I was sent down an angel from above and I wasn’t prepared. Who really ever is. I fucked things up with greed and pleasure. I crossed boundaries I wish I had known better then to cross. I really loved them. They even gave me a few chances to make it right. And I continued to let my thoughts take over. I’ll more then likely never be accepted by them again. And that might be ok. They deserve better. I hope I become better. If not for them, at least for myself. The love I had will never die. Please allow it to fuel me. I don’t want to fuck things up anymore.

나 자신이 용서가 안될 때 내 앞에 이 영상이 언젠간 찾아오겠지 이건 내가 다시 볼까봐 글을 남겨둔 것 입니다. 나의 잘못인줄 몰랐어 이미 틀어진 이후에야 깨닳았지 알게됨으로서 잘못을 인지하며 잊을 때 마다 다시 머릿속에 나타나며 나의 행동 마음 들을 조였고 어른이 되어서야 받아들이고 다신 절대 내 주변에 그런일은 못 일어나게 하겠다 라는 다짐을 가지니까 나를 얽매이는게 풀리더라 줄여서 말하면 이건 자신으로부터 무언가의 맹세야

Loneliness: a deep sorrow in which you feel as if no one is around or cares what happens to you. Even in a crowded space surrounded by your closest friends & family. Sometimes that loneliness is ment for us to utilize and sit down to focus on what’s bothering us inside. Allowing us to transcend our current endeavors and reach new heights in each of our lives. You never know what life will throw at you, just be like water and fill in your new cup.

It’s 5:03 am and I am still awake…”

I was so close to deleting myself. But then I learned how I am actually in control of my life. I’m a foster home kid that never stopped from believing in god 🙏. It’s because of god that I am here today. Even if I had nobody to believe in me, I learned that I am in control of my life. Today, I have a beautiful wife that is my best friend and all I want to do is spend time with her. That is the true meaning of life. Meeting someone who you love and that you are able to share your life with.

I feel like my whole life story is being the person not worth a damn who nobody ever chooses. Every girl I've ever dated cheated on me, all my friends always leave me, I try and be the best I can but I always fade out of everyones memory because frankly, I'm not that memorable. I'm real. I have dreams. And I miss so, so, so many people I'd do anything just to see again. Maybe in another life....

여기 있는 모두에게 사랑이 있기를 기원해요.❤

Estar solo es como ir sin rumbo en el frio espacio esperando chocar con algo pero solo es la infinitesimal y gran ancho del espacio frio y obscuro eso es la soledad donde sabes que nunca encontraras nada y podras admirar las estrellas alejándose cada vez mas asta que llegues a la obscuridad eterna

I just wonder if she’s okay. All I ever wanted for her. Love you Martha. Forever! Wherever you are in this world and who you’re with, I hope you’re very happy.:) ❤

04:09 And yes, I'm still awake

Extraño ser un niño, sin tantos problemas para afrontar, la relación con mi madre aun era buena y aún tenía a mis perritos con vida, solo me sentaba a ver algún video de fernanfloo al llegar de la escuela o mirar hora de aventura en la tele, eran días hermosos, que comparados a los de hoy, tienen gran diferencia, uno jamás cree que va a crecer y cuando llega ese momento simplemente ya no sabe que sentir o hacer, me siento cansado, sin ganas de seguir, me levanto solo porque tengo que apoyar a los demás, ellos necesitan de mi ayuda, pero siendo sincero, simplemente quiero desaparecer. 3:52 a.m Uruguay.

