15 MONTHS

15 Months is a short film sharing my experience and feelings over the last year and a half.
Original Music by: Ursine Vulpine
www.ursinevulpine.com/

[@RTGame]

Sean's gonna be in a movie later this year, but before that he's made his own

[@daanmollema6366]

Very cool RT

[@anonymous0perator226]

100%

[@seanstarchannel8881]

Hello your vids are great.

[@jackmercenary]

Hi Rt, hope your doing well on your break

[@Jamie-2004]

Holy crap the amount of likes that this comment is growing by is insane!!!

[@inf3rnalis804]

He’s known for being loud, and that makes the silence that much more deafening

[@maxthegreek]

I bet in an hour, this comment will get 500 likes

[@kyleramsey5984]

The silence almost hurts.

[@fawnallen5261]

That's a very powerful sentence

[@pankaeyk]

this hit harder than i thought it would

[@Daterrifictaj]

I wouldn't say he's known 4 being loud but I do get the point

[@user-py4nk1kb4z]

I feel so horrible because I can’t help him the way he has helped me. His videos always added a light to my world when it was dark and the fact that I can’t do that for him makes me feel so sad.

[@colorfulgeek5414]

I think the best thing we can do is remember that he isn’t always happy and we can’t always expect him to act happy and silly and funny all the time; I think what he needs is support and understanding that he has his own issues to deal with and we shouldn’t push him to make us content everyday to keep us happy when he isn’t -I hope that makes sense my brain is a whirlwind rn, but let’s all just do our best to support him and his channel no matter what and in any way we can :) even just liking, watching and spreading love for him and his videos can help, and also accepting that Sean isn’t the person he always seems to be, and that’s ok.

[@seb99342]

@Rock girl bot

[@-Etty]

You can help him by liking and subscribing

[@lylanotherday1383]

The best gift you can give to anyone at any time is your understanding and patience. Both when they’re doing well and when they are not. Seán’s message of PMA is proof of that. You don’t have to be happy to be positive. So we as a community, no matter how we are doing individually, can give that to him. He doesn’t want us to feel bad for him; he wants us to relate to him as a human being.

[@jellycore1316]

@@lylanotherday1383 Well put, thank you for this ^^

[@Ender275]

The camera at the end, I think it’s meant to represent us. Obsessively watching and waiting, always wanting more. I can’t imagine the amount of pressure the audience puts on any KZbinr. It’s really haunting imagery and really makes me think. We as an audience need to be less demanding and understand the person on the other side of the screen is a human being with their own life and their own unique circumstances. Many of these entertainers brought us entertainment during quarantine and never really got a proper break to process what was going on in their own lives. Sean had digestive issues and probably had COVID that exacerbated his asthma. I’ve been subscribed to Sean for a very long time and I don’t think this man has ever slowed down and given himself a proper vacation or just time to think. Sean if you’re reading this enjoy every moment of your time off. Whenever you’re ready to come back whether is 1 month or 1 year we’ll all be here supporting you on both KZbin and Reddit.

[@the_exodusrex3385]

It's an Inside reference, I think.

[@xneonknight]

@@the_exodusrex3385 Uhhh, no. Pretty sure it's exactly what the commenter described. Maybe it was inspired by Inside but it wasn't a reference Sean is a real person you know?

[@the_exodusrex3385]

@@xneonknight Have you seen Inside? That's a direct pull from it. I have no doubts that it's meant to represent what the commenter says it does, but I'm almost certain it's a reference to inside. Sean has spoken many times about watching and enjoying the special, and this short film is littered with references to it.

[@unknown_symbol9146]

Bruh how long did you write this? In a hour or what?

[@leoneyamada5408]

i cant POSSIBLY think of a more understanding, healthy, loving community then jacks. seriously.... look at jaden animations community and how they treat her after all she has done... its disgusting and sickening. then look at jacks. he has millions of fans still subscribed and still loving EVERY video and watching to the end even if he decides to take a break and leave youtube for days, weeks, months.... jacks fanbase is one of if not THE most understanding and caring fanbase i have EVER seen. the fan base was built on compassion, understanding, and mental health. now..... im not saying sean is being an ass for making this video, ANY celebrity has very different view of the world then an average person. living a life of constantly needing to put on a smile for the camera and constantly being funny and working everyday to put out something new is a very VERY hard thing to do and should be respected. but jack is very lucky to have the fanbase he does and a fan base that has stuck with him for so many years helping not just the channel but working as a "family" to help the world be a better place. if jack is feeling like he needs a break from the grind then everyone will respect that choice and know he has MORE then earned it for the YEARS of dedication to his fans.... but not everyone can make that choice sometimes even tho they SHOULD. i respect sean for making a video that shows just how scary it can be when your stuck in a loop like that and how lonely it can make you feel

[@chantelbarrett4739]

This feels more like reality than anything. Honestly it just shows how badly he needed a break. Whatever it is your health comes first and as much as we all wanna see him back.. I'd be happier knowing he is happy and healthy.

[@Det.Flynn9125]

Same here

[@adalyncantdraw594]

@@technobladewilldiecryabout3919 what's wrong with you like seriously

[@kmander1656]

@@adalyncantdraw594 just report

[@ChaoMix9786]

I agree everyone needs a break everyone and they need to make sure it’s about them not there viewers we can wait to watch it’s ok to take time for yourself

[@anda4160]

@@kmander1656 ok

[@redeemable8741]

I'm pretty sure Jack just showed us what most KZbinrs feel but just never really tell their viewers and that's one of the things that I'm frightened about.

[@ninatheinkling5748]

Well this was also about him being sick and not having as much energy as he used to and having to come to terms with that, if i understood it correctly.

[@melztunes]

I'm glad most of the streamers I watch do talk about this stuff

[@jswizzler]

watching Sean watch his old self like that honesty gave me chills. I loved that era of Jacksepticeye but I also love that it ended and Sean started taking time for himself and started putting out content he liked, I hope he knows we don’t expect him to put on a persona anymore

[@dougf1249]

Hopefully he does. At least by some of us.

