"those type of people" ... Hypocrite

My first time I smoked crack was when I saw my wife smoking crack with a girl that she dances with at a club. She got up and handed me a pipe and gave it to me. That first hit was absolutely amazing. Her and I smoked all weekend with her girlfriends.

Utmost respect brother. I went to my first meeting at 20 and even though I didn't stay clean I knew where to go when it got bad out there. I relapsed hundreds of times over the years and 10 years ago I hopefully hit my last bottom and I'm still clean. I was raised by my mom cause my dad died when i was little. I self harmed as a teenager and the self hatred was real. About 7 years into my recovery this time I got to the point where you were at. Absolutely miserable and spiritually bankrupt. I didn't use but my marriage ended because I was a complete asshole. After my divorce I isolated for 2 years and by the grace of God a year ago I came back to meetings and got a new sponsor and got my humility back. Keep telling your story brother. People need to hear it and I wish you nothing but love and respect on your journey. Congrats on the 90!

Your courage of accountability inspires my strength to hold on to hope. Thank you for being so transparent admitting to your hard truths. It’s people like me who appreciate tough conversations. Was your son birthed with any defects or complications? I’m scared my mine

I'm 7 weeks off ice, it's Christmas eve here 🇦🇺 so alone no family an friends, watching this to try an stay positive

It makes you hell extra charged, I used to be an addict of heroin for 10 unfortunate years of life🫤🫤🫤

He was trip’n off of what’eva da meds was dat dey give u to keep u in a medical induced coma while u on life support I was trip’n lik dat too I thought da nurses was tryna poison my thru my iv I was trip’n so hard I was dream’n & when I was woke I would still be in dat dream state so I couldn’t tell my dreams from reality I was dream’n dat this detective dat us to try to get me was pay’n da nurses to kill me slowly while I was on life support 😢

i agree 500%. i have to argue w my dr every month to let me taper… i’m on probation, so i had to get permission FROM THE STATE to get sober. it’s up to them. if i no show at my clinic my po shows up to my crib n arrests me. my dr reads me the stats “at 1 year on methadone you only have a 12% chance on recovery. 17% at 2 years. 87% at 5 years.” BULLSHIIIIIII they just want my $. i’ll finally be off this in 2 weeks ❤️‍🩹

Where’s the full?

Fentanyl is not oxycodone

I started to watch, then decided to have a drink instead.

You're basically a liability to his business no matter how close you are to him/her... Every month your consumption goes up... Fear of putting yourself in debt will eliminate your life.. for other realistic consequences you would have put yourself through... Even the most professional dealer has to come to a point, remaining God's good grace or business is business... And in the underground or underworld business, the decision dominates or takes power... take it from an x...😮🥱🤭

addiction is not a disease, it's a lack of a proper sense of responsibility, bad choice, medical ignorance, lacking any meaningful life goals or philosophies etc.

Wow, your Mom was the best! No doubt! I had a really cool Mom like that for 39 years as she passed away last year sadly. She saw me sober for years and I miss her so so much. Your story about her helping you through that shroom trip def touched me and reminded me of my Mom. 😢❤️👍🔥 Good stuff, thx and good luck! 💯

Does anyone have a link to the story Bill Wilson told about when he was in college, how he solved a math problem that no one else could? I can't find it, help me!

So I work in construction, have been for over a decade. It narrows down to two types; absolute degenerates, or born again bible thumpers. It’s amazing how we are all one team 😂

Thank you for your story. It's keeping me sober, clean, and less alone today. I resonated with various parts and feel seen, even though we are different. I really appreciated your perspective of higher power. It's similar to mine.

I'm so proud of you

I was a nasty drug addict myself. The line I never crossed was stealing from my parents. Like ok I did cross it but I would always ask for it (beg for it really lol) n I could say that they only did that once. I always stole but from others which doesn’t make it any better but that kind of helped me keep a home over my head. Which I am grateful that my parents never gave up on me even though if they had I wouldn’t had blamed them.

