FTM Transition: 4.5 years on Testosterone comparison!

Song in the background is an original by me called "Don't Say I Say" and is on my bandcamp at lentilsanddirt....
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Timeline & Costs:
I began gender therapy and coming out April of 2007. (Cost per therapy session with insurance: $20. Cost per therapy session without insurance: $90.)
I started T on January 21, 2009. I have been injecting 50mg weekly since then. (Annual cost with health insurance - $50. Annual cost without health insurance: $650 - note that yearly visit to the endocrinologist costs $500 for the conversation and blood work..)
I had my name legally changed (no, I won't tell you my birth name!) September of 2009. (Cost to change it and all legal documents: $180-240ish)
I had top surgery December 2009 with Dr. Melissa Johnson in Springfield, MA. (Cost: $7400, all fees included)
I had a hysterectomy January 2012 with Dr. Travias in Concord, MA. (Cost: $14,000)
I graduated college May 18, 2013 from Skidmore College, in Saratoga Springs, NY.
Total $ spent over 6 years on transition related expenses: Over $23,000
If you'd like me to come speak at your school or organization for this coming year, please check out my personal website and contact me via the contact information there - skylarkergil.wo...
2 year Post-top surgery body comparison: • two years post top sur...

[@vlogsbylisabaxter]

I'm glad I'm not the only one who thought this guy was insanely attractive from beginning to now

[@mariahbanta2053]

+JOOGAL1111 Not necessarily...

[@mangotango3748]

i was about to comment that lol

[@RavennKnits]

it's videos like this that give me hope for my own future as a transguy

[@zlashercrasher862]

Alistair s. ftm or mtf? whatever you may be, your awesome and perfect and though I don't know you I still support you!

[@michellevargas1054]

hope it all goes well with you too! (and also gave me hope)

[@addrenalyn3834]

Alistair s. yesS cx

[@swissrolll]

same here. I'm 17 now so I have just one more year to wait.

[@leigh4810]

Alistair s. Same I'm only 15 and haven't come out to anyone 😩 don't kno how to. I'm scared about if I do then my family will kick me out of my house and I'll probably be homeless

[@peronvey]

he. is. so. hot.

[@legitgamerz1235]

She

[@Theorangecrushgamer]

she

[@peronvey]

it's he..

[@peronvey]

Clay Standridge biologically female yes. but you're supposed to call a person by their real gender.

[@corinacontreras500]

+Clay Standridge Gender is something sociologist created... therefor if someone transitions to the opposite sex then so can their gender. It has nothing to deal with biology.

[@autumnmcclure7191]

Evan Peters much? You give me the whole Tate Langdon, AHS season 1 vibe. In the best way possible of course. Love it, you guys look so much alike. Fine as all hell 😍

[@Em-bz3pi]

+Autumn Mcclure yes omg i was wondering why i was so attracted to him

[@autumnmcclure7191]

Maya Goodwin lol I know right!

[@franziskaschumacher6894]

+Autumn Mcclure Oh my god that's like exactly what I thought :D

[@AnnaTheWonderer]

That's who he was reminding me of

[@EthanEatsFlowers]

Omfg yes

[@madz2013]

Clearly you're meant to be a boy because DAMN you're fine!

[@marina_montalto]

you kind of remind me of a young version of luke hemmings,,you should be proud!

[@kellyquintero1066]

+Marina Montalto I don't see any fetus Luke, but to me he does look like Mashton's love child.

[@-twenty-onecaratarmys-4657]

+Kelly Lachrymose ikr lmao

[@briannamoffitt7610]

+Kelly Lachrymose they way his facial expressions work remind me of Ashton tbh.

[@kellyquintero1066]

Brianna Moffitt Same, and Joe Calderone a bit, too.

[@chantalreneehayles7976]

+Marina Montalto i was just about to say that!!!

