Patrick always in my prayers .Sadly going through the same 😢stay strong and keep going forward..I’m right along side of you and look forward to your updates ..it makes me feel not alone in this journey.🙏😘

I was a heroin addict for 12 years, I was on benzodiazepines for a year and I was in withdrawal for a year or so after i tapered down and stopped, it’s the worst of any drug

I'm so sorry this is going on to you . Your young and will get through this and it will just be a bad memory one day . (((((Hugs)))))

I hate when people don’t understand that withdrawal is subjective. Everyone has different withdrawals symptoms and timelines. The brain fog and muscle spams and weakness are terrible

I was left with many after-effects of benzos, more than 50 symptoms daily but even so I am happy and feel good, there are very dark and difficult days where I even consider suicide but there are days with light and peace that give me the motivation to continue Stay busy, relax, do things for yourself, take care of your mental health, avoid toxic people around you, eat well, sunbathe, take cold water baths, exercise intensely when you can, play a video game, go out. walk in contact with nature, take magnesium and vitamins b12, fish oil, green tea is great for recovering the damaged brain, little by little we will heal, there is still a lot of life left for the brain to return to normal, don't give up

I don't understand English much, I'm Mexican but believe me you'll be fine brother, I was someone who used clonazepam xanax diazepam and alcohol daily along with marijuana at very high doses, a cocktail daily for almost 2 years, I don't remember 2 years of my life I have hazy memories of being with women in my bed, robbing a liquor store, hitting a transgender woman to take her money, and talking stupid things because I was too high on benzos, I used high doses. high recreational drugs and I got them on the street illegally, I also once robbed a pharmacy for clonazepam, etc., and I stopped suddenly, I never reduced the dose, I stopped all the benzos and alcohol at once and I almost died, I had hallucinations, delusions, psychosis, confusion tremors extreme spasms nausea fainting and 2 seizures, I ended up hospitalized in an emergency and the withdrawal symptoms after that were anxiety depression and a feeling of being dead in life in addition to derealization, I have been without benzos for a year and a half and life is good, I feel 75% cured now I only fight anxiety, some derealization and occasional depression but easy to handle, life is good and The more time passes I feel more healed, be patient if I used very high doses of benzos and stopped suddenly I am still alive and healing you can too, stay busy and entertained eat well drink a lot water, believe in God and have good habits, everything will happen, trust me, blessings from Mexico

Hey Patrick thank you for updating us. You are doing amazing to have cut to where you are. Well done. Keep going at the pace that is right for you. I highly recommend taking a bio available vitamin b complex if you can daily. This really helped me and they really do help repair the nerves and nervous system. You will come through this my friend. You are not alone and it really does get better.

Keep fighting the good fight bro, All I can do is sit at my computer every day, and I'm thankful for at least that. I have the heaviness and the swallowing thing and the brain fog also. Right there with you.

Just seeing this channel for first time. He doesnt state how far into withdrawal he is in this video, but i can only assume he's close to a year out at least. He seems extremely calm and nonsweaty to be in early withdrawal. He makes sense when he speaks and seems to be speaking clearly without breathlessness or word searching. He's doing very well.

Coming off the combo of tianeptine and kratom, I can relate tianeptine I've totally stop for 7 days now, kratom I'm trying to taper ... joints aches,, well actually hurt, sleepless, constant headache, blood pressure up and down and now depression, I don't do anything, I used to do alot..your not alone

I feel it , im trying to get off tianeptine and kratom combo..been hospitalized 2 twice within month and a half .. still not remotely right . hang in

28months off.. Withdrawal is hell🥺. Getting slightly better now

The disconnect feeling is really scary, mine is like my brain is disconnected from environment and surroundings, I see the things, persons, but with no connect or emotion, it's like seeing a picture. I am 13 months off xanax now, but all the weird thoughts, strange sensations, numbness are so on and off, that I feel so hopeless. I thought I am healing, but suddenly two days ago, I went to a crowded place with heavy smoke and smell, after that my symptoms increased intensily, can it be the cause? Or this is just the non linear process of withdrawal at this far off?

Klonnopin got me. Prescribed by my DR, yet impossible to control dosage. Always needing more. Withdrawals left me wanting to die after nights of insomnia. Best of luck and health to all of you.

