Alcohol Has Made my Life Unmanageable (But I'm Excited)

[@SoberingThoughts]

We each have to figure it out for ourselves. But what it sounds like, just throwing this out there and you will make your own decisions of course, is you’ve been trying to do anything and everything to keep alcohol in your life. You’re doing everything except quitting alcohol and staying quit, including a geographical and working 7 days a week (which is not sustainable as you now seem to appreciate) and now even thinking of buying another home. You don’t need to do all this. You just need to stop drinking. You can stay your whole life in this bargaining mode, trying to keep alcohol in the equation and you can announce you’re quitting as many times as you wish, or you can genuinely start to put some sobriety time together and see the changes that that brings. I was drinking a big bottle of Smirnoff a day by the end. Rolling around in bed or my flat on my own, being sick, hallucinating, barely hanging on to the contract job I had, saying horrible things to the people I loved. Now I have my partner back and can spend every day present with our beautiful son and my career is getting back on track. Most of all, I don’t hate myself when I wake up in the morning. I’m starting to feel like me again. Whatever short and small buzz alcohol gave me is nothing compared to a life I’m proud of and being close to people I love who are proud of me too.

[@leej-wp9ft]

He is a nice guy but he does not understand that he has an illness or anything about the illness he is massively in denial.

[@lesleyjoli2700]

Well said

[@flyingplantwhale545]

I don’t think alcohol is the only reason your life is unmanageable. A 16-hour work day would break just about anyone. What a crazy way to live.

[@opticalman6417]

when people have a drink problem the body is put under stress as it is and working on top of that bad move yes

[@JesperHellvik]

Yes, it’s the recipe for disaster!

[@BDogs10]

💯. 16hr work day? Man you are a beast but somethings got to give. Alcohol is awfully tempting with that amount of straight commitment. Take it easy 🙏

[@flyingplantwhale545]

@@BDogs10 My thoughts exactly. It would be a massive trigger for me to indulge in whatever I can get my hands on.

[@Orthodoxyandlife]

Working 16 hours a day would make me an alcoholic. You're stressed from work, makes you wanna drink because you're stressed, repeat cycle.

[@anjke]

After watching a few of these vlogs I would seriously suggest you consider psychotherapy. It is evident that it is not just alcohol that is causing your conflict ; it is merely one of the symptoms. Best wishes.

[@willhutton4150]

I totally agree , you gotta get to the root of the problem.

[@racheleast5855]

Every time this channel pops up your back 🍷 Ng again saying I'm gonna stop it's been going on for years to round and round in circles

[@buljkhalifa]

That's addiction, my peers washed their hands of me because I never quit drugs.

[@edgar5598]

From what I'm seeing here, he's only had his channel for a year. Where do you get the years?

[@DemonEdge82]

@@edgar5598this channel, not other one’s.

[@tylertv9382]

8 years ago today I had my last drink. I know where your mind is and I commend your honesty to put this on the interwebs BUT BRO you WILLLLLLLLLLLL fail on all your goals until you get help bud. Good luck!!

[@giatasha2181]

Tbh most of these things are surface level and the over work is also surface level. Until you gonna deal with the real reasons why you are doing this to yourself and stop the trying to bargain your way out of it without doing the hard psychological work I fear it is going to be roundabouts for you. Wishing you the best though. This whole video is you convincing yourself of something so you don’t have to deal with the real deep issues. You are bargaining with something and it is all the wrong things. Best of luck!

[@Lisalisag2023]

Working 75 hours a week is not going to help you or your family in the long run, your kids need you more than they need a house loan, how are you expecting to get sober when your expectations are so unrealistic? I think one day when you look back at this video you will see the chaos we see ❤

[@gsteele89]

The way that you've set up your life sounds eerily similar to how people set up their lives near the end. You can't micromanage your way to sobriety. You can talk all the plans and never accomplish anything.

[@dylannicks1146]

Honesty, that’s exactly what I got.. I worry he would celebrate getting the keys to that place for his family and go on a binge that would be the end

[@CMoore8539]

22 Days Alcohol 🍷 Free!!!💯. I’m so Happy to be Free from it! Just Don’t Give Up ⬆️ If someone falls down 7 times, They Must Get Back Up 8!!! You are a very intelligent young man and a very hard worker too! You have two beautiful children and a Beautiful Life ahead of You!!!♥️ Don’t throw it all away. I know you can do this!💯 You Deserve To Have A Beautiful Life.👍

[@bryants6790]

Congratulations on 22 days, that’s a great start 🙏🏻🌅☺️✨

[@drkitlangkisuchiang2900]

I do sense that you need a psychologist. Your thoughts are haywire and please take things calmly. Life is good and you will be fine

[@Ddiaz007]

You can’t fix a broken mind with a broken mind. Stop drinking, get a sponsor and work the steps. You already know this.

