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[@marzouk6270]

I watched this while tired and planning on playing league, but it made me realise how lucky I 'am to be able to sleep.

[@BennieDuck]

Thinking the same thing bro

[@sevakshah6880]

You have to be grateful i cant sleep since i was 13 you are so lucky

[@marzouk6270]

Sweet dreams, man. ​@BennieDuck

[@marzouk6270]

Im sorry to hear that man. ​@sevakshah6880

[@Plight_]

Cant end the night on a L bro you got to keep playing

[@-_noble_-2621]

If you're EVER having a really brain dead day, remember that theres people in x's chat who said "Why not call an ambulance?"

[@kafferkook]

thanks i'll keep that in mind

[@faemttv]

so.. why not call an ambulance?

[@Malfoy264]

@@faemttv in the video it was mentioned that he has no health insurance/ money issues

[@Malfoy264]

@@faemttv and iirc in the US, the average ambulance cost can go up to 1000 dollars( just for the ride)

[@-_noble_-2621]

@@Malfoy264 its more than that just a lone, if anyone genuinly is smooth brain enough to believe a "simple ambulance ride to the hospital" would fix anything, is also the thing (I try to assume some people have at least a single lvl of IQ). However, yes this is def part of it too👍, He was crying for help, because he literally could not afford it, and money comes before anything sadly. X chat reminds me that there is always dumber people 🫡

[@finite_yt]

bro his son's footage on the end made me cry ngl. thats actually sad as fuck, bro.

[@budgetking2591]

My brother had the same thing, his problem was always being able to sleep, if he was lucky he could sleep 2-3 hours, he passed away 2 years ago he was only 33 years old.

[@BennieDuck]

Sorry to hear that man

[@marzouk6270]

im sorry man

[@DanHosler]

XqcL 💛🫡

[@BrawlStars-ze6jn]

He took that same medicine?

[@likeyeeah]

Are you dumb?@@BrawlStars-ze6jn

[@IK-nv3hr]

This was so incredibly sad man. Jesus...

[@DeusGaming-xh1nl]

Fr. I don't think I'm going to watch xqc react to any of these sad/creepy/scary vids anymore because it's actually fucked how anyone can laugh during this. And his chat is even worse. Actual brain rot

[@kingcheese_]

fr when he showed the facebook message to his son, i havent cried like that in a minute

[@chiros4509]

@@DeusGaming-xh1nl I don't understand what was so funny about a man slowly dying. I was low-key getting mad when he started laughing.

[@kingcheese_]

@@chiros4509 literally. like just minutes before that the dude was talking about how he's been bedridden for a year and has given up on living anymore

[@ForgottenSoldier2023]

I am becoming like that man. I am losing my mind….

[@Lislio]

this is why u go to the doctor for prescription drugs, dosage is super important, as well as choosing the right antibiotic as it depends on the patient and bacteria involved. and on top of that bad use of antibiotics will also make bacteria resistant to them which will fuck over lots of people in the future

[@kissbeyond]

You need insurance. It's not that simple unfortunately.

[@xennori1409]

He should be able to get help in Indonesia. USA i understand.. People in Europe have to explain US tourists to get help when they feel sick since its free and they never go and suffer instead. I feel like he self diagnosed himself while his mental state was fked to the stage he trully believed no doctor could help him anymore.. Or they really had no idea how in there.. He never said he didnt visit a doctor and even thanked a neurologist. The meds he was taking to get at least 2hrs of sleep didnt jist appear out of nowhere.

[@kissbeyond]

@@xennori1409 he's bound to his bed, an when he was able to walk he was tired from working, also don't forget to mention he was in the USA when he first was in dire need of medical treatment but like said before you need insurance.

[@yxtreme3853]

​@@kissbeyondyou don't need insurance, better pay off a debt my whole life rather than leave my son alone

[@cuulmint4490]

@@yxtreme3853bro are u like 10 years old lmfao

[@DogInATaco]

Feel so fucking bad for the dude. Stayed strong and went through absolute torture for nothing more than his son. Really fucking sad...

[@marzouk6270]

Imagine his son Palu finding his father's descent into madness.

[@illegalak5152]

Where's his son now??

