going through old journal entries :)
11:04
I need help making decisions!
11:40
i am actually going insane….
9:39
My health journey 🩺
13:26
Ай бұрын
Dealing with loss 💔
9:17
2 ай бұрын
Talking about my OCD 🤍
10:16
2 ай бұрын
I GOT A CAR!!!!!!! 🚗💨
12:38
3 ай бұрын
How I cope with change 🌟
8:35
4 ай бұрын
Why I left college ✨STORYTIME✨
14:44
Talking about mental health ✨
13:19
Пікірлер
@austinauthor846
@austinauthor846 6 күн бұрын
What a unique experience you got to film here. Have either you and your friend had a paranormal experience in the past that has always stuck with you? I found this to be really fascinating!
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 6 күн бұрын
@@austinauthor846 unfortunately not really any experiences 😂 not much happened but it was super fun! We are going to go on more adventures so I’m happy you enjoyed this one!
@austinauthor846
@austinauthor846 6 күн бұрын
@@raimigardner5769 That's awesome! Glad it was a fun time :D
@amayawithers6803
@amayawithers6803 8 күн бұрын
So fun can’t wait to do it again!! 💛
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 8 күн бұрын
@@amayawithers6803 me too girl! 🥰
@pattisullivan1970
@pattisullivan1970 8 күн бұрын
very interesting I used to live in Edgar I would love to know more
@zahranaini3963
@zahranaini3963 18 күн бұрын
I’m so proud of you and how far you’ve come ♥️
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 18 күн бұрын
@@zahranaini3963 thank you so much bestie 🥰 meeting you has been a highlight in my life ♥️
@triciasieberns9390
@triciasieberns9390 14 күн бұрын
I'm proud of you and I believe in you! Always!
@pattisullivan1970
@pattisullivan1970 22 күн бұрын
Oh girl you hit the truth button tonight, Fall IS one of the best times of the yr as a crafter I get my best ideas during the fall and winter . Good luck with the ghost hunting that is some amazing stuff. keep on doing your you tubes you have a lot to give .
@triciasieberns9390
@triciasieberns9390 21 күн бұрын
Honey, I am so proud of you! You've grown into an amazing human being and I love you so much. Keep up the good work!!
@pattisullivan1970
@pattisullivan1970 26 күн бұрын
so happy for you and so proud os you I really dont know you as well as I would like too bot know you are LOVED
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 26 күн бұрын
@@pattisullivan1970 you have been so kind to me. I appreciate you so much ♥️♥️♥️
@zahranaini3963
@zahranaini3963 27 күн бұрын
“My best friend from Texas” has me sobbing 😭♥️
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 27 күн бұрын
@@zahranaini3963 you are that best friend 😘😘😘
@patrikohman4617
@patrikohman4617 Ай бұрын
If you dont find your "calm place" to be safe and happy in, you will keep running your entire life. I kept running until I was way too old. Dont waste time running away from early life trauma. *hug* good luck finding your calm place.
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 Ай бұрын
@@patrikohman4617 thank you ♥️♥️ hugs back
@patrikohman4617
@patrikohman4617 Ай бұрын
You have to find something to run towards. You are clearly running away from something. I don't know what that something is. But you need to focus on "staying where you feel good".
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 Ай бұрын
@@patrikohman4617 I wouldn’t say I’m necessarily running from anything. I’m more so running towards my goals. I’m just trying to find the place where I can best achieve them ☺️
@patrikohman4617
@patrikohman4617 Ай бұрын
I'm sorry. I kept watching TV too all night and couldnt sleep. So i felt like i was "gonna watch some TV" because I wasnt sure I would live tomorrow. Do you feel an exsistential threat?
@patrikohman4617
@patrikohman4617 Ай бұрын
I know lonley. I hung my "self worth" on being a good woker at work, nobody could outperform me at work. I was the best. Then I lost that job. I came home to an apartment where everything cosisted of plastic. Pursue relationships rather than a career. Dont make the misstakes i did. You are still young. Go pursue relationships.
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 Ай бұрын
@@patrikohman4617 ♥️
@austinauthor846
@austinauthor846 Ай бұрын
Your video has me really thinking. Think of how unnatural it is for the human being to live alone. It goes against what our very species evolved to be as social creatures. It would be like a cat who came home to sleep on a rock surrounded by water every night, convinced that it was happy there. It's absolutely valid to feel lonely coming home to an empty setting. While I can vouch for being alone as a means to recharge and contemplate and work, I can also say from experience that it can be good to be alone, but not when you're already lonely. And congrats on your rising subscriber count!
