5 months off kratom (update)

it's been a while y'all but I'm back with a update! I hope you joy this video and stay free!

[@davemieze9021]

I’m going thru something right now, and you sir have slapped me back to reality. Im about to be 49 tomorrow. I’ve been addicted to everything and anything for the last 3 decades. I still go to work and function, but I want to be free if this. You’ve shown me that it’s possible. Thank you.

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

How are you doing? It's been 10 days sorry sometimes I don't see messages right away. In glad I can help you and I hope you pulled through!

[@davemieze9021]

@@fearandloathinginamerica I’m doing ok. The demons are always there, but let’s just say the grasp isn’t as extreme as it has been. Thanks for asking.

[@loveistheanswer5924]

To wich substances are you addicted? 🙂

[@coachhardgainz]

Bro so much of what you said needs to be said…I been on kratom everyday for almost 8 years, and as a bodybuilder for over 27 years and a coach and mentor for over 22 years I recently had a spinal fusion, I have a major TBI, and my whole body has been beaten battered and bruised. But now kratom has become that nightmare for me, and I have been studying kratoms affects on the hormones for years now and NO ONE even knows what it does and most people don’t wanna listen to me. I’ve got a bunch of vids on my channel on my research of kratom …but now I need to get off, it’s worse than Oxy in many ways. Bro this vid is inspirational to me and I relapse everytime I hit about 7 days off mostly because my pain unbearable to function through. Man I’m writing a novel, my bad…if you want you can watch my vids. Otherwise, glad to meet ya, I’m Adam and go by COACH HardgainZ all over ✌🏻

[@CaliforniaCardsmith]

Yup! I have watched your videos as well. I believe that is small doses (No more than 2-3Gram doses 1-2x daily can have more positive, than negative effects for some people who need it for pain or to get off of more dangerous street drugs like fent or H. The thing with kratom is that tolerance rises fast and at a certain point it stops working and the side effects just keep stacking and getting more and more prominent. Then if you stop taking it it’s hell to get trough WD’s. I have never taken more than 15-20 GPD myself but I have only been on it for 6months. Taking about 12GPD now but plan to slowly taper down to 4-6GPD and re-assess. I have taken street drugs and prescription pills for 10+ years and have a family now so I can’t get in trouble or risk getting dangerous street drugs so for now kratom is the better choice but it’s not something I want to take forever and i definitely don’t want to take anymore than 15-20GPD ever because from what I have heard from countless others that not only do the positive effects stop but serious health complications can ensue to those who abuse it for long periods of time. If you do need it and can take small doses while eating regularly and healthy, exercising, and doing everything else to stay as healthy as possible and doing all the things that will keep you as healthy as possible in all aspects of life.

[@reezio2x]

@@CaliforniaCardsmith hey, ive been takin kratom for about six months everyday and bout 2 years on & off, meaning that i did it like 2 times a month , maximum of 8 grams a day, tho often no more than 6. The thing i found is that it makes me feel concentrated, my work goes super fast, and as Im audio engineer ive got dozens of songs in a week its really helpful. However , if I stop taking it, which i do sometimes for a day or two , i cant focus at all and im pretty agitaded , when Im off kratom my sleep is much better, just found out that if you take kratom 4pm max you wont wake up with hangover but the sleep is still altered , thats what i hate, it messes your sleep and makes it hard for you to focus without it for couple days, other than this i havent found anything crazy bout it. Kratom's magic is that it really works for people who got a business cuz it makes them really invested into their thing and they're able to invest so much more strenght and focus on their thing.

[@reezio2x]

@@CaliforniaCardsmith but kratom goes both ways , I use it to get some more work done to get more ideas and energy for it, and some people jhust straight abuse it, taking it right after waking up for no reason at all.