[@CMoore8539]

That’s so extremely true!!💯 It’s hard enough sober.

[@paulinepickering8151]

💯

[@xwarx1000]

Keep coming back

[@bristlefist]

​@@xwarx1000 I've seen people parrot this ad infinitum. They usually don't make it through the steps and rely on meetings to keep them sober, this eventually fails and they're off. Then they return and the cycle starts all over again. Just work the f*cking steps and then get your ass out to rehabs and detox's to help other alcoholics. No need to keep coming back

[@markg.4246]

Absolutely! This guy is "self will run riot" on steroids. "The only thing I'm focused on is making as much money as humanly possible". Meanwhile...he's augering himself into the ground. Get to a meeting, get some Fellowship in your life, find some humility, close your mouth, open your ears, put down the shovel, and STOP making these stupid phucking videos. Put THAT energy and focus into the solution, instead of the problem...which is YOU!

[@chuckthepug8431]

Putting the drink down is sadly just a beginning. If you are one of those real alcoholics, you need to change your thinking. Nothing I say will change your view, so I just hope one day you’ll find a great recovery path. In my experience money didn’t buy me happiness, recovery did. Best of luck 🎉

[@ThatFrozenGhost]

Alcohol is ONLY a symptom of something much deeper. You're pissing in the wind, my friend.

[@Mak_lak]

I see my reflection in your videos. My life as an addict is complete chaos too. I understand you well... Greetings from Poland.

[@nagchumpalot]

It’s all about making KZbin videos about alcohol becomes a bit of an addiction I would imagine

[@kiely4561]

You know whats a sure way to send you back on the path of alcoholism….trying to work 75 hours a week

[@veebee6411]

I agree with you 💯

[@mattorama]

Staying busy and productive can also be extremely helpful for people in recovery. Sitting at home with nothing to do is a sure way to send people back on the path of alcoholism.

[@kiely4561]

@@mattorama you’re stating the obvious there matt, nobody is disputing that but there’s being productive and there’s trying to work 75 hours a week, there definitely not the same thing.

[@ChristinaUniverse-lq1ex]

Short term pain equals long term gains! I'm still on day one, folks,no matter if you just stop,use AA,go to detox or make a plan to stop, let's start getting our lives back together!

[@ChristinaUniverse-lq1ex]

@@ShatteredFlint I'm on day one again,yet I'm more determined than I was yesterday and the day before,no reason to be ashamed, I'm thankful for another first day of the rest of my life and I'm just going to get back up on that wagon

[@peacelilly739]

I'm 7 years sober, one day at a time. I could not have done this alone. I doubt whether you can either. Recovery is a right now task, not a tomorrow task. The addict is on the never never.....

[@scotts5832]

I was like this, got worse. Went to Mexico and did Iboga treatment. One week there and haven't drank in a year. My life has been so much better over the past year. I'm so glad I stopped drinking, my life was slowly going to shit, health and everything else.

[@mskintsugi108]

... may I ask please, what was your biggest (alcohol related) lesson from the Iboga treatment? (I've got deep respect for our plant teachers, yet never have worked with Iboga...) x

[@ChristinaUniverse-lq1ex]

Your young, keep it up, I'm 44 and it gets worse,never let those "yets" stop you either like,"at least I never had to...and least this didn't happen ext...'' as those things will happen eventually, whatever they might be.

[@jamesbyrne9312]

Your not providing a stable home if ur a drunk. Please get a grip. You can do all the above. It may take a couple more years to achieve it without working 7 days a week but you will be healthier and a better person and your family will be happier long term.

[@ShadesOClarity]

It's the First Step. I have been there. I quit having hangovers a long time ago, but because of my kindled brain, the withdrawal is horrible. And, it's kind of regardless of the time and amount of alcohol. Good luck on the sobriety. Always remember: It never gets better, only worse, I have some videos on that.

[@matty832]

Out of interest how long do you plan on working 75 hrs a week for because even doing it sober there is a limit to how long you'll last before burning out, becoming depressed etc and what will likely happen once that kicks in is another relapse

[@thejuror2009]

I say this in love: Dude, get your head out of your ass. Stop babbling and making empty promises and trying to stop on your own. IT HASN’T WORKED. YOU SHOULDN’T EXPECT IT TO WORK.