[@trevoidc9859]

the dude probably had myasthenia gravis. It says on wikipedia, " In people with myasthenia gravis, there is worsening muscle weakness caused by Ciprofloxacin." This would explain his inability to walk. He had an underlying disease before taking the antibiotics that was exasperated by this particular antibiotic.

[@DanHosler]

Jesus. First time I actually felt depressed watching an X clip Props to Nick for the video. Rip to the guy, shit sounds like hell on earth 😢

[@OnlyExorn]

What a crazy video makes me very grateful for even just simple working nerve functions and sleep

[@mqstro]

This was absolutely tragic. The fact that Ricard made that many videos over more than year, entailing what experiences he was going through and not one person even went to see him in person to help has got to be one of the most sad things I've seen.

[@fida6358]

From the thumbnail I thought this was gonna be about Greek

[@thatpersonyoudidntknowexis149]

The feeling of wanting to sleep but your body refuses is scary. Not a similar experience but I just remembered how scary it is when your body refuses to follow your wishes. I once overdosed on medicine and although I didn't pass out, my body shut down but my brain won't let me sleep. It was a horrifying experience.

[@RFLEEZYUBZ]

I’ve had a similar problem where every time I tried to sleep it feels like I’m falling so I snap back awake. I end up fighting it enough as to where I try to sleep through the falling or getting sucked into space feeling. The lack of sleep I get during will lead to sleep paralysis where it takes a while for me to get back into my body before I can wake myself up.

[@Nyfeee_RL]

Fucking finally, been waiting weeks for him to watch these vids

[@cookiejackb]

truly the greatest reaction of all time

[@user-fh7bx3bl3z]

gotta agree this ist the reaction ever

[@HornyFurry]

Had something VERY similiar to this, when i quit meth cold turkey, constant nightmares(pretty much i always died in the dream, and i could feel the pain as you would imagine, and would always wake up to head explosions(a really loud sound, white noise? aswell as pain, i can't describe, super uncomfortable and straight up scary Pretty much severe sleep paralysis + head explosions that lasted for over 4 months

[@mariothenonplumber]

Glad youre doing better bro thats shit sounds rough

[@austiniscoolduh]

i get that same feeling sometimes... jolting awake with a deep gasp for air. it almost feels like i stop breathing in my sleep. its scary...

[@adangarcia7024]

Have you ever been checked for sleep apnea

[@isaakhall8538]

I sometimes dream about someone choking me and subconsciously hold my breath and then wake up in a jolt gasping for air

[@1xc548]

There is similar cases in context to this medication ciprofloxacin: "A New Zealand surfer, Bob Davie, experienced severe insomnia and tremors linked to an antibiotic, Ciprofloxacin, prescribed for a prostate infection. His condition led him to suicide."

[@RahulSharma-ot3wo]

1:03 why is xqc chat so rude? What a bunch of losers

[@callmesophia5837]

People are so lucky to be able to sleep, I take trazodone to help me but sometimes it doesn’t work 😭

[@nopoint30]

The fact that he was talking jibberish in some videos does not necessarily have to be directly linked to his insomnia. When taking Benzodiazepines, if you are not able to fall asleep it will scramble your brain so much you'll be having some very, very, very strange hallucinations. Not to mention the behavior of said person becomes erratic and prone to do some stuper strange things. That said, this is a very tragic (and strange) story and I hope it gets researched enough so that they may find a solution...

[@Kain1805]

Not really hallucinations but just very weird thoughts and behavior, just like alcohol it disinhibits you severely caused by GABA

[@nopoint30]

It really can, I assure you.

[@CoasterCrazyy]

so sad, the man just wanted to raise his son he loved more then anything. 😞

[@Avenexful]

insomnia is brutal... and the jolting thing while drifting off is actually quite common in insomniacs...

[@calebmartin-ty6er]

That's so scary. image not sleeping for that long

[@throwaway7425]

was curios is something like anesthesia is ineffective in these cases.

[@Kain1805]

Yeah I was wondering the same, but I think just like the benzos it wouldn't have helped in the long run

[@goblingoochgobbler5759]

not sure if anesthesia would actually put him into a meaningful sleep or not

[@handle8423]

this chat bro

[@petemeister1611]

both chat and streamer are trash human beings for laughting at this tradegy...

