a small list of things that i normally would hide

[@discocrash]

'drinking cough syrup when you didn't have cough is ironic cos in reality you're sicker than you thought' made me burst into tears holy shit

[@tierraabeyta5892]

Same with me. This is beautifully written and beautifully read. It breaks my emotions ;-;

[@karla.3836]

discocrash i dont understand..

[@gunsforgooby]

Cough syrup is used to obtain a euphoric effect, like being high or heavily drinking.

[@kromantik9589]

Yeah, sure lmao

[@dustinbrown8985]

“holy shit, holy shit, holy shit!”

[@lukespooks2022]

"but drinking cough syrup when you didn't have a cough is ironic, because in reality you're sicker than you thought" HOLY FUCK

[@BxBaBy400]

"wrote an album called sleep and realized it's about waking up" ugh that hit me hard

[@lolabbk]

+Mariah NeverCaredd. #staywoke

[@mariaakkrt2752]

Mariah NeverCaredd. that hit me hard too

[@niggleator]

This whole fucking song hit me hard dude.

[@0someperson0]

Sleep, also a very good album. (P.s. this song hit me so hard my heart started beating to the rhythm of Mitch hitting the floor.)

[@THEBUS7AWESOME]

I'm glad im not as sad as i used to be.

[@tonianne7262]

I'm proud of you.

[@Somebodyelse141]

me too

[@etherealentity7675]

the worlds a beautiful place and im no longer afraid to die

[@crabshack4690]

what made you not as sad?

[@THEBUS7AWESOME]

fewnerals dank weed and not caring what people think

[@asamahoesaegi543]

"Wrote an album called 'sleep' and realized it's about waking up." That ending

[@natcamargo5344]

fuck

[@eatingcookieswithpeanutbutter]

bars

[@eduardaharmon8988]

eight years and I still come here more often than I'd like to admit

[@eduardaharmon8988]

still

[@AlpacaEmperor]

Same here

[@TO0k142]

This is not even some pretentious shit, this is actual serious poetry and music, I love it.

[@raresabraleaks8216]

catsnacklez nah bruh really spitting

[@Cymbelin]

The purpose of an artist is to express that which is common to the human experience, yet is difficult to articulate. Your ability to pull something from the darkness and articulate it so well makes others feel less alone, coping with their own darkness. Well done.

[@marshaarbi]

i was 7 in 2012 and nvr did i think i’d be here 8 years later

[@madeleinep.828]

Literally. I’m sad I was a young kid then because I missed this whole era.

[@alexpeachey8247]

I love Mitch. You can tell he really feels his lyrics by the way he punches the floor, when he almost starts crying on camera, his gestures. It's so genuine. I love all of his music. Thank you

[@datrix5354]

thanks for hitting me with a ton of bricks repeatedly in the chest now i cant breathe

[@gloomjesussecretaccount]

I listened to this as a teenager and in my mid 20’s it hits even harder than before

[@GiiGiiPapachio]

am I a few years late to flatsound? I love this anyways.

[@spookyspun2249]

same

[@dallasbarron3276]

relatable

[@millylovell9706]

2 years on am I?

[@umstot3120]

Im a few years late to this comment

[@deisbxn]

you're just in time.

[@IM-hy2zv]

the "fuck" at the end had me

[@stars19735]

it's small moments like these that make me hate myself even more but the pain reminds me that im feeling, and thus healing again, and that im not alone. thank you for sharing this.

[@BabvBlues]

I think I might be in love

[@charlottewhittaker2103]

YOU BROUGHT ME HERE & I AM SO THANKFUL

[@BabvBlues]

Charlotte Whittaker I love this song c:

[@courtneymcgraw8688]

Thank you for bringing me here.omg 😍

[@ashleyhamilton5049]

Thanks for bringing me here! And if you're in love you can check that off your bucket list!!!😂😂😂😉

[@emmakyffin1046]

she brought me here (: but I seriously love this so much I relate to it

[@sleepin-bugz6452]

"Drinking cough syrup When you didn't have a cough" There lyrics and all the rest, I can relate so much too. Thanks for the songs and poems you made flatsound. They are amazing and relatable.

