Thank you so much for this, you explained succinctly how it feels. I was admitted with suspected stroke 2 years ago and I'm still on the NHS waiting list for therapy after being diagnosed. If someone had shown me this two years ago I'd have managed my own expectations. It's such a difficult illness to explain to people, it's incomparable to anything else. Your body is no longer your own. I used to go bouldering 4x a week and then couldn't get up the stairs without crazy fatigue. Absolutely keep moving - it'll get you if you stay still!
@Moose185Ай бұрын
Newly diagnosed, I used to be very active 3-4 times a week at the gym. Running 10k very easily now I struggle going for a 15 minute walk. I have Crohn’s disease for last 10 years but they’re diagnosing FND as the causes of symptoms. I get bad chronic headaches on my right side, very debiltating, severe lower back pain, which I’m awaiting a mri of. It’s just so hard I’ve no idea what to do to get better. I don’t see much improvement. I just hope this can improve.
@gypsy4659Ай бұрын
I was diagnosed by a neurologist 2 months ago & all he said was go see a psychiatrist. He didn't want to see me again, no further tests, no prognosis nothing. The cold kills me too. I don't have seizures, I just twitch like I have Tourette's from the time I wake up until the time I go to sleep. I keep as active as possible, but my sister has moved in with me as my carer. I just can't manage on my own. I forget bill's, I can't add up properly & the tiredness is something else.
@gypsy4659Ай бұрын
I was diagnosed by a neurologist 2 months ago & all he said was go see a psychiatrist. He didn't want to see me again, no further tests, no prognosis nothing. The cold kills me too. I don't have seizures, I just twitch like I have Tourette's from the time I wake up until the time I go to sleep. I keep as active as possible, but my sister has moved in with me as my carer. I just can't manage on my own. I forget bill's, I can't add up properly & the tiredness is something else. Thanks for sharing.
@anitagrainger4292 ай бұрын
Palpitations are bad , they set of my nervous system which triggers my seizures and that is horrible feeling
@moggyslifehacks18192 ай бұрын
I've been suffering on and off wth a wide variety of symptoms for as long as i can remember. Have just been diagnosed with Dissociative FND last week. The neurologist read all my medical notes and believes my onset and first episodes were after having flu in march 2000. Just recently, on holiday, i developed motor problems in my right arm, this spread to my right leg, then right side of my face, tongue, crazy tremor, breathing difficulties, pain in right side face, right eye, faciculations in both calves, cramps in my feet, couldnt work. I was happy to be told i dont have MS or MND. Been prescribed venlafaxine and quetiapine and CBT. Hoping to get well enough to work as im self employed, haveca family and mortgage to pay and apparently its very difficult to get any benefits or financial support with this condition!?
@fndmystory2 ай бұрын
Hi Rupert, I am grateful for sharing your experience. I arrived at E.D 4 years ago with stroke like symptoms and misdiagnosed then while in the trauma unit as Hemiplegic Migraine. After my visit with the specialist he corrected this as F.N.D and I realized I have been suffering for about 14 years. I have been trying to manage it but at the stage now where I have to give up my job. I don't walk in public without a trolley or something to lean on as my brain sometimes forgets to tell my foot to move and I fall over. The list is long as Im sure everyone here has their story too but thank you for sharing your story. Its helped me for sure ❤🙏💛
@johncozens82012 ай бұрын
Hi, I've just been diagnosed after suffering for 3 years. Hadn't even heard of FND before 2 weeks ago. I've had so much trouble at work and home as after being told after every medical test that everything was fine. Nobody (apart from close family and friends who saw me every day) believed me and thought I was putting on my symptoms. I suffer extreme brain fog, drunk like symptoms and exhaustion when stressed or physically tired. Since being diagnosed I'm finding out so much from people such as yourself about how to manage FND and I can't thank you enough for sharing as now I know that I'm not alone. 👏👏👏
@lindasmith87714 ай бұрын
FND = Conversion Disorder and yes talking about your stresses clearly does help you. Good luck.
