Benzo withdrawal horrific day, crying, praying for healing. This is torture

Day 15 off Xanax
Valium dose 7.3 mg
1/26/2024

[@jaclynpeters3892]

You are making a difference, Patrick. People need to see this. We are all with you. Thank you for being so brave and allowing the world to see what this looks like. I know you are doing better now than in this video, but this video is important. You are getting there, and one day you will have your arrival to the other side. Whole, complete and feeling peace within. Sending you much Love from one warrior to another. ♥️

[@Patricksbenzowithdrawal]

Thank you so much for the kind words! That means a lot to me right now. Thank you!

[@clairetschirley2684]

I understand and I will pray for you. You are suffering but you are helping others by telling your story. You will get through it.❤️

[@madelynhernandez7453]

Thank you Patrick, I know people might judge and say oh it's not as bad because he's making videos. No! As you said, they have no opinion because this is hell. We might even look ok outside but inside we are in deep darkness. Sometimes what keeps me going is that others who don't even believe in God have healed and we believe in Him. I wonder too if God is raising a huge group of us to make a huge difference in psychiatry. But why is? It's horrific. Then these meds have been given to animals, and my heart can't take that either.

[@beckythornton6470]

I kicked Xanax at 4 bars daily, alone. Everything you are saying is true. I didn't know that jumping off at the high dose I was on was as dangerous as it was. I was shitting myself, holding onto walls to support myself walking, having seizures falling to the floor. It was a month before I could go out of my house, full 30 days. It was too much. Especially for a 62yr old woman alone. I was going insane, and can relate to the pain I am seeing you in. The horror when you realize that initially, it all gets so much worse before we start getting better. I figured that by day 4-5, I would begin to be better, but instead sank hard for 2 weeks, then slowly started coming up. Even after a month, I felt pretty weak and shaky and shitty. Good news is that 6 yrs I have not touched it again, and life is better for me. I hope you are better now too.

[@loriebell1354]

I completely agree with you. My life was and is completely ruined. I am now off for 6 years. Still have days of debilitating panic attacks. I will never work a professional level job again due to my inability to cope with stress. Mt children went through hell. My husband was my sole support. The rest of my family abandoned me. You will NEVER be the same. All benzodiazepines should be either outlawed or under more strict regulations than opioids.

[@marleneholik-ls9wr]

NOBODY UNDERSTANDS FOR SURE! Except us. I applaud you for facing this online here. I HEAR YOU ❤

[@heatherinCT]

You're absolutely right it's torture. The doctors for the most part don't care. I hope you're better

[@jaimemelendez8029]

Hang in there, we know what you are going thru. It takes time. It will get better. Keep fighting

[@richardcatalinajr.369]

Patrick, you are young and that is in your favor. You have time and it will take time. But you can do this. Prayer is important and be kind to yourself. Believe and picture yourself past this. Focus on it, meditate on it, see it, feel it, picture yourself there TODAY. YOU WILL BE VICTORIOUS.

[@jamescordova1796]

God says we suffer for a short time but he will restore you fully. The same power that raised Jesus from the dead is restoring you now. Know that you will be looking back on this day fully healed and fully strong and restored. I've been through the horror too. I thought it would never end . I thought I was forver broken but I am fully healed and restored now . I relied upon God and I waited upon him and he came through. And he is working inside of you now.

[@MassaMyers420]

How long did you take to heal?

[@jamescordova1796]

@@MassaMyers420 It happens in levels. The first level was I couldn't get out of bed and having constant nightmares. My body was so weak and tired I thought maybe I had some disease. I thought I was never going to be normal again. The anxiety and fear was the worst part. Nothng woud take me from it . I couldn't get interested in thngs like even movies. TV Shows. All I could do was eat and sleep. That lasted about a month and a half. Then the second phase was I had to force myself to move and just try to stay awake. But at least the fear was gone. Then it was just tiredness and weakness. That was about 2 months. Looking back I was so afraid to go 2 or 3 months It seemed like forever but 3 month of your life is nothing. The main thought is know that IT DOES GET BETTER. It doesn't seem like it . But it does. You do get better . You will feel happy, you will feel your life force again. But unfortunately there a Nightmare Bridge you have to cross before you get there. I would say about 3 weeks from the last dose and you start you come out of the haze.

