8 Signs of Major Depressive Disorder

[@Psych2go]

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[@fart6268]

Pee

[@alinima1892]

stay safe ok?

[@Yuhhhh89]

Um I have all the worst part is I can't go to the doctor because of cOrOnAvIrUs...

[@Psych2go]

mhm!

[@tedxbundy91]

Oh i thought u were gonna say no uploads for a while cause someone got corona...stay safe guys

[@chloe-qr9zp]

depression is like "I don't wanna kill myself, I just wanna stay in a corner, I'm not gonna drink anything, I'm not gonna eat anything, I'm not gonna talk to anybody, I'm just gonna lay down until I die" and I felt that, it's been a long time but I still have bad moments

[@yasmin2850]

thats how i feel too, its like "i dont wanna feel the pain of death but i think i deserve" or even "maybe its gonna be better for everyone" hope u feel better by the wayy

[@TatiHatz]

Are you a Linkin Park fan?

[@chloe-qr9zp]

@@TatiHatz yes I am and I took this from Chester's interview, but it's so true

[@TatiHatz]

@@chloe-qr9zp I know Ive seen this one , and it breaks my heart , but it's also extremely relatable , stay safe mate , I'm going through this too , and it's hard , but I will make it , I know it , and I want you too okay . I'm listening to She Couldn't right now😁

[@chloe-qr9zp]

@@TatiHatz i love that song too

[@german_pretzel3195]

"Depression is like living in a body that wants to live but with a mind that tries to die" - Anonymous

[@Khunark]

that's a shitty quote

[@german_pretzel3195]

@@Khunark but its true

[@lj1847]

True

[@katie5998]

If you’re brain wanna die, then all of you wanna die. People who suffer from serious suicidal thoughts (I say serious because everyone has thoughts of death, but not everyone fixated on it) often times are extremely depressed, unmotivated, and feeling like they’re not worth it. Depression has even shown to cause physical phantom pains.

[@leticiacarrasco5719]

When your trans that goes to hundred

[@ponzopa]

It’s always: “The person has lost interest in things they used to enjoy” But what if i enjoy nothing anymore and can’t even remember anything that made me actually happy?

[@lunarrose8832]

Well, that's usually what happens. Depression is pretty different for others. Seeing as people go through different things and stuff. Maybe try different actives every once and a while and if they aren't enjoyable then that's fine.

[@Collin212]

Same. I cant remember what made me happy, but I remember being happy

[@leuco2048]

I instead find it really hard to think how it felt how to be happy, but sometimes i make dreams where i feel actually HAPPY for some reason, but then i realise it was a dream and i start to feel even worse

[@Sapphiremoonskulls]

Same. I dont remember any activities that made me happy in the first place

[@Plushiecandie]

What if I want to enjoy things but can't bcuz its all meaningless so it doesnt matter if i care or not

[@umaa8099]

can we just appreciate that we’re getting all this for free?

[@thewormloop6885]

Right? ❤️

[@pbufh]

Why would this cost money?

[@thewormloop6885]

@@pbufh Because more often than not, this kind of stuff that will help people understand a little bit more about themselves and about others who struggle with depression, costs money (therapy, self help books, etc.). Of course, this is not something that cures depression or can used instead of therapy, but helps a lot, just like many other things on the internet that are out there for free.

[@pbufh]

@@thewormloop6885 right. That's why they collect ad revenue.

[@christiebiscuts2340]

Agree

[@aljolinefaye]

8 Signs of MDD: 1. Persistent depressed mood 2. Inability to feel pleasure 3. Weight gain or loss 4. Insomnia or Hypersomnia 5. Over fatigue with loss of energy 6. Feelings of worthlessness and guilt 7. Difficulty in thinking and concentrating 8. Recurrent suicidal ideation

[@NAMINE0306]

😐

[@carolinacoreas7716]

@Jack Smith he's a greedy person. If you don't have money to attend his church, he won't let you in.

[@pinkchihuahua8604]

@Hamster pile I have most and it's still going and for me it's been almost a week and haven't stopped

[@kryuza3191]

Holy shit.. I'm starting to think I have this kind of depression

[@michalovesanime]

Checked off all of them

[@seanharris8419]

It’s not that I necessarily wish I was dead, it’s just that I wish I could have peace of mind and find real, genuine happiness in the small things again.

[@karlhungis77]

I just wish the suffering would stop. Sometimes that looks like imagining if I just didn't wake up in the morning.

[@kellihunt3271]

And I don't have a clue where to begin. Step 1? Get outta bed. Ok now what? I don't even remember what I like or am good at. I Kno what ppl have told me but I don't know who I am or what I believe in anymore. Anhedonia set deep inside years ago. I think i use to like so many of the little things that spiraled into me overthinking I made myself disappear to voice I'm just as important as everyone else

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[@ItsAstie]

Yes, we often think that we are better off dead because we think it's the only solution... in reality it often is the only solution, but alot of times it also is not, there is always hope and there is always things that tend to change, what we really want is not to die, but to stop suffering, that's all we want.

[@rosemaryclarke2348]

Same here, start small say thoroughly cleaning something because you cherish it and seeing what you feel while doing it, that's what I do and it seems to be working.🥰

[@tellestina4533]

I feel horrible for these people going through even MORE rough times as well as the outbreak. I hope everyone keeps safe and is doing well, keep safe and wash your hands! I hope you all are well. :)

[@hawkeye5029]

At least someone has hope for a better tomorrow. Idk how long I'll be here anymore

[@iamtrying2690]

No. I cant. I cant get better. I am dying... no one knows.

[@tellestina4533]

I am trying I hope I could help you, but I don’t know how to. All I can do is wish. I wish you get better and take care.

[@tellestina4533]

HawkEye I’ve always have a hope for tomorrow, because I love life and this is too much. The outbreak, deaths, it’s just harsh. But, I wish for better times.

[@tellestina4533]

søftcandy_ you’re welcome. The things we can do is spread more positivity during this outbreak, and many more. Hope you are doing well and keeping safe. I wish you well.

