maybe I was the reason.

[@navo159]

Best tracks from my channel on a SPOTIFY playlist: spoti.fi/4aH2Phn (Daily updated)

[@maclainholland4236]

That’s probably one of the worst phases of the separation of love, that “maybe I was the reason.” When you begin to doubt who you are as a person and blame yourself for every single thing that ever went wrong together, wishing that if you weren’t so stupid then maybe you could’ve still been together. Self hate, especially when it’s fueled by a heartbreak/unfulfilled high expectations of yourself, is a deadly dagger that needs to be put away so that you can grow into becoming a better person. To realize that some things are not meant to last forever. It took me far too long to let go of my self hatred, 6 yrs, but it was one of the best decisions I have ever made and I feel emotionally free because of it.

[@mufterobombero247]

That's how im Feeling for 6 months now. Nothing makes Sense anymore.....

[@Ussnox]

​@@mufterobombero247 I'll tell you something. My ex-girlfriend and I ended our relationship exactly a year ago today. The day it happened, I felt the deepest pain I’ve ever felt. For months, I felt like I was being stabbed in the heart. I couldn’t stop regretting, thinking: if only I’d done more, if only I’d done things differently, if only I’d asked, listened better, acted better, etc., etc. I missed her deeply, with all my strength, and I won’t lie-I still love her with all my heart, even today. And here’s the most important reason I’m writing to you, and I don’t think it’s a coincidence. I discovered this music channel exactly three months after we broke up. The title of the video was “I didn’t know it was our last time together.” The title isn’t the main point, though. What’s important is that you need to hear, "it wasn’t your fault." I have no idea what happened, or why, but if someone keeps regretting things for so long, it’s very likely that it wasn’t their fault. And I’ll tell you this: after it happened, I quit my job, got severely depressed, didn’t leave my bed, didn’t eat, didn’t sleep-just cried. The days felt endless, just staring at my phone, waiting to see if any message from her would come, reading our past conversations, seeing how things deteriorated, looking at photos of us together, remembering. As I said, it’s been a year now, and honestly, that’s not much time. They say time heals all wounds, but it’s not true. What heals is what you do with that time. I lost my job, lost friends, lost a lot, and that was my decision. But I didn’t lose her. You might say, “What do you mean?” I’ll tell you, “Yes, exactly that.” Losing everything else was my decision because, no matter how awful you feel, those things happen because we allow them to, and they’re decisions, whether you like it or not. But I didn’t lose her because she was never mine. It was our relationship, and we chose to walk together. If one of us changed, that’s completely valid, and it might mean the path we were walking together was no longer the one we’d both continue along together-and that’s okay. It doesn’t mean I didn’t fight for her, because I did, for months. But then I realized it wasn’t healthy, and above all, it wasn’t fair. No matter how much you love someone, you shouldn’t have to crawl. Accept it, as much as it hurts, move forward, and never stop thinking about yourself. NEVER. Six months ago, she reached out to me, and I found out she was with someone else. Do you know what I did? By then, I had already gotten over it, and I understood what was okay and what wasn’t. I saw the notification of her message, saw her profile picture with her kissing that new person, and I deleted the chat without reading the message. And I smiled. I smiled because I love her, and I genuinely want her to be happy, that even though things didn’t work out between us, that time together was the most wonderful thing that could have happened to me, and I’m grateful every day that she let me share it with her. I love her so much that I wish her the best, always. But I love myself more, and I’ve learned to love myself throughout this time alone. I wasn’t about to talk to her and undo my progress. That’s why I smiled. Accept, move forward, grow, love yourself, let go of what isn’t yours, don’t hold on. You gave your best, and how do I know? Because who we are in that moment is the best we can give. Surely, as time passes and life happens, you’ll learn more, and next time, you might be able to give even more because you’ll be someone with more experience, knowledge, and a different mindset. It doesn’t matter-you gave your all, and don’t blame yourself for anything. You did everything wonderfully. And even if I’m not with her and still love her, I wouldn’t change anything about how things happened. If life brings us together again in the future, I’ll be happy, and if not, I’ll also be happy because I’ll be open to someone with whom I can share and love in the way I am now-honestly, freely, and embracing the present. I came to this video because I saw this channel posted again, and honestly, I came here to unsubscribe. When you’re in that state, you only think of negative things and feed the algorithms to show more negative, sad, self-destructive content. Be aware of that. Think about yourself and question everything. This channel is just a business. I haven’t seen any interaction with subscribers here or on any video. All I see are sad people regretting what was and wasn’t. That’s sad and awful. Every day, more people are angry and sad because of things they see on social media. Notice it, heal, and move on. Not just KZbin, but all social media. Think about yourself, and above all, remember you’re not alone. If I could get through it in such a short time and came to this video, it’s not a coincidence. You can, too. (I’ll post this as a comment on the video so others who come across it can read it without any trouble.) Take heart, it’s okay to be sad, but it’s even better to love yourself and keep going. Keep loving; love doesn’t stop or end in an instant. I never stopped loving her, and I don’t think I ever will. She’s part of who I am now. However things ended, she was a big part of my life, and much of who I am now is thanks to her. Honestly, every time I used to talk or write about her, I cried. Want to know how many tears I shed writing this? None. How many times did I smile? I couldn’t even count. It’s okay to cry, but after a long time, think of yourself and care for yourself, because if you don’t, no one else will. What’s done is done. Move forward and embrace love in everything you do, and do not punish yourself.

[@tman6799is]

You forgot to mention you shouldn't blame yourself if it wasnt ACTUALLY your fault. The thing is, 50% of the time it was your fault. And blaming yourself is the only way to see the error in your ways and improve upon. Self reflection and empathy for another point of view is never a negative until its taken to extremes. And blaming yourself for what very well could have been your fault is not extreme.

[@semroll1156]

​@@mufterobombero247 At six months I couldn't sleep.... I couldn't sleep...I couldn't sleep...

[@mufterobombero247]

@@semroll1156 sleeping is the only thing I want to.... And Not waking up anymore....