@ruperthitchcox46574 ай бұрын
@@lindasmith8771 I’ve heard that theory and the doctors agreed with how I refuted that theory. With my experience.
@lindasmith87714 ай бұрын
@@ruperthitchcox4657 Communication is the key so try researching centres of excellence where patients have shown great improvement in a short space of time and then understand that it is possible for symptoms to lessen, leave and never return. If medics tell a patient FND is a lifelong condition then it is likely that it will be. Have hope that recovery is possible.
@jessewhite28794 ай бұрын
I have a question. I’m 21 years old and i’m experiencing hell and it seems like my doctor is not really that interested to keep investigating what is wrong with me because of my age. I’ve been contemplating and researching a lot and my future doesn’t seem so bright and i can only cross my fingers and hope i don’t have a neurodegenerating disease despite all the indications. But my question is, can FND cause speech and working memory/thinking problems because it seems like i’ve got some major issues with how i’m able to form sentences in my head and physically delivering them. I’ve been particularly scared sh*tless of this one disease, Huntingtons disease. I’ve taken an MRI but i didn’t get any results back so i imagine they haven’t found anything abnormal, but not everything shows up on an MRI. I’m desperate for some hope that i’m not alone in this and figuring out what’s wrong with me.
@julietyler73004 ай бұрын
I feel like ive got nothing left , because of the pain, the spasms the burning the stinging in my heart and lungs , hot and cold prickling pain, swallowing problems, , losing my hearing, my bladders dosent work sometimes and its week 13 of walking and eating again, my body is effectively effected by so many symptoms, getting worse and worse , ive made a appointment to see a private neurologist
@julietyler73004 ай бұрын
I can't get anyone to believe me , ive been really unwell for just over a year and im on the nhs waiting list with a 50 + week wait, ive not had the help from my family, my partner left me , my family cant cope and everything is wrong because because no one understands why im so unwell, i am currently in a nursing home and ive got so many awful symptoms, , the gp of the care home home dosent hrlp me or even see me , ive lost everything i couldn't eat or walk for nearly 9 months, , im had 40 really frightening symptoms that rea cure on a daily basis, my social worker dosent believe im unwell
@Zero-Cool_4 ай бұрын
Im almost 40 and i have battled this for 6 years bedridden for 2 years im just not sure i can keep going pain leg spine i am losing everone
@danelrigby65426 ай бұрын
My Neurologist has been trying to figure out what is wrong with me, since March. At first they thought it was MS,Then they thought it was Dystonia. Now I have seen a Dystonia Neurologist and he thinks I have FND. Do you get episodes where your head shakes up and down,Side to side? Do your teeth chatter 24/7? Do your eyes blink on their own and you feel pins and needles in your hands? Also, I have fallen 5 times since 2022, the last time was a few weeks ago, I wanted to step over something to avoid slipping in water, my one leg would not lift up and I fell hitting my whole are on a solid wooden table. I have Psoriatic Arthritis, aneamia,asthma,vit D deficiency,anxiety,depression,social anxiety, chronic pain and now this neurological stuff. I am 38 and some days I feel like I am 90.
@danelrigby65426 ай бұрын
Also, do you have a really stiff neck on one side and, do you get headaches? I have lots of different things going on with my vertebraes of my spine: bulging disks,wedging of vertebrae at least 8 of them, osteo arthritis. I have been put on Cymbalta as chronic pain management as, I could not sleep due to pain. I have two young children who need a lot of support, so for years I have been trying to be as healthy as possible.
@ruperthitchcox46575 ай бұрын
I've had every symptom you listed there at some point. I went through a phase of collapsing alot , it was caused by stress at work.