[@skylarkeleven]

I'm so sorry to hear there's so many bad vibes around them :[ I hope they are able to continue to shine and be brave as well. It's hard, and takes some time, but I hope they are able to get there :]

[@omnidiscord]

Does he remind anyone else of if Tyler Joseph and Josh Dun had a love child? Just me?

[@mary_r_eyes]

a lil bit lol

[@FrancyCavalcante]

omnidiscord omg

[@vesperastraea]

omnidiscord Oh my gad

[@zlashercrasher862]

omnidiscord it is him exactly oh Jemima

[@air6260]

omnidiscord O H M Y F U C K

[@poplol77]

HOT DIGGITY DAMN

[@calandbelleshow6697]

+Phil's left nipple WHY ARE WE EVERYWERE

[@strawbbtarte]

+CalandBelleSHOW honestly I'm impressed

[@joellebarnett6690]

CalandBelleSHOW I HAVE NO IDEA

[@mariahdoesthelaundry5636]

I know that some people are against it still, but it's great to live in an ever-changing world where people are becoming more free to be themselves. So glad that people like him make these transitions. They're difficult, yes, and scary, but they make them so mud stronger... they make us all stronger as a community.

[@devbhadra1557]

***** you sure need to meet those people sir, who don't "lie", don't "mutilate" but "align" their body with what they actually have always been...and loads of such people exist who face all negative comments from people like you.. don't pay a damn...don't throw away their lives and live life the way they have always wanted to :)

[@warriorjason2763]

M Flambeau Okay so if I was a tiger named Pupinia then turned into a human named Shmitty then who am I now?

[@nyumyu4265]

@UC-NoHgiix9oyxib_XDMUyuw your a dumbass. You can change your gender and identity you can’t change your species. That’s a stupid ass comparison.

[@a.m.arteaga8369]

SERIOUSLY. Why is it that so many girls that go FTM are so much hotter than regular guys!? You are one gorgeous dude!

[@Jayrockgirl]

MUFFZILLA no it doesn't...lol you're an idiot

[@AlaskanMach1]

Yeah it does. That's still a woman. By no measure is that a man.

[@a.m.arteaga8369]

MUFFZILLA I wasn't going to dignify your incompetent comment with a response, but fine, I will now. xD Finding someone attractive or hot and being sexually attracted to them are two different things. Being a lesbian would be the latter, not the prime. I'm not sexually attracted to Skylar, but I have no problem admitting (the now) he looks mighty fine, since he has male characteristics despite being born as a female. Just like a man wouldn't be gay if he found a MTF attractive. There's no need to be sexually attracted to a gender to find them good looking; and if considering someone good looking =s sexual attraction to you, then you're just an incompetent swine.

[@AlaskanMach1]

The only incompetence is you and your reading comprehension. Semi-lesbian isn't full blown lesbian. A male finding a "MTF" attractive would also be semi-gay.

[@AlaskanMach1]

Well considering a object or animal attractive doesn't always inhibit sexual feelings to the object or animal. For example: your favorite color is red but you wouldn't date or have a sexual/romantic attraction to the color red. Same thing with kittens/cars/houses. This logic is pretty obvious and simple to understand. If a man, for example, said Kate Upton was "hotter than regular girls" and she was "one gorgeous girl", then it is very safe to assume he would enjoy a sexual/romantic relationship with her. This logic is also obvious and simple to understand. Just because one word can describe both attractions doesn't mean the same logic applies to both situations. If you weren't such a simpleton you would recognize this and not post such a dimwit dumbass comment like you did. It's obvious you find a lot of offense in being semi-lesbian.

[@hilarylathrop4047]

I think I'm in love with him

[@MistakenMystery]

Her

[@alexera_]

@@MistakenMystery shut up

[@MistakenMystery]

@@alexera_ oh man we are so fucked

[@darkx6869]

@@MistakenMystery just you

[@ChristianConrad93]

I'm gay and you're handsome as fuck.