[@d.trubre5216]

ok but wtf, the alien thing he's talking about his a theory of how human were made by the first being called "the annunakis"

[@d.trubre5216]

16:28 nibiru is their home planet

[@d.trubre5216]

19:36 he mention enki a sumerian god

[@d.trubre5216]

all he talk about are conspiracy theory based on sumerian belief

[@Adrian-fr3on]

Annunaki is one of the most popular movie at indonesia,and some people believed it,Even the media always saying "Anunnaki Banned movie in entire world"

[@Magerquark]

It's crazy how important sleep is and how much it affects us if we don't. I remember once like 10 years ago playing through FF10 over the night. In the morning I went to the supermarket, got some breakfast and felt like a zombie before sleeping right after. And now I'm even more hesitant to take any kind of medicine this is bad

[@Yunahsky]

Upload the segment of him gambling for 8 hours

[@kay_ko]

The stuff with his son at the end acc made me tear up. So heartbreaking man

[@mulawarmankwsuper]

Ahh I remember this guy, he is Indonesian, I remember searching about the fatal insomnia and this guy channle comes up.

[@KateyIsLost]

its crazy that x use to actually get night terrors

[@BigJackMack]

Only a matter of time before Felix reacts to another Mick Bowley video

[@Strangerlove85]

If Florida officials were watching this: "Oh no. There has to be a better solution. On an "unrelated" note when we banning THC?"

[@skaterkyle3560]

I talked to a friend of mine on the internet and he said the exact symptoms. He said if i die.. please know you are a good friend. one night i called him and he never answered.

[@itchiegames]

fake story 100%

[@rainierzx9677]

A streamer's decent into madness

[@N0NE47]

I get this same exact thing from withdrawals.

[@maratesfaye]

stay strong.

[@44murdoc]

Rest easy Ricard

[@JoachimFosse]

Bruh instantly got dyskinesia in his hands upon taking the ciprofloxacin. I def believe the medication he got from his boss may have caused some extremely rare condition I wonder if the medication did something to fuck up his dopamine/serotonin balance. The hypnogogic jerks that kept him awake are a tell tale signs of SSRI withdrawal for example.. Btw, benzo's actually inhibit REM sleep

[@nopoint30]

It seems most logical to me that he suffered from some sort of insomnia, possibly from the pills his boss gave him which in turn made him eat the Benzo's which ultimately made it even less of a possibility to fall asleep. And like you hinted at, the benzo's along with his insomnia probably fried his receptors. Making it even harder for him to fall asleep. God, the more I think about this as I write it the more unsettled I get, like I can't even begin to imagine what his body and mind went through.

[@earthphoenix7068]

Ciprofloxacins treat UTIs. How how can you know if you will have an adverse reaction before ever having one?

[@earthphoenix7068]

Other than genetic testing of known stuff which would be unaffordable to most

[@DJsProductions]

Cipro is no joke that shit had me cooked for like 3 months after taking it for a week never again

[@superspice5659]

Clan I ask what it was medicated for. Drug sounds like high risk, so what ever it’s medicating must be dire.

[@mitaskeledzija6269]

​@@superspice5659probably schizophrenia and some similar mental disorders.. that is no joke

[@ThatFuckinGame]

@@superspice5659 Generally UTIs or STIs that are very persistent, for example gonorrhea. If they prescribe you a fluoroquinolone (the family of antibiotics where cipro is), ask the doctor if they can give you an alternative antibiotic of another family. fluoroquinolone are some of the most side effect heavy antibiotics ever, and antibiotics are already known for having a huge list of shitty side efects. fluoroquinolone are only taken if nothing else works and at low doses and hopefully of newer classes of fluoroquinolone wich seem to be a little safer. avoid cipro. avoid getting "floxxed"

[@Sumi_S]

Actually way too sad Hope his son is ok Also why the hell did he not call the doctors so he can spend his days in the hospital instead getting help

[@yxtreme3853]

Damn a lot of people in the comments all knew someone with this exact disease that they said is so exceedingly rare that it's barely recorded

[@ManzoorKhn212]

His message to his son made me tear up. God forgive you🥀

[@okaykitana]

When they showed the vids of his son at the end i had to lock in

[@Milk-rn5uq]

thanks for locking in beast B)

[@mitaskeledzija6269]

8:30 i had a similar symptom.. and by the looks of it X too :P that's idk from not sleeping or sum

[@schristian5842]

In Indonesia especially batak (where he come from) black magic is pretty popular it's called "santet" in indonesian. Idc if you believe it or not but it is very common here and something that cannot be explained similarly like his case is very common as well, either it's illness, curses, ghost, and many more.

