poison tree - grouper (slowed with 1 hour loop)

[@Laine_h3arts]

“Maybe for you there’s a tomorrow?” That hit rough man.

[@nynopnynop]

real.... R = Realize E = everyone A= always L = leave

[@kayla-yf7hh]

''but for some of us... there's only today.''

[@meredithanderson5814]

My friend stepped on my headphones unbeknownst to me. I listened to Grouper for the first time and with the distorted sound of my jacked headphones the singer literally sounded like she was drowning. It was so beautiful, like nothing I had ever heard, a kind of gurgling singing. I found out later that day when I listened to my usual playlists that it was a serendipitous accident. I still find Grouper to be beautiful, but nothing will ever replace that first mistaken impression, hauntingingly breathtaking

[@noahmhp6x]

beautiful comment.

[@I_SP0K3N_I]

Beautiful indeed there is no beauty without destruction i think your comment represents that perfectly 💔

[@Lxyi-i5b]

Meredith name type comment

[@star201.0]

yknow it’s good when a song makes your heart feel heavy.

[@anthonysuarez7030]

Thank you I love to fall asleep listening to

[@3v3lyN-687]

This song has saved my life so many times…❤

[@Sariii653]

same

[@itclownlit9936]

Samw

[@Laine_h3arts]

“Maybe for you there’s a tomorrow” I can’t stop listening to this playlist because for that one little line.. wow

[@Igloo-b8g]

Im only 17, but there’s a part of me that this song unlocks that seems older than myself, like the pain of a past life coming back to haunt me. Is it the melody? Her voice? All of it together? What it brings out of me is like nothing I’ve experienced. The feeling of being told to grow up around people that are ignorant to the thoughts in your head is a feeling I don’t think I’ll get over. Being alone with family around you sucks. I now know what those teenagers I saw when I was little felt. I now know why those teenagers cut and burn. It’s not sadness, It’s absolute emptiness. I wish I had the ability to turn off my feelings and walk through the next 2 years as a robot. The ability to feel nothing is a double edge sword. And that sharp, piercing sword feels… comforting. Like, the pain I cause myself on the outside parallels the pain I feel on the inside for a split second, and in that split second, I finally feel something else; Although, I don’t know what to call it. I now know what it feels to die without being slain. I know what it means to grow up now. I’ve been crying so much my head hurts. The tightrope between life and death feels more like a cliff with a wall. And with each day, I’m getting closer and closer to the top. Climbing is easy. The jump will be hard, but climbing down will be the hardest. I don’t think I wanna come down any time soon. Idk how long I’ll feel like this, but I hate not being able to kill myself. I hate being stuck alive. I don’t believe in god, but this feels like purgatory. I wish I could cease to exist, then at least I wouldn’t feel like this. I don’t want sorry ass pity comments, but do as you please. All I’m doin is saying the shit in my head in a place where it won’t matter. “Maybe for you there’s a tomorrow”, the longer I live, the more I see my tomorrow being nothing more than an endless loop of me figuring out that I’m empty night after night, and hiding it day after day. I can’t kill myself. But I can’t stay here. I guess I’ll just sit with this venom in me that grows and spreads as I do. And in the end, whether I’m alive or dead, I can see myself molding and creaking into a solemn, empty, and joyless poison tree. To anyone hearing my empty, pitiful ballad, let them fall unto deaf ears. Allow my screams to go unheard in a forest of fallen trees, because like myself, you can do nothing with a poisoned tree except look at it, or chop it down. I like feeling this way though. I like how I can’t tell people how I truly feel. I like the feeling of my skin next to a lighter. I like yearning for someone to randomly walk into the kitchen late at night and ask me what’s wrong. I like feeling fucking broken. I think throughout all of my life I realized why I couldn’t be indoctrinated into the lull of believing in a god. I like hell. I like pain. Happiness is the absence of pain. But there is not happiness without pain. There is no light without dark. There is no depiction of fulfillment, without the agony of emptiness. I never thought I would be a person that could be depressed. But the funniest people are usually the most fucked up. It’s hard to say that I’d rather stay awake when I’m asleep. I want to die without having everyone mad at me. I FUCKING HATE EXISTING. I NEVER ASKED TO BE BORN. THE CRUELEST PUNISHMENT ANYONE HAS EVER BEEN GIVEN IS EXISTENCE. I’m not going to trick myself into believing that an invisible man in the sky is the cause of my suffering, because he would beg for my forgiveness if he existed. Ima go to sleep. Not like anyone could do a damn thing if I didn’t wake up.

