Thank you for your bravery in sharing. Amazing to hear you’re in a better place.
@dazzax33702 күн бұрын
I was looking a method to end it and i fiund it quick and painless. It is giung to be over for me soon. I am done
@mori55093 күн бұрын
I really hate how KZbin age restricts videos like this when so many teens struggle with suicidal ideation.
@MattCatfish-s8l4 күн бұрын
🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉😊😊😊
@MattCatfish-s8l4 күн бұрын
Trauma causes individuals to be stuck in a altered State usually just before the incident and years afterwards
@MattCatfish-s8l4 күн бұрын
How did he treat you I'm also APS
@MattCatfish-s8l4 күн бұрын
Bloodline personality disorder
@MattCatfish-s8l4 күн бұрын
PTSD depression and anxiety
@MattCatfish-s8l4 күн бұрын
Now studying myself for central state hospital in Petersburg VA
@MattCatfish-s8l4 күн бұрын
Alcohol and suicide attempt
@MattCatfish-s8l4 күн бұрын
Substance abuse and mental health department been down same road sissy
@MattCatfish-s8l4 күн бұрын
Crossroads mental health department lunenburg VA in training
@user-lf2lf6wy4z13 күн бұрын
Thank you, Emma. Your honesty, empathy, is so appreciated.
@mikejc11113 күн бұрын
Beautiful video. My own experience is the verbal attacks from bullies of years ago. Those memories are like angry wasps in my head, and I feel like it's the only way to shut them up. I'm seeing a doctor this week about it, but can't stop thinking of ways to go quickly and successfully. I'm still here tho so there's a chance I can be salvaged in time.
@meameab182414 күн бұрын
I find myself here to get a better understanding of the new & dark version of me that I’ve become. It’s because of trauma and my disbelief that I’m deserving of good things of life is fading I’m at this point of wanting to end my own suffering. But I’m grateful for this video. Thank you for sharing your experience as I resonate with aspects of feelings you had that leading up to your attempt. I don’t have a husband, children, or close friends. I have a dog and work. And even now I feel I’m failing my colleagues and not doing as good as I could being a dog mom. My dog is what keeps me here, mainly because I don’t trust others will care for him as much as I do now. But it gets harder everyday. My counselor said I need to talk to others and to help carry the burden. Why would others want to enter the darkness I’m surrounded by when I don’t even want to be in it. I don’t want to burden nor taint others with my problems. They have problems of their own. I care for others I really do. Nowadays it’s harder to be there for them when I can be there for myself.
@seanscott957421 күн бұрын
❤
@ParisianPaddy22 күн бұрын
thanks for posting this :)
@Fellowtraveller222 күн бұрын
You seem like a lovely person….i wish I could talk to you and make you feel better.
@indridcold498226 күн бұрын
Hey thanks for sharing your story. I'm sorry you are (or were) a fellow traveler on this road. I really feel for you, but another part of me can't relate to this story at all. You have mountains of evidence that contradict your narrative for yourself. You have academic and professional treatment. You have a loving family. You're very pretty, and you're obviously very smart and well-spoken. Now, I understand how a person can concoct a personal narrative that discounts all of that. You can't logic your way out of your feelings after all. But what does a person do when they don't receive countervailing evidence to their negative opinion of themselves? I'm 34/m, live with my mother, literally work as a delivery driver at a pizza place. I can't even excel here, because I can't wake up on time under any circumstances whether I get 6 hours of sleep or 12. I take a handful of pills every day for medical problems. I'm overweight, in debt and spend all my willpower just surviving the day. Zero romantic prospects, and I stopped dating altogether 8 years ago due to being serially cheated on. There's a thousand other things but I've whinged on enough. I think I'm accurately weighing the balance when I conclude that MY life isn't worth living. When you categorically tell me that my estimation is wrong, I ask why? And how? I had an OD in 2015. I still don't feel better. I feel worse. And I'm too afraid to just put a gun to my head and pull the trigger, though I desperately wish I could. That's the ultimate irony. Too afraid of oblivion or punishment to leave the constant pain behind.
@shabriadavis-mosley524126 күн бұрын
The whole “Be strong” stigma is so f*ck3d up! Sometimes maybe more times than most you feel so weak. That alone can drive you to wanting to end it all.
@thexpaxАй бұрын
thank 🧡 you very understandable ! yet it's been 57 1/2 yrs being everyone's dirt underfoot having a faith keeping me alive pls allow me it
@mimig6511Ай бұрын
OFFS get on with this
@aylen3322Ай бұрын
thing is most therapists are shit at dealing with suicidal ideation and never been there themselves so they make it worse. I’ve even taken courses on it myself for what they lead a bout it and what I learned didn’t really impress me much. people are afraid of death, even more so suicide. we need a major overhaul of our mental health training for therapists. i know there are good ones out there, but i have yet to find a therapist that impressed me with their help around it. Im so tired of people saying talk to someone- then you do and no one cares and you feel way worse. nature and god and animals. best healers in the world. go hug a tree and pray. if you have a good therapist- ask them to train others!
