24 Days off Heroin & Cocaine! Kurt and Natalie

[@DerekLambertRecovery]

If you are or a loved one is struggling with drugs or alcohol text me immediately. I'm here to help [phone]

[@tigerwright3836]

Keep up the good fight cuz, every day is a constant struggle. Stay strong. I been there, done it. Stay strong.. Love you guys.

[@RGIII87]

It's really great to see you all coming together to support one another in your family. I've been there, and I can understand everything you've been trying to overcome. Keep making videos, keep helping yourself and others. We're all proud of you guys! These videos lend comfort to a lot of lost souls out there looking for answers. Include natalie in more videos!

[@GreatGreebo]

So proud of all three of your...I’ll have SIX years on June 26 and I still have nightmares about my brutal, long withdrawals. Man, the Fellowship is the way to go and please don’t give up. It took me about 45 days to really start sleeping and to lose the boredom/anxiety thingy.....keep going cuz you got this!!! Congratulations on staying away from the subs and methodone (that stuff is a hell all in itself....horrible and long withdrawals) Keep coming back!!! SO many hugs.....I swear it will get better sooooo soon!

[@hollyhouze5536]

To all of you keep going get your life back. My Husband got out of rehab was home for 3 months relapsed on Heroin. He Died with a needle in his arm. Left me and his 4 kids behind. Please fight for your life you are worth it.

[@stevenherberts968]

💓💓

[@MaineReactor]

I document my methadone withdrawal and early recovery. I jumped off 80mg cold turkey. Just keep pushing bro! Thanks for sharing your experience!!!

[@gretch8771]

🙌🏼😊🙌🏼 So happy to see this! I’m off to a meeting but will comment properly later.

[@drumlicks85]

Hay thank you guys so much for what you are doing here !! I am fighting the same battle, want to get my life back so bad, but sometimes my head just messes with me and tries to lie to me and tell me I can put this all off and just feel better for the night. That is when I put in headphones and go for a walk and just listen to you and your brother talk. It feel so good to have someone that knows what im going through so I don't feel so fucking crazy lol. U guys are doing Gods work !

[@samantham2148]

Kurt you are kicking ass! Keep it up! Watching you so positive makes me feel positive about a clean future for myself.

[@geodude7116]

Keep it up! I have never Had to overcome an addiction like that but I watch your videos to motivate myself for other areas of my life which I struggle with.

[@compulsoryevacuationdevice]

Love you guys!!

[@jeremyfox7599]

Keep up the great work guys, it's inspiring to hear of your progress, make it work! You're all doing great!

[@gdfgdfgdsgdf]

good to see you got eachother.

[@adronmedia989]

man this is so good,you are showing what its like to be REAL brothers !!!

[@daltonfisher3026]

Ayeee love seeing that y’all are in this together now

[@multifacetedperson]

Kurt and Natalie, you are very brave! I am sure your story will help others. God bless you and your family.

[@a.j.4024]

