a story i never thought i'd tell... i'm sorry

[@averybowers5353]

Ashly definitely look into breast implant illness. My mom was having a lot of the same symptoms you are having and it went away almost immediately after her getting her implants taken out, also look into your hormones because that has effected a lot of my depression and anxiety as well. I love you and I hope you start feeling better soon, mental health is so important and as much as I missed your videos I’m glad you are taking the time you need to get better. ❤️

[@averybowers5353]

Also, I am extremely proud of you for using your platform to be so real with all of your viewers and sharing that part of yourself. It’s not an easy thing to open up and it’s so admirable and inspiring for you to do that.

[@Zoeraye11]

yes I second this entirely! I know many women with these same symptoms who had to go through breast implant removal because of the mental effects and physical effects it caused. It’s actually ALOT more common than most people even think. I hope ashly goes and gets this checked out because this could seriously play a huge role!

[@jennyluna1381]

Another KZbinr Natalie Outlet has a video explaining her experience with this, many of the symptoms are similar, thank you for sharing this !

[@alyssadana5011]

I second this!!! It’s a real thing

[@alyssadana5011]

@@Zoeraye11 sorry didn’t see your comment so I THIRD THIS haha

[@lavenderandchaos]

The story of the thc butter being in the food is so incredibly messed up. It doesn’t matter if that person thought everyone smoked, you don’t do that without others consent. They basically drugged you all. I’m the same exact way when I smoke or have thc, it’s literally like a bad trip on mushrooms and I can not handle it. I’m so sorry that happened to you.

[@tayaelb56]

It's not like they got drugged, or basically drugged, they DID get drugged. So many people downplay everything when it comes to weed because its so casual and definitely not as bad as other drugs, but the effects are still horrible for a lot of people. She got drugged.

[@pnwparanormalinvestigate]

I came here to say the same thing!! It doesn’t even matter if someone is a daily smoker, you can’t intoxicate someone without their consent. That was so extremely irresponsible…

[@Xm3rmaid]

My “friend” did that to me. It was the worst thing ever. I’ll never forget how bad My anxiety was because of it

[@Rose415ily]

I came to say the same! I personally am a smoker but would never ever want to be given edibles without being told and me oking eating them(I say this because I personally don’t like edibles I like flower edibles and oil make me feel like Ashley is saying tbh.) That’s so messed up to do to anyone even if you assume they smoke.

[@antoniakenzie]

I was drugged by a "friend" with a THC cookie.. told me he made them himself, they tasted funny to me but I didn't wanna be rude so I ate the ENTIRE cookie. And he watched me eat it. I basically passed out for 2 entire days .. no memories, no nothing. Didn't know how I got home. It was terrifying. That shit is everything BUT funny.

[@masonmachness7553]

You just told my story. The anxiety, shakes, alcohol, twitches, everything. I’ve been sober for over a year now, and it’s helped. It’s a fucking struggle, and you’re amazing for getting through it. It takes a lot of grit. Thank you for sharing. It’s an act of service for all of us who deal with these debilitating issues!

[@AshlySchwan]

sending you love!!! ❤

[@naiakiki]

I self medicated with alcohol since I was a teenager for anxiety and ptsd. Definitely ruined my life in many ways. Sober 2 years now and learning how to work through it. It's definitely worth it!

[@reereemoma7777]

I feel the same way.

[@devynwright19]

There is nothing worse than feeling someone else’s anxiety through a screen because you’ve BEEN there

[@lbo6050]

I can list probably 100 thousand things worse than that but I agree it is an awful feeling.

[@crazy4corbinbleux]

Louder for the ppl in the back

[@jessicadunn7380]

This didn’t age well

[@mariamm663]

What's the drama? Summed up

[@gdlove90]

Why?

[@NoneyaBusiness-fs9en]

Why

[@tatianamgibson]

This is one of the realest videos I've ever heard documenting problems with anxiety and alcohol. Thank you for sharing your story and I am glad to hear that things are on the way up for you one step at a time.

[@DVNC1]

I’ve never heard someone describe a panic attack so accurately

[@roxannedesvergnes8080]

FACTS

[@sueljewels7866]

what minute

[@briaq114]

She’s definitely referring to someone overdosing, I have experienced this and have ptsd from that night. Sending you love ! It’s not easy

[@briaq114]

19 minutes in - I relate so much every single word and description

[@serynaho]

I also watched a loved one OD, its traumatizing

[@samanthae1578]

Yep that’s all I could think about

[@evastroh5752]

The alcohol/anxiety cycle really hit home, it really does make me feel less alone to hear public figures talk about this kind of thing

[@bonniepaora8664]

"your gut is your mental health" is actually a revolutionary statement. So true in so many ways

[@aliyagonzalez851]

Not giving consent when using drugs is 1000% the definition of being drugged. Don’t minimize what happened to you, I’m so sorry you went thru this💔

[@aliyagonzalez851]

Also, PSA, the worst things to tell someone who’s having a panic attack is “just breathe” like bitch if I could we wouldn’t even be here rn!

[@LookingGlassLibrary]

THIS! I feel like she severely undercut the fact that she was a victim of a literal crime and has been suffering the consequences of someone else's actions ever since.

[@user-np8yf8fj2w]

@@aliyagonzalez851 nah it helps some people bc it reminds you that you simply need to breathe and that the issue (generally isnt) as bad as your brain is making it seem

[@user-np8yf8fj2w]

@@aliyagonzalez851 but each to their own of course :)

[@harmonyjewel3747]

@@aliyagonzalez851 ooooooo

[@bouncingnick9747]

Meditation, therapy and mindfulness are great ways to deal with anxiety. Please don't turn to alcohol people!

