my mother died and we angry 😠

[@QueenSade1325]

I’m praying for you, I was my mother’s caretaker we lost her 11/22/24 after 2 weeks in the hospital. Some relatives are really supportive others have been a disappointment, I’m feeling every emotion at once. I’m happy she’s no longer suffering, I’m angry she couldn’t recover and come back home, I’m confused and in disbelief that she died, I’m sad she’s no longer physically here, I’m afraid of going on without my best friend, grief is overwhelming at times but please give yourself grace. 🙏🏼

[@celi29ny]

My condolences for your loss

[@QueenSade1325]

@ Thank you 🙏🏼

[@IntangibleChic]

Unfortunately, many people can relate; however, sharing your feelings about everything has helped many. It's raw and makes you human. You keep it real and I appreciate the honesty.

[@MiLady-bf1rp]

I like the this video with sadness 😢 I too lost my mom with no support from anyone, I got up and went to work because of anxiety I was at work ( rental car enterprise/ Alamo ) making funeral arrangements all while crying and taking care of customers at the same time and I didn’t tell anyone at work about my mom passing then out of sheer panic a couple weeks later I up and quit my job of 21 yrs without an explanation or anything. Then I became a hermit in my own home I was so scared to leave the house for 2yrs….. losing your mom hits differently I was so broken and became so fragile. I’m normally so sure and confident about everything and anything and I after she passed I was so unsure of myself and everything I did. Trust and believe you have a community here that love you ❤

[@LeLa1ful]

II’m sitting here balling listening to your words because I lost my mom in August and I was always her person. Whatever she needed ANYTHING it was always me. I am really trying to be intentional with my grief as well.

[@lovingmynaturalhair]

Sweet lady, I am so sorry for your loss!! I will be praying for your healing. I started following you back in 2016/2017 when I started my weight loss journey and I’ve loved your videos since! Be strong friend!!

[@chadhardenphotographymulti2953]

I'm so sorry to hear this Clusie. You are totally valid in feeling the way you feel. I have struggled with this similar issue before and decided that my relationship with my mother, was not gonna be defined along with her relationship with ANYONE else. What's most important is living with myself with no regrets or guilt.

[@singmrsm]

Oh my Briget😢. Boy I’ve been in it with you for 7 years now. And we’re walking a walk together I never ever thought we would; I lost my mom 2/24/2024. Honey I feel you on this; deeply. Thank you for having the COURAGE and STRENGTH to share this.

[@Mysterious_Moon]

You deserve to be seen and thanked for the mess you went through with your mother at the end. I’m sorry for that whole experience. You have so much patience 😅 Glad you shared with us.

[@sunflowerolivia76]

My heart goes out to you! It's real disheartening how "family" acts when they lose the matriarch of the family. Folks true colors come out. You were a willing participant in helping your mother at her final stage in life. She still yearned for your older brother's love until the very end. Whatever love he nor she didn't get, they both thought could be fixed. Thank you for sharing your story. You are a great daughter to her & she left this world knowing that. So that's what matters. Your true supporters ride for you no matter what. Virtual hugs to you & just take it one day at a time. 🥰

[@Sara-vn2kz]

I can relate to one part of this. When you could tell your mom was trying to prove she wouldn't be a burden, and you could tell other people had made her feel like a burden. My grandmother has dementia. She lives in another country with her favorite daughter. My father is her favorite son, so when he goes there in the summers, grandma stays with us. This summer, I got to join them overseas, and I shared a room with her. I love her with my whole heart, though she is NOT an easy woman, even pre-dementia. But this summer, I saw something that broke my heart. She had several accidents, both poop and pee, both in the bathroom and outside of it. I could tell from her reaction that someone (most likely a cousin) has made her feel worthless bc of these accidents. The accidents are something happening TO her, not something she's inflicting on us! Instead of sympathy and patience, somebody has been reacting to Grandma's accidents with aggression and demeaning words. Utterly heartbreaking 💔

[@journey2jai]

There aren’t enough words to say, as the youngest I worry about this because even though the oldest isn’t worth a damn I know just to feel something from him my mom would do this. Praying for your peace and clarity. Thank you so much for sharing this and being so forthcoming.

