It “seems” like Striptease had been pulled from the market. At least where I live, it can no longer be found. I just went back blonde today (actually, I’m sitting with Pulp Riot Ghostblood on my hair as I type this. I used Blank Canvas to get a deep purple out, then I used the Pulp riot Cream bleach on my roots *Olaplex throughout, obvs.* and now I have ten minutes left sitting with the Ghostblood on my head. I could only find 3 images of it and it was on Instagram, so I’m anxious to see how it turns out. My hair was a level 10 but had a bit of yellow in it still. I’m only anxious because I tried the Pulp Riot toner before and my hair didn’t take it at all. Fingers crossed. ♥️

OH no! What developer?

It's free too obviously

Hi. I just saw your comments as I was sitting here with my insomnia scrolling TikTok. 😏 Thank you for your encouragement and support. It’s crazy that we can get to a place where we don’t see ourselves … properly (?), I guess. I feel like it’s such a taboo topic that it can’t just be brought up randomly in conversations irl… probably because I don’t have any human friends (obviously, human… but like real life people… kids and life and insecurities keep me away). Realistically, I’m probably awake in English time. What time is it there right now?!

Thanks. I don’t feel that way. I feel like I’m letting down everyone, especially Christian who his ass off. I’m stubborn, so I’m going to keep pushing and keep building my Shop. I was making $6k a month 3 years ago with my shop. I was doing it all by myself and I had a loyal following. I put it on pause when I moved to p psl and now trying to rebuild is difficult. I will not give up, but in the meantime, I worry about bills. I worry about Christmas time for the kids.

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Thank you. I will. Do you Recommend any specific brand?

It’s been a crazy two days. I’ll contact you tomorrow about this. It could really be great if you are interested. ❤️

Thanks, Ryan. I’m so happy for it to finally be over. I’m so grateful that Si has Christian to look up to. I’m not even exaggerating when I say that Silas looks up to Chris so much that he tries to emulate him in so many ways. He is like a “Mini me” of him and I’m so grateful. Last month, he told Chris “hey, I know your kinda, pretty much like my Step-dad but you really feel more like my real dad.” (My heart broke and melted all at the same time… and without missing a beat, Christian told him how much he loved him and how happy he was to have him as one of his own.) When I talk positive about Christian on fb, it’s the absolute truth. He is such an amazing man, father, partner, comedian for the house etc. I feel like I went through 10 years in a horrible marriage to finally meet a man I never imagined was a possibility. I’m so grateful for him and all of our kids. Life is so fulfilling. If you watch my next video, Ignore my anger. I never thought TikTok would blow up a 20 second video I posted to my then 21 followers. After my rebuttal, I’ve been able to ignore the hate messages and focus on the positive ones and the positive outcome of being divorced, finally.

Aww. Hi! I love you, darling. I miss you. 💜💜💜💜💜

Thanks Joy. I’m trying. Hey, click subscribe to bring my numbers up? 😁😁😁😁😁

Thank you so much. I just read this and I literally have teary eyes because sometimes I just feel so alone and your words just made me feel like maybe I’m not. In life we always try to put on our best face- especially on social media - but yesterday I just felt defeated. Somehow making videos in the past two weeks has become so therapeutic because even though I’m talking to myself on my camera, it feels good to just say it out loud. Thank you for emphasizing with me and for listening (watching?)… I feel like somebody heard me cry for human connection yesterday and I’m so grateful that it was you and you have been so kind. It’s more than I ever expected. I’m Jessie, btw. Hi. :)

@@jessagainsttheworld5405 Hi Jessie I am so glad that my comment made you feel at ease. We have all been there, and it's so liberating to just talk it out, like you said..it feels good to just get it off our chest. Sending you lots of love and happiness ♡ Regards Niharika

Haha. I can do steps. Ugh. I’m so mad. Yesterday I was trying to upload a video that I worked on for HOURS… I got this Nikita X Morphe palette (which has this gorgeous color story and had shadows that played off my hair so well… my phone told me it was low on space and since I had already edited it and SAVED it to my VN app, I deleted the videos from my phone (and my trash 😩🥺). I went back in the app to finish Exporting it and the save wasn’t enough. It deleted everything. Hours of making the video and 2.5 hours of editing. Regardless, I learned a lesson how my editing apps work. I’m still sitting here frustrated. I am making more actual “tutorials” and I’ll do steps down below here in the comments. 😉♥️♥️♥️♥️

Thank you so much. 💕

Thank you for watching! Aww, thank you. I don’t feel wise most of the time. I feel as if everything in life I’ve had to learn as if I was walking with a blindfold on to discover things the hard way. I guess that’s a good way to overcome some of the hard times. I wish I could tell my teenage self so many things that could make life easier… like through every panic attack that I’ve had so far, I’ve come out alive and okay on the other side. Hindsight is 20/20, i guess. ♥️

@@jessagainsttheworld5405 i just can say u r very inspirational. Lots of love and respect to you

Aww. Thank you. I am already bored. I’m going to Super Purple my whole head tomorrow. I think I’ve learned how to shoot videos better now. Stay tuned. Lol.