[@lauraisoobercoollike]

I’m so sorry this has happened to you. Being given edibles without your permission / knowledge is so fucked. I’m sorry Ashly. Thinking of you x

[@Aprilmarieflows]

They drugged them!!!

[@lauraisoobercoollike]

@@Aprilmarieflows period

[@narenmikka7392]

This is the most genuine and apt portrayal of anxiety I've observed from any influencer. Thank you for sharing and helping me feel less alone !

[@giannaparise6111]

I didn’t realize how bad my anxiety was until I watched this. It honestly became so normal to me. But I promise it gets better.

[@moeee7160]

I couldnt even imagine, I'm so sorry you had to watch a friend go through that. Mental Health is something you really have to protect, im so glaf the stimga around it and going to therapy has subsides a little bit. also, i have anxiety like this ever since i was 15, my panic attacks kept getting worse and worse and right now i have 3-4 a week, which is actually better than what i was a couple of months ago.

[@kelseymurphy2604]

Hey Ashly, I've also dealt with the same issues. I actually got to the point where I couldn't use a whole side of my body... could've swore I was having literal strokes. So many brain scans later with them finding... again literally nothing. I did finally see a doctor that did check my thyroid. If you go back specifically ask for thyroid labs, because they aren't part of the typical blood panel. Also ask them to test ALL of your thyroid levels because they may only test a select few otherwise. It is super scary and it feels like no one else could possibly understand in the moment. Stay strong you're doing great!

[@kristasweetleaf5695]

Great advice Kelsey 👍! Same, my anxiety and panic disorder got so bad last summer I started having grand mal seizures. Brain scans couldn't figure it out, and when I finally demanded thyroid labs was diagnosed with hyperthyroidism. It's pretty common for younger ladies to have thyroid issues but like you said since we have to specifically ask for them it goes unchecked and undiagnosed. Hope you're doing better with it. And Ashly hun I hope it gets better and sending those goodie vibes, we feel ya completely and you're not alone in feeling like this ❤️💜

[@sitavqader4022]

Her trying not to cry breaks my heart :(

[@SelGomezlvr123]

anxiety is such a physical phenomenon and nobody talks about it

[@gen9018]

You describing your experience with anxiety, panic attacks, and PTSD was so spot on to what I have dealt with for the majority of my life. It always shocks me how validating others stories are. I’m so sorry you have to deal with this as well as the traumatic experiences. You are not alone in this ❤️

[@sophiawalter5996]

This was definitely not a notification I was expecting but I couldn’t be happier to see it

[@anthonyshoemaker1920]

Fr

[@MimiChristopher]

From the bottom of my heart I truly hope anyone who’s experiencing something like this keeps an open mind and tries to dive into some alternative healing methods. Balance your mind, body, and soul 🤍 No one should have to live in fear like this.

[@silverxXxlining]

I never realized how much I was self medicating my anxiety until I quit drinking last year. I'm naturally an anxious person and I drank to soothe my anxiety but I ended up getting periods depression from the booze. Now I feel a panic attack coming and I have to choose to ride it out and convince myself I'm not going to die when I previously would have chugged a drink. This was my survival tactic for a decade from 20 to 30 years old. I slowly gained 100 lbs from drinking and battling anxiety and depression. When I finally cut out drinking the weight melted off in 10 months and my mental health improved drastically. People think that alcoholism starts with a party lifestyle they dont realize it is a coping mechanism for millions of people. Thank you for sharing your story. This story spoke to me.

[@zmihaley]

omg I've never seen someone experience anxiety the same way as me when telling a story.. like your smiling, the jokes, the body movements... this is so wild Im so happy I saw this.

[@LinaLina-ul2so]

Ptsd hits you suddenly even when trauma happened 20 years ago , this is what happened with me

[@lindsay2156]

I love how real Ashly is and how she answers questions truthfully and doesn’t avoid them and she doesn’t give a fuck what people think!

[@michaelcarroll6753]

my favorite breathing exercise is naming 5 things you see, 4 things you hear, 3 things you feel, 2 things you smell, and 1 thing you taste out loud. It helps reduce my anxiety so much every time

[@ktp21]

health anxiety isn’t fun, i take care of my mom who’s on kidney failure and i’ve seen her have a stroke and seizure at the same time was one of the scariest things i’ve ever witnessed. i can’t say it gets better, but you just end up…. dealing with it. i do hope you have been able to control it enough to sleep 🤍 glad you’re back!

[@susan5978]

all my love

[@yvonnedixon8035]

My mom had a brain aneurysm rupture and yes it’s definitely the most terrifying thing She’s okay now, however it’s genetic and it’s a lot to process

[@AshBear2008]

god bless you!!! Moms are so special. You are such a great daughter to be going through this with her.

[@ktp21]

@@AshBear2008 thanks 🥺

[@ktp21]

@@yvonnedixon8035 my momma had that too when I was 12. ive since blocked that part of my life out and don’t remember much. so many prayers to you and your mom 💚 they’re amazing and gotta cherish them. when you turn 18(not sure how old you are) talk to a doctor and get an MRI if they can detect it before it ruptures, it might help ease your anxiety 💚

[@jaycievaline7826]

This is the most real and accurate description of anxiety by any influencer of any kind that I have seen. Thank you for sharing and making it feel a little less lonely! It goes in phases for sure. The travel anxiety from aa past ptsd experience has been my biggest challenge. But I promise it is not impossible!

