I Relapsed on Alcohol for 5 Long Months (How Easy it Can Happen)

[@kerilockwood7819]

Working 75 hours a week for 4 months is not an intelligent plan for someone trying to stay sober. Stress is a well known driver back to the bottle.

[@JT0007]

Pretty sure he’s not telling the truth

[@markgaudreau8053]

yup

[@seniorjohnl]

The opposite is true for me, free time gives space for drinking that I don't have while working. I put in for overtime knowing that it will keep me occupied and NOT drinking.

[@J3ff687]

Its better to encourage him than saying some negative thing.... At least he tried something and were sober for long time. Next time he will do better.

[@ryancolao2878]

Yeah I was gonna say… maybe that has something to do with the alcoholism? Unattainable life styles def contribute to substance abuse.. have to address healing from a lifestyle perspective. Sounds like he hasn’t identified life style problems leading to abuse.

[@anitamartindale3585]

I could never have "1".....sober 24 years this July

[@peacelilly739]

Don't pick up the first drink. It's an AA must. One day at a time. Sober head on the pillow, before sleep. Rinse and repeat. there ain't no other way, bro.

[@philiplindo8801]

Sober 26 years from meth, crack cocaine, marijuana and now 9 months sober from alcohol. You can do it guys!🙏🙏🙏

[@JustpokerB]

Kiwi here bro I relapsed since January after 3 months changing my life getting healthy asf n huge changes. I'm now 2 weeks sober again and just enjoying the journey tbh I know I can't do 1 drink now I can't have 1 beer ever it will always lead to self sabotage Good luck big boy I'm cheering for you found your channel last night very relatable real content

[@thelostsoul000]

Man, you ROCK!! I can totally see you fighting the brutal fight of addiction, respect! No matter what happens please keep going and NEVER give up. We the addicts are the strongest people on earth because we keep trying to win this crazy phenomenon. I'm with you on this journey bro.

[@---cx1ly]

Thank you for sharing your story. I am on day 5. I was close to 4 months sober, and decided stupidly to have a drink. I relapsed for like a month and a half.... I have to remind myself, alcohol never changes. and I never change. I have to remind myself to "play the tape" It picks up right where it left off.... Used to, I could drink 4 on night one and if i kept going it would only be one or two extra per night. The swiftness I got myself back up to roughly 12-16 drinks and buying a box of wine every 3 days was so quick its scary. I pray that you feel better. I pray that you find your sobriety. AA really works for me. I know some people are iffy about it, and I get it for sure. For me what helps the best is the fellowship and just being around people who understand me and that I can talk to about it with. You don't have to follow the book exactly. We say in my home group, the book is just suggestions. Maybe try out a zoom AA meeting? Just google zoom aa meetings or I can provide a link if you would like. As I said you dont need to agree with AA per se, one thing that helps me is hearing other peoples stories because it motivates me to stay sober. Im here to talk! I noticed you just posted this. So feel free to reply, I'm here and praying for you either way.

[@Jacob54321]

Hey man my name is Jacob as well and I’m 31, I’m trying to stop drinking all together, it’s kinda tough but your videos help motivate me. thanks, and you can do it 👍

[@ricklubbers1526]

That anxiety you feel when you say to yourself you'll never drink again tells me you havent found the reason why you drink just yet. What are you going to miss when you never drink again? Ive been there man. Marking off 2 years sober in about 2 months. That anxiety is where the solution is at. Thats the reason you drink. Thats the thing you dont want to confront. You cannot outrun that demon. It will catch up to you. You have to confront it. Less talk, more action.

[@mermaidtales4009]

I know... agony watching him torture himself.. yet he often says "I'm proud of myself " or "I'm strong" etc.. The Ego must goooooooo! No rock bottom in sight here..

[@carmenl163]

@@mermaidtales4009 Sometimes we say those words but that doesn't mean we believe them.