[@jamescordova1796]

@@giovannimarino7449 We've all felt that way before. It's a dark place to be. But when you get to the other side, you can look back and see clearly, the world is not the same as you used to believe it to be.

[@marleneholik-ls9wr]

James - after 40 years on X I am 16 months totally off. Feel horrible.

[@jamescordova1796]

@@marleneholik-ls9wr Wow. I didn't know it's even been around that long. So over a year, are you a little bit better?

[@Waves353]

Patrick, hold on to your faith I feel your pain as I’m right in it with you. The hopelessness and helplessness is terrifying We will get through this ❤️❤️

[@supertiger1979]

I've been in your shoes sir! I'm 3 years and 8 months clean off of everything and my life has gotten better. I still feel the long term effects of the benzos nonetheless but nothing like at the beginning. I was 20 years on that crap. If you can do this...everything else afterwards is easy. My prayers and blessings are with you! Stay the course! 🙏

[@Waves353]

and you are making a difference and so much respect to you for making these videos I’m alone in this and I feel like I’m sitting here with a friend

[@ruthlassnoGABA73]

I love that! "You know what, until you live it you don't get an opinion". That is so true and we certainly don't need validation from people that are inclined to tell us to "man up". And for me at least I can't even get validation from my loved one's. I really hope you have a strong support system Patrick and you certainly are strong yourself to be doing this. I believe you are holding now until you get yourself a little stronger which is totally the right thing to do. All the best in this terrible fight from someone that's going through it also.

[@hakonsletnes5187]

From the ashes you will rise. Much love❤❤

[@christopherrayulloa6281]

YOU GOT IT. YOU HAVE US. WE BELIEVE IN YOU. WE WONT GIVE UP ON YOU EITHER BROTHER! As crazy as it sounds be patient, the strength is in you. Weather through this storm you can and will do it. Fuck big phrama. God is with you and is always with you.

[@Patricksbenzowithdrawal]

Thank you so much for saying this! It’s definitely the most difficult thing I’ve ever done in my life but I firmly believe God is in control and He will get me through it! I have some better days and some bad ones still, but I know as everyone says healing is not linear. It takes time. I’ll do some more videos in the next few days for more updates!

[@chloechloe4341]

I can so relate to this. In every single word you said. I am going through kolonipin withdrawl right now. I quit Xanax, using Kolonipin but I feel exactly how you’re explaining right now. I don’t understand how anyone can function doing this, let alone work. I have 3 kids I have not even gotten to see because same as you said I barely can even stand. I pray you get better and heal quickly. Same as me, it does not sound even possible… I pray someday it will be. And it should not be legal

[@SusanLynn656]

If I was there I would give you a huge hug. You are brave.

[@katrinamenzies9398]

❤ I know exactly what you are going through

[@notdeadyet3929]

Yep. I’m going through it now and have in the past. You WILL heal brother!

[@sheila50]

Thank you Patrick. Im scared & alone and you're right it's very hard. Ive prayed for you.

[@Patricksbenzowithdrawal]

I’m so sorry you’re struggling as well. Hang in there! Just know how many people have gone through it before us and say it gets so much better! We have to just hold onto that. I’ll be praying for you also!!🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@rebeccamatteson2433]

Hang in there man. I know right now feels like hell but believe me, you will get better. Your body and brain is going to need some time to adjust back to normal but believe me, when I does, you'll finally start living again and enjoying peace and happiness. Please don't give up. 😢

[@juliehatton1961]

Oh I have felt exactly the same way. Hold on I promise this will all pass. Get angry, cry, whatever you need to do! Nothing is normal right now and I’m so sorry. Keep fighting and going on. You will get through this and be yourself again, I promise. Hold onto God and His promises. I will be praying for you ❤.

