26. OCD Treatment: "Whatever OCD" - ERP for obsessions about "going crazy"

[@realkarthiknair]

You know what? The efforts you're doing for people like me who's shy to admit their ocd is a great boon for humanity

[@23katied]

Thanks so much. It's always great to know that people are finding the videos helpful.

[@zizisisi]

Thank you thank you thank you! I'm so glad you reactivated the channel. Incredible work.

[@Dusky-Bunn1e]

I have a fear of going crazy. Anyone else with Psychosis OCD experience this? Does your theme make you have “delusional thinking” or delusional intrusive thoughts because you thought “What do crazy people think about?” Just so your brain can fuck with you? And so all your thoughts are really weird/make no sense or even sound delusional?

[@Lexlex11848]

Yes it did this to me it’s all anxiety I’ve recovered from this but it’s very hard to see when your anxiety is at an all time high

[@tharamendoza6287]

yes!! at work my inner monologue was saying that every customer was going to poison me even tho i knew that was ridiculous

[@dant3ee3]

hey, did you manage to recover from this?

[@EngineeringLife0]

@@dant3ee3stay strong. 1 year in 70% recovered. Life over feels great but I’m battling still.

[@lurky5913]

​@@EngineeringLife0how are you now

[@lightningbolt5888]

I think OCD is caused by trauma in a person’s life. When you have trauma in life, you sometimes have triggers that remind you of the trauma. You then start with the OCD rituals to suppress the thoughts or avoid them. You then begin the OCD cycle. And you have to recognize it and label it as OCD, so you can get out of the loop.

[@kensanchez2064]

Yes yes yes yes yes!!! This is the right answer over why my OCD develop.

[@alexa2496]

I had intense fear that I was gonna start hearing voices. It was so bad my mind eventually started tricking me into thinking I hear my name out of certain sounds. It's pretty crazy I know I'm not hearing voices but my mind automatically does it now.

[@cesargallardoii6188]

Me too

[@carlosalfredito]

I genuinely have been dealing with the same thing for a couple months now. Recently it was getting pretty windy outside and I had the window open and I had this thought “Omg, am I hearing the wind whisper to me? Am I going crazy?!?!” And it’s frustrating because I never would freaked out about the sound wind makes when I was younger and less anxious lol We’ll get through this though ❣️

[@keepmeinstitchesss]

Same. I started sleeping with Hulu playing on my phone to distract myself. I can’t sleep in the quiet, unless I’m exhausted or my thoughts aren’t too bad.

[@DogMommy.]

I been having really bad anxiety and thinking I'm going crazy that I feel like my mind has been playing tricks me like earlier there was a cricket 🦗 in my house and my mind started telling me that It was talking 😭 to me but obviously it wasn't . Idk why I would even have that thought 🥺😭

[@the_world_will_know]

Seeing these comments make me feel so much better because the same thing is happening to me and I’ve been so scared that I have or could develop schizophrenia even though I’m not experiencing actual symptoms.

[@saqibnabi1532]

whenever i read about mental illnesses i start having thoughts that i have these symptoms eg if i read about delusion i start having thoughts what if it happens to me what if i started believing on false things and it make my anxiety worse ... i think reading about mental illnesses makes anxiety worse

[@poco7654]

Saqib I agree, things get more terrible.

[@alexa2496]

Damn that's me too..

[@saqibnabi1532]

@ChillVibesXxX yes there is only one solution of these things do not read about any illness , do not question or answer your thoughts they come and they will surely go do not think why am i having these thoughts and also do not tell urself that these are just thoughts ignore them like u ignore people while using ur phone 😂😂

[@sleve695]

I thought i was the only one! I am afraid i will start to believe non sens things too

[@saqibnabi1532]

@@sleve695 no u r not the ony one actually all the people with anxiety have these thoughts

[@manuelalfonso2161]

You don’t know how much you has help me Katie , Thank you.

