5 Times We Faced Our Fears!

Ash has convinced everyone to talk about what they're scared of again. Will they ever learn? These are the moments the Access team looked fear straight in the eye and powered through it, but what videogame moments made you face your fears? Let us know in the comments below!
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[@misterpoo7584]

I've been watching this channel since way back and Dave has always been such a cool genuine dude. I really appreciate him.

[@baeleth]

My sister did the voice and performance capture for Marguerite. When I got there in the game, my first thought was "well that's just really angry Sara." So, as her brother... I get it.

[@only1smally]

David's fear is known as analysis paralysis. Can be a real life problem too.

[@rivolinho]

Totally agree with Dave on RPG character creation and skill trees...... lost hours of my life mulling over hairstyles and names etc. Its an illness tbh

[@Im_not_a_fish_in_a_trenchcoat]

I've lost hours on ghost recon breakpoint just Dressing/redressing and arming my character.

[@cellardoor1122]

Agree. I lost days on City of Heroes just designing my characters, thinking of backstories, and finding out my perfect name is already taken.

[@JasonCliftJones]

When you play an MMO and they redo the skill tree so you have to start again with them too (this might be why I've not been on Star Trek Online in yonks)

[@marhawkman303]

@@JasonCliftJones I have so much fun dressing characters in Star Trek Online :D

[@cinematicwallflower2237]

As a fellow serially indecisive person, Dave's entry really spoke to me. Or wait... Did it? Maybe I'm not actually like that. Or am I?

[@mikkdc]

I think what is most terrifying about the ocean is being there and looking down to see nothing but deep dark water. A game which gives that sensation so well is Stranded Deep. Just being in the vast ocean with literally NOTHING around makes me shudder.

[@rockutron9000]

I took my scuba test in a quarry that was flooded and they sank man-made objects like a school bus and a plane. It freaked me out, especially the plane because you're swimming along and the tail just appears out of the gloom and it's huge. We swam through a hatch to get in and the instructor signals you to swim through the fuselage and sit in the cockpit. Creepy as hell.

[@althor2718]

Yeah Ash, you are definitely not alone in your fear of the ocean. I'm super proud of you for doing the shipwreck thing in Australia. I'm not sure I could have done it with Steve Irwin by my side, so good on you for tackling it solo!

[@DiamondDogApollo]

Rob, as someone who completed the Bloodborne platinum completely solo, and has since earned every other Soulsborne platinum, I say your platinum is just as legitimate as mine. You should be proud and own your accomplishment. That’s the next fear you need to overcome.

[@sonicrules666]

I'm a solo offline from software vet from demon's souls ps3 days, played and finished them all, in the middle of Elden Ring. It's still a platinum but you should only get help on those games if you can accept knowing that it's a hollow victory. It's nowhere near the same thing as doing it solo as you know, for Rob it's helped him get through the game and experience it. It's different on stream due to time but I can't see why so many souls players refuse to play the game by themselves. I use guides and look things up regularly so I can make good use of my time, the feeling of knowing you've achieved and overcome is far greater than getting carried by your mates. I'd love for co op just to be arenas and pvp, at the moment there are lots of players in souls games who've no idea how to fight by themselves and that's sad to me, the entire point of gaming is to overcome and learn by doing. I'm almost 40 years old not sure if that has anything to do with it

[@angussmoke7896]

Bit of a humblebrag here :D. But still congrats, thats pretty impressive!

[@sonicrules666]

@@angussmoke7896 oh I'm not anywhere near good, takes a lot of effort for me, the folks who no damage and level 1 are way above my league. The souls series has some of my favourite games of modern times in though, and some of my most feared bosses too

[@jdrahonovsky]

I was like Rob. Started Bloodborne 5 times and just hated it. Didn't know where to go, combat was not clicking, I just didn't get it. Platinumed Elden Ring, bought Sekiro and on a whim fired up Bloodborne. Got the platinum in about a week and a half and watched all of Rob's journey to celebrate. Solo or with friends, you can do it everybody!