[@lylahhiuger]

hey you don't know me but i love you and i hope you know, life is worth it. it takes time, life's a slide, you climb all the way to the top for a little , but you cant stay up there. eventually you come down. and onto the ground, you may just wanna stay there. the lowest point of the slide. but being at the top and sliding down it was amazing, right? so lets get you back up and climb to the top again. just for you to slide down again , but you wanna be at the top again. its life man. you gotta get back up.

[@lylahhiuger]

im so sorry man. i wish yoiu the best and i hope you overcome this like how 9 year old me did.. i understand.

[@Igloo-b8g]

@@lylahhiuger Preesh homedawg. I was in a hole last night. I felt better when I woke up. These little nooks and crannies of the internet is where I like to stay. Cuz it’s the realest part of this virtual place. People like you stop people from killing themselves. You, to someone you will never meet, are a saint. Ima be like you, perusing these dark corners of the internet looking for hands to grab. Because of you I feel better. You have my gratitude. I hope your day is fuckin awesome dude

[@Winmun00]

Comprendo de qué hablas... Sin duda alguna no hay escapatoria ni en vida, ni en muerte, la existencia de por sí es tan compleja y a su vez tan escasa de sentido, no hay un día que no piense en la muerte, en cada momento experimentado que quedará sepultado en recuerdos que poco a poco se desvanecen, el tiempo nos arrebata absolutamente todo, quizá jamás tengamos respuesta alguna a toda la inmensidad de preguntas que albergan nuestra mente. La existencia es tan inevitable como la muerte, esto es tan frustrante...

[@mrrepoo]

U said everything and nothing at the same time come back in1 0years and reflect on this comment. The trauma of life will only make u stronger each and every part of variable of life is what make you, YOU! The world is fucked up we all feel this way make the best out of every situation when it’s ur time to go it’s your time to go wether u choose which ever path u want to take it’s always certain… You’ll see success happiness trouble trial sand tribulations. Stay blessed and healthy, remember to pray to the one and only, who ever/ what u believe in. Maybe hell is earth now as we exist.. it’s always been…….

[@Toodles_ball8]

Holy this hit hard I’m 100% only living for this video

[@SocialOrbit]

NOONE can know I listen to this on repeat 24/7

[@Samsroblx]

Real

[@Chloe.pink1]

Ik I’m only 12, but my cat ran away and nobody cares… everybody says I’m the reason why the cat is lost. But it’s really not. I’m the only one taking the time to look for her. It’s really sad that she ran away at dark, and I’ve gotten more depressed by the fact she’s gone. I had a really good bond and Ive been crying myself to sleep everyday. I wait for her every second of each day. It’s been 1 month since then, I still can’t find her… im starting to think she is dead, but I’m still not giving up. My brother calls me a “cat killer” and it hurts. it really hurts..

[@belindamcarthur3440]

hey we are the same age dont give up man brothers are horrible dont listen to him hes trying to distract you u will find your cat i believe in u

[@Chloe.pink1]

@@belindamcarthur3440 thanks

[@Silly_genesiss]

HII, I’m so sorry to hear that you’ve been through this and that your cat has left, please don’t do hard on yourself, they may not believe you but I do, I hope you find your cat sometime soon or get better, I hope you find a way to make sure you get better!! ❤❤❤

[@Chloe.pink1]

@@Silly_genesiss luckily I found him, he was under a bush. He looks really skinny tho.

[@reddiesluvv]

oh im so sorry ml, im the same age and my cat has also run away for a couple weeks and im so sorry i know how hard it can be, keep trying to look because many cats will always find their way home. im so sorry i hope you find her soon 💝

[@andrea_m08]

This is one of those songs that makes you feel something it not necessarily sad or depressing it’s almost comforting in a way it’s hard to explain but it’s one of those songs that you know will make everything stop for just a sec

[@SRTKeem3811]

Cant let gang know i fw this

[@BIGSILENT98]

its okay bro

[@stevechinese1803]

let gang know

[@EmilyEmily22waly]

I really liked it but the songs are so good that they stay in my ears singing!!!❤

[@ttxmmy]

ive listened to this like 3 times. keep the work going

[@trydtuf]

this hit hard man.......