[@faraoh9261]

thank you man , i actually have ocd and this thoughts comes to my mind after i had cancer and u know cancer and ocd are the perfect match for creating fear and intrusive obssessive thoughts, so ocd helped my mind to keep repeating this thoughts inside my mind and the way my mind convinced me is that i would lose my mind after i had many many many panic attacks ,anxiety attacks and traumatic events and my mind wouldnt bare with all of this plus a nurse told me when i was hospitalized that two people start to act and talk weirder and act anormal so all of these things that i mentioned nurished my anxiety (ocd) so much that whatever i did the thoughts are still there, im convinced and i know that im not crazy at all lol but my mind keep asking the what if questions so its always there , im not panicking anymore because i take medications, it just the constent worrying and fear got me tired. hope u read my comment and i would thank u for the job that u are doing for this community , all love and hope everyone to stay strong

[@23katied]

Sounds like you are going through a lot and it's not unusual for people to experience OCD after a trauma. I'm glad you are helping yourself - keep up the good work!

[@relexberkine4835]

Hi can i ve your contact i am in the same situations

[@Pershin-i9i]

As far as I know OCD can't turn into schizophrenia. Because it's impossible that you've been afraid of schizophrenia for a long time and then suddenly get schizophrenia. Crazy people are not afraid that they are crazy. Just in many sites write that neurosis can develop into psychosis. But how is it possible if neurosis and psychosis are absolutely two different disorders, either you have recognized psychosis, or you just have a very strong anxiety. Don't you?

[@speedyrafi7312]

im late. but i literally needed this, so much. i keep obsessing if i go crazy

[@felishapermal9914]

Same here🥺

[@marcoscastro2309]

I had a really bad panic attack almost a month ago it was caused because my mind was telling me that i was going to end up hearing voices and go mad and it scared the crap out of me and ever since that day I have the constant fear that I’m actually going mad I’ve been on edge every day like i constantly double check if i heard a noise correctly and every time i feel a symptom i automatically go on google(which i know is a bad idea)and check what it is and gets me more nervous…

[@rachm9716]

i have the exact same thing happening right now lmao

[@odizaii1700]

How is it now? Been suffering with this for 3 months now I keep double checking myself

[@rachm9716]

@@odizaii1700 for me its been 2 months and ive basically gotten over my fears of hearing stuff (still get some worries now and again though) but i reccomend getting an anxiety app or something like that to track how you feel and your thoughts so u can correct them. I used an app called adapt

[@artinnature8914]

@@rachm9716 same same

[@bilalrasheed4330]

How are you brother, been experiencing this since 6 months how are holding up

[@sharonromein8278]

You have no idea how much this video helps me...

[@UNknown-sd3ki]

I find myself struggling typing in my fear In the search bar until I did it and it went away gradually. The pandemic really did a toll on my mental health. I rather do exposure by watching videos about my fear. I think I'm not ready to do it physically.

[@meeksikh1]

Before watching Katie's videos I thought ERP was simply about stopping the compulsions. But it's only half the battle. In my personal experience everytime I tried to just stop the compulsions the same thing would happen: strong motivation in the beginning, but eventually my vigilance would slip and within weeks or months the ocd would be back with a vengeance. Why? Because I wasn't deliberately exposing myself to what I feared and until you face your fears you won't get to the crux of what is maintaining the ocd. Exposure AND response prevention. Both are equally vital.

[@eliransabag6577]

"Keeping it inside" - sometimes, I talk just to get validation from others, I talk articulately and convincingly about topic I sometimes don't care about. It can be an exposure, not to talk about some of the things that pop in my head. side note: this is not to be confused with things which are inconvenience to say, for example when someone is entering your private space uninvited. this exposure is not an execuse, nor a way to avoid expressing yourself or your emotions, from your past or present. I hope someone will find it useful.

[@learningtolive284]

I guess rumination is one of the most common compulsion of these kind of intrusive thoughts, so anyone suffering from this please avoid ruminating about it it's difficult but we can do it💪

[@johnnysmith118]

My brain dose that buy it’s self I’ve just split up with a girl and my mind is doing over time hard as out as it is

[@kamalpreetsingh1686]

Compulsion is conscious activity , we can't control obsessions but we can control compulsion because compulsions are conscious activities ...... don't fight , engage with the thoughts.....