@chrisdawson6156Ай бұрын
I'm glad you are still here with us how did you get help
@palapalak.8907Ай бұрын
Thank you for sharing your story. Appreciate it.
@alexpavlides2047Ай бұрын
The judgement that suicide is selfish is a cruel misunderstanding of the disease by people who have never experienced it. I hope you continue to get better!
@MolootyNest-md6tiАй бұрын
Thus video found in good time. Because it is exactly how you mentioned it...your vision is soo clouded and sometimes i am so fixated on some narrative that, if someone tells me otherwise I would just ruthlessly ignore it or deny it or just say they are mocking me. Even my own positive thoughts are shut down myself when I am in that sort of mindset. Thanq for opening up❤
@brendas6461Ай бұрын
I think it's fairly cold hearted that you post a video like this but then don't respond to people in your comments who are suicidal. Jesus christ give them a link, a word or something.
@WaryofExtremesАй бұрын
She might have gotten an avalanche of comments over the years since she put this video up. She might be burnt out. Vent to me if you like. There are kind considerate people in the world. I thought I was okay, came off my ssri meds that I was on for years, had a friend say my partner and I are probably too old for kids, and that plus my sibling not planning on kids makes me very sad, beyond sad, that I probably won't have kids or nieces or nephews. I work by myself at an industrial place. Fumes, hard work, lack of communication with other operators, some not caring to do much... I've got the tiredness that comes with depression. I take naps inthe office. My partner wants property far away, that would have me in debt, traveling often etc... their parents are very old and far in one direction, and mine are old and in the other direction. I'm kinda ducked.. I have to force myself to do much other than shower and sleep, the things I like
@orangestoneface24 күн бұрын
she did respond with links
@annehedonia15613 күн бұрын
@@WaryofExtremes Why are you listening to this person, this 'friend'?
@WaryofExtremes13 күн бұрын
@annehedonia156 medical background and a good person
@jantaljaard835Ай бұрын
She is pretty.
@JulieKelly-mq3nmАй бұрын
Emma you have sad eyes❤❤❤❤
@LABeachBumАй бұрын
Sharing your story with the world is such a brave act. I wish I could overcome my fear of sharing some of my stories with the hope it could help someone else. Thank you!
@MulejawАй бұрын
Thank you for talking about the idea of suicide being a selfish act.
@user-lf2lf6wy4z13 күн бұрын
Not understanding and having compassion for the pain that person must have been in to take their own life is, to me, SELFISH
@laryroler8639Ай бұрын
Hi Emma, I have only come across your channel today and I found your videos very reassuring but I am at the same time a bit sad noticing that you haven't made any videos for about 2 years I hope you are well and hope you make more videos soon And I wish you all the best.
@jenniferfree41442 ай бұрын
Thank you!
@Sam-fp8zm2 ай бұрын
believe in jesus for forgiveness of sins
@mr.-.-2 ай бұрын
I e been told recently that I’m just being annoying. I don’t know how to cope with that on top of everything else. I’m going through some of the worst depression I’ve ever experienced. I feel like I’m a burden. I really just want to get away.
@MulejawАй бұрын
It's a problem talking about depression with people who don't experience it. People are scared of it and offer simple solutions. But realize there are many of us and you can talk to us. You are not alone. We are here and we are listening. Sincerely, much love because I get it, we get it.
@brendas6461Ай бұрын
I hope you will reach out to a help hotline . Your life has value.
@Tinatinatina-w7b20 күн бұрын
It's hard when you're depressed and need help...only to be made to feel like a burden. You're not. Unfortunately, when you really NEED people you'll see who is there for you truly. You're not a burden and you have every right to feel how you feel. I hope things turn around for you. ♥️ Sending love and hugs 🤗
@user-lf2lf6wy4z13 күн бұрын
This is a safe place for us. We care about you. Depression is a horrible place to be. I've been there many times. Hang in there. Again - we care about you
@justmadeit22 ай бұрын
Its absolute torment to feel in such a dark place. You can feel shaky inside as you feel taken over by despair and feel there’s no way back
@shellejano24322 ай бұрын
Thank you
@Alexlinnk2 ай бұрын
🥰
@huaho92132 ай бұрын
Hello Emma! Just found your video...hope you are doing well and your life is good!