[@TheLahoney]

Thank you girl the comment Patrick! "Until you've lived it, you don't get an opinion! So proud if you for doing these videos! God will heal you and he is with you every single day. He put you here for a reason, even though sometimes we don't know what the reasoning is❤ Please stay strong, you will get through this😊

[@B0NY_HAWK]

I’ve kicked heroin,fentanyl,methadone and suboxone but benzo withdrawal was by far the worst one out of them all. It was pure torture.

[@Patricksbenzowithdrawal]

Woah. I can’t even imagine going through all of that as well! You’re tough, for sure! It’s very telling that even out of that benzos were the worst. People need to wake up and realize the severity of what they can cause! That’s a big reason I’m trying to do these videos. Do whatever I can to show people the harm they can cause. Hope you’re doing better now!!

[@kaylakaymorgan]

heroes are forged in the fires of hell, and this will make you stronger if you get through this, but that's small comfort when your entire body is burning and it feels like it will go on forever. there is no healing without pain, which sucks balls and isn't fair. but you are worth it, you have a unique and important story to tell on the other side, and we're rooting for you. I can't wait to see you grow, it's clear that you have a beautiful heart and something important to say, and I'm sorry that your journey has taken you right into the fires of hell but I believe that the world will be a better place when you have healed from this.

[@director2bob]

Brotherman.....this video is 2 months old and I pray you have improved a lot since the video was posted. God bless my friend!! God has your back.

[@Reeflections]

Heavenly Father, God please help him in the name of Jesus 🙏🏻✝️❤️😢

[@mentalhealth-runner-fit-]

Keep fighting and never give up. Time will heal you. I've been where you are and now im able to function and live some kind of life at least and I know im getting better each day . This will happen to you too .

[@Rich-cj9cr]

Praying for u Patrick, I’m been there too, it’s a disaster

[@FactoryFugitive]

It took Me 2 years before I felt human again. The psychical symptoms & time distortion (days felt like months) lasted around 17 months. It took another 6 months for Me to start feeling any other emotions other than dread and fear. Keep fighting, it will get better. It might not seem like it, but it will. I promise.

[@jimferrill1790]

You're in the thick of it. I had the exact same feelings you have in this video. You're going to be ok! Stay with it. Thank you so much for putting this into words for me. I had the same thoughts in my head and could not voice it.

[@serious-cyrusnoelan8127]

How are you now bro? I pray you are healing well! Thank you for being humble enough to share this with others. I know your pain first hand and feel it in this video.

[@taraard6813]

Hold on to Jesus! He will be your comfort in this storm! I've been going through it for a year and without him I wouldn't of made it this far. Hang on buddy 🙏

[@jimferrill1790]

GOD is on your side. I thought the same things you are voicing. I so feel what you're going through! Wow! A great friend once told me that GOD wanted me stripped completely to build me back up. I'm stripped.

[@tommyrich4156]

Hang in there dude! God loves you and so do we! Peace be with my friend!

[@jonnymoke]

Gonna check your channel periodically, I hope you stay strong and beat this crap

[@jdavid7541]

Hey brother, hope things are better than when the video was taken. I know your pain. The worst part is the tearfulness no one understands what it’s like to be on the verge of tears for days on end. No one understands UNLESS they’ve been through benzo withdrawal. Hope you’re doing better man. Praying for you tonight.

[@Kilo-js9ge]

Push through it brother, you’ll be a new man by summertime.

[@ashleyen3]

My dear I am so sorry !! 😞 so glad ur doing much better now. Ur inspiring us. I will start my taper off an ssri of 20 years soon hopefully. Scared but ready.

[@lionheart9692]

O man, bless you 🙏 hope your good now, addiction is no joke

[@judithdoll764]

😢 I know your pain. There is a light at the end of it.

[@sallielewicki5013]

I do but you are stronger than you think power in prayer and use your God given power of your mind to heal. I’m in pain but you need to love yourself and you have all us. Don’t give up be strong. My friend. Praying for you brother.