[@alyciamcmahon3346]

The idea of never drinking again really scared me. Alcohol was my best friend. When I quit drinking the last time, I didn’t know it was the last time. I took it day by day and now I’m 8 years in. After a year or so I never even gave booze another thought. Once you get to the other side, life is so much easier and better

[@stephaniepoleson8891]

30 years clean and sober here. I needed to go to a detox and rehab in order to have that protection and time out. Really saved my life. Good luck whatever your choice is.

[@johant23]

I'm coming up for 13 years sober without relapse.. but I relapsed many times before that. you are so right it only takes 1 drink. the important thing is not to beat yourself up. the fact you recognise you have a problem and you want to do something about means you WILL get there. I always tell anyone who is struggling "if I can do it anyone can do it" cos I was a fckn mess. they way you speak tells me you will succeed. it's a huge cliche but 1 day at a time mate 💪

[@jonathanvandenberg3571]

Just the fight to be sober is a huge step toward success, I have no doubt you'll be one of those popular KZbinrs who have changed their lives around and living off KZbin royalties.

[@rcm616-j5t]

I know you say you can't commit to never drinking ever again, I get it, I was like that too. But can you at least fully commit to a year of sobriety? A month or two just isn't long enough, but if you commit to a year I guarantee by the end of it your life will be so much better that you will never want to drink again, and the thought of never drinking again won't be scary at that point. Taking one day at a time is all good, but it's also kinda vague. I would recommend to committing to a solid goal of one year of sobriety. That's what I did and it worked for me. I only planned to give for a year, but at the end of that year I just kept going and it had become my new life

[@matty832]

I was the same, the thought of giving up forever seemed impossible so I said I’ll stop for a year, I’m 10 months in and I can quite confidently say I will never drink again

[@joystiicks5680]

I think a year is too abstract. It's better to commit to sobriety daily.

[@---cx1ly]

I dont necessarily agree with putting a time limit on it. It can seem too daunting. What I did in 2021 is I told myself I was going to "stay sober for as long as I possibly could, and just see what happened". I ended up 8 months sober with only a one night slip in the middle which considering I will usually drink night after night if I slip, I didnt necessarily consider it a relapse since I almost never stop after just one night. But whatever call it whatever you want its just an opinion imho. I ended up moving back out of home, working 40 hour weeks at a restaurant of all places, made a lot of money and got my own apartment. Had my own life. That is why we say, "one day at a time". Especially early sobriety. Commit to today. And if you "commit to today" every day, well yeah, it eventually will turn into a year. Anyways thanks for letting me clarify for you. have a good day.

[@tammyjams22]

I am doing a year. After the year, I am sure I’ll commit to another year

[@rcm616-j5t]

@@joystiicks5680 Just sharing what worked for me. I tried and failed so many times at doing the "just one day at a time" or "just make it a couple of months" thing, in my opinion it's too vague. I never had a clear, solid goal to work towards. Eventually after years of failed attempts I made the commitment to myself to just do a year, and to not concern myself with whatever happens after that year. This is what it finally worked for me. A year may seem like too far away and too abstract at the begining, but then before you know it a year has passed and you realise how fast a year actually fies by. When I reached the end of that year there wasn't even a doubt in my mind that I'm going to be sober for the rest of my life.

[@ginawilliams8847]

I found your channel while trying to fight strongholds of my own and I find the struggles mirror no matter what. So, no one whose actually had to fight through something like we have would tear you down. IYKYK, sending strength and peace your way!

[@markg.4246]

STOP fighting, and surrender to living in the solution. "Strength" is NOT a requirement for getting sober.

[@patriotoffreedom6429]

Day by day, minute by minute and hour by hour. That's how you have to look at this. Cheering for you in Cocoa Beach Florida. I'm sober almost a year now and some days are more different difficult than others. I know this is a cliche but baby steps, prayer + consistency.

[@gregorypellerin1]

I love you man, you can do this shit. Get in a support group if you aren't. The KZbin accountability is great!

[@---cx1ly]

what is youtube accountability?? I never heard of this! please tell me more. I cannot drive right now because my car has to be fixed from hail damage. I'm going through the same thing as him with binge drinking and relapsing for me personally. I cant drive right now so havent been able to make it to my home group. I do zoom AA meetings but I look for any help I can get while Im stuck at home. Thanks for posting that btw!

