀엣부름좋겠당;););>이 우정 포에버☺️

[@lepusmagnum5916]

5:52 즐거웠다 디즈니여 말투 넘 좋음

[@Markhaowen]

남주 누나와 은비 누나가 도쿄에 또 갔어요. 정말 좋았어요!누나들이 도쿄의 아름다운 경치와 맛있는 음식을 더 많이 추천해 주셔서 감사합니다!💜

[@이정현-x7f5w]

95즈 너무 예뻐요❤❤남주 덕분에 도쿄 디즈니랜드 구경 잘 했네요❤너무 재밌었고 남주 은비 우정 영원하길바래요❤❤😊

[@김남주언니사랑해요]

남주언니 남주세끼너무재밌어요 밥맛있게드세요 약챙겨먹어요 사랑해요 ❤

[@베이비페이스]

재정비하고 돌아와줘서 너무 감사합니다!!!!😊

[@Izone_1029]

태양의 긍비남주 포에버😊😊😊

[@listentoeunji]

비쥬얼즈 우정도 매일 있어❤

[@metalllized]

남주세끼다🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

[@jinwoono10ng]

저도 남주님의 댓글은 처음이지만 항상 남주세끼 영상을 잘 보고 있습니다. ㅎㅎ 😄😁😆👍👍👍 은비님이랑 같이 브이로그 찍으셨네요, ㅎㅎ 🥰🥰😍👍👍 두분 진짜 어쩜 이리 잘 맞을까요? ㅎㅎㅎㅋㅋㅅㅅㅅ 😆😁😄😍 놀이동산에서 신 나게 재미있게 잘 노는 모습 굿굿 ✌✌👍👍 재미있게 잘 보고 갑니다. ❤❤❤🧡

[@li4e_w1th_apink9]

남주세끼 오랜만이당🥹🥹 많이 보고싶었어🥺 구오즈 너무 귀여워용🥰 둘이 행복하게 잘 살아용☺️

[@CMCC9726]

찰떡 단짝 구오즈 쥬비~! 😻

[@beer_1129]

남주세끼가 돌아왓따!!!

[@gejuke1227]

남주세끼 오랜만이라 너무 반가워❤ 역시 먹방은 남주세끼🫶

[@DaHyun02]

남쥬언니 먹을때 이뻐라 브이로그가 약간 10대 느낌이 났다 3:50둘다 귀여워ㅠㅋㅋㅋ

[@vasudevtiwaritales20]

Namjoo Eunbi love you both ♥️

[@bdc.19]

어머어머.. 순간 내 유튜브가 날 놀리는 줄 알았어요😱😱순간 오늘이 무슨 날인지 헷갈려요ㅋㅋ 남주세끼 돌아왔다!! 오래만에 먹방쥬😍 아아ㅏㅏ 보고싶었어요ㅠㅠㅠㅠ 내 목요일은 언니 없이 공허했어요ㅠㅠㅠ 이제 날짜 지정 없이 남주세끼의 깜짝 등장을 기다릴게요ㅎㅎ 돌아와줘서 고마워요 언니!! 💜💜 쥬유튜버 웰컴 백🎉🎉 오늘도 즐겁게 브이로그 보고 갑니다~~

[@Markhaowen]

드디어 남주 세끼가 돌아왔습니다. 남주 누나의 도쿄 여행 브이로그를 정말 오래 기다렸습니다!💜남주누나와 은비누나 모두 정말 예뻐요. 남주세끼에 더 많은 재미있는 내용이 기대됩니다!💜

[@셀이]

셀이: 돌아온 쥬언니 폼이 한층 더 좋아졌네요💜 비쥬얼즈 찐친케미💫 언제봐도 서윗해🥰💕

[@user-nz3ph3HG]

おはよう♬ナムジュ💕 日本に来てた！感動❣️ 東京の食事を満喫してファイティン💕

[@NoorElBahrain]

Namjoo's youtube is back!! Namjoo and Eunbi are cute. Love you Namjoo!

[@21duck]

울 사랑둥이 남주가 직접 편집한 영상이라니!! 짱이다 ㅎㅎㅎ 아주아주 재밌게 잘 봤어요!!! 영상 보고나니 일본 가고 싶다 ㅠㅠㅠ (지지난주에 갔다왔지만....)

[@still_vviipp_819]

내가 좋아하는 사람 두 명이 한 컷에 나온다?! 이건 극락..❤️

[@apinkpanda419]

기다렸어요!!!!

[@user-p3u4w]

우와 남주언니 돌아왔다 ㅠㅠㅠ❤

[@분홍세계]

갑자기 동영상을 올려서 깜짝놀라서 도쿄디즈니랜드 언제가서 브이로고 잘 봤습니다 ❤😊 남주은비 계속해서 영원히함께해💝💕

[@duk6046]

이걸 은비 채널에서 봤었던가 꽤 묵혀놓은듯 ㅋ 이젠 누구 컨텐츠인지 헷갈리네 ㅎㅎ 모아나 거기서 모하나 ㅋㅋ 비명 볼륨조절 센스 쩜...

[@tinytama]

너무 귀여워요 쥬비로그 ❤❤

[@ssu_n1]

언니가 편집한 영상이어서 그런지 더 재미있다💜 디즈니랜드 영상 보니까 또 디즈니 가고 싶어졌어요🫶🏻 다음에 갔을땐 영상에 나왔던 디저트랑 식사 전부 먹을래😆

[@user-bf2nw2lf2g]

같은 소속사세요? 이쁜 두분이 나란히~ ㅋㅋ

[@lifewitchy]

yessssss my sis finally has motivation again to posttt

[@juandenz2008]

Imagine visiting Disneyland and then suddenly meeting Namjoo and Eunbi !

[@faradilamaris783]

I'm so happy to see you guys having fun at Tokyo Disneyland And during that time I miss you too 🤗🥰🥺💖🍔🦫🍟🥤🧃🧋

[@aai_sky]

너무너무 귀여워💜 음식과 아이스크림은 정말 맛있고 귀여워.근데 우리 남주가 제일 귀여워!!!😉 4.26 남주 진짜 귀엽다 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ🤭 남주의 모든 여행은 나를 웃게 하고 남주의 귀여움을 만끽하게 한다😁 고마워 너무너무 보고싶어 건강 챙기고 있어. 잘자 좋은 꿈 꿔 ⭐️사랑해 !!!!🫶😘💜쥬쥬💜 이탈리아 밀라노!!!!! 이쁜남주 기대돼😁💜

[@maryanna5832]

Love this and love you both!

[@youngwho5631]

둘이 어쩜 저리 잘맞을까 누가 보면 연습생부터 친했는줄 알겠어 ㅋㅋㅋ

[@siyun0419]

ㅇㅈ 둘이 진짜 잘맞음

[@Jennifersnow21]

예쁘다 남주세끼 ㅎㅎ

[@Hanna4ever]

흔들리지 않고 한 번 더 ♥♥♥♥♥ 🤴👸🤡🌞🐙

[@구현주-e2d]

뭔데.. 이거 남주언니가 처음 편집한거래요.. 진짜 몰랐자나요.. 왜 잘해? 언니는 왜 다잘해요??🫰🏻♥️

[@dpqldrnwhdk]

와아아아아아!!!

[@eb0927]

95즈 좋아 ❤

[@yasushi_2]

ナムジュもウンビも可愛いな♥ナムジュは美味しそうに食べてるのが好き

[@Jennifersnow21]

와우~남주세끼다 쩡말 오랜만 ㅎㅎ♡♡♡♡♡

[@pinkpanda0223]

I really hope you will put English subtitles 😊 there are so many foreign fans that watch this..