[@TheLouisvilleCardfan]

The loss of interests is when I realized something was seriously wrong. My favorite music, my Xbox, watching tv, talking to my family and friends, none of it brought me joy. I would literally go to work and then come home and just feel miserable and agitated. Some days I’ll just come home and sit in the shower for like an hour. It’s not healthy

[@TheSapphireLeo]

Same. Minus the work part, unless you count daily online requirements on games as work?

[@suga-ssi6748]

Same i cant feel joy anymore its just started this week but last week im still doing fine, I cant enjoy my fav music anymore or games and anime my sleeping schedule is also fucked up Im only 18 yrs old its like im numb I don't know how to recover pls help.

[@a.tartist]

F@ck, you're sooo cute

[@water3252]

Me: *has* *already* *been* *diagnosed* Also me: “let’s just make sure...”

[@geral096]

Me too

[@Makizni]

How did u get diagnosed?

[@abbeyawesome1012]

My doctor diganoised me with PTSD and major depressive disorder and it was server enough I needed a service dog

[@Makizni]

@@abbeyawesome1012 they make you take a survey on papers to get diagnosed?

[@filipemartins1850]

Jesus loves you, in 1 John 4:7 it says; Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. Also in 1 John 4:8 it says; whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. Also in the Gospel of John 3:16 it says; for God loved the world so much that He gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him shall not perish but shall have eternal life. Jesus loves you❤️. Have a blessed day.

[@blucosi]

"do you see yourself in any of these signs?" These signs are everything I am

[@NenaLavonne]

A Salazar ♥️🙏

[@ChadJCooper]

Clicking this video means you are wanting to understand it, it is also a step towards improvement. It means you wanting to understand and improve your depression. Which is an important and significant step 💔

[@NienNienNien]

I am more related to number 7 of this list and 3 and 4

[@2011kittens]

Lol, I was thinking "this is just my personality". Things were said in a way that made it sound like a recent event happening or something , but I used to think it was normal

[@Inf_niteGalaxy]

I thought it was normal for me to be feeling these things but thanks to this video I starting to freak out cause i showed all the symptoms...

[@Yiching-qs3dh]

Happiness is like water. You mind is like a cup. The normal cup is full. The depressed cup is broken.

[@professionaldumbo5609]

Well more like it has a leak

[@professionaldumbo5609]

You slowly lose the water over time

[@belieall9974]

even if you’re “normal” you can’t always be happy. if you are then that’s a cause for concern lol. i mean it’s life, life is not life without troubles and misery

[@simnatercroc4385]

yeah more like your thought is being heard out loud

[@pollythehomeless3400]

@@belieall9974 if u think like that then u don't believe depression is an illness like others. There are illness that cannot be cured. There are medicines that help the pain or prolong your life, but cannot cure the illness itself. U are really lucky to be in good health. Better not to understand depression that have it

[@lorastrange6518]

me: diagnosed with this also me while watching this: heyyy i do that

[@dayanhajjmoussa1797]

Pahshahaj me

[@filipemartins1850]

Jesus loves you, in 1 John 4:7 it says; Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. Also in 1 John 4:8 it says; whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. Also in the Gospel of John 3:16 it says; for God loved the world so much that He gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him shall not perish but shall have eternal life. Jesus loves you❤️. Have a blessed day.

[@chrysigabriel543]

😂Me

[@PeeperSnail]

jhskjhfkjs me omg xD

[@vrtjఌ]

Me LMAOO

[@Lily-il8ee]

“I’m just lazy.”

[@liamjohnston8923]

I get this from my fucking partner..like i'm not trying or anything. Fuck him.

[@alegria1813]

"I'm just overdramatic, I'm fine."

[@ImperfectLioness]

Yeah, I get that from my brother sometimes, and most people who don't understand the work I do (I am an in-home caregiver) call me lazy because I cannot do certain things unless it is in my client's care plan. So, when I am having a particularly difficult time, being told I am lazy or inference that I am lazy by someone else makes me very angry. I think I have practically bitten a hole through my tongue lately.

[@hahaha7886]

Ya it sucks bc I always feel lazy and like I should be doing more and I’m just useless, but I’m always so exhausted and even talking to someone takes my energy, so then I feel even more like a piece of shit.

[@filipemartins1850]

Jesus loves you, in 1 John 4:7 it says; Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. Also in 1 John 4:8 it says; whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. Also in the Gospel of John 3:16 it says; for God loved the world so much that He gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him shall not perish but shall have eternal life. Jesus loves you❤️. Have a blessed day.

[@hiworld8658]

Teen: has depression School: would you like to go into debt, have extreme stress, and then take a test that could ruin your life?

[@arnie5224]

YEAH SCHOOL FEELS REALLY GREAT WHENS ITS BURNING

[@professionaldumbo5609]

The best school days are snow days

[@bufficliff8978]

Yeah, don't do it. Apprentice in the career you want or go to a trade school. College is a scam for 95% of degrees

[@aina_adelard]

@@arnie5224 hahhahhaha, i remember tht my friend say when we're at school after lockdown. He say he wnt to burn the school when the lockdown strt again. He also mentioned exam paper was the first thing tht he will burn it

[@andreajudithd6876]

Ikr !! School system is pretty bad... we must do something to change that :c

[@NenaLavonne]

Sending out massive support to those who deal with this disorder. So many people completely misunderstand it, or are unsympathetic to how difficult it can be. Know that you matter and that there are people out there who do understand. You aren’t broken. ♥️

[@Vicky-fi3yr]

Nena Lavonne thank you, truly.

[@Daffodiliousable]

thank you ♡♡♡

[@aurieamoore5823]

Thank you 😢😊

[@NenaLavonne]

pluto ♥️🙏

[@NenaLavonne]

d b you certainly do matter. So much!!!

[@althemeanie6285]

I really enjoyed this video. I suffer from mdd. I was diagnosed when I was in a mental hospital for a suicide attempt. I'm glad that people are actually talking about this type of depression. I mostly see just normal depression being talked about. Thank you guys ^^

[@terrellmoore728]

Lil Potato I have symptoms as well I need to be healed I been like this for also a year tryna find my identity the real way too go is the lord it’s a spiritual war every time I need too break threw I just fall and coward away it’s from past hurt as a kid love brother

[@skull-x9702]

Good to know that u are with us

[@averosia]

“Normal” LMFAO

[@althemeanie6285]

@@averosia Sorry, I'm not very good at describing things lmao. If I offended you I really am sorry. I'm not very good with my words.