@danelrigby65425 ай бұрын
@ruperthitchcox4657 my Husband says he has noticed my symptoms are worse when I am tired and stressed. I currently have a lot going on between medical stuff, studying, learning to drive and then looking after my children. I am their carer and they see a lot of therapists. My two neurologists have said I have to make sure I see my psychologist as it will help. This past week I have been feeling unwell but, I can't quite put my finger on what it is. The two days I have felt the worst my head and eyes have been going a lot. My teeth move on their own 24/7 and, in 2018 I was told by the dentist to get a mouth guard for sleeping as apparently I grind my teeth. I have never noticed it neither has my husband, I think my teeth has been chattering in my sleep really softly that we have not noticed. I have a birth defect on my C1 vertebrae which was found last October when I fell. I have spent many years having xrays,ct scans and mris and that was only found last October. If you say you have had the same symptoms, then I think it probably is FND that I have. They are trying to see if It could be parkensons as, my Dad had it but, I know it's not always to say because A family member had something, you will definitely have it. Every person with every condition has it differently. My head and eyes were all over the place when I went to the shops yesterday, I had a lot of people staring but, I tried my best to pretend that everything was normal. It got worse on the bus as I was starting to feel quite self conscious about it. But I tried to just breathe and stay calm. It got a bit better at home. A few weeks ago my children were asking me to stop making "weird" faces and I told them that my body is doing it on it's own and I can't help it. After a few hours they got used to it and they did not say anything. My children just cuddled me and said they love me. It made me feel a bit better.
@davemusic41996 ай бұрын
Have you ever had any Hallucinations with your FND?
@ruperthitchcox46575 ай бұрын
No I have not.
@Truerealism7476 ай бұрын
Donuave hypomobility ive had cfs fybromyalgia elements nfnd
@gavinmurphy45107 ай бұрын
Hhc and cbd help for the body jerks. Only recently diagnosed but this puts the myoclonic seizures from a 9/10 to maybe a 1/10 sometimes gets rid of them for hours. Pro tip : hhc gets you a bit stoned, its legal im some countries. If you take it at night you can sleep through yhe stone but you get the benifits olthe next day till usually the evening for me. Like 20hrs of relief for me
@Gary-b6o6h9 ай бұрын
Diagnosed today .I was already sick from something else ,so not to much of a lifestyle change .Except for the cruel symptoms . Rough ride ,but not dead yet .😊❤,get better .
@allisonphillips1682 Жыл бұрын
How I overcame FND: 1) I accepted good morals as truth: (Better morals than I was behaving) 2) I felt remorse for things I previously felt no remorse for 3) *In my head* I began to meow when stressed Nearly no symptoms now!
@kylebrady365110 ай бұрын
Why meow 🐱
@allisonphillips168210 ай бұрын
@@kylebrady3651 I don't know but it worked
@MikSonus Жыл бұрын
Thanks for sharing your experience and it’s very inspiring and down to earth with getting a grip on expectations. Thank you❤
@michelehenson Жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing. I airway closes with weather to changes especially in high humidity. I have coded twice. I also have the struggles with sensory stimulation causing the pain and muscle cramping.
@anadjuric5360 Жыл бұрын
How can you work with every day attacks?
@johnmcbride1773 Жыл бұрын
Our condition is so hard to explain the what's and why's to anyone. I have just lost my job on medical grounds, and it's so destructive in all aspects of our lives. I am not bitter towards my employer, they have been so supportive and I am lucky they are financially supportive for the rest of my life. It's a daily fight we have and we have to accept fnd with unconditional terms. The symptoms are so variable and mentally destroy us. We need to bounce off one another, so we can get a better understanding of our condition. John McBride
@lucypeutros55 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing! But I do have a question for you. It seems you have it for such a long time, and I had mine since October 2018. So my question is did you manage to go back to work? What ever work that you use to do before you got sick! As for me I do feel stuck some days are better than others but still battling to leave my wheelchair! Thanks again you will be in my prayers.
@JanetDavies-h8b Жыл бұрын
Hi i have fnd diagnosed about year ago there not a lot of help but trying to find help its the fatigue to much have sizures and carnt walk my life has totaly changed but trying to live life as much as i can people saying you will get better i didnt no you could have this for years send lots of lv ❤❤❤
@stellaancimer8505 Жыл бұрын
I am glad you can move, for me a litlle Activity can Knock me down.. All the best
@gratitude2054 Жыл бұрын
I have had this for 4 years now, so when I go back and forward or just keep moving my head, and realize I'm zoned out, are these seizures? I have also passed out and come to with cuts on my body ringing in my ears and a euphoric feeling I don't know I also get twitches in the muscles in my face or neck, I have so many symptoms that have changed over the last 4 years, my doctor has just started calling it FND after 4 visits to specialists, I just want to die now I pray to the universe to die every morning I am in bed 99% of the time because the pain is so bad, my memory is so bad I forget whole days and hours of time and I don't have a clue even when I see I have done something in a game that took me hours to do I'ts like someone else did it, I don't want sympathy I just need some answers to what is going on, cheers, Don 53yo from Australia.