[@gregorypellerin1]

@@---cx1ly I only mean his approach of posting a video committing to sobriety so that he can feel accountable to his viewers and not letting them down. I don't have the magic bullet for curing addiction - just trying to be supportive. The best thing I have found is self help books. Doesn't work for everyone, works for me. I like 'the power of now' eckhart tolle on audiobook.

[@a.lelystadhaven-bu8be]

Respect for your video's, it helped me soo much. Live near Amsterdam Holland and its soo hard to be sober... Wish you all the best

[@czanderrr]

Best of luck to you, you can do this. I visited Amsterdam last year at a time I was considering sobriety and I can definitely imagine how hard it is to live near there. I went there on a sightseeing trip with my wife hoping I would just drink moderately and ended up couldn't control myself, especially with alcohol being cheaper than where I'm from. But I'm 8 months sober now. Getting sober was still the hardest part, staying sober hasn't been as difficult as long as I keep myself busy. Good luck!

[@ricklubbers1526]

Hey man, im from the Netherlands as well. From the east. Its not difficult to stay sober, its just lonely sometimes.

[@carmenl163]

Als je in Lelystad woont, woon je niet echt naast Amsterdam. Ik hoop in ieder geval dat het goed met je gaat en ik wens je het beste!

[@codyschwabe7697]

The prospect of never having a drink again gave me anxiety at first as well. But I realized that like a small insect I had crawled out of the pit of hell that alcohol had put me in and that one drink would send me screaming straight back. I now live in complete fear of having a drink ever again as I hold the view that if I go back once I'll never be sober.

[@---cx1ly]

Also please ignore any of the ignorant comments. I went through and read all of the comments. Theres just a couple on here I saw of ignorant presumably children who have not experienced very much out of life yet and are in for a rude awakening. You're doing great! One thing these people who are rude don't get, is that in AA, a huge part of the program is sharing. It helps to get it out, it helps to remind yourself why you don't want it anymore, and it helps other people to either seek help themselves or to stay sober. These children are too young or priveleged to understand much. They had better hope they don't carry the genetics and pass it on to their own kids and have to deal with the pain one day. You did the right thing in posting this. F what any of the haters say. Sharing is a blessing that God wants us to do so that we can all help eachother out, and not feel so alone in this disease. Ok God bless, again, just ignore em they haven't lived much of life yet and are very very naive. Much love from the USA

[@i2Shea]

You are doing your best my man, keep at it!

[@michaelwal2600]

Your truthfulness inspires me, I too have struggle stopping, can go about a month than I trip up.Your a inspiration for me to just get back up and fight no matter how much I fall...thank you

[@joehenshall8735]

You'll gain momentum as you go! A day seems like nothing now, but when it turns into a month, two months you'll be unstoppable

[@Knightcommander69]

One day at a time brother. The only drink you need to focus not having is the first one.

[@jenniferfree4144]

Im consider someone who "chronically relapses". Let's just keep trying. We do recover. Your videos help me stay sober when I feel edgy

[@pageantgrosvenor]

The three month target with such a wonderful result for your kids you cannot let this fail.

[@Analoguebubblebath89]

Learn from it, and move forward. Have a clear vision of where you want your life to be. What got me sober was booking a holiday, and I told myself, I will not drink for 4 months (I was already at the end of my tether here, fat, miserable, isolated, broke) And when the holiday is here I will have a blow out. When I’m looking ripped and jacked from working out. The holiday came round and my life was so much better that I was terrified of drinking again. That was 2 years ago. I was an alcoholic for 15 years, from 17-32. I drank basically everyday between those times. The last 10 years I was on 12-15 drinks average a day. Blacking out most evenings in my city, fighting, getting arrested, stealing, breaking into places for fun. I never in my life thought I could change. I thought my life was doomed. Everyday hell, Groundhog Day. So I get it buddy, I get how you’re feeling. I made probably 100 videos like this. And I was too embarrassed to upload them. One thing that has helped me immensely, is running, it almost cured my life long anxiety and depression and adhd symptoms, at least by 70%. The first months are really tough, but when you get to around 4-6 months you start feeling amazing. (I wrote this running bit before the end of the video lol, awesome job with the running that’s fucking awesome lol. 65k is no joke. You have amazing potential, that’s great)🎉🎉🎉🎉 All the best brother, you got this. I believe in you. I can tell you are a smart dude. You’re gonna get this done.