[@Wordsbyquentin]

"but drinking cough syrup when you didn't have a cough is ironic, because in reality you're sicker than you thought" Oh My Fucking God. This is golden, this is all I've been saying and thinking the past fucking year

[@cyd8034]

Spencer Washington

[@bar1338]

Spencer Washington my favorite part

[@Supergirl9909]

Spencer Washington for a very long time, this was me

[@qrowing]

Spencer Washington

[@lorrdel8629]

woah, i read this the second he started saying it

[@hqilix]

"patching up cut arms, drinking cough syrup when you didn't have a cough..Is ironic because in reality you're sicker than you thought.."

[@jessicaemily6389]

I've read the words of this a thousand times and even memorized it all but when I actually watch the video and hear your voice I can feel your pain and emotion so much stronger and I'm crying.

[@histomercy]

it's been a couple years since i first listened to this. the top comments weren't this old back then. i have never forgotten about flatsound, but this song got buried deeply. i'm only now finding it again, and i'm grateful. this had been my favorite flatsound song for a while when i first heard it. if you're reading this, i hope you're okay. you will be. i'm proud of you. "now that i know what it's like to be dead, i can start living again."

[@andyr2904]

I just wanted to say that I hope you’re okay And I hope everything worked itself out along the way

[@histomercy]

@ hello kind stranger! thank you for your comment :~) although life is still difficult, i moved out and have slowly gotten more independent. my depression hasn’t been as apparent this year, so i’m grateful for that!

[@histomercy]

@ also, since 2024 is ending. i hope 2025 will bring you lots of happiness and kindness :~) you got this!

[@Emsyel]

Wow, wasn't expecting that, a Tumblr post had a line or two in a post and I really liked what it said and so here I am, just wow

[@lunarose4318]

This is absolutely incredible. I love it.

[@0v3rgr0wn]

You say incredible, I say inevitable

[@lunarose4318]

***** How so?

[@0v3rgr0wn]

Shh.. Don't tell

[@lunarose4318]

***** Ah. Makes sense.

[@kimikohi]

this is incredible. fell in love with the poem first, read it at an open mic at a local bookstore (gave you credit, everyone liked it), and just now found the video. still my favorite.

[@drella1775]

you uploaded this about a year before i heard it. i found it when i needed it. here i am ten years later once again finding it when i need it, and have many times through the years. i still feel all of these things so greatly but now i view them from a different angle. thanks for being you and sharing the things you do with us.

[@malcompris6047]

I used to come here when i thought i had no future. I felt so miserable and useless. Now i come here to quiet my thoughts and get some peace. It's never perfect because that's impossible, but it really does get better.

[@mirblur23]

When I first heard this song, it really got to me. It reminded me of all the crap I have been through in my life, and it would make me cry. But today I was listening to it and I realized that this song is about change. Maybe I'm wrong but to me when he says "Now that I know what it means to be dead I can start living again" I felt like maybe it was possible for me to be able to let go of all my pain and live.

[@ronni.b99]

Hey I never commented on this! Back in 2017 I was going through it. I got my heart broken, and was back stabbed by about 10 of my friends, who spread constant rumors about me through the school. It was also the year that I started developing an eating disorder (been in recovery since 2019!!!). I also started doing a lot of drugs, and drinking to numb the pain. This whole song is such a huge part of my recovery. It gave me hope, even in the depths of my self-hatred, that things would get better. And they did. I got the lyrics "Now that I know what it means to be dead, I can start living again" tattooed on my left wrist. It's a constant reminder for me that I managed to get through one of the hardest parts of my life. and I am beyond thankful for this song and all the others that you've written. Thank you

[@nishparadox]

"so I'm leaving behind the people who said I wasn't brave enough wrote an album called "sleep" and realized it's about waking up." This hit me hard.