[@Cutelisa00]

+Christian Taylor-Williams Lol I wonder if that makes you straight now, its a female transitioning to a very hot male. Lmao I'm straight and I would totally date this guy XD

[@AlphaTengua]

No, it doesn't as he is still male (and even those who disagree on that,ignore it), unless you KNEW he was trans or looked in his pants and everything, You would simply see him for the guy he is, and find that attractive. Still looks masculine therefore attracted to masculine.

[@user-ew1ss9gj7q]

Dude, i just found this video again after 3 years and I just wanted to thank you so much. I met someone on this chat site, apparently one of your friends, and he showed me this video and it opened my world up to transgender people and transitioning. It's taken a lot of time trying to come to terms with it, but I myself have realized that I'm trans, and even though I probably would have eventually figured it out I have you to thank for opening my eyes to the trans community. Thank you so much man.

[@franm1185]

Jacob Grice I'm so happy for u :) even though we don't know each other, lol

You have a beautiful nose.

[@flamingomingo9810]

Tru

[@trisatla292]

+Geen Naam yes he is

[@sundiszno]

No

[@lizhada2011]

You're ridiculously attractive.

[@sanjanar110]

Has anyone told you that you'd be the perfect candidate for Peter Pan? Congrats on making it to four+ years!

[@insertenombreyapellidos5167]

I pray for that

[@savannahhoward3706]

Tbh wow i totally would have dated him both before and after his transition :0 hes hawt af

[@ezraglenn8439]

The voice was cute all the way through!

[@cyber.creature]

Basically he's looked like an attractive ass dude his whole damn life! Love the video, awesome shit. Happy for you, man.

[@mki1230]

So surprised how voice changes so quickly :D

[@thehootingowl7179]

Dude I remember watching this video before I went on Testosterone and now I'm on it almost two years!!! It was your video that gave me hope that a person born female can and will actually one day look like a guy....so thank you man.

[@viridianms]

videos like this are honestly so great. like i can see people become happier as they get farther into their transition and its just so great. you are one good looking dude, too. i have a friend who is trans and i've known him since kindergarten and it's been so great to watch his transition too because i know he's becoming more comfortable and idk it just makes me so happy and it's so fun to see how people change after starting T.

[@UkieKooki]

Wow. Looking at then and now is so heartwarmingly awesome! The transition is wonderful condos my dear! :D

[@meghansteinberger5117]

Just the changes in the voice omg!

[@musicloverrrr2023]

incredible how we i could see your happier every video. Kept smiling with you, very happy for your glory, congratulations mannn

[@djl7827]

I seriously want to thank you so much. I remember about two years ago, I watched a few of your videos. Back then, I hadn't came out to anybody already. I was a little confusd about my gender but I knew I wasn't cisgender. You really helped me figure out who I truly am, and watching your videos really inspired me to become more and more comfortable in my skin. I saw this video today, and I just thought I should tell you. If you ever see this, thank you so much because you were a huge step for me to accept who I truly was.

[@PaulieStanley]

I don't even know you but I'm so happy because you look so happy! Congratulations for the vid and your story :)

[@timothyphipps8337]

the haters are gonn'a hate but if you're happy then that's doesn't really matter you are one nice looking dude!

[@jessmjfan989]

He reminds me of Evan Peters in some way

[@mister.br1ghtside453]

ArtsyGayGirl BITCH SAMEEEE 😂😂😂

[@tiannapina9485]

I think its the nose

[@MultiZegamer]

She*

[@nastylawless]

@@MultiZegamer He* don't be an asshole.

[@Yeah--mn9qk]

@@tiannapina9485 eyes

[@samlawton7036]

girls are like " oh no I shouldn't be attracted to you I'm straightt" but he's a guy. sooooo lol

[@Wowee2012]

I love hearing the change in the voice :D so cool how it happens to fast.

[@tucsonazul]

You have turned in to a beautiful boy, thank you for sharing, congrats!

[@krycketchirps393]

What an amazing change. Takes a lot of heart to go through that. Congrats & still congrats on years to come!(:

[@froufroudeluxe]

Oh my gosh you are beautiful!

