ADVICE FOR NEW SYSTEMS | Dissociative Identity Disorder

[@snorlax42]

The reason it turned out that none of my alters were being very friendly or communicative with me is that I was a persecutor. It was tough to realize how much I had been hurting them, but we're mending bonds. Slowly, but we're getting there.

[@stiffpictures8971]

I’m late, and I hate to ask, but what is a Persecutor?

[@claire-mariemason711]

@@stiffpictures8971 its an alter. That protects the body by putting hurt on you to stop others to want to as your alreadying doing it.. to yourslef. And its hard to know whats helpful to protect or whats hurting or self dissociation.

[@claire-mariemason711]

@@jiminsoup1112hi imagine the wild.. the first humans... now if wild animals attack you untill you where.. (smelling looking) basically dead. And all the animals (prediators) left you alone.. But you start healing. As a child you may learn to make wonds or stop eating, to make the smell and look.. but with control..(so you don't die) to stay alive untill you grow strong enough to fight or run. So thats how it works out. (Its the same survival techicics) we have to remember we did grow and we are strong and i hope safe. But it takes a strong mind. To do the extream to survive.. absolutely no bad alter. Just ones who remember the expenses of attack.. and learn do aboustosly anything to stay safe. I just think its the most missunderstood.. part of this whole thing. And shouldn't ever be seen as bad at all.... (not even a little) brave..! Yes Missuderstood..! Very Scared..! More then anyone could imagine. But you cant be brave with out first being scared. Its a terrible thing to have to be the one(s) to survive. Please remember that. Always.

[@claire-mariemason711]

@@sagefantaisie thank for you response

[@purplezombie4940]

I hope you and your alters get to a place where you all are comfortable with each other and yourselfs and your communication is better than ever!

[@medid9574]

so. you have DID. most direct thing i have heard today

[@Creative_Cockatiels]

Reminds me of one of the Avengers movies (i cant remember) where Peter was in detention and watched the video from Cap... "So your in detention..."

[@fenixmeaney6170]

@@Creative_Cockatiels Spider-Man homecoming

[@RiotDwarfQueen]

Newly discovered OSDD-1b system. I cried like three times, I thought I was alone with so much of this.

[@EeveelutionMasterAsh]

I relate to this feeling 👏🏻💖

[@user-kn5ck4mf2i]

Me too!

[@catarlv]

Much of love to the four of you, your systems, and everyone else with D.I.D. You're not alone. You have wonderful alters inside of you. Everyone is there with wonderful lessons, and beautiful ways of seem the life. Remember beauty can found even in those things we usually see as "bad". But there's no bad or good, only different forms of manifestations. Hugs.

[@thisisarobbery3616]

We relate to this on a severely person level, and wish you the best in life!

[@kpopspoon]

same same! We finally told a new therapist and got the reassurance that we aren't making this up and it was such a relief but so terrifying. I cried so much at this video lol

[@SayderCascading]

"This is your second chance at being able to love the child in you that didn't get what they needed. Make it a good second chance" I'm crying 😭😭

[@dvdh4856]

Same. Oh god this video made me cry so many times. It’s so nice to hear someone say these things, she made me feel loved.

[@amberkitty6762]

Hope our host listens to this someday. So compassionate and so right that we all have a right to exist.

[@gazingatsaturn]

ik my comment is incredibly late and stuff, but i hope all goes well for everyone in the future, do take care!

[@DembaiVT]

I wish I could. I keep dissociating. I'm not hearing the data. Still don't think I have it. Making it up probably.

[@smrtfasizmu6161]

I am leaving my comment just so that your host gets the notification

[@mullenq3038]

I know it’s super late but hope your host has listened to this

[@alexhjc8]

@@smrtfasizmu6161 Ahoj :D

[@addiction2recovery631]

Chloe, a beautiful message " Love your alters and yourself " . Probably one of the best D.I.D help video ever.

[@DissociaDID]

Thats a huge compliment, thank you so much 💖

[@candiies]

@@DissociaDID Hello! One of the host *gate-keepers* commenting this! We are thankful for your videos! -Lexie (gate keeper)

[@knees_and_spleens]

I genuinely feel like I've made it up... Like I haven't gone through trauma, so how could I possibly have it, y'know? Sometimes it feels real sometimes it doesn't... It's so confusing....

[@DissociaDID]

We feel this way too. It may be that you dont remember your trauma, and youre just repaving the "that didnt happen to me" reassurance, or that you havent realised something that happened was actually abusive/traumatic. We get it. It goes back and forth between feeling real and feeling completely unbelievable

[@drewharris7785]

This might be weird to say and I hope I don't offend you, because that's really really not my intention, but I kinda feel the opposite; I don't have DID and I sometimes feel like I should, just because of medical stuff I've been going through since I was literally born. IDK if that can cause DID or not... Anyway sorry if this was offensive to anyone.

[@DissociaDID]

Its not offensive, and if you were able to survive that without DID then youre very lucky. It may be that you didnt have a strong ability to dissociate as a child, or didnt feel near death?

[@drewharris7785]

My parents were and are incredibly supportive, and I think that since I've always been in this situation it felt normal to me. I was scared of the surgeries as a child but I don't think I ever felt like I wouldn't survive.

[@DissociaDID]

It also has to do with support systems etc. Im glad they are supportive!