[@xenademaranville9365]

i agree with you

[@user-kx6vj4fg7l]

So in the beginning there’s this scene where Jack is running at night, and I love how his anxiety is represented not just by the weird KZbin autofocus thing (great use of that feature BTW), but also by the aspect ratio narrowing down - the world literally closing in on him. At first, Jack was able to fend off the asthma attacks with inhalers, but later down the line we see the same narrow aspect ratio come back. Except this time it doesn’t go away. The anxiety stays and it becomes a part of Jack’s life. Hours turning to days turning to months, all while being juxtaposed against shots of the outside world in a wider aspect ratio. And only once the lockdown lifts Jack is able to overcome his fear, with the black borders gradually thinning. Yet there’s still the watchful eye of the audience…

[@toasega]

Jack, just go. I don't mean for a month, or 6 months, or even a year. If this is killing you, then leave for as long as it takes, even if that's the rest of your life. The hell with us, frankly. Your health is what's most important.

[@GHOST0ID]

THIS. This. Leave, jack. Save your life. Please

[@williythekid4720]

Yes the real fans will still be here when Jack decides to come back and if he decides not to come back we will still support him because we love him and want I'm to be happy and the best that he can be

[@matthewparkinson3221]

@@TheShadowofevolution a never ending loop. A need to provide for oneself monetarily, but also a need to provide for oneself spiritually, emotionally and create a psychological balance.

[@GGHOSTT423]

He is leaving for 15 months I guess

[@malikimartin7721]

Look Sean I'm one of your biggest fans ever and if you need to get rid of us to do it I'm fine with it all I want is for you to live a healthy life like the rest of us and if you need to quit youtube do it all I will ever do is support you for being you take this break

[@manchurianfool7968]

This just makes me think that in the end, after jacksepticeye, he's still Sean. He's still a person, and what he does takes an enormous toll on him.

[@somestew6356]

👆 Bot above me

[@damn5991]

@STREAM BUTTER & WAY no

[@milkyyvr5154]

It just goes to show that we are just people, people who need breaks, people who need food and water, people who need time to themselves, because we aren't this perfect image of what people see us as and we arent machines, and that is what makes this so good. Thank you, Sean

[@Lesley_RedRhody]

Yesterday- October 21st, 2022- marked exactly _15 Months_ since Seán gave us this masterpiece and I still think people do him a tremendous disservice by only seeing Bo Burnham’s _Inside_ or some other creator’s work when they watch it. I go back to this video all the time. Not because it’s some general expression of COVID lockdown or an inspiration from Inside (no offense towards Bo Burnham). *THIS SEÁN MCLOUGHLIN’S PERSONAL STORY!* _This is HIS ASTHMA! IT’S HIS DIGESTIVE ISSUES!_ This was but a mere fraction of what _he_ had to go through! Not anyone else.

[@Conley800m]

I relate to this on so many levels. The depression, the isolation, the guilt, the looking at videos/pictures of yourself from a younger time and feeling empty inside. I've enjoyed your content from when you were a young, loud, boisterous lad, and I enjoy it now. I wish I could give that feeling to you, as well. I hope you're alright, Jack-a-boy.

[@DaithiDeNogla]

Chills

[@azizlewis]

Big time

[@avarage_consumer5779]

Indeed

[@Crispy_Christopher]

Yes

[@beneathmoonriver]

down the spine

[@crazypotato9191]

Oh hey their, expecting some more likes from this comment but that’s alright.

[@marte1992]

What really made this so strong is this wasn’t jacksepticeye. This is Sean

[@commentaryenhanced3019]

Idk man I think they are the same person

[@duckle3152]

Who is sean?

[@thesluggyserpentgaming007]

@@commentaryenhanced3019 lmao

[@samkatat6549]

No this is Patrick

[@editae._3424]

Cried watching this. Cried for the fact that I cannot help a man who's made me laugh everyday, who's made me smile and cheered me up through his videos, his personality, his tweets and his realness. I love you, Jack, and I still probably can't comprehend what you've been going through but I genuinely hope you get through it strong and I wish you the very best of luck in life. You're like a dad I never had, might sound weird but, that's how much I respect you and your work, man.

[@kidnamedfingergaming4754]

You can help him by letting him know that you care. You have shown him that by you'r commet

[@duane4601]

1:20 the way he opened his eyes and his pupils dilated is probably one of the greatest film scenes I’ve ever seen 🙏🏼

[@ElectroBOOM]

This video conveyed your hardship very well. I hope you know you were never as alone as you showed in the video. There were always millions of people wrapping their arms around you at all times.

[@AtlasGmng]

Holy crap, wasn't expecting to see you here ElectroBOOM!

[@RLola]

Now im seeing every youtube creator in this comment section.

[@henryhere]

im not sure i want millions of people wrapping there arms around me at all times, sounds rather uncomfortable. maybe thats why he sad in the video.

[@Anotheruser229]

You wouldn't have finished the video by now, this was written 5 mins ago and the video is 11 mins long

[@beans-after-dark348]

Yo It's ElectroBOOM!!!

[@xaverxic2445]

The part where Jack watches old videos of him being full of joy just breaks my heart.

[@wildweatherworldwide6655]

Same

[@Goldskull_Mystic]

Making me concerned 😟. I hope he’s okay…

[@Milfzwelcome]

Same, I’m worried about him. I hope things get better. I’d be absolutely devastated if he quit, considering he’s saved my life on multiple occasions.

[@raresbucataru5327]

@@technobladewilldiecryabout3919 wtf

[@Bear_the_shepherd]

@@technobladewilldiecryabout3919 stop

[@jakelloyd8533]

years ago, I think it was "That Dragon, Cancer" where Jack said something along the lines of "I don't think I've ever been depressed seriously, I mean I've been sad but..." I can't help but to think you have better I see standing of it from this video and where you are now, just remember we're all here for you through and through. Best of wishes to you

[@cynicismpiee]

i'm so proud of creators like sean and bo burnham for expressing their vulnerability and pain to us. for not suffering in silence anymore. thank you, sean, for this amazing, personal, eye-opening film

[@lr3484]

bo burnham fucking sucks but yeah

[@cynicismpiee]

@@lr3484 nobody asked and nobody cares

[@jerrithegentlemen6070]

@@cynicismpiee no no he’s right, bo is trash

[@kattaplez721]

EVERYONE PLEASE HELP ME CLEAN THE REPLY SECTIONS! IT HAS BECOME A SERIOUS ISSUE AND WE NEED TO REPORT THEM SO HOPEFULLY WE CAN SAVE JACK AND ALL OUR EYES. please DO NOT reply If someone has a horiffic username! because when you reply it gets highlighted so please delete them and report the scum by pressing the 3 little dots on the right of their comments! *i know i'm spamming this but I see it too often and it makes me sad*

[@cynicismpiee]

@@kattaplez721 ??????

