nyc vlog: a *realistic & chaotic* few days in my life living alone, getting productive & life chats

[@kimmhclouthier2594]

Sometimes life is so overwhelming, hang in there your perseverance will pay off. Both my daughters live in different cities alone and have called me multiple times in full on melt down mode. Don’t apologize for real feelings. Having a nonjudgmental ear to talk to helps. So I’m sending you a virtual Mom hug that’s what they always miss when in crisis.Take care.

[@lilajohnson4633]

I went through a very similar situation at the end of last year (end of long term relationship, health complications, trouble with my job, car problems, cross-country move, and visa issues all within a couple months) and it was such a comfort to hear you talk about your experience. Every single thing you mentioned was a thought I had then - and sometimes still have about my current state of life. Your emotions are valid and you're not alone in what you're going through, even when you feel lonely. I feel like I'm nearly through with all of it now but the only thing I can say is don't beat yourself up about getting upset or feeling bad! 💗

[@carolinaalves2843]

I am also 26 living in a big city away from home and I wanted to thank you for your videos, they really feel like talking to a friend and like there's other people out there going through the same things, feeling the same type of lost. It really makes a difference

[@richardottley4611]

Good morning.. everyone, Good morning Alexis, Good morning Bennett.. as I am watching this vlog at 4:09am Wednesday Morning. Have an awesome rest of your week everyone, much peace, love and blessings to you all 🙏

[@frombrisa]

One of the reason that I’ve been watching you for the past couple of months is becuase you are vocal about your heath anxiety and the whole thing. I was going through some weird bad mental health stuff when I found you and hearing you talk about your stuff made me feel less alone and made me feel like things do get better. They have for me and I’m hoping that everything else with you appointments and insurance get better cuz it really does suck. And I completely understand what you mean when you say that you can’t do anything else when you have such a big thing looming over you.

[@LuNaLoOn02]

I just love watching your videos you are so so real!!! Ive got this health anxiety as well so i know what your going thro and i don't feel so alone as well. Hope everything will work out for you i think your great!! I love Bennett hes adorable. Keep on posting videos and take care of yourself

[@laurahill2511]

Oh Alexis I just wanted to give you a hug when you were crying. I’m so sorry this is going on for you! You’re totally valid to be feeling like this - don’t feel like you need to apologise.

[@venusbucci4829]

Don’t worry everyone has really stressed and bad days, I have had them❤️ I know how you feel with your health, I went through a health scare with my heart a year later ,finding out I did have issues and got on meds they help a lot! Try not to get to stressed and they will figure out if there is a problem or hopefully not and you will get it under control ❤️

[@sarahb3606]

Awwww Alexis, please don't fret about getting upset and overwhelmed. Adulting is undeniably hard and we all have a bad run of it sometimes. Don't be hard on yourself for crying, I would have been freaking out trying to schedule that appointment. Hope your week gets better now. x

[@mycomplicatedlife2488]

Please never worry about talking about your life. No matter how “privileged” your life is, your troubles and anxieties are VALID. Never think they’re not. ❤

[@PumpkinSamm]

I relate to you so much Alexis! I really really appreciate your candor about the health anxiety, and I hope in talking about it in your vlogs you feel less alone. I'm 31 and extremely fortunate to have an amazing life and everything I've always wanted, much like yourself, but I also have health anxiety and have spiraled many times about mysterious health issues. I had to get a biopsy of my thyroid a few years ago (was your age) and was just a complete nervous wreck. I went to a piano concert with a friend during the week that I was waiting for the results and was crying and confiding in him about it and he treated me like I was insane! Which totally hurt and made me feel truly crazy. Luckily for me, everything turned out completely fine and not serious at all, and I'm thriving and FAR less anxious about things now than I was then. It's wonderful to remind yourself that things could be much worse and to be grateful for everything you have, but always remember that no matter how fortunate you are in life, things can still be really hard and exhausting and it's okay to be upset (I think you know this). I'm down in FL wishing you well, and hoping that you feel less alone when you read the comments!