@kathryndrew56182 ай бұрын
Wow. I love your video., It just feels so real and raw and honest and full of care and love and integrity and courage. Thank you xxxx
@SailingMariner3 ай бұрын
Islam does not allow suicide,you will see mostly no one in islam thinks about suicide
@palapalak.8907Ай бұрын
Really?
@peterpoloka79423 ай бұрын
Mental traumas happen and heal unattended by a professional, unlike physical traumas where the broken leg or shoulder gets set and made sure it heals properly. The way mental traumas are experienced in our semi-crude society is how physical traumas were before there were doctors: no cast for your broken leg, maybe a stick you found to help walk. Most likely prognosis is death or a realy mangled up healing job. The therapy for broken minds comes after the bad healing already happend and people have adapted to living with those badly healed injuries. Your video had me think of what trauma is in a better way, I'm just building on it and fine tuning it. Paper cuts are traumas, they heal better if we put peroxide on them right away, but we don't seek a doctor. We don't know how to conceptualize mental traumas and so we can't make them better as they happen. It does indeed help to think of them in terms of physical injury. Won't die of a 1000 paper cuts but sure life will be miserable.
@user-yi5er5wq4s3 ай бұрын
Consult with your Doctor and go for a "Yellow" Vitamin IV drip.
@nutmegriot2093 ай бұрын
does she say how she attempted it or go into details of how it failed? Sorry if I missed it, I’m in a rushed place and skimming through as many videos as possible. I do like her message, and hope it helps alot of people .. I also think it’s ok for some people to die. I let someone down who was very innocent & pure and now they’re dead so I know I don’t deserve to live. And that’s ok. That person matters way more than me & maybe I’ll get to see his ghost if I die. I also think it’s ok if someone is terminally Ill and doesn’t want to go through all that w/drs taking care of them until they die, or have family remember them in that state. That can be a suffering process & not very graceful. I do hope most people seek help though.. not all cases are the same
@erikvictorreed3 ай бұрын
Your soul is lovely. Thank you for sharing of yourself and your journey. You truly are lovely.
@badforgiven14 ай бұрын
Feel like that every day
@donglasgow111114 ай бұрын
I'm 64 and the self hatred started when I was 14 and will never go away. I know that and have learned to accept it. I cycle between normal and depressed, sometimes severely, every 10 days or so. Anti-depression medication is useless, I would love to feel normal all the time, but medication has never done that for me. My parents created this self-hatred by physically and emotionally abusing me (I'm a very gentle soul but had to live with that as a child). They were young when they had me. "Children raising children." I've forgiven them but I can't ever forget. The depression has made me super empathic. That's not a good thing. I am easily triggered by extreme violence that I read or hear about. Unfortunately the world is filled with evil people. I feel normal right now, but I'll be glad when I am dead. I have no fear of dying or being dead. At least it's not this.
@hollydaugherty26203 ай бұрын
I'm sorry your parents were not parents to you. I hope you can still enjoy your life and know that a stranger would like to give you a hug and let you know they're glad you exist.
@mitch5222Ай бұрын
I am sorry and i am disabled and traumas like i cant even talk to. You are not alone.
@rayman10995 ай бұрын
Thank you for sharing your story. It means a lot to me understanding. I lost my wife oktober 2023 after years of being depressed. She committed suicide. It's still hard for me to understand why. But your explaining helps. God bless you ❤
@user-lf2lf6wy4zАй бұрын
I am so very sorry you've had to walk through this.
@rayman1099Ай бұрын
@@user-lf2lf6wy4z it's terribly hard without her in my life. she was my sweetheart for 36 years. but I will never blame her and still believe in her. I wish you and your family all the strength in the world. 💫💞
@user-lf2lf6wy4z13 күн бұрын
Depression is a horribly dark place to be. I've felt suicidal at times. A feeling that I just don't want to be here anymore. Am going through a major bout right now due to trauma, depression, anxiety, family situation, the insanity of the current world we live in, etc. Trying to get as much help as I can with the limited resources I have My heart goes out to you, rayman, for having to live through, and with, an experience like that. This is a good place to be. It's safe to reveal what's really going on. We all care. And we need each other because the outside world is rather callous and people don't understand. And Emma is so honest and open.
@rayman10997 күн бұрын
@@user-lf2lf6wy4z thank you for your reply. i will never hold my wife responsible for what she did i always believed in her. she was always so brave and strong but this fight was too much and i couldnt help her. i have come to the point where i am beginning to realise that its not just about my grief but something much bigger and profound. depression is a terribly lonely suffering and thats what affects me the most. god bless you al whit love. Ray
@JuneTurner-dt4fb5 ай бұрын
Sad that such a beautiful, intelligent woman could feel so bad about herself.