[@ashantapovey4590]

Congratulations what an inspiration

[@Analoguebubblebath89]

@@ashantapovey4590 thanks 🙏🏻

[@georgep9059]

no one is judging u man u can do this 😊

[@lewiscurry562]

I think it’s very wise to take it day by day!

[@Ah__ah__ah__ah.]

I’m sorry for the negative comments friends… truly one day sober is a day accomplished and honestly all these people saying you can’t never drink again blah blah blah are just way to black and white because look if he doesn’t drink for three months goes off the wagon for a month it’s way way better then drinking for four months :) way way better :) so believe in yourself and count each day sober as a absolute bossing win 🏅

[@neverquit9414]

Drinking sucks....It's poison I do not miss.....You got this, rooting for you mate.

[@lav7161]

You're training for the job (sobriety), and just at that, you're on the right path. Keep it up, man

[@colinnz]

I gave up 5 years ago but i tell you wjat every single day since i still feel like a drink

[@carmenl163]

But it's different from when you first started to drink, right? I stopped smoking cigarettes 10 years ago, but my cravings now are very mild compared to those first couple of days.

[@Lucashsh]

I can relate so much. Loving your videos by the way. Keep them coming. Good luck buddy

[@CJMS1983]

As a person who have Alchool Use Disorder just keep trying like I am. I think the secret to stop tasting booze is when it doesn't taste good anymore. 4th day sober and even resisting temptation like my friend bringing a 6 pack of beers to see Euro 2024 and until now I'm good. Sincerely my friend keep trying, never is too late. Anyway Props to you , your courage to talk openly about it and everything good for ya!

[@sourbaileys]

Stay strong brother. Wishing you the best, you'll be in my prayers.

[@liveillusion]

Also I found keeping a bottle of jack daniels in my cupboard "helped" me abstain.

[@Sharon-kr1ui]

I really hope you find the strength. Many people are rooting for you including myself. Be kind to yourself and speak kindly to yourself quietly everyday. The inner voice makes a big difference. We always repeat over and over how terrible and pathetic we are. Try telling yourself how wonderful you are and how worthy. Self love works. xx

[@bryants6790]

A teaspoon of honey every 3-4 hours will help with the withdrawals for the first two weeks. If you set a timer every time you have a craving it will only last 25 minutes, get up get active and go for a short walk

[@LindaBinette-eh9xu]

I agree with you on how fast it happens after that first drink. I have just relapsed myself. It sucks. So now I’m back on day 2. We need to avoid that first drink. Just for today let’s do this. No alcohol today. You can do it. 😊from Mexico

[@jayneholland1472]

I am with you, I have relapsed after 6 months AF, I have to be all or nothing, and I’m now trying again to be nothing! I hope you are ok xx

[@Rob_132]

While I don’t deal with addiction, I do deal with recurring mental illness. My counselor told me to throw everything into helping myself. Therapy, medication, eating well, sleeping well, drinking water, exercising, healthy relationships, learning about mental health, balance in everything. I’ve found spiritual self education and practice useful too. First, I’d get in contact with a substance use therapist. Good luck to you. I wish you the best in your recovery. You can do it. Be compassionate with yourself always. ✌🏼

[@CaitrionaFallon]

Have you tried TSM and Naltrexone ❤

[@grantod1]

Keep going in the right direction for you, braver than most for being in front of the camera, you obviously have strength there and commitment…just needs the positive direction. Back to the exercise/gym and replace the drink with some cold brew coffee, whatever works. 👍💪

[@jamesbyrne9312]

I did this, one drink led me from one year sober into a 5 month relapse too. Got into fights, all kinds. We are problem drinkers, and self sabotaged, we have emotional trauma I think. But the great thing for you is you have a great family to live for. I am single my whole life. I am also like you, can't stop when I have a drink. Have a peaceful day.