[@marinamanzanares3122]

You have any time at miiu

[@EB-3002]

Agreed 1000%

[@laceyynicole21]

Sweet girl, my heart goes out to you because I can relate in so many ways how awful your experiences have been. Someone put a “party drug” in my drink several years ago and it caused me to basically have a mental break down.. that’s truly how bad my anxiety was afterwards. I could barely eat for months because my anxiety convinced me all my food had been drugged ..unless I prepared it myself. It was so hard. I’ll never forget how hard it was. I sounded like a lunatic to friends and family because no one could understand how much my experiences had unnerved me. I’m so sorry this happened to you. I don’t wish it on anyone. Keep talking about these things, you’re getting stronger one day at a time and processing. You’ll look back on this chapter one day and see how far you’ve come. I know because I’m in control of my anxiety now. It took several years and seemed so impossible but it can be done if you do the work. ❤️Hugs to you ❤️

[@WorldOfNicky]

My ex did this to me so I fully can empathize and relate to you. I felt so insane, and people looked at me like “he poisoned you one time... get over it”

[@beccccaaa]

Wow I respect that you actually addressed the Brooke questions haha I fully speculated that that was the situation but so surprised that you had the balls to answer it and proud of you for being so respectful ❤️

[@laurenbologna5828]

When does she address it

[@beccccaaa]

@@laurenbologna5828 @01:01:11

[@sammi_norris]

Can someone fill me in on Brooke?

[@beccccaaa]

@@sammi_norris what u wanna know?

[@DogAgLover]

@@beccccaaa what did she do badly

[@aliciagomez8335]

I understand your aversion to prescription medicine… but honestly getting on anxiety medicine saved my life. I had crippling anxiety for years and getting on medication changed my life entirely. it takes a lot of self-control but that’s just my story. also being on medication, helped me stop drinking as much. love you and you got this babe❤️

[@morgsgalores3554]

Same! People who have severe anxiety don’t have a choice because you just can’t function and not work and wait for your therapy session but having both has literally saved my life as well. I’m glad people are finally talking about this

[@ashleycole3991]

Me too! I never left my house before and couldn't even get a job. Now I am working full time and still have a little anxiety but it is managable :)

[@emilya9947]

People don’t realize that anxiety can be a chemical imbalance that you can’t just outthink. Sometimes medications really do help people and balance the imbalance!

[@dannyc2925]

Good anxiety medecine recommendations? my anxiety is physically stopping me from doing everything

[@Isa-cq8pu]

wish it wasn’t so hard to find a med that works

[@user-tx2ek1qe2d]

for anyone who suffers with panic attacks/anxiety something that really helps me is biting into a lemon or eating something really spicy - it shocks ur body and helps calm down your brain

[@ccshorts8613]

thank you i will be trying this next time!

[@maegannorris]

Peppermint too

[@crockitty2069]

so relatable so glad you’re back. this year was the hardest year of my life mentally and i finally feel like it can only go up from here.

[@Taaywillz]

No one wants to talk about weed panic attacks because “that wasn’t weed” and it definitely was, it affects everyone differently i remember having one and it was terrible. And I’ve had major ptsd from it, and even smelling weed makes me panic. And I’m relate so much relate to this. Thank you for sharing Ash💗 it makes me feel so much better 💗💗💗

[@carleyjune]

I’ve had health anxiety my entire life and this is exactly how it feels. Once it starts it’s just a cycle impossible to break out of. Therapy and CBT was the only thing that saved me and now I can function again. Thanks for sharing your story :)

[@fc23389]

As someone who deals with panic attacks and anxiety attacks. My heart goes out to you. It really is so hard, and a lot of people don’t understand how hard it is to be in a war with yourself for yourself. I also have the worst car anxiety, so I feel you. Mediation & therapy has been my savior. I’ve developed more healthy coping mechanisms. I pray you find your strength and get through it. You’re not alone tho! Right here with ya sis.

[@Beepb00p27]

The best advice I got with panic attacks was that you feel like you can’t breathe because your lungs are already mostly filled with air. So trying to do breathing exercises starting with an inhale won’t be really effective which usually causes more panic. So try doing a deep exhale as long as you can before trying a breathing exercise. Hope that helps💖

[@sunsnowfitness116]

I've never heard this before! Thank you for sharing, this is going to make a huge difference for me and others too I hope

[@Beepb00p27]

@@sunsnowfitness116 I’ve seen many professionals about my panic attacks and only one of them taught me this.. it has helped me so much to break out of hyperventilating, I feel like it should be taught more! All the best💕

[@princessbubblegumganggang710]

Very good advice

[@gabriellar9576]

Girl, this hurt me so much..I'm so sorry. I can relate to a lot of this. Having my mom almost die in front of me has definitely changed the way I look at everything. The sounds are so real. I'm so sorry you had to go through this pain. Thank you for sharing and being real ❤️

[@lilmeg8447]

This video was like watching all the symptoms I never heard anyone else talk about and It seriously feels so good to hear someone else talk on this. I’m sorry you’re going through this but ty for posting fr 😭

[@hol.smithxo]

Girl from the beginning I was going to comment on it being your thyroid. I have hypothyroidism & Hashimoto’s thyroiditis. What you experienced is similar to what I went through undiagnosed. I would highly recommended a FULL thyroid panel. Nutrition can only go so far in some cases. You can’t get TSH from food. And just because you’re numbers are in range, doesn’t make them optimal 😞 I was recommended to cut out gluten and caffeine. It’s been tough but it has helped!