[@JamesDodge-v7n]

I understand what you are going through. You have youth which is to your advantage. I believe you can make it eventually

[@jadestar473]

I'm praying for you 🙏🙌

[@DH-dh2nj]

🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 , it’s ok , your ok god please give him strength . One day at a time. One minute at a time. 🙌🏻, fight be strong. Breathe . 🙏🏻🙏🏻.

[@SitChoahhDownTV]

Been off for 1.5 yrs I don't know how I don't remember how I don't remember when I just know I made it😢😢

[@scramblingrose]

My gf went through withdrawal from 8 milligrams a day cold turkey no help no tapering, a year ago. She finally got through it. Yes its hell. Just hang on its a long process. Day by day. Dont think any further than that. She said everything your saying.

[@Benzosurvivors]

Please hang on. I promise it will get better. The Lord will provide the strength to survive, if you put your trust in Him. Even if it’s only minute by minute or day by day. Just please hold on. He is with you even if you don’t feel him. I’m 7 years protracted but I was a severe case, polydrugged, kindled and floxed many times. So please don’t let that scare you. I’m not completely healed but I’m exponentially better than I was the first 2-3 years. You will be so grateful for life and not take anything for granted when you are better. It’s beautiful on this side and you will get here when it’s your time. You are helping many people and bringing awareness and that is special and very important. You are showing much love for others and that’s all the Lord has asked of us. Your purpose right now is to survive and help when you are able. Please know that you will get your life back and it will be better than you can ever imagine. Much love and continued prayers going out to you. May the Lord come swiftly and bring you peace, comfort, strength and healing. In the Mighty name of Jesus I pray. Amen

[@DavidJones-ib3zy]

Stay STRONG MAN ! God will see you through , * easy for me to say " I been taking 4 mg of Xanax a day for 10 years & 2 mg before that since 2000 . I want to enjoy things but barely do . I want to quit but I'm scared , esp at 52 y/o . + I been on methadone since 2002 So ??? . God Bless , I just saw one of your vids & I'm subbed now & after finishing this on Ill likely watch ou "My story " video next . God Bless

[@TaysonPlaysGuitar]

It sucked so bad man I know exactly what you are going through. For me it was 2 months of hell with the first 2 weeks especially being so unbearably awful. You will start to feel better and your brain and mind will heal. It just unfortunately takes way longer than any medication should.

[@leroywallona1950]

Praying for you buddy no one believes us

[@thomasallen4340]

It's legal because it's money.

[@rocioortiz327]

So sorry for your suffering!! 😢😢

[@Drucelia]

You are so right, they hook poor people then slam the door in your face. Treat people like nothing, This should be against the law. I pray for you so sorry.

[@drunkensquirrel7545]

I know. It is Hell. You aren't alone. The only thing that keeps me going is my faith in God. I've lost over 15 of the best years of my life because of Klonopin already & I'm not even off the stuff yet. It's a very painful grieving process. Hold on. I know it's awful, but you will heal.

[@Firmlyin5d]

They definitely should not be legal. You are healing. Literally every second of the day your body is righting the wrongs. I've been there friend. Almost 18 years off that poison now. You'll see the reason, guaranteed. Just stay the course and trust. ❤️

[@TheAllKnighter53-t8o]

This is horrendous. I am trapped that I have Fatal Insomnia and need so many pills to sleep and so I am screwed. I feel all the hopelessness. It's good you are a Christian and feel that God is on your side. I am the opposite and see that I caused my current predicament through sin and I am never going to be forgiven.

[@anaro9132]

I take this as gods way to open my eyes and put my faith in him. He humbled me. I'll be praying for you. Dont be scared if you had sinned. You're still loved nonetheless.

[@anaro9132]

how are you doing now brother? know that satan is the reason behind suffering, not god. jesus loves you a lot. you can get through this even if it doesnt feel like it at the moment. i'll continue to pray for you. love you man, stay strong! i believe in you.

[@TheAllKnighter53-t8o]

@@anaro9132 Thank you for taking time to write and your concern. Unfortunatley I am getting worse. I get so much agitation in the evening, my sleep is getting less each week and I can not get my mind off my eternal damnation. I am in a mental hell. Are you suffering?

