hi!! i’m 15 and i’m recovering from really severe anorexia and it’s really hard atm but your one of the only creators i can watch at the moment so thank you 💗💗💗💗

Everyone here is saying how their mind controls their body, my disordered eating was the other way around, it wasn't anorexia nervosa but pure anorexia (no appetite, ever.) I ran 8 miles on a treadmill with no food (I was bored and put on a movie while I walked.) People kept telling me to eat and I simply couldn't. It sucked balls. I am still recovering and grilled cheese sandwiches taste SO good with some red onion in it and I am enjoying food again

your videos have always helped me to go have something to eat ❤️ ive decided to go to the doctors for help, so thank you for inspiring me to do that!

Her chin is so annoying

And because doing it by weight often means delaying help so unnecessarily, if someone is struggling waiting until they’re underweight to help delays recovery later and potentially makes it so much harder

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Judging EDs purely from what you can see, is a mistake!!!

I used to starve myself as a teenager, eat incredibly small meals, eat like 1 meal a day at times and the amount of grown women that would support this is actually scary!

As someone who is almost a year in recovery this is a daily struggle. I feel so alone in being in that in between of not slipping back into ED but trying to think more about what certain foods do for my body. Thank you so much for sharing it does not go unappreciated❤❤❤

The truth is youre never going to be free from this illness. It will never go away, its about balancing the rest of your life so it takes a backseat in your mind. I was diagnosed at 12 years old, and a decade has passed for me. I know the only time im healthy mentally is when I am balanced in every other aspect of my life. It isnt about food or your weight, it's everything else.

me leaving unhealthy behaviours in the past: 😇🫶 me building healthy behaviours for my current self: 🤯😱

speaking the thoughts straight from my brain!!! i wish i could pause time to take a breather from it omg

I had a really awful day in recovery today and... sometimes it's so exhausting and I feel hopeless and discouraged. I was sitting in panic mode all day. I really needed this validation, so thank you. Thank you thank you for posting about ED recovery, it really makes a big difference in my life.

❤ I don't relate but I hear you and I feel that you are growing and it's a little hard. You got it girl. Be happy. What's the most delicious thing you choose more often over others

Did you speed this up? I mean i think I speak fast but dang girl take a breath! I can relate on the issue though so no shade on that

YES! It’s so hard sometimes 😭💕

You are SPOT on. Thanks for saying this. I recently started seeing a new psychologist. We were discussing what payment plan I might make use of. I told her my GP (doctor) had suggested I see my psychologist under our country’s eating disorder management plan, which gives you 20-40 sessions covered by Medicare. My psychologist, who barely knows me so far, looked me up and down and said “eating disorder management? You look fine!” 🫠😒 What a dangerous thing to say to an anorexic in recovery.

I don't know if this will bring you any comfort, but I recovered (or started recovery, really) from my ED almost 15 years ago now, and somewhere along the line, the disordered thinking just stopped. I rarely think about food. Eating well makes me feel good, and it's second nature to eat nourishing food whenever I'm hungry. I'm not afraid of treats anymore. The obsessive thoughts, food-related guilt, and anxiety are gone. It gets easier. Hang in there 🩷

Having been here, I can tell you there’s light at the end of the tunnel. One day food won’t be a constant thought. It won’t be easy to get there but I find enjoyment in cooking & planning meals now. I see it as a labour of love for my family.

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Thank you for speaking about this.. I find this so complicated - distinguishing between caring about my health and resticting.. working out because i want to and because i want to get skinny... But i'm sure you've got this!!

Appreciate this discussion so much. With mental illness in general, people don't understand that they are not to be cured, but managed for the rest of your life. Just get on with it, I guess 🎉

This is so very true and absolutely necessary to hear. I am more or less at this stage and it’s something I struggle with all the time. That moment of realising that ´im not interested in this anymore’ is a fabulous threshold to cross in many ways, but simultaneously ushers in so many other issues. Thanks for sharing this. I don’t have TikTok so don’t have an easy way of reaching out. However I work with beat and I am a researcher at Glasgow university specialising in eating disorders in literature and looking at the broader societal implications and causes of them through philosophy. I am a 25 year old Scottish student based in Glasgow. I’m not sure if that’s something that would be possible or that you’d be interested in, but I would really love to talk with you more personally and maybe even collaborate (away from social media) in a safe and open space sometime. I’d be happy to share contacts or my Instagram handle as a means to communicate. I just find your account so relevant and refreshing that I had to reach out✨

Oh my god girl, it was like you spoke my mind

I'm at this same point, and it is so frustrating!

Never been through this myself, but I hope you get to that point too. Keep going & hopefully it will be second nature. I want to offer some suggestions, but since I don’t know what you are going through or if they would help/hinder, I will keep them to myself 😂 Be well

Just remember you’re in this position because you’re learning completely new ways to exist. So this is a life skill you’re practicing using in a new way. Once you’ve had a chance to practice this level of taking care of yourself, you’ll develop new habits, and streamline your meal planning because you’ll then know what is a good & balanced quick meals to cook. So i hope it’s easy for you to find recipes that support your need for on demand food.