[@Serg1one.]

It's definitely because of me. Of course, when others say the opposite, I understand that they are trying to calm me down and think that they are not letting me fully immerse myself in such thoughts... but it doesn't work when I realize that the reason is only me. So many years have passed, but this feeling, alas, does not go away.

[@Guitar9X917]

It hurts when your best friend becomes just a friend....

[@gatsbyhotjacks6711]

It hurts more when your best friend becomes a stranger.

[@guiderex2514]

It hurts even more when your best friend becomes an enemy.

[@Yourfavmelodylmao]

it hurts the most when your love becomes a stranger who you don't even say hi while passing by. All of the memories,everything is just gone in a sec

[@uav_distance2476]

Может это к лучшему, кто знает...🙁

[@MaggieSue327]

"Maybe i was the reason" it's funny how everyone who found that playlist knows exactly what that means... that's sad... thank you Navo, for creating a playlist that helps me process my fears i can never bright them back, and it k1 lls me

[@BlueChel5]

I've been on many of these videos now this month. I've read so many heartbreaking stories: isolation, family abuse/family problems, abandonment, breakups, betrayal, emptiness, loneliness, mental illness, and the list goes on. I find it significant that even so, there are tons of people that encourage others to try and find some hope, even if they themselves know deep down there is no hope left for themselves. I've become a hopeless wandering soul myself, but wandering is something I always was before my abandonment and isolation. I didn't lose hope until the only person I had worth living for decided to abandon me. I don't know if it was genuine or if it was the mental illness they had at play, but I even saw one day that it could happen, and I feared this the most. Myself growing unstable only making matters worse, I used to be such a kind and caring soul and all I've done is help others, only to get abandoned in the end. When they spiraled out of control, I poured my heart out. When I spiraled, they poured me out. Nothing lasts forever, but what does it mean when you can't enjoy anything else after what you've had is gone? To me, it means nothing. The saying "nothing lasts forever" means nothing when the only reason you ever had something was because you were lucky. Because it was cultivated at an early point in your life, and you plead desperately to try not to let it go because you know that once it's gone, you will be floating in the endless void and limbo that is nothingness, but simultaneously, pain. To me, that is the true meaning of suffering. I've seen some people proclaim that they'd rather feel something than nothing. I know what it's like to feel both,. I wish I could forget. I wish I could just "be" and nothing affect me. Sometimes, I wish i never met the person, I wish other things in my life was better so that I didn't have to go seek something other than myself. For some reason, my mind just won't let go. No matter how hard I try, no matter how hard I reason with myself, no matter how many quotes I shove into my ears, it all means nothing to my mind. All that matters is how it's been abused, used, and discarded, and now that's the only thing that matters. Someone told me none of it matters, and you just have to find a way to be successful, but what's not understood is that there is no point to survive for the sake of survival alone for some, if not, a lot of people. If so, pain and suffering wouldn't afflict us as much as it does, and we would just be content eating, showering, and sleeping on repeat. Now that I'm in isolation, there's nothing left to seek but suffering and despair, as there is nothing left to go towards. You can move on, you can forgive and not forget, you can try to keep hope, you can fake convince your mind that you can give it another purpose for living, but again, what does it mean when you can't enjoy anything else after what you've had, which is all you've had, is gone? Complete and utter voidness and suffering. As for my little message, I'd say mine will be a warning. Keep your compassion, keep your care, keep your love, keep your warmth, keep your individualism, your peace, or whatever it is that makes you happy that exists within YOURSELF, because it can keep you content and happy. However, when it is threatened, the very second it is threatened, protect it as if you are protecting your life, for they are one in the same. If you have something that is keeping you going, if you think you can find something that can keep you going, clutch it and don't let it go, ever. It is life to you just as much as is your beating heart is. NEVER. LET. IT. GO. PROTECT IT WITH ALL YOUR MIGHT AND ALL YOUR WITS. Or you'll regret it more than you will and can ever understand. .ᴖ.

[@dooex5455]

I don't know eng words to describe how thats similar to mine experience and mine feelings

[@ROOSTERYEYEAH]

Watch Vinland Saga and come back here only if you finish and comment below or edit your first comment, about what you experienced with the anime. For no reason at all, this type of content helps so many people like you, and in the end, they become more spiritual and begin to have a different understanding of life and everything. This is my gift to try to help people who have gone through the same thing as me, if you feel that God is not with you I will be😉, Keep persevering! Don't disappoint me. You matter Bro! 😊❤ "If the world hates you, keep in mind that before it hated me. They were told: love your friend and hate your enemies, but I say to you: Love one another as I have loved you, no one has more love than he who sacrifices himself for his friends"

[@dooex5455]

@@ROOSTERYEYEAH You know, just now I was writing a rather gloomy comment, but having finished reading yours, I'll just express my gratitude for your words, and reminding me of this beautiful work of art

[@ROOSTERYEYEAH]

@@dooex5455 If you know, you know. I think that now, nowadays, everything has its time, and it's amazing how you probably find the same kind of frustration with life and much more, in ancient scriptures from the Bible or in other similar religions like Taoism and philosophical currents like Stoicism, who had great brilliant minds who left their eternal works in space and time, which have survived to this day and can easily be a therapist's open door to many current problems. Reading about the problems of our ancestors and understanding how they viewed challenges worse than ours today is very comforting. Read about, marco Aurelius, King Solomon and his bible chapter "Ecclesiastes" and "Proverbs", Lao Tsé and Confucius

[@ROOSTERYEYEAH]

@@dooex5455 If you know, you know. I think that now, nowadays, everything has its time, and it's amazing how you probably find the same kind of frustration with life and much more, in ancient scriptures from the Bible or in other similar religions like Taoism and philosophical currents like Stoicism, who had great brilliant minds who left their eternal works in space and time, which have survived to this day and can easily be a therapist's open door to many current problems. Reading about the problems of our ancestors and understanding how they viewed challenges worse than ours today and how they developed ways to live in peace and avoid obstacles in their path and elevate themselves spiritually. Read about Marcus Aurelius, King Solomon and his bible chapter "Ecclesiastes" and "Proverbs", Lao tsé and Confucius, and I assure you that you will gradually experience a mental and spiritual transformation that will make you stand out from the crowd. Look for some book repositories on internet and be happy.