[@kennethvaughan6719]

I’m really struggling with this one. I’ve been struggling with anxiety and panic for years, and it’s always been easy to take this approach. If palpitations scare me, I jog. If dizziness scares me, I spin in a circle. It all works so well. I’m only triggered by panic attacks, which I’ve usually handled well. But I just sort of sit with the worry that overwhelming stress (the last two months have been filled with grief and illness) are going to lead to a psychotic break and that my thought patterns during panic attacks are evidence of that. I don’t have a whole lot of checking behaviors for this. I’m doing all of my exposure/nonresponse to the panic triggers themselves. It’s more I just ruminate on this fear.

[@LouSamurai]

My ocd and current anxiety started after having a panic attack. It’s been almost 4 weeks ago and I’m still somewhat struggling. You’re not alone brother. Sending prayers and positive vibes your way.

[@ellieprchal1161]

@@LouSamuraiugh same!

[@branda25]

Thank you! I've seen exposure help, but sometimes I struggle with exactly what I can do and how to build up slowly. These were great ideas.

[@renatamaria99]

I needed this today. Thank you

[@navindamansitha3684]

Hi Katie! I do have this theme too. I had HOCD previously now this theme. The thing is i had this 2 years ago and then i broke that cycle. But it came back again like 2 months ago and now i'm going through my medications again. I also have this fear that i will get new and new intrusive thoughts so i avoid reading what other people have. Thank you

[@lucywright3312]

Please can you talk about existential OCD, derealisation, thoughts that one is 'not real' and questioning the world around them?

[@michaeldeglory777]

You are saying that you feel like you are not living in the real world and that Everything around you is fake. Is this what is happening to you Lucy. If it is. Please reply back

[@lucywright3312]

@@michaeldeglory777 Yes Calev, that does happen to me! Does it happen to you? I used to have terrible bouts of this anxiety and fell deep into depression because I spiralled so deep into those thoughts. I've worked with a therapist and she helped me, but the true answer is just to accept those thoughts as though they are any other thought, as natural as a thought about making a cup of tea might pop into your head. The answer to any of my OCD obsessions is always 'so what?'

[@lucywright3312]

@ahmed Hi Ahmed, I did get better, I feel good most days now but I still have my struggles with anxiety and sometimes those thoughts come back if I am stressed or tired. I think you have to know what triggers you and also to start with calming down and desensitising yourself from the physical sensations, because that's all it is, physical sensations your brain is trying to make sense of. I worked with my amazing therapist and we worked together to find some understanding and to take the power out of the thoughts. I wish you all the best, and don't lose hope, it will pass, everything does!

[@lucywright3312]

@ahmed You are also strong!! It is very hard and you're not alone. I would also advise not to search google or youtube for a while and see if it helps

[@kayylam]

i have this 🥲 it’s been so difficult.. i keep telling myself it has to be more than just ocd & dpdr even though i know it’s not. i’m always having to ask people if i’m going “crazy” because nothing feels real it’s so scary! i’m currently in therapy so i’m really hoping that helps me

[@GreekHouseEffect]

One Flew Under the Cuckoo's Nest is one incredible film. I would envy someone if their ERP would include it haha

[@EllieWilliams-p7h]

This really helped me. Thank you

[@EllieWilliams-p7h]

This started on my holiday in Portugal. Can you imagine?😂 My body was so tense, I was throwing up and sweating so bad. I honestly thought I was going insane, crazy, having Schizophrenia, bi-polar and hallucinations. It’s one of the scariest OCD themes I have had. Luckily, my family are really supportive but I just couldn’t get out of this cycle. I’m still in it. But before I googled ‘OCD fear of going insane’ I was actually searching symptoms of certain disorders and that made it worse because I was looking for reassurance but it was scaring me. When I found this video it was the biggest relief. Don’t get me wrong, it hasn’t cured anything but it made me feel like I crawled out of the hole that I was in. However, my OCD is convincing me that I have those disorders and it’s really annoying. I wouldn’t wish this on my worse enemy.