@johnmcbride1773 Жыл бұрын
My name is John McBride, and I have been living with fnd since 27th Feb 2021. I struggle so much with trying to understand this condition, and it always reminds every single day day in so many different ways it's soul destroying.
@andrewbennett7756 Жыл бұрын
Thanks that's was a big helpful iv had it for 2years stay safe mat❤❤
@andywebb1000 Жыл бұрын
It's a crap illness. I had head injury in 2013. Many diagnosis but given FND in May 2019. I find it a difficult journey. I agree keep moving. The cold also affects me badly. Winds are not good either. Keep in there
@mtaylor766 Жыл бұрын
So while living in the UK up until March last year, My neurologist thought I had FND after getting covid in March 2020. So today, my new neurologist confirmed this diagnosis. What a lonely journey ai. As soon as you mention you have FND people look at you funny, like ohhhh she is a nutter making stuff up for attention ai. But, that is not the case though is it? 3 years with it now and I no longer work. It such joy going from being marathon runner to almost non existent runs. So, high five to everyone coping and living as well as you can.
@shinebrightjamaica Жыл бұрын
Just diagnosed after so many years being a mystery... Hope you have been managing ok
@adelequinn33342 ай бұрын
Just recently got diagnosed after 1 year and a bit. It definitely seems like a stigmatised condition… because it can appear so different and it can change so suddenly people don’t really understand and think we are faking.
@DoodlestoPoodles2 жыл бұрын
I have FND3.5 yrs since onset. Mine started with a weird twitch in the shoulder . My wife was like wtf was that . At that time i thought it was nerves because i had an injury to that shoulder. It quickly progressed. Today i have myoclonic jerks like every 20 to 30 seconds . I have verbal tics and scream aloud as if I'm getting got, quite embarrassing in public. My gait is compromised .I walk all drunk looking. I have no triggers meaning anything that makes it go away but stress and anger makes it worse. Cold also bothers me. I have brain fog badly . i get lost in blank stares , brain fog concentration, emotions out of control . I do keep moving i have chickens ,ducks ,turkey ,geese lots of property 5 dogs but dam is it hard so hard thanks for sharing! we are warriors!
@Gary-b6o6h9 ай бұрын
That sounds familiar .Except it started in left hand .1 cat 😊 Hope you feel better .
@SageIsabella2 жыл бұрын
I was just diagnosed with this today. I feel like I need to learn more. I also feel like with the other videos I’ve watched it seems so much more severe than mine is. Is it something that gets worse over time? Currently I am pregnant with my 3rd and so my symptoms lessen drastically. I can still walk though and only sometimes my leg will not cooperate but I never thought anything of it before.
@ruperthitchcox46572 жыл бұрын
It depends on how you manage it, with my FND, it started while riding home from work, I had a seizure while at the traffic lights, which shocked me, within a few weeks I was bedridden unable to walk without collapsing. it was only after 6 months of this that I had a physio come to visit and slowly she got me moving again. but I certainly plateaued and my condition is greatly affected by the cold making it a lot worse. But I have heard of people who are polar opposite and have a worse time in the heat.
@emmamurphy21782 жыл бұрын
I’ve just been diagnosed with FND and I can’t stop twitching all the time and I’m struggling to walk xx
@stuartburns8657 Жыл бұрын
Hope things gave improved somewhat for you Emma
@johnmcbride17732 жыл бұрын
I got diagnosed in February 2022, I am struggling so much with trying to understand fnd. I spent 4 1/2 months in hospital, and I am continuing to get physio and psychology, as well as care everyday. Some days are not to bad, and I think at that time it's gone. Then the next day I am all over the place. I feel like people are thinking it's all a fantasy. I understand them thinking that way, because I don't get it still. I would love to speak to someone who is, or has fnd. Please help.