[@예인-b7r]

항상 제목에 이끌려서 들어오게 된다..

[@Nate-13-002]

That feeling when you are convinced you were the reason and you continue to blame yourself over and over for small things after that because you feel so bad.

[@aa-it9ml]

느끼는 것 만으로도 이전의 나보다 성장하고 있다는 것. 자책하지말고 포기하지 마세요 남이 아닌 자신을 사랑해야 행복해질 수 있습니다

[@Jhowmoraes777]

always forward

[@uniplat]

Любовь к себе это не счастье, одиночество это боль и не важно любишь ты себя или нет.

[@ТановиТир]

​@@uniplat нет

[@Madita_nsn]

don’t let nobody make you feel or think that way

[@11bg00]

But what if its true?

[@endrgar]

Before, I blamed everyone and everything around me, but now I blame only myself for everything.

[@devineromero5153]

It’s not a question of what if it’s a statement. I’m the issue. I’ve always been. I love but then I push away anyone who gets close in fear of being hurt. I hurt them before they hurt me. I sense even a small amount of negative I know it’s me. It’s always me.

[@Ussnox]

I'll tell you something. My ex-girlfriend and I ended our relationship exactly a year ago today. The day it happened, I felt the deepest pain I’ve ever felt. For months, I felt like I was being stabbed in the heart. I couldn’t stop regretting, thinking: if only I’d done more, if only I’d done things differently, if only I’d asked, listened better, acted better, etc., etc. I missed her deeply, with all my strength, and I won’t lie-I still love her with all my heart, even today. And here’s the most important reason I’m writing to you, and I don’t think it’s a coincidence. I discovered this music channel exactly three months after we broke up. The title of the video was “I didn’t know it was our last time together.” The title isn’t the main point, though. What’s important is that you need to hear, "it wasn’t your fault." I have no idea what happened, or why, but if someone keeps regretting things for so long, it’s very likely that it wasn’t their fault. And I’ll tell you this: after it happened, I quit my job, got severely depressed, didn’t leave my bed, didn’t eat, didn’t sleep-just cried. The days felt endless, just staring at my phone, waiting to see if any message from her would come, reading our past conversations, seeing how things deteriorated, looking at photos of us together, remembering. As I said, it’s been a year now, and honestly, that’s not much time. They say time heals all wounds, but it’s not true. What heals is what you do with that time. I lost my job, lost friends, lost a lot, and that was my decision. But I didn’t lose her. You might say, “What do you mean?” I’ll tell you, “Yes, exactly that.” Losing everything else was my decision because, no matter how awful you feel, those things happen because we allow them to, and they’re decisions, whether you like it or not. But I didn’t lose her because she was never mine. It was our relationship, and we chose to walk together. If one of us changed, that’s completely valid, and it might mean the path we were walking together was no longer the one we’d both continue along together-and that’s okay. It doesn’t mean I didn’t fight for her, because I did, for months. But then I realized it wasn’t healthy, and above all, it wasn’t fair. No matter how much you love someone, you shouldn’t have to crawl. Accept it, as much as it hurts, move forward, and never stop thinking about yourself. NEVER. Six months ago, she reached out to me, and I found out she was with someone else. Do you know what I did? By then, I had already gotten over it, and I understood what was okay and what wasn’t. I saw the notification of her message, saw her profile picture with her kissing that new person, and I deleted the chat without reading the message. And I smiled. I smiled because I love her, and I genuinely want her to be happy, that even though things didn’t work out between us, that time together was the most wonderful thing that could have happened to me, and I’m grateful every day that she let me share it with her. I love her so much that I wish her the best, always. But I love myself more, and I’ve learned to love myself throughout this time alone. I wasn’t about to talk to her and undo my progress. That’s why I smiled. Accept, move forward, grow, love yourself, let go of what isn’t yours, don’t hold on. You gave your best, and how do I know? Because who we are in that moment is the best we can give. Surely, as time passes and life happens, you’ll learn more, and next time, you might be able to give even more because you’ll be someone with more experience, knowledge, and a different mindset. It doesn’t matter-you gave your all, and don’t blame yourself for anything. You did everything wonderfully. And even if I’m not with her and still love her, I wouldn’t change anything about how things happened. If life brings us together again in the future, I’ll be happy, and if not, I’ll also be happy because I’ll be open to someone with whom I can share and love in the way I am now-honestly, freely, and embracing the present. I came to this video because I saw this channel posted again, and honestly, I came here to unsubscribe. When you’re in that state, you only think of negative things and feed the algorithms to show more negative, sad, self-destructive content. Be aware of that. Think about yourself and question everything. This channel is just a business. I haven’t seen any interaction with subscribers here or on any video. All I see are sad people regretting what was and wasn’t. That’s sad and awful. Every day, more people are angry and sad because of things they see on social media. Notice it, heal, and move on. Not just KZbin, but all social media. Think about yourself, and above all, remember you’re not alone. If I could get through it in such a short time and came to this video, it’s not a coincidence. You can, too. (I’ll post this as a comment on the video so others who come across it can read it without any trouble.) Take heart, it’s okay to be sad, but it’s even better to love yourself and keep going. Keep loving; love doesn’t stop or end in an instant. I never stopped loving her, and I don’t think I ever will. She’s part of who I am now. However things ended, she was a big part of my life, and much of who I am now is thanks to her. Honestly, every time I used to talk or write about her, I cried. Want to know how many tears I shed writing this? None. How many times did I smile? I couldn’t even count. It’s okay to cry, but after a long time, think of yourself and care for yourself, because if you don’t, no one else will. What’s done is done. Move forward and embrace love in everything you do, and do not punish yourself. Take care guys. I can asure you, that sadness won't last for ever. Don't let it last.