[@Jay-zx5hx]

I hate it. I become a completely different person when I drink. And I drink to deal with the shame. It's rough.

[@jamesbyrne9312]

@@Jay-zx5hx Yeah I drink to block out the fact I have so many problems that i feel are unsolvable. I have problems with my bladder and so i feel I can never have a girlfriend, I am nearly 40, I have had terribly traumatic rejection from the only women I ever loved. I was totally infatuated. I did a year sober, felt great, then one drink and just months of chaos. We can't drink and I hope to get to a point very soon where I can stop for good. In Jesus name I pray for wisdom for both of us

[@Jay-zx5hx]

@jamesbyrne9312 Yeah. It's hard to accept. I've been there, I tell myself I'll only drink beer then it goes to wine and after that I'm right back to hard liquor.

[@jamesbyrne9312]

@@Jay-zx5hx yes that first drink is the trickster. Gotta avoid it

[@sgnifi]

The sky is so blue behind you, you have to be sober to appreciate the beauty nature displays for us all. Hope you will win your battle against alcohol

[@louelaine3680]

I have over-eating addiction and have had for quite a few years now. I tell myself the same things you do almost every day. Most days I fail and not able to stick to my goals. Get discouraged and give up for awhile. Then back to it, with almost no success. Even those who aren't alcoholics have some idea what you're facing. Every day is a struggle.

[@benburns5995]

Hi Jake, hoping that you can have the strength to be Alcohol free one day at a time.

[@jartstopsign]

Buddy we got a lot in common, I can see your hand is a little shaky and that shows me this is all very real. I struggle heavily on Sunday's during NFL season when I have to work, I'm a terrible employee on those days and that itch for a drink is so strong it's all I think about. Hoping the best for you

[@thegreenbreak]

thats all it takes which is so scary. Just one. Love the glasses btw

[@Gee856]

The only way to maintain a sober life for the rest of your life is to focus on your self for a while

[@melberg6821]

Don’t worry too much about what anyone thinks. You are wearing your heart on your sleeve and the very least they can do is be respectful and if they can’t be, then block them

[@sacredspotvancouvercenterf104]

I totally relate to everything you say. For me, i cannot get through that first day without drinking. But we have a Rapid Access Detox Program at my local hospital that anyone can visit. It takes about an hour to go and tell them you want to quit and they gave me 3 days of Gabapentin for anxiety. I took 2 pills 4 times a day for 3 days. Easiest thing in the world to do. I was able quit drinking, without any detox, any anxiety, and felt amazing Day 1. And i drank a lot, similar to you, 10+ drinks a day for months, and before that, years. I recommend getting help, i am sure you have a Rapid Detox Program at your hospital too. It gave me the chance to stop, because I just can’t stop alone. I have been almost a month sober. It’s honestly really awesome to get meds for the first 3 days. I felt relaxed and amazing Day 1 and everyday since. Try Gabapentin for 3 days under the support of a physician, it is the way to go. After that, it is smooth sailing, a check in back to the doctor, and that’s it. Try it!!!!!!!

[@LobsterMobility]

Very honest video mate. I have done the same thing before.

[@robertmiermeister6233]

keep up the great work, mate. U be back soon here? :)

[@spartan8696]

Awwww i really wish i could give u a big warm hug ❤❤❤ everything is gunna be ok 😊 ik you are strong enough to overcome this 😊

[@GizelleQuant]

You might want to consider not limiting your sugar for a while as you get sober (and that includes comfy food). You can still exercise and keep active.