[@CaliforniaCardsmith]

@@reezio2x appreciate the response. Just like most things in moderation it can be beneficial but once you abuse anything it starts having more negative effects than positive. Because of tolerance and addictive personalities most people find themselves trapped by it and it gets out of control. It’s not easy to keep use under control with any addictive substance but with enough mental toughness and drive I think that it’s possible to use it responsibly. I do plan to taper and use as little as possible. Maybe that’s a small amount and maybe I will just stop all together. I don’t know yet. But one thing I do know is that I don’t want to be taking large doses 3-4x daily because it can cause lots of health issues long term like low testosterone, hair loss, dry skin etc. I think in smaller doses and of you exercise regularly, stay hydrated, eat healthy etc it can be perfectly ok. Thing is most people who abuse it don’t do all those other things. Some people don’t even drink water and kratom is a diuretic.

[@ricknowak4582]

@@reezio2x I HAD such a wonderful time when I 1st start taking kratom. For maybe 8 months maybe a year maybe. I've been taking it for about 4 and a 1/2 years now and for 3 years I've been chasing it! I hardly feel anything anymore. And I see myself becoming hateful, intolerant of people, and I completely hate getting hungry and having to eat! I just can't stand eating even though I'm hungry. The fact I'm getting something to put in my stomach takes time when all I want to do is sit down and chill! Crazy huh?

[@arnoldrimmer9161]

Good for you bro. I'm from the UK and got COMPLETELY addicted to the green sludge for two years. Then decided I was a slave to it and stopped cold turkey. It's been two weeks and still not sleeping but all the other brutal effects have worn off so just looking forward to when the insomnia stops, it's a killer having to go to a physical job on 1 hours sleep! But I can only blame myself. No wonder it's illegal in the Uk! 🙏

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

Yea, the getting clean sucked big time, but stay true to it! It's legal here and sold absolutely everywhere, and I hate it took so many years from me. I'm thankful now I'm free from it and free from everything so life is good, my friend. There is no progress without struggle!

[@timothywood166]

Hit the nail on the head man I’m 5 days clean off kratom. I used kratom after a decade of pills and then suboxone for 2 years. It is no joke, I feel like it just extended my opiate withdrawals. Thanks for your videos, I watched them all. Got me through withdrawal. 🙏

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

Hey congrats on being sober! Keep it going man life is good 👍

[@Nutbelly123]

Congratulations young man ! You are a good old soul 🙏 you inspire me to go for it . Much love and respect to you and your family

[@knewdist]

Congratulations. Thank you for the videos...I'm in the rough of it... Your videos help more than you may know.

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

I'm so glad they can help you! That makes me happy to hear if I can help even 1 person feel like it's going be ok that makes me happy in the end keep it up and remember don't become a statistic you were born free so plan to die free.

[@rivpupper]

Hope your doing ok!!

[@beermaninc.511]

Good to see the 5 month follow up is going well man. Keep it up and don't give in to being a slave to the medical industry. Keep the faith brother.

[@chuckboise]

I took it for 2 years for pain. It worked really well but I realized I kept needing more so I stopped CT 3 weeks ago. I'm still hurting, I had no idea it would take this long lol. Thank you for your videos, they give encouragement.

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

Keep it up! It took some time but life will even out again. You got this!

[@criddyla696]

You look amazing from the last kratom video, you are a true inspiration sir. Thanks for this knowledge, you will help many…

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

I really appreciate that! Yall are to kind and I hooe you're killing it.

[@samamsterdam4301]

You look great and your eyes look bright! Thanks for sharing your journey.

[@fabricatorgeneralcaz534]

Holy shit bro, 6 years.. I was on about 30 gpd for a little over 6 months and it’s been rough as hell just off that. I’m on Day 5 of No kratom right now and feeling alright. Thanks for putting yourself out there bro, it’s nice to know that I will get back to being myself. Sidenote: I’m a welder, fitter, custom steel fabricator in North GA, if you got any questions or anything holla at your boy. Much love 👊🏼 Mental health for women and MEN is fucking essential; boys, if you got some shit going on in your head please talk to somebody, I’ve lost too many friends to suicide, overdose, etc because of that shit. Talk about it, get some help and live this life for what it is.

[@completelytransparent6320]

I feel like there is a revolution going on with ppl like us. Im 32 and it couldnt have happened any other way for me. I needed ALL the lessons to gain this appreciation for life.10 years of knowing im not myself and im not hitting my stride and the shame that comes with that.Everyones story is unique and pure magic.

