2 Months post Masculinising Surgery! | FTM TRANSGENDER TOP & BOTTOM SURGERY

[@zoomcrjh]

I really appreciate how conscientious and aware you are of all of the nuances that play into our bodied existence. It is so complicated to know where some of our feelings come from, it is so influenced by society and also so personal. I am also speaking from my experience as a disabled trans masc person. Basically I wish everyone could be happy in our body/minds, and I really appreciate the struggle of holding the complexities. Sorry, this is all becoming a bit more rambly than I wanted. I am glad you are healing well and have been really connecting with your content lately. So thank you so much for that.

[@Ocean_Grove]

Thank you so much for this. I really get you. I wonder how different we would feel if all the outside noise was gone, you know? Thank you!! I really appreciate your message

[@otragus]

Although I don’t commonly comment on someone’s body, you look amazeballs! I think you are glowing and look so happy! As a long time follower I’m so happy for you ❤️

[@Ocean_Grove]

Thank you SO much. I usually don't like comments about my body either but at the moment I'm revelling in it hahaha!

[@princekai7572]

Never been this early.. Swelling is definitely a factor.. it can only get better from here! Very happy for you, Ocean c:

[@Ocean_Grove]

Thank you!!!

[@artichautbarbu4618]

Hey, Thanks a lot for your sincere sharing about your joy, about where you think it comes from and how you include all these thoughts in your journey. It was really smooth to listen. I wish you to continue well on your journey.

[@Ocean_Grove]

Thank you!

[@anthonygreen5160]

Nice to see you doing so good. ❤

[@Ocean_Grove]

Thank you!!

[@d.k.2272]

Completely understand where you are coming from and I’m dealing with something similar myself. It sounds less like it is actual fat phobia that caused you to alter your body and more like literally the shape. The fact that your body shape didn’t properly fit the clothing that you wanted to wear is a problem on a much larger scale that we have in society. They don’t really make clothes for different body types. They just size up or size down the same fitment. You are looking great, and the fact that you are enjoying being a bigger boy speaks a lot about how you are not fat phobic. I do agree that those thought processes probably stemmed from internalized fat phobia that is ingrained in us from society. It sounds like you are finding a happy balance with yourself. I hope you continue to love what you see and feel comfortable in your own skin.

[@Ocean_Grove]

Yes! Thank you for this.

[@BenStimpsonAuthor]

Good to hear the updates, sounds like it's overall going well despite some hiccups! "I like being a bigger boy, being chubby, and I'm comfortable" If I can say, you're very cute as you are and it's nice to hear you feel comfortable being bigger and chubby because you look good like that. I hope that's not too weird to say, compliment not creeping!

[@Ocean_Grove]

Thank you so much! I really do love this "dad bod" vibe haha! I appreciate your comment!

[@BenStimpsonAuthor]

@@Ocean_Grove you're rocking it!

[@chodpants]

I really want to get this done I need hips removed so badly it's my worst part at present time.. I was booked in with London clinic that has now shut down... Also interested in costs and how you found your surgeon as well. You look great! I did wonder where you disappeared to Great to see you back! 💚

[@Ocean_Grove]

My 1 month post op video has a lot more information around costs and the surgeon I went to! :)

[@chodpants]

Hi, thanks for the reply, I have just watched your one month post op video and there is no mention of costs or surgeon in that video. I watched it twice. So is it another Clio you maybe reference too. ? 💚😎

[@jaysbaddecisions]

@@chodpants if you look at their 2 week post op video, thats the one with info about costs and is more in- depth!

[@Mr.Frog24]

This is the surgery I want to get. Thank you for sharing your experience. ❤

[@Ocean_Grove]

No problem at all! Thank YOU for the support.