[@vkntoro]

The borders closing in without me ever noticing was the scariest part of it all. I know how it must've felt to be so isolated, so concious and feeling so trapped inside. So I'm glad that you've made a hell of a production out of that! Anyways, take care jack our boy. I loved this film, and we're here for ya!

[@anlcankacar2298]

Please be well, sir. If we never hear from you again, I'd still be content that you're fine

[@rednax99]

I didn't even notice

[@nevrmynd9635]

@@rednax99 it happened at 0:40 seconds but it wasn't constant throughout

[@LInk02]

It sucks that you basically have to rely on inhalers and other medicine almost all the time. I feel bad, and I wish everything good to you and your health, Sean👍

[@Adamgarv]

You know its comming...... *Seán

[@wafflegod6661]

I can relate, I've had periods of time where if used my inhaler almost every day, multiple times a day

[@wafflegod6661]

So if Sean every wants to talk about it I'm here

[@bonnieb9238]

@@ERlC_CARTMAN report the comment as bullying as well as their channel. Dont bother responding

[@ERlC_CARTMAN]

@@bonnieb9238 you’re right, i shouldn’t waste my time responding to edgy bots

[@cheapoishere3597]

Man Asthma fucking sucks man. The absolute primal fear of waking up and not being able to breath is one of the most terrifying feelings I have ever felt. On top of that having to then sort your brain out enough to find your inhaler is like a irl quick time event. I really feel you man, I don’t suffer from it anymore but I remember the feeling and will never forget it. Keep fighting it man, much love Edit: holy shit man the likes

[@NYCbabyJes]

Covid is 1000% worse, hence why ppl should get vaccinated. My mother passed the most painful & isolating death in December due to covid

[@finixmoon127]

@@NYCbabyJes Sorry for your loss, this is irrelevant doe

[@charger6442]

I once had Asthma too, it really sucked. I hope Jackie boy gets better ;')

[@1inspirart686]

@@NYCbabyJes I'm not gonna disagree but inappropriate time bro

[@PolskiGamingIsHere]

@@NYCbabyJes I’m not vaccinated. Parents are. They had it 10x worse. It’s not a cure. Just a helping hand.

[@DragonisHellfire420]

This shows so much. So much anxiety, so much pressure, so much fear. But I also see beauty, passion, and heart. It's perfect

[@f1sken727]

This feels like a goodbye to Jack and a hello to Sean.

[@Smoka_Lad]

Oh my

[@somerandomdude6471]

That's deep

[@afrikanoalg3551]

Yep

[@lilboat2102]

That hits bro 😢

[@budderutter]

Goodbye jack was like 3 years ago at this point

[@LetMeExplainStudios]

Thinking of you, Sean. ❤️

[@moreseyy]

Nice

[@jordenalexis3106]

We all love and support you dude ❤

[@tamalay8567]

What do you mean by that🤨

[@MoonlightCactus]

Same

[@epicgamedude57]

@@jordenalexis3106 Dude?

[@LydiaTereK]

The moment you recognised the meds he’s taking. I feel you bro.

[@kazim4734]

whats meds was that ??

[@natestone1003]

@@kazim4734 well setraline is an antidepressant or you can take it for anxiety I take it for both so it works either way

[@mathi685]

5 and a half minutes in and tears are running down my face. The emotions in this are so real, because they're my emotions too. At 5:38 when I saw the sertraline, I just smiled with tears running from my eyes and said "Hey, I take those too." I don't even know what to say really, but you existing means a lot to me. I'm gonna keep watching the video now, I just had to stop and write this for a minute. I don't know why.

[@glassgoblin9448]

I take Sertraline too :') hello friend!

[@rexkrampus1214]

Me as well! We are all in this together Friend

[@ExistentiallyDreading]

Same. I take sertraline as well

[@lemonsugaru8166]

I also take setraline!!!!! Hello fellow pill poppers /j

[@hezekiahvenable7554]

I felt the same at 5:38 it reminded me of everytime i have to take them everyday and hoping that they are helping.

[@BoroCG]

Man, the more I see Sean expressing himself seriously, the more I like it, and the more I want of it. Keep it up, good sir. And of course, wishing you healthy body and mind.

[@theranger7924]

@UCXwUdcp_JKRo7OP13p-pepg shut

[@yozora6636]

Goddamn there's so many bots in the replies

[@owengameplayzg6693]

For the body and the mind The Structure-

[@nintendosealed]

most excellent

[@traquafina6223]

Amen

[@OneTopic]

you have honestly inspired me, so many times. when i needed motivation to lose weight, i ran every day listening to “All The Way” on repeat. one of my biggest accomplishments and you were there for every step. when i needed company late night at work, and school, your videos were there. thank you, Jack.

[@GalaxyPrincessK]

Hi OT

[@iulia.bianca.b]

Love you, One Topic ❤️ It's so wholesome to have you and Jackaboy in the same spot 🤗

[@rafaelz6211]

Hey OT

[@count-countess8464]

Jack is great

[@billcipher1523]

Wow that's awesome!

[@AlexMINILADD]

I know you'll probably never see this but thank you Sean. Thank you for everything you've done and thank you for showing this to us. If you need to stop doing KZbin in a more permanent sense, we will understand. And if you do go, thank you for all of the content, laughs, crys, and best times of my life. Thank you for helping all of us, please help yourself now.

[@MysticBloodRose_]

That whole short film was insanely gripping. The way the emotions were portrayed, and the camera techniques used made this hard to look away from. I also almost cried, so-

[@TheClick]

So beautiful and heartbreaking. This really resonated with... something. This video gives condensed "inside" vibes All the best, Jack. Incredible work

[@kylemorrowofthetomorrow]

I can really see how it really is for him now… and man I wish I could do something for him! He has brought so many smiles and laughs to us all! We really can’t thank him enough!

[@ember8740]

I really hope he gets better soon! It’s amazing to also see so many creators show their support, it really makes it feel like a community. This extends to everyone, be safe out there, and there will always be someone to catch you when you fall. Just let them

[@anib8863]

OwO Who dis?