[@jamesbyrne9312]

You don't bsbe a hangover because you are dependent. Please slow down. Do one job, save up a bit slower, lead a better life. I genuinely wish you the very best sir

[@JasonX2]

That's absolute self torture. You're a strong guy to even be able to get through that without the curse of alcohol on top of it all. You have every right to cut it out of your life.

[@kpops168]

Good on you for putting your kids first. They are lucky to have you as a Dad and an ex. I didn’t have that and brought up three kids without that support. All you can do is keep trying and be proud of your efforts even if you occasionally slip up. Good luck with the efforts - you just have to keep going. You are setting yourself up though for a dramatic fall working that hard. I know because I also work that hard and have done for years. It will take unrelenting focus and some physical exercise which will help calm your mind. Good luck wish you the best.

[@cheenbean]

Day 12 sober for me, we can do this ❤

[@patc8735]

Same here 💪♥️🙏👌

[@cheenbean]

@@patc8735 is it getting any easier for you yet? Mornings are so much better!

[@cheenbean]

@@ShatteredFlint I really do thank you...but gotta keep going ☺️

[@michael1704]

Hello from the USA. I’ve never been in your shoes but I understand it’s very difficult to get over alcoholism. Just wanted to wish you all the best in kicking the addiction. BTW, I’ve been to beautiful Townsville Australia many years ago. I hope you find the perfect property for your children and their mother. Good luck!

[@Mar33333]

Wishing you all the strenght to do this ,Proud of you, but more important , be proud of Yourself!

[@philiplindo8801]

Sober 26 years from meth, crack cocaine, marijuana and now 9 months sober from alcohol.You can do it guys!🙏🙏🙏

[@bryants6790]

The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over, and expecting a different result. Don’t you see your life is unmanageable because you’re not treating your alcoholism. Putting down the drink is not treating your alcoholism. You are a chronic alcoholic and you need to go to AA.

[@CMoore8539]

How do you think that AA is going to help someone? I’m 22 days sober and I do Not want to fall back into it.💯💞

[@bryants6790]

@@CMoore8539 good question. I drank for 30 years and tried to stop for the last 12 years. Nothing else worked for me. If you consider yourself an alcoholic, then no middle of the road solution will work long term. My problem wasn’t stopping it was staying stopped. Having a spiritual experience as a result doing the 12 steps with a sponsor is the only thing that has worked for me. I haven’t had a drink since my first AA meeting on the 2nd of January 2021, 1,266 consecutive days of sobriety ODAAT

[@bryants6790]

@@CMoore8539 the 12 Steps have freed more alcoholics from alcohol addiction than any other method

[@alliseeisred23]

Love the nails,Im a 35 year old male,Alcohol consumed my life for almost 15 years. Im almost 5 months sober wishing you the best. All I can say is you really have to want that change I believe in you mate I know its a struggle. Also have you looked into kratom it saved my life from alcohol but you gotta be careful as it can also be addicting but way less harmful than alcohol.

[@DJParamore]

Sending love, you are doing amazing. You are inspiring me to look at my life and seeing how I can better myself, I feel like that is when you know ❤

[@benburns5995]

Hi Jake, just want to say that I wish you the best to leave Alcohol out of your life and work hard to provide for your family and have a secure place for them to live productive and enjoyable lives.

[@melissaczarnecki4353]

Thank you so much for your honesty...your helping me so much to be honest with myself...

[@Jav-in-G-likedandsubbed]

The first few days and weeks are easy to stop I have found...then I get bored and drink. Recovery groups and AA have not been very helpful long term either. Alcoholism is a real MF'er.

[@hettybl]

This is so fkin true 😢

[@bryants6790]

It only works if you work it

[@markg.4246]

How long is "long term" to you? I'd be willing to bet my last dime that the effort you have put into getting sober, is laughable compared to the effort you put into drinking!

[@Jav-in-G-likedandsubbed]

@@markg.4246 I don't disagree. i have done 90 meetings in 90 days and been to hundreds of AA meetings in the last 25 years. In comparison I been drunk thousands of times. My problem with AA is the God crap. After a few months of the cult like behavior I rather be drunk. My problem is I don't think I can quit drinking. I am sober more days than I drink these now, but alcohol is still a problem for me. I am sober today. that's a win.