[@Charice281]

I hate you're not supported. She was your mom. Do what's needed for you. You don't have to get it all together.

[@MSNYC123]

I am so sorry for your loss. A mother’s love is eternal. It seems your mom was trying to protect you and giving your older brother the opportunity to redeem himself in caring for her during her last days. In the end he failed her miserably and she knew she could count on you. My prayers are with you in this time of grief. 🙏🏼

[@MagicTarotCards]

So sorry to hear about your mom's passing and what your going thru! ❤

[@didiatl]

My condolences to you. My heart aches for the pain I know you’re experiencing. I went through a similar situation when I lost my mom. You’re right, I wouldn’t want anyone to relate. I’m glad you posted this video. You have an online community that loves you and is here for you.

[@jodichambers2271]

We love you and are praying for you. Please be gentle with yourself. Caretaking is traumatic. I help take care of my 40 year old friend who died of cancer this summer. I was there when she passed and I feel like it broke my brain. It was so much more traumatic than I needed to be because of the family. But it’s OK. It was an honor to help her transition, and I know that she felt loved up until the very last moment. Sending you lots of love and light. Your community loves you very much.

[@babs4reel]

I'm so sorry that you're going through this. A friend of mine joined a support group for grieving daughters. I think it was called motherless daughters or something like that. It really helped her. Good to see you again. It's been many years.

[@NaturallyC]

Girl i can relate to this so deep unfortunately. I lost my brother in August and so much came with it and totally unexpected for us. I will keep you in prayer that you can heal and think about the good things from your relationship with your mother. I'm so sorry you went through this and thank you for sharing such a vulnerable and tender experience. You're loved.

[@Petitedelight87K]

What you described was such a humbling experience. I can only imagine what you mom felt. I’m glad you were there for her.

[@1978spears]

I am sorry for your loss❤️ My mother passed from Stage 4 cancer in 2015. My mom and I had a very close relationship, however, our close relationship bothered my siblings and even my father! so much so that they got together to contest my mother’s will. A will that put me over her trust but still gave everyone an equal portion. I’ve had to grieve my mother alone and the court case is still ongoing🤦🏽‍♀️

[@sorithickulous]

I’m so sorry. No one should have to go through something like this. Sending you so much love.

[@itsadealcherry6685]

My mother passed in 2019, and it is still like yesterday. I can say time heals but you do have times where you will break down, but try to remember all the good times and fun times. I’ll be driving down the street and bust up laughing thinking about how funny she was. My mother was from Jamaica and she would pronounce so many things wrong or with an accent and it was so funny. I say that to say, try and remember all the fun, loving, funny and amazing memories you had and cherish them. GOD BLESS YOU! 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

[@gretat53]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Sending you hope for peace and comfort as you morn the loss of your mom.

[@Glittergoddess0]

I can relate, sadly.😢 Not all of it...but enough. My momma lost her battle with cancer 6 years ago. You are not wasting your time, you are healing and grieving. It takes time. I worked in childcare and couldn't do it....everyday felt like a mental breakdown was seconds away. I went into retail for about 5 months. It was therapeutic. Life is never the same without your momma, but it does get easier. Hugs. I've been watching your videos for about 10 yrs. Had VSG in 2015. You are talented, creative, funny, beautiful, strong, and smart!!