[@chesh7re]

such a cute trip ♡

[@akne15]

ベイマックスで はしゃぐ ナムジュちゃん 好きすぎる💘💘💘💘💘💘😍😍😍😍😍😍💗💗💗💗💗💗

[@세상이날억까해-f1e]

갑자기 내려가서 놀랐다구 남주세끼 기다렸다!!!

[@solaisjustsola]

Watching namjoo and eunbi together always makes me so happy

[@queenkimbora1529]

My APINK bias & Eunbi the world is healing love it 🥹🩷 🐼 4 life

[@hyeop9]

우정포에버 해주세용 ㅠ 🥹🫶

[@H.Poirot]

쥬 ❤❤

[@MECK_12]

남주는 이제 일본에 방을 빌렸으면 좋겠어요!!그리고 꼭 관광대사가 되어주세요😆

[@volibear02]

오 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ

[@wyvern5901]

Mis dos princesas las amo 🥰🥰

[@陳志遠-t8m]

😊😊😊💜💜💜🐼🐼🐼

[@pupup13]

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@nanami2091]

可愛い🫶

[@nurul_ovro]

Best friends 💕

[@BomiStan87]

❤❤❤

[@RM-tc8yi]

Namjoo❤

[@envy9107]

노래 하나 같이 내줘용

[@fanelyssammu8002]

💜💜✌✌💘 💘 💘

[@oppoOppo-li7ln]

missing this cutie❤

[@ffm3424]

아...권은비랑 동갑이라고 남주가?? 아......권은비 연예계 이제 막 시작 아닌가... 와.... 대밧

[@zon8391]

여긴 애들 노는곳이고 옆에 성인들 노는곳이 있는데

[@nurul_ovro]

So pretty my love ❤❤❤

[@wogml0909]

사랑해

[@snowcarrotss]

얼굴을 뜯어 먹다니 ㄷㄷ😲

[@akne15]

냄쥬도 은비님 흉내를 내주세요ㅋㅋㅋ

[@kim_y_]

은비코인 달달하다

[@guitar26jw]

여신들!

[@amuyugreen1452]

今日？

[@devinj-np7dd]

Oink Oink.. I am missing You.. I don't know why I can't find YOU anywhere.. as I am Looking at the waters.. the waves of the waters coming to the shore.. and On this Beach.. I been asking for YOU.. the Bottle I send to YOU.. I wrote a Note Inside and Put into the empty Bottle.. and it is called the Message in the Bottle.. I can't find the Bottle here on this Beach.. and wondering did it get to YOU.. YOU told me that when I write YOU a Note and put it into the empty Bottle and toss it into the Waters of this Ocean.. of course I would come to this Beach.. and I would be walking in the sand.. Looking for a Bottle.. and YOU told me before YOU left.. when I come to this Beach.. and with an empty Bottle.. Put a Note inside and write YOU something and if the Waters and the Wind allows to reach across and it gets to YOU.. reaches YOU on the Other side.. and if YOU read it.. you would write Back on a Note to let me know that It has gotten to YOU.. the Day YOU left me I remember we came here to the Beach.. and we spent the whole day at this Beach and telling me all kinds of Dreams YOU had.. and even we saw the Night Comes UP.. looking at the stars and the Moon up in the sky and YOU told me.. it would be so Nice that when YOU are gone.. and I started to Miss YOU.. to grab an Empty Bottle and write a Note for YOU telling YOU how much I missed YOU and How Much I loved YOU.. I saw you going into the air port.. as I watched YOU leave.. I wanted to ask YOU when will you be back.. but I did Not want to ASK YOU because what If you would say.. YOU don't know.. that even when YOU wanted to come time can always delay YOU.. so I left it with a Big Question Mark.. and Only Time will Tell.. what drives Me crazy is that this Beach I am standing is where YOU be smiling the Most.. that we would come to this Beach many times when we were together.. telling me that this is the most favorite Place to be because YOU can just be really YOU.. Now I am missing YOU.. missing YOU that it drives me crazy.. I did come here many times trying to look for the Bottle.. because I would write you Many Notes and send it on different times with different Empty Bottles.. and when YOU have this Big Dream of coming to this Beach with a hope that I am going to receive a Bottle with Your Note on it.. and YOU come here and YOU just can't find it.. I would even ask myself.. there are a lot of people who comes to this Beach.. and what if some one else saw the Message in the Bottle.. and YOU wrote a Note inside and thinking that I got it but it be a different person.. and it is the Bad timing for me Not able to get to the Bottle first.. because some one else who was here before me got to it first.. and that is why I started to Write YOU more notes.. and I would come to this Beach.. with the Empty Bottle and stick the Note Inside it.. Looking at the waters.. the waves coming in and leaving back.. I would toss the Message in the Bottle into the Ocean Water and the current of the waters and the Wind.. it seems like it is on my side because I can see the Bottle.. the Message in the Bottle going far from the shore.. and I am thinking after.. I wish that it can get to YOU.. because YOU told me.. when we both stand here on the Shore.. and YOU would tell me to do YOU a big favor.. that YOU had a wish.. and I would ask YOU.. what is that Big favor.. what is Your Wish.. Please tell me so that I can make you smile.. you know I would try my best to do what makes YOU happy and YOU told me.. when I miss YOU.. if I really loved YOU.. there will be a time that I be missing YOU so bad that YOU could not handle it.. then to write YOU a Note.. and tell YOU how much.. so that YOU know and put the Note inside the empty Bottle.. even though YOU may not see what I am doing.. YOU know because I love YOU.. and I know if I love YOU.. I would do anything to keep that part of the Promises of my Word.. and I started to Miss YOU more and More.. I can feel it in my heart How much I started to Miss YOU.. and I would be screaming from the top of my Lungs.. that I am missing YOU right Now.. I have been in the room.. collecting many empty Bottles.. and buying many Note Cards because I know that my Heart is coming.. so that I can tell YOU How much I love YOU.. How much I am missing YOU so much right Now.. it is driving me Crazy.. and