Hi Allen, this video came up in my recommendations and I'm so glad it did! I've recently come to the realisation that I'm trans (abeit in the opposite direction) around the same age you did and I relate so much to what you are saying here about slowly peeling pack layers and connecting with your intuition. I have also binged a lot of your videos over the last couple of days and it is just so wonderful to see your journey from questioning butch 'woman' all the way through to 10+ years on T and seeing you come more and more into yourself as a trans man. In a way it has given me more confidence in my own transition so thank you so much for uploading your journey here! I think your channel is a fantastic example of just how amazing the human experience can be. Thank you again, and wishing you all the best for whatever your future holds! Abbi.

You got me with the addiction studies. As a trans person in recovery, the lack of inclusion and/or discrimination in substance abuse treatment is ridiculous.

Will spread the word to some local orgs. Thanks!

I just signed up and completed one of the surveys! I love doing this kind of thing. Also your sweater is awesome.

Thanks Allen for increasing awareness of this valuable study. It is good to know that it has been generating valuable results. I've heard about it, for a few years, but didn't realize that it began with medical researchers in my region. I'm sharing your video with some of my friends.

Remember watching this when I was unsure of my identity, lol was i confused. But turns out I'm a man :)

Allen please say something about Palestine.

Hey buddy. I’m sorry I missed this last year lol! But now you have 10 year! Hope your birthday was great and hope you’re doing really well. You look so handsome and manly!

That sounds really good! Too bad it's only available to US residents.

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U are the best dude thx for all the info I'm doing my transition in my 50s had to get out of the military 1st 😢 but thx u are helping so many of us and ur videos will always inspire the next trans man hats off brah

I know its not a big deal but you can always just tattoo your scars to make them lighter.

hey dude! good to see you are doing well :]

10 years!! I remember watching your videos in 2017 when I started t as well. Time flies!

awww thank you for checking in... i am following your journey for at least 8 to 10 years now... I was searching for someone my age or older when I was considering transitioning. In the meantime I had changed my mind or rather put transition on hold for many reasons, but it is so great to see that you are doing good and living your life! I wish you all the best and can't wait for a longer update :)

Looking good, sir

I'm so glad to see an update from you and see you're doing well. Your early videos helped me so much when I was coming out 3 years ago as a late (30-something) FTM bloomer. ❤

Hello! It's good to hear from you :)

Hello Allen!! I remembered subscribing to you so long ago, always dreaming I could be on T like you and so many other guys, happy to report I'm over a year on T now :)) good to hear from you again <3

Hi! Nice to hear from you. Looking forward to your new videos.

So glad to hear from you again! (I used to comment on a different account but I've been following your channel for a few years now and your videos have been of such comfort)

Always great to see a new video from you! Your insights were invaluable in the early stages of my transition. Thank you for being faithful to us after so many years. - another guy who loves kayaking

omg hi! Looks like you're having fun at the beach! I'm guessing you're the type of person who's sad the summer's over? Personally I'm so happy lol.

10 years (this is Markas/Mark using my wife's account. That camp sounds amazing!!

Good to see you again. You look great and I'm glad you chose to share this little adventure you're having.

OMG ❤ Looking good, sir 🥰

Hello Allen :) At first I wondered why youtube suggested me a video of a random guy saying hello, but i clicked it anyway. Then i remembered i must have subscribed a loooooooong time ago. I'm a cis guy who was at the time trying to learn more about trans identities and had come across your channel. It's great to see that you're doing well after all these years and I wish you the absolute best. Your channel is super underrated imo, 14 years of a journey is one of the most invaluable things to have up on the internet, both for trans people and for people like me who just want to educate ourselves. Thank you for doing what you do and being who you are <3 - a fan from India

I have been following your channel since the beginning. You look great!

I've thought about doing Camp Lost Boys! I'm interested in hearing about your experience.

good to see you again !!! ❤

Hello! Just yesterday I was thinking of you and wondering how you were doing :)

Long time no see!

Hello :)

I'm glad you listened to you intuition. Whatever you've done since then, you have yourself time and that's always smart.

Wow-this-I just have had your channel cross my path at such a pivotal time. Thank you, thank you, thank you-you matter and your sharing means more than I have the words for. You are an incredible man who’s journey and perspectives have just been such a blessing in my life today. Thank you

You give me so much hope-I aspire and am inspired. I am so incredibly grateful for you sharing and the amount I resonate with your perspective so much, that in itself has been such a wonderful gift.

I appreciate your perspective and insights so greatly, I practice meditation/mindfulness and feel a relatedness here-being FTM too, it means a lot that you open up in this way being vulnerable. Gratitude has truly been the beacon of my journey. So I thank you, truly.

Lol straight women work really hard to be beautiful for men as men generally are attracted to women by how they look so why should they pay for the date too 😂

It's incredible how our gender identity is inmune to what we think or what the society teach us. And how we can't change it even if we want.

This is the best video that you have. And I think that a lot of trans people, specially the ones that have recently discover this truth of themshelves, should watch the video. A lot of times it's not about knowing if you are trans or not, because at deep you already know. It's about if you can accept this part of you and live at peace with it.

congrats alan! you had an awesome glow up!

wow, this video is the most relatable... trans guys don't usually talk about this! thank you sm!

As a cis bi guy, I love FTMs because y'all have seen both sides and really get it. Straight cis women are beautiful and amazing and UGH. One thing I've found very recently is the CG/L community. If I'm dealing with someone who purports to be an adult, but acts like a spoiled 3rd-grader, it's quite off-putting. But when they LITERALLY act like a 3rd-grader, I don't mind doing all the initiating and and paying and stuff. I have a date tonight with an FTM little and I'm very excited.

Your experiences with housing were interesting to me. Here (in East-Central Europe), the housing market very disproportionately favors women, especially young women. It's mostly because they are believed to be cleanlier and tend to take care of the place better... I don't know.

Thank you so much for posting this video ❤ this is exactly how I feel

this is such a good video i love the way you explain your process and definitely relate peeling back all the layers over time until reaching acceptance, it feels good to finally be in alignment with my truth!

Congratulations. Have always loved your videos. My best to you. Trans rights are human rights: always and forever. I believe that light always overcomes darkness. I will always believe in the sovereign power of the light.

I love Lou Sullivan! Reading his book really opened up my eyes to my trans ancestors as well.

Thank you This is similar to my experience. I never felt I had the opportunity to explore myself and certainly never my gender. Even now I have barriers to entry as I sometimes feel I'm judged for not understanding sooner and I'm even asked why I "allow myself to be seen as a man (read oppressor)?" Idk, probably because hrt would have had greater effect back in my teens when I was still being thrown out of feminist rallies for "being a man". I'm glad you found your authentic self. I'm working on finding mine

Your still a woman 👠