[@EverythingBekka]

I definitely relate to ALL of it 😢 I’m so sorry for your loss & the grief you are feeling. After 25 years of experiencing grief, I can’t say that it gets easier, but I will say you learn to carry it over time. I hope each day gets better! Try not to isolate, it makes the loneliness worse & just know that a lot of milestones will trigger you. You will always miss her love & memory, but she’s always with you in your heart & your spirit. I’m glad you shared your story. Not many people understand the pain of grief ❤️‍🩹

[@chinuabahtisrael6826]

My sincere condolences to you and your family! But, classic Clusie…master story teller! Hilarious!! Life be lifin. I had to find humor during my cancer survival. 🤷🏾‍♀️

[@dollcrazy300]

I can so relate. My mom died last year just after Mother’s Day. My younger brother has been so hateful to me ever since-and these holidays are making things more difficult.

[@justyari84]

I’m so sorry. I lost my mom in 2021. It was hard. I went to therapy, did all of the things. My siblings have not been able to heal and I struggle with seeing their suffering. I still miss her, so much. At times I feel angry because I can’t pick up a phone and call her. Other times I smile and remember her. I don’t think it’ll ever be easy, but I’m grateful for the time I had her. Hugs to you!

[@Day1Million]

Cluuuuu 🥺 I wasn’t ready for this (then clicked on it anyway…) My condolences most obviously but on an even deeper level, I’m so proud of you for doing this. For those of us who have been riding along with you for a while, I’m sure I can speak for all of us when I say we will hold this space for you to grieve mama whenever and for however, long you need to! I will be checking on you. And as for your brother … No excuses for him, but he’s obviously chosen how to “deal” with his problems. he is going through his own hell while still here on earth so he’ll have to answer for those actions at the bottom of the bottle of his choice…

[@janemarsh4762]

I’m so sorry for your loss. You are so brave and strong. Your Mum was blessed to have you. ❤

[@sueallen1945]

I’m so sorry you lost your mom and had to go through such a traumatic experience. I really think your mom was desperate for her son’s love and for him to prove it by living with him. I’m sorry her heart was broken again. Sending you much love and support.❤

[@Magnetic_718]

My condolences,Clusie. You’re in my prayers.🙏🏾✝️🛐

[@hellybelle5]

I'm so, so sorry Clusie! ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ I've been thinking about you for the past few weeks, and kept meaning to look for one of your videos to see what's what, so I had no idea your lovely Mama was so poorly ❤❤❤❤ It won't let me post unless it's in response to another post 😳

[@sheisheycoco]

I’m so sorry for your loss. I wish you received the support you deserved.

[@JanuaryB6647]

I am so sorry for your loss Bridget. I am horrified that you not only have to go through the pain of losing your mom but also terrible family members within this process. Praying for you as you go through this, praying for your peace and healing during this awful time.

[@michellefotouhi4556]

I wish I had words to say to help your heart. Grieving is so different for everyone. My husband has been gone 9 years and there are times I feel like it was yesterday. It’s weird how life continues to move forward, yet still feeling stuck in the past. I wish I had said this or done that. I’m still coming to terms with the fact that nothing would have made his passing ok. I’m thinking about you and sending prayers. By the way; you helped emailed me years ago supporting my weight loss journey and I really appreciated your honesty. Take care of you!💕

[@ligonzales2298]

sending you love, your videos have brought me such joy im praying I can send back a little during this rough time.

[@ANG-kz2ci]

I have followed you for years and keep you lifted. May peace be your journey through grief with the loss of your Momma. My husband and partner of 32 years died in March so I am on a similar journey.

[@resiliente832]

My deepest condolences Bridgette 💕 How so very fortunate of her to have you as a daughter . Ill keep you and her in my prayers ❤

[@tiffanywright6451]

My mother doted on my brother and when she was at her lowest he wasn't there and despite that she would not acknowledge the bullshit he did. I cared for her until she passed away and I also dealt with a whole bunch of emotions that had more to do with the dysfunctional family dynamics then the death of the person who brought me life. Death and grief and life is very complicated and we don't always get the answers to the most pressing questions we have. Pray for your own peace and lightness so you can grieve your mom and move forward 🙏🏽 ❤

[@autobotdiva9268]

thats called overt narcs #selforphabn

[@sweettlife5842]

Sorry for the negative experiences you've had toward the end of your mother's life on earth. You guided her through one of the most vulnerable times of her life and displayed love, grace and forgiveness of her, and this is admirable. My hope for you now is for peace.