[@averosia]

Lil Potato nah I’m not offended, I just found it ironic is all

[@justanotherchannelhi5326]

I wanna open up but judgement is a thing.

[@locus831]

Those who judge do not belong in your life those aren't the real ones. Your real ones are waiting for you you'll find them in no time. Judging someone thinking they work in a law court is the worst thing one human can do. Also Pls. Don't feel alone YOU ARE NOT. I want you to hold onto hope for a little while only for a littel while trust me.❤️💐

[@sourcorpse7897]

Bro sameee.

[@stardust942]

I open up to a few and iregret it later. Some used it against me on my worst times. Now i am bottling up everythings inside me.

[@justanotherchannelhi5326]

@@stardust942 me too

[@Frogz12920]

I just made it through another depressive episode. I didn’t know if I was going to survive this one. It genuinely took me writing a letter to myself begging me to keep fighting. Not just for my family and friends, but for myself. Because just living for others is no life at all. I almost didn’t make it through this one guys... hang in there everyone.

[@linahaliti2914]

How are u now ? Are u okay ? I hope u are

[@natalijaslaidina7028]

Sending love to the deepest depths of your heart 🙏🏻

[@naew5664]

You can do it.. You will become better

[@saturnlights5239]

@@linahaliti2914he’s okay! She just added a video in her playlist that was 2 month ago

[@MsBerries25]

❤❤❤❤❤

[@macekay6191]

Depression is like living on a tape. Everythings black and white and everyday is the same. And when one of us says that wed be better off gone, its because the lies and pains of life make death seem like the lesser of the two. We are just looking for a place so we can have peace.

[@lucerix6033]

i feel like im a game character and someone is playing as me sometimes. like im not in control. :/

[@bellenight6123]

@Christina Scully i want to live..but I'm depressed, wich makes me.. Empty

[@kellihunt3271]

Ahedonia ? More like deathgrip

[@Naturegirl1976]

I'm a autistic adult who doesnt have any real friends my age that after I was kicked out of my now exfriend Joe's house for doing. Nothing wrong I have to now live with my folks again. I've never been allowed to grief the way I needed to when I was a kid so. Now whenever I feel like crying i cant allow myself to. My beloved bird sike died last valentine's day after a short illness and ever since then I've been withdrawing from family. I also suffer from severe bouts of depression and severe untreated chronic pain that's 24/7 365 days a year with no end. I just want to give up and die sometimes. I've given up on going to shrinks a d talk therapy because it's never worked for me. Btw before anyone replies to me, dont bother praying for me god doesn't exist anyways. And even if he did he couldn't care less

[@whipchick90]

I woke up depressed one day when I was 17. I'm 55 now, and it has never gotten better with any treatment although I am on an antidepressant. I've always had 7 or all 8 of these traits, as well.

[@jilliancore7166]

Thanks for giving us hope

[@manlogs8760]

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[@Dumb._.blond.e]

Man logs I-

[@bluray1194]

I m now 20 .I m depressed.I would like to talk to you.Can I get your Facebook or insta I'd to contact you?

[@ellabrookes341]

@@manlogs8760 You seem to have read the room wrong here. I'm sure you mean well but telling someone to put on relaxing music to forget the worry is totally missing the point. Depression isn't being worried about something, if it was as simple as that the solution would be relatively straightforward. I'm sure this chanel has videos that will help you to try to understand how it feels. If you find your struggling to get a sense of it please don't post comments like the one you have here again. It's very frustrating to have symptoms misunderstood and categorised as " worry"

[@sssillystuff]

I have pulled way too many all-nighters thinking about my life choices and just trying

[@char1746]

But you dont feel tired

[@hexhollows]

Yeah ok gachatard, go back to tracing your shitty jpegs

[@ericsslimjim8036]

@@hexhollows LMAOOOOO 💀🤣 IM ROLLING

[@hexhollows]

@@ericsslimjim8036 I can't tell if this is serious or not.

[@ericsslimjim8036]

@@hexhollows I'm being serious gachatubers are cringy af 9yr olds

[@kitsunemeansfox2840]

Had MDD 5 months ago, I didn't feel anything, everything looked gray and dead, and everything seemed blurry. I can't even talk for some reason, mostly cause I don't want to say anything, I didn't know what I wanted, I even forgot most of my vocabulary for some reason. I didn't even feel alive anymore, just an empty shell without anything to say.

[@mizzstizzie]

How are you feeling now?

[@chloe-qr9zp]

same here, I couldn't even talk well, I couldn't think and a feeling of literally nothing, not sadness, not happiness, nothing, the purest meaning of nothing, you could've feel how every second is passing by, it's like drawing but very slowly, so much that you get crazy

[@rhyderhopkins9611]

All I see is Death and regret and hopeless.

[@justmevsg1681]

@derpy - what about now? Cuz you said you had it...

[@aelinavean1375]

Did you have no emotions?

[@loisdahl3847]

Wish “speaking with a health professional” was always effective. It’s an unfortunate fact that a great many “health professionals” - psychiatrists, psychologists, and other so-called qualified mental health professionals REALLY SUCK! Are rude, condescending, and downright incompetent.

[@BlueVO22]

That’s why I stopped going

[@foodisdelicious9727]

Ikr. I had a counsellor and she be like. Your ok, it's all ok, u safe hear from any thing that could hurt you. You should sleep. Your just growing up it be like that sometimes I've never had depression so I know you will be ok. It's awesome in this world. It's like, lady what the heck, I'm not safe from my head, I can't possibly sleep or eat, growing up may suck but it shouldn't feel like I'm annabeth chase falling into tartarus, how you know I'll be ok. This world litteraly SUCKS. I was 8 and am now 12.

[@mereSwamp]

Oh I didn't know this was actually a thing.. I thought I just sucked at picking therapists.

[@serious_in_seattle6917]

I agree. Most of the professionals I’ve seen over the years were terrible. They seemed not fully competent. The one I saw in high school was an outright fraud. I would listen to him talk the entire time about his college friends and other things. As a kid I was nervous to report it to my parents or others. Others I saw just didn’t seem to care or try to lead me towards recovery. We would talk in circles and I needed actionable feedback that I could work on. But I’ve had a couple who were pretty good. They were younger and committed to trying to lead me towards recovery by exploring things that had previously provided relief or escape from the depression. I wish that I could see them again.