[@notoriousbmc1]

The next big RPG, you should write a vague outline of a character, and force Dave to play through it, sticking to the character traits. "Access Decidophobia"

[@marhawkman303]

YESS!!!! sound hilarious! OH! do another CP game and start off making new characters on screen!

[@marhawkman303]

@@Manudyne I meant CyberPunk! They did a play of the TTRPG as part of promoting the CP2077 game.

[@martynpotter21]

The last entry was the cream on the top of the cake! I too refuse to lose! 😂 Top tier stuff again PlayStation Access *chefs kiss*

[@saterdei]

Gaming fear #1: the fear of disconnecting while playing with an online party. I've had such an experience due to a really problematic router, which had caused me to dc 4 times in 15' while playing Borderlands 2. The worst part is, when I disconnected, everyone else was also kicked because we were in MY session. Since then, I always run a network test before hopping on a party with the rest and cold sweat drips as I behold the skips in the frames of my games; it could start freezing any moment now, I'll have to fix it but I don't know how, so that's one of my worst fears that has me waking up at night in tears.

[@nodontwantchannel4359]

The lurker shark from jak and daxter it still haunts me even in water in other games i swear the sound plays in my head

[@MAHASINO7]

As someone who has been playing video games my whole life, it really makes me sad that nowadays I am stressed by certain aspects in them. Thanks Dave for letting me know I am not the only one

[@Zorum06]

Despite having a pretty intense phobia of ants I recently went through that disgusting ant nest in Deeproot Depths on Elden Ring. I took a video of it that you can see on my channel but it's quite pathetic. I couldn't manage to get very close, and I moved at a snail's pace. I was petrified at the thought that they might burrow out of the ground or sneak up on me. I wanted to ride quickly through with my horse, but I couldn't bare giving up visibility from a torch. From the first day I got the game I was constantly looking on the internet on where they were so I could avoid them. I'm just glad it's over now.

[@strwrz1]

Original Resident Evil 2. The moment you enter the first long hallway after entering the waiting room on the first floor. The fixed camera outside the window and the sound of dripping blood kept me rooted in the entrance for a good minute and a half.

[@Chishannicon]

I have the exact same fear as Ash about big, manmade things underwater. The only time I ever faced this particular fear in a video game was when I played Need for Speed 3: Hot Pursuit on PS1, and there was a level called Aquatica, where you can drive through an underwater tunnel that had glass windows, and you could see a submarine down there. It was my favorite level to play, because it unsettled me...

[@marhawkman303]

hmmmm racing game levels that made me uneasy? The volcano level in Hydro Thunder. You're in a BOAT.... and very uncomfortably close to... LAVA. There's even a hidden powerup inside a lava plume that logically should destroy your boat.

[@Maigeru]

That's a fantastic game!

[@leoguy2227]

I'm currently facing my fears as we speak !!! It's been 3-days , 4 hours , 26 minutes and 15 seconds since I've turned my PlayStation on !!! GF bet me I couldn't go a week without gaming !! I'll show her !!! 🙈🙉🙊

[@DANE89]

Show her how it's done 👍

[@medusathedecepticon]

you got this dude! 🎉

[@leoguy2227]

@@medusathedecepticon Im getting cold sweats . . . but I'll make it 🤪

[@Rubbish12]

Why is everyone being so positive? 😂 Just take the L and get back to those sweet, sweet games. 😬

[@leoguy2227]

@@Rubbish12 I'm a Leo ♌ we have pride , we don't back down !! 🦁🦁🦁

[@chrisvillan88]

This video is why I love PS access so much, some of these stories we've heard before from the team, but I'll happily sit here (or stand as I'm currently cooking whilst listening to this) and listen to these stories again purely due to their passion for games and their fun and humorous personalities. Keep up the excellent work 👏 😀

[@jotheunissen9274]

You know what haunted me when I was a kid? That giant eel in Super Mario 64

[@Clow00]

21:55 i love Ash's laugh xD

[@dadofboys4956]

Always love it when "39.14" gets wheeled out!