[@Veromoi4]

I am not saying you’d need to do AA forever but what if you just hopped onto one zoom AA meeting a morning or evening just to gain some support during that tough span of time? its a place to find some of best support for people who have drank too much alcohol. You can hop on zoom meeting for free from the comfort of your home! You don’t even have to talk if you don’t want to. You could just listen in most meetings

[@leej-wp9ft]

He does need AA forever. All alcoholics do me included. We don't graduate from AA this is a life long progressive illness.

[@bryants6790]

Agreed!

[@Veromoi4]

@@leej-wp9ft well I just mean he could transition to a different form of recovery if he doesn’t like aa. I dealt with predatory people in aa unfortunately and had to protect myself for awhile until I felt comfortable going back. It could be an introduction to recovery, there’s more than just aa now, there’s lots of recovery programs that work for people.

[@know-your-worth-Truth]

I'm totally praying for you in my own way. Keep stepping forward You know what you have to do, and let's be real only you can do this Stand strong and small steps, sweetheart Don't overthink Before you know it, you're helping yourself in a good way Things will get clearer virtual hug mate

[@mattFreya]

Step 1 - We admitted we were powerless over alcohol - that our lives had become unmanageable. Please please listen to what others are saying. Stop everything you are doing and get yourself to a meeting. Your focus is on all the wrong things my friend, I know because I’ve been where you currently are and before you know it the drink will slowly start stripping away everything you love one by one.

[@pageantgrosvenor]

You only stop drinking one day at a time. You have to fight the day you are in. it's not possible to look into the future to give up. It is good to fucus on why you dont drink and to do it for others, If you keep re lapsing get Ito rehab to learn how not to drink. I have my fingers crossed that your plan works,

[@markg.4246]

"You have to fight the day you are in". WRONG, WRONG, and WRONG! Getting sober and staying sober is about SURRENDERING, not fighting! A person has to totally abandon any thoughts about being able to overcome TODAY, the exact same thing you COULDN'T overcome yesterday...or the day before, or the week before, or the month before, or the year before, or the decade before!!!...without HELP!!!

[@NTB_Retro]

Rooting for you, mate. I’m new to the channel, but have gone back and watched some of the history. My dad was an alcoholic. It’s more than a mindset. It changes the way your brain works. Reward centres are rewired. Try and remember that when you are struggling. It’s not your fault, it’s an addiction. Don’t get the shits with yourself. Just keep pushing. The work weeks do sound a bit much…. Don’t burn yourself out. Just concentrate on getting this monkey off your back

[@davidwillis173]

Alcohol is not my problem, I’m the Problem …

[@mcvicarross7]

I relapsed many yrs ago in part from working far to many hours! Chasing money if ur really an addict never ends well!

[@JesperHellvik]

You are headed towards complete burnout if you plan on working that many hours. It will consume you and you will end up consuming even more alcohol. You need to unplug and care for yourself! Money is not more important than your well-being…and if you go down you won’t be able to provide a stable home for anyone! Disaster is just around the corner if you follow this path.

[@spoonymulletboy]

You sound a lot better and a lot more motivated since your last upload. Got a good feeling about this one. Keep on keeping on my friend. Much love from the States.

[@joetomanek660]

I relapsed and lost my job

[@mos_tekmusic7285]

I say this from experience. You need to stop worrying about your ex wife and kids. As harsh as that sounds you need to focus on your recovery, you need to focus on yourself before you help anyone else. Good luck brother addiction is a monster. As cliche as it is the saying really is true that when the plane is crashing you have to put on your respirator before you help anyone else.

[@Hondo1738]

I think you should try cutting back before going completely sober so it’s not so hard on yourself. Like say your having 8 standard drinks every night then just try and get that number lower every couple days until you’re at 0.

[@Not__invisible_not_finished]

Bravo. Stay locked in. David Goggins videos for 3 mo’s bro. Listen to positive people only for the next 3 mo’s. I am at day 101 today. I feel your emotions, i have been there. Please pray and ask ask for strength . Your babies will be so proud. Daily mantra helps too. Mine is “stay locked in” Dont focus on what you are giving up focus on Gains!! 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

[@bryants6790]

That’s not a realistic plan for recovery. How long can you realistically stay locked in for? Our friend here is a bit more than a weekend warrior..

[@janwarriner6554]

Talk is cheap. Go to AA, do a meeting each day, get a sponsor, work the steps. You’re ahead of yourself. Sobriety comes before everything…a job, a house, etc. Interesting, when you’re going to find the time to work out?