[@kristidavi]

This was 3 months ago. How are you today?

[@pigeonsil240sx]

I hear you man i got off benzos 10 years ago and im currently 101 days off methadone and the benzo withdrawal was just harder.I got on methadone during benzo withdrawal because it felt so good during a time i was stripped of pleasure, that lead to a decade long methadone addiction so it really screwed my life up bad

[@madelynhernandez7453]

Patrick, I am Christian and It's been so hard. Some will judge me but I have cursed God and even the day I was born. I keep asking forgiveness and that He understand why I have done it. It's so hard. I live in constant agony.

[@Patricksbenzowithdrawal]

I have sadly done the same. In moments of horror I think we can just say things sometimes without actually meaning them. God forgives ALL sin, including that. We have to know and accept that. I’ve been very hard on myself about some of the things I’ve said because it absolutely tears me apart knowing I’ve even denied God at one point when I was in pure misery. In my heart and soul I know I didn’t mean what I said, and I’m very very mad at myself. But, I have to know that He does forgive! He understands and He knows. The danger would come in turning away completely and never repenting. I believe as long as we recognize the sin and confess and repent then He forgives us! He knows we’re not perfect. I believe He has used this in my life to bring me closer to Him, in spite of some of the things I have said I know I have a better relationship with God now than I ever did before. And for that alone this entire horrific nightmare of an experience is worth it. I’ll be praying for you!! Just know you aren’t alone. We all say things sometimes in bad moments. It doesn’t mean it’s what’s in your heart and I fully believe with everything in me that He knows and understands that. Praying you start to see some relief soon! 🙏

[@johnboy4067]

I'm struggling with opiates and it's terrible but benzo seems a different level , prayers for everyone in addition 🙏 I feel your pain

[@mturner9220]

It took me a year and a half to get through heavy benzodiazipine withdrawal. I am stunned over how bad it was. I've been through opiate withdrawal too it is literally nothing compared to withdrawing from benzos. My prayers go out to this guy.

[@My3Pugs]

✝️ that Jesus will give you strength,light and peace to get through this ….. special prayers are being said for you …. Sadly I feel your pain as I am going through the same as you … Prayers that Jesus will help us through 😢

[@matchpoint14]

Patrick Iam going through it for the past 3.5 years. I have probably 30 symptoms. God is trying to bring you into a new season. Meditate on scripture, such as I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. The joy of the Lord is my strength. Get away from any sin in your life and love him with your whole heart

[@lancekreger6845]

Hang in there and stay strong, it will get better. You can do things like eating the best diet you can and sleep the best you can, but remember TIME is your best ally. You will endure hell but it will calm down with time...Please hang on ..I have been where you are

[@TheChinchilla15]

I watched my dad go thru benzo addiction at age 18 to early 20s. When he tried to quit it was absolute horror. Made it thru a 6 month storm of withdrawl. I turned into an alcoholic at 21, been thru Delerium tremens 100 times. 4 days sober today

[@cheryldwyer494]

How are you now? I share your suffering. I, too, am angry over this drug. I say words you say. I pray sincerely for you and all who are in this thing. I completely empathize.

[@Michael-dj4iq]

I got off 3mg 15 years it's not that bad ! Your doing it to fast. Xanax is great when you need it , even long term. But I takes time to get off it. If you was normal you should not have taken it. People do need Xanax and it saves lives , I lived it bro. Time is the key..

[@clasmaster1471]

I’ve been on Xanax for over 20 years. I was on 6 mg a day for at least 15 years. I’m down to 2 mg a day. How long did it take for you to get back to normal after you came off Xanax? I seem to do better when I just bite the bullet and do big cutbacks instead of small taper. But cutting back is one thing and coming completely off of them definitely concerns me. How did you taper?

[@heatherinCT]

It saves lives lmfao why are you even here?

[@clasmaster1471]

@@heatherinCT You don’t think anyone’s ever committed suicide over mental illness like depression or anxiety? Really? Why are you even here? Don’t pass judgment until you walk a day in someone else’s shoes.