[@BreaMichelle3]

That is so not cool of that “chef” to put cannabis in your food without your consent or knowledge. I hope someone confronted him on how messed up that is. So sorry that happened! I can’t handle edibles either.

[@user-np8yf8fj2w]

i think it was more the person who hired the chef rather than the chef

[@dancinggold17]

That's their job. They are paid a lot extra to cook everything with cannabis butter. Blame another one of her insane, toxic "friends."

[@kayashley4428]

@@dancinggold17 yeah I feel one of her friends set it up on purpose and thought it would be fine. Ashly needs better, sober friends. She deserves so much more then that.

[@NZBeautiful]

@@user-np8yf8fj2w I was thinking this too, but I feel like each dish that was served should’ve come with a warning sign that it contained thc and how much. Blame can definitely placed on whoever arranged this situation and whoever served these dishes without explicit consent from each person

[@BreaMichelle3]

Julia W exactly that! The chef should be professional enough to ensure that everyone has consented to their food being made with thc. Doesn’t matter who set it up in my opinion- everyone should know and be reminded right before they eat!

[@bellatwixxz4091]

proud to have you back, missed you. Youre really strong Ashly and you inspire us. im sorry for the things you went through but thankyou for sharing your story. comforting to know were not alone in our mental health issues

[@maddies4947]

It’s crazy because this is exactly what I’ve been feeling for the past 6 months and it’s the first time hearing someone having the same experience I have been going through. It’s so hard talking to other people about it because they aren’t going through it so they don’t exactly know what it feels like but it literally is torture, but slowly I am getting better everyday by not thinking about it and acting like it’s not actually a part of me, just something I’m going through that I know will someday go away.

[@TessaStockwell]

It makes me so sad to know that other people have felt the same I have with anxiety and panic attacks.. I always think I’m alone with my anxiety but unfortunately so many others deal with it as well. It sucks but it’s nice to know you’re not alone and that what your feeling is real. Thank you for sharing your story you’re so brave ❤️

[@Amandalancaster3421]

Literally want to cry watching this Bc I’ve never heard anyone describe how my anxiety and panic attacks feel so accurately, thank u for sharing this and you’re not alone!

[@sydneyfarthing1328]

I went through the same thing at 23. I considered it a spiritual awakening. Each time that happens, it gets a little easier. I think my breakup triggered it.

[@Nerotheraccoon]

Omg me right now

[@sydneyfarthing1328]

@@Nerotheraccoon hang in there!! You’ll get through and everything will make sense afterwards, I promise !!

[@MimiChristopher]

My exact thoughts… what she went through sounds like a healing crisis which is often apart of a spiritual awakening

[@M3owijuana]

i reccomend a technique called grounding. essentially its focusing on one object. describing it and things around you. the smell, touch, taste, color.

[@brookehenderson5762]

I call PTSD “path to self discovery” - because the recovery takes many forms, it takes different amounts of time. But in the end, you couldn’t be happier with your true self. Don’t put yourself down - ptsd literally rewires the neurons in your brain. You are wired to go into fight or flight. You are doing amazing babe, you’re not alone 💞

[@AshlySchwan]

i love this, thank you ❤

[@brileybarker1183]

This is amazing ! ❤️ Thank you

[@emilymatthews8045]

I absolutely love this! ❤️

[@lauren675]

This is so true

[@jaimelynn6464]

♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

[@LifeWithRegan]

From the start of the anxiety…I literally relate so hard it’s actually crazy. This helped me find words to communicate how I’ve felt to my therapist.

[@Love-rt8sx]

Take ashwagandha!!!! It has helped me tremendously with my ptsd, anxiety and even depression! Also please look into breast implant illness bc you have a lot of the same symptoms as my mom did who recently removed her implants!

[@kelsiblust484]

The breast implants are what I was thinking too! I used to want them but after reading countless people’s experiences with getting sick from them I changed my mind. The symptoms really remind me of what I had read about… I really hope she sees this comment!

[@saber7036]

Omg. I never thought about that. Boosting this!!!! Also I've heard lots about ashwaganda and I'm excited to try it. I struggle with anxiety and depression and am all about the natural remedies.

[@emilystich23]

Ashwagandha didn’t work for me. supplements are really trial and error. :/

[@catherinedownie5824]

I realllllly hope she sees this comment!!! I really feel like it could be breast implant illness!

[@00mhedderson00]

Omg yes I agree with the Breast implant illness !!!!!!!!!!!!! It’s so real

[@RH-pq9fg]

It’s crazy how mental illness works and presents itself. I fainted around 2 years ago in a hospital setting - when the doctors weren’t paying attention to what I actually wanted. I was also very stressed and going through major life changes and then ever since that day I developed the craziest panic attacks, hospital anxiety, ambulance anxiety, motion anxiety (?) moving made me feel like I’d lose control and faint. It was absolutely awful. Prior to this I’d never had any kind of panic attack and all of a sudden it took over my life for 2+ years. Luckily, due to help from a CBT specialist and intense therapy it’s been around a year since my last panic attack which is absolutely insane considering I’d never imagined leaving the house feeling normal again. The shaky hands, the fingertips feeling numb, tingly face all of those were my symptoms as well. I was convinced there was something else medically wrong and had all kinds of test done

[@annaharris7091]

Aw I’m going through the dizzy anxiety rn and scared of passing out. I’m so glad you’re better.