[@sashazinchenko2665]

Это очень сильный комментарий. Спасибо ʕ•ᴥ•ʔﾉ♡

[@動画置き場-s5w]

Thank you for the wonderful music. I've been feeling tired and nervous lately, so this was a great comfort. We both work, but I'm always the one doing the tougher housework and work, and my partner doesn't cooperate with the housework even though he has easy jobs, so I feel frustrated. In contrast to him who said he had fun at the company party today, all I could say was that I was busy with work and taking care of my juniors, which made me hate myself. I hate myself for being able to say nothing but sarcasm. It's no good if you don't have the mental capacity to do so, so I'm going to listen to music and gently calm my mind. thank you.

[@Ira_KN]

Приходя к этим плейлист эам, я чувствую себя спокойно и ко мне приходит вдохновения Но при этом все что я могу написать в своих не опкбликованых рассказах, главные герои саморазрушают себя, дивут в дали от всех и мечтают быть одинокими Зная какое это чувство ужасное, проживя это мгновение самостоятельно, я не могу от него избавится, словно от наркотика Из-за этого я разрушаю свое эмоциональное состояние, проживая жизни не существующих людей Я рада, что я не на их месте, хоть и не могу избавится от желания ошущать эту боль Поэтому те, кто это читает, прошу не вините себя ни в чем и старайтесь выбраться из этих мук, вы должны боротся до конца и верить в лучшее. Вы обязательно справитесь, пусть мне и не понять полностью этих эмоций, но я в вас верю

[@folnix4794]

anyone else just want to disappear? not die but vanish. no pain to those who know you, no evidence that you were around. just spectate the world around you. does anyone else have that feeling evolve and spiral into thoughts of suicide? i cant be the only one. surely not.

[@JasonBriese]

Not alone there...

[@szarek7761]

yeah, same here

[@miguelrosas418]

Same here.

[@MaggieSue327]

i want to curl up into a ball and live in my head for the rest of eternity

[@scott_box]

its getting over this phase that makes you feel more in control of your life even if its hard to get out of it...its falling back into that spiral that makes you feel worse then last time and makes you believe you cant get back out of it like you did. ive been on a roller coaster ride of that feeling and recently got talking to a therapist and im soon going to see a doctor because i might have schizophrenia which is the reason why i keep falling back into that step of empty-ness, with believing that my friends and people will leave me because ill seem insane or crazy to them which is something i fear and dread...being alone in the world. sure it seems nice but it would feel horrible if it ever happened since humans NEED to interact with others to live a normal life. i hope i get better. school is hell right now. i hope my friends dont leave me when i tell them this. i hope and pray im ok and will get through it.

[@ShaikhFayyad]

For me, I was never separated but I was rejected, the girl I loved the most and I still do friend-zoned me, I just want to give her the love and affection she deserves, I believe I can treat her better than any other guy, but she made it clear she only views me as a friend. I don't mean to be cheesey but she's the literal balance between my emotions, she makes me happy and sad, My friend said to me "You need her in life, even if she's just a friend." because like again she's my balance of emotions. We live in Australia but Unfortunately she's moving to Japan, her home country in a few years, so when I'm like older I might visit. She is my everything, and I know she's the one for me although she doesn't like me as more, she thinks of me as a friend or a brother.

[@miguelrosas418]

You will probably hate me, but you may consider that girl is not for you. You also deserve love as much as you want to give her.

[@ShaikhFayyad]

@@miguelrosas418 I don't hate you, it's just that it's really difficult for me to let her go but I'm trying, I know she's not meant for me but she makes me happy yet that's no excuse I have to let her go someday

[@Justd1to]

Sad truth is closest people can hurt you mostly, getting betrayed from person who u care and love is most sad, got betrayed by girl whitch i really loved and i was even about to change religion just to be with her when i find out that she was texting other man than it immediately become no one for me 1 month i couldnt get out of bed because of this but now im okay, i start focusing more on myself and goals all i want to say with this move on no matter what people did to u or what u did to them, theyre like virus and virus is just corrupting body nothing else..

[@TheHylianJuggalo]

in mid 2014, I thought I impregnated my girlfriend. I was 21 at the time, she was 19. She sent me a text with a picture of a positive test. She was crying her eyes out in fear when I called her. I spent nearly an hour on the phone with her, comforting her and reassuring her. "I love you." "I'm proud of you." "This isn't a 'mistake', it's something to celebrate." "I am here for you every step of the way through this." "You're the love of my life. Maybe we didn't plan this, but we'll do ok. Let's face the future together as a team, baby." "You know this means you're my wife now. I didn't expect to ask you this way, and I wanted to do it next year, but please, marry me, and I'll do my best to care for you and our baby." "Thank you for giving me the gift of fatherhood. I'll be the best daddy I possibly can." I told her the gameplan - We take a week to gather our thoughts, relax, and seriously think about what we're going to do. Next weekend, I invite everyone in our families out to dinner, and we break the news. She agreed. Then, during that 'thinking' week, everyone between our families, and our greater friend group, got lice. Never knew what caused it. For whatever reason, this angers her mother, who starts a fight with mine. Before I get a chance to explain anything, her mother forcibly cuts the relationship off. I try to get hold of the family and explain that we can't just 'cut it off' - she's pregnant. They need to know. They don't answer. They refuse to. They disappear off the face of the fucking planet for 7 weeks. Their cars are all gone. They're not at their house. My family can't contact them. They aren't answering their phones or computers. I file a police report because I think something's wrong. They come back, but won't contact me. They move homes. For two years more, I think there's a child floating out there, in the adoption system, or god forbid, being raised by the man she probably left me for. She comes back to my home, those 2 years later, in mid 2016, to tell me "Hey, I aborted, get fucked." Not her words, they were more "Eloquent", but still. It left me staring down the barrel of a 12 for 3 months. For 8 years, I avoided dating and relationships. I stopped caring for myself and became a hoarder. I gained 90 pounds. Then corona hit and turned me into an even worse hermit and misanthrope. A month ago (August 2024), I get a wild hair to reach out again. I ask her to tell me the truth about what happened. Did she really abort? Did she give up my son? Turns out, no. She faked the test all along, and strung me on for 8 years down the worst possible mental abuse I could have received . Amy, why? Why did you destroy my faith in, and understanding of love, intimacy, family, and relationsips? You were such a beautiful and bubbly girl when I met you. So kind and sweet, so full of life. What made you become so evil? What did I do? Was I the reason?