[@audrey2658]

This video helped me so much, my system has been freaking out over whether we are real or not. I dont want it to be true. i dont want to know what had to happen... this made me feel really valid, and helped me at least be open to my alters

[@maxdaae]

I teared up a little when you said 'Its okay to think you're making this up. Chances are if you're thinking that, you're not making it up.' I was diagnosed with OSDD earlier this year, and I have no idea why it took me so long to watch this video despite following your channel for a few months now. I really needed to hear this

[@kuleguy2010]

DissociaDID, My system and I (Osdd-1b) want to thank you and tell you that you have our continued support and you've helped us all so much. We can't wait to see more from you. -Tiffany

[@zoidfreakvoidwalker1687]

Advice for UK citizens: Avoid NHS, they think you are making it up. Get hold of specialists. Only exception is that you can get referred to CDS(Clinic for Dissociative Disorders) though your GP. CDS are funded by NHS, but they have to apply for funding for each patient. All of this is dependant on sheer random dumb luck, because you are going to be assed by a mental health nurse and I'm not sure what they are supposed to do but qualified they don't seem to be, yet again ignoring and disbelieving you. So yea, be careful with NHS, especially the hospitals, they don't even know the most basic of psychology and are stuck in the 70s it seems. Sorry for the slightly ranty tone.Explore yourselves, communicate with each other and interact. much love,a kind, experienced stranger

[@DissociaDID]

I agree about the NHS mostly. There are good doctors out there, but extremely uninformed and sceptical. None of my GPs even knew what DID was before I mentioned MPD, a term which hasnt been used in 20 years, and which had mixed responses per doctor, even after a proffessional diagnosis from a Psychiatrist. CDS arent the only hope though. Going through the Pottergate Centre is another route that we recommend. 💖

[@cloud.observations]

I went through the Pottergate Centre and it was a great experience xox

[@torapup]

I'm living in an abusive household (my parent. Yes I am getting help from the council and trying to move out so I'm okay) and my NHS counsellor suggested that I be vulnerable with my parent and tell them how I feel about what they've done / are doing (even though I said that there has been physical abuse when I was vulnerable with them in the past). And when I told my NHS therapist that what she told me I should try doing is dangerous and could have put my life at risk the NHS therapist told me that it was just a suggestion (So they were making up an excuse even though if I didn't notice a pattern and I took their advice/suggestion my life may be at risk). Be careful with NHS therapists. I did leave NHS therapy completely after that for good.

[@maddietillem6778]

@@torapup That's horrible! I hope you get some proper help soon!

[@torapup]

@@maddietillem6778 There's finally some progress!

[@reminiscer15]

I don't have DID but I do like learning about mental health and know about how people with these kinds of disorders deal with them and go about life. Love your channel, good job! :). You have a positive outlook. :)

[@DissociaDID]

Thank you so much lovely, im glad you're enjoying learning about it!

[@reminiscer15]

DissociaDID You’re quite welcome! :)

[@Motivatedhexagon]

I feel the same! I truly enjoy hearing you talk and meeting some of your alters as well! ❤

[@Motivatedhexagon]

Dissociadid I have a personal question to ask you if you don't mind. Where can I ask this? :)

[@DissociaDID]

You can message us on instagram or facebook if you want to keep it between us :)

[@booklvr2191]

I am engaged to someone with DID and this video helps me because it helps me understand a little more what he goes through. I'm not always sure if I react the way I should but I just try to be supportive.

[@TlalocsSanctuary]

I discovered i have a huge possibility of DID back in May. I started watching your videos to learn more about DID, and i will admit i honestly felt.. afraid. And i still do. The fact that i have multiple voices in my head and the fact that I sometimes loose time, and it effects my schoolwork, grades, and more.. it scares me. I took a long break from watching your videos just because i was afraid. But.. i am going to start watching them again, even if i am scared of it, because i feel like it could really help me and my alters, and i feel like it may help me accept the fact that there are a lot of us here, and they are here to help me just as much as I’m here to help them. You are doing an amazing thing by making these videos, and i really hope that i can find it in myself to accept this, and later on in life i hope i get the chance to finally get help for this. Thank you. The Soul System..

[@ImmaEatChu23]

Holy crap did I need to hear this.. Thank you so much for this video

[@keoskanettik5257]

ImmaEatChu23 i don’t even have full blown alters and they’ve saved my life!

[@covetsuns]

I really hope all your videos come back, there's still so many of them I haven't watched and I hope I'll be able to watch them soon!

[@francesgroover7355]

What happened to all of them?

[@itsbubbles4021]

Yes and they deleted them or privated them

[@avrylllorraine7568]

Me too

[@d.ssociation]

@@francesgroover7355 They've just made a video on it the other day if you haven't seen it, they explained why most of their videos got deleted then :)

[@andre3339]

Me too

[@xAllieBoykin923x]

I don’t have DID but I find learning about it extremely fascinating! I can’t wait for the other alters to introduce themselves! You’re such a brave and beautiful person to share your disorder! I love your videos and the few alters that have introduced themselves! Thank you for educating the world about DID!!

[@DissociaDID]

Awh thank you so much! Sending love from all of us!

[@taylorivy1731]

I was told I have DID almost a year ago but no one told me what it was. Today I started to research it just randomly and everything now makes sense. But... I'm scared shirtless.

