Been thinking about you. I lost my mom when I was 24 and our relationship had been a rollercoaster. I hope you’re finding peace love. It gets easier in time.

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They were fishing for money. Realized there was none and dumped her.😢

Your funny😂

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I didn't get to say condolences😢

I use my air fryer for everything lmao and this is why I’m constantly replacing em 😂😂😂

Oh Clusie, i am just seeing this video and so sorry for your loss. I lost my father 13 years ago, (he was murdered) but losing a parent is hard. But its even harder when certain truths come out. I am a nurse and unfortunately i have seen situations like this and worse happen all the time. Its really horrible. I think when people are sick and/or realizing they are dying, their mind goes someplace else. Like they begin to think of all their regrets and things they wish would have happened. Many times the ones that have done the most for someone get treated badly or get taken advantage of. Its happened in my nursing career and everyday life. I want to be careful with what i say, but please dont hate anyone. Leave them to themselves while you go forward with your life and heal. Your mother may have only been thinking about how she wished her son and her had a good relationship. Which wasnt right, but again, in time move forward knowing you are a great wonderful and caring person. Sometimes our family(referring to your brother) is just shit and we are just in the bloodline with them, but we dont have to engage. My father is gone, my mother is still here and worships my brother who is on drugs, and i dont talk to either one of them . She too would call me for help, but never checked on me or my children.. just throws money and time into my brother. But i am not mad, i have peace. I hope i wasnt offensive, sending you much love, healing, clarity, and peace .

OMG! I can't believe you actually saw my comment. Again, I'm so sorry about your mom, and I hope you take the time to process your emotions. Those unanswered questions are what stuck with me most and still stick with me to this day. To answer your questions: My dad's wife was ALWAYS a problem, we knew she was gonna be with the shenanigans, that had been her track record since they got together in my teens. I do not speak to his wife and have no clue how to even contact her, my cousin found her working at a massage envy at one point and we did think about rolling up on her and taking care of business, but that's neither here nor there now. My dad passed away 10 years ago for context, and this is some of the more tame stuff that happened, there's more. He was an extremely fun person and an ok dad, but he was messy and that was reflected tenfold in his last days. I am ok now, I spent years being angry, sad, and depressed though. Some days are more painful than others but gratefully the negative memories have nearly faded and it's mostly positive memories now.

It’s very true your grief will evolve over time. Being easy with yourself is very important. I lost my dad in 2002 it was unexpected he passed in his sleep. I then took care of my aunt and mom (who had a long illness) my aunt had helped in the care of my mom for five years but the last year of her life she needed care she transitioned in 2011 and my mom in 2012. My sister who also had a long illness transitioned in 2018. I had to keep my head down and focus on my aunt and mom’s care and being there for my brother in-law as he cared for my sister while still working a full time job. All of that is to say my grief still comes and goes in waves but it has become different over time there are more moments of me thinking how funny or ridiculous they would see something and what they would have to say about it but taking time and care of yourself and giving your self time and being gentle with you is necessary. Even though everyone’s grief may have aspects that are common everyones grief and how it manifest is different give yourself the time you need for your grief. Thank you for sharing. Sending light and 💕

Daaaaaaamn. My girl avoided my name like I got the plague, the Rona, the “package”. 😂

My dad left me with a giant mess to clean up when he passed. Like no will, no clear wishes, his brothers and their families involvement, etc. There were 3 separate sets of squatters on his property and one of them sued me! It’s been 6 years… I’m still angry at that man for the mess he left me to clean up. 😂 I think that maybe the anger helped because I didn’t get to truly grieve. Honestly anger is a much more familiar emotion, and because of that it has been easier to deal with.

maam, you mother was a covert narc. she left you/all with anger on purpose. thank goodness im a #selforphan. get a good support system, spouse and move swiftly with your life.

Sending my condolences ❤ I lost my dad this April unexpectedly and I regret not asking questions out of respect. I can't even watch Sanford and Son because he looks just like Redd Foxx

There’s so many people who can relate unfortunately 😢 I lost my dad to cancer when I was 8 years old and he was 37. I am 39 now and let me tell you, it’s something you don’t get over unfortunately. You just have to live with it. Done days are good others are rough. The missing milestones are hard, grandkids, marriage etc. I’m not gonna lie when I turned 37 that was a rough one for me because now I’m older than my dad when he passed. Grieving is a never ending loop. It’s horrible but better days are coming I promise you! 🙏🏻 have peace in knowing you had a beautiful relationship with your momma and you were there until her last moment. We love you and we are here if you ever need to talk. ❤

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Hey lady, I wish your mom to rest peacefully. I am so sorryvfor you and your family's loss. I lost my mom in 1998 to cancer and she was 47 yrs old, I was 26. When she had weeks left to live, I had to put her in a hospice because I had to work. So, I would go visit her everyday after work. When she passed away, it took me awhile to remember that she had passed. Up to 3 weeks after she passed, I would say to myself that I need to go visit my mom, but then would realize that she is no longer with us. To this day, I miss her so much. She was a beautiful person, inside and out.

There are no right words. I'm so glad you're functioning at all especially at such a hard time of the year. Don't worry about grieving for 20 years, or probably the rest of your life. It changes, it becomes bittersweet, it becomes more I wish you could see me now rather than I need you, it becomes I'd love to talk with you rather than just having a one sided conversation in my head. The anger over the deception and betrayal and the shock will dull to yeah, that happened, and it was bizarre. I'm so sorry for everything you've been going through. ❤

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Thank you for sharing! My dad passed almost 3 years ago and it is so tough. Therapy has helped some and I understand your feelings.

Do you have a relationship with your dad?