[@Lampost_Binbag_Official]

Indeed my favourite swedish youtuber

[@westley89126]

WAIT WHY ARE YOU HERE

[@CaptainSauce]

The isolation, the panic, the guilt, the pressure, seeing a part of yourself frozen in time... I'm always shocked when reminded other creators feel this too. The cinematography in this is just as powerful as the message. Well done.

[@Moon-yb7yo]

hey LITTLE SAUCY

[@skillissue5954]

battle cats is inevitable

[@Max_Rebo7]

Yes

[@natedunbar9193]

Hi Captainsauce

[@christianparrish6647]

@BILLIE SAYS DUH stop spamming comments for attention!

[@WitherBreaker]

Sean, youve saved my life countless times, literally. The world is so scary, i love this so much. I can relate to this to an extant beyond my explanation 😭😭. I love you as a creator and i hope you feel well. Lots of hope 🙂

[@luuk2274]

These periods really make you aware of how grateful you should be if you're healthy. I've been struggling with isolation and bowel cramps (something i believe seán went through as well) for the last 22 months and i admire how this video brings the struggles to light.

[@gordatados]

That part with all the eyes on his bared self got me deep. Can't even fathom the pressure you feel.

[@ehi_ij]

@STREAM BUTTER & WAY If Sean was your inspiration you wouldn’t do something so shameless as this. At least do it on another video man, such disrespect

[@dasiareed2708]

@STREAM BUTTER & WAY if your a loser who’s parents are cousins just say that

[@hunbunbun088]

Damn, seeing all the body language too. Even though he didn’t speak, his movements spoke volumes. The leg bouncing, the hand rubbing, the hands shaking, those are all signs of anxiety. Just.. damn man. I hope you’re doing okay and/or getting better!

[@backdoorideas]

seeing this again after 9 months still love it so much I've seen it so many times it's just so great

[@mcmanusleo3681]

This literally made me feel anxious/scared I can’t imagine how your feeling hope you get better take all the time you need. We’ll always be here when you need us.

[@reialove7274]

This wasn't Jacksepticeye. We got to see Sean for who he is

[@marwan4358]

True

[@AdiR21]

True

[@damiendamien5883]

You are right about that we can see wat he is going thrue . I hope he sees your coment

[@maikdruffy96]

Exactly my thoughts

[@reialove7274]

I hope he sees it too! If Jack were to notice my comment, it'd be one of the most validating thing @@damiendamien5883

[@NurseRekka]

The nurse in me is feeling helpless watching this: anxiety, depression, panic, asthma exacerbating anxiety, the meds making you all sorts of jittery unfold. This spoke volumes. I hope you are getting a better handle on all that has been thrown on you. The music at the end seems like you’re literally able to breathe easier. We’ll be here. Always.

[@steviegilliam5685]

To be honest I was scared it was just me during the quarantine I've had for the first time in my life panic attacks, obsessing over intrusive thoughts, feeling like I'm wasting my life if not doing something productive or practicing the stuff I want to do then college happen, I failed my first semester on my second year cause I was not focused on my work right im trying to make up for this summer has helped me a lot when quarantine was uplifted, I asked other family members if they were suffering the same, when I went to visit my aunt for a little bit and as we were leaving she almost teared up the isolation was getting to her too

[@snekz341]

in a sense it's weird to dive so deep into someone's life, and well not just "someone's" but to a man's who has been helping many go through hardships with his jokes, laughs and in general bright character. seeing this side of you Sean makes people rethink the value of their problems, and rethink the value of their behaviour towards others. Thank you for this.

[@lindasnyder6879]

I'm so sorry you went through this experience. You were courageous to put this out there. You are there for all of us, we are here for you too. Don't forget to reach out for help--no shame, only away to feel better. You, Sean are appreciated.

[@sixela_5482]

The beginning was giving me “Sean could be in a music video” vibes, than after that I was like “🥺I hope he’s doing ok”

[@arreis7866]

Saaaame

[@Sirmichaeltheblackknight3563]

@Louielolbruh are you seriously kidding me? It's getting old, just stop. No one wants to deal with your crap

[@evantaylor2935]

@Butter My Crumpets The comment, has dissapeared!

[@syd2134]

the meds in his drawer really hit hard with me, beautifully done jack, absolutely beautiful!!

[@GMYSTERYICTNF]

I really hope those were prescribed by a licensed therapist I'm extremely curious to know if he actually went for a proper mental health evaluation.

[@jonathanmartin3089]

I kept glancing over at the glass of water and inhalers on my nightstand. Tearing up at the moment. Connected with this on a visceral level.

[@abbygould8948]

ever since I started my journey with meds, I’ve felt like it’s a taboo thing for me to talk about with others even though many people I know also take them to help with this kinda stuff. It just seems weird because it ends up being a hidden thing you don’t discuss. I think seeing it be a part of Sean’s routine in this video helps me feel better.

[@emmalynn877]

I have 3 draws in my night stand just like that. My kitchen drawers/worktop, too. It really is kinda painful when you stop and think about how shocking that imagery is. You don't notice it during your day-to-day because that's just normal life for you, but when you see all of those meds piled high, you really do have to take a moment

[@GMYSTERYICTNF]

@@manofsolutions4305 I get what the video is about, I understand what he was conveying as his message, and his struggles But I'm curious about the ending He's going through all of that but is he getting help? He just showed the problem and at the end he left it very vague Mental health is a serious issue and I'd hate to find out he's been going through all of that without proper care from a professional because he could end up worse Also Sean, like myself, is an Athiest so faith aint ganna help him. I just hope he tweets or lets us know hes getting proper help because after seeing all that i really hope hes doing better The ending is extremely vague and I'm really worried about him

[@penguin-IDK]

The part where he was watching his own video was like breaking the fourth wall in a way- it was so real! this whole thing was very well put together, im so sorry you've been going through this

[@chelseasmith3598]

I really relate to this. during lockdown my anxiety had almost tripled in size and i used to wake up feeling so overwhelmed with what i can describe as a heavy feeling in both my chest and stomach, the feeling that no one truly understands, being locked inside my own head , trying to cope with fluoxetine, ending up feeling like a zombie and barely anything at all, the world to me had lost its colour and i could only imagine how that would feel on top of both physical and mental health, im so sorry... jack... we understand you though! or at least i do.. from one adult to another...