[@rossthemusicandguitarteacher]

I work a lot but you can't work that much. Better to earn more per hour. I hope you make it

[@cjyou5606]

Bargaining phases can last years and years and years and years and……..

[@jayheywood9635]

we are done if we dont

[@Olivercool8]

You can do it man💪

[@sorryhungry729]

Alcohol makes you feel depressed

[@CMoore8539]

It really does!💯

[@patrickhyatt172]

Speak for yourself

[@sorryhungry729]

@@patrickhyatt172 atleast your not in denial

[@sorryhungry729]

@@patrickhyatt172 Alcohol makes you depressed also Patrick

[@tonycurtis4088]

Your working alot and your brain will say 'you deserve a drink tonight'. Only you know why you drink too much. You may know the root cause or.....the alcohol is hiding it away from you. It's very clever. Either way, you have to confront whatever it is head on. If not..... you will lose EVERYTHING.

[@johnmorganjr769]

00.00 BAC since 30 Dec. '22. 🙏

[@johnmorganjr769]

Distractions are key ,PT, good foods. Very attainable. 🙏

[@marshamorrell2769]

Annie Grace's The Alcohol Experiment. Alcohol is a depressant and increases anxiety.

[@jaimereynolds258]

You have made your life unmanageable, not alcohol.

[@DemonEdge82]

Reach out for some help, bro. Get your ass into treatment or at the very least a therapist. Your thinking has become quite cloudy right now. You cannot provide while you’re broken. Stop being so proud. Sorry if I came across blunt but we care about u bro and lots of us have been in your shoes before and see ourselves and recognize some stuff. Also buying a house in this condition is a recipe for disaster, your kids and loved ones need a healthy you, not some house.

[@Dicer86]

Maybe replace drinking with a hash cookie or go for a walk or something. Working all the time isn’t going to achieve anything

[@MatthewBritnell]

I know first hand how addictiin ruins your life. If you carry on down this road you will lose everything!

[@janaanderson4940]

I believe in you! I worked 60-80 hour weeks for many years. I think a good way to keep you motivated on staying sober would be to watch your older videos where you are doing really well. It will show you that you can and have done it before. Lots of love from Canada 🇨🇦💚

[@CaitlynHug]

Do you have an addiction centre or hotline for mental health you can call? We have the hotline here in Canada and it’s very awesome for resources. That added element can really shift things. You know, controlling the days that you allow yourself to drink/quantity can really start the ball rolling as well. Recovery doesn’t have to be fully stopping everything one day. It’s taken me 2+ years of work to get from daily binge drinking to having 1 drinking day every week (I’ve got more work to do). Abstinence might take a long time and that’s okay too! Keep fighting.

[@Kerplunk990]

Allen Carrs easy way to quit drinking, read it

[@tomrichards4522]

That's what I read 4 years ago and I've been sober ever since. Wasn't easy at the start but it's not a problem anymore

[@veebee6411]

You have a goal. I think the long hours and working 2 jobs is too much. You might end up fatigued depressed even, if you can't sustain everything!! Can your partner not help - Does she work?

[@Thatsbannanas-d8c]

You have made big moves. Good for you.

[@jayheywood9635]

in the ame boat not easy

[@MizterConfuzing]

You need to find a group or a sponsor. I have seen several of your videos and you keep failing. You're clearly not strong enough alone, and that's nothing to be ashamed of. Please find help instead of trying and failing again and again.

[@DemonEdge82]

Took me 10 years before I finally surrendered and thought 💭 “I clearly don’t have the power to handle this one my own because if I did I’d be sober by now and Im at the point I’m willing to do whatever they say if it means getting better.”

[@MDBiblio]

"Hi guys! this is it! it is Day One! it is final! yes I have said it a 1000 times. But this time it is different! Day One! again" bla bla bla))) you seem to be tryng to quit on will power, which you have a very limited supply of. As I said before you need therapy first

[@alexralph5185]

Persevere please brother 👊🏼

[@jamesbyrne9312]

I get that you think the jokes on us because you're secretly really rich witg all your working, but it's your health mate. I wish you the best anyway, and I hope u get out of the chaos.

[@bruno12_3]

Don’t run before you can walk mate sort the untreated alcoholism out before 2 jobs house and guna conker the world 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

[@efilteau]

keep fighting buddy!

[@markg.4246]

"Fighting" is the worst thing someone can do, in trying to achieve sobriety. Without a complete surrender, and the willingness to live differently, it will get progressively dire!

[@joecalf1896]

They do not have AA meetings in Australia?