[@akshayrjain1599]

You are a very generous person 🤗

[@dedopest3305]

help me, i wanna know if i have The 'going crazy' theme of ocd or im actually going crazy. So, my trigger was in the streets, a mad you can say person was getting followed by the ambulance of psychiatric hospital. And that made me so scared to the fact the whole day i was checking if i am actually as mad and crazy as him. Now the problem is a thought popped up at night like:"what if im actually crazy and I don't know it?" or "what if im living in a illusion inside my mind?" And the scary thing is that i was so anxious to the fact i couldn't even differentiate between believing i was living that illusion or just worrying about it which striked the biggest anxiety panic i had all my life. These thoughts are actually making me go crazy. also, even tho i worry a lot about this, parts of me that doesn't worry about it even believe it. And i worry that i just fake my worrying.

[@felishapermal9914]

Its a scary feelings 🥺🥺

[@harshpokharna8997]

how are you now brother?

[@IbarrasLife]

They say others notice you’re crazy before you do. So you are most likely not crazy. Anxiety is the master of mimicking. I struggle myself🥲

[@dedopest3305]

@@harshpokharna8997 Oh im back, i actually im very well now. What i did was just say "I am crazy" and live through my daily life. And i forgot about it for soooo long, until i got a trigger now, but it's so easy to deal with now ngl... so just push through

[@dedopest3305]

@@IbarrasLife I don't think this really helps OCD sufferers, because their logic isn't coherent at all, a better way to do it personally is to affirm it and forget about it, just have the "fuck it" mindset. I've struggled with OCD for 3 years and it was hard to adopt this mindset, but eventually i just let go

[@sleve695]

I m afraid i will stop saying "i" when i am refering to myself and i will start to say "we". :))...It s just non sense but i have this intrusive thought and i am scared i will start to believe it

[@calebrobleto2381]

OMG. I have this same fear!!! I haven't met another person with this fear.

[@sleve695]

@@calebrobleto2381 omg, i thought i was the only person on Earth😂😂 I don t know if my ERP should be to say "i" even tho i have this fear and mental urge to say we; or to actually say "we" and disregard

[@calebrobleto2381]

@@sleve695 you could write a story only using “we”

[@sleve695]

@@calebrobleto2381 thank u! 🤗 please tell me if u will find a way to get over this theme of OCD

[@calebrobleto2381]

@@sleve695 👍 I’ve been working with a nocd therapist so it’s not as bad as it once was

[@arjunmrao4039]

Thank You Madam, nice informative video.. It helped me surely..

[@helperboy5020]

Here's a problem i face. I have a bad phobia of sharks. i can hardly go swimming in a pool cos i feel as if i'm going to see one or something. But thats not a problem cos i dont swim anymore. The problem is its kind of crept up to the point, where i'm getting scared now, even when taking a cold shower. I feel as if i might all of a sudden see water all around me and an image of a shark . Its kind of like the Phobia has coupled itself with the OCD. what should I do?

[@lauramelgoza90]

I thought I was the only one 😮. When I go swimming in pool I feel like a shark is going to come out of nowhere. Or when I am in the shower or bath I feel like I’m going to just fall into the ocean some how and a shark is going to be there.