[@darylquevada]

I played Subnautica and Below Zero as well because I’m not fond of deep waters. It was the safe way of experiencing underwater exploration in my mind. Video games are great!

[@MsArmitage]

I have the irrational fear of the deep blue sea or dark water. but my thing in video games was the guy forcing you to get baptised in bioshock infinite. Actually made me cry. I just couldn't bring myself to do it at first.

[@Hexentric8]

Marguerite and her horrid yeast infection freaked me out too 👀 best part of Resi 7 tbh

[@LiveDragon1]

My first scared to face video game moment was Professor Snape in the library, PC Harry Potter game. I was terrified or him finding me with the light... I still think about it till this day even though I never had any problems getting through it.

[@shadowgandalf]

My fave game of all time, Outer Wilds, but those bloody anglerfish in the Dark Bramble terrify the life outta me. Every time I go in there I’m so scared of making a wrong move. And if I do, and I hear that growl, and see that huge mouth moving towards me, it’s no overstatement to say I just go into blind panic mode. Likelihood of finding your way out through the thick fog while panicking is very low. I love Outer Wilds so much, more than I can say, but Dark Bramble is just…. anxiety inducing.

[@generalyousif3640]

I remember playing Bloodborne at 4:00 am and I got kidnapped to “ THAT PLACE” outta of nowhere, it traumatized me that night

[@claratalbot7613]

As someone who has earned the Bloodborne platinum solo u absolutely earned that platium Rob. U & ur friends worked together as a team & crushed those beasties that haunted the town of Yharnam, the castle of Cainhurst, & the nightmares of the past

[@zazoreal5536]

Love Subnautica and finished it on hardcore! Warpers gave me ptsd for a whole week. Then I came back and finished it. The key is the prawn suit.

[@farmpunk_dan]

I’d love more subnautica streaming from PlayStation access!!! I’m playing the game for the first time now and it’s a battle to make myself go deeper and explore more. I’m petrified of losing my progress and having to rebuild anything. 😭

[@paullatham8486]

One of my favourite games... would love to see access do a let's play

[@geckoreformed6411]

This was a really fun episode. As for my fears, oceans a big no no, not using items because I may need them later (that one’s annoying) & worst of all knowing there’s something watching me but I can’t see it. 😵‍💫

[@mykristyr]

Some of my favorite Bloodborne memories are actually watching Rob overcome his inner resistance to Bloodborne.

[@_ilovedogs_9177]

I'm afraid of the ocean, and in games sometimes you just have to go through it, I still completely freak out, cause new games are only getting more n more realistic, ("Look at the water graphics!") so yeah... Ash is brave, and I'm not, cause id never do what she did in real life.

[@blainelodder3816]

When Rob said that Crazy witch's name... I knew exactly how he felt🤣🤣🤣

[@matiaspaaskynen2339]

Honorable mention: when you went outside

[@perpedersen1982]

VOD squad Thank you for sharing your personal fears, you are all brave, wonderful people. Thank you all for years for great fun.

[@RowanNight]

My sudden fear was the bunker in the first uncharted, id played all day having a whale of a time, and its about 11pm, pretty secure in the thought id probably beat it in another hour or 2, and then the bunker lvl starts, and suddenly this happy go lucky adventure became a horror game i wasnt ready for, it played right into my fear of the dark, i turned the game off and spent the next couple days convincing myself to go back, so i eventually one early morning, with the curtains open fully illuminated, played the lvl, and oh boy was it panic filled, but i beat it and i was glad i had as its still one of the best experiences i had with gaming back in the day.

[@NylonBrony]

Dave. I also agreed. Choice. Although I do love it sometimes it overwhelms me.