All that, simply because you were taking benzos like candy, I'm sorry but it's your fault and you're considered as a drug addict like any meth of cocaine addict, you should learn more about moderation.

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From India Hi Patrick let God give you strength through the taper journey I am also tapering 5 mg diazepam then I am on SSRI fluvoxamine 125 mg amisulpride 25mg pregabalin 50mg which I need to taper next all these are prescribed due to alprazolam xanax medicine induced ocd intrusive thoughts where I went to emergency for BP issue I am on Bp medications for 17 years and now facing all kinds of side effects from these poly Pharmacy play dpdr morning anxiety no interest in activities which I used to do before I am a software engineer from India for last 16 years....initially I was on clonazepam 0.5 for 3 months and 0.25 for 20 months I cannot taper properly with hell lot of withdrawal effects some how I found a doctor in India who prescribed diazepam as per ashton manual.

I can relate about the heaviness , I feel super week I have Anhedonia I can’t watch tv, or listen to music, I till have a lot a chemical fear , it’s very difficult and agoraphobia, I hate this, still tapering k, have 2 more to go, I’m sorry we all have to endure these crazy symptoms, take care of yourself, who cares what people think, it takes people however long it takes to taper, don’t want about what others say😊

And just one more thing. I know how discouraged you are and I know how hard it is to try to imagine better days when you are in misery and grieving where you are now. Sometimes we can’t see the forest for the trees. Right now you were looking at all of these “trees” so to speak..things that you are still going through and it’s agonizing and painful and difficult . But the bigger picture “the overall forest” that you’re starting to see, shows that you have made a lot of progress from where you were. You do have more life now than you had before when you couldn’t have any light or any sound or wear your glasses, etc. I know you’re a Christian and I know that as bad as it is, that God is going to get you through it and he’s got wonderful plans for your future. You’re gonna come out of this stronger than ever before and are an encouragement to everyone. It shows them that they can do it too. Don’t get discourage and depressed 😪💔 Everything will be ok 🙏🏻

Hi Patrick happy to see you're having some improvement ♥

Patrick, I’m broken hearted you’re still struggling 😪 It hurts me to see you hurt. But, I do see progress in your ability to do another video, wearing your glasses, not having to go to ER etc. And, you’ve cut a lot! I know you feel horrible, but you’re a strong person for sticking with it through all the misery you’ve faced. Don’t listen to any critics. Everyone is different and it does take a long time to do it safely. But, you’re doing it! And you look good! You don’t look sick. ❤

It's so good see you and hear you in your video Patrick. I have a short prayer that I want pray over you here. I come to you, Lord to thank you for all the ways you have been keeping my friend, Patrick safe and being his strength when he doesn't have any. Lord, please give him the peace in this storm and help Patrick to feel your presence all around him and give him peace in his mind and give him the rest his body needs. Lord, please boost his immune system and keep Patrick healthy always Lord. Thank you, Lord Jesus. Amen God bless you always Patrick. Your in my thoughts and prayers. Stay strong and never give up.🙏🌹🤗

I’m glad to see an update. You have come a long way and are doing it slowly which is the safest way. I’m on 7.5mg from 10mg of diazepam with only some nights where I can’t get to sleep. I know as I drop down further things will be more difficult. You’re helping a lot of us understand what it’s like and I appreciate the time you take to share. Wishing you all the best! You got this! ❤👍

Now you can withdraw from valium

Do you have any way to find a doctor who can put you on a liquid micro taper? That should make it a good bit smoother than the big drops. It also sounds like you're in protracted withdrawal (neurological damage) like me mentioning the skin burning, lack of appetite, sweating, and hypersensitivity to cuts. Those are signs of protracted withdrawal

My lord , the feelings you describe, I feel that way too, I don’t know I know I’ve been trying to get my Social Security disability due to heart issues and circulation issues in my right leg nerve damage digestive stomach issues are horrible. Been trying to get a referral to get into the stomach doctor and now with already being diagnosed with a heart issue and taking medication And blood thinner it’s like they don’t wanna deal with me no more but the crushing fatigue the throbbing numbness in my right leg along with heart not beating right it’s just a nightmare. I don’t know what to do anymore. Sorry for complaining I just know how you feel or I should say I can relate to what you’re saying try to be strong and know that God loves you 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻.