[@RH-pq9fg]

@@annaharris7091 this too shall pass ❤️ my most effective grounding methods were: taking my shoes and socks off (sounds crazy I know) and just letting them touch the floor, or get a bowl of freezing cold water and just keep my hands in it and it kinda shocked me making me forget about the other symptoms. I also used a cold flannel next to me in the evenings in case I got that feeling in bed, rang a relative on FaceTime to distract myself. Also sometimes the dizziness can be caused by an alteration in BP because you’ve really worked yourself up so having small cartons of apple/orange juice can balance you out xx It’s actually the most debilitating thing ever and most definitely the hardest thing I’ve ever been through so to come out of the other side and to be able to say ‘I survived this’ is kinda great

[@jamiiepederson8267]

This gave me so much anxiety. I've been there girl. I figured the only thing that would help was alcohol. 10 years, full blown alcoholic, 24 beers in a day just to not get withdrawals, couldn't get drunk anymore, and severe anxiety. I got hospitalized with pancreatitis. I was on my death bed. I quit drinking the day I went to the hospital almost 4 years ago. Stop drinking girl. It's making your anxiety 1000 times worse. Believe me. It will effect you negatively in the long run. You got this, keep fighting.

[@rahnstahppable]

This video was almost hard for me to watch because I relate so heavily to it. I doubt you’ll ever see this because you posted this so long ago but THANK YOU for sharing this. I’ve struggled to get back into normal life since quarantine, and had an extremely bad weed panic attack early 2021 that caused essentially the same things you experienced, minus some of the physical symptoms. I still haven’t traveled farther than an hour and a half from my house since June 2021 when I had another panic attack that made me scared to leave the house out of fear of feeling that anxiety again. I’m honestly almost in tears to know I’m not the only person that’s gone through something like this because I have shamed myself for almost 2 years now about what I’ve gone through. I highly recommend hypnotherapy, it takes a few sessions to really get the results you want but it isn’t what you think it is. It’s basically meditating while someone helps reprogram your subconscious mind, no hypnotizing you to quack like a duck or the things you see on tv. I wish you the best of luck Ashly. Our anxiety and the things we’ve been through do not define us and we are going to overcome this ♥️

[@AshlySchwan]

Girllllll! we are far from the only people to be going through this! i got so many responses from people everywhere that have gone through, or are going through this! as much as it sucks, we’re definitely not alone! ❤️❤️

[@leahloveeee]

I get this so much!! I went from being so sociable and “normal” to having insane social anxiety and ptsd and I also withdrew from my friend group because I felt weird and I couldn’t cope. I miss the old me so much but I’m also learning to cope and manage with the new me, nothing worse than being at war with your own body. sending you lots of ❤️

[@leahloveeee]

Also if you haven’t already look into herbal supplements (ashwaganda, lions mane mushroom, 5 htp) all have really helped me x

[@saaantacruz]

Same here ❤️

[@samanthabrooke96]

i feel this to my soul lol down to the weed, the car, everything. i’ve been going through this for 10+ years at this point. therapy and medicine have helped but it’s never gone away completely so i empathize for you. so sorry you or anyone else has to go through this ❤️ PS mine also stemmed from a medical traumatic experience

[@samanthabrooke96]

another thing- CBD oil (tinctures with NO thc) has helped me wean off ativan so you could def try that out.

[@rachelbuck5673]

I appreciate how real and raw this video is but I’m so sorry you had to go through all that 🙁

[@Kaye-sf9jd]

I am an alcoholic in recovery. I had really bad depression and anxiety after a traumatic event. Alcohol was the only thing that helped my anxiety and it really made everything worse. My life was eventually destroyed by it. Thank you for talking about this, it’s important for young people to know❤️

[@MaddieRose5311]

A ER nurse told me when you start to feel a panic attack coming on take deep breaths in through your nose and blow out your mouth like you’re blowing out candles. You just keep doing that and it helps regulate your breathing! So sorry you’ve been experiencing this❤️

[@SUZSMITH]

Yes, and this is a top tip, but start focusing on your foot. Just tap it and focus only on that it will help so much.

[@emma8channel]

Ashley I normally don’t see your videos but saw this in my recommended and I was SHOOK. I went through this exact experience WORD FOR WORD. The fear of being in a car, manifesting into a fear of being on a plane, manifesting in being afraid to leave the house. I have fully recovered from this fear and it only took me a few months. #1 YOU MUST DO EXPOSURE THERAPY: start by driving in a car with a friend for 5 min, then 10 min, then 15 min etc. Work up to driving by yourself. When you begin to experience anxiety this is a good thing because, after the anxiety subsides, your brain begins to realize that the panic is not “forever.” Over time, the panic will decrease, your brain will literally re-wire how you associate driving/anxiety. You must do exposure therapy every day - EVEN IF U DONT WANT TO OR ARE SCARED. #2 keep working out- try to do 30 min of cardio #3 keep up the gut health #4 see a therapist that can guide you through the panic, and practice calming techniques with you in person. I did all of this and was 50% better in a month and 100% better in 3 months. Good luck hun❤️

[@SUZSMITH]

Same thing happened to me 25 years ago. It was absolutely horrible and like you I had to go to a shrink and we had to practice going up elevators. It was debilitating. People should not think that weed is harmless. It can really mess you up mentally and last for a very long time.