[@emalex7129]

I don't usually write comments, but genuinely thank you for putting this back up,, these are our host's comfort videos, she was devastated when your videos started disappearing , hope you all are doing well I'll probably have to delete this comment , but just know you really helped us when we were just starting to figure things out

[@carleyturner1334]

“You will be okay” I cried

[@AtlanticGiantPumpkin]

I've known I've had DID for a few months, but my psychiatrist and I have a really weird relationship. I'm afraid to just come out and say "I think I have DID" because I'm so nervous she'll just think I'm a hypochondriac or wanting to be special. How do I bring it up? Should I just come straight out?

[@lotion7410]

Hazel Grey I have this fear as well! I'm afraid if I bring it up they'll think I'm making it up for attention

[@DissociaDID]

Tell her all your symptoms and see what she says! If she isnt sure say that youve seen youtubers with DID and feel like their experiences mirror yours. Good luck!

[@lavenderdemons]

Mood

[@novaisanoob]

A year later, did she believe you? Hope you're good lmao

[@vegan_lira_usa_ny_1327]

I am terrified of counselors, therapists, or psychiatrists in general-

[@aaronwilder2775]

Another very well-spoken, well-said video with a great message Chloe :)

[@DissociaDID]

Thank you!

[@swiftly_produced2694]

YOUR TOP COMMENTER, LIKE OMG I WANT TO BE YOU

[@yuyascho_yuaeyo1155]

⟟ have just got ⏃ new alternated Jamie and he is really shy and all of my alters try to welcome him as much as possible and ⟟ think ⟟ might have heard his voice once but ⟟ am really thankful that Yuki (she is 5) seems to be getting along great with him. ⟟ feel like this has helped him too. Thank you

[@TheLawSystem]

hehe hello fellow enderian speaker! :)

[@yuyascho_yuaeyo1155]

@@TheLawSystem hello!

[@kc3669]

Very newly diagnosed system here. My KZbin keeps saying I've watched this, a voice tells me I've seen it, yet I dont remember it. Can't wait to see it *again*

[@Karicat6]

The camera’s random focusing is relatable Thank you for this video, I was so excited for it when I saw the post about it! - Mirai

[@DissociaDID]

The camera constantly unfocusing is honestly me when i'm dissociating and someone's trying to talk to me haha! Glad you liked it Mirai!

[@jmfugett]

Never take down this video. Never. We watched it over and over when we first became aware. We still look it up and watch it regularly as we move through counseling. Thank you.

[@atricewarner5705]

OK this is reassuring. Thank you. I’m uncomfortable with doctors so knowing that I don’t need an official diagnosis made me breathe a sigh of relief. I may be sending this to my cousin later. She is a huge advocate for me because of my anxiety and disabilities.

[@lunacelestia77]

I told my therapist this week that I have other people in here and all week I've been stressing that I've been making it up. I've called them characters my whole life. and I dont know their names or anything. this was really validating and really helped me come to terms with the fact that this is real.

[@diablosofficialmusic9529]

When I was diagnosed last August, I just denied it, and constantly thought It wasn't real. We're still coming to terms with it and working on our communication, and it has been scary, but we are getting there

[@weaselpanini]

Wow I really needed this. I'm discovering my system and coming to grips with it. It's so hard not to think I'm just making it up. And soon I'll be telling my doctor about it. And that last reassuring bit of the video had me tearing up. To know I'm not alone in this is so comforting.

[@DragonRider-cx7br]

I remember the first time I really disassociated was when I was nine, I was having a panic attack because my parents were having a really intense fight and I just remember curling up into a ball and my conscience floating away. And that was when I met my care taker alter for the first time, she doesn’t have a name or an age, she is a red fox, and I remember feeling her curling up around me and comforting me, that was the first time I felt safe in months and I’m really grateful to her. But I never was able to tell anyone about her or everyone else because for the longest time I didn’t even believe it or want to, I thought it was just something I made up. Finally coming t terms with the whole thing and accepting my alters 😄

[@5of9]

Remember that breathing is very important.

[@sunfeatherX3]

Awww 🥺 I'm glad you had her around

[@wolchip1760]

I find so many of your videos, Helpful and interesting! I myself don't have Dissociative Identity Disorder, But..If I'm ever gonna be friends with someone with it or something like that, I know how to handle it, And how to help if needed! Tysm, For doing this! I support you with my life!

[@rebellerene]

Wow. This is a really powerful and helpful video. Especially for me, right now, as a thirteen year old who just got diagnosed, and I'm still trying to figure out my system. Hell, I don't even know what a couple of my alters look like. But this was very empowering and validating, and I really really appreciate what you do on youtube. You've really helped me. Thank you! - S

[@Forgetful_Forest_fae]

I first watched this video when I was trying to learn about DID for my partner system, and here I am 2 years later watching it for myself and my own system. Thank you for this 💜

[@shroombean9329]

Thank you, so so so much for this video. I often get very paranoid that it’s all in my head and I’m making it up, but your channel has helped me except things more. It has reassured me and made me more aware of things in my system and things I still haven’t gotten used to. Love your channel!

[@DissociaDID]

Im so glad! Sending love!