[@Kain1805]

Yeah, magic... that must definitely be it...

[@Redcloudsrocks]

gee it's weird how all the ghosts in and curses in every other country on earth just vanished but not there

[@3eeway]

just dont try this bs. nobody needs that now.

[@mrcapt8106]

Boi shut it

[@ALeotar]

so much sadness in this world

[@jipeh]

what a tragic end, it makes you wish you could go back in time and help him somehow

[@bobbyliink9252]

Second I clicked I realized I watched this already What’s funny that I realized I wouldn’t ever watch a Xqc video that I seen already

[@tlbusta6143]

xqcCreampie TeaTime

[@Brancovtn65]

Fkn hell, and I thought life was treating me unfairly. You can rest easy now buddy...

[@Sleepytakis]

First XQC vid I watch in a while, thought the descent into madness was about Felix not the other guy.

[@jeredorksider69]

This is just sad, i don't know if i fear death or hate it

[@snuggies8037]

I have a condition that allows me to sleep but no matter how much I sleep I get no rem sleep whatsoever. It’s annoying

[@TarhiSidahmed]

Sleep apnea?

[@snuggies8037]

@@TarhiSidahmed no it’s an issue with my autonomic nervous system

[@Mak2Grim]

I feel guilty using this video to go to sleep

[@epicpurevids]

The end of the video was so fucking brain rot. Did the video maker seriously just bring up alternative theories at the end "he may have gone crazy from the stress of losing his mom" "he may have abused benzos" Are you fucking kidding me? Nobody in the world can force a physical response to rem sleep, he documented that plenty of times on video, this isn't just from "trauma" or "abuse" this is a clear case of endless insomnia - he had to start abusing benzos AFTER he couldn't sleep for probably months and took the strong sleeping meds just to get a few hours here and there to prolong his fight to live and try to find a cure. He eventually realized he won the worst lottery of all - the one where you are the first documented case of his kind (this was triggered by a drug - probably first documented case of that disease triggered from that exact drug so first of its kind) and then the guy spits on a dead guy by bring up these alternative theories that make no fucking sense at all. The guy got fucked by the United States health care system, couldn't afford to get simple drugs to treat his issue, so he took his bosses old drugs that was quite risky with some insane side effect risks - but a desperate person will take anything for help when they don't have the money. This cost him his life. Such a sad case of how broken the system is.

[@creativeartivity]

Yeah I'm not sure what the end theories were about. I thought it was apparent enough when he had a response during REM sleep, which like you said, cannot be voluntarily done.

[@Just_Cameron]

It is not concretely known how he developed what he developed nor how he died. So, at the end he gives popular theories for those two unknowns, that's all. You strongly believe one thing to be the case, so you see any alternative as disrespectful when it's not.

[@valmiro4164]

That's what I was thinking, maybe the reason he survived for that long was because he was getting some sleep because of the meds compared to those who probably didn't take much because I doubt doctors would let them abuse sleeping pills and got no sleep.

[@zyourzgrandzmaz]

The whole channel is brain rot. It's some incel dude in his 20s making edge Lord videos about edgy subjects.

[@virgas313]

It's entirely possible for the mind to trick itself into physical feelings and actions. It's been documented that people have felt pain that doesn't exist. The conclusion section of essays and articles often include theories about the future, future research questions, or in the case of this video, alternative explanations to what could've happened. The main stance of his video is that it's real and it's brain rot to think that it isn't despite 90% of his video supporting it. Those possibilities are there to 1) not come off as conceited and 2) in case anyone wants to explore them further

[@justinf2439]

Good reaction X

[@AdikMusicOfficialTM]

18:58 12k views = youtuber? WHAAATT!!!

[@MrHastygamer]

I wonder if it was all a psychotic break in the end? It is really sad but I’m not so sure he would have been able to function at all with zero sleep for months perhaps it was psychosis?

[@student-..]

watch the ad, my man

[@MotivationStimulation]

You should go watch the ad.

