alex g - pretend (slowed and reverb)

i made a bloody mess

[@lakewilliams2972]

Im crying my mother did drugs, weed, etc. and got me into the system. Im with my grandparents and im just listening to this song with max volume on.

[@avguris]

i really hope for you that you’ll get out of this vicious circle

[@d3rpyk1d76]

i’m so sorry for you :(

[@xxunknownxx8978]

I’m rlly sorry buddy I hope things get better and I hope the best for you

[@Gangstertimothy9]

unlucky mate

[@sarcashd3991]

Oh no weed that's terrible 🤣

[@nocovidhere6812]

My ex abused me last year. The teachers know. The admin, the few people I trust. Today I looked over and saw his staring me down flipping me off from the hall. It made me sick I almost threw up at lunch. Many people victimize themselves or say womp womp or jusy dont understand so I just dont share. But today I need to. Towards the beginning of pur relationship he knew I was born early from a car accident, and that I have autism. I explained about my abusive bio dad. I told him about my uncle to SAd me. I trusted him to know that and not break boundaires. I told him about my cousin who also SAd me in junior high. He listened for a bit but suddenly after the summer we went back to school he acted different. He began brainwashing by saying that he would KHS if I left him, blame it on me so that I get in trouble. Then it began. He would manipulate me and touch me when I begged no. It happened more than 30 times. I'd try to get away. I couldn't tell I just couldnt. Id get mad and he'd turn it on me like saying "you wanted it, you were wearing.., you didnt say anything you only pushed me away." In december it was the worst time of this. Hed take me put side in the snow and try to get me to do stuff. Im lucky to be a virgin still after this. That was THE ONLY THING he didnt do because he KNEW his dna would stay and hed be busted. I never had evidence to turn him in. Decemeber is the time I was depressed when I was in 8th grade, the time I was SA'd previously and now again last year. I'm so sick of it. He just got worse and worse with it. Towards the end infront of his friend he tried to get me to lay down to put his head in my chest. I KNEW what he was doing so infront of his friend as a plea, I tried to get up and get away. He then punched my ankles and legs to try to get me to sit and yelled for me to sit down. The next day I hid at lunch, and the next. I then went to him in the lunchroom infront of a lot of peopel feeling safe enough and broke up with him. He cried and cried. And played victim. I cried but in freedom. But unfortunately it didnt end there. 2 weeks went by of him begging for me back. Then in my cooking class infront of my 2 friends who know everything now he was acting creepy. He grabbed Kn*ves and was touching them, looking at them and then to me. Uncomfortable and scared I told the teacher about it. When I went back he forcefully grabbed me and I kicked and yelled LET ME GO. STOP. he gripped me so hard I had marks on my skin. I then ran out with my teacher following along with someother teacher who heard next door and ran to the bathroom and cried. I took photos. My mom called me, called the school. The principals were in a meeting so I went back to class. Him, playing the victim cried in a corner. Everyone knew in that class about the attack. But no one knows everything. I was offered to press charges but because of his parents being in a biker gang and being creeps I just couldnt. I refused. I got a restraining order filled. The other reason was my brothers bio mom trying to sue my dad. My dad is the inly one who works so we had to save for that. My mom has a spin injury permenetly form the car accident. I am now single and looking once again parinoid at school to make sure he doesnt come in here. Many people play the victim. But when you dont know the true story of a true vitcim you will aussme we all fake it who are serious. I went form paranoia from a girl threatining to shoot me in high school to sitting here a senior again, paranoid of a man capable of possibly the most horrifying things.

[@frxstedcuh]

my girlfriend cheated on me and since that day ive been scared of myself

[@Belle-t3w]

"I made a bloody mess in the kitchen sink I tried to fix myself but I didn't think"

[@avguris]

just … so real

[@shivika2411]

this song automatically makes me sad af and the slowed version makes me realize how almost everything about me is bad im not good looking, have so many flaws, not a lot of ppl like me, i dont get good grades at all and i just cant focus on anything or any goal i have i just wish i was a better person.

[@Ginkisfvr.4]

Real asfk

[@bananamajic3024]

I feel the same way man, it's like nothing you do is ever good enough...I'll never be good enough.