standing here in the Beach.. I would Look at the Ocean waters and ask.. WHEN are you coming Back.. or Are you going to just leave like this.. making me Wonder more and more about YOU.. YOU did tell me that if I starts to Miss YOU so Bad.. that it drives me so crazy because there is Nothing I can do right Now.. I wish that I can do something but what can I do when YOU are gone.. that YOU are so Far away.. why don't you tell me that YOU are coming back.. after I collected many empty Bottles.. it became empty because I started to drink A lot.. missing YOU makes me angry and makes me mad but most times it hurts me.. like a HOLE in my Heart.. I want to see you again.. but why can't I see YOU again.. YOU told me that when the days like this come.. to write YOU Notes.. and I started to write on these Note Cards I bought and started to place inside the Empty Bottles.. even telling me to come to this Beach.. and Now What.. told me to toss the Message in the Bottle into the Waters of this Beach.. I been doing this and has been listening to Your Words.. asking me to do YOU a Big Favor and that it was Your Wish when I started to Miss YOU.. what if this Missing you of Pain never goes away.. because I never felt like this way Before.. does it means that I always loved YOU but never seen it before like this.. but it is affect of after you are gone.. I could not see it when we were together because I believed that YOU would always be here by my side and together I get to grow old with YOU.. I saw many tears in your eyes but also saw so many big smiles to light UP my Heart.. when I was going through so hard painful times.. YOU were there.. Not many words you would say because I wanted to heal alone.. but it was your Presence just being here for me made the healing a lot faster but Now.. watching YOU leaving.. and when coming to the air port.. I remember grabbing your Hand.. I would say.. do YOU really have to go.. why can't you stay here longer with Me.. why must YOU go.. why are you leaving me without answers.. are you trying to run away from me.. Please tell me.. how about my Heart.. what happens when My Heart becomes Broken.. I can't fix my broken Heart.. but YOU would tell me that YOU had to go.. and I asked.. when are you going to come back.. I would hear NO answers from YOU but all you told me.. YOU must Go.. and you turn to face me and tell me this.. WHEN I feel like I am missing YOU so Bad.. and that I can't handle the Pain of missing YOU.. the Beach.. the Note and the Bottle.. and I would see YOU walk away.. I can't believe that YOU are doing this to me.. why are you leaving me like this.. NO explanation but just telling me to go to the Beach.. WHY.. are you going to be at the Beach with Me.. what is this YOU are doing to Me.. as I am Now at the Beach.. My eyes are filled with tears.. It hurts me.. My Painful Heart.. I can feel this Pain inside of me because I am missing YOU.. and I do remember your Words.. as I feel my tears rolling down my both eyes.. I am sick of tired of crying for YOU.. because it is hurting from the Inside.. I am at this Beach.. YOU told me to come to this Beach.. when I am missing YOU that come to this Beach.. but coming to this Beach brings me a lot of memories.. of YOUR smiles.. and how much you enjoyed the wind blowing Your Face.. your sandals and going to the waves of the waters when it comes in.. getting your both feet to get wet and there will be times when YOU would splash the waters when I get close to YOU and I am standing here.. thinking about all of the great memories YOU gave me.. then WHY am I here if I am thinking of all these great things But you are Not here.. I don't care about the Great Memories if YOU are Not here with me today.. I want YOU here by my side so that I can tell YOU.. and I would start to think.. and I would cry so loud and my cries grew Louder because the Words.. and I would be wailing Out Loud into the Night.. as I am at this Beach.. I never told YOU HOW much I loved YOU.. when YOU were here with me.. we had a lot of laughers and would joke around a lot.. like Kids running around the Beach.. but Looking at the Notes.. the Cards that I would write to YOU and Putting into the Bottles.. into these empty bottles.. I would cry A lot and Loud because when YOU were here.. why did I not say of these words to you then.. I could of told YOU how much I missed YOU.. How much I wanted to be with YOU.. How much My Heart needed YOU and to thank YOU that You were here next to me.. why did I not say any of these Words because when I would write On the Note Cards.. I would tell YOU so much More.. the words that Needed to say to YOU.. needed for YOU to hear about my feelings and emotions when I express.. but as I am standing here.. in my hand I am holding onto the Bottle.. inside is the Message of the Note that I wrote Last night and I would say that I love YOU.. and that I miss YOU and that I wish that YOU be here with me and why do you have to be gone this Long.. and Now I am wondering is this the reason why YOU wanted me to come to the Beach.. to make me Cry and to regret for the Words I should of said then.. because Now I am regretting of the times that I could of told you then but Now.. even though I want to say it.. I know that I just can't because YOU are gone.. I remember you be telling me.. do I have any words to tell YOU.. and YOU would start with that when we come to this Beach.. and I am standing with YOU