[@petrumyndresku9890]

I’m been off for just over a month now after being addicted for 4 months. Got to 20 good and the psychological effects are still there. I have random panic attacks and mood is destabilized. Feeling more gay than usual too and which is crazy.

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

​@@completelytransparent6320I feel the same it was just another lie for us to eat up I hope yall are doing well.

[@sunnys3325]

Amazing! Hope u still doing well man. I was there with the opiates first too, then on to suboxone for 7 yrs. Did it all myself and finally tapered to the smallest dose and then took Kraton for few weeks. Jus a small amt. I didn't really feel the magic of kratom because it was helping me with the sub withdrawal I guess. I stopped the Kratom thank goodness and now im 2 yrs clean this Nov 2022. We're fn stronger than we think! 👊

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

Dude that is fucking awesome congrats! We are stronger then we think for sure it's all a mental game tbh. I'm completely sober now no cigs, weed, kratom etc and life is good im currently in school for welding and finally got a welding job so life is good bro. I'm glad to see that you're off those subs man they are rough but don't forget the government got us addicted to those evil little pills lol. Life only goes up when you are not a slave to anything stay free bro! 💯

[@sunnys3325]

@@fearandloathinginamerica currently in school??!! Changing up careers for the betterment of ur life and future!?!? !!!! Thats what I'm fkn talking about bro. No one else can make us change but ourselves. U said it, ur gettin too old for this shit. That's what I said. I went back to Uni and finished up my last semester while tapering and withdrawing from Subs. I fkn finished that shit and earned my Bachelors degree in my early 40s AND got off subs. I went to a major university near my home and it SUCKED! I was determined man. Glad to see ur doing the same for ur future. Yes life is good and it's great to actually feel. Good for u my man. I can see there's a lot more good stuff coming ur way. Keep ur head up, tomorrow always comes. WE change ourselves, no one else will do it for us.🙂 ur an inspiration to many

[@davemieze9021]

Amazing! You have something some of us addicts don’t have. Determination

[@davidrumph9991]

i like listening to you talk. you have a very soothing voice. glad you have come over the hump with kratom.

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

I appreciate the comment 🙏 I mumble alot so im glad yall can understand me. Getting off kratom gas been the best thing ever.

[@rip7007]

Definitely glad to see it can be done bro I been wrestling with it for a grip an thanks for the vids 100

[@loveistheanswer5924]

Are you still taking it? 🙂

[@adaniel2224]

Props for speaking on mental health big bro happy new year!

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

Hey I appreciate it good sir happy new year to you! Mental health is lacking hard in this country and we all need to be strong.

[@adriennefegan2962]

Thank you for sharing. I have been finding more and more info on Kratom abuse and kicking it. My husband (soon to be x) is heavily addicted. I watch these vudoes to better understand what hes up against.

[@jacobmarchiafava5248]

Ey man, im 90 days clean. So much of what you say is true. Keep on keeping on people.... peace is possible!

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

I love to hear that for you congrats! Exactly keep on keeping on we are strong creatures.

[@christopherpeterraby]

good job man, proud of you, keep it up, exercise, eat right and love life and your family.....everything in moderation no matter what it is, good luck man, thanks for the inspiration

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

Life has been good! It's been a long time since I touch it maybe 2 years and life has just been up and up for me. Only you csn change your course in life.

[@DIE2dayORelse]

keep uploading brother, you're doing god's work. I've been so discouraged about quitting and your videos are a light at the end of the tunnel for me and many others.

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

I love the name bro! Love me some trailer park boys that and letterkenny got me through the withdraws when my emotions were all off wack. I appreciate your kind words and im so glad I can help people and you got this stay free!