[@joshuajohnson9693]

Absolutely unequivocally awesome. I am pretty sure I do not have DID, but these words reflect how I would treat anyone. Alters are people too, they just use you as a way to live their lives. I have many characters in my head and if they were Alters, I think I would treat them with as much respect as I would anyone else I don’t know. Great video

[@Beans.and.mystery_meat]

for anyone else who has OSDD, the rings system is extremely helpful! they are why we even know that were a system, they cover a lot of aspects of dissociative disorders and try to explain heavy topics in an easy and digestible way -the mossgrove system

[@andreassweetcakes79]

How often does a little front? Does a little ever front at an inappropriate time? Like in the work place, or driving? I think I can confidently say I have watched all your content!......except the live streams, leaving those for last! Thanks Chloe and to the whole DissociaDID system 🤗💗🍭

[@BlueHazyDreams]

Speaking for myself, it's often during inappropriate times, or maybe I just notice it more during those times because stress tends to fuck with my system. It's when I have less than 24 hours to finish my paper, or I'm dealing with a serious situation at work, like nope you're gonna start sobbing, go completely mute, and have to spend the night co-conscious with whoever is comforting to them, hugging a stuffed animal, and watching your favorite children's movie. It's so non-negotiable for me that we're trying to work on our procrastination problem so we actually have enough time to deal with switches at inopportune moments. I'll try to force someone else to front or do some mental aging exercises if I don't have the time to let them do their thing, but I notice it's better to let them if possible.

[@yukiandkanamekuran]

Littles can front at *very innapropriate* times, but there are ways to remedy that, even though we can't always be there to help our little. She is very capable, honestly. People just think we're energetic or a child at heart sometimes.

[@hellishlykawaiimio1721]

From experience, yes.. I've once had one of my littles front during a job interview, due to my extreme social anxiety, I was already feeling very stressed. Sadly, I didn't get the job. According to my fiance the hiring manager became rather.. Rude and she spent a good hour and a half crying as he patiently comforted her.

[@regenx]

@@hellishlykawaiimio1721 Wow... That's terrible. People need to know how to react to switches

[@crowkidd921]

I actually go through the "youre faking it" and "Im imagining it" alot. My alters always pick on me (in a joking way) because I ask them if Im faking it or not. It took awhile for me to acknowledge the others but we are doing better than before :D

[@leeyoung1121]

This video is almost a year old, but being a newly discovered system and going through your videos has truly help us all. Especially when it comes to accepting the disorder and alters. For the longest time i told myself I was just faking it and exactly what you said: I thought this can't be real. But watching you has helped us all and has helped us learn how to work together. Thank you Chloe and others. Everyone in our system loves you guys! You are doing something truly wonderful! Keep up the good work!💖

[@sad_doggo2504]

I remember when I first started looking into all this stuff and I was like, I don't know if it's true, but all the stuff that's been happening, all the thoughts in my head, it all seems so much calmer and more organized now. And I've been learning more and more, but I still don't have a diagnosis. I'm glad that there is this inclusive attitude in the community, I think that's really helpful for people that are already feeling really confused and vulnerable.

[@jaydinmcclain2677]

I remember when one of my alters would always beat up kids at school because they knew I felt threatened by some people. I did not know a thing about these fights till the next day when people talked to me about it, or my family ended talking about it.

[@hannahfairbrother3493]

honestly i don’t even think i have DID i just feel drawn to knowing more about it😂😂

[@triestobecanon924]

Same!

[@radioisactive7590]

Me too

[@joeebiden_]

When she said that having a solid diagnosis doesnt make you less valid i almost cried. Thank you so much.

[@Frost-elda]

I’ve discovered your channel around the same time I first heard about DID and OSDD, I’ve been so scared for two years, now that I finally have a better confirmation, I’m even more scared, only reason we sleep at night at all is the 3rd alter who can’t feel anything, it can’t panic, I seriously thank it for keeping us from having 1-3 migraines this week, your videos are comforting, this is exactly what I needed, to know what to do now, I’m just too scared to really go to any support groups and going to a doctor isn’t an option -Frost

[@cookiechaina1238]

I’m only 1:36mins in and already crying. Thank you. I feel so much more valid knowing that I’m not the only one confused and in denial xx

[@buncheeks192]

It's been almost a month since I experienced dissociating and retreating at the back of my head and just watching myself. I have been trying to communicate with him/her/them, but since you said to not force them to communicate with me, I'll just wait until they feel safe to show themselves. I feel happy though to know that I'm not alone.

[@littleprincess-dm1ne]

Thank you for putting this video out there, we are a system and we’re very new to this. We’re self diagnosed but we didn’t get a proper diagnosis yet. We’re slowly working with our system to bond with our alters, when we first welcomed Alyssa to our system. She was a bit shy. But now Kimberly has got to know Alyssa and is getting along with her perfectly. Moon loves your videos and she says thank you we all love you.

[@vgaur-2826]

This is my favourite KZbin channel. I feel like I’m talking to my friends whenever I watch your videos. I love all of you so much.

[@DissociaDID]

We love you just as much!

[@denden-sk9hr]

when one of my alters xe first reached out to me, we weren’t on good terms,, he thought i was childish, immature, and in general hated the system as a whole. i thought he was cold-heartd, dark, and insensitive. over time i’ve come to educate myself a TON, and would research about DID/OSDD for HOURS to try and understand everyone better. i’ve come to care for xe a lot, and realize just how valid he is. after getting to know each other, he’s actually opening up more. we’re the closest at the moment in the system. it’s beautiful to see how far he’s come, and i’m so proud of him.

[@kyahmartin7574]

I can't thank you enough for this video. You always seem to make me feel valid or at ease with DID/OSDD. I'm still undiagnosed so i dont know which it is exactly... But your videos help me so much. Thank you so much ❤❤

[@DissociaDID]

Im so glad to hear that. You are valid! 💖💖💖

[@Willow4526]

Number two is me atm. I keep Thinking it's all made up and it's holding all of us back atm.