[@laotouthinking9090]

good on ya

[@louelaine3680]

Maybe you should discuss this plan to buy a property for your children and their mother to live in for the next 10 years with a lawyer. If the children and their mother live in the property, but not yourself, seems you could be setting yourself for problems down the road. To me the sensible plan would be- buy the property for yourself to live in, and your children when you have them. Which hopefully would be at least 50% of the time. Yes it seems a very unselfish plan to purchase a property for your children and their mother. There's many ways this could backfire and might not be the best for you or your children.

[@SpottedCow1604]

I hope you can stop..I keep going in circles and it drives me mad

[@JJ-eb8eu]

Did you quit, was your last drink on 15th?

[@Wonderman62]

love you...pray for you....Eileen in Missouri.

[@sandymorrow7477]

I wouldn't even try to get a loan, until I've been sober for , at least , a couple of years, if I were you.

[@shonamcadam665]

You got this Jake

[@gusraymond9562]

Whats better than waking up with the stomach in the mouth. Not Drinking BTW ...Go easy on yourself

[@adsey1664]

Have you considered microdosing psilocybin?

[@MarkSmith-tp6zc]

Don't over-analyse and make unrealistic goals. First you've got to be off it for a few weeks to find some clarity of thought. You might then see a good path forward. Making pledges whilst you're on alcohol is not going to convince others of your sincerity.

[@alanzee_]

You can't overcome alcoholism with workouts and energy bars. You need professional help. I was an alcoholic for years until I asked my GP to refer me to an agency to help addicts - I am now sober for 10 years.

[@leej-wp9ft]

Why don't you do 12 months in AA, look at the hole in your soul (we call it a spiritual malady) then come back and do a video? alcohol is a symptom of the problem you're the actual problem as you're the alcoholic - alcohol - ism the ism means '''In side me'' you MUST understand your illness you have no idea brother. I know you have good intentions but you're not getting sober any time soon.

[@bryants6790]

Agreed! I could always stop drinking, I was the best at that. Always going on the wagon for keeps. But I could never stay stopped. Because of AA I have been Sober 1,262 days 🙏🏻☺️🌅✨

[@leej-wp9ft]

@@bryants6790 well done mate keep it up

[@lesleyjoli2700]

How about the title of this video is " Alcohol is killing me"? I nearly died from it. Stop before you will no longer have the luxury of "making goals ".

[@avamathers9550]

Um maybe you need to see a psychiatrist as I don’t think doing this by yourself is working . Your lifestyle is not sustainable. I see this as just another clip of saying new day, new me. It’s getting a bit repetitive and pointless at this stage. Sorry to be harsh but you really need to seek professional help.

[@anjke]

Psychotherapist perhaps.

[@kaavest]

Put in some q 10 and selenium and so on and see if this get it into a better balance, because all this drinking could have led to deficiencies a vicious circle, theese selenium and so on give a better sleap and fix up much and then exersise every day if a opportunity.sveating out in a sauna etc. I have newer drink like this, moore a occationally week end .once a mounth, but i tryed one year total sober taking up theese tablets as i used before as "a hobby" that is a gamechanger, sleap is like in the 20 s and i just quit even the week end drinking, i go out sometimes but drink alk free beer. I should not promote but Pharmanord is good in this. "Hit hard " on the q 10 150 mg in start and down to about 100 . (Even 1500 is not dangerous) but you should not hit to heavy on because it start step by step doing it,s job.

[@Kara-x3h]

You might have bipolar? You seem like you get down for weeks then up for weeks? Just a thought.

[@Ah__ah__ah__ah.]

r u together with the other parent?

[@cheesecake4you]

In the end you might have the house. But you want have a marriage or your kids around. Alcohol will increase in your life. Nobody can work so many hours and stay sober. I done it and it nearly killed me. No point in owning a house when you sick 🤢 and need care.

[@rowan1739]

Eh sobriety comes first so the things that matter dont come lasy

[@rowan1739]

Last

[@karenblack4702]

You are a word salad , lots of words but no content ? ! You talk too much , just save your energy for quiet change x 😅

[@volcommerce]

Why don't you jump back on the bong? It's a lot healthier

[@JustpokerB]

Did u paint ur fingernails pink

[@paulcharlton4788]

I don’t totally understand your situation but why do you feel the need to provide for your “family” who don’t seem to be willing to contribute as well? What kind of work are you doing? Menial stuff or are you qualified in something?

[@joebhoy81]

Maybe the pink nails is the problem no the drink

[@DangerMenace]

Put the bottle down, you're slurring.