[@criddyla696]

I got to say, you are one of the most genuine people I have ever had the pleasure of finding on this internet World, I have seen many channels of advice on addiction over the years and yours by far has made me feel the potential in me to become the person even at 57 that i always wanted to be, life has been very difficult at times but you have given me a new hope sir, you should have thousands of subscribers but I understand the importance of how much people read into how we look and also the giving up of Kratom that is almost seen as an aggressive act to some, you have explained the good side of it perfectly and like you I see it has run its course for me and it’s time to call it done. From another large bearded bloke to another, hope your life is excellent going forward pal, thanks for inspiring me and many others with your honest words. 🌱

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

I really appreciate the kind words! And I've gotten many mixed reviews since my time on this silly thing we call the internet. It's truly a shame people base a entire human on their political views or physical appearance but we can't give up cause I know who I am and hopefully one day people will also. I hope you're journey is filled with joy and you achieve what you want in life even at 57 years young!

[@alisload2772]

I’ve been thinking about quitting for sometime. You’re videos are helping to push me over the edge to quit. I’ve been doing a slow taper but am just done mentally with this. Thanks man.

[@loveistheanswer5924]

How is it going with the Kratom addiction? 🙂

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

You got this! Sorry for the late response alot of time I never get notifications I hope you pulled through it.

[@toobad181]

Love this update! Thanks for posting video, and please keep 'em comin' !!

[@ronnieredneck9162]

Thank you brother. I’m getting close to cutting the cord. I’m a 4 gram fella but it’s been 4 years or more. Time to let it go. Thanks for your strength and courage.

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

Hey you got this! I'm just a crazy tatted dude with an addictive personality lol we are all great humans we just gotta have confidence and find it!

[@completelytransparent6320]

Easy couple week taper with that dose ez pz painless. Proud of you for getting the picture early.

[@jayrose4804]

i really appreciate the videos about your experience with quitting kratom. im trying to psych myself up to stop taking it at the end of this week. been taking around 40/50 gpd for about 3 years, but just recently tapered to around 15 gpd where ive been stuck at for the past month or two. definitely tired of the chains of addiction though and ready to get off it. it definitely helped me quite a bit to get out of a really rough period in my life and it’s helped plenty of other people too but im ready to move on. im glad things are going well for you though man. hearing about your experience and how well you’re doing now has given me hope that i can make it through, even if it’ll be a rough journey at the start.

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

That's awesome keep it up! It's not a easy journey but you got this. Kratom is a life saver honestly.

[@loveistheanswer5924]

Are you still on 15g per day? I am also at 12-15g a day. I am addicted to it for 7 years. It ruined my life and personality.

[@jayrose4804]

@@loveistheanswer5924 hi friend, no actually i did end up quitting shortly after this post and have not looked back since. it’s been a little over 5 months now and it has been wonderful not being dependent on it. i’d say plan out a day to quit, psyche yourself up for it and just do it. r/quittingkratom helped me a lot they are very supportive. and there’s lots of advice and such there on how to get through withdrawals. you got this though! it’s rough for a while but you will be much happier on the other side! good luck on your journey my friend!

[@jaytoz667]

Thanks man. You're a good dude. I hope everything is going well. I've been taking kratom for a couple years and suddenly instead of good feelings it was causing dreadful feelings and I actually went to the ER one night and😂 almost a few other nights. I'm kind of crapin myself. It's also time for me to finally quit smoking weed. In 2020 I got pancreatitis from drinking all day everyday. I quit cigarettes and nicotine gum in lozenges many times and the last time I was just a few days ago. I don't know.... Thanks for your positive story and good attitude. I'm not sure if I could get through this at the moment.

[@bluestar7757]

Thanks for making these videos and sharing your experience I am currently on day 12 ct definitely was not easy and like yourself I have kicked harder substances in my past I agree with you that it should remain legal for people in chronic pain or trying to get off harder substances however they should really stop telling people it’s not addictive and has only mild coffee like withdrawal I am only looking forward at this point and not looking back ….wishing you the best on your journey of sobriety✨

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

Hey day 12 that is a victory all in itself congrats! 👏 I'm so happy to hear you are getting off and like you said it should stay legal it does great things but people need to be real about it also. I'm very thankful for people like you to find these videos and appreciate it them for what they are worth! Thank you for the kind words and stay strong and stay free you are stronger then you think!