[@zackfletcher2933]

You defined my entire life I’m a loser

[@CurePeace318]

@@zackfletcher2933real I’m about to attempt again

[@lildicker2583]

My mum died when I was 6 from a heroin overdose... Since then my life was a mess, school was shit, most of the time I broke out and went to the local cafe in town as it was my safe space, my teachers always told me I was a go nowhere and that I wouldn't be successful in life, I'm currently the lead singer in a punk band called skeletal fragrance, life is good at the moment yakno... We're playing shows here and there, getting about on the scene n stuff.. I plan to kill myself at 27 because yakno funny rockstar number or whatever, living life knowing I'll eventually be free from this flesh prison weirdly comforts me, it comforts me to know that one day I'll be reunited with her and I'll be able to tell her about everything that happened in my life since she left, I just want to make her proud, because I've never had a sense of pride in myself... I dunno, people just seem to vent in the comments of songs like this so, here's my vent thing I suppose, if anyone reading this recognises me: hi

[@avguris]

i’m so sorry for your loss but i’m so happy that you got your shit together and are currently doing anything to make your mom proud. but you should never forget to make yourself proud tho. your mom would hate if you weren’t proud of yourself i promise you that.

[@user-kur0m1b4b11]

Please don’t do it, you need to keep going. You have to go on with your life. Live the life that you can! Your mother would have wanted you to keep going. You’re not alone, don’t do it. You deserve to live.

[@careforjusticealways]

please don’t hurt yourself!

[@1919-l7e]

I feel you on that man. You’ve been so strong for the years you’ve lived through. Life fucking sucks just know it’s okay to cry, even as a man, girl, woman, boy, in between or neither. She’ll be so excited to see you and I’m sure she’s proud. Good people get the toughest shit thrown at them. 🙃

[@xiao5151]

If anyone wants the lyrics, here they are: Gonna crack a rib When I get home I'm gonna bury you In my favorite hole I made a bloody mess In the kitchen sink I tried to fix myself But I didn't think They said "We just want to Talk with you" "We just want to Walk you through" Oh, I don't want to see you, babe I wanna be trapped in you Oh, I don't want to be me But I'm gonna pretend for you, oh Let's paint our nails And keep it real 'Cause honey all I know Is what I feel I'm still looking for A friend of a friend He said he'd hook me up He told me what he had They said "Leave your body Leave your mind" "Don't you know You're out of time?" In his room In his bed You can't hear what he said Looks like dirt Tastes like trash Honey, I know you Could float right past Oh, I don't want to see you, babe I wanna be trapped in you Oh, I don't want to be me But I'm gonna pretend for you

[@kavul77]

❤

[@HazbinCC]

Ok

[@justvibintosomemusic]

I think in this world it's extremely rare to be truly happy. I'm a person who is always laughing and never get mad at anyone, I also have a decent amount of friends but yet somehow when I sit alone just that something about my life just feels depressing and there are still things that come so easy to other people that somehow are the hardest thing to me.

[@lolzzca8804]

ay man i hope all is well, im sure youll get out of that i was like this aswell but i realized there is people around me who care for me. the same is for you so just remember that man and remember god is always with you

[@justvibintosomemusic]

@@lolzzca8804 thanks I hope so

[@carbon1080]

most relatable comment cs im really blessed imo but i get frustrated w/ myself so easily. gl to u brother :>

[@xbander1970]

Kinda just existing now.

[@Froggos_wonderfullchannel]

“Leave your body, leave your mind. Don’t you know your out of time” just hits so hard 😢😢

[@m0n0_moo64]

This song just hits my adhd brain in all the right places :) but the lyrics are so sad :( so I almost cry everytime I listen to it lol

[@Lily-hd6ju]

tf has it got to do with adhd

[@shootte331]

Same adhd here aswell

[@maxiethecute]

me when im gonna bury you in my favorite hole😲⁉

[@sup7530]

Jesus loves you and will always accept you no matter what youve done, just accept that Jesus died and rose on the cross for your sins.💖

[@Ripkenblock04]

Idk I'm gonna go see him I can't take it no more

[@sup7530]

@@Ripkenblock04 Don't, you will one day, now is not the time, God promises a happy, peaceful life in Christ, all you have to do is follow him. Whatever pain you're going through will end, just give it time, pray and endure. You have an obligation to live for Christ, and he will reward you plentifully. Give it one month, work on yourself, exercise, read, pray, meditate, stretch and have fun. God bless brother, you're only young, times will change, trust me. 🙏💕

[@teairramariii3657]

" i tried to fix myself but i didn't think"

[@monicazheung6385]

Me because my family has me fucked up

[@avguris]

me because the love of my life is playing

[@avguris]

if you want to talk about it, let me know oki

[@monicazheung6385]

@@avguris thankyou sm do you have instagram?