[@Hireah_07]

It’s really sad that this is just snippets of jack and how he see and feels off screen and how this affects him and his mental health. This probably isn’t even a fraction of what he has to go through everyday and how it’s even affecting his physical health. I really hope your doing well jack :( genuinely

[@Podcastage]

This was excellent Sean. The last shot hit hardest, gave me creepy vibes of “do you even exist if the camera’s not on”. Truly impressed bro.

[@Podcastage]

@@tombenmoon never seen it. I don’t have Netflix.

[@user-uj8id6ml6c]

@@tombenmoon it's really not, you're a bit special

[@dogestarz5953]

@@Podcastage you should see it it's really good

[@anonymous_192]

tombenmoon is this gonna be another epic youtube comments war?

[@ethangarrison4265]

@@tombenmoon you obviously don't know the difference between a rip off and taking inspiration from something.

[@Deiruto_Uchiha]

I hope Jack takes a break from YT for a while because he honestly deserves it for what's he's been giving us Watching this video makes me sad and want to give him a warm hug for what he has been through :'(

[@HullabaLulu_Art]

The cinematography is just gorgeous. You've grown so much as a creator, it's amazing. I relate to the feeling of isolation, chronic illness, and the anxiety of social media. I'm really impressed, Sean. I hope everything gets better for you soon, and just know that even if you never come back to KZbin, I've loved your content, and I'm so proud of you. You've done our little island proud.

[@NotAndrew22]

This shows that you never truly know what people are going through and that the people who put the most joy in the world aren’t always feeling joy themselves

[@Kaitri]

A perfect reflection of my own life

[@dr.prismatic5118]

gee wiz mister i could have never got it on my fucking own, thanks for spelling it out mr sherlock

[@askunnakuku4007]

@@dr.prismatic5118 L

[@phantomKILLIN]

@@kaleb609 how exactly? You’ve never once seen this mans true self the only part you see is the one he shows you. You never know what’s going on in someone’s life

[@dr.prismatic5118]

@@phantomKILLIN exactly

[@yuhaye3986]

I almost feel guilty for not watching Sean’s videos that much anymore this guy was a HUGE part of my childhood especially the happy wheels series. We love you Sean always and forever

[@hattricklaine4463]

We all move on, but we all come back once a while dont we?

[@lily-ne1ui]

so im not the only one

[@cruzcooper213]

I remember being about six maybes and I remember getting my first tablet and I remember first discovering KZbin and Jack has always been a great guy and just like you said I almost feel guilty for not watching much of him anymore When I get my tablet I think I’m going to go on his channel and watch some of the series

[@yuhaye3986]

@@hattricklaine4463 very true I always come back every now and then and make sure Sean is ok especially since his fathers passing and the trolls who thought it was funny to comment shit like “join him” and “he’s in hell”

[@StupidStuart1]

@@hattricklaine4463 I come back every one in a bit!

[@cryptidshark]

I find myself returning to this piece often. It’s so stunningly human. Thank you for the honesty and the vulnerability.

[@emir6197]

this was a masterpiece of a short film, the actual display and convenience of emotion was so powerful. We're really proud of you Sean, hope you're doing okay!

[@MamaCroc]

the overwhelming urge to jump through the screen and hug you is STRONG!!

[@charlotterice3839]

This hit… really deep. To me, it’s the sense of despair you feel creeping up on you as the days blend together and you pretend that you’re okay but it’s really not okay. You can’t think. You can’t feel. You can’t change. It’s endless.

[@lechugaenlabiblioteca3298]

You feeling like your going crazy. And all you can do is watch

[@charlotterice3839]

@@lechugaenlabiblioteca3298 exactly.

[@Milk-rf1tx]

I feel the same but it’s not like I pretend to be okay. It’s more like I just don’t care enough to convey that I’m not okay if that makes sense.

[@charlotterice3839]

@@Milk-rf1tx completely. Like everything should be okay but it’s not.

[@davidbleam940]

i feel the same too

[@mvlad8725]

Watched through the video once normally, and then one more time, with _just_ the audio, eyes closed.. It's eerie, uncomfortable, anxiety- inducing... and just builds and builds until the end. Very well done. Great job on the sound engineering!

[@theallmightyfish3027]

These shots are actually amazing, each one really manages to express what it wants to, whether it is loneliness, anxiety, depression and this mysterious feeling that you’re always being watched

[@TransGuyOnTheFly]

Damn…he really showcased his struggles I think in the best way he could. I’m not going to lie, I almost understood it better than if he had just said “this is what I’m going through”. It helped drive the point through.

[@menternmen2752]

@Nathan Stuart for how dense you are that you believe saying that is fun, you dont know how sensitive that is, you dont deserve to watch this man, nor should you make fun of trauma, so please leave

[@cloudjelly97]

@@menternmen2752 ^^

[@user-ph7gs7dg1y]

PLEASE CONSIDER THE TOPIC ABOUT UYGUR GENOCIDE IN THE CHINESE AUTONOMOUS DISTRICT SKINJIANG !!!! people are killed there, women are raped, pensioners and disabled people are beaten and starved (everyone is starved and tortured there), and the children are brought up with the PRC and taken away from their parents, there Muslims' rights are violated, they are forbidden to read prayers and look at one point, for this they are beaten with an electric shock (electric shock) women are sterilized and forcibly given in marriage to Chinese generals !!! please, if you want to help the Uighurs, then spread information about the genocide! there may be grammatical errors (I used Google translator) and if you doubt the reliability of the information, you can find it yourself, write in Russian on KZbin "Uyghur genocide / ... and watch at least three videos to be sure, and you can also find a small part information in Google about the end of the camp in China. damn, please do not send a complaint for spam, this is not for my channel, but for the sake of Blagovo business🙏

[@dasiareed2708]

@Nathan Stuart Nathan worry about packing yourself a book of original jokes you wouldn’t know what a pack was if someone spit one on you

[@kingvenombro]

Jack is one of the strongest dudes i know on this platform, man has been through alot and is still pushing ❤️ respect ✊

[@BroadcastingCN]

Man I think everyone didn't watch entire video and leave Yes I think he does because after every video's he posted he commented 1 second after so I think it's a copy-paste

[@seeperflow_og]

yeah

[@spirit4440]

@@BroadcastingCN thats what checkmarks do :)

[@noone3708]

Commenting before watching the vid i see.