For me I remember I literally could only allow myself to think about the day I was in and there was so many times I looked at the clock as the MINUTES passed and I literally just tried to get thru one HOUR. I can’t tell you how many walls I punched and tears I cried getting out all the hate I had for addiction and for myself. They say one day at a time but it’s SO easy to let your mind jump ahead. Learn to recognize that thinking so you can stop it because I PROMISE you that you will get sucked back into that vortex of hell and prison and death if you don’t practice retraining your brain every moment while it heals. And it HAS to heal. When we are coming up off junk our brains are so messed up - we literally taught them that they need that shit just to function and in order to get and STAY clean you have to work at it. Bust your ass! Read, color, work, make a punching bag and write down all the shit you hate about addiction and punch it to death on a punching bag. Or just write or record like Derek did - you don’t have to upload anything. It doesn’t matter how “crazy” it might sound to someone... if it keeps you off dope (or whatever) then do it! I made myself get as obsessed with recovery as I did with my drug (mostly H) because I can’t do anything half-way. At first I did it for the courts tbh and then I got angry as hell that I was being controlled by a drug or the courts and pissing my life away and had destroyed EVERYTHING before I turned 25! One night after a meeting I cried like a deep gut cry and it was like I finally was able to look up at the sky and admit that I had been totally defeated. I knew it was over. I wrote every family member a letter as if from the grave and I decided to explain to them why the drugs were worth leaving them (I didn’t send them, it was just something that helped me realize and cope with the horrific damage and pain I caused). It also helped me to write my own obituary and I was mean and truthful about myself so no one would pity me. I spent about 2 weeks (after the worst of the detox) being full of rage and then it broke and turned to pain and THAT is when I realized I might have a chance to stay sober. So be willing to FEEL anything and don’t fight it or try to numb it. If you’re anxious, find a way to physically exhaust yourself. You’re exhausted now but not enough or you won’t be as anxious plus it helps with sleep. And man, listen to Derek!! He has walked thru the fire and is beating the grim odds but ONLY becuz he stays humble and REAL and doesn’t assume he is bullet proof from the demons that can come back for any of us at any time. Goddamn I hope you two can make it.. I have lost everyone I used to know when I was using. Only one is alive and she’s locked up for 16 years. Everyone else has a gravesite that I still can’t visit. Derek, you continue to be such an inspiration to me because so many people think we can’t get better, it we did - we can! Love & might to all 3 of you. I pray you’re in future videos guys keep fighting!

[@merncat75]

Thank you for this comment.. you had a lot of good points and suggestions.. I had to take a screenshot to save as a reminder 💖

[@jaggirl]

I know. You really need to get control of that stinking thinking early on. Or it can drag you down..

[@adamwalkeraw]

Just keep praying one more day without taking anything

[@cliffkonkle3467]

I was an addict abused opiate everyday for 12 years. I am now 3 years clean cold turkey no help it was hell. I am 43 and I feel like I have destroyed my life. I think I was covering up depression and anxiety because now clean I feel suicidal. I am also destroying myself over money wasted and having 30.000k saved at43 no house or car I wish I would have done life differently. I should just be thankful to be clean and alive. I LOVE YOU all wish YOU all well

[@russellcampbell4999]

Just came across this and I can really say you are an inspiration to people like me, I've been a junkie now for twenty two years and on a methadone script for at least sixteen years, I have always worked and still at the age of fifty four I have a great job as a manager and apart from my thin appearance no one knows what I do away from work, I hope you have kicked it's arse and you are still clean ! I would love to get off but I can't stop working to detox as my family needs my wage to help keep a nice roof over our heads. I can't really see a way out for me because if I admit my problem I will loose my job and upset my elderly father, he has already lost one son to it, I don't know what to do but I will watch how you both do and see if I can find a way to get clean without fucking everything up, good luck and keep me posted on your recovery.

[@Ausomee]

Yay! So happy to see you are back and hanging in there strong Kurt. Even better to see that your wife joined you in this lifelong journey into sobriety. 😘👍

[@adamcooper5354]

Thats a long dam time! 😄Your attitude today from the other day is amazing! It will only get better! Pure happiness is on its way! 🖒#sticktogether!

[@dougjennings4962]

Love this Kurt!!! You can do this!!! I can do this!!!! You guys are a Godsend for me. You help me keep pushing on!!! Thanks guys!!! Much love and respect!!!!

[@nloc]

They say 2 addicts shouldn't be together during treatment

[@merncat75]

THANK YOU!!! 💕

[@northpole7662]

Keep it up my guys we all struggle sometimes me and My girl sending much Love from Sweden. Stay blessed

[@sike24]

wow, you look so much better now Kurt. And what a beautiful wife you got. So proud of yall

[@scottwilson2344]