[@heatherinCT]

@@clasmaster1471 what are you talking about? Xanax has zero to do w depression. Try reading.

[@heatherinCT]

@@clasmaster1471 my response wasn't even to you

[@flatderp]

I know!!! Be strong bro

[@december12ist]

I hope your healed from the benzo withdrawal. I feel your pain and I can relate to what your going through. I love you buddy.

[@Justlikemagic96]

I was actually severely mentally ill, and the worst thing is that i don’t know how much of it is the actual illness, how much is withdrawal, and how much is the trauma from the withdrawal experience…

[@kitzune_gp]

I know it's tough bro. Going through some same stuff. Try getting in some cardio exercise. Push through.

[@flatderp]

Hey man I KNOW this horror I just got over it. I feel like you and I’m making a video about it as well. I hope you’re better now please let me know.

[@miguelgonzales4092]

Hang in there bro be strong

[@krystalship6245]

You are right! I wish my Doctor would tell me what I was getting myself into .

[@mikehunt4797]

Yep just like when they hand out Opiates and then take them away leaving people searching on the streets who then end up dead off heroin or fentanyl. It's absolutely fucked.

[@fennyellis3366]

Please, have a doctor triage your doses down. There will be less withdrawal symptoms. Bless you

[@liber8790]

I am 1 year and 8 months after quit 5 years and 10 months of sertraline i know what you talking about i tell you now its better very better dont lose hope,pray and wait healing will come Sorry for my english im from another country God bless you keep fight.

[@acts837kjv4]

You can do this!! I tapered off of valium by breaking a tablet into tiny pieces, I sliced the pill into two halfs and then rather than halfing the two halfs, I broke them into 3 pieces for each of the two halfs, and this was a 5mg tablet of diazepam, Im on day 9 with nothing but I take benfotiamine and magnesium glycinate and I believe that this has helped take away the crippling anxiety. Romans 10:9 That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth, the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be SAVED! God bless.

[@rickyavila3549]

Keep the fight trust me it will get better

[@Anthony-f4f]

I'm trying to sue the companies and doctors and hospitals for my son and myself

[@Tevelle-z3v]

Them benzos are "death itself, fight with all you got man💪💯

[@superdave2403]

God won’t give you more than you can handle but he will max that pain out! You CAN do this you CAN . Don’t stop . Trudge along and force yourself to take a step forward. Close your eyes and make yourself step. One step then add another. Each step will feel like the last one you can take but force yourself to take another. Remember you done this you have to fix this. You can fix it. One breathe one heartbeat one step one day at a time but it will get better!!

[@LatterDaisySaint]

No one can SEE how bad it FEELS. I have Akathisia on top of all the other symptoms. It's a nightmare. It's hell.

[@Patricksbenzowithdrawal]

You’re exactly right! Even to those near me, friends and family that regularly see me. They can see the horror I’ve gone through but they still can not fully comprehend what it’s been like. I try to explain but I can still tell with the occasional comment they’ll make here and there they do not fully get it. I guess…. It really is best though for no one to understand it. I’d with this on no one

[@blainelanum165]

Dude don’t give up!I was on dope for over 20 years.now I’m on a low dose of dolophine and no illegal substances in this body in 14 years.hold on cause you will make it

[@RyanMachado-mp4kt]

I followed my instincts. My doctor gave me a benzo for my extreme anxiety and I don't take it as prescribed. My orders are to take a benzo pill twice a day and I only take them when my anxiety is out of control. It looks like I did the right thing not taking it as described. It is disgusting how our medical community is so closed minded and heartless.