[@quemeese]

YES!!

[@etherealdreamerart]

Suffer from depression daily. It is a battle everyday to live for something. Everyday I question my purpose in this life and if life is ever worth living for. My art is the only thing I live for because expressing myself through art, I can escape to the realm of fantasy.

[@ashleyheller1537]

I am sorry. I believe you will get better. It's so cool to draw or paint! I have always admired that talent. 😊

[@etherealdreamerart]

@@ashleyheller1537 Thank you. Hope you are having a great day as well.

[@ashinlava1705]

Same here

[@apegrasshoplizard]

I have a dog, a six year old female boxer. When you have a dog, life becomes easier.

[@etherealdreamerart]

@@apegrasshoplizard True. Animals are loyal and unconditional love.

[@andreav318]

Anhedonia is probably the worst symptom for me. The weight gain, lethargy and hypersomnia sucks but isn’t nearly as bad.

[@freedomrider1014]

I’m the same way. Can’t figure out how to enjoy the things I used to. I used to have hobbies and things I loved but now it’s like I do not have the energy.

[@andreav318]

Steve Sams try focusing on one of your hobbies. Don’t feel bad about the rest.

[@geral096]

I think loosing hope is the worse.

[@minstac1530]

Yup

[@dakotagoldenriver4149]

Well at least you're getting thicc, Thicc and tired of these symptoms and being unhappy the time has come to change! Rise above I'm rooting for everyone🌟

[@minionlover925]

i don’t want to self diagnose,but i relate to all of these things

[@johnmarston6706]

Same

[@coconib212]

same tho- i really dont even want to bother getting a diagnosis even if i think i need one

[@welcometomylife5447]

Same

[@isabellagraces5165]

I’ve been diagnosed with major depressive disorder with psychotic features- Still trying to get through it- I wish anyone suffering with this too great luck

[@mizzstizzie]

🙏🏽❤

[@addiebajaddie]

The video: If you’re experiencing these symptoms, speak with a medical professional. Covid-19: I’m gonna stop you right there

[@rion7088]

Fuck Corona

[@traciolson5430]

Money issues: hey I'm gonna stop you right there

[@vamp1r37]

I haven't been able to talk to my pshycologist for months now, andddd I ammmmm dyinggggggggggg

[@zzzzmary]

Yep I can only start going to therapy after corona is what my mum said 🙄😪

[@pink_tophat1439]

The story of my life right there

[@eszelcruzado1616]

I'm diagnosed with MDD last January. Been fighting this battle ever since I was a child. Thanks for my friends who gave me the courage to have checked.

[@samara3312]

Is anyone else like "I experience all these things but at the same time like I dont know wht the heck is going on..I'm just confused with my whole life and well being..and I dnt know if I really am or if I'm just thinking to much"🤧

[@grav0n15]

I relate on a different level

[@ellakouki4166]

Yup

[@shadinashraf5239]

Fr

[@infinitely.]

Depression aint cute It ruins relationships of kinds My engagement is struggling due to it. I struggle with keeping a job. If i died tomorrow it would be a relief.

[@elisafois1962]

I hope you’re doing okay..

[@meiliai2437]

Pray you’re ok!!

[@filipemartins1850]

Jesus loves you, in 1 John 4:7 it says; Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. Also in 1 John 4:8 it says; whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. Also in the Gospel of John 3:16 it says; for God loved the world so much that He gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him shall not perish but shall have eternal life. Jesus loves you❤️. Have a blessed day.

[@parkercraven9554]

@@filipemartins1850 dis sum bullshit, dont @ me i dont care what you say

[@shantivdb50]

Are you still here

[@LisaS1]

A person can get so depressed they can't even get themselves to look for a therapist.

[@opalbeauty1578]

Add children to the scenario and people are much less likely to seek help for fear of their child(ren) being taken away. This happened to a friend of mine-she sought treatment for herself and had to fight to keep her daughter. I'm not diagnosed for this fear. I'm waiting for him to be 18 and out of school. One more year to go. I've been depressed my whole life but the last year has been so bad. I can't wait to get away from my toxic husband and family.

[@LisaS1]

@@opalbeauty1578 I'm so sorry. You are welcome to talk to me if you like. That's terrible what happened to your friend; they should of helped her, not added to her pain and troubles. Something sort of similar happened to me when I was much younger and I told my kids teacher that I was troubled or depressed or something and the next thing I knew she'd called the children and family services on me and they came to my home to investigate. I've also been depressed my entire life.

[@Ad-qk6km]

I’m to depressed to even make my appointments I just wanna sit here n smoke smh

[@LisaS1]

@@Ad-qk6km I hear you.

[@pinkbubby]

^This. It took me years to get therapy b/c every time I tried to call I'd have a panic attack. Asking for help can be really freaking hard.

[@monsterbread8686]

Me: *relates to 99.99% of this* Also me: I'll pretend I didn't see that...

[@midnightrally357]

That's really unhealthy...

[@crystie999]

I hope you Will better soon :(

[@monsterbread8686]

@@midnightrally357 lol I know

[@monsterbread8686]

@@crystie999 thankss

[@monsterbread8686]

@@midnightrally357 im fine, I've gotten used to it

[@allytrevino6]

“If your feelings unusually sad, hopeless, empty, unmotivated” ........I’ve been feeling like that everyday for the past 3 years but I’m scared to tell anyone.

[@quemeese]

everyday for the last 60 years!!

[@hasyla6969]

*relates to everything on the list* Hmm... *remembers my toxic parents don't believe mental health is a problem* Ah yes

[@hasyla6969]

@Google Milos I get in trouble when I mention it, so I have to keep it quiet. At this point I'm never around my parents because they make me feel drained and emotionless

[@hasyla6969]

@Google Milos I don't exactly want to die, but I still have the thoughts... I just know in the long run it's not worth it, I hope all gets better for you :)

[@nejirehado9537]

My mom calls me dramatic or says that I’m just causing a scene and I’m faking it all LMAOAOA

[@hasyla6969]

@@nejirehado9537 why must parents do this :'3

[@filipemartins1850]

Jesus loves you, in 1 John 4:7 it says; Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. Also in 1 John 4:8 it says; whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. Also in the Gospel of John 3:16 it says; for God loved the world so much that He gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him shall not perish but shall have eternal life. Jesus loves you❤️. Have a blessed day.