[@DissociaDID]

It's one of the hardest things to deal with. I (Chloe) still struggle with it and I talk about it and research it every day! It's a very strong defence thing. You're not alone in struggling with that

[@thursdayelenagomez8310]

Me too. It's so difficult to believe sometimes. I don't even understand why I doubt them and myself so much.

[@the.evilducky]

There have been things going on in my life that led my therpist suggest a dissociative disorder - I had been dx'd with dissociative fuge almost 15 years ago but never thought more of it. I thought it was normal to have what I called the small council basicly in your head. My best friend had followed you for some time and she told me to come back watch all your videos from the start. I am sitting here crying listening you to speak feeling validated in my experience. I have been wrestling with telling professionals about this for about 10 years but in writing down some traumas I noticed changes in writing styles, and memories I had no clue of written about. Ty for making this and advocating like you do

[@celianunn2070]

0:59 I did this when I was younger (around 4th grade). I knew I was different from my peers, had times where I "blacked out" or couldn't remember recent things I did. I was told I had an "over active imagination". One clear memory I have was having "imaginary friends". Soon after i got my first one to talk to me (who was really the first alter I was aware of) I got back 1 memory from when I was abused because she was angry at me. But from that 1 memory I was able to do research, unlock more memories (still not all) and I was able to come to terms, partly, with what happened. She was a Persecutor but became a protector.

[@sleepsheep8330]

Thank you SO much for this... I used to be labeled as just the "depressed" alter and so I felt empty when I was "me" because what was I other than a moment of depression ? But this made me discover I am also an individual here separated from the other members of my system who always felt much more "real" for having more intense positive emotions, and now I feel like I'm living my own life, don't really have any friends but just knowing I exist makes me happy and I'm keeping a journal now, having my own social media accounts in certain places....etc

[@jazmineniennaserenity8708]

Got my doc appointment made for mid October to get the ball rolling in this. I keep thinking it might all be just a guardian angel or whatever but honestly i know things are wrong and evidence of her has been around since 8 years ago. Thats too long to fake something

[@DissociaDID]

Well done for making the appointment! I hope it goes well!

[@healandmend.]

There are angels as well as personalities. They are both different beings and equally important ❤️

[@leben.lernen]

Thank you so so so much. Thank you for your (self)compassion, the words you used and least but not last: for sharing 💕✨. I’m since almost a year at the beginning of my journey. At the beginning to accept the Ego-State Disorder (we call OSDD in Germany ESD), accept my ‘mind mates’ as a beautiful gift, and to accept my colourful reality. Too see you and your powerful videos, powerful team and the deep messages behind them, makes me cry - but in a happy way. You encourage me to keep going 🙏🏼 thank you all and you sparkling greetings from Germany.

[@GenLiu]

Another very well made video. As I said on another topic, one of the problem of having DID seems to be how people react to it and it's not surprising, unfortunately. Peoples in general tend to fear and avoid what they don't understand, this is our primal instinct that tells us to do so which was fairly helpful back to the time we were animals (millions of years before Jesus Christ when we had predators) but tend to bring more harm than good in our current society. This is why I think it's really important that some peoples who has DID, like you, make videos where they explain what it is really to have this condition. It demystify the all thing and allow peoples to understand it, realize it's not that bad and you're just normal persons with a very busy brain that somehow created multiple personalities in the same body and be more open to you and others who are going through this and therefore make your lives a lot easier.

[@ur_mom389]

i just got diagnosed today and am still processing. this video helps us! thank you so much. we really love you 💗

[@keithmeyers2988]

I have been struggling to determine whether or not I have DID over the past couple months and I frequently do the thing you do where you talk back to them in your head, but I can never determine if the thoughts being sent back are other people or just my sub-conscious. Any help differentiating the two?

[@user-xh6xz3lr4j]

I’ve felt that my entire life, and lately I’ve found out about this disorder. I have chronic depression, I went through a lot of episodes in my childhood, and lately my personality has been changing a lot. I’ve suffered from a breakup, a really hard one, and I was really down, but then I could hear a voice talking to me, explaining me that I’ll be okay and that she will take care of me (all this before knowing what did was), and from that moment forward, whenever I’m with someone my personality changes completely. I became someone really happy, that never stops talking, someone hyperactive, with dreams, that makes great speeches, someone completely different from who I am when I’m not with people. It’s like a completely diferent person... I have so many symptoms from did, and im really scared. I wish she could reply...

[@laughingvoids]

Dear friend, my advice to you is to see a professional if possible because voices could be a myriad of different conditions of the mind. DID is something difficult to diagnose if it's in a gray area (where you can't efficiently determine if you're a system) Best of luck

[@marq6929]

I was in exactly your shoes once; the thing is, saying you have a "subconscious" responding is the same as saying you have two selves. Ask yourself, does the response feel like something you think/feel and would have logically thought next, or is it more like a dialogue. I used to say I was just talking to my Id (as in Id, Ego, and Super Ego), but um... That's not a thing. Your Id/unconscious doesn't have it's own ideas about the world and opinions just like you do or your friends do or your neighbor. So is the response just your next thought or a gut feeling? Or is it an answer from someone with a different perspective? If it's the latter, you probably wanna see a specialist in dissociation.

[@RosieBrownie]

@@marq6929 That might be the most helpful response I've ever read!! 👍❤ Thank you so SO incredibly much!❤❤ (I'm diagnosed with DDNOS but I always feel my alters are fake.)