[@triinjoon2612]

Please get a christmas tree this year and be with your loved ones! We're here for you whenever you're ready.

[@abbivirginia]

i’ve had such similar experiences with very similar triggers. it’s something about psychedelics and trauma/anxiety that don’t mix a lot of times. i really feel for you. anxiety can feel like it’s talking over your life at times and it’s a scary and defeating feeling.

[@scarlettlaure]

I felt this so hard. I ended up in the hospital with a panick attack when quarantine first started because I thought I was going to die. I have really horrible ptsd and insane driving anxiety. People make fun of me for not being able to drive all the time but they don’t understand how hard it is to get behind the wheel when you constantly feel like you are going to die. I have worked through my anxiety pretty well and I’m kinda going through it rn with the ptsd but the last thing I have to battle is driving because it scares me so much. And I can not smoke weed anymore either so when you talked about how negatively it affects you I completely understand because I’m the same way with it. You got this girl I promise!!!

[@analenaruffolo8691]

I am going through this right now. Finally an influencer who is able to describe this! It’s so so hard and such a process :(

[@GoodNightAutumn8]

Thank you for sharing this, Ashley. I had my first panic attack while I was high and developed panic disorder and agoraphobia. This really resonated with me. Thank you for being so authentic and I wish you continued strength and healing.

[@amyelizabeth7880]

I'm so sorry 😞 my brother in law was killed in a head on collision in 2015 and I STILL get car anxiety. I hope you find you way through this. ❤

[@tonya841]

I finally broke the anxiety drinking cycle after two years of daily drinking (ptsd after car accident), I had to get 5 (1 a day) Valium from my dr. Been sober since thanksgiving! It’s so hard to break this cycle since alcohol and pills help so fast! I. So happy to be free thanks for sharing

[@teddybear28ML]

Yes, i think that it can turn quickly into an addiction, and she didnt seem ro be completely aware.

[@RachelIlacqua14]

Congrats!! 🎈🎉

[@Seewhyself]

Congrats! Alcohol literally kills people. Keep pushing!

[@RachelIlacqua14]

@@Seewhyself too many. We should celebrate all those that make it because most people don’t. Keep fighting you’re worth I promise!

[@airiannastone2158]

i’ve had panic attacks since i was 10 and it is awful it’s gotten better over the years and it feels like there’s no way to calm it down it’s the scariest feeling

[@hg13589]

I agree for me the only way it goes away is when im like a hundred percent sure everything is fine

[@NoneyaBusiness-fs9en]

Ashley I know this is 2 years later but you described my ptsd and anxiety better than I've heard from many. Wow the not being able to text or think aspect of a panic attack isn't talked about

[@catherineb4917]

Babe I have had driving anxiety on and off for years now, this most recent “episode” of it has lasted almost a year too and I pretty much haven’t driven myself in that entire time. No one talks about how debilitating driving/travel/car anxiety is (and all anxiety) you’re amazing and I know you’ll work thru this ❤️

[@brighteyez6508]

As someone who’s dealt with this kind of stuff my whole life….it’s taken me years but I’ve finally found the best method when something like this to happening is to actually literally pretend and freak out like you are dying. Like you are in a movie doing a dying scene it psychologically tricks you and has you realize you are in fact not dying and that everything is okay. There’s been so many times where I was about to pass out or felt like I was going to actually stroke out because of anxiety and doing this since has truly helped every time…it’s actually kinda funny how it helps

[@natj25]

Thank you for being so transparent! I developed alcoholism due to anxiety as well! The shaking, the tingling the neck thing all of that! I am sorry you went through that but it’s really helping me listen to someone who has struggled the same way! It messes your whole entire body up! It’s crazy how dependent your body gets to it!!!

[@robynstarko4786]

Okay but the fact her boyfriend knew she got high on accident and was freaking out and he let her drive herself and didn’t come to pick her up???

[@madisonbraaten767]

🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩

[@jazminnicole8085]

my first thought *cough* okay moving on lol

[@jennalee5544]

Good thing he's not her boyfriend anymore I say!

[@autumnrose538]

That's literally what I thought! My boyfriend would NEVER let me drive if he knew I was just a little bit intoxicated LET ALONE high out of my mind!

[@alyssac1739]

They way you describe each symptom is pretty much IDENTICAL to what I went through for like 2 years. It was terrible.

[@jessshafer8045]

As someone who gets panic attacks while driving the best thing that has helped me is listening to podcasts while driving !

[@bekahmarie4335]

Do you have any tips on what to do when you try to put on a podcast you love but can't focus because your thinking about your heart racing and think you'll have a heart attack.??

[@camilaaguirreleon1557]

My sister fell in the bathroom and dislocated her knee, she's fine she's 14 she recovered in like 2 weeks. But dude thats scream I heard from the bathroom HAUNTS me, I jump at the slightest sound and cant sleep unless its like 2am and I know everybody in the house is asleep and ok.