Met you April of 2023 Didn't really start talking to you until July of that year. We had a crazy upstart to our relationship. It felt just right, the magic was there. We had big things planned. And then it declined in late 2024 and I just hoped, fucking hoped that things would get better. But they did not. I didn't think I was actually going to have to breakup with you but it is for our own good. I will miss you but I have to move on. I hope you'll be okay out there. Something Stupid

I just ask for someone who understands me, who won't leave me, who will stay for once in my life, friends, family, partner, I feel guilty about all the relationships I've had, I'm the problem,I am the error that eats away at space and time, an error that must be eliminated before my roots continue to grow and it becomes more difficult for me to leave this world, I want to find the courage,the courage to never return to this difficult path called life

i hate luxury funeral. people have to hold the funeral when child born not when she/he passed away -me(personally died at age of 17)

Dang 🫠

i think at our lowest times, on our most loneliest nights, is when we truly discover ourselves. To me, there is nothing more scarier than facing your own demons and the fear of the unknown. Are you missing someone? Have you lost someone to death? Sometimes nothing will make sense because were trying to make sense of what we have in front of us. And when we have lost that sense of certainty, or what was once in front of us, were left with so many questions. So ill continue to fight, wake up, and try again. Despite wanting to give up. If your seeing this... know that it will get easier. Don't give up. Rest Easy gav. xoxo

Hard to accept things you dont want to accept, but have to.

Thanks for this beautiful play list you are not alone we are alone together

RIP Tarek. You were like a brother to me. When you meet Amir in heaven, tell him, Suri said hi.

Cảm ơn tôi rất thích ❤️❤️

I met you in November of 2023, and we started dating in July of 2024. It was a relationship unlike any I had ever experienced. You were unlike any woman I ever loved. We were happy, we were going to get married this year... and you ended it tonight. I can't understand how everything changed so quickly. I thought we were meant for each other. I thought I would spend the rest of my life with you. And now I have to learn to spend the rest of my life without you. I wish you weren't gone.

⁠Even if you think your life is the worst. Don’t forget you are lucky to be alive. Some people don’t even get a chance. To suicidal people: Your life isn’t a movie so don’t end it. Your skin isn’t paper so don’t cut it. Your neck isn’t a coat so don’t hang it. Your body is not a book so don’t judge it. Your heart is not a door so don’t lock it. Reasons to be alive: Imagine all the things you haven’t experienced! Like Sneaking out First kiss Meeting new people Meeting your soulmate! Finally moving out Getting married Having kids Doing what you love!❤ Not dying alone. Meeting a celebrity And best of all making your dreams come true. So kids,adults,teens, anyone! There is always a reason to be alive and your lucky that you are still alive and healthy not everyone can be happy like you. So appreciate everything you have.

It’s actually 5:59 rn, but yeah.. I think this would’ve made me have a breakdown 2 hours ago

Gotta love quiet music followed by the loudest damn ads of all time

I hope to see everyone by this time next year 🫡

I thought entertainment was enough, that I would rather stay alone then deal with fake friends and bad drama, as the years passed me by this loneliness is not peace of mind. I thought not being with someone to love would be fine as I felt a comfort being alone yet my heart desires company. Years of my life now I feel that has been wasted. That voice whispering in my head it's too late. My decision to be alone now have become my prison as habit take form and becomes difficult to escape. I tell myself one day Ill escape, yet another year passed. Soon hopefully soon.

Ill never recover from my mom dying... its just, well i guess i could change and adapt... but my original self? No, its just to hard to recover.

I still remember the first time I met you; when I looked into your deep jade colored eyes. I felt like being strucked by lightning. I remember when I first held your hand, when you let me place your dark golden straight hair behind your ear and you let me kiss you. You made me feel like I mattered. You also agreed for us to date seriously, I was so happy to hear that; it has been 42 days since I last saw you, since I last heard from you, your social media is inactive. We were supposed to buy skiing tickets this month; my mind hasn't stopped speculating on all of the endless possibilities, I just want it stop, I hope you are well and happy wherever you are. I didn't know it was our last time together.

I'am a little bit afraid of everything, seemes like nothing makes sense anymore and i still young, but my mind is in the future, where my misery is waiting for me.

i lost someone precious 🥺 oh god, i miss him so much, where is he? i always pray throughout the night that he is ok, that he will come back soon, i miss him so much, and i love him so much. if only he could read this and know it's me, just know, i love u so much, i love u more, i love u the most, i’ll never get tired of waiting for u until my last breath. 🥲🤍

I love how despite our different backgrounds, experiences, and homes, we all met here. It’s beautiful. Seeing all the different languages and kind interactions to one another warms me.