@andreahooper802 жыл бұрын
Totally understand & many people don't get it. Stay strong and take each day as it comes (I know that's easier said than done)
@stellaancimer8505 Жыл бұрын
@johnmcbride1773 i am here if you wanna speak
@correttathomas3204 Жыл бұрын
I got diagnosed and would like to hear from others who have it
@stellaancimer8505 Жыл бұрын
@@correttathomas3204 me :)
@johnmcbride1773 Жыл бұрын
@@stellaancimer8505 thank you for your sensitive response. We become very isolated I think. The psychological aspect of fnd is so frustrating and I get really annoyed and down with getting family and friends to understand what our condition is like. Its not anyone's fault, but no symptoms are regimental and consistent. They are very supportive and caring, but it changes every single day. So it's an important thing for us all to try and work things out as best as we can, because this is the only reference point to work from. Thanks
@htt2321012 жыл бұрын
I was diagnosed last week after 8 months since having Serotonin Syndrome. I'm still very much in early stages where I have tons of leg tremors, all day, headaches, drop attacks, bladder problems, vision issues, lots of involuntary spasms and GI issues from it. It's so so difficult to know what's about to happen.
@ruperthitchcox46572 жыл бұрын
Tony, this is very true you don’t know what’s going to happen next, but over time and some determination, you learn your triggers, and how to cope, I still have a lot of what you mentioned, but you will begin to cope and move forward. You’ll be ok, just don’t give in and stay in bed. Keep moving!
@andreahooper802 жыл бұрын
I have fnd and every day is different -
@prettylou2 жыл бұрын
Hi Rupert, who did you get help from? I’m desperate.
@ruperthitchcox46572 жыл бұрын
Pretty, I had a company called physio comes to you. They were brilliant, Hannah is the one gave me the drive and inspiration to keep moving. She told me, even if only make it to the kitchen she gave me heaps of exercises, which have helped. 9 years on I still have issues, but I am more mobile, but not to the point I could keep my job. Just to set expectations. I hope that helps.
@kimmywd82322 жыл бұрын
Are you able to work. I’m waiting on a diagnosis. I’m having some improvements but I am not working and don’t know when I will be able to if at all. Any kind of stress makes my symptoms so much worse.
@ruperthitchcox46572 жыл бұрын
Hi Kim, I can work but on a limited basis. I’ve since setup a business and trying to get that started but, I do have to manage things accordingly. Yes stress really effects me too. My symptoms do get worse, also when I push myself, that can be cause a flare up.
@kokoyumz78202 жыл бұрын
I have FND, stress is makes it worst
@truetvbiryo236 Жыл бұрын
I was not told just found out, from discharge letter from neurologist community care. As they were refusing to have me! Said they have to deal with my back spine first then they will. Consider me 😢
@brianbordenkircher522 жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing! I also have FND. My symptoms vary from day to day. Definitely getting more used to it, acceptance wise. Had it around 3 years. Sorry you have FND! I hope you keep learning to work with FND or accept it in a positive frame of mind even when it gets tough. Looking forward to hearing more of your FND story. I shared some of my FND experience on my KZbin too
@julanekeen4822 жыл бұрын
Thanku for sharing give people like me hope x
@ruperthitchcox46572 жыл бұрын
I’m pleased what I said has. Please feel free to ask me any questions.
@cefndrewrexham82132 жыл бұрын
I was diagnosed 2019 with FND living in Australia not a lot of information like you guys get in the UK . The one good thing I have great doctor that helps me so much getting information on FND . With FND no days are the same which is very hard to get used too. Your rightI I have noticed my pain worse in winter time . It gets down to 15°/20° in Sydney. Warmer weather helps my pain a lot . You take care keep safe
@mrssuzybuck20702 жыл бұрын
Last year I felt lost with it now I’m trying to manage day by day
@ruperthitchcox46572 жыл бұрын
You are not alone, it took me ages, it was 8 years before I was diagnosed with FND. Just know you are not alone.
