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@sabrinacz
@sabrinacz 7 күн бұрын
Thank you❤
@tiagohinz6453
@tiagohinz6453 Ай бұрын
Muito obrigado, do fundo do meu coração, por ter contado isso. Abraços do Brasil!
@user-lj7ru2po9v
@user-lj7ru2po9v Ай бұрын
So good!!! Thank you so much for sharing ❤
@Alice-lw1to
@Alice-lw1to Ай бұрын
Sounds like there might be a link between rocd and PMDD? Could Be wrong
@gabriellegutierrez7517
@gabriellegutierrez7517 2 ай бұрын
My ROCD started a week prior to meeting my online boyfriend for the first time and literally every sensation you described with the emptiness, the urge to break up everyday was spiraling so badly. Our entire Vacation became a traumatic memory for me to remember because through out all of it, I couldn’t feel a thing and that made me panick, feel like my standard are too high, doubt if I’m rly a committed person, and just made wanna cry it all out but I went through all of it without even having him notice. 7 months later now he’s visiting again this upcoming week and I couldn’t be more anxious but I am comfortable with accepting that maybe or maybe not it might not be perfect but rather I see it as an opportunity to do major ERP. I’m still having the thoughts, the worry, the occasional feelings of emptiness, but now I have more hope every since I found myself to be correlated with this disorder. This video continues to remind me that I’m alone and I always go back to it to remind myself Thank you so much for sharing your story!💗
@estherjames7226
@estherjames7226 4 ай бұрын
Hello!Have anyone experienced, also, intense feelings of guilt about what your mind thinks that u did wrong to your partner in the past, or that u didnt like that person that much at the time you two got into that relationship, or u didnt have strong enough feelings about that person at that time?Please...I m severely struggling and don t know what to do with these thoughts....
@wallycola5653
@wallycola5653 4 ай бұрын
Thank you for making this video. It was so vulnerable
@diko834
@diko834 4 ай бұрын
TY so much for being vulnerable and sharing your story. I can relate to a lot of it. I actually left my marriage for ROCD (not even knowing I had it). It can be brutal.
@Itsjennaaaay
@Itsjennaaaay 6 ай бұрын
Thank you for this video. It’s so hard but I have faith. And one thing that helps me is “if it makes you uncomfortable it’s probably an ocd thought”.
@kaustubh9759
@kaustubh9759 6 ай бұрын
Can ROCD hits after first initial months of being in relationship, or it has to be years of togetherness. Please answer please. I have been with my gf for about 4 months we spent a lot of time together, these intrusive thoughts have started to flood in.
@user-gh6gc5kb8y
@user-gh6gc5kb8y 6 ай бұрын
I have felt so relieved since i found out about ROCD tonight. The possibility that nothing is actually wrong in my relationships is such a relief. That my thoughts might all not be true. Every thought you mention I have had. I have ruined relationships many times with this.
@azz75sl
@azz75sl 4 ай бұрын
Look into ERP therapy. Exposure and response prevention. I’m here after my OCD picked up the relationship theme but I was bad off with checking and ruminating about ppls safety. I was having to spend over two hours a night and over an hour every day before work or leaving to the store locking up and had to record it all so I’d know for sure I did it. I spent like 5 minutes a day, once a day now. I’ve lost friends because I couldn’t stop calling and texting them compulsively asking for reassurance that they were safe. I don’t act that way anymore. There’s help out there. If you feel like OCD is what is happening you should try to get a diagnosis. The sooner you get help the better. It progresses.
@Astralox
@Astralox 7 ай бұрын
The true secret to this is,that the thoughts are translation from a deeper process, the thoughts come after it then u get the emotion, we then think that the thought caused it. In reality it's a protective mechanism which identifies danger.
@laylaharrell8778
@laylaharrell8778 7 ай бұрын
You don’t know how much this has helped me, thank u
@joana.a4981
@joana.a4981 7 ай бұрын
Thank you
@dodoismus369
@dodoismus369 7 ай бұрын
I used to also wonder if I would recognize my OCD from my real gut feeling if something was actually wrong. And then I remembered the time when I was collaborating with actually manipulative person and my body was telling me that this person is not a good person. And yes, the feeling for me was completely different. For me, OCD is mainly in my head but the actual gut feeling is in my stomach and gut. Everyone can experience it differently, but for me personally there's a difference. So I hope that if something was actually wrong, I would be able to recognize it. :)
@wge621
@wge621 8 ай бұрын
please don't take offense at this, but I notice your posture is hunched inwards. I'd imagine you can't breathe very deeply sitting that way. what I've learned recently as someone with anxiety and ROCD, is that my compulsive thoughts tend to be strongly associated with my physical well being. so when I've had a bad sleep, I'll have them more often. proper breathing can make a huge impact in your wellbeing as well. I would really recommend watching or reading on the importance of breathing, especially on anxiety. there's a really strong correlation since shallow breathing is more effortful and can even increase your heart rate since it requires more energy than deep breathing does. please have a look!