[@robine.mcwilliamssaylor7805]

I'm going through this right now... I understand exactly what you mean ... OMG I wish I could help you...❤️🙏 Basically try to take a Boost drink (meal substitute) to keep hydrated...at least three a day... I am at this exact point... And they tell me everything is fine... But I sure don't feel fine... Let's just work on getting through one day at a time... one second at a time.....I hate these pills

[@MakingItHappenMWC]

Hey buddy. I just wanted to leave a comment cus your video hurt, so let me just say this to you directly. Not to anyone else in the comment section. I've been there. I know it's hard for you to read this and believe it, but I have personally been there and it sucks. I wouldn't wish it on anything, but I will say this. It does get better. I can't tell you how it gets better because what I went through isn't what you go through, but just know it gets better. Just know that it does. I was on benzos for 7 years. I quit 3 months ago and the side affects were complete bullshit. In time, it will subside and you will feel better. Just battle through every day my man. I was in bed for a solid month before I even felt like getting up. Now, I'm more outside, I'm running every morning and my energy is coming back. I hope you start feeling better dude. From one stranger to another.

[@Patricksbenzowithdrawal]

Thank you so much for this comment! That really does give me some hope. It’s definitely the worst thing imaginable to go through, truly just unreal. I’ve started seeing some improvements here and there but still not great overall. It’s stories like yours that I’m holding on to. Knowing healing WILL happen. It’s just a matter of when. Definitely glad it’s gotten better for you. Hoping I’ll be able to say the same somewhat soon!!

[@MakingItHappenMWC]

@@Patricksbenzowithdrawal i hear ya. Thats why i wrote cus my first month off i was begging my wife to help. Its like a bad acid trip on top of dirty shrooms. And it wont stop. Let me ask u this. Have u ever tried hydroxizine? My dr gave it to me to basically zombie me out so i can push thru the intensity. Its juat a real strong antihystimine. Fkn worked wonders for me. Anyhow as i said it will get better dude. Just takes some time. The days feels like months. I get it. Its fkn bs.

[@LanceJones-mh7tz]

I feel you bro. This shit is devastating. There is nothing I can say to help. It feels like you’re in the middle of the ocean treading water and hoping that either a boat come to rescue you or a shark comes and eats you. I’m 26 months off and I am better but I’m not well. I was a Christian for most of my life and had a deep love for God. I no longer love him. I would have rather had terminal cancer. God hasn’t helped me at all. I hope you find peace and recover soon brother.

[@clasmaster1471]

Obviously you had anxiety problems of some sort to start taking the medication in the first place. Do you feel worse now after being on it and then stopping at? Is this just a returning of your symptoms because you’ve been off of the meds for two years? Or are you suffering with some part of withdrawal still?

[@LanceJones-mh7tz]

@@clasmaster1471 never had an anxiety issue. Still don’t have an anxiety issue. I’m not really anxious or scared of nothing. I’ve got this toxic brain brain feeling. I can’t really describe how I feel. My sleep horribly toxic. I wake up every morning feeling like I have the worst hangover ever. I know I am not in withdrawal anymore, now it’s a matter of hoping that my brain can repair the damage that was caused

[@mikehunt4797]

Post Acute Withdrawal symptoms!@@LanceJones-mh7tz

[@mildredbaugh4090]

I know exactly what you're going through. I went through Benzo withdrawals for almost 5 months because a stupid doctor took me off of them cold turkey and I was taking 3 mg daily for 7 years but I had to find a new doctor because I almost died. The new doctor put me back on it but a much smaller dosage.

[@jtrocktree5409]

No hope in the dope, been there 30 yrs back, get clean and focus on the future .

[@thomasNomad8592]

Hello sir. How long were you on Xanax and what dosage did you take per day? Thank you for your posts.

[@maripeterson1762]

🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@chrisgreen2299]

Why are you going off? We're you doing them recreational? If you have a true anxiety disorder, most need medications for life. Praying for you right now in Jesus name.