[@avguris]

@@monicazheung6385i’m sorry for the late reply, yes i do :) my instagram is @avguris, please text me there if you ever need to talk

[@monicazheung6385]

@@avguris hi thankyou so much, i’ll follow you

[@starchaser777]

honey, i know you could float right past

[@Shannarie77]

I have nothing, my family is all gone, my once friends have left me, my girlfriend that I gave the world to left me, I gave it all I had but now I have none left for myself

[@avguris]

you literally have yourself which is the most important thing. work on yourself and attract people that will stay in your life forever.

[@flacohernadez9920]

i'm here bro

[@Schoolwork-zt2kh]

VENT Btw: D: Everthing today ahs gone wrong, and once again, i wind up here, playing this full folume, laying in my bed crying my eyes out after another failed attempt, and school starts tommorow, I'm going back with the same haircut but messier, same bag, same clothes and no glow up. I feel like a failure.

[@avguris]

failed attempt ? at what ? you literally got up and chose to live another day, no matter how bad it went, you got up and fought. and it’s silly to force a glow up, how are you supposed to believe that other people see beauty in you when you can’t see it yourself ? your first assignment should be to write down 3 things that you like about yourself (looks wise). you will find something don’t be silly

[@Schoolwork-zt2kh]

tysm, u have no idea how much this means.@@avguris

[@avguris]

@@Schoolwork-zt2kh 💞

[@hellays]

Trying to write the most relatable/sad book rn. It's about a guy who dad died when he was younger, and he has these two friends that mean the world to him. His two friends die when they are in high school, and he becomes depressed. (His friends teased him for not wanting a gf) he finds this girl and I'm planning to make them have the most real/relatable/sad convo ever. music really helps, thanks.

[@FunkyJayy69]

bro got a sad ash life☠give smth good in his life

[@Microscoper1500]

Apparently it’s cringe to vent, but all I want is to hear something positive from somebody else. I don’t have the best skin, I have a lot of problems with it, so I’m not aloud to go the beach get a gf etc. I’m very lonely and I envy all the people around me.

[@_alpha_salmon_2001]

I dont even have a reason to be sad but I am what is wrong with me

[@Emi_hoshi]

It reminds of me that I pretend to be happy and kept smiling at public and school and never asked any help from my friends and say that I'm fine but I'm not fine.. I have family issues and anger issues and boys kept bullying me at school but I always put on a smile but when I get home I would get angry at myself and cry alone.

[@alexlikescatsss]

this is heavenly tysm

[@avguris]

kiss kiss

[@carterwatson981]

I have watched this comment section grow from 0 comments to about 30 now, and every comment is a piece of relatable material towards this song. I check in on this very upload of this song just so I can read the comments and learn a different story each day/week. Also, really happy to see the uploader offering help and comfort. What I'm saying is, just this song alone has created these connections, and conversations that mean a lot to not only the person, but anyone listening to this song.

[@avguris]

[@donatedbaconunicorn8853]

I don’t understand what life is anymore, it just seems like constant torture through the abuse, parents divorce , my mams suicide attempt, to my own dad telling me wished I was dead, not having a solid group of friends and now still suffering with bipolar. When does it end. Am I always gonna be in this much pain will life ever stop hurting. Will I succeed at anything??? I’m so fed up of trying to move forward.

[@Sakura.361]

God bless you with peace

[@cringe2097]

I knew my brother was going through tough shit when I heard this in his room

[@ricneptune]

Well, cry for my ex again

[@naero_____10]

i live my life like im so happy and everything is great all the time, but it’s a false reality and i’ve truly never been more sad in my life than i am now.

[@avguris]

delulu twins 😆😆😆 no but in all seriousness i think fake it till you make it is a scam and i can’t wait for you to be genuinely happy again

[@karlychavez1426]

This song reminds me of when my dog died and when I really suicidal, etc. But i still feel the same thing every day and cry everyday this song just reminds me when I have no one in my life as well .

[@lolzzca8804]

remind urself that therre is people who loves you man, god is always with you.

[@spinnysocks]

"its gonna be alright now" i cry every time

[@avguris]

crying is beautiful, it means you’re actually feeling something and you’re letting it all out. i promise you it’s going to be okay

[@spinnysocks]

​@@avgurisit's so hard. but i always keep going, i keep making it out. i guess it's always okay in the end

[@avguris]

@@spinnysocks you kept on fighting no matter how hard it was :) i’m proud of you and you better be proud of yourself too

[@sc3n3.g1rl]

This song made me realize that I'm alone and none of my friends actually like me

[@Quartum505]

get new friends.

[@sc3n3.g1rl]

@@Quartum505 it's not that easy

[@Theboyfromjupiter]

Why's he smoking? Doesn't he know that's bad for him?

[@Emmaloves103]

that’s the whole point.