For me it was sort of backwards. I only had that joy and the want to live when I had drugs in me. Soon as I was in withdrawal I felt exactly what you are describing here. But it was for the exact same reason, drugs. And only once I had gotten sober for 3 months for the first time did I realise that all that joy and happiness was fake. Because when I laughed sober for the first time, when I cried sober for the first time, even when I got angry for the first time sober. I could truly feel the feeling and it wasn’t a substance bringing in those feelings it was myself and it’s just so different but when you’re on drugs it’s like this cover over you that doesn’t let you see it’s fake.

Prob p2p because meth isn't that strong today

You wonder how some of these people with insanely dark story’s didn’t commit suicide. That means if you are going through something just know it is alright.

Why does any talk about addiction/substance abuse coming from 12 steppers have to be fucking ruined by the first question being, "clean date?". Why the fuck does that matter. What's your personality like? What changed for you that made you want to adjust your behaviors? What are you about? What do you believe in? What makes you tick? Ya know, actually substantial questions. The obsession over clean date and length of sobriety doesn't mean shit. It's completely superficial and is mostly used for a quick applause and the attention. I do not give a fuck how long someone has been sober, and sometimes even if they're not sober, judge the person on what they have to say and their actions. That's one more reason why the "program" is outdated and should have been tossed years ago. Length of sobriety should be the absolute last thing talked about, almost a light afterthought to do a bit of bragging after a meeting or something. That's it. Not this superficial attention grabbing nonsense where that is front and center. Complete opposite of how any support program should be. Fucking cult, fucking stupid groupthink frat sorority nonsense.

I miss oxy now fentanyl is the real killer

Parrish king Jr Rest in peace cuz Forever remembered as a legend Jan/28/91-Feb/22/24 Hold it down until we get there

It isn’t psychosis

I personally never felt comfortable at either. I found a support network of people who weren't former addicts and then I didn't have to listen to any talk about "disease" or war stories.

I think it is healing for others to see a parent take this kind of accountability, just a chance to see what that would look like is a kind of liberation even if your own caregivers couldnt give that to you.

Scoooooooommm

Okay but what is her Name ??? Social media ? I just love her !! 🥹🥰🥰

How can i get a hold of this dude... i got almost the same problem. Sucks

But also, the fact to have been through that doesnt make you any lesser than others. I feel that whatever trauma makes the victim feel or a lesser/looser or narcissistically superpowered as the unstoppable survivor like robot(Arnold swartzenegher😅 one).. No one is none of those. We are all people affected by generational unhealed traumas. As healing Trauma is an idea relatively true, we need to be informed about and spread share this knowledge to create a trauma informed culture more empathetic and compassionate, supportive, respectful and genuinely kind towards others. On the other side oc the fence we need to learn kind assertive communication style to state indubitably our boundaries and stand for them, never going back on our word

Powerful story. Thanks for sharing. Should be a part of every nursing student and doctors journey.

damn my city man #904😢

Get a job to support them quit wasting your time with KZbin you jackass

Thank you Jesus for the parents I take for granted and the family that’s love me unconditionally,father bless those who are not as fortunate,father show them you are the way ,the only way father,in Jesus name I pray AMEN

Being sober is so hard. 😩

#surferonacid

Good interview

these guys look like twins kinda.

Glad to be here bro. Keep doing what you're doing, the content is great!

Hi, I'm soooo uncool. Never did drugs.

Enjoyed the story!but where all these talks seem to fail is the guests do not go in depth about what really worked for them and especially with meth or drugs like that...how long did it take to feel normal if even you do?was there a replacement?antidepressants or supplements?in depth about support systems?it's not just this podcast many do not go into what worked or didn't work in depth!!yeah they might brush the basics like I was in a rehab 15 times or I was In Novac's house and that saved me but what were the other things?😂

I bet they absolutely looooove her in meetings. Shes probably the belle of the ball

Great story! Love it boys

Really grateful for your recovery and mindfulness! Thank you for your truth and humbleness.

Im binge watching these interviews, and I really appreciate the content and format of this channel. I dont know why you don't have more views. I think your audio levels are a bit off, and that might be causing people to not listen to the whole interview. Mostly, the guests arent as loud as you are, so maybe if you bump their levels up a bit, that would improve the watch time. Youre doing a really great job though. Please keep up the great work!

Puss

Was either some top quality coke or you had taken far too much or it was mixed with something else

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