[@Patricksbenzowithdrawal]

Thank you for the prayer!🙏🏻 I do have anxiety disorder and only ever took benzos as prescribed, never recreational. The issue for me was over the years they caused my anxiety to worsen. When I first started them I only had mild anxiety over a heart related misdiagnosis(I was told I had an abnormal heart rhythm which turned out not to be true). While I waited for all of my cardiology appointments and tests I was a bit anxious about them and went to a psychiatrist who put me on Xanax. By the time I got the all clear from the cardiologist I’d been on benzos for a few months and was having some pretty intense panic attacks which became more and more frequent. Over the next few years my dose was increased as we thought it was my “pre existing anxiety”. One day it clicked to me. I functioned perfectly fine for 30 years before starting them. My pre existing anxiety was minor. Never these intense panic attacks. I then started to journal and notice a pattern than many times after a dose I’d end up feeling worse. But by then if I went too long without a dose I’d feel withdrawal. So it became a cycle of bad if I take them and bad if I don’t. I knew my only option was to come off and that’s what started all of this. Nightmare process for sure but I have hope and faith that God will get me through it and I’ll be able to return to my normal pre benzo level of functioning!

[@nicole-ev7uk]

❤ I get it everything your saying as I'm writing this comment I'm going through the same thing at 1 am in the morning sitting on my couch withdrawing from xanax it's hell and scary 😢 I hate it to more than anything I don't get it its bad your not alone

[@wtbwrites1806]

How much Xanax were you on?

[@michaelreynolds2745]

How long did you take them? I was taking 6-8mg bars for around 3-4 weeks. Tapering with klonopin. a week yesterday I took 4mg klonopin, today 2, tomorrow, 2, wed .5 and done. Thoughts?

[@themidwestconnect]

You are a man. Sometimes you need to look in the mirror and be real with yourself. Ive done it, others have as well. You can definitely do this. Put your faith in God and stand strong. Gotta get outta that mindset of feeling sorry for yourself. When times get hard fight back harder. You got this! As well as any others out there! Lets go! 💪💯

[@goaboy2294]

Hey bro how are you now?? I’m 4 days off them still gotta long way to go 😢

[@anaro9132]

how are you now brother? feeling better? i took asentra for 2 days and its been 24 days of horrible debilitating mood swings for me.

[@toddbrothers1520]

I’ve been clean 2 years. It’s not easy like us addicts expect it to be. One day at a time is really all you can do right now. In a month or two things get clearer. Hang in there but get a counselor and stop blaming others for your addiction

[@Patricksbenzowithdrawal]

Respectfully, I appreciate your encouragement but there is a difference between addiction and physical dependence. The outcome, as in having to go through withdrawal, may be the same but the path to get there is quite different. I’ve never been an addict. I was prescribed benzos by my psychiatrist for anxiety and I took them as directed. I had no idea physical dependence or withdrawal even existed. Over the years we realized they were worsening my anxiety and required higher doses to keep the anti-anxiety effect they initially had so we decided it was best for me to discontinue them. That is when I learned the horror of withdrawal. I never have taken benzos recreationally. Only as directed. The result has still been this. Now this isn’t to put anyone down, again my purpose for these videos isn’t focused on how people get to this point, it’s focused on trying to get it out there that these are incredibly harmful medications whether taken as directed or abused. Doesn’t matter. They still cause incredibly harm and people need to know to hopefully prevent people from taking them to start with. That to say, I blame the medical system as a whole, not my doctor and not myself as I was unaware of the danger and I truly believe my doctor has the best intentions and is still currently guiding me through a slow taper at very low doses of Valium. The fault lies in a medical system that is well aware of the danger yet refuses to acknowledge it. At least, they did until the FDA finally placed the black box warning on benzos in 2020. The prescribing guidelines need to be changed to prevent damage like this from occurring to those of us to trust in the system we have only to learn the hard way we shouldn’t have.

[@gabrialjackson5878]

Godspeed brother 🙏

[@Justanotheropion]

Does anyone else have lower back pain that turns into burning?

[@Patricksbenzowithdrawal]

I do have lower back pain and burning, but I also have a bad back injury from a terrible car wreck many years ago so it’s a bit hard for me to tell if that’s what’s causing my pain or if it’s from withdrawal. It has been much worse during withdrawal than usual though so it very well could be…

[@Justanotheropion]

@Patricksbenzowithdrawal Thank you for response. I have many other symptoms as well but sometimes it gets so intense with the burning. Hope you are progressing forward. May you be healed in the name of Jesus!

[@RozeTechal]

The worst level of suffering