[@kcireid]

xQc is a professional reactor

[@dingus6317]

Smoking the devil's lettuce disrupted my sleep cycles to where I wouldn't be able to enter REM (deep) sleep for a few years and I would always wake up still feeling groggy and tired, I can't imagine how this would feel.

[@dingus6317]

Sad we pay so much for all the world's wars and can't afford a baseline level of healthcare for our people

[@rexevan6714]

after halway through the video then I realise that guy is Indonesian

[@GhostCelled]

At least he finally got the rest he sought, rest easy champ

[@Drequan]

why does bro not react to nick crowley anymore and if he did why isn't his other vids posted unless it got copyrighted?

[@alexisdoesyt]

xQc next on the list!

[@乂]

I love it when xqc fills me up with his contents 🤤

[@gefurchtet_]

your profile bro

[@Ownxer]

@@gefurchtet_he’s a bot that steals comments

[@denisnamisnak4980]

He should fill me up more often 😩

[@noobicus727]

6.04M bots that’s crazy

[@malte4984]

cringe

[@wagwan6935]

Upload channel 5 video before I get mad. 🤬🤬

[@NicAngelo]

What if someone knock him out so bad? He still can’t sleep?. Just curious.

[@owafamosa7615]

this guys sleep can be fixed by taking a giant weed dap

[@KateyIsLost]

or shrooms

[@RemixedYoshi]

He should of been calling for help instead of making videos but he probably wasnt in the right state of mind. Im really surprised no family or friends checked up on him while he was in that other country aswell. Its crazy to think how the brain can trick its self and makes it self feel worse.

[@tobberino]

Earworm moment, what's the song in the beginning? It has completely slipped my mind..

[@Kain1805]

Are you German? "Earworm" doesn't exist in English afaik 😆

[@tobberino]

@@Kain1805 I'm not German, it's an English term

[@Kain1805]

@@tobberino Huh, that's funny, I remember people saying it doesn't exist in English but apparently it does, it used to be German only

[@tobberino]

@@Kain1805 so do you know the song?

[@Kain1805]

@@tobberino Oh yeah that's Red Hot Chili Peppers, not sure about the specific song though, might be Californication

[@razez1]

nah editor moving quirky

[@Mayhem554]

This was so fucking disturbing aint gonna lie🥶🥶🥶🥶🥶🥶

[@mitaskeledzija6269]

8:10 😢😢😢😢😢🥺

[@xnasunimc]

this was really sad, and the least XQC could do if he's a "content thief" (i dont really agree) is just watch the sponsorships and ads in the video if he's just "stealing content" (i dont reallly agree with that eeither)

[@geraldescolano5389]

Dave Enki

[@braedenculp1379]

ong if he just put the pills away and smoked a blunt he wouldve been fine

[@JTManual]

this will be you . considering all the damage youve done to your brain with stimulants and crazy schedule . dont forget . you can NEVER catch up on sleep

[@supdude1476]

Mr editor should have just called the video xQc reacts to xQc in the future

[@LuvsicVI]

He could've been saved if NA healthcare wasn't so barbaric.

[@Oscylot88]

Chat what is the black sun

[@neusyns]

Oof. 22:00 was heavy

[@CliveWarren69]

Most of that stuff he was reading into is true

[@jeppy4021]

So its like hydrophobia in rabies patients but sleep instead of water

[@zevfeistory]

save your time skip to 20:54

[@bj0urne]

Did his healthcare or local doctors just ignore him?

[@jritt459900]

I think he had HIV and didn’t want to admit to that. Immune system shutting down, tattoo artist (could have been from dirty needle), and then his video about HIV

[@nickphaux]

2:24 Xqc (About his music): "Uhhh, thats bad.." Also Xqc: "anYonE kNoWs thAT boY!??! I dont knoe hes just so soy.. Thats HAARDD DUDD!!! 😯"

[@travisscott8481]

it is duuud

[@nickphaux]

@@travisscott8481 Also can't forget the legendary "Feeling down, can't seem to take it. Weight on my chest, I can't shake it 😞💔☝️" 😭 (Yes, ik AI wrote this one)

[@star08094]