[@hk9708]

you are seriously gorgeous at every stage of this video. * heart eyes emoji *

[@Arborem]

Haha dude, you're pretty damn cool and I'm glad to see you so happy in the present. Also, kudos to your tattoo artist o_o

[@bigmama3408]

Wow,so incredible.I really admire you for putting your story out there.And I love how in your comments section love far outweighs hate.You're truly brave and I hope you keep making videos as I am sure you help others along your way.Best of luck and happy happy new year!!! You just gained 2 fans,my hubby (who is trans) and myself.

[@elil8094]

I hope to go through my own transition soon.

[@gutter_punk8864]

On the same page as you, man.

[@codypigilam5977]

same

[@spaaaaace8952]

+Zak Sweets woman*

[@codypigilam5977]

SPAAAAACE no. man.

[@gutter_punk8864]

+SPAAAAACE No thanks

[@Howboutn0ah]

I'm actually in tears i just randomly clicked on this video and i'm so proud of you. you transitioned so smoothly congradulations dude. this is the only video of yours i've seen but you've earned a new subscriber.

[@mrs.honeydoll3396]

Your so lucky! My parents would be ashamed of me if I ever did this, I would never be able to face them if I ever did that

[@ezisprettyalright]

Yes! The information in the description is SO insanely helpful bc I dont think I've ever seen an altogether list of what someone had paid which is so nice, thank you.

[@AlexisCariddi]

That giggle at 0:36 was so freakin adorable, man.

[@chrismnutone8421]

You are a courageous, determined young man. I commend you! Thank you for making this video!

[@verycooltomato7767]

why are you so attractive? YOUR LEVEL OF HOTNESS SHOULD NOT BE POSSIBLE!

[@breanacranford7123]

Dude fuck yeah and way to go! Deeply touched by the transition. Everyone deserves to be happy with who they are, and feel that way inside. Good for you and doing just that!

[@Squiiiddy]

And to think that now he’s almost 9 years on T. He’s a very good looking guy!👌🏼

[@mai_valentine3]

I started tearing up omg you just look so happy about being yourself and I'm so happy for you and wow are you hot aaaaaAAAAHHHH

[@jnmks]

you look better than me and im born a male lol

[@chr4049]

Just wanted to share that years ago I saw this video when I was trying to figure myself out. This video gave me hope for my own future and I’m so happy that I found it again so that I could say thank you! I’ve been on T for two years now and I am so much happier! Thank you for making this video so that my younger self could have hope that things could change and things would change!

[@vesperastraea]

fuckkk this gives me hope for the future

[@ashleyhoefer7216]

oh my god the voice change is incredible! you are so handsome! glad to see you are happy and living the life you deserve. such an inspiration much love xx

[@gabbygurin4436]

I'm so happy he's happy

[@rautaranka]

Omg, you're super handsome! Seriously how. You kinda look like Evan Peters too. Much love, you're amazing ❤️

[@sweetlepie.3.28]

it's so beautiful -cri-

[@LoreleiSiren277]

he*

[@sweetlepie.3.28]

I was referring to the video slide show. I don't think the slide show is a he or a she.

[@basma.gogogo]

@@sweetlepie.3.28 lmao what a reply

[@sweetlepie.3.28]

@@basma.gogogo where was I 4 years ago lol

[@ijustwantthings6789]

I'm crying so much. I love you so much. You gave me so much confidence.

[@HarleyTheFooperdoodle]

...You're stronger than I am. I know that my parents and would accept me, but the thought of ever physicly changing still terrifies me. I kinda just learned to live with Disphoria. How did you get the courage to tell your parents? Was it hard to come out to your friends? Have you ever regreted it? Sorry. Don't mean to be getting all wibbly wobbly or anything. But after watching that, I've got hope again.