Man Derek you helped me get off herion almost a year ago so I know you help alot of other people..your bro is so lucky to have you first hand..I watched all your video's while kicking..I quit for 60 days last April- June & relapsed till August..since then I've only snorted 2 lines in November but that's it & you truly helped..I went to jail from August 28th- October 23rd..so I had to quit herion, meth & a 8-12 beer a day habit in jail cause I failed a drug screen for pre trial probation in August ..I would've only done 3 days so don't fail a test..then was out for a month & went to another jail in an all felon pod for 60 days for trouble Feb 2017..was trying to get it all out of the way..all this was trouble from Feb-March 2017..then 8 days in downtown cincinatti jail this April..kept missing court dates but turned myself in trying to get it behind me..3 duo's & a third degree felony for giving someone a ride that had me stop in front of a prison & he ran up & threw a crown royal bag full of drugs over the fence..so now I'm clean for almost a year off opiates without suboxone or anything..drink a beer here & there..I'm on probation in 4 different counties & have to call 2 of them daily for random drug screens..plus intensive outpatient treatment..no license..so it's hard but I don't think about herion anymore..alcohol is harder for me to quit..so hang in there bro & don't fail drug tests..they don't play..it does get way better after about 4-5 months..sleep & eat fine..you got this & thanks Derek..I'm paying for my mistakes last year but glad I'm clean & getting it ALL out of the way..stay strong

[@MichelleFitchgoomba98]

Scott Wilson I live in Ohio near Cleveland too. Stay strong bro. That beer here and there can cause you to make an irrational decision to do something bad.

[@scottwilson2344]

Michelle Fitch thank you..I know I shouldn't even drink a beer but alcohol is sooo hard for me to quit..way harder than dope (after the first few weeks of withdrawals,nothing is worse than being dope sick) but I guess cause it's everywhere & so easy to get..I drank everyday for 20 yrs..I'm overwhelmed sometimes with probation in 4 counties & trying to pay fines & get there & to drug tests..it's crazy but trying the best I can

[@shainleather6299]

i like tel you guys something.. i am on heroin since 30 years but ido it like medicine when i get up from bed 1 strong snif about 08gr,, and one more sniff around the afternoon also 08gr..and a last sniff when a arive home after work 08gr,,so 2,5gr a day and ,,,,my life is no any different then all other people..and the drug keeps me more in controll with everything i do,,so i do not thing of quitting,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,why you people can not do it in a controlled way,,wich is very healty even,,it keeps you from many sicknisses a way,,and you dont each

[@timothylane7672]

shain leather bro yer fucked up I can't even understand what yer saying lol

[@scottwilson2344]

@@timothylane7672 right..of course it's like medicine if you do 2.5 grams a day..that's like $300 a day where I'm from..I couldn't even afford that & it ruined my life financially..I'm definitely better off that shit

[@whitneyvalentine9469]

Kurt, I don't know if you'll see this or not.. but anyone who does.. this is my short (or trying to keep it short) story.. husband got started on pain pills from work. Then after childbirth I got started. I never thought it would turn into what it did.. this addiction grabs you and does NOT let go! My husband and I struggled for years.. I finally went to a doctor (after I almost died from a perforated ulcer, and had to have 4 pints of blood because I was so sick).. suboxone saved our lives! We did exactly as the Dr said and didn't abuse the meds. (P.s. I even ended up pregnant with our second daughter and swapped to subbutex, my baby came out perfectly healthy!) If you commit to it.. you can beat this monster. I am living proof! Nothing beats waking up and feeling normal without having to call your dealer to even attempt to feel normal.. it's amazing how life changing it can be if you let it be! Stay strong Kurt and anyone else who may read this! Xoxox

[@whitneyvalentine9469]

(I should also add, neither of us have taken suboxone since November!)

[@stellabella5269]

Still praying for all of you!! God bless you guys!! ☺ 💕 👍 XOXOX

[@1ststepfitnessandrecovery111]

This is awesome man proud of you guys. Kurt I get it Bro I've been there I am a year and like 4 months clean and sober and life is great man God is good awesome video

[@christinabrown6442]

Major props to you guys for being able to turn your lives around! I came from watching your first sobriety videos to this...... AMAZING! Your wife looks familiar btw.....I believe I saw her last week at the dentist with your daughter..... God bless y'all and hope life continues to get better for y'all!