I really think you will. You seem to be working hard and doing amazingly. Thank you for sharing your journey. It's so relatable and is helping me feel hopeful and less crazy knowing someone else feels all the mad things I thought were specific to me. Especially a fellow Scott. I'm in therapy but you're a really great addition to professional help. Thank you x

Agreed! I always thought i was the only one😢its especially difficult for me to do so when life gets busy and you question whether you are making the "best " decision for yourself or if its simply convenient bc you're exhausted🥲, I do have a little piece of advice tho for anyone who struggles with this and its that even if you add something as small as an apple or slice up a veggie , for the mere fact you felt compelled to do so is already something to be proud of🤗

omg real

I know there are much bigger issues in the world. This can just be a bit exhausting. I’m sure some people will get it x

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yes! Nutrition by Kylie on KZbin has the same idea, “always look for what you can add instead of subtract from your meals”

i love this because i honestly hate new year’s resolutions because no one ever sticks to them. especially since im recovering from an ed its really hard for me to do diets and stuff and just to a complete 180 on what i eat! this idea is super cute good luck❤️

Blending carrots to add the red pasta sauce. As well, chicpeas go with almost anything, add it to a burrito, mash it with some tomatoes and eat with avacado and feta cheese. Chickpease can be added to pastas and salads too, very high jn protein. I just get the canned ones and theh are great and cheap

well i mostly just crave fast food… idk how im supposed to add nutrients to that

I throw a bunch of spinach into basically anything, especially with a sauce because I can't eat a lot of greens due to intolerances. Wilts down to to next to nothing, rarely changes flavour, but can change texture if that's something you're sensitive to

Yes! I've been practicing this for two years now. Now I love vegetables and CRAVE them. Before I didn't think it was even possible for me because I've always seen them through the lens of my ED

I've been both ends of the ED spectrum, now I'm supermorbidly obese (BMI in the 60s) and have to start restricting what I consume before it kills me but it's so hard to do it without becoming sick again 😣

((Edit: i made these again after writing this comment and id like to change chick peas to great northern beans. They have a milder flavor and smoother texture)) I made a more healthy recipe for cheesy mashed potatos for my comfort days. -2 or 3 russet potatoes -1 can chickpeas ((change to great northen beans)) -make your potatoes how you usually do. You could add creamcheese, sour cream, or butter. Add your seasonings or herbs like garlic, chives, onion For the cheese sauce -any melting cheese you like, velveta for me -2 cups of cooked veggies (i did broccoli, but you could get as creative as you want) Add the broccoli to a blender with chicken broth enough to make it blend smoothly. Add the broccoli to a pot, add your cheese and melt it all down. Now youve turned an unhealthy startchy cheesy comfort food into something a little bit healthier with protein and veggies!

Honestly life hack: charcuterie board snacks. I found a container that has 6 divided spots and I put random things in each slots that you might find on a board. And boom ive got protein, fruit, and grains.

May I recommend following @nutritionbykylie ? She’s a registered dietitian who suffered disordered eating in her youth and her approach to eating/diet is exactly that- what can we add to, rather than restrict to make it a more balanced meal. She has some really great, simple recipes for lazy or inexperienced cooks looking for a more balanced diet. I think you’d find some of her videos incredibly helpful! I know I have 😊

Whenever i make pasta with cream sauce I wilt in a ton of spinach. My body feels better and it tastes really good!

I love adding spinach and some frozen peas to instant noodles when I make it, maybe some nori and peanut butter too (peanut butter for added protein) Might not be to everyone's taste but i like it!

adding fruit, seeds can be a good one to add to a breakfast! legumes, veggies for lunch dinner etc

I've been much more flexible since I've begun recovery, and one of the things I love doing for convenient meals that still keep me nourished is to always keep some vegetable medleys in the freezer. Add them to pasta or couscous, or just fry them up on the side, and it's pretty easy. Also since I'm vegetarian, adding protein from eggs, dairy and nutritional yeast has been a must.

for me, it's pretty easy to add in some snacky vegetables like baby carrots/cut carrots, and you can eat those for a more filling snack. you could also add side salads into your meals, there are some really convenient salad kits at the grocery store, so you could mix that once a week, and eat a little bit with your meals throughout the rest of the week. 💚

i love this! i feel like it’s so easy to fall into extremes with ED recovery (no judgement, been there & it’s a totally valid fear to worry about relapse because let’s be real lots of attempts to improve health DO end in relapse). learning to fuel your body with all the nutrients it needs is just another part of recovery like weight restoration and cessation of behaviours. the real work starts once you’re eating like a “normal person”!

My goal is to eat to nourish my body. I like adding a fruit with all my meals, it’s an easy tip to follow

Unrelated but thay scarf looks beautiful on you, compliments your hair and eye color so well!