[@0megak783]

I know you're probably expecting a reply from Sky, but I just wanted to tell you my opinion. I had/have had the same problem as you. From a young age I just like the things that guys did and I like there clothes and what not. When I grew older I realized that you could be transgender and I started researching and stuff. I started getting all hyped about it and thought like I just needed to tell someone. I started out by telling my friends and then I basically said "screw this, I'm telling her..." So I wrote a quick note for my mom and asked her to come into my room because I needed to talk to her. I actually was really worried about what everyone is worried about - your parents not accepting you. She said I was probably just going through a faze, but if I wanted to do this when I get older that she will help me out anyway she can. By the way, I'm turning 13 in October. Everyone thinks I'm too young to be thinking like this, but all I can do right now is try to ignore my dysphoria. I'm not sure if that helped in anyway what so ever, but I guess I tried.

[@HarleyTheFooperdoodle]

thanks. I'm a bit older than you, but I understand it.

[@davestrider4377]

***** what the hell...?

[@s.morganweston3887]

***** Surprisingly enough, it's people like you that cause the suicide.

[@stipV]

***** Shut up loser.

[@Ebraheart]

What's really nice to see is how much more comfortable you've become. It good that there are people like you strong enough to make these cahnges and show others that might be in a similar position that it's possible to be who you want to be.

[@lianakk118]

really reminds me of Shawn mendez

[@butterflydesi00]

You know, this is an old video, but this is still amazing. I love seeing things like this. And now, you're hitting 6 years.

[@BbFlora95]

His handsome

[@boojablegoogle1245]

I've popped in every now and then throuought the years you've done this on KZbin and you've greatly inspired me and helped me through this. Thank you so much.

[@kingofthebr0zone]

Evan peters is trans?

[@tyler___4558]

Maybe, but that's none of our business. Also how does that relate to the video?

[@Incinny-Bun]

HOLY HOODWINK BATMAN YOU ARE TOTES ADORABLE! SAW THIS AND FELL IN LOVE WITH YOU. DON'T STOP BEING TOTES ADORABLE!

[@hazeltropix1170]

you are amazingly beautiful and have been from point A to B

[@zlashercrasher862]

Hazel Tropix he's perfectly handsome.

[@finch1620]

Damn you have no idea how much I needed to see this. Honestly it feels like I've been trying to make progress and nothing ever gets done.

[@SputnikSweethearrt]

Damn you are super attractive

[@imogenlloyd7515]

What an incredible journey. I love watching people progress into what they feel comfortable as I think it's beautiful. Well done :)

[@LuLupineapple]

3:25 you look here like the youtuber "elrubius"

[@jessicahernandez3090]

+Lulu Hlaezea Siiiiiiiiii

[@unsavourylittlerunt]

Lulu Hlaezea Indeed

[@moomaniac2932]

Wow the difference is pretty remarkable.

[@margotj5856]

there are actually some really good scar removal creams that you can use on your chest ;) ps you are so inspiring

[@freeziepleasy]

Congratulations on your 4.5 year anniversary. I enjoyed the video and I like the guitar-playing. Your videos about transition are always informative. Thank you for posting. :)

[@sophovot5079]

I know a guy with the same Banksy tattoo :D

[@akozinski9033]

AH You're actually amazing, I'm so happy for you to be able to be happy in your body, that's great! See the transformation was really cool too, just like seeing how much happier you look at the end of the pictures vs at the beginning is real awesome (PS I actually really liked that song, like damn idk it calmed me down lol)

[@lexijudge8222]

questioning my sexuality wtfffffff.

[@blazestar667]

Lexi Judge, right?!?!

[@aldigaston5957]

Lexi Judge he is a guy, what you are seeing now is a guy not a girl. You are physically attracted to a boy, that doesn't make you lesbian

[@blazestar667]

He still has a vagina.