[@lisatate8367]

So sorry for your loss but grateful that you turned to this community because we support you. I've been rocking with you for many years. Sending warmest wishes. ❤

[@patrice4758]

My mother went to heaven on 09/2021. I remember visiting her gravesite and saying to myself, " I hope she is not cold." It takes time to come to the realization that your parent is gone. However, I know that I will see her again one day. I am praying for you.

[@MeaganMejia84]

I am so sorry Bridg. My mom’s health is declining and she is all I have besides my husband and 2 kids. I am so scared of people coming out of the woodwork (her family are very toxic). I have always used your videos for emotional support. Just remember, we are here for you, even if online. Prayers lady bug!!

[@evelyncarter3341]

My dad died 3 years ago. I completely understand all of this….. I’m so sorry. Thank you for sharing your story and your grief. From experience, it does take time and there will be a lot of “first experiences” post your mom’s death. I have saved my dad’s voicemails and can’t bring myself to listen to them either. Not sure you will read this but please know you are not alone in your experiences, feelings or grief. I’m deeply sorry for your loss. If you are still in the middle TN area… would happy to grab coffee and chat.

[@TamandFam25]

My condolences! You have matured so much. I remember all your funny videos from years ago, maybe 7 years. Various hair colors, travels, people, etc. This is a new you, Girl! Walk in your light.

[@Nakushita1215]

Thank you so much for sharing this, I appreciate your story and vulnerability

[@NdyTerenz]

Thanks for sharing. I can relate with your experience. Sending you lots of big hugs. I pray that God gives you more grace to enjoy a better future than the past.

[@User-y8i4g]

I’m so sorry. One of the first videos I saw of yours was during your bariatric journey, you and your mom were talking in the car and your voices reminded me so much of home and my people in the south. I hate that you’re going through this but I pray you’re taking care of yourself and holding onto every good moment you had together. You were there for your mom and that means everything. My parents are both in poor health and I relate to a lot of what you shared. So thank you for being open, and please know that we all care and wish the best for you 💜

[@keithandinas]

So sorry for the loss of your mother. I remember watching bright loss videos with you early in my sleeve journey and your mom was in those. Bless you as you learn to navigate this unfamiliar territory of loss and grief.

[@MichelleM-11]

Right, I can’t with immature old folks! My condolences 💐 Sending you support and prayers 🙏🏾💞

[@whereredroseblooms]

Im sorry for your loss. Sending you love and healing.

[@millenialbroadcast]

This was heartbreaking to see and hear. I am sorry for your loss and all the pain you are continuing to experience. I pray you find comfort, peace of mind, and support.

[@fragilefleur]