[@mikewojnar6254]

Never marry!

[@NorthHollywood]

One of the greatest trolls ever. Gotta give her credit.

[@thiefonthecross7552]

Demons inhabit many.

[@Roddy_Zeh]

This is one of the numerous other reasons why men are avoiding relationships altogether, worldwide. I'm sorry you went through this, friend. 🫂 I hope things can go better to you. But one word of advice? Don't put all that blame on yourself. And, I dunno if you're still in contact with her, but I'd recommend cutting all contact and ties with all of them, permanently. No one who does such thing deserve our good feelings, not even our presence. I don't advise you to hate on them, no. But certainly find, in yourself and in those who love you, the strength to let go and move on. Wish 'em well, despite the pain they [mainly _she_ ] put you through...but wish yourself *_better_* , because you deserve it. Take care and, once again, I hope everything works out for you in the end. 🙏🏻

[@ROOSTERYEYEAH]

The next step is to give up on this world, download some Bible audio books, look for a closer church (Catholic or at most evangelical) stay focused on what you learn with time there, Based on your spiritual level, put your trust in a woman who fit your pattern. I really sympathized with your story and pain. "If the world hates you, keep in mind that before it hated me, do not hate the one who hates you. Truly I say to you, evildoers have received their reward on earth, but those who love their enemies are great in the kingdom of Heaven"~Jesus Don't be stubborn, give the book a chance, and don't feel bad about getting stuck in certain parables that have double or many meanings at certain times, the church you are looking for will clarify your understanding on the subject and embrace your inner pain. And focus on reading at least until Matheus, you won't regret it! Keep persevering🙏😊 Don't give up❤

[@MalakSi-qg9gg]

Thank u for making these types of videos, it makes me feel peaceful .. thanks ❤️

[@eventuell_eva]

i don‘t understand how people can love another person. I like my family and friends, but i never fall in love with someone. When my friends tell about their crushs i feel so alone, cause i just can‘t feel this feeling. I hope someday there will be a person i find cute enough to fall in love with.

[@MaggieSue327]

i wonder that same thing... i suppose we'll just have to manage until then i always wonder why i'm like this..

[@amosuzumaki5757]

I am the reason, most of the time. At least I think so, because only the worst things happen when I try to be independent and try to help. But at least I know that if I change, hopefully everything will go back to being better.

[@cccc8877]

thank you for this music

[@Madita_nsn]

I tried talking myself into that.. just look around. Really see and try watching how you was made out to be. Choose who and what you ant to be even if it’s nothing at all. Still better than what someone made out

[@unidentifiedbiomass4106]

boy do I feel that title, good work

[@L1vvv_j]

Yes, I was the reason. The one that keep you with the energy to be awake for hours just to talk about our lives, the nights of laughter, games, and growth. I am the reason why you cried and broke down in front of your psychologist, I'm sorry. I told you numerous times that first we should fix our problems individually, I offered you all my support but you said you didn't want to get out of that depression. You are the reason why I believe in the phrase "right person, wrong time", even though I don't talk to you anymore I always think of you and have a certain esteem, you know I am agnostic but If I pray it is always for you. I know you will find YOUR REASON to keep going.

[@22--_.-_.-._-279]

Не может быть, а так и есть. В своих проблемах виновата я сама, это всё из-за меня 😔 но как же всё исправить, я не знаю, всё так сложно 😢

[@damianpalavecino8633]

Damn the title hit me

[@HachikōTheHyergal]

It has taken me some time to accept or to even recognize it, but yes; I was indeed always the reason..

[@trc_loupi]

Idk what’s wrong with me. I’ve never been through a hard faze in my life but I’m just filled up with this anger and sadness inside of me for no particularly reasons.

[@ROOSTERYEYEAH]

You're probably younger than me, and I understand everything you're going through, because I identified with my past self, so I'm going to assure you of something that you won't understand how and why, but it's necessary for you to start take small doses of spirituality and seek to understand what is currently happening in the world, which is not very good and I assure you that in the next 5 it will not be good at all. Anyway, I would recommend you watch the anime "Vinland Saga" try searching on your streaming platform or search on Google or the internet in general what do you think and try to absorb as much of the anime's teachings as possible and give it a chance, you won't regret it at all in the end😊🙏 And you'll see everything different Keep persevering

[@ROOSTERYEYEAH]

You probably also dream about violence very often, right? You recreate images and in the end nothing makes sense and everything becomes a total void and then with a heavy head you finally sleep. I hope it's similar.

[@Стакан228]

У меня 2 раз яйцо скручивание случилось мне возможно будут делать операцию удалять его Мне так страшно я даже боюсь такое представить будто неизбежное которое настанет надеюсь это обойдётся так страшно у меня до этого небыло операции а тут резко операция... Незнаю кто увидит надеюсь у вас всё хорошо 😓

[@LOVE.550]

Держись дружище ❤ надеюсь всё будет хорошо

[@kkghe77]

내 의지대로 바꿀 수 있는 건 나라는 말을 듣고서, 모든 문제에서 나의 모든 것을 후회하게 되었다. 말 그대로 내 생각대로 바꿀 수 있는 건 오직 나뿐이라. 나는 이미 일어난 일에 내가 그러지 않았다면 이라는 죄책감으로 스스로를 죽여가고 있었다. 그마저도 내 잘못이라고, 어쩌면 문제는 나였을지도 모른다고 되뇌였다.