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 Ай бұрын
@@austinauthor846 thank you so much for the sweet message! It can be extremely challenging but everyday is different. Every day is a new opportunity to make change happen. I try and love my life with that mind set but we don’t always have perfect days ♥️ thanks for the reminder
@carl9939
@carl9939 Ай бұрын
GIRL I HAVE NO ATTENTION SPAN TO WATCH THIS RN, AND EVEN THOUGH I STRUGGLE WITH THIS FOR 3 YEARS SINCE I WAS 17,I IMMA JUST SAY I COMPLETELY AGREE. ALSO IMMA SUB TO WATCH LAY-TAH!
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 Ай бұрын
@@carl9939 hahahah I completely understand! 🤣 love the energy and enthusiasm queen. Thanks for the sub! ♥️
@chrispate66881
@chrispate66881 Ай бұрын
Don't be sad when you come home alone... thank of it as a trophy, of peace. It is where you may need a companion but only in your own time.😊😊😊
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 Ай бұрын
@@chrispate66881 these are my exact thoughts! Sometimes it’s hard but keeping that mindset is healing ♥️ much love
@mowtivatedmechanic1172
@mowtivatedmechanic1172 Ай бұрын
How is it dudes are lonely and you (OP) are lonely and yet y’all can’t come together. Best wishes kid.
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 Ай бұрын
@@mowtivatedmechanic1172 😂😂
@toxicslothgaming1962
@toxicslothgaming1962 Ай бұрын
I just want a gf bro
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 Ай бұрын
@@toxicslothgaming1962 😂 this cracked me up lmao
@pattisullivan1970
@pattisullivan1970 Ай бұрын
wonderful advise sweetie and believe it or not I really need to hear it you are such a sweet girl and I look forward to your talks thank you
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 Ай бұрын
@@pattisullivan1970 aww 🥹 that is so sweet! I’m so glad you enjoyed ♥️
@triciasieberns9390
@triciasieberns9390 Ай бұрын
What if you were to do it in small increments. Move somewhere close by, but far enough that you feel gone. Then you'd see what it's like and know whether or not it's what you want, but with a security blanket? Champaign is a good candidate. Plus you could go to school.
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 Ай бұрын
@@triciasieberns9390 I will never ever go to Champaign 😂
@austinauthor846
@austinauthor846 Ай бұрын
As someone with a limited budget and endless dreams trying to be an indie author and cartoon creator, I love that you know what you want and have a real dream. Sounds like you know exactly what it is you need for yourself. The place you’re in doesn’t sound good for you in the slightest. There is comfort in security, but then again, you never want to be stuck in loop. Working just enough to survive but not enough to achieve the life you want to me is no life worth living. I don’t even think it’s necessary to say what it is you should do because I think you know what it is that you’d most want to do; and that is pursuing your dream place and taking the dive. It’s really inspiring seeing you put your inner most struggles out there and articulate them for people online. Rooting for you!
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 Ай бұрын
@@austinauthor846 aww you are so so kind! It really has taken me awhile to figure out what it is I’m meant to do and I believe I have. At this point, it’s not a want, it’s a need. I’ve always felt the restraint of living in this tiny town where everyone lacks empathy and has forgotten their dreams. I’m rooting for you as well! It’s never too late to make your dreams happen! 😊
@pattisullivan1970
@pattisullivan1970 Ай бұрын
sweetie follow your heart as you said you are young don't wait till your dreams fade away and you regret not doing what you want
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 Ай бұрын
@@pattisullivan1970 aww thank you. I honestly feel like it’s something I need to do more than want! I just have never been there so it’s a little frightening and I’d be going alone. But I know I have to for me ♥️ thanks for the insight!
@ProfessionalCrayonConsumer
@ProfessionalCrayonConsumer Ай бұрын
I just watched the entire lotr trilogy in one day and was up till 4 am reading the hobbit. Now I have a sudden urge to binge all of Tolkien’s books. So I know the feeling😂
@madd7e
@madd7e Ай бұрын
i recently got rlly into star wars too! watched phantom menace in theater on may 5th and fell into a hole lol. anakin is my fav so the first three movies are obviously the best imo. but for the shows mandalorian is surprisingly good also acolyte is currently releasing and kinda fire but the episodes are so short!!!!