[@AnnainAwe]

Hello Keith I have been my own personal journey of “differentiating the two” since the spring of 2016 following my diagnosis by the Amen clinic in 2015: 310.1 - Frontal lobe disorderly/dysfunction F07.0 - Personally change due to known psychological condition F44.1 - Dissociative disorder, unspecified F43.10 - Posttraumatic stress disorder F32.2 - Major depressive disorder, recurrent episode, severe G47.9 - Sleep-wake disorder, unspecified E55.9 - Vitamin D deficiency, unspecified I call my search... dissociative identity DECIPHERING 1) I recommend a number of techniques: Determine if you have different world views/opinions if you are type writing versus hand writing versus doodling versus voice typing and any other way you communicate in print Look through your hand writing history and see if there are significantly different handwritings in evidence. If you have them go back through your childhood school work as well. Buy yourself a set of multicolored pens and explore what happens if you write with different colors.1 2) Choose a topic that commonly causes: Internal conflict Inability to make a decision Strong contradictory emotions Explore internal communication with them (The opposing viewpoints) Explore writing about the opposing viewpoints Explore making an audio or video recording as you talk to another person about these opposing viewpoints 3) Look for other examples of different identities such as: Music preferences Bruises or abrasions that you have no memory of the occurrence of Do you other people tell you that they’ve never met anyone quite like you? Do different friends/acquaintances seem to know different people entirely: Ask 10 or 20 people in your life that don’t know one another to write a character description of you and the things the two of you enjoy doing together 4) If you know any individual or a group that you are comfortable doing the following in front of, it might be quite revealing, particularly if you can capture it on video Choose a topic on which you are in decisive, internally conflicted, or frozen in indecisiveness: Give yourself two different chairs in the room or more if it feels appropriate. Speak from one of the points of view while sitting in chair A. Switch chairs and speak from a different point of view. Inquire within or out loud and find out if there is still another point of view from the first two Keep doing this until there are no additional points of view regarding the subject “on the table” 5) If you have any artistic outlet check these examples of your creative expression to determine if there are obviously different styles of art expression 6) Imagine that you are going to make a presentation explaining the typical and extraordinary ways your mind works. You can use anything, literally anything: clippings out of a magazine, PowerPoint, slideshow, Photo albums, work history, Life stressors and the plethora of ways that you have coped or failed to cope, diagrams, art, letters from families and friends, videos or audio recordings that you have depicting you in the frame,... Currently I am making a list titled: How many... different ways do we want to be spending our time? Prepare for this presentation even if there’s not a snowballs chance in hell that you would ever present it to a single soul living. By the time you feel “ready” for this presentation you should have your answers EVEN with no professional opinion (or perhaps in spite of) on the table. Hope you find these ideas helpful. Anainawe Girls hairband headache Eyesocket headache Ana

[@honeyimtrashhh1579]

i don’t think you know how much i needed to hear this. we aren’t diagnosed, but our psychiatrist says my alters are characters. “they’re just the brains way to make your emotions into people” but little does she know, during the previous appointment, Alexis was co-con and we forgot to say a lot of vital information. this makes us feel valid and comfortable. thank you so much.

[@eunminspirits]

Idk why but i kinda cried. This gives some sort of a reassurance esp that advice on how not getting diagnosis doesn’t make what im feeling invalid 😭

[@leilani_4444]

i listen to this every time i start panicking. thank you. thank you. this has helped me so much

[@laylalove8641]

This was extremely validating. Thank you for spreading awareness!

[@celinorjunior5133]

I just knew your chanel and I know I have DID but I never felt secure to talk about it even with my psychiatrist or psychologist. I'm marriage for 9 years and I tryied to say to my wife only last month about it and she looked afraid about me... so I just changed the subject and took it to me only. But I just watched ONE of your vídeos and learned SO MUCH. I loved it and thanks a Lot. Please, continue your job. You probable know but you help US SO MUCH. Thanks a lot. Really.

[@Senfree]

I found this very comforting. I hesitated a lot before watching this video (like, weeks I think) but I definitely needed it.

[@thefloridamimi9278]

Hahahahaha that jumpscare still got me...even with the pre-warning!!! I have a question about illness. For example, I have problems with my blood pressure, and I’m diabetic. I have to monitor my blood pressure and glucose levels several times a day, and then take medication accordingly. If one alter has an illness, do they all? And if not, what happens when the current host is one of the “non-affected”? Do they all understand that the body has the illness...even though they don’t? And then would they help with checking the levels throughout the day, and taking the medication to keep the body as healthy as possible? And then what if one of the young are out front? Can one of the adults still monitor and step up if needed? Forgive me if that’s too much....I’ve been watching all of your videos and I just keep thinking how much of a nightmare this would be for me, if I had DID....because I’m forced to stay on top of my health problems 24/7. I just can’t imagine how hard it would be for you! I’m really enjoying your channel! Thank you so much for your educational videos!