[@devinj-np7dd]

Missing YOU.. asking you to do.. I am standing by the Window in my room.. Looking Outside from inside the room.. in my hand I am holding unto your Picture.. asking myself.. I do miss YOU.. why do I keep on missing YOU.. wondering about the Truck.. the Mail man who drives his truck has Not arrived yet.. I been waiting for this Truck.. and I am looking at the rain.. it is falling Hard as I am looking in the room.. looking through the Window.. waiting for the Truck.. I have wrote YOU a letter.. for few days I have Not written because I was sick.. I been dying in the bed.. could Not get UP out of the Bed.. and when YOU are so sick.. I think it is My Heart.. My Heart is dying because I am missing YOU.. and just can't handle this Pain of missing YOU so much.. for few days as I would be laying in the Bed.. only thing that I could do is grab hold unto your Picture.. and it made me so Mad.. made sick to my stomach because when YOU are so sick.. and having fever.. and trying to eat has been so hard.. coughing and throwing UP all over the Place.. and only thing I be thinking is YOU.. writing you the Letter.. and turning toward looking at the desk.. and every time I would get Out of the bed.. and my Head be killing me.. trying to pull the chair to sit by the desk.. and I would PULL out the Piece of Paper.. holding the Pen in my Hand.. wanting to write.. wanting to tell You something that I needs to say.. and I just can't write YOU On the paper.. and when YOU have to lay back down on the bed because YOU are so sick.. a doctor came to see me.. and told me for few days I needed to rest.. and I knew that is the only thing I could do.. but when I look toward the Desk.. only thing I can think of is the Mail Man who drives his truck.. coming to the Mail Box.. and I know that I am suppose to write YOU the Letter and fold it into half and put into the envelope and give it to HIM so that He can take it to YOU.. when YOU are unable to sit UP.. and the Moment YOU sit up.. trying to move.. my Head be banging Hard from the Inside.. with a fever that won't leave me alone.. it hurts me the Most because I am thinking of YOU.. and I am wondering.. what if YOU are standing out by the front door.. and YOU are waiting outside.. and YOU be looking at the Truck.. the mail Man who takes you the Letter to YOU.. I remember last time I went.. I was in the truck with the Mail Man.. and I wanted to be the One to tell YOU that It is me who has been writing you all these letters. that I wanted to show YOU for the first time.. that the One who sits be this side.. who sits in the room.. who sits on the chair by the desk.. that it is I who would pull out the Clean sheet of paper in front of Me.. and I would sit looking at your Picture.. I would stare at your Smile.. and I would ask myself.. is My Heart be moving because of YOU.. am I allowed to move my Heart.. am I allow to tell YOU that my Heart is moved when I see YOU.. that I do have a Name.. that I do have a Heart and yes.. most times I be missing YOU.. wanting to see YOU again and over and over I want to see YOU.. that I wanted YOU to know for sure that even though YOU may not see me Much.. but I just wanted to show UP one day to tell YOU.. I do have a Face.. that I do have a Name and that I want you to remember me.. Not to forget who is the ONE who loves you the Most.. and Not to forget me at all.. so I remember asking the Mail MAN.. if I can go with him to the Place where YOU live.. just to see YOU.. I just wanted to see YOU for the first time without Having Your Picture in my Hand for once.. How does My Heart feel when I see YOU face to face.. to meet YOU even from afar.. from the distance but enough to know that I am looking at the One who I love the Most.. I remember you took my breath away as I stood there.. I told the Mail MAN not to leave so fast.. that even with this much of space and distance I am alright as long as I am standing there looking at YOU.. I felt my Heart and it started to beat so fast.. did Not know that It was my Heart making the Noise.. beating from inside.. it felt like I was listening to a Drum beating somewhere but I believe.. I know that It was My Heart when I saw YOU standing by the front door.. I wanted to walk over.. and go to YOU and give you the Letter inside the envelope but.. I had to tell myself.. Not Now.. Not yet.. so I do remember opening the Mail Box and putting the envelope inside your mail box.. as the mail man asked me if He could go.. and I told HIM that He can go now.. as the Truck started to leave your mail box.. I just could not hold it in anymore.. I felt my tears.. and It ran down two lines as I would watch the Truck.. the mail man drives off.. because I am wondering now.. when can I see YOU again.. How long is it going to be from that time I was there.. will YOU let me visit you again or are you going to react the same way.. standing by your front door and Not moving at all.. YOU know that I am Not a stranger anymore.. but I feel like YOU are treating me as One.. you know that I been telling YOU what is in my Heart.. at least you can let me know that YOU been receiving the Letters and Knows that YOU been reading the Letters right?? Do you even take the time to read or do you just look at the envelope and PUT it on the side so that It can sit there to ROT like my Heart.. when the Mail MAN drove the Truck back to the My Mail Box.. I would thank him for taking me to the Place.. where YOUR MAIL BOX was.. and the mail man looks at me and noticed that I was crying and asked me why.. and I would turn to him and tell him.. what if YOU don't read any of the Letters that I write and give to YOU.. what if YOU do not open any of the envelope and the mail man tells me.. if I love YOU.. just to believe in the Love of giving.. if I really do Love you so much.. for me to always have the open Heart and just to wait.. to be patient with YOU will heal in time.. Just to Wait on YOU.. and it breaks my heart that this is the Only words I would hear.. I wanted to hear that YOU do take your time and you would open the envelope and YOU would sit and read the Letters.. and I started to cry louder.. of course He looks at me and decides He should go.. and I would watch the Truck.. the Mail Man drives Off.. I felt so broken hearted.. I do remember that it started to rain as I would stand there crying.. maybe this is the reason why I gotten so sick.. I stood there and it started to rain down on me hard.. as I would just turn and LOOKING at the MOON.. and did not care about how heavy the rain waters hit me.. getting me wet.. very wet all over the place.. but ALL I think was.. the distance that YOU made me feel.. and that I am Not a stranger any more.. I know that I can't be just a stranger to YOU right.. I been telling YOU.. writing you Letters.. and I have been telling YOU My Heart.. that from my Heart.. when I grab HOLD unto your Picture.. all I can think of is telling YOU how much I love YOU.. and I stood looking UP at the Moon.. and I do remember just going to sleep after getting wet.. for few days it has been so hard.. when you feel like YOU are dying from the inside.. with Hot fever.. and your burning UP because YOU are so sick.. can't get UP to eat.. and coughing and just feeling so down and Hurting all over.. the few days goes by.. and I am able to move Now.. and able to eat well.. and I been thinking of YOU more clearly.. but for some reason.. when I did Not touch the paper.. and did Not hold UP the Pen to write a Letter to YOU and Only thing I did was to Hold Unto your Picture and just stare at YOU and Your smile.. YOU start to miss something deep within.. I started to miss writing you a Letter.. and I knew I had to get the Letter Out.. so I went over to the Desk.. pulling out a clean sheet of White piece of paper.. and started to write YOU what is in my Heart.. and do YOU know what I been saying to you through the Letter.. I started to tell YOU about the few days that has been happening.. How I had to lay on the Bed and just could Not move much.. about the time I went over with the Mail man.. in his truck.. I would tell YOU through the writing that I felt like YOU giving me the distance and felt like a stranger instead but in my Heart.. I wanted YOU to feel close to Me.. for YOU to know that I been waiting for something that YOU can open UP with a smile.. just like the Picture YOU gave me with this Big Smile.. but My Heart broke when I saw the distance.. of course I know that it does take time for YOU to come close and Yes.. meeting YOU and seeing you the First time when YOU did Not expect was My Mistake.. maybe YOU did Not think that it was me in the Truck with the Mail Man.. or just surprised to see me without telling you in the Previous Letters I wrote to YOU.. and even though I wanted to surprise YOU.. I wanted in a way that Not like I am a stranger but that close person.. and I would share and write about the experience with the doctor who came into the home.. and How much I did Not like the fact that I had to lay there and do Nothing.. I just wanted you to know that I wanted to see YOU because I wanted to see if YOU loved Me.. if YOUR Heart would ever open to accept me as I am.. and to know that I been loving YOU for a Long time.. that I just can't stop but still be missing YOU and still be waiting for YOU because I know that I love YOU.. I wrote a Long Letter.. two Letters and folded into Halves and Put into the envelope.. Right after I finished the two Letters.. I had so much on my Mind and so much to say.. which is needed to come Out to tell YOU the Heart of Mine.. I would put the One Letter in One envelope and the second one in a different envelope.. and as I stand UP to leave.. I turn to Look at the window in the room.. and I just could Not believe what my eyes were seeing.. It started to rain down Hard.. this time I am not going to stand Out there to get very wet.. because of the rain