[@withonlyme18]

beautiful playlist

[@fernando-xl8qn]

Un día estaba solo en mi casa, era un día como cualquier otro, pero me quedé sin trabajo y tuve una pelea tan grave con mi señora que me dejó en las ruinas... Pasaron los días y terminamos, mi herida fue tan grave, trataba de encontrar trabajo para no sentirme arruinado, la soledad y el sentimiento de que siempre fue todo mi culpa me derrumbaron, no pasaron más de 4 días y la lucha contra mis ganas de sxic idarme la estaba perdiendo, pasaron solo 5 días y me hallaba en otro mundo, pensando en que habrá en la nada y si ahí también sería todo mi culpa, parecía que estaba atrapado en pastillas pero no, solo era mi inconsciente tratando de salir y ir más allá....... En fin, lo intenté y no resultó..... y me di cuenta de que todo fue tan inútil cuando mi familia regresó de vacaciones y tuve un gran abrazo de mi madre y mis hermanas.

[@renderfailed9440]

I'm 16. I have a girlfriend; she is the loveliest, sweetest, most beautiful, true, and most fascinating person I've ever met. I’ve dreamed about having this girl for close to a year now. I have her now. And it pains me to think there's a possibility that it'll end, probably over some stupid high school drama as well. It pains me a lot to think that it'll probably be me who's the cause of it. I'm not as beautiful, lovely, honest, and not nearly as fascinating as her. But I don't know what to do. How do I get something to last that feels like it could just be a wilting, burning, dying flower? I am almost upset with myself for meeting her this early. I could have been so much better if it had just been in a few years. I could have a chance to make this last. I could live out the dream of settling down with her, but I'm in highschool, for christ sake. What do I do? What could I possibly do?

[@GOLIR4]

enjoy. everything is eternal while it lasts. and stop suffering in advance. You are living on the basis of “what if”. this is terrible. It's a real walking hell in your head. stop anticipating a future that no one knows. If you really like her, keep reciprocating your feelings... I repeat, everything is sweet while it lasts... have a great life.

[@oussadahmed5386]

16 years old and showing high signs of maturity " having self-consciousness and a realistic perspective " that's truly great m8 I advise you to be open to her, tell her what you feel and think be honest and don't lie "if she becomes your partner in the future , she'll be the only person on earth that has full trust on you , so be a man '' Go learn " watch podcasts , read books , ask people from your generation and before " we are not lucky as you to have a great person in our life , but we are lucky we had this solitude to see others mistakes , to see our bad side , to make ourselves better for those who deserves our attention . what is weird is that I was thinking of the same scenario that you are in and what would I have done it came to my mind "to be honest" I'll set with her and tell her I know my limites and what I want to give you or you deserve to get from me , am not sure if I would ever be able to give it to you , but I'll do what I believe is best not what you perceive as best Am open to all possibilities , so if you ever feel to end up our relationship , if your feelings towards me changes, or you fall in love with an other one , just tell me and be honest I won't get mad , I will respect your choice and be happy for tyou keep in mind In life nothing is guaranteed

[@renderfailed9440]

@@oussadahmed5386 thank you amn. Your advice means a lot. I try to be as honest and as caring as I can, and ill keep trying. I guess in the end thats all I can fo.

[@silenthillambience]

hope everyone is doing ok

[@Sectrix2pp]

Yes I was the reason

[@denniswalter4412]

What an beautiful playlist/mix ❤😌👍

[@PandoraGoal71]

Надеюсь, этот комментарий находит вас в добром здравии и хорошем настроении. Кем бы вы ни были, я горжусь вами! Спасибо за всё, что вы делаете. Мы все иногда устаём, и это совершенно нормально. В такие моменты особенно важно найти время для отдыха и перезагрузки. Мы собираемся в таких местах, как этот канал, чтобы расслабиться и насладиться замечательной музыкой. Недавно я создал блог, где хотелось бы делиться своими мыслями, но пока он всё ещё пуст. Мой вам совет - документируйте свою жизнь! В будущем это станет самыми ценными воспоминаниями.

[@LOVE.550]

Спасибо тебе огромное добрый человек

[@hlebec1221]

Спасибо большое 😭😭😭

[@ЕвгенийКулаев-е9ц]

Я больше не могу, силы покидают меня и желание бороться все меньше и меньше, друзья ушли оставив меня как что то не важное, как чек в магазине, дорогой мне человек просто нашел счастье без меня и мысли, мысли что это моя вина не покидают меня уже 2 год, каждый день надеясь что все это просто сон и я проснусь, а поутру осознавая что это моя реальность, это убивает меня, желание двигаться, стремится поменять все отпали давно ведь зачем если во всем этом я виню лишь себя, я так больше не могу.....

[@fahmisahar]

Yep.. i loved too hard for the one who doesn't care..

[@juliosvideos]

i feel like ever since i lost a good chunk of my friends during sophomore year due to a very stupid reason on their part, then my guinea pig passed away a few months later, and i only have like 2-3 friends to hang out with at school, and im still single and forced to watch my sister nd her bf enjoy their company tg, that was the day, april 7th, that i’ve felt alone ever since

[@SabikaImran-hx2ti]

i hope youre okay.. im currently dealing with tons of shit feeling guilt anxiety constantly. and its just shitty sometimes it makes me want to just kill myself and the worst part is im not scared of suicide anymore i tried reaching out for help but no one seems to understand and i hope it gets better for you okay? ill pray for you wishing you the best

[@choccy_smilk]

i know its because of me. i probably shouldnt have been in the relationship to begin with because i wasnt sure of my attraction. i was still questioning if i was aro/ace, but he pulled me in because he loved me, almost to the point of obsession. we disagreed, those disagreements turned into fights. i started taking a medication that made me so much more angry and irritable, to the point where i felt nothing but rage for days after hearing him make a stupid joke. i didnt tell him when i felt that anger, and it festered inside me until i exploded and finally left. i didnt like who i became when i was with him, but it wasnt necessarily his fault. things he did mightve been kinda shitty, but i didnt tell him that they were shitty. and i stayed, even while feeling completely hopeless and lost in the relationship. i know its my fault. but i still blame it on him because that hurts a little less. i wish i was a better person for him because he truly did love me. i just couldnt love him the same, i couldnt feel stable in a relationship. of course, i cant feel stable now either since we just broke up, but i hope i can feel like i once did, before all this. or maybe even better, like a better version of myself that wouldnt get into a relationship while lacking confidence and communication skills and commitment. i just hope that one day i can be the person i want to be, and i hope he will be ok without me.