[@helperboy5020]

@@lauramelgoza90now atleast there's 2 of us..... 😁

[@zezfz4690]

Everything that causes anxiety or fear can be absorbed by OCD and the treatment to phobia is practically the same to OCD: gradually exposure

[@mata1640]

This is Schiz-OCD?? Fear going crazy First of all, I want to say that this will be translated since I am Spanish and I do not understand English well, I hope it is understood in the best way. I am Victor from Spain, I am 20 years old and I have had anxiety since I was little, on May 9, 2022 this hell began from which I am still just as bad, that day as soon as I woke up I had thoughts of harming myself, they came involuntarily and they scared me a lot since I did not know why I had them because I did not and do not want to hurt myself, I was very scared and anxious, my chest hurt, I had trouble breathing, I ate little, I slept with my mother ... I thought this would be because of a bad day and that it would go away on its own but unfortunately it was not like that, a few days after this, being in my room, from one moment to the next out of nowhere this thought crossed my mind: What if I kill my mother? At that moment I started to cry, I didn't know what was happening to me, because I had that kind of thoughts, it had never happened to me and I was very scared, after this I decided to go to the psychiatrist to tell him about this and he told me about OCD, I didn't know what it was but reading about it fit with what was happening to me, after a few days, exactly on May 27, 2022, I saw a news story on television about a mental illness called schizophrenia, I was in shock, it was like, I have this... At that time I didn't know exactly the symptoms of that disease, I more or less knew what the disease was but I didn't know the symptoms in depth, when I saw that news I entered a loop that lasted about 4/5 months which every day I read and watched forums, videos about the symptoms of this disease, I read about delusions and hallucinations, from that moment on I was aware of the noises I could hear, I tried to find out where I heard the noises to know if they were real or not. it was a real noise or a hallucination, if i was watching a video and i heard something that i thought could be outside of that video i would rewind the video to see if i could hear it again, around that time i don't know if it was due to stress i developed floaters and i confused them with hallucinations, sometimes out of the corner of my eye i would see flashes and it would scare me, sometimes when i would go to sleep in that phase of falling asleep sometimes i could "hear" my own thoughts, it was very strange, they were like random thoughts of things that had happened to me during the day and i would get scared that they were hallucinations. There is also the other symptom that scared me, which was delusions, I read about them and after reading I noticed that I had those same thoughts but I knew they were lies, for example, I read that a delusion is an idea that is given 100% veracity even if it is proven with clear evidence that it is not true but the belief about that idea is still maintained, such as believing that they are going to kill you without having proof that it is true, well after reading about delusions I have that style of thoughts but I know they are lies, what happens is that I am afraid that from one day to the next I start to believe them and start to rave, to summarize, I have paranoid thoughts but I know they are lies, all this comes from reading about schizophrenia, I think reading about the symptoms has screwed up my head, any help?

[@GaryJRobinson]

Hi Kate, I've been finding your videos very usefull but probably not in a way that you would expect. I work as a music producer and composer and my OCD is centered entirely around my work. There are so many technical aspects to my job that require endless checking and tweaking and this is what my OCD is focused on. Since watching your videos I've found that if I run into difficulty I take a breathe and give some thought to your most recent upload. I find this puts everything into perspective for me and in that moment I realise that the OCD is completely pointless and therefore I'm able to simply move on.

[@23katied]

Great Gary, it sounds like just understanding the issue is helping you to let go of engaging in unhelpful mental and physical behaviours. Really happy to hear that.

[@vsm6847]

Wake yourself up throughout the night and drink a ton of caffeine, both of which will make me feel crazy, to prove I’m not crazy. This is why I can’t take advice from people who don’t experience these things firsthand.

[@teawithshinzo3842]

Greetings Katie, I wanted to thank you! Your videos have helped me tremendously on my journey against pure OCD. I am soon launching a podcast about the pursuit of mental clarity. It would be wonderful to have you on as a guest. It will help your message reach many more people. Where can I contact you? Kind regards, Ricardo

[@dentellier]

I am curious if this type of exposure therapy can be used to help overcome emotionally avoidant behaviors, i.e. people like me who squirm and want to run away when anyone gets emotionally close? Thanks for an amazing video 🙏🙏

[@kristianda6728]

Hi Katie, I would like to request something that might be really helpful for my case as well as for others. I have Existencial OCD that is actually getting worse day by day, I have started therapy alongside with medications and got so much better. Thing is, these existencial intrusive thoughts still comes around in a disturbing pattern, some examples turn around death, life itself and the mystery of our Existence. I would like to hear your recommendations about this kind of OCD, what if ERP actually works and what do you think might help to live a more peaceful life. Thankyou so much.