[@squoze1891]

This was the most relatable video I’ve seen this year. My brother died suddenly from a rare disease last year at the age of 30, and we didn’t even know he was sick until right before he died. I flew home just in time to see him be taken off life support and die in front of me. The constant panic attacks and anxiety for the year following have been the worst thing I have ever experienced. I never thought I would be able to get a handle on them. I just want you to know you are stronger than you think, and you are capable of getting a better hold on it whether you think you are or not. I understand that now as well. The accuracy of the “7 more minutes in the car” is to on point because I’ve been the same and have had to exit buses and social situations where it was only a few minutes left but I felt like I was going to physically explode if I stayed

[@squoze1891]

The hangover anxiety (or as I call it “hangxiety) is also the worst, I’ve started making sure I have a water after every single drink so that I don’t wake up with a hangover and that has helped a lot

[@squoze1891]

Sorry I’m just adding stuff as I watch it but the back of neck pain and back of head pain was identical to what I get. It’s so fucking comforting to know that other people get that too, I thought I was going crazy. I thought I was going to have an aneurysm burst every other day

[@AshlySchwan]

SAME OMG ILY 🥺❤️

[@SelGomezlvr123]

every single thing you’re describing literally happened to me. from the freak out about losing the people closest, to the panic attacks (also from weed), general anxiety… i swear to you it will get better. one say i woke up and i was my old self

[@DeRosanKerst]

hopefully i will have this soon

[@LifeWithRegan]

After a year of multiple testings and the exact same issues as you, I’ve found nothing. It truly is a physical manifest of anxiety and eating better does help that. I’ve had teams of doctors help and they truly treat it like a true disease. It is. Anxiety can manifest in insane ways. My doctor said once she saw someone go blind from stress. It’s real. And it needs to be destigmatized so we can get the help we need.

[@bethanynelson6257]

I feel you on the never growing up going to the doctor thing, the anxiety I get with even the thought of setting up a doctors appointment is SO CUTE

[@Account1131a]

Thanks for sharing your story Ashly, you’ve been through a lot and it must’ve been really hard to share this. Do you think any of this could be related to breast implant illness? A lot of the symptoms you were reading off your phone (brain fog, neck pain, etc.) sound like symptoms of breast implant illness. I don’t know much about it but you should think about looking into it. Wishing you the best of luck in your healing process 💕

[@00mhedderson00]

I just commented this too and my comment was deleted 😂

[@ashleyburns95]

I wonder if she saw someone overdose. I’m 3 years sober now, and seeing that happen to people around me when I was in active addiction was really traumatizing. I hope you’re okay Ashley, we’ve really missed you ❤️

[@brie9119]

Not assuming anything that is not my business, but I’ve also heard someone overdose and gasp the most scariest longest sound and it still makes my bones shake thinking about it. Glad you’re well now, congrats to you💜❤️

[@kemperr_]

i was thinking the same thing, it seems to be happening a lot within the past few years. that or maybe a seizure from xanax

[@bekahkashtan]

Doesn’t make too much sense only because she says she is afraid it can happen to her now atm any time- so I’m thinking something like a seizure or heart attack, or aneurysm or something so random and instant and out of her control..

[@user-wp4ys9sn7b]

Overdosed on Xanax and that's why she won't take it

[@savannakokitka2582]

I agree the way she worded it made it seem that way

[@annetr4577]

Honestly thank you for being so transparent. I’ve been going through something super similar and it makes me feel less guilty to see you talk about it

[@emilymcleod5512]

I relate to this so much I have the worst anxiety and health anxiety, for the last 2 years can’t leave the house, eat, sleep or work! it’s so relieving to hear your story to know that I’m not alone and someone else understands. It gets better ❤️

[@MissAnaax3]

The fact that there’s someone else that went thru the same exact anxiety issues I had is so comforting. For the last 3 years I had super bad car and travel anxiety, it has definitely made me feel defeated and ruined a lot of memories I could have made with family and friends just because I refused to get in the car for longer then 10 mins. But this last year I’ve worked on getting my mental health on track, I just moved from NY to FL and we drove 17 hrs!!!! That was the biggest accomplishment I’ve had, and leading up to that day I was having severe anxiety because I was like there’s NOO WAY I can do it but I did it and I’m so proud of myself! There’s so much of this story that is so relatable to me that can’t believe it’s I’m so grateful that you shared your story, I know that I’m not alone.. going through times like this makes you feel crazy and misunderstood because it’s so hard to explain what our brains are going thru. You will continue better and feel better, the best advice is to keep your surroundings and environment positive and healthy and it will eventually help.

[@ruthabera1159]

I’ve had anxiety pretty much my whole life - feels like a living hell. So happy your improving you deserve that ❤️❤️

[@harvestthenugg]

Hey Ashly, as someone with anxiety, I really appreciate you sharing this with us. That being said, I know one thing that has helped me a lot was taking a break from coffee, then when I brought it back spacing out the days that I have it (I know, I used to be a heavy espresso drinker). The caffeine contributes to anxiety, and having days you have to wait for it can give you something to look forward to, as well as make it more enjoyable overall. Also, caffeine on top of general sluggishness and anxiety can be contributing to the crash you're experiencing every day at 4pm. Initially, you think that you need the burst of caffeine to get you up in the morning, but that really isn't true once you step away from it for a few days; your energy is more evened out throughout the day instead of a peak and crash. Edit: I made it to the coffee portion of the video 😅 still, the point remains lmao

[@izabellalittell5431]

I’m a psych major.. I was just watching this and I am sure you’ve been told countless times since you posted this - but something I’ve learned while being in school is that alcohol is called an anxiolytic drug. Which means it is anxiety reducing (as u know, temporarily) but when drugs are anxiolytic, whatever they take FROM you (i.e. anxiety) they give BACK to you tenfold when you are “off” of it or when you have a hangover. I am a super anxious person and sometimes for me hearing things like that, like scientific, almost helps me cope better or allow myself to understand what I am going through and that it is a science in a way. I am late to this vid so I hope things have gotten easier for you. I’m happy you were so consistently open and aware with yourself. It is one of the best things you can do.