[@joseranilla6217]

No se a donde voy, migre a otro país me va bien pero siento un vacío que no me deja estar en paz, este tipo de música me tranquiliza me da esperanza y a la vez regresan recuerdos, duermo con estos recuerdos para poder soñarlos y ver a mis hijas que tanto las extraño y a mi esposa

[@박새로이아는동생]

어쩌면이 아니라 내가 문제가 맞더라고

[@celso_A208]

O quizás no fui yo la razón El amor es ciego amigos Temazos para dormir

[@thomasandersen2534]

She was the reason. I still blame myself.

[@thealonewarrior6698]

I'm spaceman, my spacecraft lack faster than light speed, only pure raging rocket engines. My goals are stars beyond this solar system. It will take a long long long time, but I will eventually achieved my goals.

[@Yourbestfriend19279]

It’s 2025 now and I realize this is gonna be my unluckiest year. I can’t even do something that im good at

[@Karlgostoso]

sometimes I just feel that I don't belong anywhere everywhere, that everyone just don't get it, don't understand it, and if they do they jus don't care, i'm so tired of trying to be different, to look different, and when I get tired of all of this, it just gets worse, they hate me for my looks, the way I talk, the way I walk, I'm so tired of this, I just wish they could understand, anyone understand, i jus wish that I could be like anyone else but not me, I just bring awful things to people near me,to people who I care, I just wished I could have peace for once.

[@emreyilmaz8776]

Belki de benim yüzümdendir.

[@fluffy40456]

Расстался с девушкой. У нас все было отлично, но всего несколько незначительных ошибок привели к концу. "Я не могу относится к тебе так, как раньше" - как такое вообще может произойти в считанные дни с человеком, которого ты любишь? Я был хорошим парнем, очевидно не идеальным, ведь всегда есть куда стремиться, но все таки, что же я сделал не так. У меня нет чувства вины, лишь пустота внутри, а также боль и тревога, воспоминания так и танцуют вальс в голове. Прошло уже 2 месяца, мы по прежнему общаемся, ведь вынуждает много общих встреч, деловых в основном. Для нее я друг, а я не знаю кто она мне, я не знаю кем я хочу чтобы она была мне. Видя ее, думая о ней, моментально возникает такая боль, что хочется полностью забыть человека. Но как это сделать когда вас объединяет столько вещей? Я выговариваюсь, но надо же поддержать других "заблудших" людей, которые пришли послушать спокойную музыку. Ребята, я возможно не мудрец, но могу сказать точно, чтобы не происходило в вашей жизни, главное не оставаться одним. Делайте что хотите, но не будьте одиноки. Цените близких вам людей, они помогут вам в самые трудные времена.

[@ZAY.88]

I hate myself because I'm the reason..

[@anamarijakaroglan4704]

No way☝️

[@DimaMeee]

Who am I? All my feelings are gone, I have nothing left, I'm empty inside, I'm empty outside. Like a candle about to burn out. One question remains, is this the end before the beginning or the beginning of the end? I feel that I will be gone soon, but I hope I will get the answer there, why I had all this suffering.

[@oussadahmed5386]

You are one of the best creatures in the existence, you are a source of joy, happiness and hope Suffering is like sharpening a knife it has to go through it to get better or like the pain in the muscle when you go to the gym the results is stronger muscles and better physique and look Change how you think, your perspectives and learn more about psychological neurology and religion " I insist on this one " You don't know how great you are until you see the results of your work ompacting the life of others The feeling are not gone they are buried by you and you are the one that has the shovel to dig for them

[@anarchohelenism]

I miss her so fucking much

[@emrecilingir07]

Hey harika şeyler paylaşıyorsun Türk müsün merak ettim

[@이준-q8v]

롤 연패하고 알고리즘 떠서 펑펑울었다

[@zambame_]

힘내세요 :)

[@theden6779]

Hey guys you are from Japan yeah? ​@@zambame_

[@yeetheeler]

제목에 이끌려온 여러분들, 내 인생 꼬인거 , 오늘 하루 기분 나쁜거, 전부 다 자기탓 맞으니까 노래듣고 우울해하고 지랄마시고 그냥 열심히 살러 가시길 바라겟습니다. 그럼.

[@아옹-e1x]

나중에 님 힘들때 주변에 아무도 없길 바랍니다ㅎ

[@arkmin5326]

Peut-être que j'était la raison pour laquelle il m'a abandonné.. je ne méritai pas son amour, concept que je n'ai jamais connu d'ailleurs. J'ai fait des efforts pour m'intégrer mais on me coulait assez rapidement. Son ennemi était mon ami et j'ai lutter contre cette nature. Je dois m'en remettre a moi même à présent. Lâcher prise et me rendre a l'évidence.. je suis une mauvaise personne.. il a daigner me regarder et me tendre la main mais je n'ai fait qu'abuser de son temps. Ma vie est tellement triste que je ne parle même pas d'un amour perdu mais du très haut... un matin je me suis réveillé et j'ai perdu la foi. Je n'attend plus que le néant et la fin de cette putain d'existence.

[@deepnakkash]

There are too many ads, it is very difficult to focus, can there be a solution to this?

[@severalfandoms5479]

Try skipping to the end and then hitting replay? It works sometimes, hope it does for you :D

[@CaracallaXI]

Maybe..