[@sikolay7375]

@@XD2021 no🤣🤣

[@nicolelivesey2764]

This man gave us a house tour, an insight into his day to day life, a cinematic masterpiece, and an emotional rollercoaster all in one without saying a word 🤯

[@lectrostatic1680]

I feel such a strong sense of guilt coming from this. An illusion about the need, the obligation, to stay competitive with others and keep up appearances Wishing you could... even for just a moment... Take all of those fears away, and just breathe.

[@voltronpizza992]

This really makes me think. I don't want Sean to feel all the pressure after all the good times he has brought us. Please take care of yourself mate

[@boy-ti4kp]

He can take a year a month or maybe never upload again i will be happy as long as ik he is fine

[@insultigknightuscantstands4648]

I agree Jack please take the rest of the year off at least because this kinda made me worry for you man just lay down and take a nap outside trust me it will feel good

[@nateconley.6209]

Jack really just made an entire short film by himself and did it with a professional feel that some actual movies don't have..outstanding.

[@P4rz1va1]

What makes you think he did it by himself?

[@rasya5425]

@@P4rz1va1 11:02

[@wingsofthunder170]

@@P4rz1va1 The credits probably.

[@UAPCaptain]

I recommend seeing Bo Burnham: Inside on Netflix, that's what inspired this video.

[@shalomgaming3187]

Jacksepticeye dad in the trash 🤣🤣🤣🤣

[@killrbee]

I go back to watch Sean’s old videos everyday just to feel like a kid again when I felt care free I. The world but this video really helps to know that I can’t be stuck in the past and wishing I could go back

[@emberwoods]

Ngl this made my heart race and I was honestly about to cry at a few points. Before I saw this video, I had already thought that I related to Jack in some way or other but now it feels like I relate to him even more. The feeling of isolation, the anxiety, everything about this video made me really think about how much we don't notice the little things that possibly go on in the background. We care about you, Jack. 💜

[@boleggedbigfoot]

The camera sees everything, but we only see what he wants us to see. Or maybe he only shows us what WE want to see. Nothing is as it seems. Keep well Sean. You've brought joy to many over the years. Try and bring some to yourself. ❤️

[@Blank-wg7ni]

I honestly thought the same thing

[@coleking804]

Thank you Sean for all the childhood memories.

[@spitsson]

Jack keeps mentioning in almost every gameplay series how much he loves environmental storytelling. There is so much of it in this video, every detail feels like it was meant to be exactly there, even though you won't see everything from the first time Go rewatch this video a couple more times, it's worth it I promise!

[@DennisHeenan]

I understood it all the first time through, as anyone who has been watching him since 2015 would.

[@Thee_observer]

Yea I was going to say something similar along those lines but its a lot like the anime movie silent voice which has a lot of environmental storytelling.

[@londerthegamer9333]

the berserk references were amazing

[@spitsson]

@@Thee_observer And I think this is what makes it so special, the more you look into it the more you see!

[@lupercal8796]

This was the single greatest piece of art I have seen in months. I was sobbing at the end. I literally tore a muscle yesterday from how hard I was gripping my sheets due to a night terror. I felt this in my heart. The endless pills. Everyone telling me their opinions on how I need to fix myself. Day after day on repeat. Wake up, wait for my alarm. Fake it till I make it through the day. Avoid sleep because of the darkness that lurks there. Scream, thrash, wake up, wait for my alarm. Emptiness filling every corner of my mind. I cannot express enough my gratitude to you for sharing your soul. I hope you have found your light. This helped me find another step in my path to find mine again. It truly was pure, real, and perfect. You are heard, you are important, and you are loved. Good luck in all your endeavours Sean. Keep being you. From the very core of who I am, thank you so very much.

[@nuclearnugget1999]

I’m really sorry you’re going through all this Sean. You’ve helped me with so much that if there was any way I could hug you and take it all away, I would in a heartbeat. Wishing you only the best.

[@grimmjowsaltycumismine1625]

This broke my heart to see how our bundle of joy, the one bringing a smile to our face is going through a hard time. It shows how much we don't know what is going on behind the cameras, i hope jack is taking the time to build himself, mentally, emotionally and physically and he gets better soon. I miss him, but i care for his health more than anything. Take your time jack, we love you!!!!

[@notsofestive]

exactly!! also- your username. holy shit dude

[@chickenlynrdcontent2449]

100% agree whatever is best for him

[@ducttape9940]

@BILLIE SAYS DUH well, its better than the hellbots.

[@tetehenkes]

Couldn't have found better words💚

[@grimmjowsaltycumismine1625]

@@notsofestive 👀👀 right heheh!

[@LironSegev]

Took me a while to take this all in. This has to be the most relatable bit of content and hits hard for everyone; especially fellow creators. Sean, you have blazed the way for so many of us, are the most genuine human as I have ever seen at every single VidCon we chatted. Take your time to find you and if it's no longer in content or at this pace or on this platform - that is fine too. We appreciate you.

[@irishlad1367]

Hes amazing 👏

[@noodles_playz_guitar529]

I agree

[@galaticwolf5772]

@UCbUnKTeSpQsPm52EwyRNoAQ thats not a good thing to say

[@TopAnimeLoverEver]

Yes yes yes yes yes exactly, Always supporting you Sean no matter what you do, whether we're there for the journey or not, just always wishing for your happiness and health.

[@quandaledingle6280]

@@user-ph7gs7dg1y no

[@ethenaliff7832]

Jack your my hero i've watch you When i was 6 You have Been though alot please don't give up we are all here for you we believe in you not to give up hope

[@jaxbarron5722]

the sertraline in his drawer got me. i've been on it for nearly 6 years and while it's helped so much it's also a relly painful reminder of a part of me that I can't escape. All the love to you, Sean, and everything you've done not only for us but for yourself, too

[@caitlinmariereacts]

i am honestly just speechless... that last shot of the camera is so so powerful. thanks for sharing this with us, jack ♥️

[@Mike-lo5om]

it's sean btw

[@pineapplenewman7471]

@BILLIE SAYS DUH what mic is it

[@scarywall2580]

5TH REPLY LETS GOOOO

[@Tonsils-micman]

@@pineapplenewman7471 just a span, pay no attention and report it.