[@1Dfangirl97]

God, i love this poem so much. It just feels so much angrier and raw than his newer stuff.

[@cain3963]

there are so many lines in this that stand out to me

[@malanora7542]

I used to watch this on repeat every fucking day in high school. You're work kept me going, Mitch. You're a blessing and I could never thank you enough.

[@rubykmb6700]

high school no comprehension of enough harm, codiene for numb hearts and patching up cut arms

[@mickeywilson293]

mitch i’ve waited 7 years for this to be on spotify please

[@christalcavanaugh]

I saw the most beautiful sunset today. It was probably the prettiest thing I’ve seen in my entire life. It moved me to tears. As I sat crying at a mixture of pink clouds and scattered showers and vibrant, saturated rainbow, I remembered why I wanted to live in the first place. My life has been so dark for so long, so when he talks about having to know death before you can feel alive, I understand it so perfectly. For the first time in nearly a decade, I feel lucky to be alive.

[@lord.__.doomer5477]

I love how a person in a thousand miles away can be the person who stay with you when you wanna stay away.

[@alexis-vs8ih]

i want you to know that everything you say is what i couldnt say. the concern for everyone but yourself, the worthlessness in getting better, the greatfulness for your experiences, the appreciation of sadness. the way you talk about cliches. this really really really hits home. thank you for making this.

[@cappucosmico]

i love this but i always get distracted by the fact that i can hear the television doing the staticy thing in the back and i end up spending half the video listening attentively to tv static

[@kierad7648]

I didn't realize it until I read this and it has ruined my ears haha

[@eyerolling]

good thing when you have tinnitus is you can't hear it

[@Krllnb0l]

holy shit why did I only find this today

[@dustinbrown8985]

Isa Levens hey, come back. It’s still good!

[@cyanide5152]

@@dustinbrown8985 u come back too its amazing

[@oliveoil3896]

vault8166_ nullhack i always come back to flatsound, have been for a couple years :-)

[@GEEZ333]

i’m glad i’m not as sad as i was 6 years ago

[@dumbmusorowan]

this might be my favourite poem of all time. it helps that i first heard it at possibly the worst and weirdest time of my life. i listened to it like a mantra that kept me sad and hopeful at the same time. it's strange how spiritual this poem is to me even though the words have nothing to do with faith.

[@user-xm3uu7mv6j]

realized it’s been three years and i keep coming back to this on nights like these and this has never ceased to both take my breath away and make it easier to breathe. this is so full of words that click in my mind idk how else to explain that but yo thank you

[@_Jude-St.-Francis_]

Mitch, thank you for existing. Thank you.

[@candymanderson521]

You are truly the most amazing poet I have ever come across. Thank you

[@melancholyjest1911]

I have never identified more with anything else in the world. This video is really important to me, and I wish I knew it existed before today.

[@andyr2904]

Mitch dawg, this still goes so hard. You’re a huge inspiration to so many of us. Thank you 4 makin music and sharing it with the world, your art is always beautiful

[@tatumsheppard4669]

"now that i know what it means to be dead i can start living again" god, i love mitch.

[@geofree7338]

My love for flatsound literally brings me physical heartache. Mitch, you are such a genius. You're worth so much more than you think.

[@StarlightAimee]

Four years later and I'm still coming back to this.

[@marshaarbi]

i just love the wavering in his voice

[@meganmarielive4058]

I keep finding myself coming back to this. Every single line is poetic. This is a work of art

[@allimg421]

I found you on tumblr and you're one of the greatest things that has happened to me since finding you. You truly are wonderful and I love it

[@eilidhstuart2036]

seriously amazing, everything i aspire to to be able to write spoken word like this..big ups man, you are a wordsmith of the highest variety.