[@puppywithinternet9032]

Cried myself to sleep with dis 💥🔥

[@zackfletcher2933]

Who else hates themselves

[@aver661]

I wish my parents didn’t have me at such a young age. Honestly, if they didn’t have me, their life would be so much easier. They’d eventually have to learn how to grow up, yes, but my dad wouldn’t have such horrible mental health and my mom wouldn’t have to feel the pressure of being a good mom. I love my parents, and they love me. They spoil me too much, though, and they have changed the person I am now. They aren’t good at parenting, in my opinion, and if they would’ve had me later, then everything would be a little easier. Because right now I feel very useless and dull. My parents have put their life in their perspective into my eyes and it absolutely sucks. They spoil me and give me more than enough of the things I love. And yet I still feel this way. Life sucks.

[@betoso97]

Remember kids, never abuse sostances, life is kinda good sometimes, don't let substances ruin those rarely good moments. Love you all.

[@Scouttrooper__]

Fucking hate numbing myself and disregarding my emotions with simply telling myself it is what it is and that I can't do anything about it either way

[@caesethevlogger2273]

Life sucks rn

[@Estet_789]

Pov: vc n tem amigos

[@bbtray]

i wanna stay strong but I can’t take this no more

[@avguris]

gotta stay strong for yourself

[@bbtray]

@@avguris yo i been losing hope and i didnt even think anyone would care if i commented on this video so the fact you took js a few secs out your day to tell me that means everything and i hope that the rest of your goes well and i very much do hope you have a great life bc you deserve it 🤍

[@avguris]

@@bbtray hope dies last :) there’s always a little hope left and i hope you’ll realize that one day

[@sarcashd3991]

Wah wah wah

[@HazbinCC]

stay strong ik how it feels

[@Colin__2007]

I’m a furry and bisexual and everyone mostly makes fun of me because of that, they keep calling me “fatherless” a “disappointment” and saying to “go kys” or “no one loves you” there was one time that on Roblox over probably 12 people were in a argument and it was because of me, I was a furry and people were making fun of me because I’m a furry, and said rude things to me, someone decided to spam type “furry” in the chat. This is mostly why everyone hates me and I mostly hate myself. Thanks for making this. I listen to this maybe every day.

[@avguris]

how can you be bisexual and gay dkakfnwkdkaoeod

[@Colin__2007]

@@avguris you can, bisexual means you love women AND men. But it’s the same thing. right?

[@avguris]

@@Colin__2007 you can’t be gay and bisexual lol. gay means you only love men and bisexual means you love both 😭 lmao

[@Colin__2007]

@@avguris ohhhh, mb sorry

[@DrakoFN420]

things have been better still kinda sad tho

[@avguris]

don’t talk your situation down if you’ve realized it’s been getting better :) show gratitude and pray for things to get even better because you deserve it

[@ear_lurker_3]

i love the song but i cant with the goofy image of that heart ☠️

[@avguris]

GSJQJSJAHA LOOKING BACK AT THIS YOURE SO RIGHT LMFOAODOWOFOEOODOSOFOSODOSOW

[@Jay-z1p]

I’m not depressed I just like listening to depressing songs. (Ok I am depressed but yk what I mean)

[@_4bb1_v1nnY]

idk

[@_4bb1_v1nnY]

fr

[@Amane-ln3ti]

« but I’m gonna pretend for you »

[@avguris]

r e a l

[@Lilsoupey]

Guys I’m genuinely crazy

[@Lilsoupey]

Nah like fr self harm and delusions aren’t fun

[@elijahvandenheuvel15]

The last time i cried was when my long distance girlfriend left 6 months ago she cheated on me about 3 months ago. Im numb, I hate summer.

[@Far_outstopmotions]

some people are really gonna crack some ribs after this song

[@ograb123]

destiny has a plan for all of us, just trust the process please. i love all of you.

[@avguris]

real :)

[@sayoristrandofhair]

gonna crack a rizz

[@sarcashd3991]

This comment section cringe af like its a good song and all im seeing is people's life stories

[@avguris]

the only one who’s cringe here is you bruh. you don’t belong here whatsoever if you think people sharing their stories together is cringe. are you actually slow. fuck off

[@deligeroysabellez.9274]

then get out of here lol

[@sarcashd3991]

@@avguris it's fucking weird

[@avguris]

@@sarcashd3991 awww 🥲 too bad ! bye

[@Doctorgoose88]

I’m egeing but my dad caught me and joined in I think he let me win guys

[@onlythingytletsmeputitas]

I had a dream of this exact song with the gleb korablev vid on it but I haven’t heard the song in like a year