[@DissociaDID]

Sorry about the jumpscare! So alters can have seperate illnesses yes! Some are shared, like we have a very weak body and Chronic Fatigue. Alters (especially Nadia) often forget this when they switch out and can end up damaging the body and making it worse by doing too much. Some alters have specific problems which changes body chemistry when they are out. for example I am short sighted, but one of our littles is long sighted. I have anxiety and Nadia doesnt. Lots of us have depression but Ruby doesnt. we have a blind alter and a mute alter, but that only affects the body when they are out. So i can definitely relate to staying on top of illnesses haha, im so sorry to hear about yours! As for littles, we can only step in if someone is co-conscious. If not we cant keep an eye on whats happening or step in. Hope that helps! 💖

[@Hydra_sss]

this was the second vid i'f whatched on your chanel and it made sucht an difference for my and the others. after this vid we sat together and i finaly made it to get through up to my persecuter who know is my best buddy. Rigth know we're fine and tomorrowis the start of ou'r second therapy. You made a huge difference for us and we'r very thankful for what you and the others are doing. We are onley 4+ People but we are very happy that we found People like you who support us so gradly. Thanks

[@jeffthekiller8285]

I developed it at a younger age, but my memory is very poor. So I didn't remember them. I just recently started to meet them again, I was panicked at first. But it got easier after a few days, for years I knew about d-i-d. I used to watch informational videos on the topic, so that helped me get comfortable with the change. More then I thought it would honestly So yeah, thank you to all of the people who are in the d-i-d community on KZbin. You helped me out alot, even if none of you know who we are

[@Cuupi]

Is this different than the voices that basically fights on your head each time you are trying to make a decision? I always have voices basically arguing whenever I am trying to make a decision and one can suggest something terrible and then followed by another who was so opposed to it and then blank for a while and then I will suddenly get the answer to what I was contemplating. But watching a lot of DID videos, it seems like everyone knows what other alters look like, sound like and have different accents and that doesn't happen to me.

[@tamistone2632]

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[@whitefox6703]

This is exactly like me, with voices constantly talking and most of the time taking on my voice. I think it may be a way of trying not to scare you, or simply to get their thoughts heard (most people are much more likely to listen to their own voice than some new, strange voice). Also littles could just be having some fun with impersonations, but I'm not too sure. Just definitely don't play it off as nothing and try to figure out whether there is a posibility that you actually have DID or OSDD. But I'm not a professional by any means, so you don't have to listen to my advice XD

[@yukiandkanamekuran]

that definitely sounds like DID, or OSDD, same difference.

[@poprocks9176]

Its been about two years since discovering I had a system. And im finally at the point where im fully beginning to believe it. Ive never felt so scared in my life. The reality that there are other people within me and its not really my life and i feel im being possessed at times. And i dont have any friends with systems. Feel very alone and scared - Rox

[@lizzieb5359]

this is my first time out and i’m really scared. i don’t know who i am

[@poprocks9176]

@@lizzieb5359 Just try your best to enjoy whatever you can of these moments of uncertainty

[@screamingminnow920]

that bit at the beginning about battles made me tear up, thank you. I don’t even have DID i just have a friend who was recently diagnosed so I’ve been researching but that message hit home.

[@Frog-ih2dt]

Thank you so much for this, I have only resently discovered my alters and I’m terrified and I feel as if I’m making it all up but this made me feel much better. I am only young and my alters are there but they are still “forming” I guess that’s what I’ll call it. And I’m too scared to go to the doctors yet. But thank you so much for this. I’ve done a heap of research on did and osdd and I fit most of the symptoms and this video made me feel valid. 😊

[@ohhaven9808]

You’re a blessing to so many people with DID. A newly discovered system myself, I found your video to be very helpful and encouraging, and I took some notes in my notebook to keep for when I get discouraged or feel alone. Thankyou so much!!

[@TheAngelaOsborne]

Ive been hearing voices since 8...thoughtni was crazy...been misdiagnosed over 15 times... and now... all of a sudden my alters, are showing up....turns out my main front was a persicutor...no diagnosis, but this was amazing and healing

[@angelnixiegacha]

i feel you. when i was 7 i was hearing voices while i was at a- beach? Ikr weird. I thought i was just going crazy and brushed it off.

[@marniewitchjdr]

First time I was co-conscious was on 9th February of 2016! I love both Electra and Miranda,Miranda and Electra ♡♡

[@Semikami]

I'm literally crying, this is such a beautiful and uplifting video! I hope it has at least just as positive of an effect for everyone who actually needs the advice.

[@victoriaboerschinger2891]

You are awesome! We needed to hear all of this today. Thank you for all you do for those of us who have a system. We really appreciate your willingness to help us to work together for our greater good. 🥰 please take care, Team Boerschinger

[@Jadyn_Sage]

I just found this video after Nin mentioned it in the livestream. I am watching with tears streaming down my face. Thank you so much

[@bethanyk.2607]

Stumbling upon this channel has been such a breath of fresh air. I think some of the best ways to reach people, as difficult as it may be, is to use platforms to show vulnerability, because humans respond so well to other people's vulnerability. It shows us just how human each and every person is, and you do just that. I have found this channel and your willingness to share all of your insights, experiences, thoughts, and knowledge with me and the rest of the KZbin community so incredible and important. The presence you bring to this world is so positive, beautiful, wonderful, and intelligent and I admire you so very much. Thank you so dearly for everything, and keep on keeping on. I'm in your corner every step of the way, and I think most of your viewers are, too. Much love from Chicago! You bring so much beauty and love into this world. 💙

[@the_winter1329]

This question is going to sound weird, but this feeling that I could possibly have this been bothering me for years now. At the beginning I was like putting everything in notes, so I was this happened so I had “evidence.” I felt so stupid, I was like nah “____ you are making this up”. I even ask my friends and they say no, so I was like let’s forget about this. I erased all the “evidence” and push that thought to the back of my mind. Now this feeling has returned and I don’t know what to do anymore. So my question is, How do I make sure I don’t have it? Or that I do have it? Feels like I am hypochondriac...I wanna just get over with this doubts.