Bro why am I awake at 4:30am at a school night?

Mine was only a few months, but the amount of time doesn't matter when you are able to feel how your heart burns when you are by his side. You will always be in my memories Marcos

I had to let the shit go, otherwise it was going to end up with my life. Now I'm safe own my own.

deep down i feel hollow cold and alone its like depression has gotten inside of me this time and its taken hold of my soul i just want to be back to my old sunny happy confident self i feel like no one else can see it or understand me i feel like im on a course thats going to be short

Comments tear my heart apart more than it already is

When will I hold a girl in my arms and just kiss her lips until mine's are sore of kissing.

Nostalgic for a life I never got

we only had one day together, it was to beautiful to be real. I think he will never know how much I love him. I can’t get over him, after months I am still waiting for him to text me. He doesn’t like me anymore I think. I was the try to forget that he loves another, I think she’s better than me, cuz why would he do that to me? He was the Love of my life. I will never love someone like him again. I miss him so much.

yalnız kalmak iyi midir değil midir bilemem. sensizlik zor. ama baş edebilirim. kendimi buna zorlayabilirim. hazır değildim, bir anda oldu. bir anda bir enkazın altında kaldım... kaldırmak zor. ya zaten neye hazırız ki? her şey bir anlık. bazı şeyler acıtır. bazı yerlerimiz kanar, kanayan yer kabuk bağlar ve elbet bir gün iyileşir. kabuk bağlayan yara daha serttir. artık tecrübelisindir. dostundan yediğin tekmeden, seni hiç terk etmeyecek sandığın aşkın. hepsi birer yalan olduğunda burada olacaksın. istemeden de olsa artık yalnızsın. yalnız kalacaksın. yalnızlık huzur verir mi bilmiyorum. burası huzur değil burası anlamsız bir boşluk. sadece etrafı duvarlarla kaplı bir hapishane. yazacak ne çok söz var. anlatacak çok dert... neden bu haldeyiz diye sorgulayacağız. neden kapalı kapılar? neden sen? neden ben? neden kimse yok? neden? yalnızlık sessiz bir çığlıktır. kimse duymaz, kimse görmez, kimse bilmez. onun bilmesini istediğin çok şey var biliyorum. acı çektiğini görmesini istediğin o kişi seni hiç umursamıyor bile :) çünkü sevilmiyoruz dostlar. yalnızız. tekiz. hiçiz. huzurlumu değil mi? inan hiç bilmiyorum. buraya gelmeyin. burası dipsiz bir kuyu. sonsuz bir karanlık. kendine iyi bak.

Спокойнич умер...

It was 20 years ago When I last spoke to the only girl I loved through an Immigration phone 8n San Pedro immigration jail I saw her for the last time through the glass and I cried knowing that I will never see her again. She got married 3 years later and I have been In exile ever since. She haunts my dreams and my lonely nights sometimes. Now I hope I could only see My aging parents once more Before it's too late.

Its crazy that every one of these are so good.

Losing touch of reality. Yet i feel so real at the same time. Days pass like foggy memories. i still say that im fine. Hopping that one day ill be back. An addiction is what people see. But i find peace and love within each hit. Peace and love i never felt n'or gived before. Its not easy living a life where you dont even feel like youve taken part of it. Im writting this, wondering if others are living what im living.

Pain is a fundamental part of live...❤

30/10/23 was the last time I met her

My mercy prevails over my wrath

Just had my best friend of 10 years since we were 16 tell me she’s not sure she’s in love with me after having an affair. Never felt so lost in my life.

Trying to adjust to being single again after being together for so many years is the hardest hit I've taken since finding out my mother was fighting her own demons by stashing drugs. I'm trying to figure out what the purpose of all this is and how i come out of it a healthy person while being a single only parent. Giving up is never an option, even though it seems like the easiest alternative.

those eyes... i feel it all