[@rubyraudales1597]

but drinking cough syrup when you dont have a cough is ironic because in reality your sicker than you thought

[@vorheez13]

this part it so breath taking ... it's written v well

[@turntechgodhead4107]

i dont get it

[@femdomsHMU]

Some people drink cough syrup to get high to disassociate from reality. It's really unhealthy, but most people who do it don't care about their own health

[@kaydenalexander2732]

My sicker than I thought?

[@eveadams1406]

that part hits me the most

[@NaritaDerks]

this song calms me down whenever i'm really anxious

[@MsButtercats]

this touched my heart, yo

[@sarahjoseph608]

THE LAST LINE LEGIT MADE ME SAY "WOW" I'M IN LOVE WITH THIS

[@teaganjones9570]

This is the reason I love youtube. I'm glad I stayed awake until midnight when I find things like this.

[@zaboomafooba]

Because now that I know what it means to be dead, I can start living again This line was a big part of me coming out of a depression period a few years ago. I’m feeling not so good again. I’m grateful for these lyrics

[@randomshit65]

Hope things got/are getting better

[@criddir]

I just want to thank you. There's a small chance you'll even see this, but your music and poems have helped me get through a lot. Please never stop creating, you're doing amazing things.

[@malmejia3112]

i’ve known about this video for four years now and i still manage to come back to it every once in a while xx

[@bellaskidmore5136]

I love this so much. I have listened to this every single day since the first time I heard it. You are such an amazing artist and it makes me extremely happy to know that you exist.

[@Tcookie35]

I can’t believe a decade later and I’ve come back to this more than a handful of times as it was one of the moving things I listened to as a teenager. Going to share with even more people who are in my life now, this lives in my head rent free every day and tonight was the perfect night for it to come up again ❤

[@GraveyardFairy7]

I'm so happy you finally added it to spotify last year. This is definitely in my top 5 of Flatsound

[@jamesroberts5984]

i used to listen to this when i was in a really bad place and just cry, im listening to it for the first time in probably 4 years and while it still hurts, its bearable. this helped me realize im getting better.

[@vorheez13]

discovered this two years ago & it causes the hair on my arms to rise like a cold breeze .. I pondered that no one understood but he does in such a poetic way ... the part reciting cough syrup still touches my heart .. I cry so much by this bc it's so real ... it's just so real ... he inspired me to pursue writing poetry & try to be good enough ... I can't thank him enough .. he saved my life

[@dilaracifci1427]

remembered this song after at least 5 years and spent days trying to figure out the title so I could find it because I knew how much this song hit middle school me in the heart. I'm glad to know I'm not in such a dark place anymore

[@italktomustaches]

This is the most perfect fucking song I've ever listened to. It makes me cry and kind of miss my sadness, which is stupid but I'm working on it. You string your words together so beautifully, don't stop ever.

[@catherine6603]

i started crying when i heard 'now that i know what it means to be dead i can start living'. i hope i will wake up from this nightmare soon and start to appreciate every single moment like it should be.

[@calistawitten5171]

The small things we hide are ones that kill us

[@annalisegonzaga]

12 years ago seems so crazy to me. This art Is a outlet. I've grown so much. Thank you for reminding me how I ive come.

[@SprinkleOfLlama]

This, is so utterly beautiful. This brought me to tears, and it's not even a bad thing. Your words make me feel. You are an artist.

[@aylajayde3252]

I love the way your visuals and audio connect to reflect exactly how you feel. It reflects exactly how I feel. I'm glad that you're out there doing this, without it I would feel like I was crazy for feeling the same thing.And yes the "cringy shit" I feel like you did on purpose. Feeling cringy inside is part of existence. So thank you.

[@katiefox6541]

I adore this. Have loved it for years.

[@impostersyndrome2988]

This is why I want to write poems.