[@rpooh1109]

The most annoying thing my now sober husband tells me is I can't lay around and wallow I have to get up and do the shit in front of me. The only cure for doing shit I don't wanna do like wash the dishes anyway... pray you walk in God's will and get up and get shit done!

[@KarenCu]

Keep it up! 🦄

[@lewis1717]

Keep it up people.

[@MaryCateNotOlsen]

Great video. Natalie is beautiful!! And you're so right. When I'm not working, I don't know what to do with myself.

[@martinduffy6422]

You three do matter very much because beleive it there is people out here who love you you are extremely important we want you well

[@iwrath2196]

natalie is gorgeous. good job kurt. good luck on getting clean bud. i know its hard been there. im sober from opiates since 2016

[@janetsoto1805]

God bless you all. Stay strong.

[@kristenbeasley8259]

hahahaha dereks old timer impression! nailed it. they do they're ams like that! and sit in the same chairs!

[@Screwy1478]

prayed for you man never really had a drug addiction other than weed, but definitely know the craving. just want you to know that I have a good feeling things are going to get better for you guys, take care...

[@jakegetscake4672]

Awesome how you’ve stuck with Kurt through this all when my sister got clean and I kept messing up she acted like she was better than me

[@annaaortiz]

Please open up a P.O. box!

[@DerekLambertRecovery]

Anna Ortiz I’ve never opened a P.O. Box. Why a P.O. box?

[@annaaortiz]

Derek Lambert so we can send you letters, gifts etc!!

[@shawnabeatty3388]

Thank you for you and your family..im struggling getting thru the withdrawals methadone cold turkey day 20 your encouraging..my man is tree man chasing the storm hurricane Michael he is my only support I just pray I can get thru this and i will...i just want to feel normal my energy. Love and light to you and your family!

[@rogerar90]

oh damn bro I got on this channel from Derek when I saw his withdraw vids on his last cig in the dark but just now realized Kurt is not Derek . Glad to see your recent uploads Kurt keep up the good work bro

[@michaelsmith7328]

Just Started watching you guys today I'm In the same place definitely with jumping in the bath for 30 seconds lol Im a week into a methadone programme and take every day as it comes il keep watching you guys and Kurt you are helping people without knowing your doing it keep up the good work from the UK peace out

[@amygoodwin5967]

24 days is huge! That's more than 3 weeks. Heroin and opiates are a beast but mix cocaine and it's a beast with 2 heads so you're doing amazing.

[@alexbirminghan9332]

dude i fucking love you guys i have a thin layer of ice covering my back I'm on day 2.. your 17 day video made me cry and I'm no bitch. thank you for making these it provides the tiniest bit of relief and anything helps

[@adamwalkeraw]

Im on about day 17,it takes me a while to sleep, but i can sleep. Boredom and feeling like sitting the worst. Im back at work, its hard but you need purpose. This is a really encouraging video. I hope your doing good brother and sister

[@graeme3023]

Digging the Union Jack t-shirt Derek!!

[@inkcap1002]

wow amazing, you both will now feel closer to God as you understand him and the universe will manifest amazing and beautiful things for you and opportunities you never thought possible will present themselves to you because you faced your fears and beaten it! I'm still struggling in the trenches of addiction I know how dark and hard it is.....I hope one day I can get as much clean time behind me as you two. much love.

[@chrisbeck957]

I do cold water extraction with the methadone wafers and it feels like I'm coming off this shit from doing that with the wafers : )

[@chrisbeck957]

but I also keep fucking around with the medication game : (

[@amyburns5199]

Man I wish I had someone helping me at my house like they do ....yall are lucky to have him!!

[@Patriots1262]

Do you have any responsibilities? Like a place you have to be? A lot of ppl detoxing don't have that luxury and that's why they don't quit...