[@alisauyan9423]

Oh beautyfull poison tree..

[@Hellokitty-nd5en]

Let your power grow him me...

[@yacure]

Hey you. Yh, you! Dont know what you’re going through. I’m just a random person for you. Maybe we’ll never meet, maybe we will not knowing you have read my comment, maybe I live in the other side of the world for you, maybe I’m from your hometown. It doesn’t really matter, but the thing is.. I really hope you’ll be ok. I’m sure you’re much stronger then u think. I’m praying for you. For every single person who’s reading this

[@ApheleleZuma-d4n]

Thanks bro I needed that 😔

[@iNiMeg3]

thanks u pie

[@ayrinrinw]

oh beautiful poison tree

[@elysianaki]

Hey, future me. Im generally curious how we get our spark back. Find her soon, shes either hidden or destroyed. Maybe shes lost?. Please find her soon. Im so scared i feel like a complete loser. I dont wanna be in this place any longer and i dont wanna feel like im nothing but a nuisance over and over again. This feels so shitty. Please. Im begging you future me make something of yourself. Please. And please follow your heart and what YOU think. Stop letting people walk all over you. Its so bad man. And get your priorities straight, we might not have them now but promise me. Promise us i can trust me/we/us with my and our future. I dont want to regret anything i know myself wouldnt want to be doing. Remember ur a brave, amazing, beautiful person. Dont let people affect or change that. Hang on for a bit, ok.? PLEASE. BE STRONGER. IK YOULL BE.

[@bantz-ke1eq]

this song makes me feel bad about the past even though i dont mind what happened.. arghhh hard to explain it just makes me feel bad for nothing

[@NikolausChristensen]

Father is abusive and gone. Mother is dead. Been in and out of mental facilities and therapists. Diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, Depression and anxiety. 3 past suicide attempts and I’m only 19.

[@samarahsamrin400]

Hope ur ok❤

[@yamikatamika]

im so sorry, i wish i could say i understand.. but i cant even begin to. you deserve happiness. more than anything.

[@aaliyahcontreras9188]

I feel u i kinda get what ur saying that shi sucks sorry i just turned 20

[@ValerieRomero-iq9ox]

I just listen to this to go to sleep it’s soothing

[@JohannaAcevedo-q5i]

I know it’s getting worse when I want to cry so bad but my eyes are just dry from all the times I’ve cried nonstop.

[@J0s3eeeee]

I feel u I feel the same way we are all people I wonder many times why god let’s us go though so much pain and sadness

[@Whtam1lla]

THE poison tree,always growing never stopping until you change somethings about your life,even a little changes,like doing a long walk,maybe just laying on sofa reading a book..its always in little things..you can do it.

[@Yeni.97]

I've lost my self. I don’t know who i am.I'm confused soooo much. Am i kind or rude? People around me killing me day by day by Their words...

[@aubin1717]

that’s our anthem chat

[@makenadeuz6933]

Chat I’m done

[@AphroditeD.Pinedaa]

dont give up your strong and you should know it. people love you.

[@creepyunclesam7066]

I believe in u please don't give up

[@mrmario1844]

WE ALL GONNA DIE DONT HURRY JUST WAIT FOR THE END OF THE WORLD . ITS SOON

[@mrrepoo]

Chat is this real life?

[@Mearemellody_here]

Same.

[@fxtound_]

I’m done with always overthinking or believing in feelings. I just want to be myself but idk who I am. I just need to see my truth, who am I, what I wanted. The only thing that I have it’s that orange ball who make me forget everything. All the pain. All the problems.

[@yaso7357]

Chat I ain’t making it to 2025

[@iNiMeg3]

🤕🙏

[@Lamez.y]

Wdym..😨

[@RayRay-j8h]

HRU doing?

[@Kookie-f8w]

Everything feels like a dream.

[@poisonberry_xo]

"one day, darling. one day."

[@farah77bangtan]

I can’t take it anymore

[@adra-cp2df]

WHO POISEND THE DAMN TREE?

[@syk420zz]

me

[@yamikatamika]

LMFAO 😭😭

[@xtremeyoylecake]

I did 😈

[@SethPlays01]

Idk how much more I can take man 😕

[@k1ng638]

abafa minha mente, obrigado pelo som.