[@vertigooey]

This song helped me at times when I thought I couldn’t help myself. I hope you all can look back on it too and “start living again”. Stay safe ❤️

[@sydneyywong]

i just want to tell you that i've been listening to this on repeat all week... and it gives me chills everytime. I love this, you, and all your music so much. Finding your music has been the best thing that's happened to me in a long time. Thank you.

[@ajaxronanpatrick150]

thank you for making this song, i literally love this. ive been listening to this, 'you said okay' and 'to this day' by shane koyczan for hours

[@sophiavaughn2059]

I have been listening to this since you posted it and I still cry every time by the time it’s over. Thank you for this 💕

[@mirzanamujanovic2825]

Mitch Welling, I fucking love you, and I love what your music does to me. You're the absolute best definition of perfect.

[@destinywatson8459]

Wow woah I'm so glad I found the poem to the quote if had in my head for years. Sucks I'm finding out about it so late but at least I finally found it. But oh my gosh it's beautiful.

[@luciellawliet]

Damn Flatsound always hitting me in the feels more and more

[@JenniferAnimals]

this is making me feel things

[@josslovestacos5846]

This is just gold, purely amazing, you make words have feelings and give meaning to sentences in a way I cannot comprehend. I love this so much, thank you

[@thelemonpolice]

I watch this at least once a year

[@ThePenguinOnFire]

thank you for existing, Mitch. these words mean so much to me

[@xaxtyn1563]

this is beautiful, for the love of god please keep writing

[@_inclinations_]

So crazy to think back on when I listened to this all the time

[@GiuTomasini]

its wonderfull how you can sound so honest through your words

[@gabynovoa242]

have never heard so much truth in such a short amount of time. incredible writing... thank you for sharing this with the world

[@Meg-to3wd]

I read the lyrics after listening and burst out crying at the end.this is fantastic

[@Maszys]

If only we knew the good old days were going to be the good old days so we can appreciate them fully, before they come the good old days.

[@lilintrovert9727]

Holy crap this is amazing. Here from Mike Bliss and his love of flatsound, now I completely understand. Must binge this guy's music for sure

[@jackiethecatsummoner]

i love you so much. you saved my life more than once. thank you so much for being there...ur music of course but you know what i mean

[@emilynicole7370]

this is absolutely compelling. It brought recollections of past times in tidal waves of pain. There is something beautiful in the way this made me hurt, as odd as that sounds. Absolutely mesmerizing.

[@samshakusky]

i really love the little sigh of relief at the end of the video.

[@marlena4451]

ive grown so emotionally attached to your music, thank you.

[@nuju123]

I'm so glad this channel was in my recommendations

[@grey8211]

I'll sit and pretend I know someone at an intimate depth It only makes me feel like shit in the end Because you're only as good as the people you consider your friends So watch an aching past surface, and now I'm half certain That everyone who associates with me's a bad person Because everyone who associates with me is as worthless Now I finally understand what it means to lack courage And at the end of the day it just defeats the damn purpose To share the fruit of your knowledge while completely malnourished So I've been trying to let go of the things that torture me inside Congratulations, you're cordially invited To a small list of things that I normally would hide Like high school, no comprehension of enough harm Codeine for numb hearts and patching up cut arms But drinking cough syrup when you didn't have a cough Is ironic, because in reality you're sicker than you thought But like hearing new music and being too scared to turn it up Virgin blood mostly told me to stop at the surface cuts And sometimes I wouldn't eat more than a couple bites And sometimes I'd go a week and not sleep more than a couple nights And sometimes I'd get so wrapped up in the "couple life" When the "couple life" failed me the first couple times But I am grateful that it seems stupid, and I'm grateful that I miss you Because the passed two years are something I'm glad I had to sit through Because now that I know what it means to be dead I can start living again Now that I know what it means to be dead I can start living I can smell it when I breathe I can feel it when you leave I can start living again So I'm leaving behind the people who said I wasn't brave enough Wrote an album called "sleep" and realized it's about waking up

[@ayaonora]

always coming back to this one