[@bluestar7757]

@@fearandloathinginamerica I also wanted to share with you that I watched your videos two months prior when I was still using and desperately wanting to quit…It was a huge help at the time …addiction can be a very lonely place full of uncertainties so I thank you for the inspiration, sharing your experience helping and encouraging others I hope you continue making videos and sharing your progress…looks like all your hard work is paying off and worth the struggle I pray for the same outcome ✨

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

@Blue Star honestly that hit me in the feelers and im happy it was a step but at the end of the day YOU decided to make that step and you pulled through so be proud of yourself! My mindset is no body is coming to save you so you gotta save yourself as it is lonely this is the most attention from people I've ever gotten and im glad it could be a good one. Keep fighting the good fight and take care of yourself mentally and physically

[@stainz5714]

Thanks for sharing your story i completely relate... .quit kratom 2 weeks ago ....restless legs and frequent urination that leD to insomnia are my biggest challenges since quitting the green sludge.....much respect

[@Roofers-Nail-Hardest]

I’ve tried kratom but I was addicted to everything now I’m clean. Except for weed, weed is the best and I’m allowed to smoke at work if I feel like it.

[@brando3098]

Are those juggalo axes under your right eye? (sorry I have ADD) and good on you man getting clean is good. And yes the main reason I haven't quit kratom is because when I try I wake up every two hours miserable with rls and anxiety. I want to just take it at night and eventually take valerian root for sleep and quit kratom all together. I defienitly need a career or good job to keep my mind from getting bored and wanting drugs. I'm tired of being in a cloud of forgetfulness and being numb. I want to take the good with the bad in life. We were all kids once and we had fun then naturally without drugs. Something happened along the way with me where I got bored. At some point it got out of control. The first few times with a drug (opiates) It was great fuzzy nostalgic feeling where everything was great. Now it just makes me mean and an asshole and I have to take a bunch just to function at a minimum...It's ridiculous def plan to taper. Appreciate the video and perspective on the topic. It really helps to listen to someones story. If you decide to make more content I'll def tap I man. Take care.

[@brando3098]

Halfway thru the video at the moment man lol opiates and kratom def takss away sex drive Is have to take uppers just to get it on with my wife on the days I use to drown myself with opiates. Forgot to ask you was there any supplements you recommend for mood coming off kratom?

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

Hey bro I appreciate the love! No those axes are from when I was tough and dumb doing soke wild stuff ill just say that. I feel you as I said in the video I got moody alot and just hated it all but all I really was looking for was being numb. I hope you can get past it cause we were born to be free not slaves to anyone or anything! Honestly if I never got hurt when I did I probably would have never gone down that path tbh but I can say I'm glad I did in a way cause I got the chance to see life from a different way and ultimately brought me to a healthy life style cause the only time I really did physical fitness was when I was locked up so it's nice to be able to do it on my own term ya know. Keep your head up bro and idk if you watch the Anime demon slayer but it's one of my favs. Skol.

[@bassimprovjams3772]

I appreciate this! I’ve been taking kratom everyday for probably 5 yrs now, now I’m up to 7 1/2 grams per dose 4 to5 times a day I quit weed for about 3 yrs now I miss weed every day tho , never was a cig smoker kratom just helps so much with back pain, depression, good job quitting. I get withdrawals if I go to long without it. I never experienced withdrawals before tho

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

That's awesome you never got withdraws consider yourself lucky my man 💪 stay strong and healthy mentally and physically!

[@bassimprovjams3772]

@@fearandloathinginamerica thank you homie! I do have them if I go to long without it tho but it is what it is!!

[@ricknowak4582]

Dude, you're like me with the no withdrawals. You never got Withdraws because you never waited too long to dose! Ha! Only a couple of times I experienced withdrawals before dosing. I waited too long and felt the withdrawals coming on and they were not fun! They were terrifying! Like can't stop moving while going 70 miles an hour on expressway. Shadow Boxing in the car. Very scary. Sneezing like 15 times in a row. Nonstop. Chills too. The rustless body the jittery feeling was probably the worst! My whole body was shaking my arms were like .... shadow boxing. Get me? Oh, I take around 28 GPD. 4 doses 6 -6.5 doses. I KNOW this is going to be SOOOOOOO HARD TO GET OFF !! I probably need to go to a rehab joint. Just so I can have NO WAY of getting this stuff. Knowing. Simply KNOWING that it is so easy to get would/does make me go nuts !!!