@bahohhblah
@bahohhblah 8 ай бұрын
Thank you so much for this 😭 I had moments when I felt less attracted to my bf and that's when my rocd started and even after the attraction part was resolved I suffered alot Cried day and night Questioned him so much I don't know what to do
@jonathanfuenzalida2925
@jonathanfuenzalida2925 9 ай бұрын
What are your thoughts about the Awaken into Love course? Have you taken it? Do you know anyone who has taken it?
@rachelcoloradomy3kidz778
@rachelcoloradomy3kidz778 10 ай бұрын
Tfs I'm here 2023. August 6th, Sunday I appreciate finding You And This channel ❤ Your validating And honesty And sharing has helped me And I'm Sure Many others XOXO 😘
@troublesmyths
@troublesmyths 11 ай бұрын
Thank you so much for sharing. I think I may be suffering from ROCD as well. This is a relatively new thing for me. (Last 10 months.) Mine started when my boyfriend cheated on me. My whole confidence and trust was destroyed. I already have OCD and now my thoughts are constant and painful. I feel like my emotions are on the surface at all times and I'm at the point of tears every moment. A lot of what you described is how I am feeling and thinking. Thank you again for sharing.
@user-gn9fl2sk6b
@user-gn9fl2sk6b 11 ай бұрын
Thank you so much for this I am going through this now. Thank you thank you. I feel less alone 🧡
@vesiradkova6253
@vesiradkova6253 Жыл бұрын
Omg thank you so much. I have been struggling with ROCD for the last year. My bf and I have been together for a couple of years and honestly I have watched so many videos about ROCD but this one was the winner for me. I related to every single word you said. I was so depressed because I knew how much I love him yet my brain was saying otherwise and I was just so confused and scared. To whoever is reading this comment OCD hangs onto the things you love the most. It gets so much better just don’t give up. You are not alone and you are so so strong. And if you are here then best believe that you do love your partner and your relationship. ❤️
@enarebi.4031
@enarebi.4031 Жыл бұрын
is having the thought and fear of your partner being a pedo part of ROCD too?
@djukafox
@djukafox Жыл бұрын
The only thing I don't like with all these OCD subtypes is calling it OCD. I mean, It's a bit too much to just give a diagnosis to someone and keep it at that. You need to search within you and you need to find what's missing. Giving a label is not it. Or I'm wrong? I don't know. Where I'm from, relationship anxiety is not considered OCD. For example, I've noticed that this is usually the result of low self esteem and not being an authentic person resulting to having lots of doubts. I mean, of course you can't stop thinking about something that clearly bothers you and causes you unease. And It's possible to live without "symptoms", you just need to work on parts of your life.
@azz75sl
@azz75sl 4 ай бұрын
ROCD and relationship anxiety aren’t the same. OCD just is, but it can latch on to anything. If you have OCD and relationship anxiety your OCD will likely latch on to the ROCD theme.
@Lenii.
@Lenii. Жыл бұрын
It makes me cry.. its so me!
@taylorgibbons2071
@taylorgibbons2071 Жыл бұрын
thank you so much for sharing !
@annagorbatoff8716
@annagorbatoff8716 Жыл бұрын
I have had ROCD for 8 months now and just got engaged! You’ve hit all of the feelings right on, but there is HOPE. The less attention we give the ocd bully the more strength we have. Thanks for being vulnerable ❤️!
@blakekinseyfilms
@blakekinseyfilms Жыл бұрын
Just found this. In the thick of it right now. I've also been with my partner since just after we graduated high school, and your story has lots of parallels with mine. Thank you for this.
@sidneyn1366
@sidneyn1366 Жыл бұрын
"or I'll always feel anxious" EXACTY that. the scariest feeling
@PeaceboneGotFound
@PeaceboneGotFound Жыл бұрын
Thank you for being so candid about this stuff--hearing your experiences is so helpful!
@ismaelxjdjalat6931
@ismaelxjdjalat6931 Жыл бұрын
i am in a relationship with my partner for 6 months now and I felt this feeling that I don’t love her anymore but it went away the same day and it happened twice of the course of six month . Until two weeks ago I felt disconnected and this sad feeling of anxiety I felt and was thinking I don’t love her anymore and made me so upset and got so anxious and fear of I have to break up because I don’t love her anymore. Like trying see her less or when she tries to hug me I would would feel this empty sad feeling or run away. Although sometimes for just 2 sec like u mentioned in your video I will get this excitement feeling that I do love her but than it would go away straight away. We plannend to move together and are engaged. But even to think moving together sometimes I feel like I want to run away. But I don’t want to break up 😢 and am on oxazepam which helps me and sometimes give me that relax feeling looking at her and feeling nothing but know that it’s okay. Pleassse help as I need answer because I had this in all my relationships good or bad that after while the same feelings,anxiety,anxious come and sadly I broke up but because I see a pattern now and want to fight. So please any advice would be appreciated
@Astralox
@Astralox 7 ай бұрын
How are you?
@ismaelxjdjalat6931
@ismaelxjdjalat6931 6 ай бұрын
@@Astralox doing a little bit better but it’s more a two weeks good then few days bad situations
@stormchaser419
@stormchaser419 Жыл бұрын
OCD started for me at age 10. Its still with me.