I am so very sorry that you had this happen. This is not the closure you and your mom needed. Having a sibling with high functioning alcoholism is so rough. She wanted him to connect again and repair her pain and she maybe thought her neediness would straighten him out but it won’t as we know. Addiction is rampant in my fam and my own food issues put me in the position to not judge the addiction choices for themselves but when it’s hurting many other people it’s hard. Having to go pickup your mom alone and with your brother making it harder by doing stupid and mean stuff and being cruel and horrible is so painful. I have had some interactions with family which have made me question many relationships as my mom has been declining into dementia and it’s been so painful and I’ve seen sides of people I didn’t even know existed and my mom has told me stories I didn’t even know. It’s been over the top and I don’t have support in family that way either really. The fam all are across the country (I moved here to west coast) and I always thought they loved me and had my back but they don’t. It’s been a real eye opener and so sad and isolating and then they insinuate that I’m a bad daughter bc I don’t go running to my mom who is also writing that story like yours did and making it soo much harder. I don’t know but what I can say is your mom loved and trusted you and took a risk to try to maybe regain some trust and love that your brothers addiction has prevented. I don’t know their relationship but it all sounds extremely toxic and awful for you. Bottom line is you did the best you could for your mom and had her back whenever she needed it and didn’t let her down even when you felt hurt. You were capable of being there when she needed you and she allowed you to care for her in the end. Moms have some relationships we sometimes do not even find out about until death or just before and it’s confusing and weird. My mom has so many she’s loved and cared for thay they all act like she’s their mom too and I’m her only daughter and they’ve pushed me away like they did to you. In some ways I think they are wanting to have that mothering that you had naturally and they got later. They didn’t want her to go back to you bc they maybe feared losing her love and attention they needed also. Bottom line is you didn’t do anything wrong and it sounds like you did everything right. In her right frame of mind she would be so proud of you and she clearly knew you were her landing place ultimately. I’m sending out a big hug to you. I remember your videos of the past and wondered what ever happened to you. Know that you have people who know about you and want what’s best for you. You are a very well evolved person and need to now sadly mother yourself as YOU would mother and with common sense and dignity that you weren’t afforded in the fam sometimes. Keep making videos. Happy to see you back and sending big old huge hugs bc I know what it feels like when people hurt you like that and when weird family things happen. The racist stuff is beyond Eve the alcoholism and I hope he can get sober someday but now it’s time to steer clear and find your family in people you can trust and who have your back. You are a cool, creative, funny and gorgeous lady who deserves so much more than you’ve been given. Keep taking good care of yourself and don’t fall into the f it I don’t care anymore and let your health go. I’m here if you want to chat in DM. Just message me in Insta @fragilefleur66 ❤ my sincerest condolences to you for the loss of your mother. That’s so heartbreaking and what happened was uncalled for pain on top of grief pain that you didn’t deserve.

[@zsazsa4159]

I’ve learned is people never know the right things to say sometimes there isn’t a “right” thing to say, just listening sometimes is best. Thank you for sharing your story ❤

[@KrysStyleGreetings]

Prayers and condolences. Your vulnerability was very therapeutic.❤❤❤

[@missb1982]

Oh Clusie, i am just seeing this video and so sorry for your loss. I lost my father 13 years ago, (he was murdered) but losing a parent is hard. But its even harder when certain truths come out. I am a nurse and unfortunately i have seen situations like this and worse happen all the time. Its really horrible. I think when people are sick and/or realizing they are dying, their mind goes someplace else. Like they begin to think of all their regrets and things they wish would have happened. Many times the ones that have done the most for someone get treated badly or get taken advantage of. Its happened in my nursing career and everyday life. I want to be careful with what i say, but please dont hate anyone. Leave them to themselves while you go forward with your life and heal. Your mother may have only been thinking about how she wished her son and her had a good relationship. Which wasnt right, but again, in time move forward knowing you are a great wonderful and caring person. Sometimes our family(referring to your brother) is just shit and we are just in the bloodline with them, but we dont have to engage. My father is gone, my mother is still here and worships my brother who is on drugs, and i dont talk to either one of them . She too would call me for help, but never checked on me or my children.. just throws money and time into my brother. But i am not mad, i have peace. I hope i wasnt offensive, sending you much love, healing, clarity, and peace .

[@thedrunktruth]

I’m so sorry Clusie, my heart is with you 🥺❤️, I remember having to remove my dad from emergency contacts for the first time and it shook me, it was 2 years later. Grief isn’t linear, give yourself grace & all your feelings the good and bad are valid 🙏🏾

[@carolbrandley1080]

Hey Clusie !!! Glad you are back. My condolences for the loss of your mom. Please take time to grieve. Talk as much as you like to get through this time. Pray for your family and go on. Trying to make sense of their actions about your mom's passing will make you coo coo. Love you !!!