[@loveistheanswer5924]

​​@@ricknowak4582 I feel you! The Kratom withdrawals are simply UNBEARABLE for me! Pure pain and suffering! I hate the immense and painful restlessness and the immense overall body pain! I also hate the disgusting and nasty pressure in my head (like someone presses against my brain, it's really painful!). I just can't stand them! 🤧😫😭😪 Tapering is also not easy for me because you need a lot of discipline for that! I try to build up the courage to get off the kratom by watching this kind of KZbin videos... I wish I never touched it.

[@redpillspiller2177]

Brother can you tell me how long your come down process was and did anything help? I’m about to cold turkey a 4 opms concentrate shots a day habit for the last 5 years . I’m terrified

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

It took about a month total to feel 100% the first 2 weeks were rough butbthebseind week wasn't so bad. Exercise alot and vitamins and don't eat shitty food and that will help you so much. Drink plenty of water and stay busy mentally was the worst part. I've never touched it again since I got off and I love life so much and wouldn't change a thing you got this!

[@Pete23269]

Golden Monk red bali at night hits good. With a day or 2 off a week. Harm reduction is key.

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

Yea that's all I used towards the end there ill say they are one of the best companies.

[@Boojyman]

I did 40gpd for a 5 weeks and i quit and thank god . I cant imagine being in it longer because it would be absolute fucking hell . Kratom is not to be fucked with and i cant justify using it

[@sarpsays]

It is hell. The days morph into the next day, the weeks into weeks, and months into months, until you realize years have passed and you aren't even inside there anymore. I don't care what anyone says about it or uses it responsibly, it's like those anecdotes of people saying "well I did heroin once in a while and never got hooked", sure you have some genetics. Other people have a propensity and if you do, you're in for the rollercoaster ride.

[@Boojyman]

@@sarpsays well said,

[@daddydanko1189]

Congratulations my man! I been really contemplating on quitting because I moved from a state where it was legal to now a state that isn’t. I never did heroin or opiate wise because I would get hot flashes and feel just nauseous. Anyways, I’ve been taking it for 4 years and now I do the same scoop and water up to 4-5 times a day. (Mechanic with back issues.) addictive personality as well. I can quit anything mostly because I never had actual withdraws like drinking alcohol I dropped craved it for a few days then never thought about it. This stuff is a whole different ball game. Didn’t even know this stuff was something that had a withdraw. I bought it from a vape shop when the guy told me it helps with energy and pain. Fast forward now and I need to drop this stuff. My question is other than sleep what do you take during the day to keep going? Vitamins etc? Sorry for rambling but I appreciate your few videos you posted!

[@mrtennessee6862]

Hey brother, I take it very careful once a day for pain and not every day. Four herniated disc. I'm a Christian and ex alcoholic. I'll be praying for you in Jesus name. Look up John 3:16-18. God bless you

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

I appreciate the prayers 🙏 I'm hope your feeling better that is no joke and I'm glad your off the sauce that's some dangerous stuff.

[@CaliforniaCardsmith]

Great video. Thanks for the inspiration 😊

[@dannyj7618]

im at a 100g+ a day - feel like shit. I am making a plan to jump on 3 days of suboxone - and then Ill get the 1 month suboxone shot - and call it done.

[@karldanger44199]

Caffine 👌🍀 lot of people dont like to admit that stuff isnt doing us any favors

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

I agree and there is tons that is good but we think is bad also what a wild world we live in.

[@karldanger44199]

​@@fearandloathinginamerica absolutely. Lot of traps!

[@micclay]

Congrats on welding school. That must be hard with working a job.

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

It's not to bad honestly. These days times are tough and most people work 2 jobs as I did so not having to work 2 full time jobs was actually like a break lol.