[@camircalc524]

I just saw your video for the first time on your seventh day getting cleaned from heroin. I’m Not a user But I do have family members that have used heroin. My brother at the age of 21 passed away from a heroin overdose. We don’t talk about that as a family but there is a big scar that won’t go away. It was a long struggle to get my sister clean and while using it she lost her children, she lost family for while, she lost trust from everyone and she had to do jail time more than once. She’s been clean for more than 15 years and now she has her grown daughters, grandchildren And her family back. Now we can celebrate holidays all together without fear that she will steal again. There is hope to recover from this and see that life can be much better. It’s never too late. I pray for your brother and wife. I can see they are still struggling with the ugly beast. Hang in there don’t give up on them. Will keep watching your videos keep me posted on their well-being and of yours of course. be careful and don’t fall back, stay focus on your recovery. you Matter !!!!!

[@anothonyhealy2591]

Hey Derek 👋

[@seancaine3240]

Make your mess your message!! And stick with it brother you are the furthest thing from alone!! From one addict to another from Canada eh lol keep your head up you have an awesome bro and girl.

[@stephanierodriguez6991]

I'm on my 3rd day and I went to a smoke shop and got kratom. it's working so far. its giving me energy and I'm able to get my day started. love u guys. bless y'all

[@SpocksBro]

You might want to try and read up on meditation, mindfulness mate. Glad to see you guys are doing better, keep fighting. Wish you well, take care.

[@jackthanhauser9575]

Kick in heroin again. Right on the verge of loosing everything and still have everything to gain. Trying to hold on

[@budz.1274]

joe stay strong man

[@aliciazinn6211]

Still fighting the fight.

[@LIttleMissNightmare]

I absolutely adore you 2, my mind just seems to work and connect on the same level as yours. I’m proud of you both I really am. I currently recording my recovery on tiktok. Your missis is a babe kirt 💖💖 you can see you both love each other to death xx I wish your whole family the best. Lovely family who have made bad choices. Same as my story. Just got on the wrong path and now want to better ourselves. I’ve just found out I’m autistic and adhd. They say a lot of people are suffering undiagnosed with these type of illnesses and that can lead to addiction as people just feel empty and different to everyone else, like they have just never truly felt like other people do. I’m starting to believe we are special people if we can get on the right take. Take care, love to your families🙏💖 Becky

[@jamesgeorge4279]

Cold turkey builds character!

[@adamwalkeraw]

I agree the comments feel like a form of meeting, i literally thought that the other day. Theyve helped me massivly this time, first time ive made it past hour 24.13 years of it. Done.

[@markflanagan6653]

21 days is a lifetime when your coming off dope. Good for you. Hope your still doing well

[@rockinroberta9925]

💜💜💜

[@justj2728]

Great job guys keep up the hard work I know how it is so thank you for making these videos will you keep you guys in my prayers! 🙏 🗽☀️🌠 🔨🔗 Hope this helps others break that chain in life!

[@justintime2102]

Hey Kurt..., Bud it's hard for me to talk to you directly. I feel like I've talked to you on countless occasions, because your so much like my little brother. You and Derek are so much like my brother and I it's kinda disturbing bro. I quit like Derek. I have the mind frame of Derek. But my little brother has well the frustration and the anger that you have. He himself has woken up in an ambulance and .he is also in and out of jail. I think he is 3 months clean. Life is just now getting better for him. But he stuck to his guns. His secondary wasn't come (autocorrect wtf.. coke*) it was meth. But the little shit kept going. Kept fighting. Today he got news that a family member is giving him another shot at work. I'm trying to get him to watch more of these videos because I truly believe that you and him could connect well. He had the same experience in jail. Your brother is why I ended up feeling like I could get clean. I prayed like he told me to and asked God to put it where I couldn't get to it. hang on to your brother. Listen to him. Us older brothers are smarter than you think. BTW Derek my brother and I had our own landscaping business going on as well. Drugs ruined that for us. Stay strong fam.