@Indis_world
@Indis_world Жыл бұрын
The amount of times this video had made me want to cry due to feeling seen🥹 thank you
@aguy559
@aguy559 Жыл бұрын
I think doubts about relationships, and intrusive thoughts more generally, are common, but in people with anxiety issues, it’s all AMPLIFIED. So the person without high anxiety has the concern, it briefly registers with them, and then passes through their mind. But for the person with high anxiety, it hits like a freight train, and doesn’t let up, so they feel the need to act on it in order to alleviate the anxiety.
@bridgetteleach8198
@bridgetteleach8198 Жыл бұрын
Love One Another, Be Aware of Mental Health Needs in Your Loved Ones...
@mordddecai
@mordddecai Жыл бұрын
i suspect this has been tormenting the last few months, did you look at your bf when he was being wholesome and just cry? I feel like a terrible person because hes so good to me
@jamesnicholaslloyd9286
@jamesnicholaslloyd9286 Ай бұрын
Yes
@mr.krabbskrabbypatty8342
@mr.krabbskrabbypatty8342 Жыл бұрын
I feel so understood. Thank you. This has been just eating me up.
@jessielucky5530
@jessielucky5530 Жыл бұрын
Thanks for sharing.
@johnokelly1983
@johnokelly1983 Жыл бұрын
I’m plagued by this. I’ve ended two otherwise healthy long term relationships over this, and I’m almost 40.. I do not have the strength to fight it, been in therapy years but it ain’t getting any better.
@NatalieNicole2222
@NatalieNicole2222 Жыл бұрын
Thank you - I unfortunately have the same condition and its extremely exhausting. I love my partner but I have severe road and my god just people who also have it understand me. I feel so alone with it.
@mohammadkhadra2604
@mohammadkhadra2604 Жыл бұрын
Zoloft was prescribed more frequently than any other antidepressant in the USA in 2018 with over 38 million prescriptions.
@riannemeinardi
@riannemeinardi Жыл бұрын
I get so much thoughts and when I am like maybe I don't love him my brain goes like Oh then why don't you break up if you don't? Then I don't know what to do. Do you have any tips?
@braydonbonham8209
@braydonbonham8209 Жыл бұрын
What would you recommend if I wanted kind of a bright pink ?
@Elmer1953
@Elmer1953 2 жыл бұрын
“Body in hot wax” yep, that’s what that feeling is, I could never find the words for it 😅
@ashlynanderson565
@ashlynanderson565 2 жыл бұрын
Hope you post more often!🥰 glad to see you’re back
@ninkamachon4634
@ninkamachon4634 2 жыл бұрын
you gave me hope, thanks
@CherryCoke550
@CherryCoke550 2 жыл бұрын
Yesterday I had a strange dream, I woke up being in fear in instant and immediately asked questions to myself "do i love him?" And this is horrible, because how is it even possible that I could not love person about which I was thinking so warm and I was so happy before I fall asleep just last night. I told my boyfriend about it, we are in long distance relationship so it makes things even harder, but he will always help me when I need it. Maybe its a little better than it was yesterday, but these things are in my head all the time, if i really love him, I start to cry, I feel like I can't eat, I can't really think about something else now. I did not know that even small trigger can start something like this, when I was totally happy and fine the day before... I had obsessive thoughts in the past also, but not about my love, so this is just next level of what I had... Thank you so much for this video, when I hear your story I know I am not alone in this, also when I read comments I see people are struggling with many faces of this problem.
@banashreedas2860
@banashreedas2860 2 жыл бұрын
Hiii How are you doing all good? Okay lemme start it all started at 13 january when I feel like i suddenly lost feelings for him I ignored that feeling but after 17 I completely lost my appetite I used to get multiple anxiety attacks like everything seems drowning I was no longer interested in reading books watching movies then after 28 january i was happy because I went cycling with my boyfriend I got back my spark again it was a nice day i got my appetite back I was feeling less anxious. So it all started again now the thoughts what if I'm attracted to someone else what if I don't love him what if I was never in love with him I started to get thoughts and anxiety again I started to feel numbness again then at 5 february when I saw him when I hugged him we were so in love he hugged me and kissed me boom my feelings are back. And from the very next day i woke up with anxiety again. From that day i was spending time with him so much I'm feeling okayy I suffered with every symptoms of rocd numbness, anxiety, panic attacks etc but now I'm not getting any symptoms I feel kinda i'm okayyI'm feeling everything but not love for him I don't feel like complusion but i 'm forcing myself to be complusiveThis are not thoughts this is reallWe've been together for just 5 months just for 5 monthsI don't even relate to anyoneI'm falling out of love i don't even feel anger jealousy towards him please somebody help
@laurabassa6980
@laurabassa6980 Жыл бұрын
Friend
@laurabassa6980
@laurabassa6980 Жыл бұрын
How are You doing now??
@carriecanfield218
@carriecanfield218 2 жыл бұрын
I've missed you!!!!!!
@kaylaramosav
@kaylaramosav 2 жыл бұрын
Brave and beautiful soul. Thank you for this ❤️