[@octavehigher7179]

Breathless Banana yes you are correct that he had surgery but you can see in the pictures that he had top surgery which means his breast were removed and he identifies as man now but I believe that he still has a vagina but he did very well and passed even when he wasn't on testosterone for very long

[@taimani2707]

if youre straight, youre still straight if youre attracted to him - he is a man ffs

[@PickleDillyNorwood]

You are the most beautiful person I've ever seen, inside and out. You look truly happy :-)

[@Stingraypress]

At 1:02 he is so attractive and I'm lesbian so goddamn

[@dhavegalsim9804]

I just watched on you tube people who does like yours but ending up broken and full of regrets at the end...What is life ahead of you as you get older....May God bless you

[@bazookajoe9972]

hey bro are you practicing combat? like grappling? you should, dats what men do yeauh!

[@skylarkeleven]

men do a lot of things, but thanks! i do want to take kickboxing some day ;)

[@annemarietobias]

+skylarkeleven Might I suggest Jiu Jitsu (the Brazilian variant it quite impressive), has an awesome mix of skills, I'll tell you joint locks, nerve pinches and leverage moves will take 98% of the people who will ever bother you straight out of the conversation, giving you more than enough time to use the most important martial art of all, run-fu. Get the flock outta Dodge if there's trouble there.

[@SLW1100]

I love how happy you are in every single update. I bet your video made a lot of people smile! :)

[@ridiculouscuteness3]

aw something about watching this made me happy. I'm so glad things worked out well for you :) You have a great smile by the way.

[@simplyeason]

You are so brave and amazing. happy for you that you marked your 4.5 years on T! Glad you could be yourself! :)

[@gemmarket669]

Wow ! I think I first saw one of your videos like 2 years ago and for some reason you came to mind. My brother, who is in the process of transitioning, (FTM), has been looking at many peoples inspirational stories and i was talking to him about about a video I had seen a while back and I wanted to show him. Looking at this now makes me feel very happy, and i'm sure he'll find it great too! :)

[@healingjourney3895]

You're a doll and have come a long way. Though you look great in all the pictures you seem to become your true self as of late! You're darling and we are so happy for you and your wonderful transformation. All the best to you. XOMwahhh

[@Mrspandapop]

you've become such a handsome boy! Im so glad this changes in your body are making you s happy. You can tell by the look in your eyes. You look so proud .... you're awesome. Greetings from Chile

[@TheMariaReyes15]

Just found this video and it was awesome to see your transformation. You are insanely attractive and so sweet, I'm so glad you shared your journey

[@rithikacarol3328]

OMG it's beautiful to watch your voice change and you as a whole :') it's amazing

[@JacJac789]

you're such a cutie and talented too! i'm about to begin my transition and just making the decision (FINALLY) has changed my life and my outlook. i'm SO excited!! thank you for sharing your journey. you rock!

[@rockgurl1998]

I'm so glad you're comfortable enough to share your story.

[@chandlermiles6653]

so inspirational, these videos always fill me with hope.

[@infinitemultiverse520]

I always get so teary eyed when I watch stuff like this. Congrats!!!! :D

[@dawns.3726]

Aw, your voice was cute from the beginning and still is. You're so cute and handsome as a guy!

[@deadboy5678]

Idk if this ever clicked when I watched your older videos before, but you kinda remind me of Evan Peters just a little bit. I dig it. ^-^ I'm so proud of you, Skylar!

[@mistercarrots]

You give me hope when I don't even know how to go on. I hope that one day I can be where you are. Thank you for sharing this.

[@skarletton]

KZbin just randomly showed me this video and I have to say I'm happy. I'm happy and proud of you that you made it this far and that you were able to do it.

[@lace7435]

you are getting more and more confident each month, amazing to see :)

[@erinyoung8817]

You could not be more adorable, not possible. Peak cuteness.

[@equisisters8107]

I know this is a super old video but congrats man! Videos like these are so heartwarming (: Also, your hand print tattoo is hella rad

[@kaavyasrinivas259]

His voice keeps changing every few months....and yea tats a great job...keep going...ur doing awsum MAN!! Cheers:)

[@KiperV2]

4.5 years wow! Congrats dude. You look amazing and you've came so far! And DANG those prices but I know worth it. Regardless you look amazing fabulous!