[@simonbartz4451]

Self-Compassion mate:). If you can arrive at a place where you DON'T WANT to drink, instead of the mindset of "I CAN'T, or I'M NOT ALLOWED", it could make a significant difference in your approach man. Re-calibrate, and remember your reasons why. How do you get there? That is unique to YOU....🤜🤛

[@sorryhungry729]

Keep that same mindset and be honest with yourself is the best approach. If you do fuck up and you will you need to get back to your mindset that you have now. Most people can’t even be honest with themselves. Overtime that honest positive mindset will take over

[@HXLIASMR]

Right here with you brother. On day 4 of sobriety after a 3 week 30oz of vodka bender/day. It's been a harrowing 4 days. Been to two AA meetings, about to head out to one in 2 hours. I get caught in the cycle too and it's impossible to explain to people who don't understand.

[@itsame_th2283]

Gonna do it with you brother. Im done with this bullshit

[@pampoovey6722]

Once I’ve had a drink I crave the dive to the bottom. The ability to be at ease with my terrifying thoughts, makes it so scary. And then the monster comes out and dictates stuff. But if you fight it, it turns out the scariest anxiety magic that you’re powerless against.

[@brandoe61]

good for you man! my motivation to stay away from cigarettes is: be economically indipendent and mtg cards

[@jonktrades1454]

Day one for me if I get through the next few hours

[@andrewphillips4826]

Anyone struggling with sleep issues/nightmares when you don’t drink?

[@mariolastepaniuk4957]

F** yeah, all the anxiety that hasn't been dealt with because of drinking comes up

[@GizelleQuant]

Yes. It goes away with time. Keep a journal and practice your breathing. This too shall pass.

[@Peter-vn5jq]

The fact that you don;t have severe withdrawals after 5 months of such heavy consumption is amazing, frankly. My last relapse was only a week, and when I finally stopped, I hallucinated for two nights in a row, not even mentioning the shakes and sweats.

[@HaydenPettit-dx8dv]

Keep on going mate, that lift only goes down.

[@joseglopez2430]

Meditate and open your third 👁️ Prayer, breath from your nose and out your mouth. Receive the gift and the rest is easy. 🙏

[@adambrady7742]

Hey brother be careful, 15 drinks being A normal day then 0 drinks, I hear seizures, and potentially death. You can die from alcohol withdrawal. I would work with a doctor. Best of luck.

[@adamdudley8778]

It only generally happens when you’ve been drinking nonstop like day after day, essentially on a huge bender then you stop drinking completely. That can cause DTs

[@terryshaw3493]

I know it is not easy, but please push on through this to sobriety. It becomes easier the longer you stay sober and find the happiness in your life without the "high". That high always leads to a low. God bless you.

[@TheInnerSession]

You achieve loads and work hard even when being an alcoholic. Just imagine man if you continue this sobriety from today, insane potential.

[@philiprolf]

Brother, you need to be kinder to yourself. forget about counting calories and all that shit, eat whatever you want in the beginning, avoid what and who you need to avoid and reduce your working hours. less is more.

[@adambrady7742]

This! When I got sober I had a priority list 1.) was stay sober. 2.) was my health(eating healthy, exercising, etc. on days where I only wanted to drink I would just watch Netflix all day and eat bad food, but I stayed sober.

[@happyapple4269]

ive heard people say a carnivore diet really helps with quitting the booze.

[@carmenl163]

That's so true. Choose your battles. You can't be a superhuman every day; that's a recipe for failure.

[@happyapple4269]

Thailand is one the worst places to go for an alcoholic.

[@nebelung1]

Yep.. surrounding yourself with bars serving cheap alcohol 24/7, big no no...

[@zoltananga8872]

Only an idiot goes there with an alcohol problem trying to stop

[@ashantapovey4590]

Dont give up you got this lord bless you

[@jayheywood9635]

its so hard gotta change routine

[@cemetarygates2800]

You can't get back on the horse unless you first fall off the horse. Best of luck man!

[@bali.talks.shares]

ON this video you got good views....i saw several of your other videos too.... I get it.