[@ClaireSteber]

I’m so sorry Alexis! I have been thinking about you and sending you good vibes. The health care system sucks and you deserve better, but it will all be okay in the end!

[@Ann-cx3dd]

Hi, Alexis..... not sure if you like this suggestion, but here's my fave & easiest way to prepare chicken. You might like it because it's a time saver & you can get other things done in your home while it's cooking. And, you can meal prep this way, too..... here goes: 3 to 4 chicken breasts in a pyrex ( or whatever you can bake in ) Brush your chicken breasts with olive oil & a marinade / season the way you like ( if you brush the breasts w olive oil, it will hold in the juices/ tenderness of the chicken ) You can add baby carrots all around your chicken breasts or halved ruby red potatoes Black pepper & seasonings Put foil on top of your pyrex & put little holes in the foil so that it steams well Bake for 45 minutes at 425 Farenheit This will come out so juicy, tender & DELICIOUS! It makes a lot, but you can freeze what you can't eat & thaw when needed. Your apt will smell delicious while it bakes & you can get lots done while it's baking. This is why it's my favorite way to prepare chicken...... I put it in the oven, set the timer & walk away! Sometimes I prep it early on and then feel like I have dinner ready to go, just pop in the oven! Bon Apetite! Ann. : )

[@LSChestersMom]

Alexis, I am so very sorry this is happening... things will get better and better. This vlog is wonderful and we all adore you just as you are. Hug Bennett for me... he is a doll face. You have a wonderful channel. wonder me one of your honorary Aunties, always here to cheer you on! 50K any day!

[@NYCLifeandGlam]

I’m much older than you but I can definitely relate with feeling lonely. I’m blessed with a great support system but after my hubby passed and having to do everything on my own is frustrating! Life can be rough but thank you for showing us shit gets real and it’s ok to vlog about the not so good because that’s reality! Stay blessed!

[@phillipray4380]

My cat has a similar attitude. He likes to be nearby, but no contact unless it’s on his terms (he’s a former feral). Thanks for sharing with us.

[@rachaelp5482]

I'm so happy someone finally helped you! Don't apologize for your feelings, you are completely justified in your frustration.

[@DeannaRichards]

I feel what you’re saying about adjusting to not having a partner on SOOO many levels! And you are 100% allowed to complain about inconveniences in your life. On the plus side, you’ve been killing the game this year despite all of the madness! 🩷

[@lee58468]

I’ve been relating so much to your recent videos dealing with health issues. Some years are just really tough, and insurance is never fun to deal with (even if you get it through a traditional 9-5 job). I’m 25 and just had back surgery this year, and it felt like never ending appointments and payments and phone calls and feeling like I was the only person who cared about such a major surgery. But it does end! And this stress will be worth it to get the help you need. Thank you for always sharing with us! I love your videos and hope you will find more solutions soon!

[@parkerrose3590]

I was crying watching this video, I felt your pain and frustration. pray your test all come back negative. Life is so stressful. I don't remember the last time I felt true happiness.

[@alexiseldredge]

❤️❤️❤️

[@rebeccacartier153]

I also have a ferrel cat from nyc and for the first year I didn’t even think he liked me.. then gradually he would get closer to me and now it’s been almost three years and he is constantly by my side, in my lap, or laying next to me. Just give Bennett some time.

[@tflynn6175]

Thank you so much for sharing! I'm half a world away in Sweden, have been dealing with similar things (health scares, big moves, changes in work/school) and hearing you speak so candidly about your frustrations and feeling overwhelmed (especially dealing with 'grown-up' things like insurance) has made me feel so much less alone

[@tflynn6175]

And never apologise for a personal meltdown! They're exhausting and happen to us all, thank you for being vulnerable and sharing it with us!