@mrssuzybuck20702 жыл бұрын
@@ruperthitchcox4657 I learnt more from media world than NHS very little support iv seen more about it on here
@mrssuzybuck20702 жыл бұрын
Absolutely
@mrssuzybuck20702 жыл бұрын
It’s very unpredictable from hour to hour I found it challenging definitely try to walk once a day thank you for sharing your personal journey kindness suzy
@ruperthitchcox46572 жыл бұрын
Mine is very unpredictable too, but over time you notice triggers, mine is getting cold, especially going from hot to cold, like at the moment, going outside, and so forth, over time you find ways to cope, but getting in a wheelchair is the worst thing you can do, as I talk about, you have to just keep moving, power to you!
@mrssuzybuck20702 жыл бұрын
I got diagnosed with FND last year
@ruperthitchcox46572 жыл бұрын
I found being given a diagnosis really helped as now I know what I was dealing with and could research it accordingly.
@mrssuzybuck20702 жыл бұрын
@@ruperthitchcox4657 how do I reply to u
@mrssuzybuck20702 жыл бұрын
Just learning you tube world
@ruperthitchcox46572 жыл бұрын
@@mrssuzybuck2070 should be able to just hit the reply as Im doing.
@sunnystar5053 жыл бұрын
Does lifting weights help or just plain walking, what is your exercise regime. I have fnd 3 years now
@ruperthitchcox46572 жыл бұрын
Hi Sunny, sorry for the late reply. I just walk as much as I can. I do some gym work when I can but it always wipes me out and I'm only talking 10 minutes on the bike will trigger seizures if I am not careful.
@KittyGotClaws2 жыл бұрын
@@ruperthitchcox4657 aah thats so interesting to know! I personally manage my FND with the gym - i do fast past walking on the treadmill, incline walking and light jogging and I also go on the bikes. but i had to work up to that point.. everybody's brain is different. I feel like when I tell people I'm in the gym constantly to manage FND it just baffles them.. sometimes I start to even play tricks on myself in my own mind and wonder if im just "making it all up", even after 4 years of severe symptoms like 3 hour long seizures and paralysis (thanks, stigma!). i found your video very very validating for the way I manage my FND. from the bottom of my heart, thank you for making this. I've tried to make a video like this before but just found it way too challenging. so thank you for sharing. i understand how hard it was to probably make this. FND is genuinely traumatic, in the beginning. but I feel like people are resilient and we find our ways to cope, survive and then thrive xx
@ruperthitchcox46572 жыл бұрын
@@KittyGotClaws Hi Kitty, Im really pleased it has helped you. Ive got a heap more planned. I know what you mean about the seizures, I had a 7 hour one 10 days ago which landed me in hospital. I have heaps of videos planned on pain and my wiggly toes, they go round in circles! I just for some reason, keep hitting barriers that have stopped me over the past few months. But knowing the video’s help, means a huge amount to me and a reason to continue. Thank you xx
@KittyGotClaws2 жыл бұрын
@@ruperthitchcox4657 omg that sounds horrific, longest I had was 6 hours. Hope you are recovered now from that episode and able to keep moving forwards!!
@ruperthitchcox46572 жыл бұрын
@@KittyGotClaws fine thanks now, my worst was 36 hours I was totally exhausted, the only way they could stop me seizing was giving me sedatives! But yes pushing forward is the only way. On a side note.The Foo Fighters song Walk, that initially made me have that determination to get moving after being bed ridden for nearly a year in 2013. Been my anthem since. My F.N.D developed after having my neck broken in an assault, so that song holds a lot of resonance.
@meditationtoday67243 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for sharing your journey!
@ruperthitchcox46573 жыл бұрын
You are so welcome! Im going to be posting more video's I have more planned.
@meditationtoday67243 жыл бұрын
I also have FND. I have a separate channel about my experiences and explaining FND: m.kzbin.info/www/bejne/hYetnpadaa1_Zsk