[@23katied]

HI there. Yes this can be a tricky topic to find exposures to - I will make a video on it, but all the same rules apply - work out what you avoid and find a way of exposing yourself to these things

[@anupamsharma4200]

@@23katied yes please Katie! 🙂 I've also been having these kinds of thoughts since Sept 2020. 'Existential/cosmic meaninglessness' etc. It was really quite scary!!! At moments, I have wondered whether it was more 'depressive' than 'OCD'. But the thoughts had such an intrusive quality to them... So - watching your videos, doing ERP, and Acceptance Commitment Therapy has definitely worked to bring the intrusive thoughts down. But the thoughts do come back sometimes (in full force)... And they almost just persistently 'linger there in the background' all the time; even if I'm not consciously ruminating over it. Which really sucks. Would love love love a video on this 💜

[@obrienjonathan1988]

If you start reading more philosophy and theology you will find exposures as well as answers.

[@nihalelwan]

@@obrienjonathan1988 do hou have suggestions for books to read?

[@shawnw5434]

Katie, after re-watching most of your videos I swear It feels like you've been living in my head for the past 8 years!!! I'm crying and laughing at the same time watching these videos lol... I do have a question though, I have this thing where I tend to talk to myself aloud a lot (when i'm alone), to go over things, ruminate, etc. Saying things in my head isn't "enough" I need to really SAY what I'm thinking to really make it concrete. What's weird is obviously I know what I mean?... I don't really have to explain things to myself do I lol... Do you think this is part of OCD or something else? I also talk to myself because I have brain fog and racing mind so saying things out loud helps to straighten my thoughts.

[@23katied]

It certainly sounds like a compulsion you are doing to try and get greater certainty....

[@K90-g8n]

Hi Katie, Please can you help me, I’m having a devastating battle with this theme of ocd. I jumped straight into ERP watching KZbin videos twice a day about people with schizophrenia and this was far too much far too soon, I’m now plagued with even stronger scary thoughts & feelings regarding losing my mind & going crazy & the fear of actually having schizophrenia because iv now seen so many of the actual symptoms on the videos :(. In a really bad place right now, I don’t know where I can start to get a grip of this and start to make some positive steps in the right direction, it feels everything is just making it so much worse, my family life is in tatters :( please help!

[@delwyngarate7218]

I’ve had this fear since I was 22 I’m 29 now and it goes away for some time, but when I get stressed with life i start to get anxiety and panic attacks and I start to get scared about going crazy again. I

[@colincampbell7227]

@@delwyngarate7218 hi, I’m 20 years old and this is currently what I’m experiencing right now. It is so scary, I can’t eat, sleep or anything because of the anxiety. I keep questioning whether my family would hurt me or not and need to keep telling myself that my family love me and would never hurt me but it’s like ping pong inside my head and im just so scared i start to believe these thoughts. I had been experiencing intrusive thoughts for about a year before this and the theme of my thoughts have changed so many times in a year. Any help?

[@delwyngarate7218]

@@colincampbell7227 hey, your going to be ok I’ve been going through this for many years I’m still sane. It’s anxiety? Ocd , depression. If you were crazy you wouldn’t know it. Your mind latches to the things you fear. What helped me was seeing a phychiatrist, they reassured me I wasent going crazy. It’s all anxiety

[@colincampbell7227]

@@delwyngarate7218 thanks a lot for your words. I’m actually going to see a psychiatrist on Wednesday so hopefully it helps🙏🏼

[@nicholeschneider4675]

Hang in there. I highly recommend the book “Needing to know for sure: a cbt based guide to overcoming compulsive checking and reassurance seeking” - this is incredible guide to helping slow those thoughts down and being comfortable with uncertainty. I’m going through this now, and the best thing for me was starting therapy and hearing my therapist say “you are not schizophrenic”. Something in this book says a helpful fact is to limit the reassurance to one credible source. My therapist is the most credible source in regard to my mental health. So I need to slow down the researching. Clearly am still trying to learn this. Don’t be afraid to reach out for support. Remember, you are worthy of a happy life. Self affirmations daily.