[@neekbot]

Who’s playing fort in the back

[@hotrodbod1]

Keep going this time my brother, you CAN make it! I've watched my wife do it....even when she went through so many relapses with me! We both have Hep C and while she was clean and taking her meds, (we both had a year and a half completely clean) having to inject her with Interferon, triggererd me and I lost my 18 mos... since then, and that was years and years ago I have NOT illegally purchased drugs! Unfortunately I stay on Methadone Maintenance. Keep doing what you are doing, hit those meetings! You can do it, I know MANY who have!

[@RedDogs48]

Been watching ur videos for a yr now and I love to see that u n ur bro r doing well. One thing I wanna highlight here that u guys have done also; methadone and other substitutes suck and they only prolong ur addiction and use and postpone the inevitable. I for one have not only not managed to quit da damn mmt but I ended up shooting da damn pills up. My regular dose I get from da clinic is 100mgs and I shoot up 200+mgs at once. Use dope whenever I come across somethig good n strong but cuz of da drug tests at da clinic, which could end up in me getting kicked out n losing my daily mmt dose, and da fact that I got my fix secured and can count on it being given to me daily, I continue to do this shit. This shit caused me to lose my veins which were so obvious n big n healthy that i never needed a tie to pop my veins up for a decade until a yr ago when after just 2-3 mths of not even daily shooting up mmt, my arms have been stripped clean of veins. It's nasty n dangerous n ridiculously hard to come off da damn thing and as much as i see what's doing to me, losing my pro hockey career, losing my great airline job, dropping my phd just before graduation, etc. I simply cannot stop. I wish someone locked me in rehab and kept me away from da shit until i get my freakin brains back!!! Just long enough to be able to go a day without dope, to teach me how to do this!!! I'm going down fast and my days r numbered and i can't see a way outa this. Thing is no matter how sick i am i can't let my family see me like that just like i can't let them see me high or using or nodding out like a freakin junky that i am!!! It's bad! Stay strong guys and keep posting for it's helpful to both u and us! God bless!

[@LeRoyTremblay978]

Hey man just came across this video surfing through some of your other videos just speaking on the part where you guys are talking about the Suboxone being in jail and stuff I can relate and just say that I think it's easier for me to go through it in jail or prison than it has been for me to try to do it on the street on the street I know what I got to do to get better I've never seemed to have enough to Foley stay away from it I would always end up giving in and going to get something even if I went through a detox or a program and end up leaving and going and getting high the one and only place where you got to just accept it and go through it is in jail or prison but shout out to your brother I hope he's doing good I hope your doing good I'm just coming back myself got to hop on the wagon fell off there for a little bit

[@rpooh1109]

Sub was the worst choice I made. I swear I've been on the shit for 12 years and I'd rather have just detoxed straight from the H. This sub detox is some kind of fucking trip!

[@moeshields7493]

This life scks its hard when your in a position of having everyday i hope i can 25 years of this crap an im fairly young im only 38

[@jeremyjones8778]

Kurt..Nice shirt for ah ""ReCoVeRy video"" . 🤔.😂

[@fitbowl]

Someone playing Fortnite in the back

[@quattro5413]

Hey its Kurt Cocaine.

[@MaxAir365]

Kurt's got a hot wife like u do big D hopefully WE can get it together asap! Made it to 25 hours probably enough time in between to take subs but im so afraid of precipitated w/d I ended up getting some money somehow so I gotta wait all over again tomorrow smh but I can do it and so can kurt!

[@BuckeyeCory]

Kids playing Fortnite lol

[@Laura......]

Is that a UK flag Derek? 😉

[@DerekLambertRecovery]

it's me Laura yes it is, I have a variety of shirts. This is just one of them. It fits me well.

[@Laura......]

Derek Lambert it does fit you well you're right ! 😄

[@mikhaelzion2145]

I plan on making money in your demise . I got 500 dollar that you will all go back to your drugs in less than 3 years

[@mattjohnson552]

Your a piece of shit

[@harrygosal3465]

@dereklambert i can't get a hold of you i'm from canada how can i reach out to you?