[@cj-gunn]

I appreciate how real you are... don't ever change... good luck with the medical stuff I'm from Tasmania, Australia, so down at the bottom of the world... We're now in Spring

[@peggys1439]

You have every right to feel your feelings. No apologies. Sending you positive energy. ❤❤❤

[@BryantDevon]

oh wow! i want to give you the biggest hug! i’m sorry this year has been so tough but like you said, it’s preparing you for where you’re going!! sending you well wishes!

[@hiMadelynne]

❤❤❤ I actually needed this so much!! Your vlogs are so calming it really helps my anxiety. Thank you, thank you!

[@alexiseldredge]

i'm so glad! thanks for being here ❤️

[@amandaasr16]

I just came across your channel and instantly subscribed. First I am so sorry for everything you're going through its so unfair how awful the Healthcare system is. I am dealing with the exact same issues as you and have wanted to lose my mind everyday. I'm in nyc as well and it's like no one wants to help. Girl if I could knock on your door and have a girls night for the both of us I would. Thank you for the content you make and for keeping it real! It's so hard sometimes thinking you're going through things alone . Xo

[@millie8399]

I really enjoy your vlogs! I can't quit coffee either right now. It just tastes too good. Hope you feel better soon.

[@lizburrowschapin2871]

Alexis you are amazing and you HAVE been through SOOOO much this year. Please have FUN on your trip to Rhode Island

[@alexiseldredge]

thank you so much!

[@Cherurei1109]

I love the change of music after the intro! It gives a lot of vibrancy and energy

[@alexiseldredge]

thank you!!

[@Gaby-fh3nc]

I feel when you cry when talking about something and you really didn’t see it coming it can be your stress/ anxiety that’s been building. It’s our body/ emotions breaking down and a sign to slow down & take things easy 💖

[@alexiseldredge]

❤️❤️❤️

[@Swendt8328]

I will be turning 26 in January. Scary time but this will pass Alexis !:) you got this ❤ just think this is a small roadblock in your life and when you overcome it it will be so rewarding !! Keep your head up

[@michellegilliland6366]

I appreciate you for sharing everything that you are going through. It honestly makes me feel less alone. I am also going through a lot of medical issues. It’s a struggle. So I totally get it. 💕 I don’t feel like you are complaining at all.

[@Marianne-F]

So glad you finally got your appointment! I know what its like going through health scares. This year has been awful health scare wise for me. Starting to get over it now. Take moments to breathe. You got this girl. Hug from me ♥

[@JackieOstick]

Oh my gosh. That is so frustrating. So glad you got it scheduled!

[@alexiseldredge]

me too!

[@TangeniFX]

Be strong girl..i like the fact that you are real.

[@sgleinser]

Sending big hugs! ❤ I know how rough it is to feel both lucky and unlucky at the same time and struggle with things on your own. Hoping this hard time passes quickly.

[@lesshustlemorecoffee]

Aww I’m sorry you are having a tough time. I also bet you used to get comfort from your Grandma and maybe when you thought of her it made you miss her? And those emotions just find their way out. Thinking of you and praying for you that all is figured out. Love keeping up with you! I’m 60 and have a daughter about your age. So I think I can relate to you. I miss her. She’s in TX and I’m in TN! I wish she would vlog lol 😂 but we face time! Take care! Good luck with everything!

[@PHREYDUM40]

Malt Liquor is a great way to calm down just enough to stay calm

[@flemic28]

“My bi-annual pimple” - love it 😂!

[@rynteresting]

Hey girl, sometimes life just sucks, I totally get it. Take care of yourself and everything will be okay eventually. ❤

[@lynnhurst7365]

I'm so happy for you because getting an appointment for any procedure is hard. Sending love and hugs to you and Bennett from Rhode Island

[@alexiseldredge]

thank you!

[@shellyhalacy3777]

Alexis I have seen a ton of ads for "mushroom coffee" I haven't tried it but it has alot of health claims both physical and mental, it may be worth trying for you. Girl you have had a terrible year and this momma's heart is feeling for you! Sending you big hugs! Sometimes life is definitely a struggle but you've got this!