[@Berry_Best]

Fighting teleporting spider grudge lady in the evil within is the scariest thing i have ever experienced

[@stuartpenzer773]

love horror games play em without fear, but I am terrified of the ocean and literally any underwater bit in a game terrifies me, I had to pause rayman origins cus I was getting too tense

[@Hexentric8]

Don't ever play SOMA

[@stuartpenzer773]

​@@Hexentric8 I did play it, weirdly it didn't bother me too much, I wonder if there's something about it

[@bajingo12]

Agreed on Subnautica, it's an amazing game just absolutely terrifying the deeper you go

[@mnemophage]

I'm very lucky in that my major phobias - heights and crowds - are hard to depict in a video game in the precise way that gets me. With heights, it's the fear that one misstep equals like two minutes of terror before the splat; with crowds, it's that they could turn on me at any moment. But I have a minor fear of disease, and Subnatica gets that good. it's that it's invisible, all these little microorganisms rootling through your body. Parasites, too, but video game parasites are often too big to trigger the fear - it's less the mega-parasite on my back as it is the mini-parasite in my small intestine. Limbo and Inside got the parasite grossness well, but even then were slightly too big. The first game that figures out the "you have to move through a crowd, and it's peaceful, but if you do one thing wrong they'll all turn on you" thing will get the honorary Turn The Game Off And Sit There In Thoughtful Silence award.

[@doomtrain5]

Jeez Ash, I got a knot in my stomach just from the description. I'd be sitting with the penguins too!

[@Lord_Angelzard]

I faced my fears with Resident Evil Village, normally I don't like to play horror games (yes I know this is not the scariest game) but I'm very jumpy. So I was screaming and jumping the whole game but I faced my fears by not only finishing the game but also getting the platinum, I even dreamed with the corridors of the time attack portion.

[@lucysobey96]

Ash!!!!! I went cage diving and instead of ships materialising out of nothing it was great whites, it’s completely unbelievable how obscured objects are in the sea 😩 I also had a panic attack underwater too, but it was because I had a weight vest holding me down 😅😆

[@TheRSChippe]

Got stuck on Djura also, but i have beaten the moon presence now ☺️

[@sammywhatammy]

I had a primal fear of dragon Maleficent from Disney's Sleeping Beauty when I was VERY very small. like, 2 or 3. I forgot about this fear until 2002, when Kingdom Hearts came out 6 days after I turned 15. not only did I have to face dragon Maleficent, but I REALLY struggled with her for some reason. I fought her over and over and over and just couldn't beat her, which added to the fear, because she seemed insurmountable. I felt free of the cutscene I had to watch repeatedly AND my fear when I finally beat her after I-don't-know-how-many tries.

[@shixter]

I went down the Magnetic Island rabbit hole and learned about it as the rest of the video played on....

[@pelman5483]

I didn't have a fear of objects in the sea but i do now, thanks Ash

[@mapalozimba2107]

I relate to rob on the Bloodborne thing. I just defeated the shadows of yarnham and haven't played the game in like a month

[@RHaines76Gaming]

My fear was big daddy from Bioshock. I put the controller down for years. They just spooked me. I finally beat one this year in 2022. I'm 45 lol.

[@otterpoet]

The fact I finished _Silent Hill 2_ is through pure willpower... and nearly didn't happen. There's a sequence in the hospital where you hear the most ungodly-bunny-being-skinned cry rising from a darkened stairwell. I was, 'Yep. That's it, I'm out." Took me two weeks before I went back and finished the game (worth every agonizing moment too).

[@MrInsightful]

Saw the title of this video and immediately thought "mine was definitely Subnautica" - glad I'm not the only one! On a related note, I'm sure Ash enjoyed/would enjoy playing Bioshock! Nothing to fear there! Honest!

