My secret dream is to be on welfare and being a "pro mythic player/raider & nolifer in world of warcraft".

Im so used to being alone i have decided to give up on friendships and family. I doubt theyd miss me if I died. I dont plan to have a funeral. Just want to be forgotten and never had an existence. I want to be cremated and ashes spread. No memorial or service as I never existed in the present and i wont in my death. I hope one day these family members will painfully regret the way they treated me. I plan not to attend my dads funeral. We didn't have a great relationship. I dont forgive for the shit done to me by my relatives. Forgiveness is a 2 way street. My mom died in 2018 which ended a lot of the closeness of the family. Now we are strangers. I want to learn my own self acceptance and strive for healing within.

It's a glorious time to be a loner. Christ Within, Christ Without!

nothing wrong with being alone bro. I don't have any friends and I'm good with that because people are like stray cats. You have to keep feeding them then when you stop feeding them they will abandon you like it's nothing and with friends like that, who needs friends? also it's the societle elitism that conditions you into thinking you need people in your life or else you won't make it in life and won't be happy which just isn't the case. I have conditioned myself into not being dependent on anyone in my life and only focused on the things that i can control because people are unreliable and in knowing that, i can live my life on my own terms and no one else. Do you realise how many single parents, married people, workaholics would kill to have as much freedom as people like us. But in order to realise you don't need anyone, you need to experience life first: partying, dating etc to understand how unreliable people are. Also I'll add by saying that people will talk behind your back but then act like they're your best friend when you see them and being independent makes you much mentally stronger than people who are dependent on social interaction to be happy. Also I'll say that if things are meant to be then things will usually just fall into place

Womp womp . Have you ever tried dating black women ? They are the best and will worship a white guy literally

You know why people dont have friends, uncluding me? 2Timithy Chpt. 3 verse 1-6 God knows and if you read this you will know

People come and go but Jehovah God will always be tour friend

Your life is precious and has meaning. No matter what.

If anyone sees this in 2024, the people that you see with external success most likely aren’t as happy as you think! Similar to a high, they have to keep chasing the next “success” to feel anything. No different than someone taking drugs, just a different route. The only way to find true wholeness and peace is to seek internally instead of externally. To do the internal work. The external stuff can be a byproduct of your internal search, but without the hollowness. It is SO easy to compare ourselves but it is important to really realize that everything you see is usually the peaks of peoples lives and not as often as you think. This is why you gotta keep yourself from doomscrolling. You’re implanting yourself with a false idea of what most people are living! Nothing wrong with looking at social media, but keep a limit it on it and spend the rest on self improvement and self love. Remember that most of it is a facade and it’s a small percentage of people that truly are living a happy fulfilling life. Having a family and 3 kids and a dog and cat does not mean they are happy. Most people just did it to please their families or follow an agenda they were told was the right way, not out of genuinity. Very few consciously choose that. So, it is not what meets the eye. I hole this makes you feel better. You are much “farther” than anyone if your mindset is clean and clear than if you have accumulated a bunch of physical things. Thank you for this video. I see you haven’t posted for 3 years. I hope you are okay and well. Thank you ❤

Where did you go

Watching this three years later 😢I'm stack too but atleast I have 2 kids but I'm stark no one to love me😢I feel rejected I live with regret 😢

I know how you feel, Remember you are at home so you may not have to pay for living there, done of us have no choice but to go out to work. But keep looking as some of us are beautiful beings, I know I am

hang in there man... things will get better. are you taking anything from the doc.

Hello from Chicago, USA. I can relate. I'm 36. I am living in a country far far away from my homeland, unmarried, no kids, no girlfriend and haven't had any friends for few years. I have been stuck in the same job, without any growth. I feel like my life is stuck. Tried dating, never got a single date. Gave up on it. I am mentally stable, go to gym, read, and generally happy. But still lonely, and have learned to live alone without or minimal human interaction outside work. Kinda true forced loneliness (TFL) like scenario.

Hello from Minnesota, USA. I know how you feel re: regret and lonliness. I'm very lucky to have found someone who loves me (been together over five years now) but I'm without friends. I have no close friends and most of my wife's friends dislike me because they know I'm friendless and estranged from my family (abusive parents and extended family who just aren't interested in me whatsoever). Every day is a struggle but I just throw myself into exercise and hobbies that involve getting outside. It's the only thing that makes life bearable - taking care of myself physically and mentally and trying to be a good, loving husband. I hope you're doing well. Don't give up.