[@yourname5121]

This reminds me of what Chester explained about depression, RIP Chester😔

[@lostinthecloud_]

Linkin Park fan spotted.

[@MrBungle900]

Xanax saved my life today. Instead of battling intrusive and compulsive thoughts of suicide, I chose to numb my emotions instead. Depression has already had me attempt suicide several times. I’m not letting it take me out for good. But man, life is so fucking futile most of the time. A hollow, empty, painful storm of nothingness and everything all at once. Good luck and huge love to anyone struggling to stay afloat. 🙌✨❤️

[@cminus6716]

“Absolute futility,” says the Teacher. “Absolute futility. Everything is futile.” Ecclesiastes 1:2 CSB Good luck to you too. I hope that you're still managing to stay afloat

[@EarthAngel__1111]

I take xanax, my doctor prescribed it to me.xanax is a temporary fix and be careful with the withdrawals, it can put you in the hospital

[@MrBungle900]

@@EarthAngel__1111 Thanks for your advice. I only use it occasionally. And then only for a few days. I am a recovering drug addict so I have to be super careful.

[@vintagelife5195]

weed

[@bri.janell13]

Me: is already diagnosed with MDD Also me: LETS SEE IF I MEET THE CRITERIA

[@KB-xx2sn]

Same i was still curious

[@kelseygray4733]

Me too

[@bunnibussell3395]

Same lol

[@bluebelluwu]

Same

[@Todd-_-Umptious]

I still find myself waiting for that "Hey guess what? All those people who routinely diagnosed you over the last 26 years were all wrong and you're just EXTREMELY suggestible" moment. So I totally relate to this comment XD This youtube video was one test I was hoping to fail '^_^

[@leezaaneja1213]

I used to feel all these signs in the month of December in 2019. I knew that something was wrong with my body and mind but I didn't want to see a psychiatrist because I was afraid that I will end up being addicted to anti depressants. I was also afraid that what would my parent's reaction will be. I tried to self diagnosis myself by watching vids like how to heal depression naturally. I started eating healthy, stopped binge eating, tried working out just like I used to do before December and staying hydrated. I don't that whether my illness is completely cured or not but I still face self abusive stress in which I end up feeling restless, guilty and fatigued just like I used to feel in December. I would be very grateful if pysch2go will see this comment and will reply me. I request you all to like it as much as you can so that it reaches to pysch2go easily.

[@pollythehomeless3400]

If u had the strength to pull all that u certainly weren't in a state of major depression. A therapist would have solved the problem maybe. Idk where u r now but MDD cannot be cured by anything. Nothing works, no medicine, no therapy, u have it till u finally die.

[@wheresmahat345]

Hey Leeza. Are you doing good now?

[@brokenrecord_1045]

I was diagnosed with severe mdd back in December after being hospitalised for an incident, it really does suck man. If you struggle with these on a daily basis, please try and see someone. Even just getting a diagnosis can bring some closure. It gets better you guys, promise, stay strong friends, lots of love. 💕

[@neolexia57]

my parents and grandparents thought I was ungrateful because I didn’t freak out when I got a gift that I had wanted I felt really bad because I was really happy that I had gotten the gift but I just didn’t feel anything But it really got to me because I was grateful for the gift but couldn’t express it So I started faking it and o made it super dramatic

[@Ornithopter7186]

This happened to me too. I got a PS4 for my birthday I was happy but at the same time I didn't really feel anything. My dad kept calling me a ungreatful brat.

[@filipemartins1850]

Jesus loves you, in 1 John 4:7 it says; Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. Also in 1 John 4:8 it says; whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. Also in the Gospel of John 3:16 it says; for God loved the world so much that He gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him shall not perish but shall have eternal life. Jesus loves you❤️. Have a blessed day.

[@nyxhellwyrm7405]

Similar thing happened a few years ago at Christmas for me too. I got an Xbox 1, some new games, and a few other doodads as gifts. I was really happy with my gifts but I just really couldn’t express it, my stepsister asked if I was okay and she thought I was upset and kept asking if something was wrong. I didn’t really understand what the issue was at the time though.

[@super_nova5590]

It’s just like how I got straight A’s in school and thought I be happy for myself but I didn’t feel anything

[@nyxhellwyrm7405]

Yeah, I currently have straight A’s too. But it’s just sort of a “Meh” feeling to me.

[@silver.spoonz]

Me: having all these symptoms Also me: nah I'm fine

[@PEAK__]

Same

[@moonsdaydreams8089]

Same with me I'm perfectly fine😅

[@moonsdaydreams8089]

I don't have all them but still

[@ghostandy7572]

Yep

[@Vadim_k.d.]

Saamee

[@jolieiler7307]

me, who's already been diagnosed with MDD for years: oh yeah i should watch this maybe it'll help me figure out what's wrong with me

[@Azel727]

Me: can't do module's Can't even brush my teeth can't cook anymore Always sad Fatigue

[@potatocat8589]

I can relate to this video, I guess bottling my emotions and thoughts when I was a child and know closing people off wasn't a good idea.

[@andreav318]

Yep 👍 that’s why I’ve had MDD my whole life. But it is significantly better I would say 80 percent better due to meds and therapy.

[@tigereyes5879]

Honestly sounds like what I did too.