[@lavieedenel]

I really wants to work on playstation access someday, but maybe its difficult since I am in asia, Indonesia, but its really fun to see you all playing together, being competitive, having fun, I really envy you guys, I've been putting my video on youtube and stream on twitch with only 1 viewer almost all the time, really lonely most of the time, but I wish someday I can me friends just like playstation access crew :(, playing alone is not fun sometime, so Rob, Rossie, dave, ash, if you need more personnel I will be happy to join your team in ps access, working in ps access is my dream

[@Hades-je6iq]

I have the fear of heights so when I first played uncharted series I gave me anxiety but I finished it lol

[@SLTX757]

Rob I was also stuck on Tower Knight for 6+ months. You should try another area like 2-1 and level up a little bit before Tower Knight. As far as bosses go he is one of the harder ones in the game, and a lot of the first levels in each world are much easier. Also, when you do fight him take out the archers first but you probably already do that. You should definitely stick with it though, I think Demon’s Souls is still the best looking and smoothest PS5 game out.

[@Just_Javier]

Watching Rob trying to platinum Bloodborne inspired me to get it myself. Thank you so much for that Rob

[@gilgalad6231]

So good to see Oblivion. Best Elder Scrolls game. Probably best game ever. To me at least.

[@gwts1171]

Rosie isn't in this list because there is no room for fear in Caddick Land.

[@DruGunnersVR]

You can't beat playing a horror game alone in the dark, it's the best... I'm a jump scare junkie, more jump than scare 😆

[@Howl4514]

Me reading the title: "let me face, let me face, let me face my fears~"

[@Alexthelion93]

Dave should listen to Iron Maiden's Fear of the Dark some more. 👌

[@intrepidis1]

@PlayStationAccess Can you stop putting out so much great content. I'm getting addicted to watching you guys. But also, please don't stop. ❤

[@shakybeevessouls]

Resi 7 was a horror gaming masterpiece, the devolution from that to Village is bizarre to me 🤔 Edit: the exception being the baby bit in Village, skin crawling, shudder panic 😱😅

[@ecidnac1988]

Rob you really are too hard on yourself. I tried playing bloodborne and have four trophies for defeating bosses. For EVERY SINGLE ONE I pretty much stood by and watched. At this point I feel that I am one of the worst hunters that Yharnam has ever seen. You sir, are the master of the Visceral. That platinum is well deserved and don't let anyone tell you otherwise 🏆🎉👏

[@MelodicQuest]

🎶Let me face Let me face Let me face my fears🎶

[@Grey_Warden_Invasion]

My two biggest fears are heights and huge objects. And then I've played How We Soar on the PS VR. Can you see the problem here? XD Well, the first few stages actually were quite okay. My fascination was bigger than my fear. But then there was this one stage where the author was basically spiralling into depression and the whole world looked chaotic and destroyed and there were so many loud sounds. I really struggled to finish this level because there were so many times I felt like I was close to a panic attack and then I was mostly flying around blindly because I kept my head down and my eyes glued to my phoenix's back. It was nice to play once. But I definitely wouldn't want to play it again.

[@SantoAtheos]

Dave, you should check out Flow by Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi as it sounds like your anxiety over losing might be the motivation pushing you to Flow and perform better.

[@shmookins]

The first with Rob and RE7 is the same place I had to stop playing as well. I even measured my heartbeat with my phone and the phone showed it in read and said 'very high'. It was scary and stressful enough that I couldn't continue the game. >_>'

[@Jamie-ws2jm]

I would love to see you guys take on Nath in returnal ascension

[@Jonathon_Hennessey]

I still find the xenomorph from Alien Isolation terrifying after all this time the team's at creative assembly did a really good job making the creature something that you should legitimately be afraid of.

[@captainvalencia]

Agree! The Xenomorph sets away something primal inside and that game really captured it well. I was shaking at times playing it. Christ! Why did I put myself through it!?

[@landismithCOJ]

I agree with Rob about Djura. He's unrelenting with that mini gun.