@madd7e
@madd7e Ай бұрын
also why does everyone hate jar jar hes funny and stupid and lucky thats the whole point
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 Ай бұрын
@@madd7e haha I agree I love jar jar! I just finished revenge of the sith last night! I love anakin too, as well as Han Solo. ♥️♥️ can’t wait to watch all of the shows!
@user-ci6ng6nb4o
@user-ci6ng6nb4o Ай бұрын
it's so relatable. I also become obsessed with something easily😭😭😭
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 Ай бұрын
@@user-ci6ng6nb4o yeah it truly does not take much for me to completely devote my entire life to something lmao
@Jemmvs
@Jemmvs Ай бұрын
new to the channel CANT WAIT TO SEE MORE OF YOUR CONTENT
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 Ай бұрын
@@Jemmvs aww thank you! That’s very sweet 🥹♥️
@awwcrapDUDE
@awwcrapDUDE Ай бұрын
Yooo Star Wars is my joint! im working on a sci fi novel right now
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 Ай бұрын
@@awwcrapDUDE that’s awesome!!
@gabriellaguillot6305
@gabriellaguillot6305 Ай бұрын
Stop I love this!! 🫶🏼🫶🏼
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 Ай бұрын
@@gabriellaguillot6305 aww I’m so glad!! Thank you for the sweet comment ♥️ have a wonderful day!
@kenziejade0323
@kenziejade0323 Ай бұрын
You’re amazing! 🫶
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 Ай бұрын
@@kenziejade0323 thank you Kenzie! ♥️ I love you 🥰
@one.ebrown
@one.ebrown Ай бұрын
First comment. Good suff Raimi
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 Ай бұрын
@@one.ebrown aww thank you!!
@simeacalvinlifeobserver3741
@simeacalvinlifeobserver3741 2 ай бұрын
Was here *(places Flag on Comment section)*
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 2 ай бұрын
Haha I love this 😆
@simeacalvinlifeobserver3741
@simeacalvinlifeobserver3741 2 ай бұрын
Fellow Vegan nice info. not sure what to suggest but. Eat melons???? I hear berries are great too?
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@sajjadursajjad-rc3li 2 ай бұрын
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@triciasieberns9390
@triciasieberns9390 2 ай бұрын
I've always been so proud of your decision to become vegetarian. We've had some pretty gross vegetarian recipes, haven't we? 😂I tried to fix food for you to match what we ate to show you how proud I was. You're so strong, my girl. I love you!
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 2 ай бұрын
Thanks mom 💞💞💞💞
@simeacalvinlifeobserver3741
@simeacalvinlifeobserver3741 2 ай бұрын
Does your Father go to your KZbin also??? Hi to your MOM!!!😁😁
@raphaelregan5809
@raphaelregan5809 2 ай бұрын
You are beautiful 😊
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 2 ай бұрын
Aww thank you so much! That was so kind of you 💗💗💗
@raphaelregan5809
@raphaelregan5809 2 ай бұрын
My pleasure! 🤗 You really have a pretty face and nice hair. I'll watch your other videos. See you 🥰
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 2 ай бұрын
Just realized there was a random text box placed on the video? Sorry about that! 😆
@Lniy.
@Lniy. 2 ай бұрын
You're not alone and you're stronger than you think you are. Stay strong and safe. You got this ^-^!
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 2 ай бұрын
Aww you’re so sweet! You as well! None of us would be here without the lovely people around us 🤍
@triciasieberns9390
@triciasieberns9390 2 ай бұрын
I always have to interrupt my train of thought when my ocd is bad. Sometimes it's hard to recognize myself with my ocd because that train of numbers or phrase is the subject of my entire focus. I have to be doing something with my body and my mind to get it away. When it tries to come back, I yell, "no" to myself and interrupt it.
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 2 ай бұрын
Whatever works 🤍 thanks for the ocd mom 😂 nah I’m just kidding
@lilshindy9292
@lilshindy9292 3 ай бұрын
Look into Erie PA
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 3 ай бұрын
Thanks for the suggestion ☺️
@lilshindy9292
@lilshindy9292 3 ай бұрын
@@raimigardner5769 it has lots of trails, the peninsula which is a free state park, cold long winters with lots of snow, and a pretty low cost of living. It’s 2 hours from Pittsburgh, less than two away from Cleveland, and 3 from Niagara Falls.
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 3 ай бұрын
@@lilshindy9292 that sounds absolutely magical!! I will be looking it it tonight! ❤️ hope you have a great weekend!