You can still get back up. It's not too late for anyone. Truse me

yes it feels like i was left behind in my life feel like my life is all gone

Nah man... No worries bro... Pick up some instruments trust me you will network with people and the friends will come to you!!! KEEP YOUR HEAD UP!!!

Cant speak on others all my fam are gone i have one son i have acquaintances as type of friend. I understand. Jesus said u must walk alone its called u press on

Some seem to not understand that when you feel like you don’t have anything, it’s hard to really care about a job or hobbies or making friends or anything in general.

i it bad that im 21 and relate

Can relate with you. The only person I hold on to is Jesus. He bled and suffered out of love. Trust me. This is true. The deeper this can be understood the better off.

hope your coolin somehow

Are you well men? Let us know.

Are you still here? Are you alive? How are you doing now?

Jesus loves you and wants you, your here for a reason. Give it all to Him and put your trust in Him. He will heal you. God bless you, and I'm praying for you.

You are very brave man

You’re lucky to be able to still live in the family home. I’m 50, family home is gone for me now, I can’t go into family home anymore so be happy about what you have.

I'm 31 years old right now. I started young at 19, i had my baby, dropped out of school just to go to work. worked my many companies, and learned that some places don't value you, i left, now I'm with Boeing , a big company that so many people applied and never get in. I feel lost these days too because. These days i just work, go home, rinse repeat. I started an online marketing agency and my company was hacked and lost everything along with $2mill dollars. I almost jumped into a lake and wanted to end it all. I went crazy and lost my mind, didn't know what reality was anymore, i ripped up money. everything was fake to me. I was living good in the city, got to drive all the cool cars i loved. dated some hot ass girls but they ended using me for my time and money. I was buying things for them, cooking and do everything a husband would do for. And they just drained me. The bosses are toxic to the point where I just don't care anymore. My mom took me back in and now I'm back to the hood , back to square one. Now I'm in debt. But i still try to go on everyday.

yes, my live es similar.

Hi sir! I hope you’re in a better place right now. There are many people out there feeling like you. I used to think about the purpose of this life and thought it needed to be achieving great things but I ended up understanding that it’s all about enjoying the little things and moments in life and build a relationship with our creator. He loves you and cares about you, trust me ❤

Well man. You gave the world an understanding of what true depression is. You gave a voice to many men without one. This has all reached epidemic levels. Much love and respect man.

You are not alone in feeling how you do. The world has become very strange. Many people are lonely and isolated now. So many people have lost their minds to the point that you just cannot have a friendship with them so there’s a lot smaller Pool to choose from to find friends but it’s not impossible. I understand that it feels like it is. It’s very hard to find good friends. I think if anyone finds two or three genuine and loyal good friends during their life, they’re doing well. You describe this really well. I still just keep trying to find my “why” although I feel just the way you do. Many have issues that go back to childhood… things they can’t even remember. You might want to look into CPTSD. That stands for complex or childhood PTSD. That sets us up for these kind of things as adults. Also, the adrenal glands can become exhausted and that’s where a lot of our motivation comes from. If there’s anything that even gives you the tiniest bit of a shred of a better feeling, or a little bit of joy, try to expound on it. I feel better on the beach. I journal a lot. I guess we also have to figure out what we can bring to other people. Since there’s so many people that we can’t connect with, then I guess the world needs us more than ever to go out there and help others like ourselves…easier said than done I know, but we have to find our why. What did you like to do as a child? Maybe revisit those things and see if something doesn’t get sparked.

How are you doing now? It's been 3 years, I hope you are doing well. I think we are all in the same boat, most people are dilutional to think they have real friends, but most don't realize how alone they are, just trying to fill time with addictions etc... I've been stuck like this my entire life, and I didn't understand why. Part of it because I'm very selective and I'm deep thinker my standards or values don't align with most people, so I rather be alone. I hope you are doing better. Hang in there.

Your not alone fella some of us are in the same boat as well an we can relate to this video 100% we just gotta stay strong and focus on the positives tough times dont last only tough people do

I'm 52 and all alone

@hikikomori How is life now on September 2024?

4:30 - I have a job but no one to love.

