Clean and Miserable (Recovery speaker on addiction, relapse and recovery)

[@chemicaleffectmusic]

love yall!

[@Humboldt-Herps]

Utmost respect brother. I went to my first meeting at 20 and even though I didn't stay clean I knew where to go when it got bad out there. I relapsed hundreds of times over the years and 10 years ago I hopefully hit my last bottom and I'm still clean. I was raised by my mom cause my dad died when i was little. I self harmed as a teenager and the self hatred was real. About 7 years into my recovery this time I got to the point where you were at. Absolutely miserable and spiritually bankrupt. I didn't use but my marriage ended because I was a complete asshole. After my divorce I isolated for 2 years and by the grace of God a year ago I came back to meetings and got a new sponsor and got my humility back. Keep telling your story brother. People need to hear it and I wish you nothing but love and respect on your journey. Congrats on the 90!

[@grsmeadloaf5550]

Great heartfelt interview! Glad the man is back in the rooms. 💪🏻❤

[@kate4biglittlevoices]

Clicked on this so fast - I twice went off everything including caffeine for just short of a year , what was so difficult in those last few weeks and months is that there stopped being any improvement whatsoever, and I was not happy , not living any kind of life - I would tell myself , I’m not going to die , I’m sure I’m going to survive this now, but , I don’t really want to . I just didn’t want to live a life that miserable- what is the point? For me, a large part of things is that I do have a chronic pain and disability , that’s how I was introduced to addictive medications in the first place . For my experience, substances were from a doctor prescription for a medical condition and given to me by a pharmacy, and for the relief and quality of life, the medication was truly a God send - but these kind of medications can’t be effective forever, we build tolerance - for me,’the options were maintenance medications , which were truly again a Godsend to become free from the opiates -the pain relief of course has a ceiling and isn’t going to touch all types of pain, it’s just how it is,‘kind of have to pick your battles right ? To come off of the suboxone is not easy either , it’s just not as savage as with full on opoiates, it’s slower and longer - but outside of the first 3-4’months , I got to a point where there just wasn’t improvement day to day or week to week, each day each week was the same miserable ,’dark nothingness - it was physically survivable ,’but , I wouldn’t recommend it - I’m sure there is a way ,‘I just have not found it yet-‘

[@talesfromthegripz]

Thank you for your comment and support of the podcast. I wish you well in your journey. Remember, when your in your dark moments they seem as if they will last forever, but they do not. Keep looking for solutions and when you find it please share with me. Good luck and God speed.

[@BrainBurg-bq2si]

I started to watch, then decided to have a drink instead.