[@Alexis-zl9kw]

i'm going through this in my early 20s i had not great parents and shut off all my emotions now it's hitting me in my 20s and this video relates a lot

[@alyanamass989]

Wow u just described me

[@yelle9834]

Why can't I remember anything before yesterday... Every day my brain just resets... I'll get flashbacks of really bad things but that's only when I get a panic attack

[@doctorwholover1012]

i absolutely love seeing stuff like this or doing depression tests etc, bc its like "have you been feeling depressed for more than 14 days? have you had multiple bouts of these episodes? when was the last time you felt normal?" etc and im like "idk how to break it to you chief but i've been alive 22 years and depressed since age 9. at this point, normal for me IS being chronically depressed"

[@honestlytired7698]

Is it really weird that I've been diagnosed with this, yet I'm still watching to see if I have this

[@sherlogic1256]

Considering the brain washing I went through about doctors and psychologists and therapists not being trustworthy. Nope, totally normal to need reassurance

[@gari8853]

yup , your profile picture explains so

[@mmmacdonnell6466]

I was diagnosed with MDD last year but before I got help I suffered for 4 years. There was one point where I was the worst I’ve ever been. I slept 17 hours a day, went from 125 pounds to 107. Attempted suicide twice and still have trouble to this day. I cried during this video because it reminded me how much I’ve overcome and how good I’m doing now. Thank you for making a video about MDD and hopefully all those people that say they have it because they’re “bummed out” see it and realize how truly awful it is.

[@sims2lovealot]

The worst thing is when you finally get the courage to tell a friend and they say "oh everyone deals with that" and then moves on. It sucks when you reach out, especially as it's extremely hard, and they brush it off 😔

[@ramennoodle5478]

sims2lovealot kzbin.info/www/bejne/oHuqn5R3abClo8k

[@cotenelson3473]

I'm crying from remembering the intense pain of the depression years ago. I overdosed on my medication and waited for death to take me. Although I got the help I needed, the solitary confinement within the hospital changed me. Today, I'm thankful to be alive and I never take life for granted.

[@sims2lovealot]

@@cotenelson3473 I'm so sorry you went through that but I'm so happy that you're here today and you got help!

[@syfqkuro]

I was diagnosed with MDD around end of May to early June last year. Living with it has not been easy and it made me almost failing a semester in university. I'm slowly getting back on track altho ocassionally it is still hard to wake up, or feel motivated to do anything regarding studies, limiting my classes also help me take time for myself. Watching this video made me understand more about what I'm going through and maybe can help if my friends around are going thru the same. Thanks Psych2Go for this video. 💕

[@screamo8724]

I have MDD but no one in my family cares so im all alone 🤷‍♀️

[@dawnelizabeth1828]

My siblenenemy's lol siblings/enemy's don't care about me either, it sucks that they're narcopathic borderlines yucky, yikes, icky, ugh and argh.

[@screamo8724]

@@dawnelizabeth1828 that does suck my sibling doesnt care about me at all. Oh well it is what it is.

[@internetuser2768]

unknown._.editz did ur fam take u to a doctor so she could help and were u diagnosed 🥺

[@screamo8724]

@@internetuser2768 no but my grandma did.

[@tellestina4533]

I’m sorry you’re going through rough times. I wish you well.

[@retaliationeffort2864]

I'm going to be honest, I have self diagnosed myself for MDD in the past but it honestly helped me when I went to a doctor. My doctor said that it is good that I was aware that I had it and that I was learning how to cope

[@nasserineD]

Wow, you guys nailed it all the way down to my 10 years long lack of appetite! After trauma that left me further sunken, of course. Lifelong MDD is the pits.

[@b.b.9561]

I dealt with depression since I was around 12 and experienced a depressive episode about twice a year. Each episode lasted on average about 2-3 months. I reached out to my father about 13 years old but was told it was a phase and that I shouldn’t be sad because my life is so “great.” After that, I felt guilt for feeling this way and kept it to myself. Then about 15, I dealt with a lot of suicidal thoughts then reached out to my father again and he agreed to get professional help. After an assessment by professionals, they admitted me into a mental hospital. I was diagnosed was MDD, general anxiety, and an eating disorder. I felt so relieved after the diagnosis because I had convinced myself that I was just complaining about nothing and felt out of my mind. Thank you so much for this video!! I hope it brings more awareness.

[@liagamer4265]

I FINALLY GOT DIAGNOSED TODAY!! Thursday, April 4th, 2024, will go down in my history book. Im so freaking happy I can stop feeling like a fraud and finally put a name on it. I have tried for YEARS to get help and I finally have after a whole decade and then some! Hallelujah! I hope all of you out there can get a proper diagnosis too. Thanks Pysch2Go, you gave me a lot of information + the comments on these videos helped a ton too. 🎉❤

[@runningsrage5895]

I’ve been depressed since I was around 11-12 and I’m almost 19 now. My mother also has major depression.

[@quemeese]

I’ve been depressed since I was around 11-12 and I’m almost 70 now.

[@thesnazberriestastelikesna8185]

I was diagnosed young with depression and adhd. I've developed sleeping problems with both insomnia with the rare occasion of hypersomnia. I've had constant fluctuation of weight due to random times of binge eating and starvation due to a lack of hunger. I'm still feeling guilty for something I did 5 years ago and I was forgiven. The constant thought of suicide has turned to white noise at this point. A simple sad moment in a TV show can bring on an episode and they tend to hold on for weeks at a time with very little reprieve. I was happy for 1 day in the past half a year from what I can remember. Never feeling good enough has caused me to feel as though I'm worthless. I'm quiet most of the time not only because it was drilled into me that I talk to much but also so I don't accidentally overshare and worry people. I've never had an easy time with making friends and it's gotten to be to easy to put on a mask to hide the pain. I'm normally in a state of numbness while in the presence of others and extreme levels of depression while alone with my thoughts. It's gotten worse and worse and I don't want to take medication for it but I may end up having to just to live normally. I'm not sure of anything anymore. Life is getting harder to handle by the day and the voice in my head saying to end it just keeps getting louder. I just ignore it. I'm in agony at all times and have grown so used to it that even when I'm just slightly happy I seem overjoyed. I've gone numb to the pain to the point of barely being able to cry. When I do cry I feel better cause it's a release but it's like my body refuses to let me do so. I'm subconsciously causing myself harm because I just can't let go. I'm scared.

[@battinghat]

It's okay, everything will get better for you, I promise I hope the best for you

[@thesnazberriestastelikesna8185]

Also I'm excited for the future. My girlfriend has helped more than she will ever know and to have a purpose in helping her raise our child, who she is currently just under 3 months pregnant with.

[@wasupman2284]

I know its been 2 years since ur post, but I resonate with everything u have said. I live in complete sadness 24/7 and working days feels like im auditioning for a Hollywood movie. This elimates peoples concerns of my mental anguish! It's torment and I'm slowly giving up each day.. have things gotten better?