[@Its_KYBER]

Just tried to take an attempt, now my moms taking me to my sisters volleyball game without knowing what I just tried doing. I feel so bad for some reason.

[@iSeemToBeLost..]

Ya know what.. Dying to this wouldn’t be so bad (just sayin)

[@Iinoko-mj1rg]

and maybe, living wouldnt be so bad. maybe, one day, a day we all wait restlessly for.

[@Jk-cb3ow]

The feeling of this song is js a part of the past it makes me go deep into my past I feel like I’m 90yo but I’m js 15 and I can’t help myself going out this past I feel like this song is playing deep with every single feeling in my heart I hate everyone but the way I act and the way I show them how much I love them makes me feel am I crazy or what? I can’t move on from everything I’m dying inside my past no one can help me I’m dying inside my head I can’t do anything to solve this problem my life is done idk what to do

[@phynixx436]

we should totally disappear together i just turned 15 it started at 13 but im still here i wonder if im meant to feel older or i was meant to be this way it would be nice to talk to someone like me do you ever feel like your running out of time too? i keep calm but my thoughts dont help i want to listen to you if you dont mind ofc btw im a girl

[@Jk-cb3ow]

@ I feel empty everything started since I was 9yo that’s the hell for me I wanna go away and never look back I’m tired, I would love to and I’m girl too

[@phynixx436]

okay let's make a plan snacks blankets hmm what else is there lol

[@Jk-cb3ow]

@@phynixx436 wdym lil girl

[@phynixx436]

@@Jk-cb3ow huh? To disappear

[@memesved]

She was the one, really she was😢😣💔

[@downbadfreaky]

My one year of a relationship ended and it’s so hard to get over it, he was everything I wanted in a boy and he broke up with me. It hurt so much no words can explain. I’m in pain and every night I still remember that face I can’t enjoy life anymore bc of him. I’ve grown up in a very bad house hold and I never had friends or someone I can turn to. So why god, why are you putting all this pain on me and tease me?

[@minanothing2930]

The amount of hurt ppl in here is insanely painful :(

[@Lourxxes]

Im 12 almost 13 and i feel like hell if i felt loved i wouldnt do eveeything i do now i hate myself sm. i really wish i wasnt scared of death.

[@HaydenJones-uc3dg]

Chat i cant take it no more.

[@lylahhiuger]

love you. dont do it youll make me sad.

[@mrmario1844]

Every probleme has a solutoin . tell me whats your probleme IM HERE FOR YOU BRO

[@winwithrobert]

You got this! 💪💯💯💯

[@AnaSantos-y5s]

Eu fico pensando na minha vida quando escuto essa música, eu me sinto tão sozinho, a tristeza me consome cada vez mais , eu queria saber qual era ó gosto da felicidade ...😢

[@leilaniclark5067]

my brother is dating this girl named paige, and im dating paige's brother. just yesterday, me and kyler (my brother) both bought gifts for our partners, and later that day we were going to go over to their house. we did just that at 4, as we had bought the gifts at 11-1. our mom (whose name is brittany) had sent a message to paiges mom (caitlyn) asking if she could take a video, but she hadn't seen that message until after everyone opened the gifts. luckily, she had taken pictures, so she sent her those instead. brittany ended up getting angry, and started sending foul messages to caitlyn, in which she had obviously shot back. it was hours later, and we were coming home at 8. brittany and caitlyn were gonna fight, but brittany hadn't come outside, so it never happened, although caitlyn had threatened to come back. brittany started yelling at us, telling us that we should have taken videos. she grabbed a suitcase and told me to pack it. she wanted to go back to iowa, which is our hometown. (the only reason she asked me and me only is because im her favorite + i have a stepdad and stepbrother.) i refused and told her that this entire thing was stupid and that she needs to calm down. she kept persisting, and when i told her that i wasnt gonna go, she totally freaked out, throwing things and telling me that alex (my biological dad) didn't love me, and neither did she. she also told my brother that bree (his stepmother) didn't love him, and now she didn't love him, either. that shattered me, but my brother didn't seem to care, but i know that it hurt him, too. and the reason that hurt so bad was because i loved alex, and i love her so much. i dont love alex now, because he used to abuse my mother and killed my childhood dog, and that was another reason that hurt. she had no right to bring him up. im just in so much shock because this was over a video.

[@Katie-j6d]

5 months gone.