[@xepfeon]

I have fear of failure in regards to some video games. In Bloodborne the cleric beast drenched me in sweat for 3 years, until i listened to Brian Altano and grinded a few levels and found a few shortcuts and after a heated battle with anxiety and cold sweat i finally beat him. After that i took on father Gasgoine and the Bloodstaved Beast and beat them both. I hit the wall with Vicar Amelia and Darkbeast Paarl and didn't get any further And i never finished Outlast and Resident Evil 7 out of shear pulse-pounded, coldsweated fear

[@Tupapcu]

I find funny that Skyrim spiders creep me the hell out. but EDF spiders, mobs designed after the real thing im fine with.

[@tylerdavis246]

Easy for me. I was once afraid of difficult games. I just wouldn't play them. Then I found Hollow Knight. I went through without much struggle until I met the Soul Master in the Soul Sanctum. Soul MAster is so difficult for me, and I stopped playing the game for a while. Once I finally beat it, I realized I could play difficult games. That I could love difficult games. Thank you Soul Master.

[@marhawkman303]

yeah, games that needed twitch block reflex timing scared me... until I realized that the Zelda games do that too. ahahahahaha

[@dalitsotembo8434]

subnautica is so scary I've played it for 40 hours. And apart from the safe shallows I've only visited Grassy Plateaus, Kelp forests and mushroom forests. I don't think I'll ever finish this game.

[@jackandjeffhardy5765]

yeah i can relate to Dave

[@jembozaba4864]

Should go to Rotto Ash. Lots of Shipwrecks there and the clearest water you will ever see.

[@jnlewis114]

Gahhhh I absolutely relate to Ash's fear. I still can't finish Subnautica.

[@williambarbosa5511]

In my case, I'll talk about some Games that make you FEEL THE HIGHTS. I don't know if any other players can feel that like me but I keep feeling that fear about the possibility of my character fell. Like that time on the Tomb Raider when you have to reach the radio console up there. It's very weird but I can feel the falling of the character if that happens hahahaha and that scares me a lot. But this do not happen in every game, because there are some games that make this scary in a way that I can't explain. It's like a cold feeling passing through my Body. But we keep playing anyway hahahahaha

[@n-kap4064]

Like a weird insect, Ash's defence mechanism is to be sick on her attackers.

[@66Xeno]

Ash: Let's do a video about all of the times we conquered our fears. Rosie: Oh, I just remembered I'll be gone for this week.

[@johncameron4194]

Great stories everyone Oh Ash 😆

[@JG-ce3pu]

I have one. Any Skyrim dungeon that had spiders on it.

[@JayNotion]

Visage really scared the skin off me. To the point I wanted to stop streaming it and move on, but my subscribers convinced me to keep going. 2 weeks later we got the true ending and the rolling credits 😁😎

[@gabrielle_reid]

I never realized Chidi Anagonye was based solely off of Dave

[@yaadavsonatun220]

I was getting massive Chidi vibes when listening to Dave

[@ZoelTheWolf]

I know this video is a few months old now. But im watching and I know exactly what Dave means ! Im the Exact same way XD and Im pretty competitive when it comes to gaming now a days

[@kcwonder99]

I think Dave is the best behaved for competition on the channel!

[@itsdeonlol]

Rob had to be strong if he had to face her in VR!!!

[@shadowlinkbds]

Well this is a perfect topic for Dave. 😉

[@kefred5]

I haven't watched yet, but is this a dave only Tuesday on a Wednesday

[@ahmetkurum4114]

I'm pretty sure Deepnest in Hollow Knight gave me PTSD.

[@thomasjackson1738]

It took me a sec to realize that Ash was talking about buoys (boo-ees) and not boys.

[@cataorshane]

Skyrim. I've never faced worse spiders than in Skyrim. My arachnophobia is very severe.

[@arturotorres5663]

Oh Ash i have Arachnophobia too!!

[@luiscossio296]

Losing a save file, or missing out on some missable content.

[@IMeanMachine101]

Get in the onesie!

[@Super_Martio]

So basically, Dave is Chidi Anagonye from The Good Place!

[@jackturner5803]

Resident Evil 7 Is a pretty grotesque game haha, great in VR.