[@helmibenaziza6450]

Katie, I had OCD about "going crazy" /"losing my mind " for about two years after being diagnosed with depression caused by a painful divorce. The least I can say, having this type of OCD is a horrific experience ! I have had several therapy sessions until my therapist recommended watching "Beautiful Mind" featuring Russel Crow and guess what ??? I have developed another OCD theme. It's Depersonalization/Derealization. I've started questioning everything around me. I feel mentally-drained because of that. What do you think I can do?

[@23katied]

Hi there. It's not entirely unusual for OCD to shift themes or latch on to a new theme when you are trying to beat it. See it as an opportunity to keep practicing. Remember the content is irrelevant so it can keep switching themes and you can keep teaching yourself not to pay attention or avoid....

[@loner5574]

I've read that 1% to 16% of people that have ocd developed schizophrenia that what made my obsessions

[@yasmina-mariasirbu9937]

Schizophrenia develops at 16-17 , if u havent had symptoms in ur teens then u dont have it

[@adiamalem9246]

Really im 29 I tot it was later on year 20s

[@Pershin-i9i]

OCD can't translate into schizophrenia, being afraid of schizophrenia doesn't make you sick! Maybe the people you read about already had schizophrenia in the first place.

[@dramany7502]

Checking the thought is present or no I found the thought come to me is this normal or I bring it to my self please answer

[@Breeannful]

Will these videos work for Body dysmorphia??

[@michaellegood9498]

I’m no expert but perhaps it might be worth trying to do things you would usually avoid because of the way you fear you might look?

[@mizukunu3232]

Nice videos, theyve helped me a lot, but could you please make s video on how to deal eith moods u dont wanna have? I can control my thoughts but i feel that these moods are linked with these thoughts and i dont wanna feel this way anymore, i can "whatever" my thoughts but these moods keep reminding me of it, sorry for venting

[@23katied]

No need to apologise. Video 18 is about how to deal with unwanted emotions - I hope that helps.

[@mr.wigglemunch3856]

Hi Katie, I've been away for a while because i thought i was doing better but her i am again, the the thoughts are back and i f***ing hate it!

[@karanjitsingh2155]

Very helpful video

[@mysticmouse7983]

Great instruction

[@Aomar0601]

Hello kathie my name is Aomar I m following you from Algeria . Unfortunately we don't ve CBT therapists specialized in OCD overhere that's why I m trying to help myself by learning ERP . I'm suffering from thoughts getting crazy, killed my self and a bad memory when I was 14 y old sexual touching by my g mama .. I know it is trauma but the problem i feel more scared than guilty when the memory comes back cause I'm afraid to get crazy and kill my self ones i lose control . I spend to much time to ask my self if i do ERP to the bad memory itself as it comes always and spending to much time trying to avoid it and block it . ^becomes obsessional ^ .. Ve you ever found a similar situation with other patients scared of special events in the past .? To explain ..scare of the events to come back in my mind .. as I can t avoid it frequently is here so I'm afraid to getting crazy and lose control than I will kill my self Shall I And how to do ERP for the souvenir .? Thanks a lot I will be grateful if you may answer . And sorry for my English I m learning english just to try helping myself and recover from my OCD

[@belv288]

Can u explain abt harm ocd ??