[@etrue9089]

Hi Alexis! I feel like your skin issue occurs often after you've had alcohol. You may have an intolerance to alcohol. Kinda takes some of the fun out of night life but maybe would be good to eliminate for a bit to see if your skin clears up. Just an idea! Whatever the issue is I hope you figure it out soon 😊

[@ColePhillips]

you will get thru it hun and we will be here for you always. adulting is so hard and it sometimes wont get easier, especially dealing with insurance and health scares .. what a nightmare. but jus remember to breathe and always cry when u need to. ♥️♥️

[@rebekah7671]

I completely understand what you mean about not having that "person" there all the time. I broke up with my long term partner in 2018, and moved straight to Thailand by myself for three years. Honestly, it gets easier, and the longer you are single the longer you develop that independence.

[@LuisaTona]

Ahh completely get how you're feeling about your health, age etc! I'm 26 and have been really struggling with my health and no answers. You're allowed to feel upset and frustrated. Sending love ❤

[@zoehaynes8219]

Tip for your Drain: instead of Draino…there’s a little hair catcher with a crank and….It’s called a Drain Weasel!! It’s worked really well for me

[@richardottley4611]

ooooh love to the new nail color 💅😊

[@noradedios7639]

We’re here to just listen to you. Have fun in Rhodesia Island! 😊

[@lauren6585]

Definitely prefer the everyday regular day in the life videos that are realistic. That’s why I like this channel. The vlog channels that are unrealistic or overly edited and scripted I can’t stand.

[@JustSheik]

I agree!

[@edwardleecaliforniausa]

Good morning Alexis happy Wednesday morning and I loved your vlogs and you are amazing Supporter and I'm proud of you

[@JustSheik]

Praying for you Alexis! This will pass. ❤

[@suelyons531]

The Cervae Foaming face wash has cetearyle alcohol in it which is drying to some people. Mikayla (TT beauty guru with 14 million) says to never use their foaming face wash. Anyway, food for thought. I can relate to arranging medical crap. It's the worst but it's also relatable which is why people are drawn to you and Bennett!

[@monicagomes5823]

Oiê 😄 passa essa receita do café gelado? Você já deixa o café pronto na geladeira?

[@Billy33753]

Wishing you a good week

[@laurenkerr2701]

Hi Alexis! My friend has an allergy to alcohol (in skincare) so maybe look if those two products have it and not anything else?

[@ayami7719]

Sending all the love and hug🫶🏼

[@isadewdew]

This vlog is very relatable, so thanks for posting this, we're not alone in this 😅. I had a rash similar to yours as well, turned out to be Perioral Dermatitis and my trigger is Fluoride toothpaste. It's very frustrating, i hope you can figure out soon!

[@leeanndelk1513]

Sulfates- foaming cleanser, toothpaste etc. try to find products without sulfates.

[@alexiseldredge]

yes i have changed my toothpaste as well!

[@franzo13579]

Yesssss avoid SLS at all costs

[@ervinsmoviecorner8748]

A very nice one, Alexis!❤

[@richardottley4611]

Wow.. you really been through a lot this year.. sending hugs, prayers & good vibes to yah🫂🤗🙏

[@deborahroot4912]

Alexis I’m so sorry you’re going through this! His Bennett, it will help and he loves you! I was told, 3/31 after receiving the results of a blood test, by my doctor to rush to the ER. My husband and son (18) were both in VA - I’m in NJ. After more than 6 hours I was admitted with bilateral pulmonary embolisms and was all alone. I really hope things get much better for you very soon!