I took an eighth of PE shrooms one night and was experiencing a similar feeling, minus the actual sleep deprivation. And obviously I was heavily tripping. I remember feeling a sense of extreme uncomfortability. Almost felt possessed and very restless. I was squirming in my bed because my mind and thoughts were at 1000 miles an hour and my body was just lying still, almost like it wanted to sleep and shutoff, but I was tripping so hard that I felt like I was losing my mind. I started mumbling to myself things like "none of this is real" "what even is the point of life anymore". I would get up out of bed and just stand straight up to try and rid that feeling for discomfort but it wouldnt work so id throw myself back on my bed. It was a constant cycle of standing up and laying back down within 10 seconds, and it went on for probably an hour. The whole time I was having an existential crisis, wanting to sleep and stop the trip but not being able to. I got so tired of going through this that I genuinely just accepted that this was my reality for the rest of my life. Standing up and getting back in bed, tossing and squirming and just speaking almost in tongues to myself. I was hallucinating like crazy. After a while I had no choice but to finally just embrace it and give in. So i just kept going through the motions and eventually I came down. It was so scary, I'm extremely glad I stayed within the confines of my bedroom during the entire thing.

[@callum0]

sounds terrifying hope u okay 🫶

[@ShibaApex]

Always have a trip killer on hand when trying something

[@star08094]

@@callum0 that’s the wild thing I discovered about shrooms trips. It’s the craziest thing you’ll experience only while you’re tripping. It will always end so you can get comfort in knowing that during it

[@Kain1805]

Psychedelics are not for everyone, and dosage, set and setting are essential

[@star08094]

@@Kain1805 100% As scary as a trip can be, it's so important to make sure you take the necessary precautions beforehand to ensure your safety during the trip. I've always gone by the rule of thumb that you get the trip that you need. Every trip is always unique in its own way, and its better to allow it to take its course and enjoy it. I've only tripped a handful of times from PE shrooms, those things are intense and it's honestly mind boggling that people have tripped harder and worse than I've experienced.

[@MotivationStimulation]

Whats up with all the people saying “NA Medicine” and “NA Healthcare”

[@OrganicGreens]

I can relate. My sleep patterns got messed up from not sleeping more than 20 minutes straight for months due to extreme tooth pain. Now even after getting a few teeth pulled I cant sleep for more than 3 hours straight. I never feel like I get that full restful sleep either It just feels like I'm laying in bead half awake.

[@itchiegames]

from the sounds of it youll be out of teeth to pull soon so then you can sleep!

[@OrganicGreens]

@@itchiegames Nah bro. The tooth pain is gone. But my sleep seems to be messed up permanently.

[@zerechan]

My advice: get a medical marijuana card. @@OrganicGreens

[@zerechan]

I've ruined my sleep pattern due to staying up late as fuck on school nights for years straight (from 15-19, im 23 now) and now I cant sleep for more than 4-5 hours without my body refusing sleep UNLESS I've smoked before bed. Then I can sleep for 8-10 hours.@@OrganicGreens

[@Kain1805]

​@@OrganicGreens Ngl this sounds more like a psychological problem originally caused by your teeth pains messing up your sleep. Consider a neurologist/psychiatrist

[@zyourzgrandzmaz]

Lack of sleep will destroy you. Ive always suffered insomnia and it will ruin your life and make you a monster. Ive considered heinous things trying to sleep. Like when people or pets keep waking you up over and over once you finally get to sleep you become primal levels of angry. No sleep = death. And faster than hunger rage. So a day or two no sleep you become a demon and would hurt those youd never if not. Sleep deprivation is one of the worst forms of torture, and we all suffer from it to an extent.

[@432cyclespersecond]

movie theatres?

[@andersongutierrez3672]

Someone should of gave bro a penjamin I sleep like a baby

[@MauriceSaxonville]

fr a mean eddy would've had him right as rain. Probs get beheaded out there for some packington tho lol

[@neotronextrem]

This dude had the perfect excuse to gigadose opioids and he didn't On a more serious note this is horrifying especially since ive dealt with insomnia of not being able to sleep more than 2 hours due to exploding head syndrome, seizures, sleep paralysis and brain zaps. It seems to me though, that insomnia is like a recursife trap with a snowball effect, because all my symptoms gradually dissappeared upon getting more and more sleep. Thank god the nightmares and sleep paralysis is gone that shit was traumatising/frightening. Especially the smell of burning plastic through it all.

[@salut6262]

backroom lore

[@devilvocano420]

Being a father, didnt make me scared, it made me brave Death stranding