[@br4524]

Never give up. Never. Even if you slip. Never give up. You matter and you are not alone 😊

[@know-your-worth-Truth]

Your doing it STOP ✋️ worrying about haters, you're being true to yourself 💯 So you fell you got back up well done, just keep going forward, my friend, like I always say Don't look back keep looking forward ✨️

[@meltreweek7544]

Mate you can do this , u got it one day at a time

[@xwarx1000]

I am 3 months bender after 5 years of not touching alcohol ( not sobriety) this is what happens when you do not work on your recovery very very painful.

[@amazingflavour]

Bro you could be an absolute machine if you got more into running. That is insanely impressive. You need to want to though obviously. Good luck getting through one day after the next

[@archangel_josh]

My heart goes out to you, you're so self aware and yet you feel like you can't stop. A passenger in your own brain just watching the process happen again and again. I don't have any answers, luckily I'm 1 year 9 months sober tomorrow and did it with my wife after 20+ years of weekend binge drinking that turned into years of weekend benders. Luckily we didn't have any cravings, we just stopped and it was like we never drank to begin with. I wish I could give you my experience of getting sober. It hurts to see you struggle. Best of luck my man.

[@archimedes8276]

Youll quit when your ready, you have to hit your absolute bottom otherwise you'll never quit

[@rqn1998]

Im the same mate once i start i dont want to stop however i can go cold turkey.... i wonder why im trying to go dry now at 47... ive been drinking heavy for at least 22 years with some spot periods of giving up. At the end of the day having a booze up can be great fun depending on company...

[@R01120]

Sober for 5 years. Relapsed a year ago for no good reason. Thought I could moderate, but after one day I picked up right where I left off. A fifth of rum a day. Struggling to quit again.

[@crisd7142]

I did the exact same thing. I didn’t realize moderation is not an option for me. Managed to get sober again for the plain fact that I just couldn’t deal with the shame and self hatred anymore. You’re not alone. All the best to you and don’t give up on yourself.

[@andrewphillips4826]

Just got my brokers license miraculously and sitting here during a work day killing a 375ml of tequila, throwing my fucking life away

[@Jay-zx5hx]

You try AA?

[@jayheywood9635]

good luck bro

[@parliarobertionut445]

Do you not get witdrals simtoms when you stop

[@kpops168]

I do think you need to be careful with the comments on here. Some are not helpful and no doubt increase your anxiety. Just go for it. You have your kids for motivation. And your work. Good on you - you just need to do what works for you! If that means daily KZbin accounts do that. It’s not for anyone else it’s for you and your family. And if people out there can learn from it great. If they can help you great. Try to filter out the negative unhelpful comments. Good on you.

[@doc_law1593]

So many contradictions in this video. People are screaming at you! Go and get help. If I had one sip of alcohol I would be back to where I was 31 years ago or worse. There is a life out there without alcohol and it is good. It's like groundhog day with you. Wake up before it is too late.

[@sly9566]

I hear you brother.

[@R3c0nf1gur3d]

Was it lit? Did you have a good time? Or was it horrible?

[@jameswalls7140]

Prayers

[@VIN-vq4be]

switch to beer and cut down from there untill your drinking weak beer witch u will get bored of eventually like 3% stuff

[@weinerwagon6667]

The glasses tells us all we need to know….keep talking. No action. Your family most be exhausted.

[@zenstiller8938]

wearing sunglasses? hes outside in australia. chill bro

[@atharris8]

We are on the same journey.

[@Tom_Tabbing]

What do you do when you are drunk? Like just sit inside watching stuff

[@justinaoska5901]

You must break yourself , you must break you ego - it will not be pleasant

[@vivid.worker]

I'm wary of you creating a channel who's popularity is based on videos of you saying you relapsed. It's admirable you are willing to address this, the issue is you will get used to the dopamine hit when everyone tunes in when you relapse. So your brain will subconsciously realize relapsing is a way to go viral get a huge dopamine hit. Imo, best to stay off of the confessional social media when in recovery, that's just my two cents

[@susanmargaretwills6432]

Nice nail polish