[@mishkafreddi]

В комментах выговариваются да? Я тоже хочу, мне очень тяжело, я устала. В этом году я поступила в вуз, насколько же бесчеловечные преподаватели, я учусь 6 дней в неделю почти каждый день 4 пары, я очень стараюсь учиться, но б***ь это невозможно. Настолько большая нагрузка, еще и говорят что мы тупее прошлых лет, по непрофильным предметам заваливают как по профильным. Мне очень обидно, у меня есть желание учиться, но как можно учиться когда это превращается в необходимость набрать баллы. Действительно ли я должна была здесь оказаться? Судьба это, или моя ошибка не ясно.. У меня нет времени ни на сон, ни на прогулку с друзьями, ни на готовку.... но при всех моих усилиях я все равно не очень понимаю материал.. чтоб вы понимали, это не то чтобы просто мое мнение, это мнение и рутина всей моей группы.

[@theden6779]

Мне жаль тебя, правда жаль, проблемы с учёбой это всегда тяжело, особенно не в лучший период жизни, я сейчас в 11-ом, вот вот экзамены, а я лежу в 6 утра, не сплю, и плачу просто плачу в подушку от ощущения беспомощности перед жизнью, за минувшие пару месяцев от меня отвернулись практически все мои друзья а тут ещё и учёба добивает, поэтому я хочу тебе сказать - держись, держись что есть сил, вуз это всегда сложно, старайся изо всех сил что бы усилия себя оправдали, ты большая молодец, я уверен, ты очень очень стараешься, я тоже учусь 6 дней в неделю и сплю по 4 часа, поэтому прекрасно понимаю тебя, поэтому повторюсь, держись и борись изо всех сил и у тебя обязательно получится, я верю в тебя, желаю удачи солнышко❤

[@mishkafreddi]

@@theden6779Думаю мы с тобой справимся) Друзья всегда найдутся, рано или поздно. Удачи в сдаче экзаменов, главное не волнуйся, я сама прошла через все это, к сожалению, чуть чуть баллов не добрала до питерского вуза, но надеюсь ты поступишь куда хочешь! Спасибо тебе за ответ, за утешение и за поддержку, очень приятно было читать) Ладно новый год скоро (и моя первая сессия..) все будет хорошо)) Так или иначе все к лучшему, наверное лучше думать так.

[@theden6779]

@mishkafreddi всё верно милашка, спасибо большое тебе тоже за добрые слова и пожелания, я надеюсь сессия будет лёгкой, ну по крайней мере не супер сложной, жаль что до питерского не хватило, но всё к лучшему будем считать, так будет не так обидно, с наступающим и удачи🍀

[@ko_hoshi]

why i’m always the reason?

[@dachewaii]

I was

[@rodrickcubasc.7321]

Quizas nunca fueron los problemas con sus padres, las pesadillas que tenia, la ansiedad por el futuro o todo lo demas... Quizas yo fui la razon y simplemente quiso deshacerse de mi. Quizas no fui l oque ella espero, despues de todo fue todo gracias a una cita arreglada. Incluso al estar saliendo, podia nitar en su rostro la decepción de no parecerme a lo que ella hubiera imaginado, una especie de principe de libro ingles, que tanto ella leia. Al final no supe nada mas de ella, salvo que sale con alguien mas, pero eso ya ni importa. No le guardo rencor, eso no sirve de nada. Pero aveces me pongo a pensar... Y si quizas yo fui la razon?

[@betulsaygn4681]

Ben duygularini bilmeyecek kadar kördum sen ise gormeye zorladin

[@we_w111]

😞

[@theden6779]

Мой черёд, скорее комментарий для себя, хотя может кто-то ещё его найдёт, я не уверен. 1.12.2024 6:42 Я плачу лежа на кровати, почему? Охх... Потому что виню себя во всем, в последнее время я стал агрессивным и злым потерял почти всех друзей а оставшиеся думаю общаются лмшь потому что общие знакомые есть, помимо этого дорогой и близкий мне человек, ему, вероятно я не так дорог и я собирался написать больше, но увы, забыл, даже память меня покидает, ладно, надеюсь жизнь изменится в лучшую сторону

[@theden6779]

Проблема не в неудачах что случаются в жизни, а во мне самом

[@Novastar.SaberCombat]

Everyone will be alone at the end; no exceptions. Face it. Accept it. Embrace it. 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind’s journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul’s fate revealed. In time, all points converge, hope’s strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe’s endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ --Diamond Dragons (series)

[@theodoretwombly861]

薄暮时分

[@lucasdossantos335]

wtf lançou tem 6 min ???!!!!

[@Ask3lkkj]

um br,que raro

[@สุรเสกข์พรมวัง-ค4ฬ]

.

[@ВладимирКочерыжка]

мбмб

[@박명수-q3k]

석열아.. 너 맞어 빨리 내려와..

[@mohmyMALO]

:/

[@simplyausten]

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[@Ненавижу_себя-д2б]

Сам я пытаюсь успокоить людей когда им плохо когда что то происходит в их отношениях когда им просто грустно а сам.... Сам то что я лучше ... Я сам иногда сижу и думаю ... Может это все из за меня может я виноват что он грустен может это все мой характер .... Но у меня есть люди которым я нужен по настоящему которые могут меня поддержать и это даже не близкие люди а это друзья ...друзья .... А могли бы и быть родители но не судьба... 😢 я сам знаю что мой характер не из лучших и своим характером и приколами я могу обидеть человека ... Они мне говорят что я просто дурацкий человек и прекращают со мной дружить да .... Я понимаю вести себя так как я нельзя но не могу я прекратить шутить .... А людей это трогает .... А когда кого нибудь обижу то сам сижу и думаю зачем я жто сделал? Почему у меня такой поганый язык!? Почему?! Почему я такой урод ?! Почему не могут нормально общаться ... Сейчас пишу и плачу ... Не знаю просто нахлынули воспоминания ... А вот недавно я впервые влюбился месяц общались я признался еще месяц пообщались а потом она сказала " прости меня дуру но давай останемся друзьями " не сказать что я обиделся просто первые отношения и так быстро закончились ... Но в этом виновата ее мама но и во многих ее проблемах я .... Опять же своим языком ... Вот а сам пытаюсь успокоить других ... А сам себя ненавижу и не могу успокоить ... Так иногда становится обидно .... На самого себя... Простите что написал это все ...😢