[@taylorjaffe8299]

Me: Been diagnosed with MDD for years now Also me: Let's just double check

[@jessie_4921]

*why does literally every single word of this video about the topic explain me so damn well..?*

[@joeyjointjebaiter1275]

Because you have Major Depressive Disorder and you are watching signs you have Major Depressive Disorder and they are all accurate Hi, im the logical side of your brain and i have taken over just to tell you this very obvious matter. I will go now, enjoy experiencing emotions again

[@jessie_4921]

GROT Diamønd 😂😂😂😂❤️

[@grav0n15]

I relate so much to this video to

[@darcybrigan7781]

Me In rl: *tells friends I have depression* Also me: *fake Smiling* Them: you smiled!! You’re not depressed!! Faker!!

[@odeer170]

This has happened way to much

[@yourmother8062]

Awkward_ Idiot Get new friends

[@yourmother8062]

Hamster Pile Don’t worry, I know that. But at the end of the day, I personally would rather sit alone at lunch and be able to be me than with judgemental “friends”. And I have done this before but I get your point

[@selinaesparza8594]

Awkward_ Idiot which instantly makes you feel like a total fucking failure and who Fer if you even do have depression

[@bekbekjojo7906]

i can relate

[@samr2c854]

Just got diagnosed with this but i still want to say..Im depressed but Im still BLESSED.

[@diamondust2054]

thank you for mentioning how “mainstream” depression has become, and for warning people not to self diagnose. as someone who’s suffered for years and has been professionally diagnosed, it often makes me feel invalidated. also, i love this background music, it suits the video perfectly. 💕

[@kokosombrero6553]

I fortunately don’t struggle with any mental illness, I’m just here to learn and share awareness. I honestly care about psychology, I find it very interesting. I also know people that suffer with a mental illness, and I want to understand them better. Thank you, Psych2go, for providing us all an amazing opportunity to learn and understand psychology better.

[@breadboysgang5516]

You're so kind for trying to understand them ❤️

[@cinnamoomilk]

I feel like I'm caught in an undertow of guilt, regrets and sadness with no more strength to fight and all I can do is flow with the current, watching as I fall further and further from the sun.

[@voidlesslove3123]

That's actually really moving

[@oldman2477]

Me: **Watches video** Also me: "Am I doctor now?"

[@lime.animates8058]

THIS VIDEO WAS JUST POSTED, HOW DID SOMEONE COMMENT 1 DAY AGO????

[@Psych2go]

Magic!

[@lime.animates8058]

Psych2Go Oh okay

[@someminecrafter3494]

The magic of time travel

[@JukuduB]

Patreon members get videos first. Then free watchers, like us, see it after them. That's usually how it works.

[@goofball2228]

I had Major depressive disorder my freshman year of high school. It was awful. I cried everyday, refused to go to school, I wanted to die, I felt hopeless, I overate, hated myself, and didn’t wanna do anything or talk to anyone.

[@kimsmith819]

This video came at such a perfect time for me. My husband had mentally and verbally abused me for 6 years. Had planned to visit a therapist over it then coronavirus snuck in on us. He has made me feel almost every way you have mentioned. Thank you for your great information to us. 💜

[@jaiden5358]

Me trying to convince myself I'm not sad and tired 24/7: "It just be like that tho- Nothing special."

[@Alcoholpad]

I’m so used to being in a depressive state that I think it’s normal. Then after a year or so I’ll look back at pics and realize how depressed I’ve been the whole time. Such a huge mind ffff

[@maddysky7351]

So educational, I can’t wait to become a psychologist one day. These videos are fascinating and so helpful for me to understand myself and those that I want to help.

[@ashleyheller1537]

Same

[@rosegames2019]

Me: I wish I was dead *because depresso* Friend: same dude *because depresso Me: *feels better knowing we both dont want to see each other die*

[@aaravrathod1844]

I have all the signs. Sadly I have no one to understand that

[@_sugabee_]

I'm already diagnosed with MDD but I want others to know fully what it's like so I feel like this is a really good video to turn to, to learn more about it.

[@lebogangsadiki6942]

I was diagnosed with MDD 11 years ago and this is my 3rd depressive episode. I'm anxious about being admitted to hospital tomorrow but I know I'll be better. I hope everyone reading this know that they matter ❤

[@michellereeves9316]

I know of a Doctor who can help you heal MDD /bipolar disorder completely, he offers the best solution in fixing health issues Contact him now via WhatsApp on [phone]📞📞📞 I’m a living testimony to his works

[@wolfy_veronica]

Im diagnosed with MDD and GAD ,And i aprecciate ya'll making this video!:)

[@wolfy_veronica]

I have no idea what are shrooms tho T^T

[@m4skedm3d1a6]

'you're not depressed you're just lazy' ffs i make my videos to help with my depression, and yes i have secret depression

[@sunnicorran9244]

Same. No one in my family knows I suffer from this or that I've done therapy.

[@bwunniw]

Wait, this came out 26 seconds ago.. how tf is two of the comments 20 and 19 hours ago-

[@JellyEichi]

KZbin love *weed* I think

[@maddyg123_]

I think that’s some people can view the video before it comes out

[@vixen9467]

@@maddyg123_ they have it on unlisted which means people that have the link can view the video and then they put it public

[@catherinevaz6139]

KZbin drunk again...

[@bwunniw]

@X Gåçhä Oof

[@melinagallardo8711]

The other hard part is when your family doesn’t get it. My mom asked for a favor and I’m barely able to function so I said “no”. She told me later that she hopes I start feeling well so that I can start helping her with stuff. They will never know the energy it takes to just to stay alive

[@candacedelacruz9732]

I've been medically diagnosed with major depression for almost 5 years now. I'm getting medical help. But lately I'm experiencing relapse and my current medications seems like it is slowly losing its effective help on me... ... not to mention the current crisis that we are experiencing is greatly not helping my mental stability... But I'm still hanging there. And hopefully it won't be "just barely" soon, again...