[@Vailer-w9w]

люблю подобную музыку она успокаивает в трудный момент

[@ElecticYemzi]

It’s gonna be okay chat

[@giovannasampaio1217]

Eu tô tão cansada..

[@Dudawk]

oh beautiful poison tree.. 3:58am

[@mik_2007]

Nobody tells you how draining it can be to have a mentally and emotionally Ill partner

[@yamikatamika]

it is very draining. i agree. but think of it like this.. you like the drink, lets say redbull. but you're trying to stop drinking it. but you love it, except you aren't a fan of caffeine. which is causing you to keep drinking the redbull. now, picture your partner as the drink itself. and picture their illness as the caffeine. your feelings are stuck on the partner(the drink), and not their illness(the caffeine), because you love your partner(the drink) so much you don't realize what their illness(the caffeine) is doing to you. its draining your health, draining your happiness, and draining you. but you can't get rid of the caffeine. you can't get rid of the illness. so you have to stop drinking it all together. don't you? you cant change people, all you can do is try. its impossible for you yourself to remove that caffeine from the redbull

[@mik_2007]

​@@yamikatamika Of course, I love him no matter what. I love him for him, so I look past his trauma.

[@yamikatamika]

@@mik_2007 thats a good trait of yours. keep it. but i gotta warn you, trauma can become the personality without notice. so i'll pray for you two :D

[@dc2yay]

Max: nugget bye 😞 Nugget: b-but why Jimmy: what is going on here? Nugget: idk Max: ...........😞 Jimmy: max? What's wrong?

[@samarahsamrin400]

Ya'Allah help me.

[@umniyahmustafa1]

Just gotta make it to Friday

[@zaukr]

Everyone says how life is short, I think it's too long...

[@unlucky_charms.67]

Whoever seing this i just want to say if u tryna commit dont it put those u know in pain talk to god or a therapist i tries to commit god stopped me im happy now god is always watching

[@Classyxclassyyy]

you have a purpose

[@GiuliaRajarathna]

"Maybe for you there's a tomorrow." Did you just stabbed me?

[@NotElaro]

I’m done with this shit ya’ll congratulations

[@Music.Industries2]

I dont think i can keep going

[@Theylovekeshawn]

pov you’re failing majority of your classes.

[@hallemiller-es1me]

Maybe for you there's a tomorrow....

[@curedddd]

i’m ending it

[@ВикторЛебедь]

Спасибо за это отличнейшее видео) Вы кстати не думали продвигать канал? есть же всякие ютифай и тому подобные, вашему каналу нужно будущее

[@Renise-y6l]

So,yall done Tchaly?💔

[@rosefavxfivex]

Guess what? I'm so done.

[@violetkonopka4435]

Chat I’m cooked

[@emilijaur]

i give up.

[@yasini-he1wu]

I want to give up..

[@poisonberry_xo]

dont. you're stong, keep going.. i believe in you.

[@farah77bangtan]

I’m lost…

[@Tobi_4L1-3ar]

0:31 😕 ....

[@iNiMeg3]

Ik im cooked when im here

[@Vee_Heart-i7m]

what if i just took that pill

[@eita5669]

Venho aqui mais do que gostaria.

[@Havanatiamarina]

You all are so special to me.

[@Idkbro1928]

I’m tired…

[@Wrtlt]

My death thoughts comes again (i’m cooked)

[@therealforex]

who am I

[@AyaAbdeljaouad-w3m]

😢

[@Mclaren.04]

Chat I give up I’ll be gone by tomorrow

[@stargirl607]

Be strong and take care of yourself

[@AvaKapuscinski-cd8ui]

I can’t with life I’m ending it

[@yamikatamika]

life is the first experience of living. why get rid of it when you could just fix it. even for just a little bit.. just a little bit

[@satan-e3u]

…

[@RaquelDosSantosLima-n3c]

Real

[@oliviadunn7680]

........ Help.

[@lylahhiuger]

this song has ruined me

[@oliviadunn7680]

HOW ITS LIKE THE EVER BEST SONG HOW COULD U. U MEANIE:-( 🤬💔

[@guildedcult]

​@@oliviadunn7680 I don't think that's what they meant calm down

[@guilhermemoreira...]

💀

[@elanne.f.a]

𖣂

[@RaquelDosSantosLima-n3c]

Real

[@ridiculouslypretty]

I give up.

[@amritharejisanthosh6254]

Dude, don't.