[@rachelkiely3206]

It’s so crazy to hear how much the pandemic/anxiety has effected so many different people in different ways. Someone special in my life went through a similar journey during this year too. His mental health just dropped so quickly out of the blue & had a lot of the same symptoms as you. Tunnel vision, brain zaps, heart palpitations, panic attacks. He stopped drinking coffee, smoking, all of the usual things he used to enjoy. He’s doing a lot better but after numerous doctor visits & perseverance. I hope you’re feeling better because everything does get better, eventually 💕

[@kennaaccettola2765]

I have never heard someone explain anxiety so correctly. Crazy how many of us struggle with the same exact thing!! 🥺

[@rachealfaucher4520]

she has made me realize that i suffer from anxiety FAR MORE than i ever realized.

[@alexadawson9254]

I honestly feel your pain when i was around 18 my friend actually passed away in a bad car accident . And it just triggered anxiety i never delt with before and got panic attacks the same way as you . I actually know when you have panic attacks and dont get enough oxygen in , it causes to make your limbs to feel numb so that could be part of what you were feeling . But im 28 now , im alot better than i was but here and there anxiety comes back out of no where . So i feel your pain . But im glad your feeling better ☺️

[@mariahmuoioful]

When I was at my worst my panic attack went for 3 days. Your description of it is so accurate thank u for sharing your story! Thank god feelings are transient and I wish you the best for your healing journey

[@Shaaaxo]

People don’t even realise how bad anxiety attacks are. My entire body goes numb to the point I get scared I’m going to lose control of my bodily functions, I.e breathing (feels like you’re not breathing), peeing like I get scared I’m gonna piss my pants, I can barely see it’s like tunnel vision, time feels different, you’re hyper aware like the smallest things you can hear or sometimes you can’t hear everything is like underwater sounding, like it’s just everything it’s so horrible it feels like you’re dying

[@chl0420]

if ur bf at the time knew you were so high why would he let you drive urself to his house-

[@beccccaaa]

THIS ??? that’s fucked up

[@samanthameade4379]

I was thinking the same thing. Why didn't he go to her?!?

[@JewelryLegends]

Hence why they’re broken up

[@rachelbuck5673]

EXACTLY especially since he lived so close like go get her??

[@morganguzman388]

:( she literally called him freaking out makes me feel so bad

[@Ali.3n]

I like that you are talking about this.. it’s strange to me to hear you voice out things I feel on the daily. All I can say is you get a hang of it and end up being able to control it better. Good luck and I’m proud of u

[@shayapillai8072]

Almost every symptom you described used to happen to me and it used to happen when I would stay in bed/ at home all day. Stepping out into nature really helps even if your not out out. I would also recommended cutting down if not stopping coffee all together. It helped bring down my anxiety a lot.

[@xannydink]

i went thru a similar experience of seeing someone i love die years ago and ik where you’re coming from. some things i’ve learned to help me cope are to practice mindfulness daily to help you get out of your head, abstain from drugs/alcohol/any substance when you feel sad or depressed - it’ll only make you react to that stressor later when you’re sober, go to a counselor/therapist who specializes in CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) - it helps tremendously to process your feelings and to get you out of negative thought spirals, practicing healthy habits - having a daily routine that makes you feel good helps on days when you don’t wanna get out of bed bc it gives you something to look forward to, and most importantly: don’t be too hard on yourself. you went through something really hurtful and the fact that you’re still up and fighting for your mental health today is something to be proud of. love you :)

[@lethalharley2164]

I have general anxiety and a panic disorder. it started when I was 24. I got up one day and just felt this sense that something was wrong but everything was perfectly fine. we were in the car on the highway later that day to go shopping and suddenly it was like I lost all control. My chest hurt so bad that I thought I was having a heart attack. my chest hurt, my face hurt, my fingers and face were tingling and I started sobbing and couldn't stop. I went to the ER because I thought I was dieing. several hours of testing, where I kept having all those symptoms on and off, and they literally told me that I had severe anxiety and a panic disorder. They said my anxiety made me breathe so poorly that my brain would lose oxygen and I kept almost passing out from lack of oxygen. They prescribed me anti anxiety pills but told me that they would prefer if I try breathing techniques and grounding techniques before relying on pills. I'm so greatful that they told me that, instead of just making me reliant on the pills. It's been roughly 2 years since it all started. Grounding seems to help, for me personally. Health related scares, on the other hand, there is no stopping it. People don't realize how truly life altering it is to live with this. I wish you the best. And I hope anyone reading my comment finds whatever eases their anxiety and makes life more tolerable.

[@meee0w134]

I haven't finished watching yet, but I have never heard someone have such a similar story as mine. I hate that you are going through this, but it makes me feel a little less crazy lol.

[@kristinabarker9203]

Same girl !

[@alejandrasoria3690]

Same girl, I started dealing with this and was diagnosed with depression. I was able to feel better after taking anti depressants but my driving anxiety never went away

[@desimarie1846]

Same here girl! So proud of everyone who gets themselves through it

[@meee0w134]

@@desimarie1846 yes

[@meee0w134]

@@alejandrasoria3690 im so sorry :( but thats so so good that u feel better! its a step in the right direction