[@buttongaming5245]

@BILLIE SAYS DUH shut up, you shouldn’t be using this video for personal gain

[@juliannegee5114]

Sean just seems to be posting more and more serious things, vlogs, and taking breaks. Part of me wonders if he's ready to quit the KZbin scene. I hope he chooses whatever is best for him. All love and support, Sean.

[@tobsterco36]

@KY5 [9th Main Account] wtf

[@CurlyKebab]

@@tobsterco36 What do he say, he deleted the comment

[@ahisee7533]

@@CurlyKebab Probably something messed up

[@iamsorry.nomore.2466]

Lmao guys I'm rotting in hell

[@teamsquid1875]

@@iamsorry.nomore.2466 just shut up, this stuff isn't funny

[@TuneMechanic]

This is truly gripping , i could only imagine the struggle you have been through , just know that we love u man and hope to see you back in your full self

[@serendipityfilms6769]

The way I almost started crying watching this! The message is so powerful. I loved all the cinematography and the way it was filmed. It's a beautiful kind of sad.

[@chaosbitses7047]

That clip of him quietly using his inhaler during a stream.... like yeah, that's what it's like. Ruled by an illness but at the same time weaving it into your normal, and a huge part of the time no one else ever even knows. We get so good at hiding our unhealth that it comes as a shock when we actually say we're chronically ill out loud

[@cosmic8849]

Honestly, as a person that grew up with asthma as a kid and was fairly active, playing soccer and golf etc., I really didn’t mind asthma all that much. I personally don’t think it’s that bad but maybe your experiences are different.

[@nanoqht285]

@@cosmic8849 Asthma has different levels of severeness. It can be so mild it doesn’t need treatment, or so severe it’s life threatening.

[@chaosbitses7047]

I'm aware it's not so bad for everyone, but speaking as a person from a family of weak lungs that don't have access to inhalers, it is a big part of my life and i do have to hide it in order to keep from freaking people out

[@filip9564]

@@chaosbitses7047 Wait what? People get freakes out about a inhaler? Is that an american thing?

[@chaosbitses7047]

@@filip9564 possibly? My abuser is just the kind of person who doesn't believe science is real unless SHE personally discovered it (on the internet 🙄) and her stance is "all steroids bad" even though i have multiple conditions where steroids are the main treatment

[@Ozpex]

Imagine how many people have been going through the same thing, but can't express to anyone that this is happening.

[@unaudible4550]

@卍 SMOKING THAT DADSEPTICEYE PACK 卐 wut?

[@yummycats3069]

@卍 SMOKING THAT DADSEPTICEYE PACK 卐 wtf is wrong with you

[@SalesmanWave]

@卍 SMOKING THAT DADSEPTICEYE PACK 卐 Satan's awaiting you with great anticipation

[@umutkabaday5787]

@卍 SMOKING THAT DADSEPTICEYE PACK 卐 if there is a god then he probably reserved a special place for you in hell

[@Babykshoota]

Asthma is literally a fucking nightmare. Can barely sleep.. barely move it sucks especially when the flu comes around.. this pandemic fucked it up

[@ayoyonerd8424]

Sean. you've been one of the biggest parts of my life. I remember watching your videos back in 2014, and ever since then its been a wild adventure. I never realized how much stress you and some of the others felt. it must be a lot, and that's why I wanted to say thank you. for all of it. the videos. the laughs. its been amazing. thank you.

[@sighmc7003]

The way my heart hurts when I think about how we can't do nearly as well to help you like you help us. Your message went nowhere unheard. We love you, Sean.

[@Patterrz]

Powerful video. I do love the final shot of heading out into a bright sunny world again, leaving the camera behind. It's hopeful and contrasts well with the dark tone of the rest of the video. Really well done man

[@harvey3724]

JACKSEPTICEYES DAD IS ROTTING IN HELL 😂🤣😂🤣😂😂🤣😂

[@harvey3724]

JACKSEPTICEYES DAD IS ROTTING IN HELL 😂🤣😂🤣😂😂🤣😂

[@owenmay4599]

Ha ha wow yes that so funny good joke love it amazing we’ll done you keep up the good work. You have got to be that saddest person I know

[@crutchy4671]

@@harvey3724 this isn't funny

[@wysteriablayke2319]

Have fun! Just reported you! Don't say hurtful things about people. Grow up

[@whitedemon8953]

I never would have thought that sean's silence can be this powerful.

[@TheUnderscore_]

@Louielolbruh For anyone seeing this, report them.

[@miri9700]

@@TheUnderscore_ huh

[@NerdInTheLibrary]

I agree!

[@TheUnderscore_]

@@miri9700 A bot's spamming disrespectful things towards Seán's father.

[@dire_wolfheart]

@@TheUnderscore_ Done and I hope they get suspended or banned from YT, cause even though I haven't seen the replies just the single video on their channel is screwed up enough.

[@stephenrose3202]

Moments like this you realize that people’s accents are vocal inflections; Sean does not in fact breathe with an Irish accent, even when he’s breathing deeply.. Thanks for sharing this, stay safe. Great music and editing.

[@ditz_cataya]

You made my childhood Sean and I really appreciate that I get to live that with you and your content. Just take your time and enjoy yourself in the moment. Were always here for you, the same when you were always here for us to make us happy when we going through all sorts of things. Please take care of yourself and we love you.

[@0range69]

Movies: get postponed, Sean: "Fine I'll do it myself"

[@KenKaneki-er3vx]

Sean quotes thanos: Fine I’ll do it myself

[@ilohefalter]

as he should!

[@arttrain5934]

@Fred Brayan?

[@ryangrossman5372]

@Fred Brayan bro what 😐

[@zaneevans7979]

@Fred Brayan you will be too, gtfo of here

[@paulofduty2005]

Jack should make movies. This stuff feels like an art film.

[@inkgeneral124]

Defo

[@YouTubeSupportSucks]

@@yusufdroid9783 just mass report the comments for spam

[@Mystyyx]

Agreed! He would be an astounding director!

[@yayeet9643]

Jacksfilms

[@yayeet9643]

Jacksfilms

[@keishasimmons5569]

Thank you for showing YOU ARE HUMAN. My son and I adore you. We are sending you healing vibes and love. Take care

[@idied16]

This video perfectly encapsulates how depression and anxiety feel. Thank you Jack for sharing your experience and willing to be vulnerable. You're not alone, I've been suffering with the same feelings and hope that you find relief in your day to day struggles.