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Open.. and I would stand by the front Door.. and I can see a figure.. but it is a figure of a woman.. in a white dress.. I know that it is Not the Mail Man.. and can it really be.. is this true.. and as I am looking.. the rain Stops.. the Hard pouring down of the rain suddenly stops on me.. and I can feel something.. My Heart is being moved.. My Heart is being touched.. can it be really YOU.. is It YOU who is standing on the Passenger side of the Truck.. and I just can't go On.. because YOU are taking my Breath away and if it is YOU who got the ride with the MAIL MAN.. in his truck and YOU came.. How can this Be true.. and I started to cry.. My tears just can't handle this feeling I am from the inside my Heart.. I would start to cry Loud because YOU just don't know how much I love YOU.. YOU do not know how much My Heart.. my MIND loves YOU.. my hand holding unto two envelopes.. and I would start to walk towards the Mail Box.. and I would stop by my mail Box.. and I see your eyes looking at my Hand holding unto two envelopes.. as I stop by the mail Box.. all I can do is cry looking at YOU.. I wanted answers.. because I had questions running through my Head.. wondering what is in your Heart.. but I know Now.. I never knew that YOU would come like this.. and Yes.. I was very sick.. for few days.. I wanted to die.. and wanted to never wake UP from this dying of my Heart.. Now I know the reason why I was dying from Inside.. it is because I love YOU just too much.. and it is YOU who I love the Most.. as I lift UP MY Arm.. and I see your two hands holding unto the two envelopes.. and I would say.. I have written two letters of what happened.. and YOU will know why I was delayed.. and YOU will know why I delayed because I never stopped loving YOU and even Now stronger than before I love YOU.. YOU are the most beautiful who takes my Breath away and even leaves speechless.. that is because I love YOU..I am looking Out the Window.. Looking for the Truck.. I know that the time.. looking at the watch.. the Clock in the room and I am looking through the window.. the empty Bottle on the top of the desk.. and I know that I been drinking.. trying to get YOU off my Mind.. ever since the New Picture came.. when I opened the envelope and I would pull out the Picture you have placed inside.. I would be looking at it.. ever since I saw this new Picture.. trying to erase YOU off my Mind because I been thinking of YOU and just looking.. telling your New Picture.. How Much I wanted to see YOU.. asking you through the New Picture.. when can I be close to YOU.. but only thing I been getting is No responses because it is Only a New Picture of YOU.. as I would write YOU another Letter.. telling you how angry I am getting because it seems Like I am the Only One who sees YOU.. am I the Only One who is going crazy.. is it only Me who be missing YOU.. is it only my Heart who misses you the Most.. is it only my Head which I am thinking about Love.. just wanting to say I love YOU.. do you not miss me at All.. do I ever cross your Mind.. how about your Heart.. if only I can ask your Heart.. what do you feel about Me.. am I truly special to YOU.. am I the Only Man who can Love YOU.. please tell me some words so that I can hear YOU.. that I am able to smile knowing even miles apart.. miles which leaves such a long distance.. but I needs to see YOU.. as I would sit by the desk.. pouring on the Shot Glass.. I would be taking shots after another shots.. as I would be looking at your new Picture.. the Photo that YOU gave to the Mail man.. who came last week and gave me the envelope.. Now I am going to ask him if I can go into the Truck and if the Mail Man can take me to the Place you Live.. I may Not walk towards YOU.. but close by I want to stand to see.. I just want to know How you are doing.. How would I feel if I see YOU in person.. even though there will be a distance between Us and I know that I can't come close right Now.. but enough room and space knowing that YOU are there.. I am Not asking you to come close to me Now.. but at least YOU can see that I am doing Good.. and that still I be loving YOU.. I may Not be able to say it to YOU yet.. but when YOU see me inside the Truck.. which the Mail man would drive to take me where you are.. I just want you to know that it is Me.. whose been longing for YOU.. whose been waiting on the Other side.. by my mail Box I would be waiting for the Truck.. for the mail man to stop by on my block as I would wait by the mail Box.. just to give you a Letter putting inside on the envelope so that He can take it to YOU.. but this Night.. I know that I must go.. I must go with the Mail man.. be inside his Truck and I want to deliver the Message in this Bottle.. I want to surprise you.. so that YOU will remember that it is I who is loving YOU.. not to scare YOU but to show YOU that all this Time.. YOU would only think of the Truck.. the mail man who was inside the truck.. and he was the One who gave you the envelope with the Letter that I wrote inside to YOU.. but please.. forgive me when I show Up on this very night.. I must go and see How you are doing.. I must be there to give YOU this Bottle.. inside the Bottle is a Letter that I have written for you.. when YOU see me inside the Truck.. don't think that I am a stranger to YOU because It is me.. it was me all along who gave you the Letters.. inside on this envelope.. after a while.. you are only seeing the Truck passing through and it stops at the Mail Box.. just to give you the envelope.. that is all you see back and forth.. but How about me.. how about the person who sits in this ROOM.. who is the One pulls Out the Clean sheet of paper.. who would be holding a pen or the pencil and who thinks of YOU.. YOU do not see me because I am always behind the scene.. you may think that Am I afraid of YOU.. am I scared to show UP.. you may be thinking maybe it is the truck.. or the mail man being friendly to YOU.. and He would smile inside the Truck as he gives you this envelope.. I know when YOU receive the envelope and once you open the envelope inside is the Letter.. but Do you see my Face.. do you even think of my Name there.. do you know who is the One who is telling you all these things.. expressing Heart to Heart.. when I sit in the ROOM.. by the desk.. I am thinking of YOU.. constantly thinking of YOU.. looking at the new Picture.. my Heart is crying inside for Love.. I am crying in my Heart for Love too.. but it seems like after awhile you begin to forget.. you forget because YOU are looking at some one else but How about Me.. do you know who is the One who be really loving YOU.. all this time.. who is the One putting every thing In and Out.. and telling you how I feel.. I do not want YOU to forget about me.. I am putting into so much work here.. you know that it is not easy to tell YOU all these things.. and it breaks my Heart when YOU forget the face.. forget the person who has a Name.. who is the One loves YOU the Most.. who be missing YOU and thinking of you constantly.. what will happen when a Day Comes.. the Truck stops on your Mail Box.. and you are starting to forget the Man who loves YOU the Most.. and you stand there looking.. the mail man looks at you and says.. there is No envelope today.. and the Truck keeps on coming to your mail Box.. and every time YOU stand there.. the mail man tells you the same thing.. there is NO Letter today.. there is NO envelope.. and I know if you start to forget the One who loves YOU the Most.. I also can be the one to delay the Letters.. because I feel like YOU are forgetting the Face.. the name and the man who loves YOU the Most.. as I would look at the Empty Bottle.. and I would roll up the Letter I have written for YOU.. I do not want YOU to forget me.. because YOU know how much I love YOU.. have been loving you just too Long.. but also I know that I must Man UP.. I must tell you that I am still here.. and that I am going Nowhere but waiting patiently till you are truly ready for Me.. I want to get close when YOU are ready so that I can Love you fully.. and able to speak to YOUR ears.. and tell your ears.. looking at your Heart.. that all this time.. I want your Heart.. I want your Heart to know that I love YOU.. and Now.. sitting by the Window.. I put the Letter inside the Bottle.. and looking out the window.. and just waiting for the Time.. the arrival for the Mail Man in his Truck to stop at the Mail Box.. I been taking few shots on this shot glass.. and it has emptied the Bottle.. I wrote this very night telling you that I missed YOU.. and I just don't want you to forget about Me.. because it is I who loves you the Most.. I would get UP from the chair.. holding in my hand is the Bottle inside is the Letter.. and I would walk Out of the ROOM.. and going to the front Door.. I open and I close behind me.. I am looking at the Mail Box.. and I know that the truck be arriving very soon.. so I would walk down to the Mail Box.. waiting for the truck to come.. and as I am waiting for the Truck.. I see the Lights and I turn to look.. I see the Truck Coming and the Truck stops by the Mail box.. the mail man looks at me and smiles.. and I ask HIM.. can YOU please take me to where YOU are.. and I show him the Bottle.. and inside is the Letter I wrote to YOU.. and the mail Man was kind and telling me to come inside the truck and to stand by the steps.. as I would stand there.. and the truck would be driving.. and the Mail man drives to a Mail Box and he stops the Truck.. and as I am standing there.. I see you on the Other side.. YOU are standing by the front Door and I am standing on the steps and I see your Mail Box.. as I am looking towards the front Door.. I see you looking at me.. I do not know what it is but my Heart.. can YOU hear my Heart beating.. It would not stop beating as I am looking at YOU