[@hilsbeasley539]

Never apologise when life goes to pot, we all go through that. Sending love and hugs. xxx

[@mansoor3159]

Alexis what a incredible incredible vlog and I truly truly enjoyed watching today's vlog so so much you are my inspiration and I wish you have a best day ahead 💫🤗💖

[@justauryon]

Good on you for not using Draino! Lived in a building a while back, upstairs neighbor constantly used it, & eventually the ceiling in my bathroom ended up leaking. The ceiling above the tub had to be torn out & I was without a bathroom for a couple of weeks. All because this neighbor used that stuff instead of calling maintenance to handle the clogged drain. 🤦🏻‍♀️

[@alexiseldredge]

stories like this are what make me nervous!

[@Gshadow1000]

3:01 - 3:08: Rest In Power, DJ Casper. 🙏🏾❤

[@jethor4561]

Did they test for dust mites? That is my trigger for perioral dermatitis. Once it's triggered, then many many things become a trigger (fluoride in toothpaste, for one! And most face products). Keep on pushing- You are doing great! ❤

[@yvettehatrak787]

You nailed - welcome to Adulthood! Be careful what your mind and emotions put out there - they will truly manifest themselves in real, physical ways in our bodies and life.

[@_bebeboudeur_]

The beer holding contest, this is what my dance teacher trained me for, the arms work out ! Wait, you don't have toilets in your trains? whyy Being 26yo sucks, i agree - for all the paperworks etc You have the right to be pissed off, don't worry about venting, we all do it at some point I have the same issue with friends, they're all doing their own stuff and it's hard for me to go to events alone, so i have fomo when i see fun stuff happening I too, am a 27yo teenage girl listening to olivia rodrigo's discography It's the fact that the subtitles said Batman instead of Bennett for me

[@caseified]

It will be ok! All of this yucka-mucka is going to go away before you know it and things will be great. Telling myself the same as it has been one thing after another.. It has to turn around at some point. BTW, so glad you got your appt scheduled. I was about to say, lets be BFFs and I will call those people for you. Lol. Hate to see you sad, but also.. so relatable. Thanks for sharing. ❤

[@itscarolinemary]

😢😂 omg I feel so bad for you with being on hold and the CVS fiasco.. what the heck. what a horrible day ❤ these situations suck but it will make you stronger and independent in the long run. It’s tough adulting on your own. Sending love and my best wishes!

[@veeoh6493]

I think you should look into getting a food tolerance test, you may not be allergic to gluten or dairy or something but you could still be intolerant, which causes inflammation in the body and leads to auto immune disorders. Even if you don't get stomach issues from certain foods, it could still be causing inflammation that shows up in different ways.

[@SamanthaNSimmons]

I know all about insurance issues babe! I have an autoimmune disease and I switched insurance last year and they denied the drug I had been taking for YEARS. Thankfully the company has a program where I was still able to get it, but it took months of back and forth phone calls to get it sorted! Hoping the best for you! ❤

[@cokedclassic7627]

It IS a lot! ❤

[@cait4698]

Maybe try swatching the foaming cleanser behind your ear or somewhere near your face (since it’s more sensitive than the rest of your skin) to see if it flares up. Then you’ll know for sure if it’s part of the problem. Also isn’t the foaming one an acne cleanser? You might be sensitive to the acids in it

[@jaxlaj2272]

Hey, maybe try seeing a naturopath since you’re not getting answers with traditional doctors. Also you should keep a journal of everything you eat, and any products you put on your face and then when you get flare ups. You may find a pattern. Also my husband has an autoimmune disease and he flares with any stress!!!! Stress is the number one thing with autoimmune diseases.

[@Finding-dori]

To be more relaxed -- Try cutting down on the caffeine 😊

[@RebeccaABeaudoin]

When you initially when “full-time” influencing you said it was only going to be for a trial.… So are you gonna get a 9-to-5 again or are you staying put in this limbo space?

[@CaitlinJessicaS]

Hey Alexis :) Is it possible that alcohol or at least certain types of alcohol is what you are reacting to? I have never been allergic until a few years ago I was having reactions to it.

[@LivingTheJournalLife]

It's ok to be upset when things are hard. Just because it could be worse or someone has it worse doesn't mean you can't feel annoyed by what is happening.