[@valeriefleury3786]

I am so, so sorry for your loss and for everything that you’ve been through. It’s hard enough without interpersonal pettiness prolonging or complicating it. I know I’m a stranger, but I would give you the biggest hug if I could. You shouldn’t have to carry this alone and deserve so much better. ❤

[@nickytm6967]

I've been a long-time viewer. My heart goes out to you. Loss is loss, and you certainly feel lost in it's overwhelming ability to swallow you. Mix that with anger and disappointment, and it's an even harder situation. I hope you know you did right by your mom, and that's all that matters.

[@freshorangina]

I lost my father and my business this past year. It has been brutal. Sibling issues, financial issues, it’s a lot. It has definitely changed me.

[@Genuinedom]

My condolences! Thank you for being vulnerable about your experience! It’s a lot of processing when losing a parent or someone you care about. The world keeps going while a person grieves is still kind of stuck in time. Definitely can relate.❤❤

[@RoryRita]

Its all too new! You are doing great! And your cat is gorgous, purring. They say purring is healing too.

[@Unwiredspirit]

Praying for you and your healing... Everything you've said resonate so much with me. Thank you for sharing your story, I still find it so overwelminjg when trying... My beautiful mum passed away in April 2024, to medical negligence, it is still so raw, but helps hearing that I'm not alone navigating the waves of grief. A big hug to you! ❤

[@beckya2843]

I am so very sorry for your loss. I understand it, I lost my momma in 2005 and it was hard. It does get better. Just take one day at a time. There is no time limit on grief. Grieve as long as you need to. I still grieve my mom. I'm praying for you 😊

[@constanceoglesbysenkarcin6134]

I'm so sorry for your loss Clusie. I can't imagine going through what you are going through, especially without community. God bless and keep you. There is something called Griefshare that may be something helpful when you are ready.

[@Disorganized_and_chaotic]

I can say with absolute confidence that during loss you are an amazing loving kind friend ❤

[@tmack458]

Wowwww I’m so sorry to hear about your mom. I really loved hearing her talk in your videos. And I’m sorry to hear about all the drama, you’ve been through a lot! Thanks for sharing this with us, glad we can be a sounding board for you to process. Feel your feels girl and give yourself space to heal 🫶🏽

[@ShakiraKGardner]

My heart is with you. I am so sorry for the passing of your mom.🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾 praying now for healing and community and support as you navigate and find your new normal esp during this time. I pray for comfort and peace that surpasses all understanding. 🙏🏾🥹🙏🏾🥹🙏🏾🥹 Keep sharing and we will be here to listen.

[@tmp122385]

Praying for you hun. Wish I were near you to help you go thru this time. My dad passed in 2019 and I feel like I tried to suppress it instead of dealing with it. Seems like your mom wanted to make one last effort at making things right within herself with your brother before her departure from this earth. She still had hope in him no matter what her mouth may have spoken. And when he let her down it broke her heart again which was unfortunate. But she clearly wanted more from him with no distractions or interference from anyone. She wanted it to be purely him but he couldn’t give her that. Grief is one of those things that never goes away, you just learn to live with it. 🙏🏽

[@DaintyDoe84]

My deepest condolences Clusie. My dad died last year, grief is so hard, lonely & confusing. Sending virtual hugs

[@latanyajones1509]

I’m so very sorry for your loss, my heart breaks for you. Take your time grieving is a process and we all do it at our own pace. Yes in the future you’ll be overjoyed that you have those recordings and talk the pics . When you just need to hear her voice you can . Sending much love your way

[@eneleatahayes8252]

Losing a loved one is sooo hard. Each and every sibling and family member and even friends will feel so different post diagnosis, during illness, tough times and after loss. You will meet people you've never met that have or want to have input or comment about things. You are so blessed to have had the time with mum and that's all that matters. She was loved by you and she knew that.