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Else is doing so.. That is why I had to tell myself and to have courage to tell YOU this very Night.. I wanted to surprise YOU.. so that the Impact of Your Heart you feel inside.. it has meaning of what I am doing today.. that is to tell YOU that it is me who is the One loving YOU.. some times when a person do not show UP.. you think of it is some one else but the truth is to be told that is it ME.. who is the One loving you the Most.. I just wanted to come out this very night to make a clear statement.. that I do not forget the One who I love.. and I wanted to see YOU face to face.. to see you in person so that YOU would remember.. that there is someone like Me who has been loving YOU.. and I would look at your Mail Box and I would open and I would place the Bottle.. inside is the Letter and I put into your mail Box and closed the Door.. and I see you just looking at me.. and the mail man would start his Truck and it would leave your mail Box.. as he was driving the Truck.. I feel like my Heart has lightened.. I feel like a burden Off my shoulders because of telling YOU.. face to face and in person to person letting YOU know who is the One writing you these Letters.. so that I know when you receive these Letters.. YOU can think of me Too.. that YOU can think of a face.. and that face is a person who has a Name.. that my name can be placed in your Heart.. can I write my Name inside your Heart so that whenever you receive a Letter from YOU.. that YOU will never forget and know who I am telling you all these things to YOU.. I don't want you to be confused because I am only One person.. Only One man.. who has a Heart and can express this Heart of Mine to YOU because all I ever wanted to share is this.. that I love YOU.. that there is going to be NO OTHER man like myself.. who can give YOU something very simple but has a meaning behind every time I think of YOU to give you letters.. OH PLEASE help me so that YOU don't forget me.. I am giving YOU my Heart and my Love to YOU.. the Only thing that I can do and can be good at in the Long run.. as the Truck stops by the Mail Box.. I get off the steps and I turn to look at the mail man and I thank him for his service by taking me to your mail Box.. and he looks at me.. and smiles.. I see the truck leaves the mail Box and I would look UP at the MOON.. why can't I be there a little longer.. Now I feel it in my Heart that I am Now missing YOU more.. was it a wise choice for me showing UP.. and looking at you from the distance.. seeing YOU eye to eye.. and able to tell YOU how my Heart was heavy because I was feeling like you are forgetting all about me.. and YOU would wonder.. why do I think this way.. it is because there are times I would doubt what if YOU are Not seeing me the same Way.. you can see my Heart and how much I love YOU but.. what if YOU are not loving me in any way.. It is only going to Hurt me in pain because I do also want your Love.. I wish that I knew that I can be Loved by YOU.. so that I know we are in the same page together.. all I ever wanted is to give and tell YOU that I love you but also be loved by YOU too.. that is the Only One thing truly I need and want from YOU.. nothing more and nothing less.. just to be Loved by you because YOU already knows that I love you just too much.. but it is in my blood to just love you more and more.. that is the Only Good thing I can do.. just to share and tell you.. How much I love YOU..I am waiting for the Truck.. the Mail man in the truck.. I heard from the Mail Man that you told him that YOU are writing a Letter to Me.. I couldn't believe the respond that I am getting.. I thought that I would Never hear from YOU.. I been writing you a lot of Letters lately and has Been sending it Out.. Hoping that One Day.. that One day be some day SOON.. I been looking UP at the Moon.. asking if the MOON can hear me.. asking if YOU KNOW what is happening on the Other side where YOU at.. I would keep on asking that MOON.. do YOU see.. can YOU SEE.. but I never got any kind of response from the MOON.. until the MAIL MAN.. who came on the Truck and told me that HE has heard from YOU.. that YOU are writing something to Me.. I tried to sleep.. the Night I have received the Message from the Mail man.. who came on the truck stops by the Mail Box.. I was walking Out.. with the envelope in my Hand.. inside is the Letter I wrote to YOU again.. when I showed him.. the MAIL MAN the envelope and told him I wrote YOU a Letter.. I saw a smile on his face and tells me.. there is something that He needed to tell me which it was received from YOU.. and I asked him to tell me.. that YOU are writing a Letter.. a letter sharing to Me and I saw HIM taking the envelope I gave him inside is my Letter I wrote to YOU again.. It was a NIGHT I wanted to dance.. it was the Night I looked UP at the MOON.. I waved my hands looking at the MOON.. people who were walking passing by the Mail Box looks at me.. I am sure they are thinking I am a crazy person.. but I would say to them.. I don't care what they think of Me.. if you do NOT KNOW WHAT I am feeling and dealing this very Night.. I don't care.. and I would be walking back to the House.. trying to lay down on the Bed.. I am trying to sleep.. but My Heart.. my Mind.. I be thinking of YOU.. turning on my side and I am looking at the desk.. I am just picturing YOU sitting by the desk and with a Piece of paper.. with a Pen or Pencil.. I can envision YOU writing a Letter to Me.. so I would turn the Other way.. looking at the wall.. facing the Wall because I know.. if I look at the Desk.. I be thinking of YOU and I would not sleep at ALL.. but facing the wall.. and able to close my eyes.. I just could Not sleep.. I can feel my Heart beat pounding Hard.. this excitement all over my body keeps me UP and I would sit UP.. sitting on the bed.. I am looking at the wall.. I just can't sleep.. HOW am I suppose to sleep tonight but I needs to sleep to get a good rest for the Night.. but I would try to sleep.. laying on the bed.. turning side to side and sitting back UP again.. if I turn on the side towards the desk.. I be seeing you there so I rather Not see YOU through the vision.. I turn on the other side.. facing the Wall.. and I sit UP again.. maybe I needs to get something Off my Chest.. maybe I needs to speak to this wall.. things all always on my Mind about YOU.. I can't just let it sit there.. I needs to express and tell YOU.. More and more I express my Heart to tell YOU.. the More I needs to say something to let YOU KNOW.. let you know How much I love YOU.. so LOOKING at the wall.. I know that YOU are Unable to hear me on the Other side.. but I still needs to tell YOU why I just can't sleep tonight.. some nights I can sleep well.. but there are Nights I just can't when YOU are on my Mind.. when YOU sink into my Heart.. I just have to let it Out.. WHY.. I am Not sure why I needs to let it Out.. but it starts with I love YOU.. it starts with I love YOU and I miss YOU and I would say looking at this WALL.. I been waiting for YOU.. walking Out of this ROOM.. walking Out of this House.. I am looking at the Mail box.. before I go to the Mail box.. I would be looking at the Desk.. when I sit by the Desk I look at How many Papers I have left.. I needs to have plenty of papers because there are some I won't give it to YOU.. I have a trash can which it gets loaded with rolled UP balls of papers that goes into the waste because I can't put it into the envelop.. so I needs to look at the stacks of paper.. when It gets very low.. I go to the store to Buy More Papers so that I can write YOU MORE letters to send it out to you.. SINCE I am able to see the mail Man and he has became My friend who is helping me.. He tells me there is NO need to put stamp stickers.. HE is able to take the envelop.. the Letter direct to YOU.. so told me there is NO NEED to put any stamps.. I would smile.. and I would weep at the same time.. to able to write YOU a Letter.. something that I can endure.. something that I truly enjoy and Love.. a Passion that was given to me since the YOUTH.. I started to write when I was very Young.. so for a very Long time I loved to write and still do even more.. because now to share this True Joy and Passion and something that I really enjoy and love.. I can write you letters more than any other MEN can in this world.. ONE thing that I can tell YOU is that MONEY cannot By My Love.. cannot by what I am doing and what I am giving to YOU because it is because I really Love YOU.. YOU may not see it Now.. I am Not sure when YOU WILL see my Heart but I believe that ONE DAY.. SOME DAY YOU WILL SEE it.. the day YOU see my Heart of How much I love YOU is the day when YOU WILL see the MOON appear before YOU.. on the Night Your Heart will see it.. is the day YOU will realize because The MOON still be there LOOKING at YOU.. I may be gone.. I may be GONE far away.. when YOU DO see it is the day YOU will remember the Letters because I will Love you even after when I am GONE.. as I am looking at the wall in the ROOM.. I needs to see YOU.. I wish that YOU can see me.. see my Heart soon.. because the Day when YOU see me.. I be asking the Angels.. when I am gone.. can I be an Angel TOO.. an Angel who can still Love YOU after I am gone.. but I am always around.. that I am close to YOU this time to able to still Love YOU.. I may not be able to speak or write YOU Letters but I am able to appear before Your Eyes.. BY the time YOU do not receive the Letters.. and YOU know my real True Heart.. there is NO reason for you to receive Letters any more because by that TIME your Heart Knows who Loves YOU and I be able to come before you to tell YOU Not by Letters on Words but by being YOUR ANGEL.. An Angel who can always be there and An Angel who will always