[@BethMJones]

Trains are fun. I have that same cat toy but my 2 cats don’t play with it any more, lol. It sounds like the rash is related to skin products (your friend’s that you used this time). What did the allergy Dr say? Our daughter Leah tried & liked the Apple cold drink at Starbucks. You might like that since you like the Apple Greek yogurt-though I know you love your Dunkins coffee! 😊❤ I do the same thing about coffee & wind up going out & buying it…though I do make it at home sometimes. I’ve been trying decaf more. You don’t have to apologize about panicking. It’s understandable about the stress especially with all the stupid phone calls, waiting, insurance change, etc. Praying peace for you & a good report with your biopsy. I loved seeing NY in the rain. I enjoy seeing different parts of your city (I live in KC, Missouri). Do you ever take Ubers or Lyfts? That’s a lot of walking! That bagel sounds amazing & with the coffee! Yes, sing, Alexis-you have such a pretty voice.

[@chi2om]

Welp this will be me next year. Turned 25 a few weeks ago, senior year in grad school. I move to Jersey City from Houston to start my corporate 9-5. Never lived alone before. Feel broke, young and out-of-depth but at least we’re learning right 😭

[@anthonyl.cawthornesr.7226]

Alexis very nice vlog 😊

[@richardottley4611]

Free Beer?? haha 😂🍻 mann I love Oktober Fest lol

[@debrahavens4826]

Hi Alexis I know how you feel . Basically going through the same shit. If I had any luck I have no luck at all. Hang in the girl.

[@egl3369]

I had a similar rash (perioral dermatitis). Low dose doxycycline was the only thing that got rid of it. The healthcare system is a nightmare at times! I get frustrated too. Things frequently seem to always go wrong, or there is a mistake, clerical error etc. I We are all in this together :)

[@patgraceffa9984]

I rhink your grandma was telling you she is with you and going to help you through all of this. You are so amazing. ❤

[@alexiseldredge]

❤️

[@benwrex6280]

I have fully cried at a pharmacy before, it super sucks, I'm so sorry

[@benjaminwagner8141]

Never been this early to a vlog

[@alexiseldredge]

glad you are here!!

[@a_riv]

Girl, I had this allergic reaction all over my body. I went to the allergist which did a chemical back test and I couldn't shower got a couple days and guess what? Allergic to nothing. I feel your pain, it eventually just went away on its own. I hope you find some answers!

[@heavenlymorsels]

Alexis please don’t apologize adulting is hard af and it’s hard to prepare for that! Am wondering if you should do a food journal? And cross it with skin reaction. You had beer 🍺 then bam full blown reaction. All of my tests have come back negative for gluten allergies but I can not have gluten and dairy. Listen to your body it’s trying to tell you something! Big life changes like you have been thru this year can trigger sensitivity to stuff/foods❤😊sending love and hugs.

[@RebeccaABeaudoin]

100% chaotic! Can’t tell if i love or hate this for you hahaha

[@franzo13579]

As a German this Oktoberfest is hilarious

[@LiviBurke]

I’m so sorry you’re dealing with this. You’re definitely not alone. The American healthcare system is such a mess. I’ve also cried in cvs when I moved to a new state and my psychiatrist sent my prescription to a new cvs . I ended up going to the wrong one and had to get on the train again when it was crowded. It was a whole thing.

[@alexiseldredge]

it can be so frustrating!

[@itscarolinemary]

Man, the medical system there sounds like such a headache 🥲💕 I’m so sorry. I hope everything works out!

[@anthonyl.cawthornesr.7226]

Alexis I'm so sorry you have to deal with all this know you have support 😊

[@ginawelsh2131]

❤... washer at yourfriends house where you will be staying?

[@tpears6934]

Bless you I am watching your video and much older than you but don't apologise for being annoyed you are allowed when these things happen and shitty. X

[@jazwilliams-eldridge1703]

Is ther not bathroom on the train

[@alexiseldredge]

it was out of order