[@Jimbob666x]

Dont worry about what others might think, if it made u happier thats great

[@rainbowtropolis]

You look great! You were great before your surgery too 😊 I can picture nice warm squishy hugs 😁 One person I watched somewhere said "I don't want to be a big chunk of hard muscle, I want to give people a big Tempur-Pedic hug, where they just slowly melt into my softness and leave an imprint on my heart!" I wish I could remember where I heard it/who said it! After seeing your before and after pics, I don't see why the doctors were saying they thought you were too overweight to do surgery? 🤷🤔As for the side view you showed, I don't think you have any fat at all right above your lower hairline, that might just be your muscles? And love how your tattoos have turned out 😀 I have the same body shape you do, and the doctors are telling me that if I keep my weight off I can have skin removal surgery. I'm still deciding that part. I gained weight back because my skin flaps were so uncomfortable, but my body could barely handle my top surgery. 🤔 Now that I know what it's called (thank you Ocean!) I want to have the mons resection as well, but they don't include that in skin removal surgery where I am. I'd have to do things in stages. I'm surprised you got through a whole video without a kitty butt or her playing with your camera, she's adorable!

[@Ocean_Grove]

Thank you so much for this! Warm squishy hugs are the bed. The surgeon was talking about asthetics entirely when it came to lower surgery. I personally think he's just not comfortable enough in his talent to work with fat people! I've been hearing a lot about loose skin since talking about this! I wish there was more info around options! I locked Olive in jail (my bedroom) because she's out of control ahahahaha!

[@rainbowtropolis]

@@Ocean_Grove Kitty jail! I used to have to do that with my cat, but he would bang up against the door and howl, so it was better to just leave him out after a few tries. I found out with one surgeon I asked, that they could use the loose skin from a skin removal surgery to make a neophallus, then there wouldn't be any arm/leg scarring issues. I've thought about it, but as with your surgery, there would have to be hair removal involved. With belly hair, it would have to be electrolysis, and that's more expensive than a wax job. The follicles need to be completely closed to make the urethra. I wish I knew what doctor told me that, but it's an option for anyone in my situation.

[@jaelynscott2447]

Are you in pain? I have had top surgery I am 3 years post op and I am in pain my nerves in my nipples so they told me to keep taking pain medication and cream on it

[@lentalguts]

Sounds like something went wrong - I would seek another professional

[@Ocean_Grove]

I'm not in pain really, my skin feels a little uncomfortable still but not unbearably painful. In regards to my nipples - I think the sensation can be really weird a couple years after surgery as the nerves have to re-connect. Especially if you had very sensitive nipples beforehand? But I would also second getting another opinion on what you're experiencing right now!

[@michailp3021]

Such a cute bear😊

[@englishbright7492]

I love everything about you😀

[@Twistedgrimm]

Bro dont feel insecure i know its not that simple but im the same way before t and surgery as my birth gender i felt fatt i was 250lb all my life but after transitioning it felt fitting dad bod was my goal but im having trouble putting on weight now most of it goes to my thighs but then again same happens to my brothers haha so in my opinion you look like a typical guy in a hoodie or without you look muscular not in a chiseled unrealistic way but you look like you have the base structure to be a body builder if i could suggest somthing try weight lifters shirts and see how you feel the ones that fit almost T shapped love the video thank you for shareing your progress

[@Ocean_Grove]

Yess definitely easier said than done! I'd love to lift weights, I want to find a group who does it near me! :) Thank you for your kind message!

[@Twistedgrimm]

@@Ocean_Grove awesome your welcome bro i do too but i find myself feeling insecure going to the gym so i just do workouts at home and ill tell you the best kept secret of building muscle that may help with your confidence in your self image just working out doesn't make you look filled out you will be skinny with muscles if you want to look like your built like the a wrestler you have to put on weight to help with muscle cushioning it helps contour the muscle and fill it out this is why im trying to put on weight so i can lift fat is good for guys that are trying to lift just make sure you have good fruits and water as well as carbs protein and as much as you may want to be careful let your scars heal before heavy lifting i have eczema so my scars on my chest are stuck with me for life haha much love mate keep up the great videos

[@englishbright7492]

You’re adorable!