[@eye_in_a_bottle]

Seeing that camera at the end… it’s terrifying. That’s us. I can’t imagine how hard it must be to be on the other side, trying to reach out to all the people watching, judging, waiting. There’s no way to describe that feeling, when you’re all alone, but nobody else can see that… When that camera looked at us, we were looking right back at ourselves, and I couldn’t help but wonder what it would feel like to have others watching instead. It’s fitting to have the person behind the camera, who’s constantly trying to fit into our expectations turn that same feeling on us. It’s humbling, but also sad… Great film. And Jack, thank you for everything.

[@wlks_]

@Wish You The Best That's why they're thanking Jack for everything. For all the memories... Because now, its time for Sean to shine

[@elzar5987]

@Wish You The Best oh wait eally? I thought this Sean mclocklan guy was just a random film student. Thank god

[@Roman_Trickster]

As always his the Boss And i hope he will have a good life and I am thankful jack is back😄😀😁

[@youtubefan5735]

if you concentrate it looks like the black dot in the middle is growing, it reminds me of the quote "I stared into the abyss and it stared back".

[@wlks_]

@Wish You The Best Sorry! I just typed what I understood based on other comments..

[@KickThePj]

amazing work man, I've been looking forward to this. I love it!

[@inversedeggyolk5073]

LADS, PJ IS HERE

[@kurzgd]

it is kick the pyjamas

[@GokuDoku4]

Yo pj long time no see

[@chaznan]

welcome boot the nightwear

[@Grimm3624]

@Jsjd Bdhdh That is vile

[@cheryljacobs1680]

You may not see it but you have a beautiful light within you. These times are harder on those of us with many issues. I believe you are not alone in your struggles and anyone who has these feelings stand with you sweetie. And I'm sure I'm not the only one when I say we are here for you much love sending your way

[@serenityjyad6683]

I started watching your stuff dearing a really difficult time in my life you made things better you made laugh when I just wanted to cry so thank you ❤

[@drae]

Man, I felt so much of this, you often don't see the difficult side of this life path and you showcased so many of the dark emotions perfectly. Beautifully done Seán this was pure art.

[@litemmangyanglemtor54]

DRAE HOLY SHIT!!! Sup bro? I've been subbed to you from 3 years now. Btw, do more besiege. It's just, more fitting for some reason XD.

[@litemmangyanglemtor54]

Also yes. I agree with you on that comment,drae.

[@precisiongaming426]

Dre comments on Sean's post to be supportive. Dont tell him what he need to play, if he chooses to play it then he plays it. Dont be that guy. Its putting a bad reputation on your sholders

[@gabewar8569]

deyum

[@aisuhd]

Bruh imagine having a mindset of a shady "ooh i have depression pls help" teenager

[@libsybum3591]

This was actually really hard to watch. As someone who recognised almost every medication in this video and has taken about half of them, this was painful. I take 5 tablets before I get out of bed in the morning. I’m alive but not living. This was so painful, especially the ending.

[@weegi606]

I know where you're coming from. I've watched my mother take most of those medications since the day I was born. It's heartbreaking to see that her, you, Sean and so many people have to suffer through that.

[@gumiho3099]

@@natfoster6362 meh just a troll let him be lol

[@coralgordon9431]

Yeah for the first 6 years of my life I was in and out of hospitals and constantly taking medication and shots and this was very sad to watch

[@tatasianone]

Damn dude. Hope you are good. And the people experiencing this pain. 🙏🏻

[@_b_e_a_n_s_]

yeah i used to take antidepressants and being able to recognize some medication hit different

[@TheSalazarai]

Sean I appreciate you being you. You have never been more than or less than a decent human being. No matter your hardships in life, know you will forever have ppl that love you. You will always be in my thoughts and prayers, Sean.

[@flagrantyeti]

I felt this on such a physical level...the foot bouncing when during something that should be relaxing like reading, the gnawing the fingernails... these are my anxiety flags too, and I felt this movie could be triggering, but watched it anyway, the absolute least I could do for Sean. Gonna do a dumb thing and get real on the internet... I adore ya man. It's been my own personal goal for the longest time to spread joy, happiness, and positivity in this world whenever and where ever I could, and to discover you and see how you live so similarly and you have such a platform and you've used it so powerfully for so long dude, but here is the deal. You are not an infinite source of jollity and happiness. You are finally, thanks to the machinations of a shitty world and the unwitting assistance given it by shittier humans, coming to the end of what you can give without dedicating a significant time purely to receive. There is no shame in that, nor is there obligation. The batteries of positivity need some long term recharge time. To that end, ya gotta find some serious self care and really devote yourself to that in the same way you devote yourself to your channel and us subs. I hope this doesn't come off as condescending or commanding, its meant in no other way than as genuine concern from a fellow human, for ya. I get the vibe as I watch this, that you, your soul, your essence would find great joy disconnected from technology and immersed in nature. Not like, park bench under a tree immersed, but like 'national park, no sounds of humanity, just you and the world' kind of nature. It's an actual spa treatment in japan! I get the feeling that you are pretty naturally an extrovert and that you gain rejuvenation around loved ones and close friends, and just worry that the 'fishbowl' affect has perhaps made you hesitant to lean into that tendency for your sanity's sake, and I hope that's not the case, but if it is, maybe the disconnection from technology and healing of nature can be shared with a few of your closest friends, people with whom you are just Sean, and don't have to be Jack around :) Take all of this with a grain of salt from a random empath who doesn't spend as much time on YT as he should, just know that I mean well, and want to help. Heck, odds are this gets lost in all the noise of the comments, and that's ok too. I'm still putting that intention out into the universe in the hopes it finds its way to you as a positive manifestation! If ya do see this, have somehow made it through this hekkin wall of text, and want to talk further, to just bounce ideas off of, or even just vent to, well I'm sure you have many friends filling that role in your life, if nothing else, I'd hazard a guess that probably 90% of your subs are really cool chill people who would listen to you with caring as Sean, I know I am one of them, what ya see is what ya get with me, hence this (probably cringe) comment of word vomit bahahahah but there is no question that so many in your life want to help, and the comments here show that there are hekkin millions of us ready to support you in the same way you have supported so many of us. Be well, Sean, none of us want you sacrificing your joy in any way to make us content, and you understand that. Manifesting love, peace, and positivity into your life man! -Elder Millenial with Boomer Vibes