@TheFireking101
@TheFireking101 3 ай бұрын
The most important thing is to pick somewhere that makes you feel inspired and want to live there. If you're looking for affordable, the Carolinas are good options. Lots of places to hike and kayak. Generally good people. If you're looking for somewhere more adventurous then Colorado is a great option. It can be expensive to live in Denver, but that's not the only place there. It's a beautiful state with both deserts and ski resorts at the same time. Picking somewhere within Uhaul driving range is ideal, but truthfully, just find somewhere that you feel compelled to go and you'll make it work. If it's not too far, you could even visit for a day or a few, and see how you like it. Hope that helps. ^.^
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 3 ай бұрын
I’ve been thinking about getting plane tickets or scheduling a road trip to the place I like the most with my mom. This is most definitely helpful! I have always wanted to go to Colorado, but I’d be down for just about anywhere ❤️
@kenzie5450
@kenzie5450 3 ай бұрын
Just stumbled on your page and I love your content- I followed and am excited for more videos!
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 3 ай бұрын
Aww that is so sweet! Thank you so much! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
@ashiyabreale
@ashiyabreale 3 ай бұрын
congrats💕
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 3 ай бұрын
Thank you!!! 🤍
@triciasieberns9390
@triciasieberns9390 3 ай бұрын
Yay!!! We did it!! Finally!!
@PaigeAnn-cq2ep
@PaigeAnn-cq2ep 3 ай бұрын
IM SO HAPPY FOR U !!!!🎉
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 3 ай бұрын
Thank you!!! Oh gosh it’s been CRAZY these past few months. Thank you for the support! 🤍🤍
@triciasieberns9390
@triciasieberns9390 3 ай бұрын
Who's Afraid of Little Old Me? And Fortnight. And Alchemy. Okay, so all of them!
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 3 ай бұрын
Living for these tracks 🔥 fire picks mom
@triciasieberns9390
@triciasieberns9390 3 ай бұрын
@@raimigardner5769 Thanks!!
@abundantlyinspired
@abundantlyinspired 4 ай бұрын
Love your hair💝and isn't it the greatest when you find a clump of clothes you love all together at the thrift store? 😊
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 4 ай бұрын
Thank you so much 🥹💕 and yes!! I truly hit the jackpot 🤣
@liyanincreates
@liyanincreates 4 ай бұрын
This came up as I was gonna eat so this was perfect queen
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 4 ай бұрын
Aww thank you!! I love watching videos when I eat too 💗
@caeriohas101
@caeriohas101 4 ай бұрын
Growing into adulthood is so unbelievably uncomfortable and hard. I love the idea even at 26 of starting to journal my feelings and see the ebbs and flows. ❤
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 4 ай бұрын
It’s definitely helpful for me 💗
@jenniferhatton8496
@jenniferhatton8496 4 ай бұрын
Why is sitting in the car so therapeutic? That is my go to decompression spot!
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 4 ай бұрын
There’s something about being alone in a warm car in a different scene. I always have my best conversations with people in the car.
@theultimatejack3360
@theultimatejack3360 4 ай бұрын
Cats hell yeahhhhhh 🐈
@kiwimiolk8853
@kiwimiolk8853 4 ай бұрын
I had a pretty similar experience with my mental health getting worse alone in a small dorm, but since I valued the experience of living on my own I have been trying to ride it out (moving out of the dorms as soon as I could). Instead of working on my mental health, I changed majors, loading way more work onto myself. The stresses from the cost and amount of time I've invested into school has been keeping me enrolled.Last term I was feeling debilitatingly overwhelmed, anxious, and depressed to the point where I haven't been able to do much of anything anymore lately. I'm finally stepping away from school to focus on professional (and self) help before I plan to go back. Separate from actual courses, Its ridiculous how hard it is to go to school. But if you decide to go back, chances are your credits you earned will still be valid or transferable at least. I hope you start feeling better Raimi, and best of luck finding the path you wanna follow again.
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 4 ай бұрын
This is so wonderfully said. I think it’s crazy how at 18 you’re supposed to have your life figured out. Nobody teaches you how to cope when life gets in the way of what you’d imagined for yourself. I’m glad you’re doing better and took the time to take care of you! Best of luck to you ♥️
@RED6UA
@RED6UA 4 ай бұрын
You'll be alright, everbody has things they struggle with.!
@raimigardner5769
@raimigardner5769 4 ай бұрын
Exactly! 💕