[@thisnaturalgirlislocd]

My Condolences! Sending Prayers for Strength and Comfort during this time and beyond 🙏🏽

[@kristinjayne6720]

Give yourself grace honey. It’s been 28 years since I said goodbye to my mother and still if I talk too long about the experience I’ll cry. What you’ve gone through has so many layers and there will always be times when you will miss her anew. Just know it does get easier as time goes by. You seem to be a young woman of great integrity and strength and I hope you live a wonderful life. ❤

[@SpottedTiger89]

My condolences, Clusie... been a LONG time follower of yours and was surprised when I saw your video pop up on my feed. I relate to your story. I have a very dysfunctional family myself and the interactions are awkward at best and infuriating many of the times. Therapy has helped me immensely to see my family for who they are and understand what is within my control.

[@Respecttheorigin]

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I'm truly sorry that you had to go through such a difficult experience. It’s oddly comforting to know that others have had bizarre stories related to losing a parent to cancer. I lost my dad, and his final month was nothing short of a circus. There was a fistfight between my aunt and his wife, along with full-on house parties happening around his hospital bed. All I could do was laugh at the sheer absurdity of it all. To make matters worse, his wife left him while he was on his deathbed and even threatened to donate his body to science as leverage. To this day, we still don't know where his remains are because she wouldn't tell us. It was a chaotic situation. Thank goodness for therapy, though. It does get easier, and eventually, the pain settles into its own little place.

[@TheNupe96]

Hi I followed you over the years and my your condolences for the lost of your mother and sharing with us. I lost my mom almost 20 years and it would have been great if my kids had known their grandmother. My point is that time heals the heart and loss. Please don’t be angry that just makes it more painful at the same one has to go through a process. you can’t heal. May Yahweh bless you . have .Yahweh bless yo

[@selfcareizthebestcare]

Sending my condolences. I have had two close aunts die this year a month apart from each other with similar familial circumstances and it hurts.

[@joaniep675]

Girl: A. Your self reflection skills are fucking amazing. God bless you for that. I can guarantee you anyone who gets to be around you bc you self reflect so well is a very lucky person. You’re amazing. B. You are processing this all perfectly. You are speaking on it and there’s no right or wrong thing to say as long as you’re talking and you’re getting it out into the universe and you deserve a gold medal for that. Your brain and healing will thank you years down the road for being so honest with yourself by not holding it in. C. Thank you on behalf of the rest of us who get to listen to you being so vulnerable and honest because so many can relate now and will also relate in the future watching this and instead of trying to keep this all in a neat little package inside your heart and brain, you gave the gift of letting it out so that others of us can process our own thoughts and feelings and you deserve many thanks for that. To close, keep processing, keep talking, keep letting it all out, and keep moving forward a step at a time. ❤❤❤

[@Verbal_Ninjutsu2]

Thank you for sharing. I wish you healing and recovery from your Loss. I was my mother's only child and she "smothered me" with her love and over protectiveness. A day or two before she died we got into a disagreement about how I was spending my money. I always thought you know, I would have the chance to hug her and at least be there for her in her final moments. Unfortunately no, I just got a call from my aunt letting me know she was gone. (Heart failure). All I can say is if you still have your parents and they love you, never take them for granted. It's been over 10 years and I still miss her like I got the call yesterday. Best description I have heard is that the grief never really goes away. You just eventually put it away in a box. And sometimes you bring it out or someone pulls it out and you experience it again. 🫶🏽 I wish you peace and strength through your grieving process.

[@lonesesa]

Aww Clusie I am so sorry to hear you lost your mother. I can totally relate to your situation with your mother before she passed and after. Please give yourself grace to mourn and don't feel bad for anything you are feeling. This is not a it will get better emotion, it's a you will learn to manage the emotions and not let them completely take over every moment of every day of your life. Sorry I have to welcome you into the I lost a parent club I wish no one ever had to enter it ever!!! Lots of love to you!