[@5of9]

Best case scenario is to go and see a mental health professional, tell them all your symptoms and get their opinion.

[@the_winter1329]

Thank you for the advice. I’m going to try, but I wanted to have a solid piece of evidence (like notes and other physical stuff) first since mental health is a delicate theme in my family. Once again, thank you!

[@5of9]

@@the_winter1329 "... since mental health is a delicate theme in my family." Yeah, we know about that. Details might trigger, so, um... Anyway, breathe, try to stay positive, just saw some beautiful videos at Rainbow system's channel. You are ready when you are ready. Best wishes from all of us.

[@ghxstintheflesh]

I know someone who recently found out about their alters and thankfully trusted me enough to tell me about it. After seeing this video, I sent it to them in hopes that this helps them connect more with their alters. They do a lot of the things you said not too, like giving them derogatory names/labels and not really communicating much with the alters. I really hope they subscribe to your channel because I want all of them to have as much love and support as possible! Thank you so much for making all these informative DID videos, they are extremely helpful and wonderful!! Much love ♡♡

[@DissociaDID]

I hope so too, you're a good friend. lots of love!

[@makionyx7751]

Thank you so much! My alters have talked to my spouse but not to me and I lose so much time when they are out it scares me. He says there are many of them in me when I ask about them, but they never talk to me. I just found your videos today and I started crying.

[@matthewtikka5133]

Every alter has a right to exist. 2 weeks ago I was in a mental hospital, and the nurse was informing me that I could kick the voices out of my head. I asked her why I would kick myself out of my own head, that doesn't make sence. I don't think she underwood what DID/OSDD is. I'm not diagnosed yet, but I believe I land somwhere in the OSDD.

[@imyangletsfight6296]

I cried watching this. Thank you for the validation and this video, I know it was uploaded a while ago, but I needed it so so much. Thank you.

[@CRYSTALNOODLES]

this is the 1st D.I.D. video that validated ALL of us in our system. And we've been floundering in this community for 5 years, not able to understand how we fit.

[@delailalavender3876]

Oh my word I thought it was just me who often thinks "I am just a wierd person who made up having DID and that I couldn't possibly have it." Then at other times it seems clear

[@healandmend.]

I’ve been journaling for years, and my handwriting will change. Maybe it’s based on mood, maybe it’s DID... maybe this sounds strange but the thought that I have DID almost moves me to tears. excitement and relief. I fit the criteria, I just don’t have episodes of switching. It happens instantly for me. I’m circling around denial that I even have it.. but I appreciate these videos. Thank you 💖

[@connorclifton45]

Do you get amnesia at all?

[@jsprinks4906]

It's dangerous for me to be diagnosed with D.I.D due to my family, but i don't want to be outed as fake without a diagnosis

[@Luvseilish]

We are a new DID system and just found your channel This really helped Thank you💛💕

[@moonkookie1505]

I'm so glad I've saved this video to watch later, it was the perfect decision to watch it now. Thank you for making these videos. Thank you thank you thank you 🤧🤧💓💓💓

[@mikokosomos9498]

The more I watch your videos the more I question if I have DID. This video surely helps me and I have reached out to a Facebook group as my doctor took ten years before diagnosing me with adhd and dyslexia so I’m scared to try to speak with her about this

[@Jkzzrd2001]

I really wish I found this video when I found out I had a system however, I am glad it's here for others now. Thank you for making this video 💜

[@alyxtora4534]

I'm glad I watched this video. I've recently come learned I got into an argument with my friend's, as I would have so ignorantly put it before this video, "evil" alter. I want to try to encourage them to be more positive. But I think this will be incredibly difficult. I can tell some are scared, and I want to be reassuring, but without feeling like I'm pushing them into this. I'm not sure they've "accepted" their situation yet, it just seems like they know they have it. Your videos are giving me useful information that helps me feel more confident in trying to be supportive, and I can't thank you enough for what you do. What you all do.

[@siiiriously3226]

i do not have DID, "just" CPTSD, but honestly, a lot of this advice is, slightly adapted, very very fitting for me aswell. thank y´all for this amazingly helpful channel. lots of love and light!

[@lejladolic2003]

I've always promised myself that I wouldn't SH but I ended up doing it. Despite myself, I felt so numb that I felt that I needed to do it. Now every time I think about doing it, it's like someone pokes me and is like DON'T DO THAT! How would[loved one] and [friend] say if they found out you did this? I always think to myself, oh yeah, that's right.

[@elisadelpino5159]

I'm here for support, I will view, comment and like every video and I hope this tiresome situation with alleged (ridiculous) copyright infrigement problem resolves.

[@ninejade9]

You are a light in darkness. This has helped me so much. Your voice is also calming too. Thanks for helping me.

[@jaelynnrose923]

I'm not even 5 minutes into this video and I'm crying... Yet this is the most comforting information I have ever seen on this information. Thank you for being so compassionate in your words and advice. The way that you explain things is so reassuring especially regarding information that can be scary to hear or confusing. -aPaintedRose

[@andylinden01]

Thank you. Just had a recent diagnosis. It’s really hard to cope with, and it is so helpful to know that others have similar experiences.