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Paper into the envelope Inside and I would run Out of the House.. the Mail Man in the truck tells me HE saw me in the room.. and saw me writing a Letter to YOU.. and knew I was running late.. so I came out.. running and catching a breathe and gave the envelop into his Hand.. He smiles and waves taking it to YOU.. I would watch as the Truck gets smaller.. tears in my eyes because the MAIL MAN was patient to wait for me when It was me who was late to give.. but He still waited knowing that I was coming OUT and giving YOU a Letter.. as I am Facing the Wall in the ROOM sitting on the top of the Bed.. and my tears fills UP my eyes.. I wish that YOU know my Heart.. sometimes am I being just too impatient with myself.. because YOU know that I love YOU.. I love you just too Much.. from here to the MOON I love YOU.. why can't you believe my Words.. why can't you believe me and see me the way I am.. why can't I just love you as I am.. Please tell me why I can't just love YOU as for Me.. and My hands rolls into two fist and pounds on the wall of this ROOM.. and shakes.. I really really needs YOUR eyes to open and Heart to open to see me that I love YOU.. My fear is this.. Only the day I come to YOU as an Angel.. DO I needs to Die for you to know My Heart.. the day I am gone and I been Out side.. at Night when the MOON Appears.. I been asking the MOON.. where is the Angels.. Please tell me are the Angels There with YOU.. Please let the Angels KNOW I have an request.. I want to Know if I can ask an Angel for something.. I been going Out at night when the Moon Appeared.. and kept on asking and begging and Bugging.. One Night an angel did Appear before Me.. and I would have the Picture of YOU in my Hand and I would have the Letter on the Other Hand and the Angel came to Me.. and I showed that Angel my Heart.. HE saw the Picture of YOU and saw the Letter and told the Angel.. my Wish.. My request.. and I asked the Angel.. I may Not be able to be with YOU when I am on this Body.. but I think it is when I am gone.. when I die and the Angel looks at me.. and I would tell the angel.. I been writing YOU a Letter.. and the Mail MAN came to take the Letters in the envelop and has been receiving the Letters.. if I can't be with YOU when I with this Body.. I think the Only way is when I am gone.. and the Angel looks at me and said.. But I said.. if I die.. can YOU Please give me two wings.. Can I be an Angel who can still Love YOU afterlife.. IF I can't be with YOU here on the earth with this Body.. and the Angel would say to me.. the Wish and the Request is granted.. and the Angel left away.. as I am in the ROOM.. Looking at this Wall.. I am able to smile still because I have been given this request that it does NOT matter about Now.. that I am thinking about Later.. and that I can still wait for YOU as long as I can live.. because as long as I live I am able to tell YOU through the Letters HOW much I love you and keep on writing on the Piece of Papers.. the Mail Man comes and smiles always being the friend who I never had knowing and understanding and can relate my Heart.. I give him Letters so that He can take it to YOU and I know that even though I may not see YOU now.. I can wait.. but what happens when I die.. my Heart is for YOU to Love Me.. I wish that YOU can love me too.. as much as I love YOU.. My whole request has been this simple.. to LOVE me back.. YOU do not have to love me as much as I love YOU but can think about loving me.. I am thinking thought.. How the Angel has agreed to this that HE will send me two wings the day I die.. I hope that YOU can see my Love when I die.. even though I want to see YOU see me Now.. but if YOU can't still see me Now loving YOU.. I must learn to wait.. I must learn to be patient with YOU but.. is it when I am gone you will know that I love YOU.. is it when YOU start to miss ME when I am gone.. the day I am gone and far off.. but it be the Most Glorious day when I receive the two Wings and can approach YOU closer.. When I come to you as Your Angel.. I am going to show YOU that I came to Fight on your behalf.. to Protect YOU and to defend YOU because I been loving YOU FOR such a Long time Now.. my wish is that I wish that YOU can see it Now.. and when it comes to be never.. it breaks my Heart because I been writing you Letters that I love you since the day One.. I have never stopped loving YOU.. but do I needs to be Your Angel for YOU to finally see my Heart of loving YOU.. I would look at this Wall and I would be crying.. It hurts.. It hurts because I needs to Die.. I needs to be gone.. but I still be loving YOU when I am gone.. but it be that I can't write you Letters when I become Your Angel.. when I do have two wings.. I know I can appear before your eyes.. and I will show YOU that I love you still.. but what If I can't speak to YOU.. if I can't tell you this Heart of Mine when I do become.. that is what I fear when it does Happen.. but as I am looking at the wall of the room.. wiping the tears of my eyes I turn to look at the desk and I get out of the bed going to the chair to sit by the desk.. and I sit.. the Piece of paper and pencil to write you another Letter of how much I love YOU.. I just wanted to say.. I love you and I miss YOU..I am waiting for the Moon to appear.. in my hands is a Letter I have written for YOU.. but I am waiting for an Angel.. Do you know that I believe in Angels and I would ask if the Angels could Come as I am asking for One to appear before my Eyes.. as I was sitting by the desk.. and I would write.. pulling the Piece of paper before me.. I would be looking at your Picture.. Only if YOU know my Heart.. trying to let YOU know How much I love YOU.. I been practicing writing on this Pieces of Papers.. I would even grab One Piece of paper.. walking to the Mirror in the rest Room.. I am Not a Person who can speak well in speech.. I may not be able to speak right with the Words when it comes face to face.. But I know that I needs to practice my Speech telling YOU and Letting YOU know How much I love YOU.. as I am in the rest Room.. I am Looking at myself the Mirror is in front of me.. I know that I can let YOU see the Letter.. but.. I am alone in this House.. so I would show UP.. looking at myself and trying to Picture YOU standing on the other side.. will I have the Boldness.. WILL I have the courage to Tell YOU what My Heart feels.. WILL you let me speak to YOU about How much I love YOU.. as I am looking at myself.. Looking at the Mirror.. Holding the Piece of paper.. and I would try to talk.. try to speak.. but my Words would Not come Out because I am Looking at Me instead.. but I know that I needs to practice.. practice more to speak to YOU.. to tell YOU.. to have the Guts and Courage.. but I am wondering will YOU even give me Your Ears to listen.. will YOU give me the attention that I need from YOU so that I am able to talk to YOU.. to get something Off my Chest.. letting YOU know what I am thinking.. to Let YOU know that I love YOU.. I would open my Mouth.. and I would start to read from the Letter.. and I would say to YOU.. even though YOU are not here.. But I am envisioning that YOU are here and able to listen to the Words I am telling YOU.. speaking to YOU.. I would say.. I can't get my Mind Off of YOU.. the More I try not to think of YOU.. it seems like it is getting More Harder.. I would take a Look.. and looking into the Picture.. that is the Only One thing I can do.. is to LOOK at you when I have your Picture in my hands.. it has been so hard lately.. because I been alone.. I been writing YOU Letters.. but How can this Letter ever reach YOU.. do YOU even know How much I love YOU.. will you let me tell YOU that I still do Love YOU.. WILL you open your Heart.. open your ears to let me talk.. to let me speak.. will I be nervous to tell YOU if I stand before YOU.. having the Courage to tell YOU.. then I would ask.. will you give me the time and the attention that I needs so that I can tell YOU from My Heart.. Lately.. I been walking to this Mirror.. and I know that One Day soon.. if I do Not practice Now speaking and sharing.. and talking while Looking at the Mirror.. I know that I will never get the chance to tell YOU or say to YOU because I know that WHEN I see YOU.. I want to be well prepared.. I want to be ready to Tell YOU that I have a Love story that Only YOU can hear.. that I can share to YOU.. would you give me Your Time and energy.. your attention is all I am asking for.. all I need so that I can tell YOU.. I been looking.. trying to speak.. because I am not well in speech.. but I do know how to write Many Letters now.. and the Best way.. fastest way for me to reach YOU is by giving YOU this Letter.. I can look at myself and holding UP the Piece of Paper in my hands.. and reading the Letters.. How long can I be doing this.. and I would ask.. How far can it go if only thing I do is read the Letters looking at myself at the Mirror in front of Me.. I would keep on trying.. after sitting down by the desk.. I would pull up the chair.. with the Pencil and write YOU a Letter.. letting YOU know there is so much going On my Mind.. burning inside of My Heart.. that I still Love YOU.. I would pick up the Picture.. taking a Look at YOU.. and always.. it brings me great Love and Joy and Inspires me to write and to tell YOU a Story that I love YOU.. the Only thing that I can do.. the Only thing I can bring out from My Heart.. and I go to face the Mirror.. and I look at myself.. I wish that It be YOU on the other side.. I want to tell YOU.. I want to read the Letter to YOU.. but I am only looking at myself and it breaks my Heart that I am only reading to myself.. But I want this Letter to reach YOU.. so that YOU know my Heart.. my longing has been growing.. missing YOU brings Hate in my Heart cause of the pain that comes with it.. I wish that YOU know