Grief evolves over time. It’s a long road but how you grieve day 1 vs 20 years out won’t be the same … of this I am sure. My grief for my loved ones feels and looks different today than it did when they first died. I lost my dad almost 10 years ago, then my grandpa and finally my mom in the last 5. My mom and grandpa died within a year of one another. I loved them all but my grandpa was my heart. I was my grandpa’s caregiver and I loved that man more than any person I have ever loved. He passed in 2020. He was 83. So I am almost 5 years out and while I think about him everyday it is less about the loss and how much I miss him which of course I do, but it’s the happy memories that come to mind mostly these days. I do still randomly cry especially when I go to his home because I miss him. I inherited his house and land. My two oldest boys live on his land but I go out there often. I revived his vegetable garden and put chickens out there. Things he loved but stopped doing as he got older. I ride the riding lawn mower he insisted was the tool for the job but wasn’t. I traverse the acres and think about how he loved to just piddle away the day mowing on his riding mower that would take forever to get the job done. I think about how much I hated mowing it when I lived there growing up but now it’s me piddling away on a riding lawn mower when I could be using the compact tractor I bought so it would only take a a couple hours to get the job done. Actually that tractor was the first thing I bought when he died because I for sure was not going to mow 6 acres on a riding mower. 😂. I think I can appreciate now why he loved taking it slow. I find myself angry when one of my boys beats me to the mowing but of course they use the tractor.

I’m so sorry. No one should have to go through something like this. Sending you so much love.

I have followed you for years and keep you lifted. May peace be your journey through grief with the loss of your Momma. My husband and partner of 32 years died in March so I am on a similar journey.

I just love you! 🫂🙏🏽

I'm so sorry ❤

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I've been a long-time viewer. My heart goes out to you. Loss is loss, and you certainly feel lost in it's overwhelming ability to swallow you. Mix that with anger and disappointment, and it's an even harder situation. I hope you know you did right by your mom, and that's all that matters.

So sorry for the loss of your mother. I remember watching bright loss videos with you early in my sleeve journey and your mom was in those. Bless you as you learn to navigate this unfamiliar territory of loss and grief.

I know how you feel truly, my mom died on July 31 after taking care of her more than 20 years and at the end the day she died my siblings that were never there swooped out in. I’m not a talker and i let them write the narrative even though they were never there. I’m still grieving and people do say the stupidest things. I feel like i lost a great part of me and apart of me have been buried with her. it hurts

sending you so much love right now.

I am so sorry Bridg. My mom’s health is declining and she is all I have besides my husband and 2 kids. I am so scared of people coming out of the woodwork (her family are very toxic). I have always used your videos for emotional support. Just remember, we are here for you, even if online. Prayers lady bug!!

I am so sorry. ❤

I’m so sorry 💔

Thank you so much for sharing, Clusie. I appreciate your natural vibe, relaxed mood, appreciation for nature, and creativity. I used to watch your videos years and years ago. I vaguely remember your family in them. Condolences for the loss of your dear mother. ❤

My condolences.

This is so, so hard. I’m sorry, little Bridget. It seems the relationship between you brother and your mother was complicated and full of pain. I see a lot of people turn to anger to avoid grief, and I see over and over mothers choosing the weakest child over the others. It must be an instinctual thing. From what you say, I think your mother loved you, and knew in her heart that you were the safe place, but she maybe didn’t want to burden you, and also so wanted to get past your brother’s anger/guilt/shame whatever. It’s so very sad. In the end, you took care of her, and gave her all the love she would allow, and I believe she felt that deep in her heart. You were and are the best daughter. We all see you. Please find the closest hospice to you and attend one of their bereavement counseling sessions. -At least one. Take care.

There are choices we make as the responsible adult child that we regret because we think we could have helped them live longer or better in some way. That is completely false and unfair to us. You did the best you could given your family dynamics and resources. End of life matters are simply terrible. Been through it with both parents and a sibling and I'm just 41 years old. It sucks.

Thank you for sharing. I wish you healing and recovery from your Loss. I was my mother's only child and she "smothered me" with her love and over protectiveness. A day or two before she died we got into a disagreement about how I was spending my money. I always thought you know, I would have the chance to hug her and at least be there for her in her final moments. Unfortunately no, I just got a call from my aunt letting me know she was gone. (Heart failure). All I can say is if you still have your parents and they love you, never take them for granted. It's been over 10 years and I still miss her like I got the call yesterday. Best description I have heard is that the grief never really goes away. You just eventually put it away in a box. And sometimes you bring it out or someone pulls it out and you experience it again. 🫶🏽 I wish you peace and strength through your grieving process.

My condolences 😇🙏☦️ It’s a long story, my mom was 39 years old when I lost her suddenly. I was still a young adult at the time, before cellphone. I had to grow up and take responsibility for my wellbeing and after 40 plus years I finally have peace because I had a photo of my mother made into a canvas. I didn’t get to spend as much time with my mother as I wanted, she was still a young woman. ❤

This was heartbreaking to see and hear. I am sorry for your loss and all the pain you are continuing to experience. I pray you find comfort, peace of mind, and support.

My condolences. We love you!!

Sending hugs 🫂

I’m so sorry this happened to you. Just know that you aren’t alone❤

II’m sitting here balling listening to your words because I lost my mom in August and I was always her person. Whatever she needed ANYTHING it was always me. I am really trying to be intentional with my grief as well.

My condolences! You have matured so much. I remember all your funny videos from years ago, maybe 7 years. Various hair colors, travels, people, etc. This is a new you, Girl! Walk in your light.

I'm so sorry 💙💙

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I’m so sorry for your loss. You are so brave and strong. Your Mum was blessed to have you. ❤

People are disrespectful in appearance and behavior at funerals. Shay tacky!!!!