[@lsgirl8814]

How do I do exposures about thoughts that I don’t love or want my children? My ocd started as harm thoughts and I was able to do exposure work on them but now they have changed to this. I feel terrible and it’s ruining my life. I was widowed suddenly in 2019 and my kids are my world

[@23katied]

Hi Lisa. Sorry you've been having such a tough time. It's not surprising that your OCD has latched onto this given you are likely to feel an elevated sense of responsibility. So ERP is always particular to the individual and what they find triggering but here are the sorts of things I imagine you could do which might be good exposures: - Draw a big heart on a piece of paper and put your kids names inside it and then draw a big black cross through it or rip it up and put it in the bin. - Make up a song about how much you don't want or love your kids - pick an easy tune and make up some lyrics like "I don't love ...... (put your child's name in" and I wish I could give ..... away (again put a name in) etc If this sounds super scary don't worry - it may be that you have to make a heirarchy and take things a step at the time. - Other ideas would be when your child says "Mum why didn't you get any apples at the supermarket?" (For eg) you could say, "I didn't bother to get them cos I don't love you" - Obviously you'll have to gage if this is ok for your child - i.e if they are 2 and won't understand that you are being sarcastic or talking nonsense it might not be great, but certainly older kids will probably be just like, "doh mum". - THink about all the things you are doing to overcompensate at the moment too.... there will be some ideas for exposure in here. Hope that gives you something to go on for now.

[@koksjo3176]

Hey Mam Intrusive unwanted sexual thought of partner with strangers is this ocd thoughts or not Pls help me answer

[@nikkig3799]

Yes it is

[@Amy-io6cq]

can you please do this for contamination ocd?

[@Amy-io6cq]

this type of video *

[@irishdylan1993]

You are so gorgeous, absolutely beautiful 😻

[@moonspirit1085]

Katie do you have any advice on intrusive sensations? They have been bothering me for weeks and it has really taken a toll on me. I cant even do anything because of this trigger that makes the sensations come up involving my step dad. Thank you in advance for replying!

[@nikkig3799]

How are you doing now?

[@23katied]

Ive made a video about this - no 18

[@honeykumar5448]

@@23katied hlo mam pls tell me ocd convert to another disorder and pls tell me how to recover from it i m suffring from harm ocd but now im ok but some scary and discusting thought come in my mind pls help 😭😭😭

[@ishraqaljuburi9258]

Thanks 😊 but what i do for harming urge my self then I complete what i do with storm war then call my family to reassurance

[@arthurghahramanyan3279]

Was this small black spot it the right end of the bottom edge of the video was made so I would think about having halluciantions?

[@23katied]

maybe, maybe not.....

[@HarryPotter-ey2gs]

I worry about becoming a psychopath should I watch psychopath movies.

[@Aditya-ig7lp]

Madam please make a video on ERP ideas for Pure O 🙏

[@23katied]

I have lots of info and ideas for ERP ideas - if you have a particular theme for which you are struggling to come up with ideas then share it here and we can share some ideas.

[@Aditya-ig7lp]

@@23katied I always have unreal thoughts of fear of failure in career . I know that these thoughts are unreal and not true but then also I spent lot of time on thinking about them . Also I've pathological doubt whether i have wrote abuse and slang in examination or not . So I check my answer many times in examination hall .I am student .my whole anxiety revolves around fear of failure in career .

[@yondergirl83]

Im sorry, but coffee is horrid for people with anxiety, so please dont tell them to drink coffee. There are tons of videos on youtube about this topic.

[@MrPorkered]

Hi Katie, I am still stuck with magical thinking ocd where I believe I need to squeeze my forehead muscles or something bad will happen. OCD just keeps telling me everytime I try to stop the compulsions and attempt to overcome OCD it will always make something bad happen. The problem is that they really do happen. Here is the list: bedbugs in 2013 after successful ERP for 30 minutes, snowtube fall (small bruise) in 2013 after successful stoppage of my compulsion for 2 hours, spoiled my monitor screen last week (I think I squeezed my left eye which I was unsure about though but OCD told me I did not squeeze my left eye and tried to confront it so it caused that bad event), window curtain snap and garbage leak in 2014. These were all the events that had happened in the past when I tried to completely stop compulsions it keeps flashing back to me. The funny thing is I cant remember anything at all between 2015 and 2021 as I almost forgot about OCD and was distracted at work. Is this a typical characteristic of OCD?

[@23katied]

Has anything bad ever happened even when you are obeying your ocd? It’s likely you are only seeing things that fit your theory...it often happens!