[@shortyvel]

Hi Clusie, great to see you again. I lost my mom two years ago this Dec 29. She loved Christmas. I now joined the golf’s who gets sad during Christmas time.

[@rnmom65]

So sorry for the loss of your mom. Unfortunately, I can relate to your story. Please don't stop creating. Please don't stop drawing. Thank you for sharing your story and hurt. Praying for your heart to be healed. Your mom KNEW you would always be there.

[@annewashington1657]

I am so sorry you went through such trauma. Be gentle to yourself.

[@kishaculberson3976]

I'm so sorry for your loss. It's truly painful to lose someone you love, and you're right grieving is a deeply personal process. Talking about it can sometimes bring a sense of relief, as it helps us process and honor those emotions. I hope that sharing your feelings and memories brings you some peace, even if it's a difficult journey. Sending love and hugs.

[@lisabruins7755]

So sorry for your loss… you are a very loving daughter… I pray peace over you and send a big hug🤗

[@b.j.dee2702]

I’m the youngest and took care of my mom till the end. My brother never helped- without being told. He rarely went to see her; he was her favorite. It’s been 10 years and I’m still not over it. My deepest condolences for your loss.

[@Salvationkelly]

I just thought of you yesterday! So happy to see your face, and sad to know you’ve joined this God awful parentless club. Sending you love, managing grief is a never ending process.

[@ArabellaCharm]

I'm so sorry you are going through this. Your honesty is going to help others. Regardless, Thank you for being transparent during such a tough time.

[@Izzy-g7t]

I'm so sorry this happened to you, and that it had to happen that way. These kinds of situations really show you people's true colors. Take care of yourself

[@ellehub2136]

I'm sincerely sorry for your loss and the turmoil surrounding it. You are an extraordinary person and I hope you hear that on the regular. Much love to you, Clusie!❤

[@tiffnicole5140]

Hey Clusie, I’m sorry to hear about you losing your mom, my condolences. Your positive spirit helped me make a major weight loss decision. Sending love and peace to you. 🙏🏾

[@IIG]

I used to watch your channel religiously and I remember your mother and her voice from your videos. I'm so sorry for your loss. Wonderful to see you as well.

[@kelly4618]

Sorry for your loss. This is the first time I've seen your channel and you seem like a great person. You've handled a horrible situation admirably.

[@leahsleeving]

Sending you my condolences and love during this heartbreaking time.

[@mariedegrace4900]

I'm so sorry for your loss and what you had to go through. My heart hurts for you. Sending you a big big hug xo

[@Daywalker_Lee]

I lost my mom back in 2010 & it was rough. I don't have siblings on my Mom's side so there was no one to fall back on. I moved my mom in with me & got to spend time with her prior to her going into hospice. Can't imagine how hard it was to see your Mom not getting the care she deserved from the start. You should be proud of yourself for everything you did for her. Those who did her wrong will have to live with that regret. Salute to you!

[@Itsallgoodnow]

Thank you for sharing your mom with us when she was here and for sharing your experience of her passing with us. Hugs to you. 🫂💞

[@dupingdelight]

sending prayers to you at this sad time. i lost my mother 16/12/2023 and i had been trying to get her number from family who wouldn't share it or pass mine on. id lost contact after an assault from a family member made it unsafe for me to visit her. from October until December i sensed i urgently needed to speak to her., I've been so angry i now cant do so and never can again. my brother her next of kin organised her cremation which she had asked to be buried but i had no say in. feel so sad i broke my promise to her not to get her cremated and the guilt i have had an anger since her funeral also have been hard to deal with. im sure as you do with your mum you miss her. but over time last few months i had a photo of her framed and i sit and talk to her each day and even though she isn't in person with me i feel her around me. things will bring you comfort i have a blue bird visit me since she passed away and it still visits me each morning. i see it as a sign from her. time does heal and help but you will go back and forth with anger as i do still.