A weekend away || anorexia recovery

[@TheAlicesense]

Love this video! Always so helpful. Are there times you are still restricting when at home or why do you think you still have ED thoughts so frequently?

[@searchingforjewels9070]

Haha you are asking the million dollar question! I have asked my therapist a lot of times, WHY do I still have these annoying ED thoughts. Basically seems like I just have to be patient. I've had an ED for a while so it's going to take some time for my brain to rewire. I do want to say though that the thoughts are WAY not as bad as they used to be. In my vids I talk about the challenges I'm facing more than anything else, so the amount of ED thoughts I have in my vids are probably disproportionate to reality. I'm also really trying to challenge every aspect of my ED, which means I'm still gonna have thoughts popping up. I could pretty easily live my life now, not challenging the remaining parts of my ED, and probably appear and feel fairly 'normal'. But I don't want any ED left in my life so I am trying to make sure I have absolutely no ED fears/anxiety left. I try my best not to restrict ever, but I am by no means perfect. I don't follow a meal plan anymore and am trying to eat 'intuitively' but sometimes I screw up. I'm still learning. I feel like I could record a whole vid in response to your question haha! Thank you for your support xx

[@taylacherry2433]

how goes lockdown mark 4? Crazy how there keeps being community cases popping up randomly in Auckland aye? 😂

[@searchingforjewels9070]

Hahahaha yeahhh..... Sighhhhh it is very frustrating this time..... But not something I have any control over so just have to accept it. Still though we've had a much much better time so far than other parts of the world so I am grateful for that!