I apparently destabilized after only 10 short days of 1 mg Ativan! This was beginning of August this year. I am still tapering! I am on such a low low dose equivalent of about 0.3mg Valium and i still taper!! Why? If i stop my skin burns everywhere and my muscles are burning still. I will soon stop but sometimes someting happens to some of us and all you can do is keep going slowly. You cant push it. If you do you pay a price. I dont know why this happened i think its because i cold turkeyed from the Ativan. I also cold turkeyed from Valium once without much issue but not the Ativan. I got akathisia and i guess beginning of psychosis and therefore my condition. These events are very bad for our CNS and causing real damage. I also now feel very depressed, not much anxiety but depression just as you. At first in this last month i felt no emotion i was like dead, and had benzo flu. Now at the end i have depression. My taper of course is much shorter still but its a mini version of longer once just cycling faster but i went through all stages still.

Hang in there, we know its tough. Think of the improvements. For example, you are no longer running to the hospital everyday. That is another improvement. Its tough man. Just take your time coming off. Don't make big jumps! Tell us what you are on, and at what dose.

100% relate to everything you said here. I have all of the same symptoms. Especially the crushing weakness. It's severe. Also, feeling small reductions. I am having to reduce by minute amounts in order to get through this taper. Thank you for sharing and describing this ordeal so gracefully. You are in my prayers. And you will get through this. 🙏

From where you started to now you have improved so much. You take as long as you need to. This is your journey and nobody else’s. You have to do what you feel is best for you ❤Sending positive vibes your way.

Why are you even coming off fully? Such a long time and process of going through hell and you never abused so why not just stay on a low dose and feel normal again?

Welp, 1 year off and now I'm back working. You do come back.

Thank you for mentioning the “disconnect” between your brain and body regarding difficulty moving. I tell others it’s like someone cut the cord between my brain and muscles the nerve signals can’t make my body animate so I have to force every movement which is so grueling. Like you said, hard to explain. I’m 16 months from a CT off Valium. I too crossed from Xanax to Valium. I never could really stabilize from long holds. It sucked.

Nightmare I went to jail one time OMG is all I can say. It will kill next time I am 55 now I was 40 when I sid 42 days in jail

Iam on Ativan 1ml 3 time's a day for 21 year's

Your saying it how it is thank you keep well

Benzos are Garbage!!!!!!!!! And they damaged me in only a week and a half . It’s not fair!!!!!!!!

I’ve had huge setbacks that almost made me Try reinstating but I was too scared to

Don't let haters get to you. Everyone's journey is different. Doesn't mean that you are not suffering. Hope you get through this. Praying for you.

Great video, whoever said benzo withdrawl is easy is probably someone who is still on benzos and lying to themselves/ others

I hope your insomnia has gone away. Cause, mine is horrible.

I hope you doing better.

It is all well worth it, even if the real gratification is yet to come. Waiting for another update and wishing you lots of strength!

I took fioricet for headaches and kept getting rebounds so kept taking it. Finally figured out it was causing the migraines. Went cold Turkey after using 30 a month for years straight. I had no problem. No tapering just stopped. Sumatriptan works better for my migraines and you do t have to risk addiction with it.

Well said. With God all things are possible.

Calming your cat down

Please make a video for an update. I always pray for your healing. It's a tough journey, but You will get through this. You are not alone, like many other people, I am also suffering this hell after one year off xanax. Medical community and pharmaceuticals harm so much without giving proper information about the side effects of these mind altering medicines. We just trust them and suffer immensely, and the worst part is that nobody believes us and listens to us . Hey! Don't lose hope, we will all. heal. ❤

Patrick Iam going through it for the past 3.5 years. I have probably 30 symptoms. God is trying to bring you into a new season. Meditate on scripture, such as I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. The joy of the Lord is my strength. Get away from any sin in your life and love him with your whole heart

Benzo withdrawal can kill you, be careful to anyone that's been on them long term and wants to cold turkey it.

Totally understand you with the throat swelling. I’ve been tapering off for almost my 7th month now.