[@Scotch-z1u]

Glad to see this update man 👍

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

Thanks bro I appreciate it imma do another video here soon.

[@tacthemac1366]

Great Video dude. Do you feel 100% yet?

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

Thank you for taking time to watch it! I feel amazing and onock on wood still have avoided all this sickness but I do take vitamins daily with a health system and I've cut out all process foods, artificial everything so all I eat is stuff directly from farms, meat from farms and raw milk and its been a absolute life changer. With work and school I'm gone for 17 hour m-f and I feel great I even hit the gym on the weekends and thay keeps my mental state good 👍

[@tacthemac1366]

@@fearandloathinginamerica Awesome brother. You are tougher than most. Good job on doing all of the right steps! I also cut out all of the processed garbage and coffee etc. Glad to hear things are going good for you. I’m on day 77, but looking forward to being where you are soon! Thank you for taking the time out to share your experience. Your story puts me in a better mindset about it. GL with your journey man!

[@ryanmarvell793]

I was on methadone at the clinic for 7 straight years(years of opioid abuse before that as well). I used Kratom to get off the methadone 6 months ago. I never went above 10-11 grams a day(split into two doses). I’m trying to get off the Kratom now, and I’m at 9 grams a day now. I’m psyching myself out because many years ago I kicked methadone cold turkey in rehab(refused the Suboxone) and it was pretty rough. Any advice?

[@Acemechanicalservices]

If you kicked 6 years of methadone cold turkey, why are you looking for advice on quitting 6 months of low dose Kratom? Doesn’t really make sense.

[@ryanmarvell793]

@@Acemechanicalservices because the longer you’re on opiates/opioids it’s way way harder to get off of. At that point I had only been using for 3 years. Also, I went to rehab for that and did it cold turkey in rehab… much much much easier in rehab because you don’t have responsibilities.

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

Just eat healthy, work out, and most importantly just want it! You will never quit if you truly don't want to is my best advice. I got off worked my ass off got through welding school m, bought a bike and now life is great!

[@ryanmarvell793]

@@fearandloathinginamerica were the withdrawals unbearable at any point for you? I’ve been eating super healthy and working out since the day I dropped methadone and started Kratom. I def have that part down now at least lol. I’m have dealt with crippling anxiety my entire life so quitting completely has always been hard for me no matter what im doing.. I let my brain tell me I can’t do it, and im trying to change that. Kratom doesn’t do much but slightly take away my anxiety, but slightly… then when I don’t take it for a while my anxiety is through the roof, the physical withdrawals are super light it’s just the mental that always screws me.

[@Monkeyballs88]

My last dose is today my wife gave me till the new year I've been taking it for five years steady about twenty-five grams a day I'm tired of being a slave to substance I've been through meth heroin Then Suboxone now kratom I really want to do this I'm a union drywall finisher hopefully it doesn't effect my job but it's gotta be done

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

I feel you bro im a union welder and it was rough but nothing like heroin or subs just alot of discomfort and restlessness feeling. I just exercised and listened to podcast to keep my mind preoccupied while I was going through it. You got this and you will feel so much better to be a free man! Happy new year and here's to a better life ahead.

[@Monkeyballs88]

@@fearandloathinginamerica thanks man can't wait to see more videos from you happy New year

[@ricknowak4582]

I just took a 6.0 g DOS E an hour ago. And guess what? Nothing! Don't feel anything in this stuff anymore but I still take it! 4 doses per day. And a hardly feel anything so why oh why do I continue to take this stuff is beyond me.

[@sarpsays]

The experience and question we all have... don't worry

[@interestinggiraffe7984]

How long did it take for libido to return? Fellow male and mine went to shit from K. I’m on day 15 from my quit and still not where I want to be. Looking for hope that I’m not broken.

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

You are definitely not broken I can promise you. I stopped feeling all weird in about 12 days. I am not months into being sober and im very happy but the cold days hurt for sure. I use to think I needed it and as it does numb me physically and emotionally I prefer to feel and be free. I'm not a welder and it's very physical but honestly I feel way better. Don't give up you are stronger and better then that.