[@c.m.3498]

Take your time...trust me, medication can save a life. I started to take pills one year ago. And now...a feel better a little. So, don't give up man. Fight this monster :)

[@heatherhillman1]

Suicidal ideation is much more than feeling "overwhelming torture and isolation that the only way to stop the pain is to end the life living it." It's terrifying when you're awash in this sea of utter despair, and the only thing that makes you feel even a little bit better is when your brain tells you "It's okay. Just let go." Kudos to anyone that has gone their entire life never feeling suicidal. Seriously... good for you. But unless you have stood at the edge of the abyss and stared into that darkness, you can never truly relate. It is such a different feeling than anything else a person feels throughout their lifetime. It's also impossible to describe. You either know it or you don't. If you have never felt it, please due your loved one a favor and do not tell them you "know how they feel". You don't. You can't. And hopefully you never will.

[@RebeccaWalker-e2i]

There is a huge difference between depression and MDD. I have had MDD with PTSD for years. It never goes away.

[@user-bv5sq9dy7w]

Just meditate... just do yoga.... I sleep for 12 hours and still can’t get up if my life depended on it...

[@vAqeii]

Sign 1: Giving up in Minecraft

[@kmrk.x]

*b r u h*

[@kim_hanyi_senty_cany946]

I--

[@vixen9467]

Sign 2: deleting Minecraft 😔

[@krecikkk9287]

so true [*]

[@silverpaladin0710]

Sign 3: *Play Fortnite*

[@casscat7]

I actually have MDD, and was diagnosed with it back in 2018. this weirdly was interesting to me.. all of these signs apply to me but at varying degrees, and this was honestly an interesting watch. and I learned a few things about myself and what is wrong with me, so thank you. and thanks for providing great content in general.

[@ryndoesathing4183]

7 out of 8 what do I win? My brain: depression and a trip to the therapist.

[@OlwenRichards]

I have every sign and have told professionals but nothing has happened so far, I don’t know why but it makes it worse

[@EOimages]

Attended a psychologist for the first time 2 weeks ago but didn't feel the need to go back, I understand I have something wrong and that it doesn't help me at all... but at the same time for someone else to get to the point where I find myself understanding what I have might take a bit too long and not sure if it will work or I will be in the same scenario after all...

[@OlwenRichards]

E O I still haven’t been referred to one which doesn’t help, and they will mostly likely need to help my situation before getting me one for complicated reasons

[@eerietteart]

It's twenty years now. There were few good moments during the path, but they always disappeared fast, leaving me more alone, desperate, resigned. I was able to be high functioning depressed for most of the time. This pandemic has destroyed all the improvements I create with extreme efforts during my past years. I am living day by day, trying to be most functional possible and to not disappoint people who still care about me. But believe me, if every morning when i wake up i ask universe wtf why again

[@alinima1892]

Is everyone staying safe????

[@vixen9467]

No ive been around more then 20 people that wear no masks been sick for the past week

[@alinima1892]

【ʜᴏɴeʏ ᴄᴀᴋᴇ】 oh, I’m sorry about that. You can’t really control other people, but you can make sure that you stay safe. Anyway, take care of yourself!

[@tellestina4533]

Yes! I try not to go outside in the open and crowds. Are you doing well and keeping safe too? Wish you well.

[@MagdaleneDivine]

Nope

[@alinima1892]

PeachyDreams yes, I’m staying safe. Most of the time I’m doing schoolwork, so I don’t even really have time to go outside too much. But when I do, I try to remember to wear a mask.

[@Collin212]

I have both insomnia and hypersomnia. If I get in bed at 8 planning to wake up at 9, I'll spend an hour trying to sleep and when I wake up I'm tired and will waste an hour in bed

[@saintbernard0611]

I was diagnosed with MDD last Christmas, the biggest thing that's never changed is feeling like I'm living in groundhog day, everything's the same. It just never changes, and when it does it just feels like it's gone all wrong.

[@whoisshe990]

i love this channel so much! thank you psych2go!

[@kyliehernandez3851]

Well I have MDD.. but when she said about feeling empty I can relate so much but, something that always makes me feel a little better is watching anime and watching bts memes :') other than that I just always feel down and drained when I get up. Most of the time I stress & feel depressed because my family has a toxic relationship with me.And I always think its my fault I don't have my dad or I blame myself for his death... Ugh I'm sorry I just had to let all of that out and vent:(

[@chickennugget-mh6op]

I don’t understand what you are going through, but I’m positive your father is very proud of you. I hope you get help and feel better, soon. 💜

[@chibi1353]

Same

[@aubriethegreat8175]

You should never feel like you need to apologize for letting your emotions, thoughts, and feelings out. It is good and healthy and everyone should have the opportunity to. I acknowledge some people can be emotional in a bad way, like by abusing others with their anger, but you get what I am trying to say right? If no one is there for you in person, random strangers in the KZbin comment section are! I have not been diagnosed but I think I have MDD too, my family can be rough sometimes, but maybe not as bad as yours. We can talk if you want. :)

[@kyliehernandez3851]

@@aubriethegreat8175 thank you :)..I'm not a very optimistic person but I always try to see if there is hope in curtain situations... many times I've asked myself wether I'm worth something or I'm just nothing, I've convinced myself many times to try and be a happy positive person but, it's just really hard...change for me is scary and it gives me anxiety, but I try and cope with myself trying and trying... honestly the only thing that changes my mood to optimistic alot of time is drawing, watching anime, and hearing music other that i just feel depressed and out of any energy to do anything :')

[@JustwaitNwatch-w]

I never thought I'd be going through this and searching such videos

[@Layer03cyberia]

I must be really smart because all my results on online depression tests are really high

[@nomate3218]

Lmao but for real same we both need help

[@geoleo965]

Are you hinting something with all these mood-swinging vids?

[@jmk1962]

It's based on what you are watching so maybe your subconscious mind is trying to tell you something and help you?

[@geoleo965]

@@jmk1962 Nah, just poking fun of how they've been uploading for the most time and recently vids like this one. Regardless, your concern is appreciated.

[@nighteclipse_1999]

I was diagnosed last time I went to the mental hospital and now it makes sense why I am the way I am

[@stephaniebayonito310]

This is so me.. I was diagnosed with MDD 13 yrs ago i think? Even tho i thought i can fight.. But sometimes it fights back more 🙂