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Looking at myself and just reading the letters.. it is NOT For me but for YOU.. so I have decided to change a New Way.. I would wait.. waiting until the SUN goes Down and asking for the MOON to come UP.. I would walk Out side.. and stand alone as I see the Night has approached.. I am holding the Letter In front of Me.. and I have heard that there are Angels WHO is able to listen to an OUT CRY of the Heart when YOU LOVE.. I would stand.. Open the Piece of Paper.. the Letter is in front of Me.. and I started to LOOK UP at the Moon.. but I am Not asking the MOON anything.. but an Angel.. if the Angel can hear me on this very night.. can the Angel be the One to do me a Favor.. I have One wish.. and It is very simple Wish.. to Hear the Heart of Mine crying for YOU.. I know if the Angel can hear the sobbing of my Heart.. my Tears of pains that comes from inside.. if the Angel can hear me and can feel sorry for Me because I am asking for the Angel to Give this Letter to YOU.. I can sit on the ground and weep.. sob in tears for many hours if I have too.. but if an Angel.. who is passing by through My direction and catches me in tears.. I know that the Angel can stop and Looks DOWN from the Sky wondering what is wrong with me.. and I can say to that Angel.. I am man who loves to write Love Story.. but it is a story of YOU.. story of how much I love YOU.. and that I am asking that Angel.. if He can do me a favor.. to give this Letter I have written to YOU.. to send the Message that I been here.. all along waiting for YOU.. if the angel asks.. I would tell that Angel.. I have even tried.. I even went to the rest room.. after I sat on the chair by the desk.. and I would show the angel the Picture of YOU.. and tell the Angel.. who YOU are and I would say to that Angel.. I would write with the pencil on the Piece of paper.. and I would get UP and go to the rest room.. and I would stand looking at the Mirror of myself and I would read the letter that I wrote to YOU.. I been doing that for a while.. but It seems like it has no Hope.. because I am only reading it to myself.. I want YOU to hear me.. hear my voice.. hear my words that I do speak.. I do talk and say.. share what is in my Heart.. but what good is ALL that when YOU can't even hear me.. if YOU just don't know or understand.. and I started to LOOK at myself on that Mirror.. in Pain.. what good is it if I am the Only One who knows it for myself.. so I have decided to walk Out.. and WHEN I saw the Moon.. if I love to stare at the MOON in the Night.. I am sure an Angel can also Love the Moon just like Me and can spend the Night looking at the MOON.. if I can be loud and Clear and if the Angel who is staring at the same MOON I am.. I know for sure.. the Angel can hear me Out.. hear my misery of NOT able to get the Letters to YOU.. Hear this Heart of Mine crying in the Night as I am staring at the MOON.. if the Angel sees Me.. with a Broken Heart and the Longing.. waiting for YOU.. waiting for your answer.. I am sure the Angel can look.. as I would walk Out side.. Not just Once.. but each Night.. two days.. four days.. ten days I am out.. holding the Letter.. and I am looking UP at the MOON.. open my mouth so that YOU can hear me Out Loud.. I am sure after many times of walking with the Letters.. the Angel can see that I am very serious.. I am Not asking Much but it is so simple.. to let YOU know my Heart.. to Let YOU know that I love YOU.. to Let YOU see the Heart of Mine.. that I am falling for YOU.. I need YOU and I need you to know that I love YOU.. that I be missing YOU.. DO you even know that.. can YOU SEE that.. and I know that One night.. with your Picture in my Hand.. and I be looking.. on the Other Hand is the Letter.. after I look at you through the Picture.. My Heart breaks into tears.. and I am missing YOU.. I will say why do I keep on missing YOU.. why must you be so far that it is so Hard for me to reach YOU.. why leave me like this stranded.. why let me die here just to Love YOU.. why do I must crumble and be hurt.. why be so miserable but at the same TIME the Joy to Love.. with this ache that leaves me this Pain.. it Hurts a lot sometimes because YOU are so Far away.. but I want YOU so Near.. so Close that my arms can wrap around YOU.. and to let YOU see the letters.. here is One that I written for YOU.. I know that I may not be good with speaking.. talking with good speech.. but I know that I can memorize the Letters that I have written for YOU.. to tell YOU a Story.. My Love story of How much I love YOU.. so that YOU can know forever that I love YOU.. as I am Looking UP.. Looking at the MOON.. I am holding the Letter.. and I open my Mouth and I read the Letter Loud.. I would say Out Loud.. do YOU hear Me.. can YOU Please hear me.. will YOU please listen to what I needs to say.. to tell YOU something that Keeps on coming from My Heart.. that I been coming Out here.. LOOKING at the Night.. I see the stars.. I see the Clouds and I see the Moon above me.. and I am waiting for an Angel.. I do truly believe that an Angel can hear me right Now.. and if an Angel who is passing by decides to stop and to listen.. I am sure that the Angel can come to my aide to Help me with this Letter.. so that this Letter can go to the right person which is YOU.. I want to say.. I been loving YOU.. I keep on telling YOU how much I love YOU.. but do you really believe in this Word that I am telling YOU.. I know that My Heart is Not mistaken.. but it is real because the Only thing I can do is tell YOU that I love YOU.. there is Nothing More I can say.. there is Nothing but the three Letter words I can tell YOU.. which is I LOVE YOU and I want YOU to know.. I want you to know this truth before I go.. because I know that One day SOON.. YOU will know for sure the truth.. that I do really Love YOU and meant it with my Words.. I been waiting for the Angel.. so that if the Angel appears before My eyes.. I can tell that Angel.. and show the Picture of YOU.. and the Angel is going to get it.. will understand it.. the problem is this.. what if this Angel comes and sees YOUR picture and also that Angel falls in love with YOU.. even with the distance and miles away.. I love YOU.. even with not spending time.. and knowing YOU in face to face.. I just love YOU as your are.. I don't need to be in your Presence or be with YOU as in face to face in person to Love YOU.. even with this Miles separated between US.. I just Love YOU just the way YOU are.. if YOU don't believe me.. I know that when the Angel shows UP with my Letters In the hands and gives to YOU.. and when the Angel holds the Picture of YOU and shows YOU.. I believe by that time YOU will know that I love YOU.. I don't needs to be there to Love YOU.. because it is all about Just Loving you First.. when I love YOU.. YOU will know what a Love means in a time when I can't love YOU anymore.. I am Not sure How long I will live.. but as long as I am alive.. I know that I still can love you.. breathing.. I know I can say to YOU that I really Love YOU..I am looking at the paper in front of me.. looking on the floor.. on the ground.. on the carpet floor.. few papers been rolled into balls.. I would try to write you a letter.. with the Pen.. and would make some mistakes and with the Pen.. there is NO eraser to erase.. so I would grab the Piece of paper.. when it has been made mistake while writing YOU a Letter.. I would roll into the Ball and it would Hit the carpet floor.. been struggling.. my Heart been struggling so Much.. I would look at the Cup.. pouring the Can of Beer.. and I would grab the Glass cup.. drinking the beer.. I can feel bubbly inside.. trying to erase YOU off my Mind.. but when I place a Piece of Paper in front of the desk.. I want to tell YOU something.. I want to write you something.. something that I needs to say that comes from My Heart.. that sinks in my Head.. and I can't just hold it in.. but Needs to tell YOU as I would write you this Letter.. when YOU been practicing for such a Long time writing.. and for a long time it becomes a part of YOU.. Like a lifestyle and changes into.. that is where I am at this Point when I would pull out a clean sheet of piece of Paper.. I know that the Truck is coming.. the Mail man.. with his truck.. He is coming to this Home.. to the Mail Box.. and I know that I am running out of time.. and I needs to put something.. Needs to tell YOU something on this Piece of Paper.. I received something from YOU.. an envelop.. a new Picture YOU put inside and I have Never seen this Picture before.. YOU are smiling.. Holding a Bear.. I am Not sure what kind of Bear is this.. do I call it the teddy Bear.. and My eyes.. I keep on looking at this new Picture.. YOU look so beautiful.. YOU look so Cute holding.. holding this small bear.. and it seems like YOU are trying to tell me something.. are YOU telling me that I am small like this Bear.. because I do not like that Small bear.. of course I am Not saying I am tall because I am Not.. but when I look at the new Picture of YOU.. holding that small bear.. it means that I wish that it be Me.. I want to hold the small bear.. and I want to hold YOU close in my arms too.. putting down that Small bear.. and to tell you that YOU are so Beautiful.. the Most Beautiful that I ever saw in my life.. that YOU are just too pretty.. just too beautiful.. even without holding that Small Bear.. just YOU in the Picture alone is enough to say.. YOU are so Beautiful.. there is NO reason to be holding that small bear.. and is this what I should Put.. should write.. to tell YOU on this Letter.. or should I say to YOU.. I been missing YOU so bad lately.. but this very Night.. I had to go into the kitchen and grab me a cold can of Beer.. and grabbed a glass cup.. Open the Cold Can of Beer and poured into the Glass cup and I would sit.. sit by the desk looking at the new Picture of YOU holding this Small Bear.. I would