[@daddydanko1189]

Also what games you play / console or pc? Lol

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

Sorry for the late reply I have a xbox series x and I also have a pc. I play alot of rpgs and stuck on star field right now. I occasionally play cod and alot of tarkov even tho I suck I still love it.

[@daddydanko1189]

Hey no worries my dude. Also play pc. I’m in the same boat when it comes to Tarkov. I just love the loot and making sweet load outs but combat is always a struggle. I haven’t played starfield yet but my coworker won’t stop talking about it lol.

[@markmosmen9237]

What did you do to get threw the first 3 days

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

It was hell honestly but I took vitamins, worked out every day even tho I felt like hell, kept my mind busy as I have kids so I didn't want them to see me like that so I worked through it but I will say it wasn't easy. But if I can do it you definitely can.

[@jescollo]

If you could do it over, would you get the face tatts?

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

Um it depends really i don't regret them honestly I wish I woukd have done them differently but all my ink has emotional stories behind them and are a reminder of what I've even through. Besides if I ever did want to remove them it would be a scar that looks like them sooooo yes but I also always have gotten tattoos for me and not other people. I've never had a issue getting work or finding good people and I found the best women ever super normal 😆

[@micclay]

How long before you felt motivation?

[@sarpsays]

This is the worst part... it's like there is zero units of dopamine in your brain..

[@sarpsays]

In my experience first time quitting it was a few days until I started to feel normal and motivation it took a while in the sense that mentally I had linked sitting down to "work" with a dose so strongly. So it was more a mental thing, otherwise energetic motivation comes back quite fast.

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

This guy gets it 👆

[@randybell9810]

Can you make a viking related video...

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

I most definitely can! That's my jam right there.

[@randybell9810]

@@fearandloathinginamerica 👍 me too ... definitely looking forward to it..

[@S.C.A.R-NATION]

What part of Tennessee you from?

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

East Tennessee knoxville/oak ridge area

[@S.C.A.R-NATION]

@@fearandloathinginamerica oh nice I’m right down the street in the Chattanooga area

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

@@S.C.A.R-NATIONGolly that is awesome I've only passed through honestly I've never really took the time to check it out imma have to spend some time out there!

[@S.C.A.R-NATION]

@@fearandloathinginamerica ya Chatt is pretty nice

[@Nutbelly123]

@@fearandloathinginamerica I’m from Knoxville!! Love oak ridge area ! Appreciate you helping all of us with sharing your journey 🙌

[@paigejackman7929]

Good video. How did you quit smoking cigarettes?

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

Thank you! I honestly started vaping with a mod for like 6 months and this was when it was still new and I was worried about popcorn lung so one day I just said I'm done and I quit cold turkey. It was hard and I was a bit of a asshole but sunflower seeds helped me with the oral craving.

[@OlympiaUnlimited]

Sometimes you just gotta know when things have ran its course... this year was the first time in my life I ever flushed drugs. I had some good shit but clould only think of the pain and guilt that come with it and even when high it wasnt the same. Flushed that shit and never looked back

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

That's awesome im glad to hear it honestly.

[@kratomfree]

Hi there, thank you so much for your uploads, they have really helped me. Please listen to my testimony too if you get a chance. Western Carolina here, west coast original 😁

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

I'll check it out thank you!

[@84hottopic]

do you feel way betteR?

[@84hottopic]

i was addicted to heroin and have been abusing kratom for over 5 years now at least 35-40 mg a day. I am terrified of quitting. i dont even know how to do it. i am not even sure i can.. i just know i want to. but i am at the point where i am thinking whats the point , to anything really. and having that mindset makes it hard to even try. i just dont know if i can and im not sure if i care. i am just in a major funk and having a hard time.

[@fearandloathinginamerica]

@HaHa you got this bro you just have to slowly taper would be the best for you honestly. I feel so much better mentally and physically I feel me again and that's an amazing future. Eat healthy no fast food try to get some raw milk and some non-gmo goods and that will help cause diet can fuck you up more than you can even imagine. You truly got this and we are so much stronger then we give our selves credit for stay free keep me up dated on what you decide.