Do hope hes OK. Posting 3 vids on depression and being on meds then radio silence for 3 years is concerning

Seek help bro, be it medical or social therapy guidance. I was there like you but I managed to changed my mindset. still battling but slowly adapting.

hey I just found this video and all I want is that you are well and safe since your last video dates back like 3 years ago. My life is carbon copy of yours so just wish you to know you are not alone going through this!! really wish you well man

Hey buddy, rest assure you're not alone. I was on antidepressants since i was 16 and now at 29 i came off it having severe anxiety. Lost my mother 2 years ago and now i have no friends and no family. At this moment all I want is my own stability and family but my 4yr relationship is coming to an end. Totally get how you're feeling about work. You shouldn't feel bad about traveling around that's wonderful memories. Also it's nice that you still have a house to stay in. I know it's so hard to stay hopeful, I struggle with it everyday. But for what it's worth we try. I heard a phrase today it says believing in fear and believing in faith both takes effort. You seem like a really nice fella. Would love to be your friend if only I'm on your side of the world!

I"m quite similar to this exept i have a job right now enough luxurys and decent money. I dont hide inside i go out on weekends but i come from a small town and it just feels like im running into a wall of everything is more difficult alone and just haters and enemys crossing my path. I wish there would be places were people like this could meet and hang out without interference of more complete people who come in friend groups or couples and look down on you. Being alone feels like just loosing in everything. That thing with the women is the worst its like they tellin you you aint shit with everything you do and erverybody around you is so wonderfull intelligent and well spoken, that makes me hate everything too like you have a curse of satan on you. The older i get the more i turn into a fuck everybody attitude and the fall down into my depressions, fears and negative thoughts, thats what makes you sick and takes the lough out your face wich makes people turn away from you

Maybe your going the right way and the so called friends are the idiots that are going the wrong way,get happy with yourself and forget about ignorant people,the crowd is always wrong!

I actually love being alone and love being left alone. Call me weird but being a introvert is the best thing ever. I am my own best friend 😊💙

If you love someone, set them free. If you hate someone set them free. People are annoying. Get a dog.🐕 or a 🐈. It’s exhausting to constantly pay attention to someone to care someone, even friends. For myself, I have two close friends, we’ve been staying in touch for 10 years. But we all live in a different world, thousands miles away between us. And recently one of my close friend, forgot my birthday. it’s been two months since we talked. She used to say happy birthday to me every year. But this year, she stopped. That’s make me feel awful. I would never do that to her, even we were apart. I would still send a wish to her especially on her special day of life. I’ve been sad and thought about it every day since my last birthday. And this is friendship, that you don’t have to peruse. They always leaving. It’s not her fault, I know. It’s about long distance, your life flew apart from each other.

😢 Get pets, read Bible, exercise regularly even a little! If you do these things I guarantee you'll feel much better! I sympathize you really I am in a very similar situation and I understand. Also try to do things that will cheer you up like hobbies you enjoy. Don't worry we all live and dye even the so called "happy" ones so they are just like us in many ways. Also excepting your loneliness and making peace within it can be calming. What do you think others have? Money? Sex? Friends? Money can't by you the most important things in life, sex is a very brief moment of pleasure that gives you nothing actually, Friends are always going to hurt you and let you down sooner or later so what? Kids? I have a kid do you think that gives you happiness or joy or pleasure? No it gives you even more stuff to worry about and more unpleasant responsibilities I love my child but it's because I'm empath but this also doesn't bring what you and all of us are searching for. Pets, exercise, read Bible and pray to God and do hobbies and stop thinking others this and others that they seem like this but from a far away and people lie a lot don't forget. You are what you need you are here because of God and getting closer to him is the right move not to people necessarily ok? I really hope my words can help you and others like ourselves! These are my ideas and opinions. I saw here many wise opinions as well so I am pleased to know there are still good people left. Bummer is that like one guy said we can't just be a group and give each other whatever is missing in our lives and it's bad that we are separated all across the world. ❤

I am alone and i have no job

I`m literally just like you. Exactly like you. Everyday I`m thinking that I don`t have nothing to live for. The only thing, THE ONLY THING that keep me from not hanging myself is my dog. The only one, the only thing. IDK is super difficult to live like this. It`s not worth it. Life can only giving me heartache. Nothing more. I`m sorry and I don`t want to bring anybody down, it`s just that you`re not "alone" in this. I know what you`re feeling.

Just become extremely poor. Once you can barely afford food you tend to think less about things like meaning while trying to scrape by enough to survive lol.